anything goes with emma chamberlain - basic isn't bad

Episode Date: January 9, 2021

Emma is back in the new year discussing her new found obsession with cooking, her recent experiences with therapy, and a few important life lessons she’s learned. Plus, why we shouldn’t rely on people in our lives, how do we define relationships, and are we getting a hair change soon? Learn more about your ad choices. Visit podcastchoices.com/adchoices

Hi guys, welcome back to anything goes. I'm Emma Chamberlain. How are you doing today? I hope you're doing well. I'm gonna be honest with you guys. I've recorded this episode three times and it's been different every time but for some reason I just can't get it right. I'll get halfway through and stop. I'll get all the way through. We'll edit it and then stop. I'll get all the way through. We'll edit it and then stop. It's like, it's just not working for me today and yesterday and the day before that and the day before that. And I don't really know what's wrong,

but I'm also not worried about it because this is very normal. With anything, sometimes you're going to have a moment where shit just isn't working. Like sometimes shit just doesn't work. And it seems that even though it's 2021 now and we're in a new year, shit is still continuously hitting the fan. I think subconsciously a lot of us were expecting the new year to bring some level of peace. And unfortunately it hasn't really been that way. And I know a lot of people have been very anxious the last few days if you're listening to this when it comes out. And I think I've also been on my phone too much. I talk about this every episode, my phone usage.

Literally, main topic of this podcast is how much I've been using my phone. It's like, have I been using it too much? Am I, have I been off it for a while? It comes up at least once an episode. I've been on it much far too much. My screen time is up, 150% and I am not proud of it. Yeah, it's, I mean, it's easy. It's safe to say I've been a little bit scatterbrained.

And I think a lot of people can relate. I have absolutely no motivation to do anything right now. And it's really hard for me to work. I just wanna lay in bed all day and do nothing. It's been tough. And it's weird, cause it just like came onto me, all of a sudden. And it's like literally one week. I will be like, I am thriving, Queens.

Nothing can tear me down and then 48 hours later. I'm like, yeah, what the fuck? So that just shows how life is like that whatever worst day I Talk about this at least once an episode we get it. I'm a shut up. Okay. I know Let's talk about some more important matters. Number one, I watched a documentary last night that you all need to watch. It's on Netflix. It's called Don't Fuck With Cats. It's one of the most interesting murder mysteries, but solved mysteries that I've ever

watched. It was insane. I don't know if people are talking about it a lot or not, but I am shocked at how good it was. Also, Loki, the editing in it was super funny, but like it was also a serious and fucked up documentary, but it was like kind of weirdly funny. It was so good, guys. It's true. It's based off a true story. Well, it isn't based off a true story, it is a true story. And it's one of the most interesting and entertaining and unique murder mysteries that I've ever watched.

And it will just suck you right in. So if you're feeling like me and you just want to sit in your bed and watch TV on your computer or on your TV TV watch this show, documentary, whatever. It's so good. Yes, I did just take a sip of water, which is weird, because I literally never drink water.

I drink coffee and La Croix, which is water, but it doesn't feel like it is. And that's all I usually drink. But I've been trying to drink more water because I have a really bad stomach pain and I'm trying to find any remedy for it that I can. So drinking water will have to suffice as a treatment for now

because I'm too lazy to go to the doctor and I think I just have gas. I don't think I actually have a stomach. Well, I might I honestly think I have IBS, but that's a story of well, I kind of yeah, there's something wrong. Like there's definitely something wrong, but anyway. So recently I have gotten into cooking and let me tell you this shit is life changing. Picture this. I turn on music specifically indie music from the 90s. Not the 90s music that you would think of immediately when you think of 90s music, not like the pop 90s music, I'm talking about

a little bit underground. I turn that shit on, I leave my phone upstairs, I go downstairs, I cook myself a delicious, healthy, fun meal from scratch, And I feel like the main character, period. It's unreal. I can't believe I didn't start cooking sooner. This shit is unbelievable. Literally, I don't call my phone for hours because I'm, you know, deep into cooking with my hands all dirty. I got shallots and garlick all over my hands.

There's no way to touch my phone anyway, not to mention it's all the way upstairs. So I'm not touching it anyway. Phone is away. Music is blazing. Everything is time sensitive. You have no time to think about anything except for the home cooked meal from scratch that

you're cooking. That's all you can think about in those moments. It's there's so much serotonin to be released from cooking. I've been literally loving it. I cooked soup, vegetables. You name it. I've been cooking it. And it's been unbelievable.

