Aware & Aggravated - 25. How to Make A Change

Episode Date: June 9, 2022

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Starting point is 00:00:00 Hi friends, so for this episode I want to talk about some of the things that I've recently realized when it comes to making changes and Changing your life and everything that has to do with that and y'all it's fucking annoying I'm just gonna let you know like what I've been realizing the past couple of days week two weeks is a lot to take in and of course what am I gonna do when I realize some new shit I'm not gonna make myself with the only one dealing with it. I'm a throw that y'all too. Now we all get the suffer. Now we all get to have this awareness and not know what the fuck to do about it. Not really. This is this is just going to be really good stuff and things that are going to help you make changes if you want to make changes. And if you feel
Starting point is 00:00:39 like changes are happening, this is how to make them start happening. And if you want a different life, this is the shit you need to know. And I'm not talking like major life changes, even though I'm about to run away. Like I'm not I'm about to do a major life change and abandon my full life. But this stuff can be used for everything. So I have no plan for this episode. I'm going to just shoot my shit and just see where it leads me. But I'm going to start off talking about this big realization I had when I hit 300,000 followers on TikTok. I woke up and I saw that I had 300,000 followers and I was like, cool. Like I really just didn't give a shit. Like I just genuinely couldn't have cared less.
Starting point is 00:01:20 And I was like, hmm, something's off. Like why do I not give a fuck? Like this is huge. This is like a big off. Like why do I not give a fuck? Like this is huge. This is like a big thing. And why am I not excited? Like I wasn't mad at myself for not being excited. I just looked at myself and I was like, hang on. So why am I not excited?
Starting point is 00:01:34 Why do I not seem to give a fuck? And why do I feel numb? Like I felt just very numb to it. I'm like, okay, cool, it's a thing. Like there's 300,000 followers on that account. Cool. Like I just some very like unimpressed. And I really, it wasn't that I was unimpressed.
Starting point is 00:01:48 I more just felt numb to it. And it's cool that I have them, but I don't care if I didn't. You know? God, do care now. After I got through my shit. I am excited. I am like happy about it. But coming up against these feelings or lack of feelings
Starting point is 00:02:02 when I should have been excited or felt something at least, you know, brought me to the realization and had me come face to fucking face with some shit. My life is the same, like my life has not changed at all. And typically with social media fame and shit, it's like, anytime growing up I would watch people on YouTube or I would watch anyone that had a lot of followers. If you watched them from the beginning, their entire life would change.
Starting point is 00:02:30 Like, they would start making a lot of money. They would move away. They would start doing other shit. They would start hanging out with other people that were like, bigger. And I was like, okay, so it just set up this weird expectation in my brain. Don't make fun of me, okay?
Starting point is 00:02:45 Don't make fuck a fun of me, because I know what I'm gonna say is gonna sound really fucking stupid, but there was just this little expectation in my brain that I didn't realize was like a set expectation where when someone has followers, their life changes. When someone has followers, these changes come along with that. Like I just thought it was part of the fucking package.
Starting point is 00:03:04 So I still remember hitting 100,000 followers, and it was New Year's that I hit it for New Year's 2022. I was just like, okay, like, yay, cool. Like, maybe it'll start doing something now. Like, I felt like 100,000 was a good milestone. And then I hit 200,000. And I was like, hmm, why am I not that excited? And then I hit 300,000, why am I not like that excited?
