I Will Teach You To Be Rich - 112. “I pretend I want to change. But I refuse to do anything different”

Episode Date: July 11, 2023

This conversation with Mike and Kate brings a completely new, and shocking, outcome to the podcast. They’re 29 and 32, with some massive life changes on the horizon. But they can’t save any money and lack the financial discipline to make real change for the sake of their family. This episode is brought to you by: LMNT | Right now, LMNT is offering 8 single serving packets FREE with any LMNT order. This is a great way to try all 8 flavors. Get yours at https://drinklmnt.com/RAMIT. Fabric by Gerber Life | Protect your family today with Fabric by Gerber Life. Apply today in just 10 minutes at https://meetfabric.com/ramit. Masterclass | For unlimited access to every class and 15% off an annual membership, go to https://masterclass.com/ramit. BetterHelp | Visit https://betterhelp.com/ramit today to get 10% off your first month. Connect with Ramit • Get the Podcast Newsletter and exclusive Q&A about the show • Get Money Coaching with Ramit  • Download the Conscious Spending Plan • Get my New York Times best-selling book • Get my no-numbers journal • Other episodes • Instagram • Twitter • YouTube • Submit a question for the newsletter iwt.com/askramit  If you and your partner have a money issue and you want my help, I occasionally select a couple to work with, free of charge. Apply for my help here. Produced by Crate Media.

Before we get to the episode today, let's put aside all the long-term stuff that you and I know we should be doing more of calling our mom and dad going to the gym. Flossing, okay, yes, we should do all those things, but I want to talk about quick wins. The things we can do quickly to be able to be more productive, to be less anxious, to be in better shape, and even to be more generous. I'm talking about getting results in seven days. That is exactly what I'm going to be talking about this Saturday on the podcast newsletter. These are the actual tactics that I use myself and saw massive results in seven days. Yes, we should be doing the two year or five year, ten year things. Sometimes you just want quick results.

You can get this issue of the newsletter at iwt.com slash podcast newsletter. That is the only place you can get it. The email goes out this Saturday, September 2nd, iwt.com slash podcast newsletter. Part of me is resentful that to Mike that he wanted this house so bad and that now we have all these things to maintain. Renting was easier. Some days I'm like, God, I just want to move back into our campervan so we can travel to country. This just feels like a burden. This isn't necessarily what I wanted. Yeah, we did decide to do this together.

Part of me is like, I just did this for you. Yeah, we did decide to do this together. Part of me is like, I just did this for you. There was a lot of time to bring these concerns up in the process of buying the house and to really stop us there. Yeah, and I remember a lot of fights about it too. And I don't feel like my needs are important. I think because I'm just so resentful about it, that I'm like just screwed all. And how can you do this with the two of you and you're about to incur more stress than you've ever had in your life with a baby? Yeah. I'm terrified.

Are you terrified enough to make a change? Yeah. Kate? I'd like you to meet Mike, who's 29, and Kate, who is 32. Mike is a chef, and Kate is a wellness advisor for a spa resort. Now, in their application, they wrote this sentence describing their situation. He wrote, we are closing on a house next week and also just found out she's pregnant. I think today you're going to be quite surprised with the direction of this conversation. So let's jump right in.

How long until the baby comes? Dooday is beginning of September. And financially speaking, what has changed since you found out you were pregnant? Two weeks after we were pregnant, we closed on our first home. Wow. That what is a fixer upper and our home is important to us because we have it's a very small house but it's on a lot of land because being able to provide food for ourselves through farming is also really important so that way we don't have to rely on the grocery store as much anymore that was the

motivating factor of our house was that the small small house, perfect, not a lot to maintain. It wasn't maintained though, so there is a lot to put into it financially, and it all happened at the same time. Okay, so you bought a house, bought a house you found out you were pregnant, and so what brings you here? Why now?

And so what brings you here? Why now? Well, we, I feel like we were doing really well until we got the house. I had read your book and I had automated investing, automated savings, and I had a pretty good savings. I had some investments, and I pretty much used all of it to get the house. And I was the one that was really keeping track of our money and kind of in conflict with Kate over spending. And then once we got the house and I kind of abandoned the automation and all that, now she's the one that is keeping track of the money and worrying about credit and like just looking up at it and I have almost given up, like just kind of said, okay, you're in charge of the money now and I don't like that we're not really on the same page about it. And I guess there's something going on there with me that kind of just, I don't know, I like gave up when we got the house.

It took so much to get the house that I felt defeated. And it was like, oh, this work has kind of gone to nothing. And now it's like all the money is going towards fixing up the house. Okay. Did you expect this when you went to buy the house? You know, how much it was going to cost for the down payment and all that stuff? Yeah. Okay.

