Giggly Squad - Giggling about how we really feel about psychics, cocaine, and tripping on ayahuasca

Episode Date: May 18, 2021

Paige and Hannah vicariously go on an ayahuasca trip that they may regret. Hosted on Acast. See acast.com/privacy for more information.

What's up Giggle Schleisters? We have made it another week. Really all you can ask for. Keep smiling. Keep shining. Wait, what's up from? Oh no. The ride's made. Yeah, I mean it's not from by its mates, but yeah. Yeah, everything comes back to by its mates. No, it really does. A lot of things that I say in my lifetime

are like in normal conversation. I'm like, that's from a movie for sure. And I stole it and like took it as my own joke. And 90% it was bridesmaids. Yeah. I do want to say there's a lot of change happening on Giggly Squad. First of all, page your mom? Oh my god it's so stressful. Okay. So I have one, two, three, four. I have like, yeah, four. I have four plants in my apartment. Why did I ever think I could get a dog or a cat? Because I can't.

Questions, are they succulents or like basil? I have a palm tree. I have a lemon tree, I have this huge like orchid that's like four orchids. Orcids are fucking, I feel like if I was a flower, I would be an orchid because they're beautiful. They're beautiful. And a pain in my fucking ass. They're so fickle and like you can only water them with ice cubes.

It's like what the fuck do you think you are? Organ ice cubes? Yes. They're like I'm a cold-hearted bitch. They're like we don't do water from a vase. You'll water us with ice cubes. It's like first of all. First of all, fuck off.

And then I have- I have tears from fuck boys. I have a money tree, which is supposed to be good luck. To manifest cash. Yeah, my interior designer got one for me and she was like, what is this? It's a kind of a hideous plant. But she was like, it's a money tree. And I read that it's supposed to be good luck

to have in your apartment to manifest fruitfulness and... Are you good, bro? I feel like people turn to this stuff in their darkest times. Like, yoga instructors, let's be honest, they're miserable. Like, to become a yoga instructor, it has to get really, really bad. I almost became a yoga instructor once. And it was my darkest time. I call you and I'm like, sorry, can't talk. I'm charging my crystals. Then we have a problem.

That's when someone should do a wellness check on me. You have the day. Wait the other day. So it's one of my guy friends. He had like a grown-out his beard a little bit and had like a red in it. And I was like, oh my god, you've like grown out his beard a little bit and had like red in it and I was like, oh my god, you have like red in your beard. And I was like, you might have a red-headed child and he was like, that's the meanest thing you've ever said to me. I do have to say. And I didn't mean it as an insult. I was just like, oh my god, I've never seen like red hair in your beard.

A lot of guys have ginger beards. It's a strange thing that I've never looked into, but I've noticed, but I do have to say Francis Ellis, the comedian's hottest ginger on the block. He's taken a... That's a percent. I asked him recently, and he's taken. I was wondering for you. Thank you. Thank you for always keeping an eye out. Oh, you have no idea the kind of work I'm doing behind the scenes on your dating life. There's this guy that I've become really good friends with on a bachelor called Blake, yeah, who I'm supposed to intro you to.

So we'll keep you guys posted on that. Thank you so much. Bachelor nation, hi, what else? Bravo and graduation nation, having a little remix, that's fun. I love it. It's also crazy because I'll get like DMs or like people will comment on my pictures. They're obviously gigglers and like they know that I only post for like one guy to see.

I posted a picture and someone DM me and was like, did the one guy like see this or like this? And I didn't even think to check and then she got in my head and I was like diddy and he didn't and I was like and now I'm spiraling. You're like I knew the lighting was wrong and you I should have gotten from more of you. I just texted to the orange like randomly like oh sorry didn't mean to send that. The worst though is when you're single and your friends send you a link to a guy that they want to hook you up with and he is a swamp monster. And you don't know how to be like either like, hey, your friend is ugly or like, hey, you've terrible taste. Oh my god. It's so awkward because you not only have to deny him, but you're like rejecting your friend's taste. I also think like, look, I do think that I am like an adult because I'm 28 years old,

but I still consider myself like young too, like where I'm not stressed, so that I don't have to tidy my tone down when they say that you're dead by 30. Yeah, like I'm not like career will be longer than 30. Thank you. And I'm not like stressed like, oh, I haven't found someone like I'm never getting married Mm-hmm, and I think it's very endearing that people want to like try and set me up But sometimes they take it as an insults like oh my god I have to set you up with this guy and then like they'll show me a picture and I'll be like I'm not an ogre at and like 65 years old and I've never been married with the fuck

No, I'm like you like setting me up with this I've never been married with the fuck. Who are you? No, I'm like, you're just setting me up with this guy. You like figure out how friends really think of you. I'm like, that is what you think of me. It's also like, sometimes it's people that like, you don't really know and they're like, oh my God, I have the best guy for you. And I'm like, I don't really know you that well. And I, it's people like, this is just an example

that didn't actually happen to me, but like, the girl that like does your hair, like does your nails. I'm like, yeah. just an example that didn't actually happen to me, but like, the girl that does your hair, or like does your nails, I'm like, I am the perfect person for you. And I'm like, you don't really even know me. I see you once a month. I'm like, I actually had an amazing conversation with a girl at the hair salon.

Mm-hmm. You know who you're not, or like someone who is out the hair salon. I'm not gonna give a name because it's a really intense conversation. Okay. But it started very normal where you know you're like, uh, where do you live, whatever. Yeah. And then she went fully into her ayahuasca trip.

Yeah. And have you heard of these things? I have researched them and watched a few menorys on them. Oh my god. Okay, I've heard about it from like all my ex-boyfriends, but he was crazy, so I didn't take it seriously. But she was like, yeah, I just came back from an ayahuasca trip. When you, I tell you your girl had questions. Yeah.

I was never more into this conversation. I think it's fascinating. First of all, I was like, how did you even decide to do it? And she's like, I had a friend who did it. And she actually told me like, I think it's time for you. And people say this ayahuasca trip, this form of a drug trip changes your life. And it changes your perspectives.

