Aware & Aggravated - 38. Influencers & Misplaced Confidence

Episode Date: August 14, 2022

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Hi friends, so this week I want to talk some shit about social media. I'm going to share some realizations and then I'm going to rant for a minute because I have some shit going on and just pissing me off that I keep seeing on social media. And one of the realizations I'm going to share about posting online and like being online is one of the things that actually helped me move away and change my life. First off, let's just jump into this shit. Social media gives people a false sense of importance. And I'm not talking about people with followers,

I'm talking about people without followers too. Like I have some followers, it's like, oh, cute fun. But it gives day-to-day normal people a false sense of importance also. Because you're posting shit, and you feel like people are keeping up with you. It's like, you feel like people are watching you watching you feel like people actually give a fuck about you So you're like posting your outfit you're posting your dinner you're posting your this posting your that it's like people feel The impulse to post everything they're doing because they think people care

Like that's kind of like the vibe it gives you like it makes you feel like someone's watching you Like people give a fuck about you and they want to know what you're up to. And this makes you feel better about your life. It makes you feel good about your life, even if it's a life that you don't like. You're getting positively reinforced that people care about what you're doing, so it makes you weirdly in your mind feel better about the life that you're living,

and it makes you wanna keep posting. Like, yes, some people do look at your page because they wanna keep up with you, but a lot of people don't. Like the reality is, most people get on social media for a distraction. They just want to like get online and just go play. So like, anytime there's a void in someone's day like you're waiting at the post office, you're fucking driving in their lights red.

You just get on your phone real quick and you just like start scrolling to distract yourself or like you're doing cardio Or you get in bed and you're just like bored and you're laying there so you just start scrolling social media People just scroll social media. They're not getting on to look at you You're just what pops up when they get online like I've had to humble the fuck out of myself I people don't actually give a fuck what I'm doing some people do and I get that but majority of people I'm just what comes up like when they're on social media like they're looking for a distraction And I just happen to be there You know like people are not like watching my shit and eating it up

But I think they are cuz like I've noticed I've been so like stressed about what I post Cuz I feel like people give a fuck they don't they fucking don't no one is watching my shit and people give a fuck. They don't, they fucking don't. No one is watching my shit and analyzing it as hard as I am. Like I am analyzing it and I see every piece of content that I post and I'm very like perfectionist about it. But I realize like not everybody sees everything you post and not everybody gives a fuck. Like genuinely. But the way that this realization helped me change my life and like it's the reason that I fully move the way is feeling good about yourself on social media because you post it shit and you shared your dinner.

Like I just say you share the story of your dinner and 300 people watched it or a thousand people watched it. Whatever it is, it's like people are watching me. Like it gives you this sense of like, oh my god, like people care what I'm up to, they care what I'm doing. And like you get in this false reality of like thinking people give a fuck. And I'm not trying to be care what I'm doing. And like you get in this false reality of like thinking people, give a fuck.

And I'm not trying to be a negative Nancy and like a Debbie Downer and be like, nobody gives a fuck about you, but social media heightens it when it shouldn't. Like a lot of people are not actually doing shit with their life. Like they're posting their fucking lemon water in the morning and they think they have a sense

of accomplishment because people are watching their story. Babe, they were swiping because they wanted distraction and your little lemon water just popped out. Like, I'm so sorry to say it, but literally like social media will get you in the mindset that you're important and that people care about you. And it's a weird thing because that distracts you from the reality of your actual life. And this will give you a false sense of connection. I think that's the better way to say it. It's not that you aren't important, but you're going to feel

a lot more connected to people than you actually are. And you're going to feel like a lot more people are concerned about you. And this will become a dicting and you will get addicted as fuck to posting online because that's your sense of connection. That's your sense of feeling good. So that's how I actually got to the point where I was ready to move. Like, I was looking at my social media presence online. I'm like, okay, I have followers, cute, fun. But what is my actual life?