Starting point is 00:03:25 And then I hit 300,000 and now I'm like, I don't even fly a fuck. And the whole reason I was like void of emotion toward it is because nothing was changing. Nothing in my life fucking changed. Yeah, I had a number on an app that said you have a lot of followers. And when I would go out in public, people recognize me now. And people say hi to me and I have little friends everywhere which is nice But I didn't see and haven't seen any of the other benefits that come with the typical gaining followers thing So it's like there's no real point like I was looking at it like okay followers for what but that's another thing That was really frustrating was that I've seen people with less followers than me make a lot of fucking money, have a lot of fucking brand deals, have a lot of shit happening
Starting point is 00:04:08 for them and changing for them and I started to like look around and be like okay these people have half the followers that I do, they get a quarter of the views that I do, why the fuck are they getting all this shit and I am not. That's when I started looking into getting brand deals and trying to reach out to brands and it just wasn't fucking working, It didn't work. It didn't go good. I couldn't find any brands I gave a fuck about enough to like, rip their shit. Like I find a lot of like booty-ass brands that were like, oh, I'll send you stuff for free promo and I'm like, bitch,
Starting point is 00:04:35 my follow account is past the point of like, sending me free shit for a post. It's like, now you gotta start paying for a post because if I'm advertising to hundreds of thousands of people that ain't free. Like I can't rip myself off. Like I have to understand what I have is like monetizable. But I really didn't put that much effort into it, but I couldn't find anybody that I was like, okay, this could be a thing. So I just kind of quit when I had around 200,000 followers. Like I just stopped trying to reach out to brands. I stopped giving a fuck. I was not seeing the benefits of having followers.
Starting point is 00:05:08 I just had followers. So when I realized I didn't feel anything toward gaining new followers, that was why. It's because for fucking what? Like, if I'm not getting anything for it, it literally just is a number on a fucking screen. I'm finally starting to see a little bit of something because the coaching thing is like starting to pick up.
Starting point is 00:05:24 Like, a lot of people have already scheduled so far and I've done a few calls and I'm like whoa But I'm starting to see changes But the thing that made me make all these changes was not seeing any fucking benefit So I literally had to face the realization of like Nothing in my life has changed. So why do I give a fuck about my follower account? But then I was like all alright fucker, take responsibility. What have you done to change your life?
Starting point is 00:05:49 You know, and that's what fully like brought me into where I am now, and I'm like, god damn it! So like, don't just expect your life to change. That's not how it works. Even if you gain 300,000 followers, your life's not gonna change until you change it. And that made me really fucking up thith. Really, I really, really deep because I've lived a lot of my life feeling powerless to being able to change my life.
Starting point is 00:06:16 So I've always just kind of like subconsciously hoped that getting followers would change my life for me. I wouldn't have to do it. No, bitch, I'm over here and I have to fucking do it. And my life is only changing right now because I've started changing it. Like you have to put deliberate action into changing your life or changing something if you want to change it. And that was my full like, come apart, I had with that.
Starting point is 00:06:39 And it fucking just, like it just works the shit out of me. Because I can see logically now now it doesn't make sense but I can see how I was hopeful before and why I wanted something to just change my life like when you feel powerless and you feel like you can't change anything you're gonna shoot for shit that you think will help you change it or change it for you so it made sense the beliefs I was operating from and the hope that I had but I got to a point where outside shit wasn't helping, so I had to face the fact that I'm the one in control, and then I started making the changes. And now, oh my god, guess what? My life is changing. But that's my first point for this episode,
Starting point is 00:07:15 is like, if you want to change, you got to be the one to fucking do it. And I know everybody says that. So I'm going to get a little more in depth and give you some more advice, not just some cookie cutter bullshit like that. And nothing's gonna come save you. Like I hoped social media would save me. It didn't. It literally fucking didn't. And it made me feel worse about where I was at because I'm like, God damn it. Why is it not working? And instead of questioning myself and my own value and being like, why am I not good enough? Why is it happening for everybody else and not me? I looked for my power in the situation instead of looking for how I was not good enough. And that's what led me to seeing the things
Starting point is 00:07:53 that were in my control and now taking control of them and creating the changes I wanted. So in the process of making my changes that I've been making to my life, I've had a lot of things piss me the fuck off, and a lot of those things are morning routines, in daily routines, like the shit that you see on TikTok and you see all over social media,
Starting point is 00:08:14 like people glorifying their morning routine, like they wake up, they read a book, they meditate, they drink lemon water, they go on a walk, they have a nice, hearty breakfast with like 45 fucking ingredients. Like these people glorify the living shit out of drinking some fucking water and waking up in the morning. Like girl, why y'all doing so goddamn much? I don't understand why social media has made it seem so productive to simply survive. Like I don't get it. I don't fucking get it. But that was my problem is I was doing all this shit and I thought that by living healthy that I was like
Starting point is 00:08:52 accomplishing something. But I wasn't accomplishing shit toward the goals I actually had and the changes I actually wanted to make. Like I was doing so many things in the day that we're actually not producing an outcome for the changes I wanted to see. Like I was doing so many things in the day that we're actually not producing an outcome for the changes I wanted to see. So that's really my first tip. My biggest fucking tip if you want to make a change, look at your like daily actions you take and look at very clear on the direct actions you're taking to create the changes that you want to make. So whatever your goal is, look at the actions you're taking daily. And as soon as you do this, you're going to realize you're not even doing like a quarter of what you thought you were doing. You're not actually being
Starting point is 00:09:38 a quarter of as productive as you thought you were being toward achieving your goal. You're doing so much other fluffy bullshit that everybody is making seem like cool. Like going to the gym is not like an accomplishment to me anymore. Because yeah, I want to look a certain way. I want to stay healthy. Great. But that's not going to help me move. That's not going to help me make an income. That's not going to help me change my fucking life.