Cooking from scratch is also key, because it's just a longer process and it actually tastes better than buying like a pre-made sauce or pre-cut shit. Like it's, there's something so satisfying about mixing all the ingredients together yourself from scratch. Everything just tastes more fresh. It's fucking unbelievable, guys.

Get into cooking, this is your sign. The only problem is that you're gonna smell like food for the next 24 hours after you cook. And if you're like me and you cook every day now, you're gonna constantly smell like the back of a pizza hut. I literally gave somebody a hug the other day and they were like, oh, your hair smells like food

and I was like, fuck. God dammit. But you know what, I'm okay with smelling like a cutting board at Applebee's. If that means that I have a hobby that gets me off my phone, period. I will do anything to get me off my phone, because I am addicted to it,

and if I don't have a distraction, I will lay in bed all day and go on it. I'll be productive for half the day and be on my phone for the other half, like I wasn't productive for the first half of the day. I have really distract myself. We're all so I just go on my phone all day Really and it's I'm not proud of it at all. I feel like shit about it I'm really trying to get into more things like I'm trying to get back into running Because that's a really good distraction

The cooking thing has been helping obviously I've been trying to play drums The cooking thing has been helping. Obviously, I've been trying to play drums. Shit like that, but I mean, at the end of the day, I'm addicted to my damn phone. And the hobby thing is helping, but it's still tough. Because it's like, yeah, you cook for two hours,

but then if you have nothing else to do after that, then you just go back on your phone. I don't know. Another topic of discussion. Another thing to talk about is therapy. Kind of jumping from one thing to the next year. But you guys might know, if you listen to my last episode, that I decided to try to go to therapy religiously,

AKA every week. I have been struggling with anxiety, really bad, and I've talked to a therapist before, on and off for whenever I have a really bad, depressive episode, I'll talk to a therapist, but it never lasts more than like two weeks, and then I'm usually done, and then I call them back later when I need them. But I decided, you know, my anxiety is like making my life miserable, to a certain extent,

I really should try to figure out a way to make it easier, you know what I mean? And so I found a new therapist, because I was like, fuck it, I'll try a new therapist, like whatever. I had one session, it was an hour long, and to be honest, I really don't like it. I didn't really mesh well, I don't think with this therapist. And it's interesting because I've talked to a therapist

before and the other therapists that I used to talk to and still do here and there. I feel like I have a better connection with them. But I just wanted to try a new therapist just because I was like, I don't know, like, why not? And I had a record, somebody recommended me a therapist. And I just don't think it was a good match maybe, or maybe I need to go to more sessions for us to like click,

but something about it felt off, and I couldn't put a finger on it. And I'm not gonna lie, I was very discouraged because, you know, I am struggling with this anxiety, I would love some relief, and I have had a past with therapy where like it's just, I'm kind of traumatized by therapy. I used to go every week as a kid after my parents got divorced and that just traumatized me. Made me never want to go again.

And I like, you know, decided, okay, I'm gonna open up and try to go again. And it's just like, didn't feel right. It felt kind of transactional. And I felt like the advice that I was given was so not anything that I hadn't thought about before on my own. The other thing is that I'm such an open book with everybody around me. I'll tell anybody in my life that I'm close with about my problems and I don't hold back. I'm not somebody who bottles up my feelings. I'll share shit with anybody if I feel safe with them.

Because I love to hear other people's perspective, other people's life experience, stuff like that. And then I can form my own opinion from there. But I almost prefer that over maybe a therapist because people in my life know me so well that they can give me curated advice. Whereas, and that could be good or bad though, because sometimes getting curated advice might not be good, where a therapist is gonna come in and be a little bit less biased,

which could be good. I don't know, I just don't feel like it's gonna work for me. And I also don't feel like I really wanna go back again and do it again. Like I, it felt pointless to me because I already talk about everything and I'm already actively working through everything

that I'm aware of that I'm struggling with. I'm just, I'm such an open book that I wonder if this is something that's gonna work for me. And maybe it was just the wrong therapist. Maybe it's just the wrong time in my life. I don't know, but it just didn't click. So I'm gonna keep trying, but I definitely was discouraged. But I do wanna disclaim that I completely believe in therapy.

I think therapy is very important. My personal experience has nothing to do with anybody else's. And so many people have benefited greatly from therapy and I absolutely recommend everybody try it and try to make it work because I think that talking about your feelings is so fucking important and it's one of the most important things that you can do for yourself. And I would say don't get discouraged if one therapist doesn't work, you'll probably find one that works.

Although I am feeling discouraged right now and feeling like it might not just, it just might not work for me, which might be the case. But I think regardless of if you have a therapist or not, you need to have somebody that you can vent to in your life. You need to have somebody that you can tell everything to and get everything off your chest too. And whether that's your family, your friends, or a therapist, make sure that you have that in your life because you deserve that.