Like when I stopped letting social media distract me from what my life actually was and how I actually felt about my life, I was sat square in the reality of it and it wasn't a fucking comfortable reality. Like it was like, oh shit actually felt about my life. I was sat square in the reality of it and it wasn't a fucking comfortable reality. Like it was like, oh shit, this is my life. Like take away the distraction of social media. Take away feeling like people give a fuck about you.

Take away all that. Like turn your phone off and then look at your life. What the fuck? Literally that's what came out of my mouth when I did that. I was like, what the literal fuck is my life? Like if I turn my phone off, all my followers disappear. All my content disappears. Like if I just look at the square reality of what my life is, I was like, damn, like I'm not actually doing as good as I thought I was, and that's the fucking problem. Social media makes everybody think that they're

doing a lot better than they actually are, because it makes you feel like people are watching you and keeping up with you when they're fucking not. It's just the appearance of that. But these social media platforms have watching you and keeping up with you when they're fucking not. It's just the appearance of that. But these social media platforms have been engineered and set up in a way to make you addicted to them as a consumer, like as you're watching other people, and you also get addicted to posting. Like your whole sense of self is like tied up

and it sometimes, and your sense of feeling good and feeling like important is tied up in that. It's a basic need of a human being, is to feel important. And these apps have literally like capitalized on that to make us addicted to them. Cause like everyone posts their story and no one posts with intention anymore. No one actually like takes time to post like meaningful shit or like anything that matters to them.

It's like, oh, they're just posting their daily routine and they're fucking coffee They had and they're random shit. It's like girl who literally gives a fuck like you don't I mean like it's cute and It's nice to watch I like when people post certain things I'm not for the fucking lemon water in the coffee. We get a bitch But everybody posts it like everybody is posting everything they do in a day But I was doing the same thing until I broke out of that. Like I was posting all my random little day to day shit, thinking that somebody gave a fuck,

and then once I realized like, yo, what is your life actually? Stop with the image you're putting online, stop with sharing shit that doesn't matter. Like take it away for a second, and look at your actual life and how you actually feel and stop trying to feel better about it. Like get square in the reality with the fuck your life is, dude. That was just a big thing for me

because once I looked at my life and became so uncomfortable and I was like, ew, like I'm changing it. And literally within a week, I moved away and changed my whole fucking life. Like that realization set me the fuck free. But now I just look around on social media and I'm like, what the fuck is everybody doing? Like people put so much effort into their posts

and I'm like, girl, what the fuck? Like I understand it's most people's jobs but I'm talking like normal people. Like people with like a thousand followers that are just like normal and not trying to have a big presence online. Like what the fuck are y'all stressing out so hard for? So Betty Bop in the fucking town you grew up in

can look at what you're doing. It makes people feel the sense of importance. That's not real. Like this, I'm just trying to like break that down for everybody, because it fucked me up for so long. Like I was just living in this reality of like social media has found like, oh, it made me feel better about who I am and what I'm actually doing. And as soon as I realized social media has found that go, if it made me feel better about who I am and what I'm actually doing.

And as soon as I realized social media helped me feel better about the life I was living, I was like, oh, fuck, like that's where the awareness kicked in and I was like, why is it making me feel better? Why is social media making me feel better about my life? Like that should not be happening. Like escaping your reality and playing on a little platform should not make you feel better, okay? You should feel good in your normal day to day life as it is.

So that let me know that there was like a big disconnect of like, I'm not truly happy in my life. And realizing that made me understand, I need to have a life that I truly enjoy living and then share parts of it. It's like the trend now on social media to not live an exciting life. It's just to make it look like you're living an exciting life. Like you're supposed to have a life everybody wants and be sharing parts of that. Not just orchestrating it to look like you have a good life online. Am I making sense or am I just talking fucking shit? Because I feel like nobody is like worth the shit anymore. Like everybody just lives for social media. They don't live and then

share it on social media. And that's one of the main reasons so many influencers are burning the fuck out. Like so many people are quitting. So many people are like, oh my god, I have to take a mental health break. It's because they're orchestrating their life to look pretty. They don't actually have a pretty life. Like, there's only exhaustion when there's a disconnect between who you actually are and the image you're portraying. That's exhausting to keep up. But if you actually had a life you liked, you'd just be sharing parts of it casually. I don't know where the fuck my voice is going, but it's trying to run away.