Starting point is 00:10:02 That's literally just maintenance of my human body to not die and to look cute. Like eating, drinking, fucking water, sleeping. That's just basic survival to me. Hygiene, I don't look at that as being productive anymore. Cause I used to put that shit on my to-do list. Like, oh, it's all over my to-do list. My to-do list is fucking huge.
Starting point is 00:10:23 But when I looked at my to-do list, after I had this new mindset, I was like, oh, it's all over my to-do list. My to-do list is fucking huge. But when I looked at my to-do list, after I had this new mindset, I was like, girl, you ain't actually doing shit to get toward your goals. Like you're doing all this fluff and it's making you feel productive, but you're not actually being productive because you're not actually moving toward your goal.
Starting point is 00:10:36 You're just doing a bunch of shit. So I had to get very clear on what I was actually doing for the goal I wanted to achieve. And by realizing all this other shit that I was doing that took up space and took time away from what I actually could be doing to work on things became very clear. And I started knocking that shit out. Like eating, I don't make eating a big deal. Like I meal prep, I have my meals, I fucking eat them and I keep going. And there's a lot of other things I've done
Starting point is 00:11:08 to simplify my life. I still make sure I get everything done, I need to get done for like my life and surviving as a human. I get it. Like we have certain things we wanna do, of course. Make time for it, do it, get it done. But don't look at that as being productive.
Starting point is 00:11:20 So what I had to do is like completely change my mindset where basic survival, I no longer perceive and I no longer look at as Being productive. So if something is just considered surviving I don't make it seem like it's productive. I just make that a given. I make that my baseline Expectation of what I expect myself to do for myself as a living human being. So doing that leaves me at the end of the day with an urge to do more, to accomplish more, and to know and be aware, I'm not actually doing shit toward my goals. So if I want to actually create change, I need to make a whole other list of all the things that I could be
Starting point is 00:11:58 doing to work toward whatever it is I want to work toward. Then I'm going to feel more confident that changes are coming because I can clearly see the impact they're having. But when you just have a long list of shit and you're not mentally clear about what's accomplishing what, you're going to feel very productive, you're going to feel like you have a lot of things to do, you're going to be overwhelmed, you're going to feel tired. But you're not going to see results
Starting point is 00:12:19 because all that shit's lost in translation basically. So that's a really big step is knockout all this glamorization of basic survival and human shit. Like people, I swear to God y'all, these TikToks piss me off. The shit that people post online of their daily routines is honestly my version of fucking hell. Like them being up in the skyrise apartments with the perfect fucking like furniture and the perfect bed and the nice city view And like and they go to the perfect gym and their perfect little outfit and nothing is dirty and everything is just perfect Like that's my personal version of fucking hell with our lemon water
Starting point is 00:12:57 Ugh, I'm sorry, but waking up in the morning and drinking hot lemon water is like drinking stomach acid Fuck that shit, I'll do cold water. If I have the energy to throw the lemon in it, I will. But fuck a lemon, like girl, I'm busy. Let me hit my water, my vitamins, and let me go brush my teeth, and fuck and get on with my goddamn day. I'm not trying to cut up no fucking lemon
Starting point is 00:13:16 and boil some water, like girl, I have shit to do. But yeah, that's my version of fucking hell. Like the perfect life in the sky right as a apartment, and like having the Tesla and going to the perfect gym and like, oh your appearance is like, ugh, like the hope living perfectly like that makes me fucking cringe, like I hate it. Like when I move into my fucking apartment in Houston,
Starting point is 00:13:36 I'm literally gonna have a mattress on the floor and like no fucking furniture. I don't want shit. Like I'm gonna afford to buy it. Like I have my savings, I'm okay. I'm gonna afford to buy furniture and shit. I just don't want it. Like I'm gonna afford to buy it. Like I have my savings. I'm okay. I'm gonna afford to buy furniture and shit. I just don't want it. Like I want it to look a little grunge.