Like, weed you like get away from stuff, where ayahuasca you're forced to like face stuff. And it's like 10 years of therapy in one trip. Yeah. And I when I've smoked weed, I have full panic attacks. Like I think I can't form a sentence. I panic that everyone knows I can't form a sentence. I wonder if my head's round or oval. I like full freak out. I am a full freak. I ruin every party. It's so bad. So I was like, this is my nightmare. I was like, did you have a good trip? And she was like Hannah? I cried the first two days and they had to remove me from the room because I was killing the vibe.

And I've never heard of an iOS could trip like this. I've never had that many. But you basically have to have a shaman, which we love. I call her my hair shaman now. Yeah. So you have to have a shaman to like control your trip. She, this is so interesting. She basically said that she smokes a lot of weed. Yeah.

And that they told her you can't smoke weed the week before, but she did a couple times. And they said weed and ayahuasca are feminine energies and that they get jealous of each other. So she was having a counter intuitive reaction of the weed and ayahuasca because they're like fighting each other. And then the last day she had a she worked she was able to work through some stuff. She wanted to release some like hanging on to anger and forgiving people and then since the trip she stops smoking weed

Very interesting or like once a week, but she used to like do it all the time Here's I okay, there's I can't think of it right now because I feel like I watch this like in the beginning of quarantine, but there is a thing on Netflix and I think it's like 12 episodes of just like, each episode is different of just like random weird things. Like, and one of them was about ayahuasca. Was it the the goop thing? Do you know when they did like weird stuff? Yeah, no, I did watch that one, but this was something different.

And it was about the sort of- Both of us have finished Netflix. Like we're done when we're stuck. No, I did watch that one, but this was something different. And it was about this like, I don't really both have finished Netflix. We're done when we finished it. This one was about this like, ayahuasca place in Florida that like are basically doing it illegally, but they're like calling themselves a church. And I have a friend who like has gone to Costa Rica,

maybe like three or four times, I don't know, and has done ayahuasca. Here's my thing. I like drugs that are trippy, an ayahuasca or an acid or LSD. Scary the fuck out of me, because I'm always scared that like, what if I stay like this forever? What if I just go crazy? Well, that's how I feel about weed. I think I want to be dumb forever when I take it. Okay, well, that's like a plant that people can like grow

in their apartment. So like, I'm not nutrient. I had a friend though who did, I don't know if it was acid or LSD, and she told me that She has like a pts ptsd moment where she goes back to that place every now and then no and it's never Laster like it's up to a brain up. I'll have to hear one story like that. Yeah, I'm fucking out You done you done you done that's terrifying to me and like and as a control freak

Not being able to control your brain is the scariest thing in the world. And some people vomit, which is the number one thing I hate doing for hours because it's something about cleansing your body. And some people throw up on it. And look, I'm all for new fads and like things that are like Oh my god, we're researching this and this can like help your mental health and your body and all the shit just go to therapy Just go talk to someone says you don't need to be snorking chlorophyll for three months

Says the girl who just surrounded herself with a money manifestation plant Ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha I always forget about it. Wow. You're like, I'm just one of my energy's been off. Oh. Oh. I know. Wait, I also have a side note. What's yours? No, you go first. So Dominique, which we have to have around the pod because I'm just obsessed with her. I'm getting, I'm getting dinner with her this week.

She told me. Do you want to come? Yeah, I'm coming. I was like, I just, when she told me, she was like, I'm getting dinner with Hannah on Thursday. I was like, I'm like, I love a fan day. But she was like so happy to tell me. No, but we like did it to kind, we knew you were going to come.

We just want to set it up before you. Like what? The way to make Paige go to events is not inviting her. And then she tricks herself to thinking she wants to go. Because if I outright asked you, you would have said now. Yeah. It's on would have said now. Yeah. It's on call me right now.

I was like, let's do dinner with her. I'd be like, lose my number. She called me the other day and we were just, she's like my most spiritual friend. Yeah. So like when I moved into my apartment, she got me sage. Yeah. Yeah. And like she will just say these outlandish sentences.

Like, she was on the phone with her the other day and she goes, and then you know what happened. And I go, no, what? She goes, my third eye was just thumping. And I go, what the fuck did you just say to me? And then she was telling me about some dream. I think that she's like legitimately psychic and like hasn't tapped into it in a round. She's in another round.

She seriously is. Because she was telling me about some dream and she goes and like the vibration of the dream was just different. I'd had a different texture and I go, I'm hanging up on you because I don't know what you're saying. I don't know if psychics are real or not. I'm gonna put down the record. However, I do believe in every culture and society

and generation, there's a story of the no-no-no in Italy who's the older, wiser woman who sees the future or the healing. There's always someone wise in spirituality. And I do feel like we all have intuition, but you know how they say you only use 10% of your brain or something I believe people use more percentages of their brains within intuition in certain ways. Yeah, I think you will definitely have like Abilities that other people don't have and I'm going to tell a story

I don't think I've ever told you this story and this is the moment that made me actually believe in psychics and mediums. Yes, there's probably psychics that are just like, oh let me like tell you're fortune and they're totally wrong but like I really do think that people have a gift. I went to a medium one time. My mom's mother, so my my maternal grandmother passed away 10 years ago. So I was just had just started college. And I was like extremely close to her. Like on another level, every single summer, last day of school, I would pack up all my shit

and go live at my grandma's house who lived like down the street. But instead of going to camp, I went to my grandma's. Anyway, very close to her. When she passed away, there was a flower at her funeral that was like, I can't even think of the name of the flower, not an orchid, a cale lily. So it's like this white flower, and I took one of them from the funeral. No one knew I took it. Like, it wasn't like a thing. Like, it was just just on the casket and I was like, I want like a flower from it.

