anything goes with emma chamberlain - the future

Episode Date: May 7, 2020

Most people want to get married and have kids some day because… it’s what you’re “supposed” to do… but is that right for everyone? Emma dives deep on it, from getting married, to divorce, to having kids and everything in between. What are the impending challenges of finding someone you’re supposed to spend the rest of your life with and raising children? How should you treat your kids when it comes to parties? And be honest, are babies actually cute? Learn more about your ad choices. Visit podcastchoices.com/adchoices

Hi everybody, it's Emma. Welcome back to anything goes. I don't know why I just said that like that now I'm embarrassed. I just woke up I just woke up. It's 930. I'm recording at 930. That's crazy. It's crazy. I'm even up at 930. It feels good though. It feels good It feels good to be up early because I don't even normally do this like on a normal normal day like in normal circumstances I don't normally wake up this early and recently I've been getting up really early and I kind of love it because it makes me feel good for some reason that I can't explain. I think that's universal though I think everybody feels that way. I hope you guys are all doing well and now this is definitely starting to weigh on all of us what's going on? I feel like everybody's kind of starting to, it's starting to hit everyone in a different way.

In the beginning, everybody was like, this sucks, really bad. But now I think it's kind of at the point where it's like, the holy shit, like holy shit. I'm not gonna go into it anymore because we already know how we feel about it so we don't need to discuss it But today we're gonna be talking about something that kind of makes me uncomfortable Oh

But I thought it would be kind of fun and light because I feel like a lot of the topics I've been talking about have been so like kind of heavy and I kind of want to talk about something like positive and fun. Even though this topic makes me uncomfortable, I just think it's a fun topic to talk about and I talk about it with my friends all the time. We're going to be talking about getting older, starting a family, getting married, all of that. To preface this, the reason why I want to talk about it is because since I was like 17 and I stopped

going to school, I've kind of had this weird existential crisis, if that's the right word to use, about the fact that that's the next step in my life. Because I feel like in ours, we live in a, I can't even say that without cringing. In the society, okay, I hate using the word society, it bothers me. But in this society, there's the playbook. It's like, you go to school and then you go to college and then you get your first job and then you meet somebody and then you marry them and then you have kids and then you work at a job and then You raise your kids and then you die, right? That's kind of like

what The norm is and that's kind of like this the path that like society gives you and so I kind of broke from the path a little bit by not going to college and by kind of starting to work younger in a sense. And that gave me this weird feeling of impending doom for a while because I was like, my next step in life, if I follow this path, is to get married and have kids. And that put the, I don't know why I felt like that, but I did for a while there. It kind of still do.

And it put a lot of pressure on me. I was like, I need to find a guy that I like. So I can have a kid with him. Cause obviously, I want to have a kid personally. But it was a lot of pressure. It made, I would like, stay up at night, being like, there's no way I'm gonna find somebody that I could marry and have kids with.

Like there's just no way. Like, how am I gonna trust somebody with that responsibility? It's a tough one. It's a tough one. I'll figure it out. You guys will too, unless you don't have kids or get married.

That's cool on you. But first I want to talk about marriage. Because me and my friend Olivia last night, we're talking about marriage for like an hour. It started because I asked Olivia if she was going to get married right now, what color theme would her wedding be? And she said yellow, I said green. But then we started talking about how fucking corny weddings are.

Now, let me warn you, I'm not trying to offend anybody who has a wedding, who's had a wedding, who enjoys weddings. I enjoy weddings too. I enjoy attending weddings. I go to weddings and I cry every time. I cry every single time. Weddings make me very emotional. I appreciate weddings, but I just can't picture myself

at my own wedding without cringing. Like, weddings are only cringey when I put myself there. Like when I imagine myself at my own wedding, there's too much attention on you. Like, how am I gonna look when I'm walking? Like am I gonna look stupid? Like, you know, am I gonna start ugly crying? Are my vows gonna be cringy?

Is my dress gonna be ugly? And I'm just too wrapped up in the situation to notice. Like there's so many things to think about and it all makes me cringe. I feel like ideally if I were never have a wedding. This is what I do ceremony wedding ceremony five people mom dad best friends That's it people that I feel comfortable around people that I feel like wouldn't judge me, whatever. And then the real wedding will be at the after party. Guys, I think we need to switch weddings around. I think we need to switch wedding. I just, I just don't think

that there needs to be a ceremony with everybody there. I think we need to start focusing more on the after party. I think that this is my, this is my, you guys don't need to do this. But for me, this is what I need to do. We're focusing on the after party. We're having a crazy after party. But the ceremony, it needs to be kept at a minimum. Because I feel like people are really just there

for the party. Although I kind of enjoy the ceremony because I do cry during it. So I'm really actually torn. I have no idea. I'm just contradicting myself. I don't even know, like, should I even get married? Do I even deserve it? I'm still like all. I have no idea. I'm just contradicting myself. I don't even know, should I even get married? Do I even deserve it?