Starting point is 00:13:49 I want it to look a little like real. I don't want it to look fake. And like I'm living in a fucking props studio. I genuinely have no urge to buy shit. Like I don't. I really don't give a fine fuck. Like I want a fake plant. I want to match it on the floor.
Starting point is 00:14:03 Maybe a couch and maybe some bar stools. But girl, with my kitchen appliances, I'm gonna splurge as fuck. Airfire, curing, goddamn, dice and vacuum. I'm gonna have all the nice shit, like anything I need, I'm gonna buy it. But when it comes to like decorating a furniture and making things look pretty, it, I'm good.
Starting point is 00:14:21 I want it to be functional. And I match it on the floor, it's just fucking fine. I have a weird obsession with that. Like I just want my mattress on the fucking floor. There's just something about it that like, like I just don't have to take life seriously. Like it's just fun. I'm gonna go run and jump on my fucking mattress on the floor.
Starting point is 00:14:37 Like I grew up living on pallets. Like my grandma used to always make me pallets in the living room. And like I would just live on the pallet and like I would just hang out on it. And it's like, that's my adult version of that. It's like a mattress on the floor. I don't know, I fucking love it. And everything white, everything's gonna be fucking white
Starting point is 00:14:54 if I'm allowed to paint it. But I don't know, we'll see. Okay, let me stop talking about all that. That's just the whole bunch we don't need to hear. But I'm not someone that's okay with like wanting something and not feeling like I'm working toward it. Like I'm not able to just set a goal out in the future and then just not take actions
Starting point is 00:15:13 to it, you know. I'm glad these type people have the time in the day to make these fucking videos, making their morning routine look like the most special and aesthetic thing in the world. Cool, good for you, but where the consumer of these videos, where the viewers, so I want to make sure that your brain is not getting fucked up in this. Doing the pretty shit, making your morning routine look pretty, it might not actually be productive. It might be though.
Starting point is 00:15:41 So if you want to continue doing whatever you're doing, do it. But become aware of what's actually going to get you toward your goals or not. Because at the end of the day, you want to be able to feel good and feel like you're moving toward your goals. That's a huge thing is accountability and reassurance that you're making a difference in your life. That's a big thing for me. And of course, this can be taken into the toxic ass hustle culture shit, but that's not what I'm talking about. The people that listen to my podcast, y'all fucking get it. You're aware enough to not be fucking stupid and work yourself into the ground. So even if you want to do that, do it bitch. Humans
Starting point is 00:16:19 are capable of handling so much more than we think. Okay, we're not as fucking fragile. And we don't need to be babyed as much as people think. Like, what you're able to create and do as a physical human, you could probably do 10 times what you think you're capable of. And that's the truth. But I really like sound like one of the impregnancy fucking assholes right now. Like, you just gotta work, you just gotta fucking
Starting point is 00:16:43 grind, bro. Like, I'm not talking about that y'all in promise. I'm just got to work, you just got to fucking grind, bro. Like I'm not talking about that y'all in promise. I'm just saying get accountable and get realistic with what you're doing. Like see the reality of the way you're living for the truth of it. Like see what is actually going on. And if you're confused while you're not achieving shit, look at what you're doing to work toward it. But my next tip with all this is when you make the list of what you're going to do daily, make a list of actions you can take because human beings are conscious creators. We are here on this earth to create. If you are not creating shit and creating change and causing like ripples in like the whore.