Took it, put it in my pocket, got home, hung it in my closet like on a hanger, like in the back of my closet to like dry it out, forgot about it, my mom didn't know I had it, like you could have never seen it walking into my closet. This is like three years later I go to this medium. And the way she would do things is like she would start drawing

or just like right. And sometimes she would draw pictures, sometimes she would write words, or sometimes it would just be scribbles. She started drawing this flower. And she's like, I'm like drawing this flower. She's like, at first she didn't know it was a flower. She's drawing this thing and it's upside down.

And she's circling it and she's drawing this flower and she turns it to me and she was like, it's a flower and it's upside down. I don't know what that means. Do you know what that means? It's coming from your grandma. I burst into tears. Like full on, how does it

in your closet have? Because it's in sitting in my closet upside down. And I go, I know exactly what that is. And she goes, okay, well, your grandma just wants me to tell you, she loves that you have that. And like, it touched her heart so much that you even thought to do that. And like, from that day on,

I was like, people have like psychic abilities. No one would know that. And she didn't know me. And like, she couldn't Google that. No, like, people have like psychic abilities. No one would know that, and she didn't know me. And like, she couldn't Google that, no one would know. That is such a beautiful story, Paige. It's not crazy. Thank you for sharing.

I have goosebumps. No, I have goosebumps. But I do love just thinking that like, there is like a just like deeper understanding of like why the fuck things happen. I thought it was just fun. It's just, it's nice to have hope that there's deeper meaning behind our purposeless lives.

But I was like, I'm gonna say. How did we even get on this topic? I was talking about my hair, Shaman, who I'm still not done. My hair, Shaman, then says that she did another thing with frog poison. I've never heard of this. So this is like a thorough cleanse, apparently, where you basically don't drink or eat

anything for like 10 hours or 12 hours, you just like sleep and whatever. You go there and they put, like they burn you with frog poison. And I was like, where was this Peru? And she was like, oh, it's in Bedstuy. That's in Brooklyn. Oh, I was like, was this in Peruvian cave that you were in? She's like, no, some Russian woman in Bedstuy. I would tell you, I've gone to some Brooklyn parties and they are deep in the drug scene.

Deep in the... They're just in the morning. So then she was given something that made her puke up all the water because she drank, oh, you drink two liters of water right before and then something else, like Maka something that got her relaxed and kind of high. And I was like, so you good?

Like, what did it do? And she's just like, yeah, I feel cleansed. And I'm just like, I'd be so scared. No, I'd be terrified. I'd be terrified. And also, I think it's from like growing up and my mom being like, if you try a drug, your heart will stop and you'll die.

And like, it's in the back of my head all the time. So like drugs, like, I'm not running out to you frog poison. So fun fact about me, that people are learning, I'm actually really bad at partying and you guys are going to learn more about that as we continue this journey together. No. But I am. You're horrible at partying.

You're not bad at it. You're horrible at it. You have a two hour win. That's my win. Wait, you're so right. I have two hours. You have two hours. I know. So I know from the moment that you get drunk,

literally mentally, I've done the math. I know from the moment you get drunk, that I have a solid two hours before you're like, and I'm getting chicken parmin, I'm leaving. Like, I don't know what. I'm that bitch who goes in the bathroom when I get drunk, I just look in the mirror and I'm like, why am I here?

You're like question on your life choices. So I've never done cocaine. I'm gonna put this out here. I've never done cocaine for two reasons. If I don't like it, I have a terrible night on cocaine. Yeah, and then if I do like it, you're it and I like cocaine. Yeah So and I don't trust myself So do you feel like you have it at rap boys? Do you feel like I'm still not over the fact that you've never tried a cigarette Never tried a cigarette Because do you feel like you have a past life? I was an addict

Maybe I do think that I have um I feel like we've lost a lot of people at this point in the pod. You know the best thing about our podcasts is before we start we're like, what should we talk about? And we're like, I don't know. Let's see what happens. Like, I feel like other podcasts have like outlines. They know what they're talking about.

Not once, we ever had something. Where we literally had. And I was like, what are you're talking about not once we ever Literally, and what are you guys talking about today? And he was like thinking about what's in the news and I go first of all page handles from page news I will do some advice and then like magic happens. So don't fucking ask us also page our lives This is all just stems from our lives like yeah when we'd go on live But yeah, I never really just saying I was saying how I never did a cigarette and if I and this is all just stems from our lives. Like, when we'd go on live. But yeah, I never- What were we just saying? I was saying how I never did a cigarette. And if I feel like I have a obsessive thoughts.

You smoke a cigarette, you just sounded like a mom. Well, don't do pot. You don't do pot, mom. You smoke it. It's, I thought it was like dope. What did the kids call me at these days? But all the worst part is, is like, people think I'm fun.

So after comedy shows, straight up girls are like, let's snort coax together in the bathroom. And I'm like, oh no, I have to ruin this fun image that you have of me. And I'm like, I'm going home too far by myself. Dude, I stayed out till 6 a.m last night. So, you know what I mean? Give me a shot. But I do have to say for everyone out there Dude, I stayed out till 6 a.m. last night. So, I don't even get me short.

But I do have to say for everyone out there who's like, Hannah makes page less fun or whatever. It's called having a fucking balance. Because if I party as well as page, we'd be dead. Oh no. We'd be dead. We'd be absolutely dead. As Chris and Cavalry would say,

Dunzo. Dunzo. Dunzo. And I recently, at one point, in the past week, I looked at myself in the mirror and I said, you stopped drinking. Stop. It's enough now.

You tried to bully yourself in the mirror. Yeah, I was like a loser. I don't know. You think alcohol's cool. You can be more fun when you're drunk. Well, my question to you is, I texted you the other day and you're like, I'm taking a bath.