I'm still all over the place about it. Although I am 18 and I probably won't get married for another 10 years. Whoa. Maybe like seven years, I don't know. I don't know much about. I still don't know. Weddings are weird, but marriage is even weirder

because my parents are divorced, which is great. Again, I like that they're divorced, whatever. It's a rare thing to say, but I'm not being like, I'm not mad about it in a sense, but I'm like conflicted about marriage as well because number one, I can see, like I've seen parents a game, I own, be able to have a great relationship, even while not married, and raising me together, but when they're not together, and that be a really positive thing,

I've seen that. So that gives me hope that it's possible sometimes. I just wonder if marriage ruins relationships. Like I wonder if marriage ruins the excitement in the like love for the other person. I don't know. I don't know because I've never I don't think I've ever seen a marriage where the two people were like still in love with each other like 30 years later. I just don't think I've ever seen that. Maybe there's just none of that in my family. I don't know.

I mean, there are some, I mean, actually, that's not necessarily true. I have a few of those in my family. But I don't know, because I'm not, I haven't like analyzed their relationship enough to like, know if it's like all just a show, you know, you never know if it's all just a show.

I just wonder if like marriage is a sustainable thing. Like can you stay married forever or is divorce just inevitable? I don't know and maybe that's just because my parents take a divorce and so I kind of feel like divorce is inevitable. I don't know. I would love to be married to the same person forever, but if we're talking realistic here, is that even possible? Without somebody cheating or somebody doing something fucked up?

This is dark. You know what? I thought that I was gonna come on here and talk about some fun shit. Now I'm talking about whether or not marriage works because I watched this video once about how like monogamy is like unnatural for humans. Like it's not what humans are programmed to do. Humans are supposed to be mating with a lot of different people in order to populate

the planet. And marriage doesn't necessarily align with that. But the thing that's special about marriage is that you kind of have to put that instinct to continue mating with other people aside when you marry someone. And like that's what makes that bond so strong is because you have to be loyal to that person. And not saying everybody does is and does, but like you're supposed to. So I'm just, I don't know, that's the question, that's, that's just the big question. Like, is marriage kind of outdated? Is marriage kind of doomed in a

sense? From the start? Is marriage the best thing you could do for your relationship? Is marriage toxic? Is marriage necessarily, like, is marriage necessary. Like I don't know. I don't know y'all and I'm working through it. But then again, I just thought about it and I think marriage is mainly necessary for your child. I think that that's kind of why it exists. Because like it makes your child feel like they have a family

in a sense like a tight knit family. And I think that might be the point of it. I don't know. I don't even know. And I need to start knowing soon within the next seven years or some shit. It's crazy. Moving on to having kids.

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Sometimes I lay away at night rehashing something I said earlier that day or I lay in bed at night thinking about what the future holds. I know I'm not the only one going through a lot of what ifs. Like what if I get into a fender bender? Or what if my home gets broken into? But state farm can help you with some of those big what ifs. They're available to answer your questions day or night.

You can reach them 24-7, file a claim on the State Farm Mobile app, or simply call your agent to ask what's on your mind. Like a good neighbor, State Farm is there. Call or go to statefarm.com for a quote today. I want to talk about parenting because I feel like parenting is like, I don't know anything about it, obviously, because I'm a child, but I do know things about it because I have parents and I've been parented, okay?

And so I wanna talk about the way that I would raise my child or the way I'm planning on raising my child, and then kind of touch on how my parents have influenced that. And maybe some ways that I'm learning from my parents kind of like maybe things that they did that didn't really work for me and like whatever. And obviously every child is different, it needs to be treated differently.

But like this is my idea. Okay. Number one, I think I've noticed that a lot of parents baby their children. Like they enable their children in a sense and it's kind of toxic. of parents baby their children. Like, they enable their children in a sense, and it's kind of toxic, like they baby their child. They never let their kid grow up. Parents are always on their kid's ass,

and I understand that because they're scared and they're worried about their child's safety and well-being, but it gets to a point where it's so extreme that their kid can't even grow on their own and their kid ends up doing shit that's stupid because their parents never let them think for themselves. So then they fuck up. Whereas my parents have treated me like an adult