And I was like, well, I have this savings. That's what it's for. And I have this investment. And that's what it's for, right? Okay. And then what changed? Uh, I don't know. All the work of the house, I guess. Expected or not expected?

I expected to handle it easier, I think. Why'd you buy the house? The land. So that way we can have farm. We just got chickens today. But mostly the land. So that way we can provide food for our family. And this idea of providing food, did you both grow up doing something similar? No. Oh, well, that's interesting. What do you think that there's a financial conflict here?

Well, we just kind of got on the same page, but we were arguing over buying a mattress. There was some conflict around and I wanted one she didn't. I walked me through it. I think Kate actually brought up the mattress first, sent me the link to the mattress. And then I was like, yeah, let's do it. It was a pretty expensive mattress. And I think what... How expensive? It was a pretty expensive mattress and I think what how expensive ended up being like 23 22 Okay, that's all right. That's that's a good price mattress and so what happened then I said let's do it And we had to put it on a credit card or okay, you actually used a payment plan the affirmed thing through oh god All right online or whatever both of us put a lot of emphasis into quality

online or whatever. Both of us put a lot of emphasis into quality products that are non-toxic and I'm pregnant and have a baby and the baby's gonna be in our room and I don't want those off-gassing chemicals. And so that was what was most important to me in a mattress regardless of the price. Okay, how did you decide how much you could afford? Can I go out on a limb and guest? Okay.

Can I guess that you had problem sleeping? You said we got to get a new mattress. You found a mattress you liked and cost wasn't really part of the equation at all. Yeah. Wow. It's so shocking. And was there any point where either one was like, 2,400 bucks, it's like a lot.

Could we get one for less? Yeah, that did come up. Who but we wanted a mattress that didn't have, that was a little safer and more natural. Okay, so let me ask you, Kate, where's the conflict here? It sounds like one person wanted a new mattress. You both found one. You bought it and you can afford it. I think it's like more within ourselves than anything, even more than with each other. What is it within you? Like you don't want to have a payment plan, okay?

Yeah, and so I've always just been, when money comes in, I'll save what I can, but I am here to enjoy my life. And now I'm like, oh my God, we have no savings and we have a baby coming and I'm going to have a cut and pay. And so now I have this inner turmoil of, I can't believe I haven't been saving more of my whole life. I'm fearful of, I can't believe I haven't been saving more my whole life. I'm fearful of not being able to provide for our child.

Well, you're going to be able to provide food. You got the chickens. Yeah. So what are you fearful of not being able to provide? There are a few moments in people's lives where they really genuinely care about money. And the major ones are getting married, having children, as you just heard Kate say, getting divorced and retiring. But because most of us don't really actively think about money on a regular basis, we don't actually know how to act in those moments. It would be like me

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because we're just starting our farm. And I'm like putting that above paying my loans. I'm just not paying them right now. And so I'm making that choice, but then that becomes like, what if these things get taken away from me because I'm not paying what I'm supposed to be and my student loans, because I'm not paying those right now. Okay.

And so I have a lot of conflict about that. It doesn't sound like you're conflicted. I feel conflicted. I feel not even conflicted. I feel fearful that my choices are going to backfire on me. I feel like I'm not going to be conflicted. I feel conflicted. I feel not even conflicted. I feel fearful that my choices are going to backfire on me because I just don't know yet. Okay. It just feels like I need to go get more money to make her feel safer and to make us, I mean, I feel the

same way. I feel concerned that having a baby is going to cost us a lot more money and we're going to need more. Yeah. And you probably are. So what are you going to do about that? Looking at buying a diner. What? What the buying a starting restaurant? I'm a chef and starting my own restaurant.

Wait, what? Have you read a restaurant before? Yeah. You ran it? No, I didn't own it, but I ran it, yes. Did it make money? Yeah, a lot of money. Alright, fine.

Good, alright, so that's an option. You want to earn more money. Theoretically, you might start a restaurant. Okay. Would that solve the problem here? Try to understand the real problem. You bought a house, you're having a baby, you bought a $2,400 bed.

What's the problem? We're racking up debt and not able to rack up savings. I agree with that. Kate, do you agree with that? 100%. Okay, and is that a problem? Yeah. It is. Why Kate? Because I have a couple years ago, I had, I was making a lot of money. I started my own business while I was doing that. And I was spending money like I was still earning $55 an hour and wrapped up incredible debt. How much debt? Total, like 27,000. Is that credit card debt?

Credit card debt. Okay, and how long? Like six months. Okay, and is that debt still around? $17,000 left, but both of those credit cards closed because I wasn't making payments. And so I'm very fearful of that happening again. Why are you fearful? What was the consequence for you? Mike, which I don't even know why I care about this so much, but like my credit score taint. And now, like I couldn't even, I'm not on our mortgage.