And one more part with that I'm going to get into in a few minutes is trying to just casually share your life is no longer cool anymore. If it's not high production, high quality, people are stressing the fuck out. So it's like even if you just wanna share a casual part of your life, so much effort goes into trying to make it look better and make it look pretty and make it look well-produced.

That's fucking exhausting and it's annoying. Like even if you do have a happy and exciting life, it's not gonna look that exciting because everybody else's image they're putting on is so fucking fake and it's so over the top that where you actually have a life that you're happy, it doesn't look like you're that happy because these other people are like blow and smoke up

you're fucking ass with what they're posting. It's just the comparison thing of like I could be sharing my actual life and how I'm doing good, but if I'm not doing 10 times more than what I'm currently doing like Joe Schmo here on the side with his fucking Lamborghini like my life doesn't look that great. And I've actually fallen into this trap before too. Like you're trying to create content, you're trying to make shit so important. But what you need to be trying to do is make your life worthy of content. Like so it's easy to just pull out a fucking camera, record a tidbit of what you're actually doing, and then share it. But it's so backwards now. Like it's so inauthentic. It's so like, I'm thinking of ideas to make it look like my life is pretty.

How do I keep thinking of more ideas? But people don't realize, my fucker, make your life better and it'll be easier to film it. And I haven't figured this out fully, like I'm still working on it too. But that's just one of the things I've realized recently and I'm working on implementing that. Because I'm living a life that like I'm so busy

and doing so much shit, but I actually enjoy it. And now I'm at the point where I'm working on implementing that because I'm living a life that like I'm so busy and doing so much shit But I actually enjoy it and now I'm at the point where I'm not recording so much because I'm actually like Enjoying my life and getting shit done like it's the weirdest thing It's like I know I'm saying make a good life so you can share that but I'd be having fun now Like I don't ever pull out my fucking phone and not that type like I always forget to pull out my phone I'd be forgetting that my influencer like I don't ever pull out my fucking phone and not that type like I always forget to pull out my phone I be forgetting I'm an influencer like I don't even like to fucking say that but like I do have an obligation kind of now to post online and I let it stress me out for so long and I'm just like no like if I'm not doing shit I'm not posting or

like if I'm just busy working like I'm not posting I'm fucking get my business done I hope these thoughts are making sense because it makes sense of my fucking brain. And it's been the weirdest thing to watch once I became aware of all this and stop really like doing it. Like I don't know what the fuck I'm doing with my social media. Like I want to change it. I want to fucking delete it all but I can't because it's like everything I do now. Like everything I do now is dependent on it. Like I can't just fucking shut my shit off. So I'm kind of stuck with it but I really want to change what I post and how I post but I'm like what the fuck am I doing even? You know like I want to post with more intention and Get out of the mindset of like people give a fuck what I'm doing like they don't they genuinely don't so

My social media got very draining like posting on social media got draining as fuck But now I'm just kind of like like posting on social media got draining as fuck, but now I'm just kind of like being a lot more casual. I'm stop trying to be so like perfect, and I'm just like fucking around now. Like I'm at the point, I'm just like fucking around. Like I just do what I wanna post, and I make sure I have fun with it,

because if you don't have fun with it, it'll turn into a task. So now I just post what I want. Like I don't get the fuck anymore. I'm just like whatever I'm over it. Like I'll post little things, I post my little get ready with me on TikTok, and like it did good, and I'm just like whatever I'm over it. Like I'll post little things I post my little get ready with me on TikTok and like it did good and I'm just like this is funny as shit Like I literally don't care about social media anymore

