Keep it Positive, Sweetie - Purging Season
Episode Date: July 25, 2023Season 1 Episode 8 |While purging is very necessary to get rid of dead weight and start anew, the process isn’t always easy. You can know that you need to do the right thing, but the right decisio...n doesn’t always feel pleasant. Letting go of people and things that you love and that have been in your life for some time can be very lonely. Join me on the couch as I talk about how I’m going through and growing through this purging season in my life. Love y’all and don’t forget to Keep It Positive, Sweetie!
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Hello and welcome to this episode of Keep It Positive Sweetie.
I'm Krista Renee Hazelate and I'm so excited to be with you guys today.
I'm welcoming you into my home to sit right on my couch.
And guys can I say that I just love you guys.
The amount of love and support that you guys have shown me.
I was really scared to release this podcast.
I didn't know if my voice mattered,
if you guys even wanted to listen,
but you guys have shown me that you do care
and that we are more alike than we are different.
So I just wanted to say thank you.
Today, we are talking about purging season,
which is where I feel like I am in my life right now.
I thought about it, you know,
I just saw that God is really moving a lot of things.
And when people hear purging,
they think of an Eden disorder
or they think of the movie, the purge.
This is not that, this is,
when I looked at the actual definition,
it means to read, clear, or free,
and it also means to become cleansed or purified.
And I feel like that's exactly what God is doing
in my life right now.
And when I started to ascend, I started
to see a lot of things, and it's becoming very clear.
So when I think of purging season,
I was getting my hair done today by Destiny,
style by Destiny, and we were listening to Pandora
and the song, When I Pray by Doe Started Playing,
which is one of my favorite songs I have worn it out.
I absolutely love that song,
but it spoke to me in a different way.
And I was like, oh my goodness, that's the song
for this episode. And the lyrics say, oh my goodness, that's the song for this episode. And the
lyrics say, carrying all the world on my shoulders, and it's gotten too heavy for me. You know
I ain't no Hercules. Life moves on, stuff breaks off, people fall off. Gotta find a way
to get over, gotta find a way to get through, break through, hear you. Shuggles they last, but at time pass,
it's been one thing after the other.
Oh, I don't always know the right way.
No, I don't always know what to say.
But all I know is something happens when I pray.
Shout out to my beautiful sister, Melissa Williams,
for putting me on that song.
I think it was two summers ago, or maybe last year's
sometime, but I absolutely love that song.
And it's gotten me through.
But it resonated differently when I was thinking about what
I was going to talk about today.
And I said, wow, that's really how I feel right now.
The weight of the world is super heavy.
And it's a very, you know, a very lonely season,
but I feel like God is really, really providing clarity
in this season.
And I know you guys see me smiling,
but just know that everybody's going through something.
You know, we smile through, we push through it,
we work through it, we travel through it,
and we do all these things to try to mask
what we're going through or just
to try to get through the best we can.
And that's what I'm doing right now.
I am navigating this season the best that I can and I know that it's drawing me closer
to God.
It's bringing me closer to my healing journey.
I know I'm getting over a lot of different things.
But when I thought about it, I recently lost a very close friend of mine and not lost
to death, but lost a friend.
And this is someone that I thought would be in my life forever, be by my side.
We've been through so much together as we were both grinding and trying to figure life
out, you know.
And as I continued to ascend, I brought this person on to different projects.
And for certain reasons, they didn't work out.
But we do what we can.
You know, we feel like that's what we're supposed to do when you are, you have opportunities.
If you can bring your friends on, you do that and you try to put them on.
And I continue to ascend and this person wasn't ascending, I guess, to the speed or even to the level that I was
where they thought we should be moving at the same pace. But God's pace and our pace
is not always the same. And I started to realize as I was looking like, dang, this person
isn't supporting me, this person isn't happy for me. And it wasn't even just happy for my success.
It was happy when I, if they weren't in a relationship
and I was, they couldn't be happy for me finding love.
If I had a new project going on,
I wasn't sure if I could really call that person
because I didn't know how they were going to react
or if they were going to be happy for me.
And for a while, you kind of like brush it aside. You're like, oh, that's just, you know what I'm saying? Maybe they were going to be happy for me. And for a while you kind of like brush
it aside because you're like oh that's just you know what I'm saying maybe they're going through
something and you try to be um try to show empathy for what they're going through and even sometimes
I wouldn't tell them what what I was going through because I didn't want it to be be another reminder that I was still climbing and they were still in a stagnant space.
But it was, I wanna say, 20, 20?
Around 2020, and this is a friendship that I've had
for over 10 years.
It was about 2020 when it really like came to a head
and I was like, whoa, you're not happy for me.
And that's a very like jealousy and envy
and not being happy for people because you're
in a certain space is not a good thing.