I'm on our deed, but I'm on our mortgage because no one will approve me, because my credit is shot, and I don't have great payment history, that limits me and being able to help Mike with certain things, even though I'm still paying like half of everything I need to pay, but like I'm not on the mortgage because they won't approve me.

Nobody will approve me for anything. What do you think of your relationship with money, Kate? How would you describe it? It's changed. I use to be like whatever it comes easily, money flows in, money flows out and then Since learned like since being pregnant that has like drastically changed and now I'm like Oh my god money doesn't flow in anymore. It's not as easy as it once was like now. I have a human growing I don't Have that same mindset of like easy gum easy go Which that was my mindset for 30 years. Yeah, what is your mindset now if you had to describe it? All I can think of is like it's like I'm holding on for dear life and just like extremely rooted in fear. I like know exactly what's in our account. I know exactly where everything's

going every month. I'm paying attention to it more than I ever have. I feel like I was spending money on things I didn't necessarily value before and that didn't really make me feel like I was living the rich life that I wanted to live. And now I'm putting money. I'm definitely spending money more on like what I value and what makes me feel like I'm having a rich life? Well, I don't think anything we've talked about today is about you not spending money on a rich life. You bought a house because it's about your values with food, you bought a mattress because it's about your values with health.

Right. I don't think that's the question at all. I think you yourself have told me, you're fearful because you don't have money coming in and you don't have any savings, right? Yeah, that's also a huge part. We have zero dollars in savings. So isn't that a bigger problem than living your rich life when you have a baby and 20 is $17,000 of debt? Why are we not talking about that? Yeah, that's a huge thing. I just like pretend it's not there. Yeah, I can tell. And it's a problem. I'm, you know, we've been talking now for quite a while.

And I'm trying to get you to tell me what the real problem is. But when I ask, you have a variety of techniques you use to dance around the topic. Actually my behavior is better than it used to be, you know, I'm actually like spending money meaningfully. If you can't get honest with yourself and with me, then we don't really have a chance of making a change here. Yeah, so would you like to take another crack at this? Kate Are you good with money? I'm working on it. That's an interesting answer, but not what I asked I'm not confident in being good at it at all. Okay. I would

I know if you were good. If I was paying all my loans, if I was paying every bill that we actually had. Okay. That would be good. What else? One thing I have done over the past couple months is automate everything. Okay, don't tell me what you've done. I wanna know how would I know if you were good? Notice, what's happening right now? I'm dancing around it. Yeah, my student loan debt and my credit card debt

terrify me and I'm completely ignoring them. I'm not paying making payments on any of that. And what happens if you keep not making payments on them? I honestly don't know. Nothing's happened with my credit cards. Mike, listening to this, how does this strike you? It's nothing I don't know.

You're not surprised? It's not really surprising. No. Are you concerned hearing Kate's answers? Yeah, I mean, I've been concerned. When we got to know each other, she had all of her student-loan debt that was also unmanageable and it's kind of spend that waste pretty much since the newer. How long did you know each other and then when did you both get? Are you married? Yeah. Okay. How long did you know each other before you

got married? Eight years. Okay. And how long you've been married for? That'll be two years in August. All right, so Mike, when you met Kate, she had unmanageable student loans. Did that concern you? Yeah, it took us a really long time to combine finances because I was afraid of that as well of like getting into that. She tell her. Yeah, I told her that I have my own debts and I'm working on paying

that stuff off. And since she was not paying that stuff off, I said I didn't want to help her until she did start paying it. Okay, then what happened? She paid them a couple of months maybe and She paid them a couple of months maybe, and then we both, after much hesitation, combined finances, and now all of the debt is just both of us. Why did you combine? We were married. It felt like we should. Okay. All right. Mike, when I asked you how it feels to hear Kate's answers, you said you're not surprised.

You've heard it before, I'm sure. I'm hearing this for the first time. I'm surprised and I'm troubled. I'm troubled because Kate doesn't really know the consequences of not paying the debt off. And in fact, Kate is pretty candid, Kate, that nothing really bad has happened. They'll send you more urgent envelopes and you're supposed to pay and you pay a little bit and then you buy yourself a few more months of reprieve. That can work for a while, but it's not really a way to build a healthy family, certainly not a way to build healthy finances. Do you care? So much. I don't know.

You do? Tell me how I would know if I walked into your household with a clipboard. How would I know that you care about building a healthy relationship with money? I don't know if you would. Yeah. Why is that? Why are you dancing around? I'm not trying to judge you here. I'm trying to understand what's going on. So why do you think that you are dancing with your answers? I don't think I'm looking deep enough to find the truth. Why? Because I don't want to know. Because if you find out, what would it mean?