since I was literally born. Boy, boy, since I was born, which is weird, boi, boi, boi, boi, boi, boi, boi, boi, boi, boi, boi, boi, boi, boi, boi, boi, boi, boi, boi, boi, boi, boi, boi, boi, boi, boi, boi, boi, boi, boi, boi, boi, boi, boi, boi, boi, boi, boi, boi, boi, boi, boi, boi, boi, boi, boi, boi, boi, boi, boi, boi, boi, boi, boi, boi, boi, boi, boi, boi, boi, boi, boi, boi, boi, boi, boi, boi, boi, boi, boi, boi, boi, boi, boi, boi, boi, boi, boi, boi, boi, boi, boi, boi, boi, boi, boi, boi, boi, boi, boi, boi, boi, boi, boi, boi, boi, boi, boi, boi, boi, boi, boi, boi, boi, boi, boi, boi, boi, boi, boi, boi, boi, boi, boi, boi, boi, boi, boi, boi, boi, boi, boi, boi, boi, boi, boi, boi, boi, boi, boi, boi, boi, boi, boi, boi, boi, boi, boi, boi, boi, boi, boi, boi, boi, bo You can just do whatever you want because you're a baby and you are so cute. So you can do whatever you want. That's just not what my parents did. And I think I Want to do that with my kid. I don't want my I don't know. I don't think it's good to baby your children Even from the start like obviously, you know, you are affectionate with your child But you can be affectionate to your child without babying them. I don't know. So that's one thing I'm gonna do.

But then as my kid gets older, there's so many things that like your kid's experience. All of y'all listening, y'all have been a kid before. I'm a kid right now. Like when you start to get into high school and it's like time to start going to parties and all of that, I think that the worst thing you could do is not let your kid go. I've seen so many parents do that. Be super strict. Not let their kids go to parties. Not let their kids sleep over at their friends house. like, I can't fathom. I cannot fathom not letting my child experience high school.

I can't fathom not letting my kid like enjoy that phase of life. I think that's so important because let me tell you, my parents let me. My parents let me. I would be like straight up with them. I'd be like, I'm going to a party. This is where it is. I'll send you my location. I'd be like, I'm going to a party. This is where it is. I'll send you my location. I don't know when I'm going to come home. I'll come home at a reasonable

hour, but I want to go to this party really bad. Is that okay? They would say, yes, just please keep us updated and stay in communication with us and, you know, don't do anything stupid, but be honest with us if you do do something stupid and enjoy yourself. And so I would go and I'd experience it and I'd come home and I'd feel like safe to come home. I wouldn't be sneaking around. And then to be honest, I got all that out of my system. Going to parties, having sleepovers, all that because my parents let me, I got it out of my system, and then it just, it kind of lost its like excitement for me, and then I just kind of stopped caring about that shit,

which is great, because then it was just like, I avoided a lot of probably bad experiences. But I think that parents that like, suppress their kid and are like, no, you cannot go to this party, no, you cannot have the sleepover, no, you cannot have the sleepover. That's inevitably gonna make the kid wanna go crazier once they have any ounce of freedom. Like the second that that child gets to college,

they aren't gonna, they didn't learn anything in high school and so they're just gonna go insane and go crazy. And so it's just gonna go insane and go crazy and so it's just it's just toxic like that because like if you don't give your kid freedom, they're gonna overcompensate and They're gonna do more than they should be in an ideal world You give your child the freedom To do kind of whatever they want

But you to give them the deal where it's, I'll let you do whatever you want. I'm the parent speaking. I'll do whatever you want, but you have to keep me updated about where you are at all times. And you have to tell me what you're doing. If you're going to, if you do something stupid, like if you do a fucking drug or something, or you drink, or you do something, tell me so that we can talk about it, and don't lie to me. I think the biggest key is being

educating them on what's gonna be at the party, if they're in high school, saying there's gonna be drugs, there's gonna be alcohol. This is how you handle them, this is how it might affect you. Don't do it. Just try not, because it's hard, because kids do shit, but you like don't just try not like because it's hard because you kids do shit but like you kind of to be like just don't do it. But if you do do it by some chance tell me

so that I can help you and I can pick you up and I can keep you safe. You know what I mean? Because I think at the end of the day it's like it's all about keeping your kids safe. If you tell them you can't do this, you can't do this, you can't do this. They're just going to go do it behind your back. And then it's more dangerous because if they're in a dangerous situation, they're not going to call you because they don't want to get in trouble. Kids are going to do what they want, whether you tell them no or not. That's just how it works.

So I think giving them structured freedom is really important and I think that's what I'm going to do with my kid. Cause that's kinda what my parents did with me. It's fucking freezing in this room that I'm in right now. It's so cold. Anyways, let's talk baby names now. When I have a child, what do I name it? Ah, I don't know.

Sorry, I just farted. I'm gonna name it something stupid like Prism. Sorry if somebody's name out there is Prism. That's kind of rude of me. Or like orange. Prism, orange, and flower. Those are gonna be my kid names. Oh my God, I just remembered something.