I'm a firm believer that when God looks at us in our different seasons,
He watches how you clap for others. I'm a firm believer of that. And the way you cheer
other people on, even when it's your down season, is going to show God that, hey, like, I
know you're going to do it for me. And I always would say, like, if you're this close to
me and you see all that God has done for me,
why do you think he won't do it for you? You know, why are you not inspired to get up and get
it yourself or worried about all the other people that I'm connected to that are getting put on
because of the blessing that I have, you got to do the work, you know, and we had so many conversations
You know, and we had so many conversations about how I felt. And she had the heart check herself.
I was like, you know what?
I am.
I'm a hurt people hurt people.
I hurt people.
I'm in a place of season of my life where I'm depressed.
And I'm not happy for myself.
So I can't be happy for you.
She just didn't have the space for that.
But as I continued to ascend, I realized this
is no longer serving me.
If I can't come to you as a friend and let you know,
oh my goodness, this is what happened.
Are you really my friend?
If I can't call you and tell you my closest secrets,
are you really my friend?
If I can't call and say, hey, I just met this amazing guy.
And I can't call you because you're not in a relationship,
so you're not in a state to be happy for me.
Are you my friend?
So all these things started happening.
And I was like, you know what?
This is not a good space that I want to be.
And I don't feel good about this friendship anymore.
And I just decided that it no longer served me.
And this is one of the hardest things I've had to deal with,
because I'm a very strong person.
of the hardest things I've had to deal with because I'm a very strong person. I feel like I, all my life I've had to just brush things aside and keep moving, you know, and I've
done that very well where people was like, do you ever have a bad day? And I'm like, yeah,
I have bad days and I have what you're always happy. And I'm like, I learned to smile through
it all, you know, and that's something with therapy that I'm learning, it's okay to go through the motions.
And the motions are your emotions.
Like, one minute, I'm like, I'm fine.
You know, I made the right decision.
I'm at peace about it.
This is something I had to do.
And then there's other days where I'm really sad
or I'll see something on Instagram
that I immediately want to send to her.
And I'm like, dang, like, only she would understand this.
You know, and that's like, dang, like, only she would understand this, you know? And that's like moments like that or moments where I'm going through something that I don't,
I would normally only talk to her about where I really miss my friend.
But when I think about the bigger picture, like, you have to have boundaries,
even when it comes to friends, a lot of people think, oh, boundaries and relationships,
that we always talk about that, but we don't talk about boundaries
and friendships.
And it was something where we always would just be like,
oh, that's just how she is.
That's just, and you make excuses for people,
but they never take accountability to change,
or to do the work, you know.
And I'll also say this, not all friendships
that fall off is a definite end, you know.
I've had a friend where we didn't talk for a few years
and she started going to therapy and she started to realize a lot of things
that were going on were because of her and she took accountability for that
and we're great friends again today. You know, the love doesn't stop,
you know, and one thing I learned in therapy when I talked to my therapist,
Delena Zimmerman about this, you know, and one thing I learned in therapy, when I talked to my therapist, Delena Zimmerman about this, she said, you have to allow people to go in grace and go with love.
You can still love them from afar.
You don't have to bad talk them or anything like that, but you have to put you first.
You have to put your spirit first, your heart and your peace first.
And in this season, I am learning what that looks like.
And it's tough.
I'll definitely be going through my day
and just show pop up in my head.
But I know that if I didn't make this move
or make this stance, she may or may not go get the help
that she needed.
And really just take time to look and be like, wow,
maybe I do need to rethink some things. maybe I do need to figure out why I
react like this.
Because a lot of times we do things and we have no idea why we're doing it.
Because a lot of things have been embedded in us as a child.
And we're carrying that little girl, a little boy with us throughout our lives.
And we never take time to realize, oh, this behavior is not good because we've had
people for me for one who's like, oh, that's just how they are. And we love them regardless
of their actions. But they're never going to take accountability or learn the lessons
if we keep continuing to take that behavior. So that's like the thing that I'm going through
right now, but also emotional purging, you know, I'm in therapy, I'm healing.
We're all healing together.
I see your messages, and we're all healing together.
And as I'm healing, I'm also learning that there's a lot of things that I, myself, have
to get rid of.
You know, and different traumas, different different things from my past.
And I was having a conversation.
And the guy that I'm dating was like, you know, I feel like
you're only compassionate about your work, you know.
So there's things I have to, I think a lot of times
because I have so much going on.
This is the one thing that that yields results that I can see.
So I just put my focus into this one thing
and not realizing that I'm not giving the people around me
that I love, that attention that they need as well.
And that's a problem that I have to fix.
So in this time, I'm also unpacking and realizing,
oh, there's some things Crystal needs to work on too.
So I'm not just saying everybody around me is the problem,
but I also have some things that I need to fix as well.
When I think of even about my career,
when it comes to purging, you have to be really, really careful.