And life is so much better when you're not going through it alone and when you have people to lean on and people to give you opinions and advice, it's so important. And I always encourage everybody in my life to find some sort of outlet to get their feelings out. You can't bottle shit up, that'll ruin your damn life. So, yes therapy might not have worked for me first round, but I'm gonna keep on damn trying. So I'll keep you guys updated on that.

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this week, and I thought I would share. Number one is that I feel like there's been this whole thing about hating on things that are basic or judging people that are, quote unquote, basic. And I want that to end. And let me explain why. Actually, before I get into it, let me talk about what basic means. Basic means wearing things that are maybe not fashionable and are maybe just kind of bland,

like maybe dressing kind of bland, like wearing things like, I'll use what I used to wear in middle school as an example, this was considered basic in middle school. It was, Ugg boots, leggings, and a North-Ace jacket. Now I would say basic would probably be, I don't know, what do people consider basic?

Like leggings and like Air Force ones with like a hoodie. That's considered basic, or as for music, anything on the radio that's super popular is considered basic. Like super popular songs, like huge music artists, like Taylor Swift or like Ed Sheeran, like shit like that, like that's considered basic technically. In the eyes of people on TikTok and Instagram, and in my generation in general, those are the things that are considered basic.

And I think the things that are basic tend to get a bad rap, rap, rap, whatever. I used to be this way. My early teen years, I wanted to be basic. That was what I wanted to do. I wanted to like what everybody else liked because everybody else liked them, not because I necessarily liked these things.

Some things yes, some things no. But I tended to like, or lean towards more basic things because, well, the reason why they're considered basic is because everybody else liked them and I wanted to fit in. Then I got older and I started to rebel and I was like, fuck this, I don't want to be basic anymore. I'm going to start wearing clothes that are maybe considered less basic and I'm going to start listening to music that's a little bit less basic.

And that became my identity in a sense and I think it is for a lot of people when they are like, I want to be like a, I want to be different, I want to be unique. I think that's a great thing because I think that, you know, it can be toxic to only enjoy mainstream say things because everybody else enjoys them. I think that that's not necessarily good because then you don't form your own identity. But I also think that being on the other far side of it and being obsessed with being unique

and being obsessed with standing out and not being like everybody else is also toxic. I think it's equally as toxic and I think that there's a middle ground. And the middle ground is just liking what you like. No matter if it's basic, no matter if it's super different and unique and nobody's ever seen anything like it before. I don't think that there needs to be this negative stigma around either thing.

If you want to listen to pop music, because you like it, listen to pop music. If you want to listen to indie music, listen to the fucking indie music. If you want to wear, you know, crazy vintage loafers that you found at a thrift store that probably nobody has worn since the 1950s because you think it looks unique and different and cool, fucking do it. But if you want to wear Air Force ones, even though probably 99% of the population has Air Force ones in the United States, specifically, then sure. That's definitely an awful and not true statistic, but I think a lot of people have those shoes. I think it should be more about what you like and what you don't like and what makes you happy. Like, I remember there was a...

Um... There was a pop song a few months ago. I think it was Shawn Mendes and Camila Cabello. It was fucking senior Eta, I think. That's a song that I feel like people would consider basic. It was super popular. Everybody loved it. It was very mainstream.

I turned that shit on in the car and bump, okay? Yeah, it might be considered basic, but I fucking enjoyed it. But then I may go home and listen to a song that has 200,000 streams on Spotify, which may be considered more of like an indie song. And I'll love that just the same, but I choose what I wanna do because I like it. If somebody wants to dress in an outfit that's considered basic because that makes them happy, they should be able to do that comfortably and happily.

I just don't think there needs to be this negative stigma around any of that shit. And so that's the thing I realized this week. And it's because I saw this TikTok of this girl and she was like, y'all, I dress basic quote unquote, but I love it. Like I love it. I'm comfortable. I feel cute.

And like, what's so bad about that? And I was like, you know what? You're so fucking right. There is nothing wrong with it. And there's nothing wrong with liking things that everybody else likes. And vice versa. Don't judge other people for what they like.

Life is too fucking short. Who cares? Spend that time finding out what you like. God dammit. Another thing I realize this week is that you do not need anybody in your life. This sounds so obvious, but I tend to really attach myself to like a solid three or four people in my life at once, usually two, well, always two of them being my parents.

So there's that. But I will tend to like cling to other people in my life too. I don't know if I'm dating somebody or whoever my best friend is at the time, whatever. And I tend to freak myself out about what would happen if they weren't in my life anymore for whatever reason. If something happened to them, if the relationship doesn't work out, or the relationship fizzles, or maybe with my parents, we grow apart in a way.