When you get married, you have to change your last name sometimes. I don't know if I wanna do that honestly. I've been thinking, I mean, do I wanna do that? I don't know if I want to do that, honestly. I've been thinking, I mean, do I want to do that? I don't want to. I don't really want to change my last name. I mean, I guess I could hyphenate it or whatever. I'm a Chamberlain blank.

It's kind of fun to think about. Like, it's kind of fun to think about that. I never really, I went through a phase in high school where I was like so excited about being like in my 30s and like fucking having kids and like getting married and like that being in that phase of my life. And now I'm just dreading it. I'm dreading it.

I'm sitting next to a mirror right now and I'm looking at myself in the mirror. This is getting weird. This is getting weird, y'all. You guys can turn this off if you want. I wouldn't blame you. I'm looking at myself in the mirror. This is getting weird. This is getting weird, y'all. You guys can turn this off if you want. I wouldn't blame you. I'm looking at myself in the mirror right now. And I just realized that I'm gonna be like

an 80 year old woman at some point. And that is weird. And I don't know why I'm thinking about that, but I can't stop thinking about it. I just hope I'm a hot 80 year old. Like I hope that I glow up When I'm 80 like it would kind of be amazing if like I Just like you know Right now I'm a teen still somehow

Right now I'm a teen and then like in my 30s. I'll look a little bit better than I look now And then when I'm 80 hot is fuck. I just I'd love that. I'd love that It's never been seen before. Never been done before. Glowing up in your 80s, I'm so down for that. I'm kind of scared to be that age, but I'm also not, because I feel like at that point, I don't even wanna talk about that.

That's a topic for another day, getting old. I cannot speak on it. I cannot, because it scares me, so I'm not gonna speak on it. I think I because it scares me, so I'm not going to speak on it. I think I kind of covered everything that I wanted to talk about off my own brain. So now let's answer some questions. This episode is brought to you by Liquid IV. You might think that hydration is only necessary after intense crazy activities like working out. But if you think about it, running errands is still running. That's why liquid IV powder hydrates you two times faster than water alone with three

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Let's make them light. All right, first question. Do you see yourself being a mom? I do. I do. I'm not going to say that I'm not going to say that I'm not going to say that I'm not going to say that I'm not going to say that I'm not going to say that I'm not going to say that I'm not going to say that I'm not going to say that I'm not going to say that I'm not going to say that I'm not going to say that I'm not going to say that I'm not going to say that I'm not going to say that I'm not going to say that I'm not going to say that I'm not going to say that I'm not going to say that I'm not going to say that I'm not going to say that I'm not going to say that I'm not going to say that I'm not going to say that I'm not going to say that I'm not going to say that I'm not going to say that I'm not going to say that I'm not going to say that I'm not going to say that I'm not going to say that I'm not going to say that I'm not going to say that I'm not going to say that I'm not going to say that I'm not going to say that I'm not going to say that I'm not going to say that I'm not going to say that I'm not going to say that I'm not going to say that I'm not going to say that I'm not going to say that I'm not going to say that I'm not going to say that I'm not going to say that I'm not going to say that I'm not going to say that I'm Blow it up. Okay, let's see. Let's answer some questions. Let's make them light. All right, first question. Do you see yourself being a mom? I do.

I do because even though I'm really like, I'm dreading it and I don't, I can't picture myself being a mom right now at all because I just feel like I'm so not ready for that yet. Like I'm so far from being ready for that. That it's like hard for me to picture it, but I do wanna be a mom because I think that, I think it's like for me,

my parents always told me that like having a kid just like changes everything about your life. It like changes your priorities, it changes everything, and it just like, and it's like the most fulfilling thing ever. Like my parents made having a kid sound like it was the best shit that you could ever do, which maybe they were just complimenting me and flattering me or whatever,

but that kind of like stuck with me and it made me want to have a kid. And so, you know, it's a lot of work, it's like a huge responsibility, whatever. It's not just adopting a cat, because I already did that. But yeah, I do see my, I do picture myself being a mom. My God, I almost just peed my pants for a second. I don't know how that happened.

Next question, how many kids do you want? I love being an only child. So part of me is like just one, because I think being an only child is so special. And I like just one, because I think being an only child is so special, and I think the connection that you have with your parents is so special, but I also think that because I never had siblings, I do want to know what that's like in a sense, and so I kind of want to have more than one child

so that I can see what a sibling dynamic is like firsthand, because I'm really curious, I'm really curious, I have no idea how it works, and so I'm really curious, I'm really curious, I have no idea how it works. And so I'm kind of between having one child anywhere between one and three. I, there's pros and cons to all options. I think I'm just gonna kinda let the universe take its course. See how I feel?

I mean, holding three kids in my body sounds like a fucking nightmare. I don't wanna be pregnant. I don't want to be pregnant. I don't want to be pregnant at all. I dread that. Like, there's no tomorrow. I don't want to do that. But, you know, you might have to. That's what it is.