Because a lot of times people attach to you based off everything.
Everything is about what you can do for them, you know, they can do things for you, but a lot of it is, well, what are you going to do for me as well?
And I started to realize that I had to pay very close attention to the people that I was allowing to represent me, whether it be PR, whether it was management, agents, even the people that I work with. You have to like look at
everything because I have a lot of moving parts and there are have been
instances where I just look at character, I look at your moral compass, I look at
how you treat people that can't help you.
I always say that.
I pay attention to how people treat people
who can do nothing for them,
because that says a lot about your character
and about who you are.
When I started paying attention to that,
I started paying attention to how they moved.
I was like, hmm, does this really align with my brand?
And there are some people I had to completely let go. And there were some people that I just had, hmm, does this really align with my brand? You know, and there are some people I had to completely let go.
And there were some people that I just had to say, okay,
this is your strengths, this is where you can reside in this space,
but I can't let you go past that point.
And that came with maturity, that came with growth,
that came with mentorship.
You know, I'm not going to say I just woke up and knew, like, okay, these things have to do, these are boundaries I have to set.
I didn't wake up.
Those is a lot of trial and error.
You know, you go with your heart and you're good.
And like, okay, this feels like a good fit.
You know, when you're, when you're first starting off
and you're trying to put your team together,
you are just excited.
You know, and exciting when you find somebody who
actually believes in you because for so long,
no one believed in you. And now you have people calling and saying,
hey, I would love to represent you. And learning that you have to really vet those people,
you have to really take time to get to know what they've done, what their motives are.
And in that, then you're able to set boundaries or able to say, hey, you know what, this is no
longer serving me. And I've had to do that. And it's really hard, especially when you really like the person.
You like them, but it's certain things with businesses
like this isn't, you're not getting the job done.
You got to put your big girl panties on
and do the right thing for yourself.
And again, it's about choosing what's good for you.
You know, a lot of times people, I was watching this show on Netflix called,
How to Get Rich or Something.
It's a really dope show about budgeting and, you know, just living within your means.
And he was talking about how this woman had a financial advisor.
And he was like, why are you paying someone a percentage?
You should never do that.
And just teaching us things and nobody, because we're navigating this on our own.
So we don't know these things and
he's like you pay them their hourly rate and he was like but
a lot of people just continue to keep that person on because
oh they're nice or my dad knows them and oh they're a
friend of the family no they're robbing you blind so like not
saying anybody was doing it to me but these are things that
you have to look out for if you're not knowledgeable and a
lot of times in my situation I've've been learning but trial by error,
you know, and trying to figure it out
and learning the lessons as I go.
And another thing that you have to deal with
when you are purging people out of your life,
sometimes people will play on your emotions,
they'll try to give you pushback.
But once you make your decision up,
you have to stand on that shit.
I say it all the time because a lot of times you think about even in relationships.
Like you've seen the signs, you've seen it all but you're like, oh but these are some
good things that I like.
It's the same thing with business.
God will show you the signs, you'll see it pop up and you'll ignore it or you'll take
heed.
If you don't take heed, you will allow people to be like,
well, let's just give it another shot
and let me show you what I can do.
No, you already show me who you are,
you already show me what you cannot do,
so I'm not gonna give you any more time to waste.
We got this thing, this train is moving,
it's moving real fast.
So either you go get on board and get with it or get left.
And when people try to start like pleating their case
and giving push back, it's like, no, this is where I stand.
And that's when on the episode of Get To Know Me,
that the little rebellious girl that's like, no,
this is what I want to do.
She comes into play and says, hey, this is where I stand.
We're not doing this.
And that's my final answer.
Okay, goodbye.
So, when it comes to, even as a kid, I didn't like conflict.
I always wanted to do, I wanted to be perfect, I wanted to do it right.
And didn't want any conflict from anybody, even in school,
like never fought anybody, very unproblematic.
But there was another side of me that was very definitive,
that knew exactly what she wanted, how she wanted it.
And even today, I'm very particular about a lot of things.
And I think that just comes with one, it comes from knowing exactly what you deserve, knowing
your worth, what you bring to the table.
And he was a kid.
I knew I had a lot to bring to the table.
So it started at a very young age where I was like, no, this is what I like, this is what
I know like, and that's it.
But a lot of times people were like, where does it come from?
I really don't know where it came from.
I think it's just a part of my DNA
that I'm very matter of effect, but I also do not like conflicts.
I'm a Libra.
I'm a very peaceful person.
I love balance.
I don't really get into all the signs and stuff.
I just know those few things, the belly bris.
But when it comes to who I am at the core,
like I'm very unproblematic, I like to find peaceful solutions.
Even when I'm like upset, I find a positive angle
that comes from, I don't come right at you with,
you did this, this, this, this, this.
I say, hey, like these are the great things that you did.