And I constantly, that's almost my biggest fear, I think, is losing people that I care about a lot. And I've talked about this a decent amount, but I realize this week that I really only need myself. I'd be fine. I'll touch more specifically on people that aren't family because I think family's kind of different. So let's exclude my mom and my dad from this,

because although I'm very emotionally attached to them and very dependent on them in some ways, I'm going to exclude them from this because this is more about friendships or relationships. You don't need a friend. You don't need a significant other. You should wake up every day and choose to have those people in your life and recognize that you want them in your life. And that's totally

normal, fine, and healthy. And you can recognize that if they weren't in your life, it would be awful. But you can't, you have to learn how to convince yourself that you don't need them. And I've spent the past week really focusing on this. And just remembering that I don't need anybody as much as I love them and as much as I would literally be so heartbroken if these people that I love so much weren't in my life, I know I would be fine without them. And guess what? That makes me a better friend, that makes me better

when I'm in a relationship, et cetera. It makes me better in those things because I know deep down that I don't need them and it forces me to enjoy every moment with them, like it could be the last in a way, but also as if with this light-heartedness, I can be around these people with a sense of lightness, light meaning like metaphorical weight on your back.

Like I feel light when I'm around people and I don't feel like I need them, but I'm choosing to have them in my life and I want them there. There's something so calming about that feeling. And I think it attracts people as well. And it's so hard to look in the mirror and be like, I don't need anybody else. I could figure this shit out without all the people in my life right now, I could figure it out. I'm not saying it would be easy,

but I could fucking figure it out and I'd be fine and I'd make it work and my life would still be a great life. It's such a hard thing to realize and I'm still struggling with it every day, trying to remember that I wouldn't die without these people. Sorry, I just farted. And yeah, I mean, that's just something I've been really chewing on is just remembering that you can't need anybody in your life.

You should never look at any kind of relationship in your life, friendship, romantic relationship, whatever, as a need. You can't. You can't. It'll ruin your life and it'll ruin the relationship too. In moments when I feel really dependent on people in my life and I'm like, fuck, like I need this person. Like they're one of the only streams of happiness from me right now.

I'm like, okay, I, Emma, you need a damn reset because that's not right. You can't look at it like that. And it'll even ruin a hangout. Like, let's say I'm hanging out with my friend. The vibes will be off because I'm putting all this pressure, subconsciously on them,

to reassure me because I feel like I need them. And I it's so bizarre, but long story short, convince yourself that you don't need anybody and your life will improve immensely. Another thing I've been thinking about is if you guys are on some sort of creative endeavor in any way, whatever that may be, whether you're learning how to play an instrument or you're learning how to edit YouTube videos whatever it may be, if you're struggling with it and you're feeling fatigued by it and you're feeling like you're not enjoying it anymore and you feel like

it's just not going smoothly, put it down and walk away for an hour. Even if it's homework, it could even be homework. Some sort of assignment. And it's just like not clicking. Walk away for an hour. I swear to God, I will be trying to learn a new drum beat because now I'm a fucking drummer. No, I'm not. But like, I have a drum set in my room and I'm trying to learn how to play drums. If I'm trying to learn a new drum beat, I will literally sit there for an hour trying to figure it out.

And I'll get so fucking frustrated. Like, so mad, like, I'm talking about literally screaming. Like I will literally get so mad, I'll be screaming in my room. And I'll just get so mad and I'm like, fuck this, I don't even wanna do this ever again. I'll walk away for an hour and I'll come back and I'll sit down and I'll try it for another five minutes and I'll get it every time, not every time,

but most times. Sometimes you just need to step away from things and I feel like people don't realize that. When I used to do homework, if I'd be working on homework and I was just like, I can't do this anymore, like it's not working, like it's just not fucking working. I'd walk away, I'd come back an hour later

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That's 20% off anything when you shop better hydration today using promo code anything at liquidiv.com. Okay, here's another thing we need to talk about. Those were my life lessons of the week. God only knows how corny they were. I don't even want to know. And I can't believe that I'm turning into a... What am I turning into?

I'm turning into some sort of preachy bitch. Whatever, if that is what the universe is calling me to do, I am here to do that. Another thing I need to talk about, it's a lot more mundane is the fact that I am dying my hair. I have been blonde for over six months and it's been amazing. I love being blonde. I love how it looks. I Even like it when the roots start to grow out.