I think one kid would be cool because I could have this really strong bond. And I know, I feel like I'd not have raised an only child in the right way because I am an only child and I understand not a raise an only child in the right way because I am an only child and I like understand the mind of an only child. So that could be huge, that could be huge. But at the same time, like having two kids could be so cool because I think that having a sibling could be really fun and I think it could be fun to have like multiple personalities to work with. I think that could be really enjoyable.

I think Thanksgiving would be a lot more fun when my kids come over and I have two of them. You know what I mean? But then also three, I think it could be a good number because there's this balance, it's like a triangle. You know what I mean? And my dad, actually, my dad has two brothers and I feel like they have a good cool trio going on and I feel like that was fun.

And my dad got to have two different relationships with his brothers and I feel like that's kind of cool. So like, I don't know, I'm just gonna let nature take its course but no more than three, three is even pushing it. Mainly because I just don't wanna hold that many also because I don't even know if I have the mental capacity to take care of three children. So maybe I'll cap it too.

I don't know, I don't know, I don't know, I don't know. There's a lot to unpack there. Somebody asked you, wanna get married, I do. I'm gonna get married, because I wanna have a kid, so I kinda need to get married. It's, they go hand in hand, I'll get married. I'll make a hole, I'm just gonna, no. You know what, I'm just gonna get married,

and I'm just gonna, I'm not even gonna care about the wedding, I'm just gonna care about how good my Instagram photos are from it. It's it, I don't care, I don't fucking care about the wedding. I'm just gonna care about how good my Instagram photos are from it. That's it, I don't care. I don't fucking care about the wedding. I just wanna go to Instagram, pick out of it, and then I'm gonna get divorced. That's so fucked up.

But I'm allowed to make that joke because my parents are divorced. So you guys can't say shit about that. I'm kidding, I'm not taking one fucking photo of my wedding. I don't even wanna know what I look like. I wanna get married in like a fucking sundress, and like, no, not even a dress. I want to get married and like be wearing like

denim shorts, like a really cute vintage denim shorts and like maybe a white top. Somebody said, what are your plans for the future? It's broad. I don't know if you're talking about like in regard to children and marriage, but I'm going to assume that you're not. Like, what are my plans for the future right now?

It's crazy because I've never been the type of person to, like, think too deeply about the future. I'm normally more focused on the past and the present, which I think I should be switching that to the present and the future. I think I need to start focusing that to the present in the future. I think I need to start focusing more on the present in the future. I do think I spend too much time thinking about the past. That's a story for another day.

But my plans for the future, I want to just keep working. You know, I want to get married, I want to have kids, I want to have good friends, I want to have fun. I want to laugh, I want to cry, I want to have good friends, I want to have fun. I want to laugh, I want to cry, I want to scream. And I just want to stay alive, that's about it. I just need to survive. That's kind of the number one thing. You just got to survive.

Do you know what I mean? That's my goal for the future, just to fucking make it through. Alive, that's it. Somebody said how do you find the perfect pay? I love this question. I love this question because it's like, do I even know? No, but I'm still going to speak on it. I keep having to fart and then I, it's sorry, you don't want to know about that. You don't want it. I'm getting too comfortable on this podcast. How to find the perfect pay? Okay, listen, I think the worst part about trying to find the perfect Bay

is that you're gonna think that you found the perfect one like at least twice before you probably could find the good one. And even then, who knows? From my experience, I think it's all about trial and error. To be honest, I do. I think it's all about trial and error, to be honest, I do. I think it's all about trial and error. I think you need to talk to a lot of different people.

I think you have to need to have connections with a lot of different people, and I think you need to watch a lot of them fizzle out, and then watch a lot of them work, and like even date people for a while, and then get your heart broken, and then realize why I didn't work and realize why they weren't for you.

I think you need to... You just need to put yourself out there and experience as many people as possible. Date as many people as possible. If that's something that you feel comfortable with, for me, it really is in. I don't really... I'm pretty...

It kind of takes a lot for me to like, put myself out there and talk to people. I need to feel really comfortable. And like, if I don't, then I'm just over it. So that kind of has made it harder for me to like, it's taken me a lot longer to like, start trying to talk to people, I guess. But, you know, you're getting there, whatever.

I also think it's about being honest with yourself about red flags. Like, I've ignored so many red flags and just like, literally been fully aware of these, like, definitely bad red flags. But I've just been like, oh no, it's fine, it's fine, like whatever. I don't know, I don't see it, it's fine. I'm just overreacting, blah, blah, blah. Never ignore red flag, because it always bites you in the ass later, it always does, and it hurts every time.