Like it's annoying and now I'm gonna start ranting. Okay, I got the deep shit out of the way But now I just want to run my mouth like literally Everybody now is somebody on social media like everybody is a somebody and I fucking hate it. There's so much to unpack with this, but typically like people didn't have like super good quality content unless they were big or unless they were somebody. And what I mean by somebody is like,

you have a lot of followers, like you're somebody big. Like you were given the opportunity to have like super well produced content because you made it and Now everybody has a nice camera and everybody has like super good quality shit like girl What the fuck is going on like I can't tell who is a somebody and who's actually important and who's not because like Joe Schmose that go to my gym have like two thousand followers and they have like Next level like drop fivek on a fucking camera and they have the top of the top quality

for their pictures and I'm like, who is this? It's too accessible now. It's like everybody looks like a somebody because having like really, really well orchestrated content and like pictures and like high quality shit is so accessible to everyone now. You can't tell who actually is a somebody and it's the biggest mind fuck.

Cause I'm like, oh, they must be big. No girl, they got like 2k. I'm like, what the fuck are you doing? I have so many followers and I'm like, I don't even give a shit. Like I literally just like, I want to have the good quality content, but like, I don't care. So I'm like, how do y'all care? Can y'all tell me the trick? Cause I don't give a fuck.

But the other thing with that, like everything is so mass-produced, and I'm fucking sick of it. Like everything is mass-produced. Like what the fuck? No one is just like making random ass videos anymore. And like everyone is so effort. Like everybody's putting so much effort into what they're posting. I'm like girl, let's just fucking make it easy.

I don't like to post things that are like difficult to create. Like I just want easy little things to like throw together and post. Like I don't want to post things that are like difficult to create. Like I just want easy little things to like throw together and post. I don't want to put the effort into it. But like that's how social media used to be. No one put effort and it was just random little tidbits of your life. Now everybody is so fucking orchestrated and perfecting the image that they have on social media. So now it's like uncommon to have normal quality content. Like if you don't have mass produced shit,

you're looked at like a fucking idiot and like you don't know what you're doing. Like it's weird. Like it's so weird. It's intimidating and I'm sick of it. Like I don't like to have to put effort into pictures and shit in videos. Like literally girl, turn your fucking phone off and everything that you just worked on all day is gone.

Like we work so hard and put so much effort. In supposing shit online, when online doesn't exist, it's not a tangible thing. It's like a little glass box is our phone. We waste all this time of our actual life, living our actual being, and like being a human. We spend the time that we have to experience life making fucking content. That doesn't exist really. Like, you literally shut your phone off, you turn off Wi-Fi and everything you did was for nothing. Like there's no, it makes sense.

Like it's weird wrapping my mind around it. Like I don't want to put effort into making my life look good anymore and like making it look pretty online. I want to put my effort into having a good life and that's what I've been doing. And my social media is like slacking because of it. Cause like, even if I post my life as it is now, it's fucking great, it's way better than it's ever been. But it won't appear that great

because there's so many other people posting online that their lives are a hundred times better than they actually are. So like me living a normal good life is not shit compared to what's out there. And it's like, I don't even care to fucking put the effort into it. Like, girl, I'm gonna just do my goddamn thing. Like I said, I'm just ranting at this point,

but social media's really been pissing me off. Like, it's so weird now. And the biggest thing is like, everybody's a somebody, and I can't get off that. Like, I don't know why it aggravates the shit out of me. People really are a fucking nobody, but they have their really good camera quality and they're really like mass produced content, but like what they're sharing is actually shit.