I have like light brown hair, dirty blonde hair. It's kind of like light brown. I have like light brown hair. And even when the roots grow and I love it, I love being a platinum blonde. It is my passion. But nobody told me how difficult it was going to be. Okay, my hair is destroyed, destroyed.

When I sit on a couch, I will get up and my hair will look like a bird's nest. My hair tangles so incredibly easily. It is absurd. Literally, like my hair just turns into like, okay, how do I explain this? It's so dry that it just clings to itself in a way that is so sad and uncomfortable. And my hair is so unhealthy that even if I cut it to a bob

to my shoulders, it would still have dead ends. Like, this shit is out of control. I, for some reason in Instagram photos, it doesn't look that bad. And even on camera, it doesn't look that bad. But in person, if you touch touch it it feels so incredibly dry and there it's to a point where no products can even save it anymore. I was using some amazing products before in my hair they were helping to keep it soft and smooth. It's now so dead that like there's no going back. Not to mention, my hair kind of tends to turn yellow

a few weeks after I die at every time and that's kind of not the color that I signed up for. I kind of want to be more white blonde. Like I want my hair to be as light as possible and it never really quite gets there When I first get it done it'll be closer to the icy snowy white color kind of that I want and then by two a sin my hair looks like

Spaghetti It's a nightmare. So I'm dying my hair. I'm not gonna tell you what color because I don't even know the answer to that yet. But let me tell you, if you wanna bleach your hair, think twice and here's why. Because my hair is now going to be damaged like this. At least for the next year. And was it worth it?

Yes. But I'm pretty sad about it. So my thing is, just be careful and know what you're getting yourself into. It's not all sunshine and rainbows. You're gonna be dealing with dead hair inevitably. If you bleach it enough times, it you will inevitably kill your hair. So that's something that we need to think about.

Now I'm gonna head to the Twitter and see what you guys want me to talk about today. Somebody said, do you believe in destiny? The whole concept that our journey in life is pre-written. What are your thoughts on that? My thoughts on that to be honest are that I don't know, but I've always,

I would say no, I do not think that things are pre-written, but I do think that everything is, and this seems obvious, but I'm going to say it anyway, I feel like things are very much a chain reaction. And I don't think that things are pre-written. I think that things, everything that happens is a product of something else that you've done in your life. Does that make sense? Like, if I didn't transfer to the middle school that I transferred to, I wouldn't have gone to the high school that I ended up going to. And if I wouldn't have gone to that high school that I ended up going to.

And if I wouldn't have gone to that high school, I don't know if I would have started my YouTube channel because that high school made me very depressed and I don't think I would have been depressed if I was at another school. I think that school brought out something in me that I wouldn't have been brought out otherwise because it was a private all-girl school and I just think that was not a good fit for me. Whether I liked it or not, because I did actually want to go to that school, but it ended up not being a good fit, but whatever.

But I don't think I would have gotten as depressed as I did if I wouldn't have went to that school. That's all because I made the decision to go to a different middle school. And me going to that middle school made me want to go to that high school specifically, because a lot of my friends were going there and it was a good school in a similar area to where I went to middle school. Do you see what I'm saying?

I feel like everything is a chain reaction rather than pre-written. But I also am so not opposed to any idea of how shit works. I don't know what happens after we die. I don't know what kind of after we die, I don't know what kind of, you know, I don't know. And I don't need to know. I'm fine with not knowing. I have no issue with not knowing how the world really works because nobody actually knows. I'm totally fine with that and I have no issue with it. Somebody said, how do I be more affectionate with my words? I'm horrible at giving praise to my friends and I really want to know how because I know they will appreciate it. I, okay, this is something I got better at this year. I've always been fine with giving praise to my friends.

I feel like that's always come pretty natural to me. But in relationships, no. I used to never give, like I, no. I used to never give, no wonder, okay, see, this is something that I've never been one to be in a relationship and to give my boyfriend a compliment. Even if I'm thinking it, I just never, I've been one to do it.

And it could be because I've never, I had dated many guys and none of them had ever given me a lot of compliments. Really, I mean, shirt, like yeah, but not enough where I felt like my lack of compliments were out of line, but I've experienced a relationship where I was receiving compliments a lot and I was like, wait, this makes me feel so good. And I love a reassuring this is,

and I think I need to do this too. And I think that that's kind of what you're feeling right now. And here's how I learned how to do it. And here's how I learned how to do it. Basically, you're subconsciously complimenting people in your head all the time. Subconsciously, you're like, wow, I really like that person's shirt. Wow, I really like that person's sunglasses.