If you just stop it before it begins, then you're safe. But I know how hard it is and I never do that myself, ever. I think the key is to find somebody where you really struggle to find a red flag. You really struggle to find something wrong with them. And everything about them is just like perfect to you in a sense. And there's nothing like, and you see it for what it is, you see them for what they are, and you're not having to lie to yourself about who they are because who they actually are is somebody that you want to have in your life and is somebody that's a good person.

Like, you know when somebody is a good person or not, I'm assuming, I feel like everybody does. But if you are really physically attracted to them, sometimes you'll like, you know, you'll kind of like disregard a few things because you're like, you have it, they're so hot. Ha, done it. I've done it. You have to find somebody who's cute

that also you're not having to convince yourself as a good person when they're probably not. And that's that. It's kind of a beautiful thing, though. It as a good person when they're probably not. And that's that. It's kind of a beautiful thing, though. It's a beautiful thing when it works. It's such like a, it's so special. It's so special how humans can have connection like that and how it's even possible for humans to have a special bond

and I've always wondered how it's even possible that two people can, how they even find each other or how it even works each other or like how they How it even works like is it is it a chemical in your brain like is it like The universe or something that we can't understand like I've never understood it But it's crazy and I'm excited for you all and for myself Next question are you scared to give birth? Oh my god Yes, I do not want to I do not. I'm so sorry. Maybe I'm just being immature. I think I'm just being immature. I do not want to have I don't want to know. I never want my cervix to be dilated the size of a bagel. Why would I ever want that? I do not want to give birth. I do not want to give birth. Next, somebody asked what age do you see yourself getting married?

I was talking about this in my dad yesterday and I picture myself getting married between like 26 and like 30 and having a kid between like 30 and 33, 35 maybe. I've always kind of believed in like having children a little bit later because I think that, like for myself, this has nothing to do with anybody else. If you want to have a kid at whatever age I'm not judging, but for me, I just, I know myself, and I know that I'm gonna need some time to like,

I just think that I'm gonna need time to be the best parent I can be. I don't think that, I think I'm naturally somebody who's very like, I'm not selfish, but like, I do have a lot of growing to do on my own. And so I've been prioritizing that for quite a few years now. And like, focusing on my own growth and putting a lot of energy into myself. And I think I need to kind of finish that work within myself before I can have a child because the second that you have a child your second. And so I need to make sure that I'm mature enough to be able to be second

or else that kid is not, it's not going to be fair to that kid. And so I'm going to wait a while. I also think that I want to be at a place in my life where I'm not impulsive anymore because I'm very impulsive. Right now, I need to grow out of that because I like to like, I'm just impulsive. And not that that's even a bad thing because I think that my impulses are sometimes correct. But it's just like, I, with something as big of a deal as getting married and having a child, let's wait until I've grown out of my impulsiveness a little bit. Next question, where do you wanna raise your kid? It, this is funny. It's funny because right now I obviously live in LA. In the thick of LA, I'm like right in it.

I don't wanna raise my kid in LA, to be honest, because number one, I think at some point, I wanna get out of LA. I mean, maybe I won't, I don't know. I don't know. Part of me wants to raise my kid in LA because I feel like it might just be necessary. But then another part of me is like,

I'd love to raise my kid somewhere that has seasons and like I'd love to experience a different pace of life somewhere else, like in fucking, I don't know. Like, I wouldn't, I don't know if, I think I would either raise my kid in LA or I'd like raise my kid on the East Coast. But then again, I don't know if I can handle snow. So I'm really torn here. I'm really torn here. I have no idea where I wanna raise my kid on the East Coast. But then again, I don't know if I can handle snow. So I'm really torn here.

I'm really torn here. I have no idea where I wanna raise my kid. I've just always been kind of scared of raising my kid in California because I feel like California is just, there's a lot of things here that like, there just isn't everywhere else. And like, it's just kind of intense here. And I think it could be nice to like raise a kid somewhere

where like, that's away from all of this. Like away from all of the, I hope that you guys know what I'm talking about. I don't know how to explain it, but California is like, this is where everything is. Everything's here. So I kind of want to raise my kid somewhere where everything isn't there.

Like life is a little bit more simple. And so that the kid can focus on like other things. Like doesn't have to focus on like fucking, I feel like people are very materialistic here and very judgemental here. And that's something that like I could handle because I grew up not in like LA. I grew up, I mean, I was still growing California, but it was like the area in California that I grew up in in like LA. I grew up, I mean, I was still growing California,

but it was like the area in California that I grew up in is like less bad, less judgmental than LA. Still has its own problems and still is the same way. Still very materialistic, but like it wasn't as bad. Like imagine growing up and like all the kids at your school like talking about like Gucci belts. Like, do you know what I'm saying?