Oh my God, that night was so fun. Dude, oh my God, I was living my best life that night. Hannah and I literally just voice noted back and forth to each other for two hours. And I just laid in the bathtub laughing. It was so fun because, yeah, that was the best voice message you've ever had. I've never been more myself in that two hours

I was in the bath with a face mask on, laughing my fucking ass off. So Des was sleeping next to me as a 45-year-old does at 9 p.m. So I was just, at first I was texting and she was voice messaging and that was like, fuck this and I started whisper messaging. But we just couldn't stop laughing,

and then we had like multiple conversations going on where you'd respond to like each topic. Because you don't want to talk about that enough. You guys voice messaging is the shit, because in a conversation, you have to like wait for them to finish talking with this. Like you could just say whatever, and then you hear what they say whatever, and you're just

having this journey of words, but I have a question for you, because I've never really done baths. Okay. Do you pee in the bath? Yes. Doesn't everyone? So you're sitting there in your own pee, and it's Gucci. Here's the thing, I'm not like actively going in and like wanting to sit in my own pee,

but I have a time or two, been sitting in hot water and your body naturally has to pee. Also your pee is clean and sterile sterile. So like nothing's happening. And also it's yours. Now if I'm taking a bath, if I happen to take a bath with someone and they pee, I think I'd be grossed out. But here's a tip and trick for the girls.

I used to be obsessed with these detox baths. Oh. And I used to take one every single night, like four years ago. What makes it detoxy? What do you put in it? I forget what the actual measurement is, but it's baking soda and... Fuck.

Does it like absome salt or what is the word? I think it's ebbsinsol and baking soda. I haven't done one in so long, but I used to love them and the thing is like the water has to be yeah The water has to be so hot that you actually can't stand it and you submerge your body like neck down Have to sit in it for like at least 10 minutes But you have to drink a ton of water before and after because like you don't want to pass out Supposed like you're basically sweating while you're in the water, and it's supposed to just detox your body,

help you lose weight. And then when you get out, you immediately pass out in your bed. You sleep like an absolute baby. I used to do the whole of the time, because I always have problems falling asleep. Well, I might start doing them again, and it just felt good.

Like you'd wake up the next morning and been like, I slept start doing them again, and it just felt good. You'd wake up the next morning and then I slept like a rock. I'm just laughing because I can't believe you were like, guys, we just need to go to therapy. And all you've done is given other things that you're doing instead of therapy. I listened to you call her daddy when she had the therapist on because I walked couple of therapy. How was it? It was really good. And like, I do have to get back into therapy. So fun fact, I'm back in therapy as of three weeks ago. Yeah. But I do think for the people out there who like I waited till it was really bad. And then I, and then you have to

wait like three weeks to find the therapist because it's hard. But my thing was like I went to therapy and then things were going well for me and I was like I don't need to try to like talk and find new issues when I feel like I'm good. But I guess it's like, you wanna do it when you're also not like in the shitter. Dude, I love that you just said that

because the number one takeaway that I took from that podcast was Alex being like, yeah, but I would go to therapy and be like, I have nothing to talk about. Like this is a waste of time. Like what am I gonna like make up things to talk about? Or like, my life is fine right now. Like I'm not going through any problems.

And the therapist, I forget what our last name is, or not, whatever, was like, those are actually some of the best sessions because you're just fully being yourself and that's when you can dive into like things from all the surprise memories. Yeah, all your like suppressed bullshit and like why you are the way that you are like she was like those are some of my favorite sessions because they start like a new category of what you're going to be

working on in the future. That's that because that's what, like hearing that, I was like, because that's me all the time, like I would sit in therapy and be like, this is pointless, I have nothing to talk about, and then I'd stop going. And that's what they want to get back into it. With my therapist, like I was talking and I was like, I didn't tell her I played tennis or anything and I'm just talking about my life right now and she's like, I'm hearing a lot of like, like, winning and losing. Um, does that ring a bell at all?

And I was like, oh my God. And I started crying about tennis. But, but it's funny because like, I want to, I start it and I'll just be like, you've no idea the shit that just went down this week. And I'll tell her all of it. And we like, work it out. But then I'm like, what would the therapy session of Benifida didn't start it with like some crazy shit?

Right. But then she said to me at one point, she was like, wow, you have the craziest shit that's happened to you than any other client I'm talking to. And I go, so I'm winning. And she was like, that was, no, no, no. No, no, no. That's like those memes.

But I should joke with my therapist. And I'm like, have you, it's one of those memes where it's like, when you do it. And what do we do when we get upset? We key is car. No. No.

No. And I go, did you have a good therapy session? I don't know, I made my therapist laugh. No. Hi. I used to go to therapy. I went to therapy for... when I was like 18. Or no, maybe I was like 20. I don't know.

I have a horrible memory. My friends from high school are like, did you even go to our school? Because you don't remember anything. And I'm like, I know. I literally can't remember anything. I went to therapy because I was in a really toxic relationship. And my mom was like, I think you should just talk to someone. So that was my first experience with therapy, and I really liked it.

And I felt like it really got me out of some shit. And then the most recent time I went to therapy, I actually went to couples therapy. And it was so interesting because, one, I think it helped a lot in certain situations, but then in other situations, I felt like it made problems where there weren't problems yet, but like down the line, their cook have fun.

Oh, Ben, at the time you were like, this is just like creating new issues that we've been having to have. Yeah, like I've we've presented it because I was like, we were good. But wasn't right. Yeah. But I was like, we were good just a week ago. And now I'm thinking, I hated like, I'd have a good week then I'd go in and feel like, okay, I'm paying a lot of money for this.

So let's like try to find something I'm upset about. But I do think it was really good because it brought up certain things and then it was like, okay, well why do you react like that? And I was like, well, I don't fucking know. And then that's when you dive into like, okay, well there's something.

Because it's happened to you before. Yeah, there's something in like top of your childhood was like, was there a time when you reacted like this? You know, it's just so crazy and interesting. It's crazy too because me and like, tell my child, was there a time when you reacted like this? You know, it's just so crazy and interesting. It's crazy too, because me and you obviously have the gift of gab, not to brag. Yeah.