But I have to take responsibility. This is extremely fascinating to me. Notice that Kate has created a cobweb of techniques to shield herself from being honest about their money. And to tell you the truth, most of the time, her separate reality works just fine. It's only now that she's starting to feel actual consequences with a baby on the way, she reacts extremely unpredictably using words like fearful and admitting she doesn't really want to know

about her finances because then she'd have to take responsibility. There are literally tens of millions of people in America in the same situation. And the truth is, during the budget at them won't work, throwing a compound interest chart at them won't work, they're not even at the house stage. In fact, many of them don't even realize what the actual problem is. They just feel bad and they don't know how to interpret that feeling or make sense of it. If you're single, you can get by in this reality distortion field for a long time, but she's married and they're having a baby and now they're facing severe consequences.

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Am I reading that right? Mostly yeah. Are you checked out because you spent all the money you had saved and invested on this house and now it doesn't feel good? because you spent all the money you had saved and invested on this house. And now it doesn't feel good. Yeah. Okay. Are you checked out at all because of Kate's relationship with money?

I think a little bit is that she's picked up the slack and now where she's looking at the checking account and saying, okay, we have this to spend and that spend. And here's the bills coming up. I kind of am like, all right, well, Kate's worrying about it, so I don't need to. So Kate has now taken over that role. Is she good at it? Yeah, I'd say so.

Okay. How would you know if she's good? We, they haven't taken our house. Wow. It's a bit of a low bar, don't you think? Yeah. Like, is that a joke? Are you serious?

I mean, we have money for food and we have money for gas. And we can pay most of our bills, not including her debts, but we can do what we need to do. For me, paying the bills is not being good with money. That's a bare minimum. This table stakes. It's like, if I asked, you know, you're about to become parents. And if I said, are you a good parent?

And you said, yes, I feed my baby. Is that enough to be a good parent? No. No. No. So why would we apply the same thing to our money? Have you two talked about your parenting style? We've started, too. Has that series of conversations surprised you at all?

We've started to. Has that series of conversations surprised you at all? Not really. I think that's something both of us have talked deeply about before from our own personal wounds as children. Yeah. And how we were parented. Got it. Okay, great. I'm glad to hear you're having those conversations. Have you ever had similar conversations about money? No. Kate, how were you raised? What do you remember about money as a child? It was a source of stress. And my parents would also do whatever they could to make sure we could.

My brother and I could do whatever activities we wanted to do no matter what the price was. And I was not allowed to have a job. Why is that? My mom strongly believed that when you're a kid, you're a kid. And you don't have to work. But I also now, as an adult, feel like it was a form of control. Control in the sense of...

I need her. You can't have a job because you're a kid, but secretly, you can't have a job because that would mean you have money, you have independence, you have other things to do besides depending on me. And that's why I went to college. Did you go away for college? Was that a source of conflict in your family? Oh yeah. My mom wanted to keep us as close as possible. And I was only allowed to go to school four hours away, which was fine. I went to school for dance in New York City and that's what I

wanted to do. But I didn't want to go to school. I just wanted to move there and start dancing. And when I told her that, it was a huge fight. And she was like, if you don't go to college, I'm, you're not getting any money from us anymore. And I didn't have a job. I had no idea how to make money. How'd you do it? Cedar Lonesome.

What are those students loans represent to you now? Anger and resentment. Tell me. I'm so angry that I have this debt that I never wanted and that when I first my freshman year, I had no concept of money because I was not, it's not a conversation in my household. and I wasn't allowed to have a job and My first year was $30,000 is a loans and my parents never like raised a red flag like they were like, yeah, that's fine And so I had now have $130,000 a student loans and I have a bachelor of fine arts and dance

Are your parents wealthy? No They're upper-middle class, middle class. But they have paid for your college? They paid $10,000 a year, and that's what they said they would pay. Okay. And what is their financial status now? I don't really know. My mom just retired. I know now, like, now she's all of a sudden having budgets and, oh, I can only spend this much on you for Christmas.

I can only spend this much on you for your birthday. Like, they also live a life I don't want. So don't really look at what they do for money. They just like, my mom is a shopper and just like growing up was constantly shopping, constantly buying stuff for that, constantly doing like, spending money on things I'm like why? Like for example, would she buy a $2,400 mattress? No, but they'll spend money on like a $25,000 car.

To me, that we pay for our cars and cash because we don't want that. So we're like, to me, that seems like a lot. Hold on, what the hell? You pay for your cars and cash because we don't want that so we're like To me that seems like a lot hold on what the hell you pay for your cars and cash because you don't want to debt But you pay for a mattress with who years of debt? I know well, we bought the cars before we Or the car I just don't like I don't that's also why I was so hesitant about the mattress I don't want to add another bill to my plate. I don't want to have another payment. I did because I realized that like us fighting every single night was not going to work.