Like, that's the vibe of LA to me and I just don't wanna raise a kid here where like, that's what the kids care about is like a Gucci belt. So I don't know. I'm a little bit torn. Maybe I'll raise my kid. It'd be kind of fun to raise my kid like in New York, I don't know, but not like in New York

city, like somewhere in New York, but I don't know anything about, I don't really know much about New York, like upstate New York, I don't know much about that, maybe that would be like boring or like not fun area to live, I don't know. I don't know, I need to do more traveling and figure out somewhere that like, I feel like a kid would thrive. That was a really long answer. Somebody asked, do you think YouTube will still be a part of your life

when you're married enough kids? That is an amazing question that I do not know. The answer to, I have no idea. Part of me thinks, I think YouTube will be my life in a different way, when I'm at that age. I think it will still be my life, but I don't think it's gonna be the same that it is now, like right now, you know,

I upload every week and I'm like, you know, doing whatever. I think that when, by the time I'm older, I'm gonna be using YouTube as a platform in a completely different way, but I still think it'll be my life. I don't wanna include my children on my YouTube ever. I just want to keep that separate for my kids' mental health, because I don't want to throw my kid into...

I don't want to... I mean, when your child is a baby, you can't ask them, hey, are you okay with being on camera? You can't ask them that. And so it is, I mean, I'm conflicted about whether or not it's fair to like, do that without asking them. You know what I mean?

Like, is there a human? And is it fair just because they're your child to put them on camera? I don't know. I don't really think, I'm not sure. I'm not sure what the answer is. But if I were to continue to YouTube as an adult with kids, it would be a very different situation and I would not, it would not have anything to do with my children either. It would still be something that would be like my thing for me. This next question's kind of funny. Do you think babies like newborns are cute?

To be honest, I Don't really care about babies unless I know who's baby. It is. Does that make sense? Like I'm not the type of person that sees a baby in public and is like falling on my knees like oh my god Baby like I don't have that I've never had that the only time I care about babies is if I like know who's baby It is like my somebody really close to me just had a baby a few months ago. And every time I see that baby,

I fucking love that baby. Because I care about that baby. And I know that baby, and I know that baby's parents, and I care about that baby's parents, and I care about that baby because I have a personal connection with that baby. So in that case, that baby is so cute to me because I like love that baby, right?

But like, some random baby on the street, I'm not freaking out over it. It has to be the right baby for me to care. Like, somebody that I know and care about their baby, that's when I care about their baby. Otherwise, I don't really care. When it's my own baby, I'm gonna think it's the cutest thing ever. But when it's not my baby, I don't really care. When it's my own baby, I'm gonna think it's the cutest thing ever, but when it's not my baby, I don't care.

Well, no, when it's not me or somebody I care about's baby, I don't care. And that might be kind of an unpopular opinion. I'm sorry for that, whatever. I keep getting this question, and I feel like I touched on it earlier, but I also feel like I'm why not touch on it. Again, do you think having divorced parents

has affected how you look at marriage? I think yes, because I think it kind of shed the light on the reality of it. Like it kind of just showed me like, I never really actually got to see my parents marry. I don't really know anything about that. I don't know what living in it. I don't know what, like my situation was that, you know, my parents got divorced when I was five, and I don't know what living in it. I don't know what, like my situation was that,

you know, my parents got divorced when I was five, and I don't really have very many memories from them being married, because like when you're like any age under five, like there's kind of no memory. So I don't really remember, I don't know what it's like to have married parents, and that's okay with me.

Like I fucking love my parents so much, and their relationship as divorced parents are like, is so admirable and cool for me to watch. And like, I respect it so much and I would never, people ask me, would you want your parents to get back together? No, I love them separate. I think it's so much healthier.

I think it's how it's supposed to be. But, you know, it is weird because I think that I don't really understand marriage very well. I think I kind of maybe have a little bit of a jaded view on it because I've kind of seen how like, I've seen like, I've never seen it work. So it's like hard for me to believe in it. It's like believing in ghosts.

Like, do I believe in ghosts? I believe that they could exist, yeah, but like sure, but I've never seen one. So I'm not, so I'm a little skeptical. It's the exact same thing with marriage for me. But that doesn't mean I'm not gonna try it, but it also, I think the cool thing about, you know, having divorced parents

and you know, watching them have a healthy relationship. That also showed me that even if I do get divorced, there's a life after it. It's not the end of the world. It's all about making the most out of that relationship with that person after the divorce. And I think that's kind of a beautiful thing to see. And it gives me hope that no matter what happens,

I'm gonna be okay even if I fucking marry somebody. It doesn't work. beautiful thing to see, you know, and it gives me hope that like no matter what happens, like I'm gonna be okay even if I fucking marry somebody and it doesn't work. Like you get through it and that's the end of that. Alright, we're gonna answer a few more because I'm having fun with this episode for some reason. I don't know why I like talking about it so much. Somebody said do you have a list of baby name ideas in your notes? I might, I might, I have a lot of notes.