Wow, this person is really glowing today. Their skin just looks amazing, something like that. You're complimenting people in your head subconsciously all the time. What I've done is, because it's not like I ever force a compliment, I never force a compliment. Unless I feel like somebody really needs it,

but even then, I'll find something that I genuinely like. I feel like it's fucked up to compliment somebody on something that you don't actually think is cool. Do you know what I mean? I think it can be fine, but I try to give out the most genuine compliments that I can because I would want the same in return. So what I did, at least in this specific situation for me personally, where I'm receiving

a lot of compliments from this person, but I'm not somebody who's ever really been like that in a relationship at all. I was like, okay, fuck. Every time I think something nice about this person, I'm just going to try to say it. And I'm not going to lie in the beginning, sometimes I would like even get nervous to complement this person. I'd be like, fuck, they look so good today, but I'm literally nervous to compliment them because it's like vulnerable, I feel whatever reason.

But every once in a while, you're going to get the courage to say it out loud. Now that you're aware, okay, I'm complimenting this person in my head constantly, I'm just going to start verbalizing. You have to make that decision. You already have those compliments stored in your head. Whenever they pop up subconsciously, just say it out loud and don't overthink it. There's a compliment will never harm anyone, rarely unless you're being creepy,

but I don't think that you are being creepy, so I think that you're fine. A compliment will literally never hurt anything. It's only, I've only ever had good things come from me complimenting others. And it feels good to know that like I'm acknowledging cool things that people are doing or if they just have a good energy about them that day, like those are things I want to, I want them to know that I am noticing and it makes them feel so

good and it makes me feel good. It's a good thing all around, and if you can get in the habit of it, it'll really make your life even better. Somebody said, somebody said, do you wish you could be a social butterfly again? I know that that time is over for you,

but do you miss the amount of energy you had? Sometimes I feel like, sometimes yes, like sometimes I do kind of miss it, because I feel like, sometimes yes, like sometimes I do kind of miss it because I'm like, am I missing anything? I don't know, is this what I'm, like I'm happy not being social, but am I missing something by not being social?

And I think at this point I've realized that no, I'm not missing anything. I'm very happy with my small circle of people that I love and trust. I feel safe there, I feel safe with them. I have social interactions with people when I'm at the fucking grocery store and that's enough. I think it's part of growing up maybe I think it might also be just because my anxiety's been kind of bad.

And so I'm just like, I just prefer like stability and comfortable homey situations. I just prefer that. I don't know exactly why. I'm starting to become more and more anti-social. I don't know. But I'm not mad about it because if that's what my mind and body wants, then I'm just going to follow that.

There's no need to question it. And maybe in five years, I might be back on my social shit and might want that again, but I just have not a super strong urge to be around or to talk to almost anybody. And I'm not sorry, so I don't miss it, but sometimes I wonder if I'm doing the right thing, but then I remember if it feels right to me and this is what I want to do, then yes, it is the right thing. Somebody said, when was the last time you cried? The last time I cried was on New Year's Day and it was because I was looking

through a bunch of videos from the past year and I was watching videos of me from the very beginning of the year and at that time I was struggling really bad with acne. I was on acne medications that were making my face super puffy. I had terrible self-esteem and I was struggling creatively with YouTube. I was struggling with the podcast trying to figure out it was like this transition between stupid genius and now anything goes. And I just honestly felt like everything was going kind of wrong for me. I was like single and I felt like

super unworthy of any guy ever like. I was like, no guys ever gonna like me again. And honestly, it was not a bad thing because I kinda ended up being like, okay, shit's like not working out for me right now. I feel like I look like shit. I'm like confused, career-wise. Like, you know, the podcast isn't really working out. Like, I'm gonna need to make a big switch, you know, which did end up happening and now it's anything goes. And I was like struggling to make YouTube videos

because I was so self-conscious about how my face looked that I just couldn't even be creative in any way. I couldn't come up with video ideas. I didn't want to be in front of the camera in general. I was like not responsible about getting videos done on time. Like I was just, YouTube was like my worst nightmare because I look like shit. And in the whole point of YouTube is that it's a literal video

of you for X amount of minutes. So it was like awful. And that was bad from about December of 2019 to like probably, March or April of 2020, it was kind of when things started to get, it was like really bad in December, and then it was really bad probably up until like February, and then shit kind of started to get better in March and April.