Me getting terrible sleep was not going to work. Me freaking out about like a mattress leading with chemicals that's going to harm us and the baby was not going to work. Kate, how about having tens of thousands of dollars of debt? Is that gonna work? No, it's not working. It seems to me that that's the only one that you allow to play out, to just add on to the debt. Totally. I think because I'm just so resentful about it, then I'm like, just screw it all. Kate, how old are you?

I'll be 33 and two weeks. and I'm like, just screw it all. Hey, how old are you? I'll be 33 in two weeks. It sounds like in a way, your philosophy with money is, I've already lost the game, so I give up. I'm just gonna basically play it out until something bad happens to me. Yeah, that's not accurate. Now, if you were alone, I would say, all right, Kate,

well, it's your money, it's not mine. If you want to play that type of game, good luck. But the issue is you are married to Mike and you have a baby on the way. So what may seem fun and flippant and something people do in their 20s in New York is actually not that fun, and it's not cool when you have a family, especially when you are the one who earns the primary income. But you don't need me to tell you that, do you?

No. I'm so glad I get the chance to dive deeper into people's backgrounds on this show. See, if you heard just the first 20 minutes of today's conversation, you might dismiss Kate. But now we learn her parents' role in her taking on $130,000 of debt with a BA in fine arts and dance. Now, we also recognize that she could have taken more responsibility to learn about these

debts before she signed the papers. And we can understand why she resents her debt. Even hates it. So much so that she simply avoids it. And because her parents never talked about money and she never really learned how it works, she suddenly arrived at this place where they're low on savings in debt with a baby on the way. And she has no idea how she should react. I'm still trying to hide even though we've been together for a decade. I'm still trying to hide flaws and things that I feel very insecure about and pretend I'm not. And you haven't had any consequences, right?

Yeah. That's also I haven't had any consequences, right? Yeah, that's also, I haven't been any consequences. Your parents said we're giving you 10K, you stayed at college, incurred a lot of debt, still got a car, still got a house, still got groceries. What's the problem? The problem for me now is choosing now at the house. It's choosing to have a functioning bathroom or pay me alone. And how do you make that decision? I make that decision by what do I feel like I need more at the moment. This is a either or situation, what's more important to me, right?

Would you say that's a pattern that you've had for a long time? Yeah. What's more important to me? Yeah. The consequences are that we're not able to build a rich life because we're always behind. What do you mean? She told me that she got the mattress in the house and the groceries. She's spending more consciously. Sounds like she's got a rich life. I wouldn't say that. I think, um,

I think that there's a lot more that we want to do with our money and with our lives. Then just get the groceries and just pay the bills. I feel incredibly selfish for the debt that I've racked up. And so I put off paying it off because I feel like it's not fair for all this, this like fair for all this, this like $1,200 a month in payments that I'm supposed to be making to be going towards the debt that I've racked up because it was all pseudolones or reform my credit cards were during like, but it feels to, it feels selfish. We don't have high income. It is week to week, like, everything, it were like paycheck to paycheck, that it, it feels like this need and this

desire and this like, that I need to pay these bills, shouldn't fall on Mike. And so I just ignore them. Because I'm like, well, it's not hurting Mike. It's only hurting me. Can you talk to Mike? Yeah. It's only hurting me, not you. It does hurt me, though. It hurts us both as a family.

And I know that it's hurting you. It causes a lot of conflict about what we want and what we can afford. And whether we're fixing that bathroom or paying your loans. And then when we say, all right, we're going to do the bathroom, then you've expressed that you felt left out because we're choosing to ignore your loans. I don't ever want to make my debt a priority when everything is necessity at the moment. Like ask her if that will ever change. Will that ever change?

Unless we find ways to drastically increase our income, I don't think so. Even when we have had a lot more income than this, the loans have always been kind of at the bottom of the pile. There's always been something more important than the loans. There's never been enough to throw at them, no matter how much we make. The payment feels incredibly unmanageable. And it feels like it's just such, always such a huge chunk of our income to put, like, my minimum payment is $850.

Like, that seems incredibly unmanageable when that's like one of our paychecks for the week. And so it always just feels like, okay, this has to come last because what else are we gonna do? Like this is a huge payment that I don't know how we're gonna, if we decide to pay this, how are we gonna pay for food? How are you gonna pay for gas to get to work?

Mike, go back to your question. Is this ever going to change? Well, we ever be able to put money towards those loans and towards that debt. If our current reality stays the same, no. My cat is that answer strike you. I feel like that's one of the first honest things Kate has really come out and said, thank you, Kate, for saying that. Tell her. That strikes me as defeated.