Starting point is 00:17:27 You're like not fucking fulfilling what you're supposed to be doing. Like that's what we're here for. People get fucked up when they try to suppress and do not act on their creative ability and they're creative like what's it called energy? Like we're meant to create. We're not meant to fucking manifest. Shut up with the whole manifestation shit and get based in real life for a second.
Starting point is 00:17:49 And like look at what you're doing everyday to create what you want. So make a list of things you can do daily to help create and bring about what it is you want. Like you're meant to create it. Not mindlessly just think happy thoughts and manifest it. Air fat fucking air quotes are down manifest. I don't like that whole idea of it. I used to be very into it, but it is named me fucking lazy and hopeful and let me down because nothing was fucking working.
Starting point is 00:18:07 Because we're meant to create it. We're meant to do it. Not think about it and envision it and picture it and buy crystals. Like, yeah, all those things are great, but that's not it. The biggest part of it is conscious action. And I'm all those things are great, but that's not it. The biggest part of it is conscious action and conscious creation. So yeah, make your list of action steps that you can do
Starting point is 00:18:35 so that you can also reassure yourself. That's what I use these lists for. I'm a very big like list maker because I can look at it and reassure myself, okay, this is fine because when I get emotional and upset, it's hard to think logically. So if you can have something in front of you like a notebook or something written on paper, it's sitting in front of you, you can look at it even when you're emotional and reassure
Starting point is 00:18:55 yourself. There's no fighting it. Like, if the actions are directly going to get you where you want to go and you're upset feeling like you're not doing enough, you can really look at the paper and reassure yourself, you're doing great, you're doing fine, okay? Not cool it. Cry, let it out, and then fucking get it together. Okay, so I'm gonna take a second to get off
Starting point is 00:19:13 like the fucking preachy shit and get into like the emotional side of it and believing in yourself that you are able to make a change or to change your life. So if you were like me in the beginning of this when I was talking about how I was, where I felt powerless to make changes in my life, you're gonna have to do something drastic
Starting point is 00:19:34 to prove to yourself you do have control over things. You do have control over your life. You can at any moment choose to do whatever you fucking want. And that is so important if you don't feel like you're able to make a change and you don't feel like something is in your control, it is very important to you for you to do something big, to disrupt shit, to show, hey, I can create change. You need to prove that to yourself.
Starting point is 00:20:01 So I don't care what it is, but that's one thing that's really big is like to create a shift from hell. Like, that's why I'm running away and changing my life right now. Like, I'm literally running away to Houston soon. And when this episode releases, I'll be in Houston looking out apartments. I'm recording this early before Sunday. But, I need to prove to myself, I can create a change. A big part of that, because a lot of people are like, financially, they let things hold them back.
Starting point is 00:20:29 So you don't need to make a change where you need to risk finances, but I did, because I kept telling myself, oh, I'll move once I can make $5,000 a month, relatively passively, or I can figure out something that I can do, and make at least five grand a month. That's what I would feel comfortable moving out and living normal with. So I was telling myself until I can make $5,000 a month I'm not moving.
Starting point is 00:20:53 And that's why I have not moved for the last year because I've been wanting to move since May of 2021. But trying to live like that, beat me down and it pushed me up against the fucking wall of powerlessness because I was like, I can't seem to create this amount of money for myself without being fucking miserable. So I was looking at it like, if I want to move out, I have to go work a fucking job. I hate in order to make the money. So what I told myself was, fuck the money. Like I'm now at a point where I was up against the wall
Starting point is 00:21:29 of such deep hopelessness. I was like, I don't give a fuck about the money anymore. I'm not gonna allow the money to keep me trapped and make it be justification for why I can't leave. I need to feel like I can change my life. I'm gonna fucking do it. I'm moving. I'm at a place where I'm so fucking hopeless, I don't give a shit. I'm gonna fucking just move and I will figure it the fuck out, but I'm proving to myself I can make a fucking change and I can change my life.