I will make up shit if I don't know what I'm saying. I would use to raise my hand in class when I didn't know the answer yet. And I just figured out if I just wanted to be called on. Like, I was that annoying kid. So my therapist will be like, I hated those kids. But I was the girl next to you. I was funny though.

I was like, stop. Oh yeah. I like, or I thought I was funny. See, I was like very intimidated in school because I like wasn't the smartest. So I never raised my hand. I couldn't read out loud. It literally gave me panic attacks.

That's something you need to unpack, for sure. But you're doing a podcast now in Shining. Shows growth. I can read now. I can read now sometimes. But I would, what was I going to say? Oh, yeah, my therapist will ask me something and be like, oh, why do you think that is? And I'll say something and she'd be like, but why do you think that? Like I'll say something like, oh, I just can't make a mistake, you know? And she was like, why?

Yeah. And I was like, I have nothing, I don't know. And it's like, okay, we have a lot of work to do. You can't compare the feeling, and there's no similar feeling to sitting in therapy and having like a weird moment where you're like, oh my god. Yeah. Like why would I never think of that? Also a lot of New Yorkers are doing Zoom therapy and in the comedy shows I've been doing,

they're making fun of Zoom therapists a lot, like not making fun of them, but just that concept of Zoom therapy. Yeah. And what a girl was like, some I Zoom therapist is like hotter than me and she has, I, she always had something like on her glasses. And then I realized it was a ringlight. And I'm like, bitch, why do you have to look better than me in this zoom? Because that's fucking man. Now I'm more fucked up. But no, I really, I do want to get back into therapy. Oh, for sure. Definitely, definitely, definitely. Well, this was fun. I feel like we've learned a lot. One also thing I have a question for you. Yeah. Refinery 29 is saying that like,

bazooka pink is the new like color for your nails or like the new millennial pink. Have you heard of this? Actually, I think bazooka pink is the color of your your mic right now. What's your pink? Pink is, yeah, pink is like very in for the spring in the summer. Pink and green. Green is really having a moment. What I've also noticed living in the lower east side now, hey, everyone is dressing like Kurt Cobain. The girls and the guys. Like, give me an example.

So it's like baggy, wide like jeans with a baggy shirt that looks like it was, you know. It's getting very nice. It's getting very nice. So it's like baggy wide like jeans with a baggy shirt that looks like it was, you know. It's getting very 90s. It's getting very, it's very, it's 90s grunge, not like R90s, like Nelly, like 90s, Kurt Cobain.

It almost even turning into like early 2000s, which I think was the worst. Oh, there is some early 2000s of like a fashion. Like a music video. Like that, but yeah, grunge is really in. I think it's cause of quarantine that. I mean, Urban Alphaners, well literally, the first outfit they show is just sweatpants

with a sports bra. I, it's kind of crazy with like the, how Jean, the jeans situation is like. Yeah. Remember, like it was so in to have like such tight Skinny jeans and now it's like I do that to ourselves you like can't be caught dead. I think the bottoms are gonna come back Sam they're like already back. Okay, I'm like behind but can we do some? I do love that though. I love to bell bottoms. Oh yeah I haven't done front page news in a while on my own Instagram and a lot of people have been DMing me about why.

Why? I don't know. I just haven't been in the mood. But I love that you listen to yourself and you don't force yourself to have less inspired from page news if you're not feeling good. Yeah, sometimes it's hard to give a quip and have an opinion. Nowadays, you can't have an opinion on anything. I just, I get you scared to say anything.

I think you're in a high-exited stress situation, me and you, the last couple weeks, for sure. It's fine, you therapy. I have a little honor. The internet has not been a positive place, necessarily, so you're not like, oh, let me add joy to this. You're like, no, I'm going to get punched in the face. Even before I had anxiety, I would always have 50, 50 people being like, oh, let me add joy to this. You're like, no, I'm gonna get punched in the face. Even like before it had anxiety, I would always have like 50, 50 people being like, this is so funny, like this is exactly how I feel.

And then like other people being like, why do you think you are allowed to have this opinion? I'm just like, fuck off. Okay, but this I have an opinion on. Okay. JLo and Ben, we haven't talked about it. I thought we did. We talked about it like then. That is fake. Yeah,'t talked about it. I thought we did. We talked about it like then. That is fake.

Yeah, we talked about it then being spotted out and like not knowing what's going on, but like they're fully in it. They're fully in it. I told you though, I thought we agreed that at first, Ben is not in a good place and his PR people were like, this is great, like put the Amazon box is down and be with J-Lo and then J-Lo then they know that this will make everyone forget about

a Rad-Immediately because then nostalgia. But like do you think this should is real? I don't know because I've been, look PR is crazy and they could spin anything. But I have been reading like a lot of articles about just people being like, Jen never, Jen? When my mom like, I get nicknamed, based on Jen and I. And really never got over him. And like, really loved him. And I think like, because he's the one that broke off

the engagement. Do we remember why? He broke off the engagement. And then like immediately started dating Jennifer Garner and like married her. Oh. I forget what like, I don't think it was ever said like if there was like something that he... Yeah.

What it was, I think he just got like scared or whatever. Okay, so she sang at the Neil Diamond Classic and she sang the song Sweet Caroline and at the Global Citizens' concert and this was on May 2nd and I didn't know this, but the song Sweet Caroline is also like the unofficial anthem that I guess they sing at like Boston Red Sox games. And so people were saying that like she did that on purpose, one because A-Rod was a Yankee and two because Ben is from Boston and like loves the red flag. It's a rivalry. And there's nothing I love more.

Literally nothing. Ben shade like that. Then shade like that that you can prove. Yep. Oh I love that. I would call you out of play dumb. You go what? What?

I like the name Caroline, you fucking psycho. You're crazy for thinking it. You know, like I love shit like that. That's cool, guys. Really good. That's cool, guys. I like it. And this is why I need therapy and I lost that.

Cause I'm like, prove it. Literally prove that. I feel like celebrities are actually so good at like hinting at stuff and never, like I feel like I just like, I'd rather tell everyone everything. And that's why I get into trouble. I mean, do you think it's possible? Like I'm just trying to think about it. Like okay, they broke up like 15 years ago.