I tell me how you feel. Not about her. I feel defeated. Okay. I feel like I don't know how to change things and I don't know how we'll ever get to pay those loans either. Okay. Both of you look defeated right now. Am I reading that correctly? Yeah. Feel good or bad? Bad. Pretty bad. My perspective, I'm going to take your perspective for just a second, as if I heard my partner Kate just say, I don't really think things will change in our current situation, et cetera. And my answer would be, that's just not acceptable to me. I'm just not willing to live that kind of life.

We're too young, we're too smart to give up on life in our early 30s with a baby on the way. I'm not going to do it and I won't allow you to do it either. Mike, what would it feel like if you said that? Confident, strong. Yeah. You ever feel like that in a different part of life? Yeah, in the kitchen. Yeah. Tell me about that. What do you feel? How would you describe yourself there? I feel like no matter what comes up or whatever challenges come my way that I know that I'll be able to figure them out. Oh yeah, you get buried in there, you get too many orders, you're missing some ingredient, you know, you can figure it out, right? Yeah. All right.

Translate that to money here for a second. You don't even have to believe it. Just play for a couple of minutes here, okay? Take that same energy and bring it back to this conversation. I think that no matter how deep we get, that we're gonna be able to get out of it, it's not a matter of if it's just when we figure it out,

we'll get through this and whether we have the, whatever it is that we have to do, we know that we can do it. We've done it for our whole lives. We've been getting through it. And we'll continue to keep doing that. Hey. I have a hard time believing it right now.

Yeah. Me too. Me too. I think it's because we've gotten stuck in the... I feel like we're stuck in a trap of like, we need a house. we need these certain things because that's what normal people do. And I don't want that. Like, what? What do you mean, you told me, I asked you to.

I know, part of me does. You told me, I bought the house because land, and it's very important for us to not be food insecure and to grow our own stuff. Yeah. Is that true or not true? Some days it's true, and some days I'm like, but I just wanna move back into our campervan

so we can travel the country. Like that's what I loved. But there was also a lot of sacrifices that had to be made that didn't always make my copy. So now I feel like this house was like I'm always trying to look for the benefits, but part of it is also like, this just feels like a burden. Like this isn't necessarily what I wanted. I would prefer to stand our camper van. Is there is there is there anything in between a camper van and a house a fixer up around

a ton of land? Is there any possible different type of option in between the two? Like say something that 99% of America lives in? Yeah, we've rented for so much before. And honestly, part of me is resentful that, to Mike, that he wanted this house so bad and that now we have all these things to maintain. And renting was easier. Who decided to buy the house?

I know my wants to say we would decided to do this together. And part of us, yeah, we did decide to do this together. And part of me is like, I just did this for you. I think you would have said the same thing in a rental. And it was like, we have all these short-term rentals and the like instability of... I think it was the baby. It was the, okay, we're going to get married and have a baby and get a house and get some stability and start making money and farm our own land and be able to sustain ourselves. And that was why we got the house with lots of land.

With the farm. I felt like it was, there was a lot of time to bring these concerns up in the process of buying the house and to really stop us there. Yeah, and I remember a lot of fights about it too. And I don't feel like my needs are important. What are your needs? I don't think I've really given enough time to figure it out. Well, Kate, you got a baby on the way. It's time to think about it now. Yeah, and I think that's why our conflict is arising.

Because now, I'm like, okay, what do I really want? What do I want to teach? What do I want to display for this baby? Because I can say things all day, but they're going to he's going to do what we do. So Kate, can you answer Mike's question? What are your needs? I don't even know what my needs look like. Paying our bills, like paying my student loans is a huge one. And my credit card debt is a huge one. And I did when we moved to the Berkshire as we,

I started paying it. And you were pissed at me because that money couldn't go towards a down payment. And so I stopped. It was a huge fight. You were pissed. So I stopped paying. I just want to point out this dynamic that's going on here. Mike is genuinely trying to understand your needs and Kate, in your response, you've now turned your answer and weaponized it about something Mike did wrong.

That's right, true. Yeah. Are you getting anywhere with this? No. Why are you doing it then? I don't know. Think about it. Why did you just answer his very genuine question with your response?

I feel like I need to protect myself because even though it wasn't an attack, it was just asking me genuinely like what are your needs. It feels really uncomfortable to even know what my needs are. Why? Because I've never even made myself priority. Why not? And I'm feeling like I deserve it. Where do you think that comes from? What do you think that comes from?