But one thing I do think is really fucking funny is when people get pissy, when they aren't gaining followers, like everybody thinks the trick is to have perfect quality content and you'll grow. But people are spending all this money on like editors and all these expensive-ass cameras. Their quality is fucking immaculate. It's 10 out of 10, but they still aren't growing. Everyone's trying to figure out the cheat code and they think that's it. Like sure, high quality content will help you grow a little bit, but now it doesn't matter if you have quality content because everybody fucking does. Like it's not the flex anymore. Like everybody's like, oh, I'll just go be hot and it's enough

Everyone's bored of that everyone's fucking bored of the perfect content and everybody being so goddamn fake like now In order for you to grow on social media you have to actually be special and be someone work the fuck You can't just look like you're someone work the fuck because everyone sees through it It makes sense like everybody looks like they are somebody so Everyone's becoming unimpressed by that like you actually have to be someone and share good quality stuff or like actually be funny Actually have a personality actually share valuable information to get followers and people don't like that people don't like it. And it's so funny to watch everybody get pissy. I have one more point I'm gonna make,

and then I'm gonna talk shit about the gym I go to Alpha Land and all the influencers I've been seeing in real life. Yo, I'm about to burst out little bubbles, I'm sorry. But the thing about social media that's really been pissing me off is ads are everywhere. Like literally Instagram, the new algorithm is so beyond fucked. I don't see anyone I actually fucking follow. I'm sick of it. It's ugly. Only thing getting posted is real. Girl, I don't always want to watch a fucking video. I want to look at pictures too.

Like I understand TikTok was doing good and it's all videos like Instagram trying to copy it. What the fuck ever. But ads literally every other fucking video is like god damn ad and it pisses me off. Like I'm actually like so aggravated by it. Like I understand actually like so aggravated by it. Like I understand these apps need to make their money. Like Instagram is like you need to make your money. I get it. But can you space your fucking ads out a little bitch

or can you give me a fucking thing where I can pay $10 a month? I don't have to see a god damn fucking ad because I'm sick of them. Like YouTube bread or premium, whatever it is, it's like 10 bucks a month. I have that so I don't have to watch watch anybody stupid fucking ads. Like I hate advertisements. I fucking hate them, and that's all social media is now. Like even on Instagram stories, like you click two fucking

stories, and then boom, there's an ad. Here's a couch you could buy. Here's a fucking sweater. Like I'm sick of it. Like everything is ads. And even if it's not ads, like everyone that is creating content now is creating shit and using their social media to sell something, like everything is marketed, and I'm like, what the fuck, dude? Like social media is no longer fun. Like social media is annoying as shit. It's so fucking fake, and if it's not fake as fuck,

there's ads everywhere, and if it's not an actual ad, like they paid for the ad, it's someone fucking fake. And if it's not fake as fuck, there's ads everywhere. And if it's not an actual ad like they paid for the ad, it's someone marketing something. Like it's actually the most annoying shit. Like no one just posts on social media to post anymore. It's all calculated and it's all like, ew, I don't know how to explain it. Like everyone's posting to sell something

or posting to feel better about theirself and what they're actually doing with their little shitty booty life and it's like everything is so see-through. And when I say awareness is a curse, it fucking is because I can't enjoy social media anymore, I'm too aware of what's going on. Like I can't enjoy shit. Like reality TV, I used to love it, used to eat it up.

I don't fucking care no more. Like I see through it. I understand so many elements, I know how to break down everything. It's like my brain is not stimulated anymore. And it's scary because all of my life is like on social media. Girl, this really just turned into a fucking rant, huh? I literally just get on social media now

to post my shit and get off. Like I watch my own things and I watch a couple of my friends things but I don't sit in like consume social media anymore. You can't, like you literally will consume ads. That's all you're gonna fucking consume. Ground know where I'm going with this. I'm just kinda going, but I do wanna talk shit

on influencers at the fucking gym that I go to. Yo, you guys have no idea what people look like in real life. Like there's so much more that goes into these influencers than you realize. They are all like two feet tall. I swear to God that the smallest little fucking rugrats I've ever seen running around the gym. Like on social media, they look huge. They look massive. And then you see them in real life and they're like the size of a pack of fucking gum. Like I don't get it.