Starting point is 00:21:58 And a big thing that that came from was from starting to care about the way that I feel. So I preach that in all my episodes and I will preach it for the ever until the fucking day I die. Carrying how I feel is what has led me here to finally have the courage to say, fuck it, I don't care because I do not enjoy my life. I am not okay with living the life that I'm living right now. I no longer want to live it. So I look at the way that I'm feeling and I'm going to take myself into consideration. I'm going to care that I'm unhappy with my life and do what I can to get myself out of
Starting point is 00:22:36 it and do what I can to change it. I'm not going to make myself try to become okay with living a life I don't want to live. And that's my biggest point with this podcast is do not try to make yourself become okay with something you're not okay with. Put your energy instead into trying to change it or flip it. Because I've tried. I've tried to become okay with living here and living at home with my dad and living in Pensacola, but I keep coming up against the same wall of hopelessness, but this time I'm approaching it differently. I'm done trying to make myself become okay because I have an easy life here and I don't pay rent.
Starting point is 00:23:18 I can live for fucking free with my dad and everything's fine. I can logically see how anyone else in my position would be happy to have this, but for me personally, I want more. I don't know what I want, but I know I want more. I want different. And that's okay. It doesn't have to make sense to anybody else. It doesn't even have to make sense to me. All I have to fucking do is follow the way that I feel about it. If it doesn't feel right, if I don't fucking like it and I'm not happy being here, I'm going to say, okay me, scoop myself up
Starting point is 00:23:48 and we're gonna go make a fucking change. I'm getting the fuck out of here. I'm not gonna try to force myself to stay here where I'm unhappy and force myself to stay somewhere. I'm not okay. Mentally, this place is fucking killing me. There's so many reasons I want to move to a bigger city and get the fuck out of this place,
Starting point is 00:24:07 but that's not really the point of this episode. So my whole spiel came to that with caring about the way that you feel. And if you're uncomfortable, caring that you're uncomfortable, and caring that you're unhappy, and caring that you wake up every day feeling fucking hopeless. Okay, I only let that last for three days.
Starting point is 00:24:27 Like I hit this one wall of hopelessness like last week and I thought it would just like go away or I thought I could kick it or I thought I could continue with like doing my lives and helping people and I just it wouldn't go away. That lingering just like hopelessness wouldn't go away and it was stronger than ever. And times before I wasn't as strong as I am now to handle it, I know where it led me. And it led me to a very, very bad fucking place multiple times. So this time I completely changed my approach to it. And this time I actually care about how I feel and I'm going to prioritize how I feel.
Starting point is 00:25:07 I'm not letting myself go through that. I'm not letting that fucking shit happen to me anymore. I'm not letting myself stay here. And I care about myself and the way that I feel more than I care about potentially not having money to pay my fucking bills. Like I have a credit card. I've never been in credit card debt, but I'll make it fucking work. I'll go bartend if I have to. I'll go back to nursing. I literally will figure it the fuck out. But all I know is I got to prioritize me.
Starting point is 00:25:36 So that's something that's really gonna help all of you make a change. Is when you shift your energy from making yourself feel comfortable with something you're not comfortable with into looking for the ways you can change it and bring about change. Like that's going to completely flip everything. And I never thought I'd make it out of here. I'm going to be really honest. I didn't think I'd ever make it out. And this is the mindset shift that has made it possible and I'm actually getting
Starting point is 00:26:08 out so I wanted to make sure I shared it because this is the most life-changing thing that I've ever experienced. One more thing I want to ramble about off the emotional track is consistency so if you're gonna make a change, or you're gonna try to do something different, and you're gonna change your daily routine, set a time limit, set a date for how long you're gonna do it first. Like that's a really, really important fucking thing.