And then by like around my birthday, I feel like things were really getting better. And then the last like six months of 2020 were much better. And obviously there were still struggles, but it just got a lot better. But it's just, I remember the person I was a year ago, and I genuinely pity her, although I shouldn't. But that was the overwhelming feeling that I had

where I just was like, God, I almost felt pity like, God, I almost felt pity because I was like, I like felt bad for who I was because I was like, she just didn't know anything. I've had a lot of realizations this year. I've worked through a lot of my issues this year because we've had so much time at home. I've learned so many things about the world, about myself, about others. I feel like this year I learned so much. Looking back at who I was a year ago, was very emotional to me because I was like,

who is that? But I also felt sad because when I was on that medication and my face was all puffy and my acne was all bad I just like felt like I look like shit and my self-esteem was so bad and that made me make bad decisions Not necessarily bad decisions because I think now in retrospect I realize that the decisions like some of the things that I did that you know Maybe we're stupid We're really not that stupid and we're actually very normal,

teen things to do. But I just know that a lot of the things that I did, like I maybe let boys walk all over me in ways that I shouldn't, you know, stuff like that. Or I kind of did things that weren't in my own best interest. I won't get too far into it, but like I just wasn't really respecting myself. And that's nobody's fault but my own. I mean, truly, I don't blame anybody for that. But I just was in a really vulnerable spot,

and I wasn't really respecting myself because I felt like I looked like shit and I felt like super not inspired by anything in my life, and it was awful. And I'm just so happy to see my own growth, but it also is just very emotional to look back on. But also, I was crying because I've met some people this year that have changed my life in incredible ways and that I've truly enhanced my life, which is something that I never

demanded for myself prior to this year. I feel like I've always settled for friendships and relationships that weren't really maybe even healthy for me. Not only were they not healthy, but they also were, they weren't enhancing my life. They were either making my life worse or just kind of like sitting on the sidelines and maybe even using me, you know what I mean? Which I feel like I've never demanded friendships in my life that were healthy before because I didn't really know what that looked like or relationships.

And I feel like this year I really figured out what I deserve in a friendship and what I deserve in a relationship. And now I only demand that for the rest of my life. But it took finding people that could show me what that even means, what a healthy relationship in life looks like in general, no matter if that's between friends, relationship, whatever the fuck, you have to find people that will show you what that means.

And some people might be lucky in their first best friend or their first significant other might be somebody that does enhance their life in a positive way. But I know for me, I've had endless friends in relationships that were not that way. And I feel like this year, I truly found what it meant to have friendships and relationships that actually enhance your life and make your life better. And that's huge.

Basically, long story short, I cried because I've had a lot of realizations. Okay? Somebody said, should I date somebody that smokes cigarettes or marijuana, even if it is a quality in a person that you aren't very fond of? I really love their personality. I just have some reservations. I don't know if you're aware of marijuana, even if it is a quality in a person that you aren't very fond of. I really love their personality. I just have some reservations. I would say, okay,

unless this person's use of these substances is getting in the way of your relationship, I would say you should try to date them. Here's my thing about it. A lot of people, and I mean we're being real here. If I came on here and was like,

you should never date somebody who smokes marijuana. You should never date somebody that drinks alcohol. Come on. Let's not, I mean, I know I'm 19, whatever, but I know what the fuck, like, come on. It's like majority, I, most people have something whether they're addicted to nicotine, weed, alcohol, maybe they're not even addicted, but they dApple in those things. Listen, it's not a great thing to be dappling in, but at the same time,

as long as it's not getting in the way of your relationship or your friendship, of your relationship or your friendship, I say it's something that you can look past because if it's not getting in the way and you really like their personality, I just don't see the harmony and I might be wrong about that. I don't know, but I've dated people before that maybe have used substances that I haven't. And so, like it didn't bother me because I was like, as long as they're not forcing me to do anything I don't wanna do, which none of them have ever, none of them ever have,

or as long as it's not harming me or harming them, then I think it's fine. Because a lot of people can use substances and not harm anyone, even really themselves. Like, if they're smoking weed of age, okay, it's legal in a lot of places, whatever. And you don't have to like it, but like, you know, I just think as long as it's not getting in the way.

I don't know, I think you read the situation. Ask yourself, are they abusing these things? Or are they just using them every once in a while, or they're using things in healthy doses, they're having a glass of wine before dinner. They're smoking one cigarette every six months. They're smoking weed a few times a week because it helps them with their anxiety. Like, think about how severe it is. Is it severe?

If it is, then maybe you avoid, but if not, then I think you give them a chance. Oh, this is an interesting question. Somebody said, do you think there's a difference between dating and being girlfriend boyfriend? Slash, girlfriend, girlfriend being girlfriend boyfriend. Slash. Girlfriend girlfriend slash boyfriend. Okay, I see what you're saying.