I think it is so much more painful when the person you're dating, if they break up with you or it ends, gets back with an X than someone knew. Cause it means like the whole time they were with you, they were like, thinking of the X. I like this other person.

Yeah. You know what I mean? Like, if I broke up, if, if doesn't I broke up and he started dating one of his X's, I'd be like, oh my God, he liked her the whole time. Oh, here's what I'm probably a narcissist. I would never get back with an X, like actually start redating them again,

anyone like I've dated, because I feel like each boyfriend I've had, I've gone up in like them being a good person. And like, you know, I mean, I had a few plug-in there that were like absolute psychos, but that was fun. That was fun. And I just feel like going back and like dating an ex after so many years is like, yeah.

I want to be better than the next and like be more of what I wanted and like, I don't know. My thing is you've been there, you've done that. I do feel like people are like, it's meant to be, it's meant to be, but I don't know, I feel like you know, you look back with rose color glasses so much. I also think you'd be like boring. It's like I know.

You've been there that much. I know. You've been there, you know what I've been there. I know. I know what this looks like. You know what this is? Is that the fun to be like, how big is it? Yeah, I know how this plays out.

I know all of your moves. I know. Oh my god, yeah. And there's so many fish in the sea, but I just don't know if I could get those butterflies back. Like there's nothing like when you first start talking to someone and like you're hanging out and you're you have like this weird moment where you're like, oh shoot, I'm absolutely obsessed with you. Wasn't that the exciting part being like, I don't even know the kind of love I could find. You've gotten hooked up with X's before is it like that fun? It's fun in terms of like you know what to expect

and you're comfortable with that person and like it's easy to hang out with them on the couch and like whatever but I have the long term you I restarted to date in X. Have we gone out, kicked it and gotten dinner and hooked up, of course, I'm bored. But I've never been like, let's try this again. You know? I'm not fat, I just don't. It's so easy though for people who are ever

trouble moving on from an X. Like, remember not the best times, remember the worst times, and those are the things that you're gonna harp on when you're in the relationship. There's also just something about like wanting the next best thing. I don't know where you're just like,

eh, no, don't wanna. Yeah, 100%. But anyway, I have like, I'm fascinated by Ben and Jen, and I actually do kind of want them to like get married. Okay, well, isn't Ben also like, then you like ruin Jennifer Garner's life? Most likely yes. Okay here's another toxic relationship. So Travis Barker. Also something

something came out about Travis like actually hooking up with Kim before. Yeah well he like was attracted to Kim for sure. He said it in an article. But that part like okay cool crazy story. That's not even what I'm invested in in this like situation. So his ex-wife Shana who they're only married for married for four years. Yeah. They share two children. And then a son and a daughter. The daughter, I fucking love her. She basically started talking about, well, first of all, Shayna like said something about how

Travis covered up her initials with like a tattoo of a skull and how like he did that on purpose. And everyone was like, you literally got divorced in like 2008. Like, yeah, it's over, like chill out. And then the daughter started coming out and was like, you literally got divorced in like 2008. Like, it's over, like chill out. And then the daughter started coming out and being like, everyone painting my mom, like she's like, the scorned ex-wife and like such a good person, my mom has never been in our lives.

Like, she does not support us the way that our dad does in any situation. And I'm so sick of this. Like, just like, it was so cute, but like it was so endearing to hear, like how much this girl loves her dad. I don't know something about like dads and daughters, like that love I just think is so unique.

And then Shayna commented, someone asked her, like what do you think about your daughter, like saying all these things? And she was like ridiculous. She spelled ridiculous wrong, which was very telling. And then the daughter was saying how, like, her mom has been in a relationship with this, like, 28-year-old model who, like, cheats on her all the time. It's the most toxic relationship ever. And the only reason she's posting it that it's, like, so good is because she can't get over,

like, Courtney and Travis. Wait, where is the daughter spilling this piping hot tea? She's doing all of this on Instagram, commenting on different things, and she was like, and then people were like, you don't run your own Instagram. This is like something, and she was like, I'm of age. I absolutely run my own Instagram, and I'll say whatever I want, because it's my family. Do these kids are wiling in the street? She's 15, and the sun is 17. Landon and Alabama.

Oh, Alabama's a cute name. Yeah, like I oddly like that. BAMMY! Alabama. Oh yeah, also a 20. Yeah, she's dating a 28 year old model Matthew Rundew on and off again. What the fuck is she doing dating a 28 year old model? I wouldn't even date 20. She clearly did not listen to our last podcast episode. No. Oh, can I just say one thing? Yeah. You know what Kylie always says, Stormy? Stormy?

Yeah. So I have this like 13 year old, um, adorable, people who has arthritis and like snorts and snores and he's so, the cutest old man ever. I go, Rummy! Rummy! and he doesn't know that he's, I'm kind of a Jenner. You know what I really want to get? I want to get Kanye West's tweet printed out and framed. That said, I low-key don't fuck with that bitch.

Stormy. Wait, did he say that? That he doesn't look like Stormy. When he was going on those crazy rampages on Twitter and just posting the craziest shit, one of them was, I look he don't fuck with that bitch. Stormy, which is absolutely hilarious. Like, hilarious. Stormy gives him dirty looks at the dinner table

When she's eating her baby food But babies can be assholes. Let's just say babies. Yeah, that needs to be talked about more babies don't like me What does that say about I don't know I? Think that there are people say like babies and dogs are good judges of character. And like babies do not fuck with me. I love that you've just owned up to your bad girl persona. Do you want to know something though? I don't give a fuck.