Starting point is 00:26:36 All right, I promise. I know it sounds a little nuts, but as long as there's an end date, for when you're gonna stop doing the things you're doing, it helps you do them longer It helps you do them better, okay? It helps you feel like a little bit more hopeful. So if you're like, okay, I'm gonna do these action steps every day for the next 30 days and then I'm gonna see how my life changes and then I'll make a whole new list of what I'm gonna start doing
Starting point is 00:26:59 Give yourself the 30 days or 60 days or however long you want it to be and Then work toward it and do it for those 60 days commit to that time frame and then you can reassess and Change what you're doing but when you're trying to make a change and you keep fucking switching directions every three four days or every Week you're trying to do new shit. It's like no, no, no Just do what you said you were gonna do for the time limit that you set and then keep going because you have to do things consistently to see like improvements or changes, you know, you can't just do something once and be like, oh,
Starting point is 00:27:33 all the good, like where's the change at? Unless it's something drastic or like you go what I fucking mean, it's not like cutting your hair or it's like you cut it once and it's cut, it's like working out, like you got to fucking keep going, It sucks and I fucking hate it, but I love it at the same time. But I do want to tell you that the confidence and the like genuine happiness you will feel when you show yourself that you do have control over things and you can and will change your reality. Bitch, it's like the best feeling I've ever felt and I literally fucking like balled my
Starting point is 00:28:10 eyes out about it like an hour and a half before I recorded this. Like I was supposed to record this earlier and I'm about to be late to my haircut. But girl, I just had to fucking let it out. Like I couldn't stop crying like I was just so happy. Like genuinely just so fucking happy and proud of myself and I felt supported in a way I've never felt supported before because I had my back. I wasn't gonna let myself stay here and be upset anymore. It's like I had my own back and the more that I'm exposing to myself that I can't create changes, the more that I'm trusting myself and believing
Starting point is 00:28:46 that I'm in good hands. Like, I feel like I'm in good hands with myself because like, I'll do what it fucking takes and I'll make it work. And feeling safe with yourself is a shit. I can't fucking describe a single thing that feels better. Like, I would rather feel safe with myself
Starting point is 00:29:03 than have 10 million dollars. Honest of fucking God, because feeling unsafe with yourself, nothing is worth that. Nothing is fucking worth that, and money can't buy that. You have to build that. You have to create that. You have to show yourself that you have your own fucking back, and you're not going to let yourself be miserable. I hope after listening to this episode, you feel a little bit better about whatever change you're trying to make. I hope you feel inspired. I hope you feel prepared, and ready, and like hopeful, a little bit. But I really just wanted to make sure I shared all this with you guys, because it really
Starting point is 00:29:33 helped me, and I think it will really help you. If you like this podcast, I just have one request, and it's that you go leave me a 5 star rating. Thank you so much. If you want to keep up with me, all of my social media will be linked in the description of this podcast. Also if you are interested in one-on-one coaching with me, I have now created an application process so it's no longer just free to schedule. I'm doing applications now to keep up with
Starting point is 00:29:57 the demand because it just got too high so now I'm screening people basically to see who's a good fit and who's not. Because I want to work with action takers. I want to work with people that are serious about transforming their life. Because the shit that I say, y'all know, that's what it's for. And where I specialize is with the people that have been looking for answers they can't find, and the people that have been trying shit and it's just not working. I'm the person that those people can go to. So if you're interested in that,
Starting point is 00:30:28 I will put the link to the application in the description box also. And I wanna make it very clear that you've already got what it takes to get through what you're dealing with or to improve your life or to reach your goals. And I'll help you see that. And it's gonna be a lot easier when you got me in your corner
Starting point is 00:30:44 because of that's exactly how I want it to feel I want it to feel like you have someone that has your back and like I'm in your corner because that's what it is like I'm there for you and I'm there to do shit with you But anyways, thank you so much for listening Please stay safe and take care of yourself and I will talk to you next Sunday and I will talk to you next Sunday.

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