Really deep seated belief from my childhood. That growing up, I felt like every move I made wasn't for me. It was for my mom. You still in touch with your mom? Yeah. Sometimes not willingly. You're in therapy also, right? I just had therapy today and this was our main conversation. I'm glad to hear that. It's up in helping. Yeah. Good luck. I'm glad to hear that. It's up in helping. Yeah. Good luck.

Are you doing that solo or are you doing it jointly? Right now we're both solo and we have been both doing solo therapy. I've been in about three months. Mike's been doing it for about two months and we feel like we're ready to start doing couples. Great. I'm really happy to hear that. You know, I'm always happy to hear that people who come on the show are seeing a therapist

and you'll notice that once she mentioned it, I backed off of the topic of her mom because that's between Kate and her therapist. One thing I do want to point out is how I think this podcast fits into the world of self-development and mental health, including therapy. First off, I'm not a therapist. I have seen a therapist, and on this show, I frequently recommend that lots of guests go and see one as well. I think that we have a lot of options when it comes to improve ourselves. We can get books,

we can listen to podcasts, we can hire coaches and trainers and therapists, but the honest truth is that most people won't hire a therapist. It's expensive, it's hard to find one, and worst of all therapy is stigmatized in our country, which is exactly why I like to talk about it so openly. I think there are different levels of help that we can all use. Some of us start with an audiobook. Others join a coaching program. Many people start listening to this podcast thinking they have some esoteric financial problem only to realize that they actually need more ongoing help from a therapist. Great!

To all of those situations. I want to always be honest about who I am and what I do, and where my circle of competence starts and ends. And I want to give a big thank you to all the therapists who listen to this show and send me your notes. I appreciate you and support the important work that you do. Kate, I'm sure that you'll be spending a lot of time with your therapist discussing these things.

I don't want to impede on that at all in terms of your parental upbringing. But I am very curious from here moving forward. What are the effects of the way that you treat money on your relationship with Mike? of the way that you treat money on your relationship with Mike. So what came up with Derby today was that this fear just ends up coming out as anger and it's just constant anger. Mike, you feel that? Yeah. Yeah, and I feel represented just like the loans.

That's interesting. And Kate, do you want that? No. Okay, what do you want? What type of relationship would you want with Mike? More compassionate and more loving and more open. I love those descriptions. Would you be willing to try to embody those for a minute or two right now with me? Yeah. Okay. Mike, can you ask that same question again? And this time, Kate, give me those three words that you're going to embody again. Compassionate, loving and open. Beautiful.

Go ahead, Mike. What are your needs and how can we help you get there? I need to feel enough. I need to be all important. And like, I matter. I feel really resentful that you have cut back on working so much. And I feel like me and the baby aren't important. Part of me feels really resented because even though you knew about my debt, like my debt doesn't matter.

And that I'm just a burden. My debt and me are a burden. I understand why you would feel like you're dead and you are a burden, but I would like to know how I can make you feel like enough and why it feels so little and so small. That's a good question. I don't really know exactly why I feel so small. I think a lot of it has nothing to do with you. And at the same time, it all does because I found somebody that kept recreating the beliefs I already have about myself. And I've never felt like I was important. Even when it comes down to that stupid bachelor party, I still don't feel important. What would feeling important look like? When I ask for something,

actually listening and honoring it, I've been asking for help bringing in more income for months and it hasn't happened. And that feels really stressful. Can I step in for a second? Yeah. Okay. Thank you for this conversation. It feels honest. It does feel open.

So I really appreciate that. I want to recognize both of you. Mike, K has mentioned the income part of this equation. Is that a fair assessment? What she's saying that your income hasn't gone up and you could if you wanted to. I definitely have been bringing in less and it's been with the intention and I've made this clear to find better ways to bring in money and ways that make me happier. And I have started the side hustle of the dog boarding thing and that's brought in some money and I've also and that's brought in some money. And I've also started, I've got another job lined up. And I have things coming. I just feel like it might be not enough.

I have heard you that you need more money and that we need more money as a family. You all know how much you need. Or is this just more? Well, after looking at the conscious spending plan and filling it out, we got really discouraged because it was a significant amount more. More than I would be able to make just working in a restaurant being a chef. And that's why I branched off and cut back the hours to try to find other ways to bring in that amount of money. Okay, so to answer my question again, what's the number you need?

Kate has it. It is curious to me as Kate's pulling us up that, Mike, you don't know the amount that you are, quote, supposed to bring in Kate knows it. Do you find that curious? Yeah, I think I was, when we first filled out that conscious spending plan, it was like a holy crap that's more money than I could bring in. So then it just became one of those, like I'm not even gonna look at it, thanks.