Because I don't fuck with babies. Like if anyone shows me a baby picture, I don't care. One of my really good friends keeps showing me a picture of her niece and every time, hand, I'm not kidding you, every time she shows me a picture of her niece, I go, I forgot you had a niece. And she goes, yeah, how? How do you always forget? I send you pictures. The baby is adorable. I will give it that. The baby is gorgeous. But every time she sends me a picture, I think most babies outfits just don't like,

aren't good enough for you, you know? I think it's just like, it's just like a press. Sometimes you do get nervous, I'm like, do I have to? Pink and blue really be original. Sometimes I get nervous, I don't have a maternal instinct, but then I realize that I've dated a bunch of really huge babies and so I definitely do.

Wait, but there's a thread called why babies are problematic. They remain silent on so many important issues, name one baby who's ever fought for someone else's rights. Yep, that's why I thought you can't think of anything. To their extremely toxic, they do nothing productive, they just leech off of people around them. They're just pathetic free loaders

with a massive sense of entitlement. Three, they especially pran women. Women lose sleep, their own body fluids, and sanity for these misogynists. How are you allowing and supporting this? For them, manipulative. They start crying without warning and offered no explanation for why.

If they weren't toxic, they would explain what they need, but instead they wanted to play the victim and gaslight the people around them. And that is by artshl3y on Twitter. I also, like, I don't know what this says about me either, but like, I can't wait to have my own kids, but I don't give a shit about other people's. No, that's definitely normal, but does, when I first met him,

he had so many baby pictures on Instagram, my mom was like, oh my god, he loves babies. And then he was like, no, they're just really high engagement on Instagram, my mom was like, oh my god, he loves babies. And then he was like, no, they're just really high engagement on Instagram. He was kidding, but not really. But he said, when you hold a baby, it makes you really want one. I think it's also because I don't infant.

Yeah, I've always been, like I'm the youngest on my dad's side of the family. Yeah, I am the baby. And like no one, like my cousin, my oldest cousin, just started having babies. Like she's the only one our family and has a baby. She's three, they're beautiful. And but they live in Chicago.

So I'm not like around them, but at Christmas, was the first time I met her youngest, her daughter Poppy. And I, I lost my mind. And I lost my mind. You loved her? I absolutely lost my mind. Because she thought you were like a princess. I just, I highkey fucked with her. Like, I was like, you are so cute.

And then I turned on like my camera and like the light from the camera and like recording it. She like perked up like she knew we were recording and I was like, are you actually my baby? Like she loved this spotlight. She loved everything about it. And I was like, your mind. I was like, I think you're a mind-daughter.

I do think though when you, the moms of Giggly Squad, because there are a lot of moms that are gigglers would know better, but I feel like when you meet someone too that you like really fuck with You're like, oh, let's procreate When you're really in love with someone you're gonna be like, oh my god, I love him so much

Like I've had boyfriends where we've talked about like oh my god when we get married or like when we have kids And like of course you have those like dumb conversations, but like always in my gut, I'd be like, I'll never have your kids. Like I would never want like my kids to call you dad. Like I haven't felt that yet. Where I'm like this guy, this guy is dead. Yeah.

Well we're manifesting. We'll see. Is there anything else on from BG news? No, that's it. Well, I like about shit. We're binging. Okay. I watched Holston and you need to watch it. On what? Netflix. It just dropped with you and McGregor. Do you know what Holston is? And not really. So Halston is like a huge, huge, huge fashion brand that like no one remembers,

even though he's like in the likes of like Balenciaga and you know, Ancline and Oscar De La Renta. Yeah, but couldn't tell you like anything about it. And it's still alive and well. So I'm not gonna give it away, but you have to watch it because I love the like coming of age or like he's basically from town in Indiana. He's gay. It was gave me a lot of different emotions because I'm very attracted to you in the Gregor. Is it a movie or it's like not a movie. It's a series. Oh it is. Yeah, but it's a great binge.

I did it all on the day. There's a lot of sex. Wait, I'm doing this today. It's a series. Oh, it is. Yeah, but it's a great binge. I did it on the day. There's a lot of sex. Wait, I'm doing this today. It's very funny because he plays like a, he's very like petty bitchy and so smart and artistic and so like complex the character. Apparently the family's not happy. They were like, we did not sign off on any of this, but it's based on a book. Oh, and you kind of see how he creates his fashion brand through his life. What year is it like seven? Oh, it's, so it's like the 60s to the 80s.

And it's like, then it has a full studio 54 moment. And he's best friends with Liza Manelli. Someone plays Liza Manelli in it. You're gonna, you're gonna love it. Have you ever watched the studio 54 documentary? I feel like I got, it was like, there was too much. It was too exciting. Yeah, I could see it was like being like, I can't.

But should I watch it? Yeah, I would have thrived. I would have absolutely thrived in those outfits and just like going out to like disco parties, I think it was born in the wrong era. Well, it seems fun to like walk out the car and everyone take photos, but then like once you're in, I'd be scared. Yeah.

I'd be like, I'm scared. But apparently when it shut, it showed that shut down and like they basically found a dead person in one of the ceilings, like in an air vent. That's a few years. Because someone. Yeah, because some lady was like trying to get in to the club and she went in a back door and tried to get through in an air vent and then she got stuck or some shit.

I don't know the details, but anyway, everyone watch Hallston. Ooh, why did I need to look that up now? Yeah, and I personally really liked it, just because I like seeing how people do what what they love and there's lots and downs. And you know what, the theme of this episode is drugs and that guy snorted a shit ton of cocaine. Wait, I'm definitely watching this today. What a great Sunday like activity. Yes. Then I also have not watched this, but I saw an advertisement called Woman in the Window I think with Amy Adams and Netflix who was just like blowing through Netflix movies and it's about someone with

a Gorfobia, do you know what a Gorfobia is? Basically means you're scared to go outside. Which I think we have. Doesn't sound too crazy because I think a lot of people have it. Like it's like bad social anxiety whatever She has a gorfobia and she makes friends with someone wait is it going outside because you have to interact with the world Like yeah, hi social anxiety. Yes. It's not like the nature of outside. I think it's a combination of a lot of things Just like yeah, like outside you can't control anything that happens. Okay. Okay. Wait, what is the movie Netflix a movie though? What's it called woman in the window and this is nail like 2021?