I literally don't get it. And it's so weird to see someone with so many followers online. And they're so respected for the person that they are online and then the person they are in real life is a fucking wacko, like they're lame. Like they're literally lame as shit, they're insecure as fuck, you can tell by the way that they walk. Like that's one thing, it's like you see all these influencers but you don't see the way that they walk and the way that they carry themselves.

Like they're highly respected in the little world they've created online, but in real life, they know they're a fucking dipshit. They know that they're not shit. Like they literally just walk around so insecure and like scared and timid and I'm like, what the hell? And then you have the other ones that are like overinflated since a fucking ego in public or at the gym or like at clubs and shit.

Like they're overinflated, they're a sense of self, but really like I see you, you're a fucking loser. Like you can just tell by the way that they behave, y'all, when I said being aware is a curse, it's also fun because I get to see through people. Like I know who has followers and who doesn't, by the way that they fucking act sometimes.

You can just spot it. Like I'm very good at that. But there is this one guy on TikTok that screams like motivational shit, like he'll scream at people, get the fuck up and get to the gym and all of a sudden that. And then I saw him at the gym and I was like, girl, you be yelling like that. Like sure, he's in decent shape, but like seeing who he was in real life and the way that

he walks and the way he carried himself, I was like, you're a laughing stock. You online are on there screaming at people like, girl, you, I don't, I'm so baffled by it. Like I'm so baffled. The main reason I'm bringing this up is because I want to put everybody's mind at ease and to help everybody be less and secure because the people you're judging your life against online, like you see these people that are all cool and they're all great, they're all this, they're all that, and then you look at your life and you just subconsciously compare, it's not really them, like they aren't like that in real life, and I want to set everybody free from that mentally, like the people that you idolize online are not this fucking cool, like they're not shit in real life and I hate to sound like I'm just dog in the fucking everybody but I'm very protective of my followers because I care about all of you

and I know how hard it is to be comparing yourself to people online and how much it will fuck with you and your sense of value and your sense of self so I just want to protect you all from that and that's why I'm revealing this shit Like these people are not as cool as you think. They're not anything to be intimidated by. They're nothing special. Like there are some people that are really cool, that have really great content, that are like cool ass people in real life. But most of them are not this special.

And that's the thing is like when you get online, everybody looks special. You think everybody is special. And there's no way that this many people are special is all I'm going to tell you and reassure you of. So you can tell the ones that are actually special. So many more are just an image online. And I don't want you all comparing yourself to the shit that you see because it's not

real. Like this is just what I'm trying to expose in this episode is the reality of it, so that y'all don't feel so bad about yourself, because I don't want anything to hurt you guys. I'm exposing it. Like I'm ranting a little and I'm being a little rough. I know, but I'm not talking shit. I'm just trying to protect you all

and share some of the things that I wish somebody else would have shared. Like someone else that was around influencers, I wish someone else would have posted this a couple of years ago before I got into all this because I felt so bad about myself and like my life and what was online like I was so intimidated by Everything online. I was like my life is not shit But I just want to reassure you guys the norm and like what looks normal online

None of these people are actually experiencing it. Okay, like it's a very small scale of people who are actually special, who are actually balling like you think, and who are actually living a life that you think that you want. Most of this shit is so fake, so I just want to protect you all mentally, and that's what I'm trying to accomplish, but y'all know I just like to complain and talk shit. But that's my motive, and I just want to make that very clear. And girl, the fucking tea that I have about that goddamn gem, these influencers, none of them like

each other. They literally all f- I'm gonna get fucking shit on. I might get into trouble for this, but none of these fucking influencers are friends. None of them fucking like each other. Okay, they literally get together, film content, and fuck off. Like they literally, some of them don't like each other at all, but like they're not friends like it seems. Like none of these influencers. I actually like Bestie Booz, and especially the fucking drama with the photographers.