So both of you do this thing, where when the news gets bad, you just ignore it. I used to not do it as much. Why now? Is it that all those savings went away to the house? Yeah. I guess I used to always do it. Yeah, I think I just wasn't. I don't believe you, I don you always do it. Yeah, I think I just wasn't I don't believe you.

I don't believe you changed. I spent all my money on a house and suddenly I changed. I don't believe that. Okay, at least you're honest. Yeah. Yeah. So let me get to straight. Both of you have ignored money for a long time. And now you're surprised that you're in this situation.

Is that surprise you? I don't know if I'm surprised. And now you're surprised that you're in this situation. Is that surprised you? I don't know if I'm surprised. Yeah, not really surprised. I'm not really surprised. But I think it's now compounding where it's like, okay, this is an issue now. Well, it was always an issue. You just didn't know it. It was always an issue. We kind of knew it.

We just pretended it wasn't and that it would hopefully get better without consciously making it better. Can I tell you though, I think you're both still doing that. Yeah. Yeah, yeah, it makes a lot of sense. Okay. So you're both still ignoring the problems here. All right, Kate, you pulled that number up?

Yeah, so net, we would have to both jointly pull in $12,000 a month. You're pulling in 7,000 gross So you need a lot more money is basically a lot more money. Yeah All right, so so let me see if I can state this in a different way you both calculated your numbers you realized You need a lot more money in order to effectively what? Cover your expenses. What else? Cover expenses, save money, both in long-term investments and short-term investments, as well as have our own spending money. What about the debt? Oh, the debt. I mean, yeah, sorry, that was, yeah, fixed costs, which include debt. And so since you realistically didn't see any path to that,

you basically just got discouraged, then nothing has changed. Yeah, because neither one of us has ever made that much money or come close to it. So it feels like a completely unreachable goal. Yeah, I can see that. Can't feel good to see that the number you would need comfortably is higher than anything you two have ever made jointly. Yeah. And you got the house, you

got the baby, et cetera, et cetera, et cetera. Yeah. So your conclusion is what we both shut down. Yeah. What would be a different way if you were confident, competent? What would you do? Rise to the occasion. I honestly don't know. Mike, do you have any ideas? Stop doing what I'm doing and do something different. Definitely not just keep doing the same thing and that's why I've come back and looking at other avenues. Yeah. I still think the other avenues are like not super viable. Oh good. Let's crush each other's dreams while we're talking

about what it would look like to be confident and competent. You're right. You guys love the pattern. Don't you? Clearly. Yeah, I think encouraging both of you both encouraging myself and encouraging him instead of tearing down would be a huge benefit and definitely a confidence booster than a confidence deflater Which is definitely what we both do to each other right now. It's not how good. No. How can you do this with the two of you and you're about to incur more stress than you've ever

had in your life with a baby? Yeah. I'm terrified. Are you terrified enough to make a change? Maybe. Yeah. I'm terrified. Are you terrified enough to make a change? Yeah. Kate? That pause tells me everything I need to know.

I, yeah. People who are ready to make a change say, I will do anything. I don't think I will. That's honest. You won't because why? You know, I was going to say because I'm not willing to sacrifice being happy. And at the same time, I'm not happy right now. So I guess it's not really, if I were to break it down, it doesn't my thought process doesn't actually make sense. But the way that like I see being able to make up that difference is having is working

like 60 to 80 hours and I'm like, I just won't I'm not going to do that. That sounds miserable to me. So there's like some things I'm willing to do and some things I'm just not. Because we've both worked 80 hour weeks before working in restaurants and it sucked. Even though like it just didn't feel fulfilling, like I wasn't doing anything else with my life except for working. I had savings. I had LaMoney.

We were able to go on a two month road trip across the country and have plenty of money to spend. Sure. But my day to day sucked. So it's like, am I willing to sacrifice everything to so like have more money? No. I'm not. You're being really honest with me. My job here is to help people as far as they want to be helped. Candidly, I don't get the sense that you're really willing to make a change right now. I mean, you just said it. Point blank. I think that you have some stories you tell yourself. One of the stories being that if you were to save

money, you have to work 80 hours a week. I Don't find that to be true, but you have convinced yourself that that is the only way as a mechanism against change and Kate I can't help if you're not ready to change Mike I can't help if you're not ready to be direct in what you need With Kate if you're checked out nothing I can do to make you care. And so, I really want for the two of you to be successful, especially with a baby on the way. But I don't think that I can do anything to help you at this point.

Hmm. Yeah, that makes sense. I wish you both the best. Thanks for listening to I Will Teach You To Be Rich. I'm Remi Tseiti. Please follow the show on Apple, Spotify, or wherever you listen to podcasts. If you haven't read I Will will teach you to be rich. My book, pick up a copy. You can get it at any bookstore or any library, and it will show you the specific tactics

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