Let's see if I have that. Fuck. I don't. I'm gonna try to remember. I don't really like, it's weird because I don't really like a lot of names because I associate names with people that I've met with those names. So it's hard for me to like like names. But I like the names.

Well, I think you guys can kind of tell what names I like. I like the name Frankie, because I named my fucking cat Frankie. Like I like names like that that are like kind of like kind of cute and like not so serious although when they like get older then it's kind of weird, because does anybody know somebody named Frankie that's 50? Probably, actually.

But I don't know. I'm kind of stumped on the names. I don't know how people come up with names. I want something unique though. I like the name, I always like the name Riley. I like Irish names a lot. I always like the name Riley. I like Irish names a lot. I always like the name Riley.

I always like, let's see, I have like animal names in my phone. So let's see if I can find someone here. I like the name Oliver, but I already have a cat named Oliver. And I also, I wouldn't name a kid all over though. I think I like that as an animal name. Yeah, I'm really stumped on the names.

I'm gonna hope that my, like, whoever I get married to or whoever I have kids with, hopefully they are good with names and good at, like, coming up with names and shit because, like, that's on them. Like, I ran out. Okay, I'm gonna answer a few more because I really have to go to the bathroom. Like, I've been holding it for a really long time.

Somebody asked, are you gonna put your kids in a private all girls' slash boy school like you did? No. No, no, no, no. Public school for the win, I will never put my kids into a private school. I just, I think it was a fun idea. I think it was a fun concept. I really wanted it. I really wanted to do that. I hated it. I don't think it's good. I think there's a fun idea, I think it was a fun concept. I really wanted it, I really wanted to do that. I hated it.

I don't think it's good. I think there's a lot of, like, it's a weird environment. There's a lot of weird thing, like, it, no, no, no, no, no. I don't wanna do that. Somebody said what type of wedding dress do you want? I don't even, I don't know, like, I kinda wanna do something crazy and cool. It's like a little different, but like if we're talking about the traditional type of wedding dresses, I really, I like dresses that are like kind of a mock neck.

Like I don't like showing my like shoulders for some reason, like it makes me feel uncomfortable sometimes. So I kind of want to dress that like is a bit, is kind of high neck and maybe even long sleeve. Really simple, not super poofy or anything. Very minimal, not overdoing it, not overwhelming. I don't even want a veil, like one of those fucking wedding veils, I don't even want that.

Just a simple, pretty dress that's long sleeve and has like a little bit of a high neck. And that's it. Last but not least, somebody said, no, I like more questions. Somebody who says, where's your dream honeymoon? Oh my God, that's a good question. That's a really fun question. Um, fuck, I got it. Europe. Like France or Paris or I haven't been anywhere else in Europe besides Ireland in Paris, but like going to other places in Europe would be really amazing. Like going to the South of France would be really amazing.

Anywhere in Europe that maybe even has a beach, that would be really nice. Although I can't speak any, like I can't speak any other language besides English, so it might be a stressful honeymoon, but I would get through it. Somebody said, what's my ideal husband? Smart, good person, good heart, independent, in a sense, creative for sure, and a good dad. I think like when you marry somebody, like you just want them, and a good dad.

I think like when you marry somebody, like you just want them to be a good dad, mainly. Like I just want to marry somebody who would be a good dad. That's like the whole point. Okay, I think I'm done. I think I've answered too many questions. You guys are like, shut up. Somebody said, can you invite me to your wedding

when it happens? Thank you, I can be the flower girl. Fuck yeah, come be the flower girl, it's gonna be crazy. Love it. Anyway, that's it, that's it for today's episode. I hope you guys enjoyed. I actually really like talking about that. I thought that was really fun.

Feel free to tweet at AG Podcast. If you wanna tweet me some topics, I'm not gonna lie y'all. I am kinda running out of topics because I'm not gonna lie y'all. I am kind of running out of topics because I'm in wearing quarantine and I In my brain is kind of starting to like It's not very creative right now like I'm running out of things to talk about because I literally just see the same few people that I've been quarantining with this whole time and I don't leave my house and I drink coffee and I try to exercise

and I work and then I poop and then I go to bed and then I eat and then I lie and then I sleep. And that's it. So I'm kind of running out of shit to talk about. So if you guys have anything you want me to talk about, feel free to tweet at HEPodcast and I love you all. If you guys are, when you guys get married, I expect you, I just like throw up my mouth. I expect you guys to send me your wedding photos. I wanna see him and I will not hesitate to make fun of them.

But no, it's all in good fun because I love you guys and I care about you guys a lot. Thank you for listening. Once again, I really appreciate it. Keep it real. Follow your dreams and peace and love.