If you see an influencer with a photographer, and then you see the photographer all of a sudden stop working with them There's a mother fucking problem there. I'm just gonna let you know I know so much tea and I'm not the one to ever like Rad out people's business like I like to be someone that people can talk to because I like to know everything going on I like to know the tea so I'll never fully spill it like I'll never come on here like talking and like Exposing people's fucking shit, but I will say photographers and influencers, if they all of a sudden have a break up,

one of them switched the fuck up. Okay, I'm just going to let you know some people get too big for their fucking bridges. Well, there is the photographer or the influencer, but there's so much snake shit that goes on and there's so much snake shit that goes on. And there's so many weird ass dynamics, but like I said, these people are not friends. Like the people you see online, like, oh my god, I've seen so many of these collabs be so staged and so fucking fake. Like I posted a video with my friend Leslie. Me and her are actually

friends as fuck. Like she's like one of my best friends here. I see her at the gym every day. I've hung out with her like a month before I ever posted anything online of us. Like, we were at her pool getting fucking drunk. We finished a bottle to kill it together. We talked about all our deepest darkest secrets. Like, she's a genuine ass bitch. And like, before I ever got online with her, like,

we were really good friends and we developed a really good friendship. These people you see online are literally like, they don't know a fuck thing about each other. They meet up for the videos so they can get clout from each other. They make a video in dip. And a lot of them like don't like each other, but they want to get the other person's followers and be seen with them so they can grow. Like, it's so fucking fake and it's such bullshit. It's honestly kind of funny.

Like, seeing it, like, I'm, I say it's funny because I'm so shocked. I'm like, what the hell? Like literally moving to Houston was my favorite thing I ever did. Cause I'm getting like all the tea. Like I'm living in it. Like I'm living in the fucking mecca of like all this drama and it is so funny.

And y'all, these people all be fucking each other. Okay. Ha ha ha. Maybe I should cut that out. No, fuck that, it's funny. Like I think it's so fucking funny They all be fucking each other for cloud like they fuck each other for cloud. They fuck each other for videos And a lot of them just fuck each other like it's so messy

Like I just like to sit back and observe like I just like to watch and though everything going on and all of them on drugs All of them on fucking drugs. I'm telling you steroids or Molly coke exes see like party drugs. They're on fucking drugs. I'm telling you steroids or Mali Coke XSE like party drugs. They're on party drugs. But they're on fucking steroids. Most of them were on both. But all these people y'all post them out. There's nutrition, all this health and wellness, all this. This is how you live your lifestyle. Here's my lemon water. Here's my fat burners. They are the most drug using motherfuckers I've ever seen in my

life. Like it's insane. But one thing that's so funny to me About Molly and ecstasy like that's a girl drug Oh my god, I'm so sorry and my opinion like that's a fucking girl drug like to roll Like that's such a bitch thing to do like that's for the girls in the gaze straight guys that roll Well, I don't know why that's so unattractive to me, but like that's for the girls in the gays. Straight guys that roll? Well I don't know why that's so unashracted to me but like that's so pussy. Fitness people especially they love some molly bitch. They love some fucking exes. I just want to say these influencers party a lot and they party hard bitch like you think that they're not gonna spend the money that they have like they're buying

fish scale they're not buying like normal shit but like they are party and heart is fuck and like a lot of them posts like oh I went to the club last night, but I only had water. Girl know the fuck you didn't you have some XC I don't know why this is so funny to me. This is just hilarious to me I have a time of this like I just love knowing everything But the image y'all are seeing online is not these people. Like, it's not fucking them at all. Everybody posts what they think they need to post. Everyone is trying to orchestrate a certain image for hidden motives.

And I'm sick of it. I can't just go back to being normal and just spamming their fucking feed and just stop trying to look perfect. I do want to say that anyone you see me posting in a picture with like on my profiles, they're a genuine ass person and I've tested them. You all know I test everybody, but the people that I post with are people that I've been friends with. I don't just take a picture with someone and post them. Like if I say that they're in my life, they're actually in my life.