Do you think there should be a formal ask to be significant others? Okay, I'm gonna rephrase this question, but I think I know what you mean. I think a lot of people, like dating has a different connotation to everybody. Some people think dating doesn't mean exclusive. Sometimes people think that dating just means that you're like talking and that like, you guys hang out a lot, but that you can still

see other people. And some people think that there needs to be a girlfriend or boyfriend or whatever, some sort of title, significant other, whatever, partner, some sort of word to make the relationship exclusive. I personally think if you're dating, that means you're're exclusive you only talk to one another and that's it nothing else That's just because Why would you put a label on anything if you're not exclusive?

Unless you want to have an open relationship, but that's I'm not even gonna go there because I've never experienced that And I don't know how to even talk about that. But not that there's anything wrong with it, but I just have no nothing about it and could never do it because I would get really mad easily, probably. But I think that's a conversation you need to have with whoever you're talking to. If you guys have decided that you're dating,

be like, okay, what does this mean? Like just be straight up, be like, are we, be like, I don't care, like, whatever. I'm cool with whatever you wanna do. But like, are we exclusively seeing each other dating? Are we, each other significant other? And there's nobody else. Like, what's the situation? You just have to have that conversation.

I hate how messy it is. But it's funny because relationships are really just a verbal promise and that's it. And it's kind of crazy how much meaning it holds when it's literally just like a symbol of, it's literally you just agreeing with the person verbally that you are only going to be with them. It's actually a crazy concept if you really think about it.

Probably unnatural for humans, although I love it. I love being in a relationship. Let me tell you when it's a good one. It's so great. So maybe it is human nature and I don't know. I don't know, but I think you just need to have that conversation. But the main thing to take from this is, always communicate and know for sure what you guys are.

Never jump to conclusions, because I've done that and it gets you very hurt. Don't assume, have that conversation. Be like, listen, I don't care, but I need to know where we're at because I don't want to go kiss another person and hurt your feelings. You know what I'm saying? Where are we at?

Or you could be like, I'm only with you and I would like the same energy from you, but I need to make sure that we're both doing that. But also, I've always been like, I'm starting to realize that if somebody isn't okay with putting a label on your relationship, then they probably aren't really somebody that you should be messing with because people who are too scared to put labels on things aren't ready to be in a

stable relationship and that's totally okay, totally normal. But I would say that's the situation you want to avoid because it's always going to end up getting your hurt, you know. The last question of the day is, if you had a son, would you let him wear a dress? Yes. Da. Absolutely. I literally, here's the thing that blows my mind. Why do there need to be such? Why do people need to be so opinionated about what another individual is doing? Mind your own fucking business. If somebody wants to wear a dress and they maybe aren't like the stereotypical dress wearer.

Who fucking cares? The only time that I will allow myself to judge others is if they're like kind of being harmful. If somebody, let's say, is doing something inconsiderate towards others, or just did something wrong in general, yeah, I'll judge them. And I will confront them, and I will not be okay with it. But if it's something as mundane,

as whether or not somebody is wearing a dress, that should be the least of our fucking worries as a world, but especially, it doesn't matter. People can do whatever they want and should be able to do whatever they want as long as they're not harming anyone and as long as they are kind about it.

As long as my kid is being kind, treating others well, being a good friend, being a good person, I'm never gonna give them a hard time. And the whole thing with gender, blah, blah, blah, blah, blah, who gives a fuck? Like, it's just, if my son wants to wear a dress, if my son wants to wear makeup, I don't care.

Whatever my future child wants to do, they're gonna be able to do as long as they're being, the only thing I won't let them do is be an asshole. That's basically it. The only rule that I'm going to give my kid is just don't be an asshole. That's it. No other rules.

They can play any sport that they want. Have any hobby that they want. Blah blah blah. Why? Because it doesn't fucking matter. And because if you bring a human being onto this planet, they should be able to do whatever makes them happy as long as it's not hurting anybody. You get the idea. It's that simple. But I really think that people should learn to mind their own fucking business. I'm serious.

Like it's genuinely getting on my fucking nerves. Why do people just have to constantly be so openly judgmental about what other people are doing on the internet, especially on social media? Why do people think that their opinions are that important? I don't know, it just blows my mind. That's why I always try. I mean, listen, of course, we're human beings. We like to give our opinions.

We like to share our opinions. We're not all always going to agree. That's just how it goes. But I also think that some people just need to get to stick out of their own ass. I think the internet made people too bold about being judgmental. Like so many words of judgmental. The moral of the story is my son can wear whatever the fuck he wants, my daughter, whatever,

whatever, I don't even, yes, as long as they're not bullying anybody, and even if they do bully somebody, whatever, that's a conversation you have. Moral of the story is, yes. I would let that happen. Of course. And that should be obvious. And on that note, I'm gonna end this episode. Okay, that's it for today's episode.

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