This is very new it just came out and she's like this down. She basically is looking. I've just seen the trailer But she makes a friend and that friend lives across the street and she can see through their window and she realizes, shit's going down, and basically says like, hey, there's bad stuff happening, and then they're telling her, she's crazy. And you don't know if she's crazy or she's like seeing real shit.

And who's the actress? Amy Adams, Red Her. I love her. We love. I love her. like seeing real shit. And who's the actress? Amy Adams, Red Her. I love her. I love her. I think she is so... I don't know, there's just something about her skin and her hair. Like, she's so stunning.

And like... She also seems like she's shy. And she's stars in movies, which is like... I just think she's so interesting. Yeah, I do too. Like, she'll play a shy character the whole time I just think she's so interesting. Yeah, I do too. I have a- Like, she'll play a shy character the whole time and just be such a fucking star. I've never watched a movie that she's in that I haven't liked.

Agreed. Also, it was Jennifer Lawrence, okay, is anyone trapped on her? Ah! Oh my god. You didn't hear it happen? What? Well, I've been offline for weeks. Oh my god, so everyone started DMing me

because on Heather McMahon's podcast, they were talking about like, just like Bravo gossip stuff and Jennifer Lawrence like chimed in and was like, I heard that page to Sorbo from Summer House was like dating Austin Crowell from Southern Trump, which is so not true. And like, you've never gone on a date.

Like, the information couldn't have been more wrong, but did I care? Absolutely not, because I'm sitting there and I'm like Jennifer Lawrence. Just said my name. No, it's who I am. And I end is gossiping about you. No, I started freaking out.

And I actually remember Dominique, one day Dominique like made me go to the museum with her because it's just like things that she does. This is so not me. And we're at the museum and I'm in the elevator and like Jennifer Lawrence is walking in the elevator and I'm just staring at her like, like I've never been more starstruck in my entire life. I literally started hitting Dominique

and like I couldn't move. First of all, she's absolutely stunning. Stunning in person. And she's tiny. Like she's shorter than I thought. I was about to say I thought she was like tall. She played hunger games. She's like, she's gonna be the shit out of everyone. She played hunger games. She's like, she's like,

she's so cute. I wanted so badly to be like, I know that we would be such good friends. Like, please. Like that story stressed me out because imagine being her and everyone that sees you feels the same way as you. Like every time you walk by,

someone goes, oh yeah. Like I didn't say anything, but I was just like, I was like, wow, you're just amazing. I love every fucking movie you do. I love your personality. So you're telling me that you're gonna be best friends with her now.

I love her. I went through a period of times like a couple years ago where like to fall asleep, I would watch YouTube videos of her on different interviews. Because I just thought she was hilarious. But you know what happened to her? Well, she was so relatable and so funny and so likeable. So the media was like, now it's time to take her down.

Wait, why did the media take her down? It was just like people just started joking like about how like making fun of her whole stick of being relatable, like I'm Jennifer Lawrence, I'm so relatable, I trip everywhere. I don't get fucking everyone. When she's great. Dude, seriously, absolutely fuck people.

I think she's great. She also doesn't have social media, which I love. I know, I tried to look at her. That's a power move. It is a power move. And she's like married, she lives her fucking life. And like, yeah. And she's amazing actress.

I mean, she was an Oscar award winning. She was an in Oscar. Yeah. Katniss Everdeen, dude, Hunger Games. Hunger Games, I had never seen it. This is also crazy. And I watched all three of them during quarantine. Uh-huh.

Incredible. Can't tell me anything, because I want to be taught to us. To wrap up our dope documentaries, I watched Son of Sam. Have you watched? I haven't watched it yet. You told me about this last time? Yeah.

Well, I finished it. Was that you? Maybe. But yeah, it's about like demon, Satan, cults and stuff, which apparently were super in in the 90s or 80s. Honestly, didn't love the end of it. You didn't.

No. Okay, so maybe I'll watch that last. Yeah, watch it last. Now, I enjoyed it. I recommend it. It's funny, because it's all these like, people from Queens with their thick Queens accents

being like, I can't even go outside. I had to change my hair color because I was so scared of the sun asam. It's hilarious. This girl was like, I just want to go outside. I want to go outside and love Lane and make out with my boyfriend, but I can't wait. Should I watch Holsten? Yeah, see who I watch Holsten today. Not the window movie.

It depends. Like if you want to get fucked up, like do women in the window. Yeah, let me see what type of fucked up I want to get. Yeah, like, how fucked up would be? Do I want to be super scared and watch the son of Sam? Maybe I'll do that tonight. And guys, whenever you do anything that you're not sure about, like if someone asks, like how, you know, what milk you want in your coffee or like what what color you want to dye your hair just say fuck me up fam And see what they do. That's how we live our lives Same sometimes I can't decide and I'm just like I don't know what drink I want fuck me up

So with that said guys, thank you. Are we done? Thank you. Yeah. Yeah. Yeah. Thank you Thank you so much for getting like literally think you like yeah, thank you. Thank you so much for getting like you like literally think you like No, thank you No, I think this was an ayahuasca trap So thank you Thank you for friends with you is like being on drugs Thank you. Yeah. No, thank you. We don't need therapy because we take each other as a drug and it... Is healthy.

Thank you. Thank you. It's like the tweet. You're like a chocolate chip cookie, but when you bite into it, you realize it's a no meal reason. And you're high. No, that's not the meme. That's not it.

The meme is... I love this meme. Dating me is like biting into an oatmeal, raising cookie, realizing it's chocolate chip. And then two hours later realizing it was an edible. Oh, you're like just progressively gets better and better, you're like, fuck yeah. Yes, yes. So, all right. Don't do drugs kids, we love you. Yeah, fuck yeah. Yes. Yes. So, all right.

Don't do drugs kids, we love you. Yeah, don't do them. Don't. Thank you. Bye.