I don't do the whole cloud shit. Like I post on my Instagram as like my actual friends. It's like the people I actually have in my life. So if you ever see me with someone, they're a good one. If you see me not with someone, I don't know them yet or I'm avoiding them. And one more thing I want to talk about is everybody coming out with a god damn brand. Like everybody's coming out with their own brand. And I'm like cool. I get it like I respect the hustle, but Y'all are all ordering from the same fucking Manufacturers and Alibaba and fucking getting all this same quality

Shit and I'm gonna say it's shit because that's what it is like everybody's ordering the same poor quality Materials and products slapping their name on it and then trying to sell it. Like, how many more people can come out with brands? Like, this shit is so done. It's so like washed out. Like, everybody's fucking done it. Everybody's got a brand. Everybody's doing the same thing.

Everybody's selling the same products with different fucking labels. And it's annoying. Like, look, there's nothing to buy no more. There's no business to make anywhere that's a product-based business. And there's no fucking shit to buy no more. It's all the fucking same. And all the retailers and everybody, all the quality of everything is going down. This is a separate rant.

But the one about the businesses, girl, these businesses are not making as much money as you think. People with their little clothing brands, the little sunglasses brands, whatever fucking accessories they've got, their little brands, they're not making as much as you think. Like people with their little clothing brands, the little sunglasses brands, whatever fucking accessories they've got, like their little brands, they're not making as much as you think. I'm gonna just leave it there because I don't want something like a negative Nelly because all I've done is like talk shit this whole time. But my whole point I want to reiterate is I'm not bringing people down. I'm bringing you guys into the awareness of the truth of it because it will make you feel bad about your life like seen All this shit going so right for everybody on social media and all these people able to live these certain ways

I just want to promise you they're fucking not all right. Don't compare your life to it Don't get stressed out. Don't wonder why are you different? You're not different. Everybody's dealing with the same shit People are just choosing what they post and choosing what they don't post. And I do post this a lot of the time. I always post you're doing better than you think you are. And I want to remind you of that. And I just wanted to share a little bit of the truth of what's actually going on in the world and not just like the perfect part that people show you.

Like this life is not as pretty as people make it seem. Like the life of being an influencer, like I am one at this point. Like I'm not that big, but I am at the point where like I'm considered an influencer and I don't fucking like that term at all, but I have to like accept the reality of it, but I just want you all to know,

the people that are sitting there, looking up at everybody that has more followers than them, the life that you see is not as fucking pretty as they think like my life is great But I'm not focused on like trying to make my life look perfect like I'll post on my story when I'm having a bath I could date like I'm crying. I'm a set like it has been Jake like I'll post like my shit and my struggles But a lot of people don't so just don't compare yourself to the people online Don't think that these people that have followers have perfect lives They're literally a fucking train wreck like most of them Like social media is so much more of like a mental chess game than you realize and it fucks people up so much because like I said

These apps and these platforms are created to make you addicted to them. Like people are addicted to these apps as creators too. Like people are addicted to watching it, but they're addicted to posting. I've fallen into that trap. Like it's so nice when all these people are watching you and you have all these views and all these likes. It's like, oh my god, it's invigorating, but it's so fucking damaging. Because like I said, it gives you a false sense of importance.

Like it's not that you're not important, but it makes you feel like you are a lot more important than you realize. And then when your actual life doesn't match that, it's a mind fuck. Cause like online, you are somebody, you're big, you're this, you're that, but in real life, your life sucks, and you fucking hate it.

There's a lot to unpack with that, but yeah, I just wanted to talk about shit a little bit But with all that being said about how much I hate social media I do like it and if you do want to follow me and check my shit out My Instagram and TikToks and everything will be linked in the description of this podcast if you like this podcast Leave it a five star rating whether you're on Spotify or Apple podcast. Don't be a low five stars And if you want to hear me talk about any other topics, just send me a DM on Instagram. I'm always like adding to my list of shit I wanna talk about.

But that's all I got for this episode. Thank you so much for listening, and I will talk to you next Sunday.