But these are the areas that kind of bother me,
or these are the areas that we don't align, and I don't think this relationship serves my brand
or where I'm going.
And that's really how I just deal with it now, you know.
And as you become a business woman or a businessman, you really have to stand firm on it, because
people will run over you.
They'll run over you.
They will put their ideas into your head and
make you think, no, this is what you need to do. You have to be very clear on where you're
going and what you're trying to do. Or literally, you're just going to be going in all different
directions because, oh, this is what my manager told me to do. And this is what my agent
told me to do. And then this is what my boss told me to do. No, what do you want to do?
And once you figure that out, it's easier to stand firm on those things.
And I think that really has come with trial and error.
It's come with confidence.
It has come with learning, hey, this is the direction I want to go in and
be intentional about that.
That's the main thing, figuring out your purpose and
being very intentional to stay in that lane.
As passadaries say, what's your street?
I'm on my street and this is where we going.
Either y'all gonna ride with me or you're not.
So I think that's how I really got to the point of saying,
hey, this is not working or this is exactly what I wanted
and let's move forward.
Have you ever been on a retreating end
of somebody letting you go and, you know,
making sure stories about like, did you have the warning signs?
You know that you have to let go or when you totally shocked
and how many you feel and like what you learned. Girl, ain't nobody will let me go. Let go or wait until the next time, how you be here? Like, would you like to do that?
Girl, ain't nobody will let me go.
No.
Ha, ha, ha, ha.
Me?
I'm joking.
Ha, ha, ha.
She asked me, have I ever been on the receiving end of somebody
wanting to let me go?
I'm saying, if I gonna let me go, girl.
No, I'm joking, let me think.
Oh, I really gotta think about this
because I'm like a catch.
And once they catch it, they really don't want to, you know.
A lot of times is me seeing that they're not ready for
this level of, you know, love that I had to give.
No, I like to think about that.
That's a really good question.
Have I ever been on the receiving end of being let go?
I remember my first best friend in, I think we started being best friends in middle school,
or high school, and then we ended up being roommates in college, our first friend year,
which is a big no no.
You never room with your best friend, and we ended up getting to an argument and it was like,
you know what, like I can't do this anymore.
And that was both of us.
She ended up moving to a different room.
I stayed in the room and she moved.
And that really kind of just was the straw that broke
the camel's back.
I remember like we really hadn't been closed since then.
Like it was one of those friendships
where it just never got back to where it was.
It's still, it's no love lies when we see each other.
It's love because we have grown now, but that's one instance
where I remember someone walking out of my life.
I guess like even the situation of the guy
that I didn't have sex with for that year,
and now he's like with somebody telling different,
walking a totally different light. with for that year and now he's like with somebody telling different, walking
a totally different light.
Yeah I guess that's that's the person that I could tell like we were not aligned
and when we broke up it was like okay I had seen the signs because he was
getting more and more distant so I would I would say that's one recently where someone walked out of my life.
And I was okay with that because, as I talked about in Love the Way God Intended,
I hadn't given my body to him.
So I was okay with him leaving.
He was like, okay, cool.
Because a lot of times for women, once we give it ourselves to you,
it's a different type of attachment that we have.
And for me, that instance where he walked away,
it was like, you're lost.
And it's still his loss.
I mean, yeah, it's his loss.
But we good.
We're still friends.
Until he watches this.
Ha ha ha ha.
You like, are we friends?
No.
You know what?
You know what? When I think about other situations that are relationships, whether it be friendships,
relationships, mainly friendships, a lot of things kind of fizzle out on their own,
where I don't have to say anything.
Our lives start to move in different directions,
and I don't really have to address any issues
that I may have seen because life just naturally
takes different course.
Our lives naturally take different courses.
different course. Our lives naturally take different courses. A lot of times, like I talked about, with my friend, I would, when I realized I wasn't getting the same support and love that I was
giving out, I just started matching that energy and that's probably one of my
toxic traits. I'll just match the energy and move on versus being like, hey let's
sit down and have a talk. But I just don't feel like everybody deserves a talk.
You know, I feel like some people you just got to. All right, this is not going
anywhere. We see what it is. And I'm just not going to waste my time on it
because I don't even want to give you the opportunity to try to talk me out of it because
It's over
And then some things I just don't even have the energy or the capacity to even entertain so I just let it fizzle out.
I'll say even when it comes to
To purging people
It's not always a
It's not always an easy choice. And then there are times from like, dang, like, was I too hard on them?
Should I have been more graceful and gracious to them?
Should I have given them another chance?
But for me, in my big age, I feel like when people show you who they are, believe them.
That's just how I feel about it.
And when I think about people that have gone with their lives and we've parted ways, I feel like trying to think
has there been anyone that was like dang,
I should have given another chance,
because I give people chances.
No, I would say if you're out of my life,
and you really miss something to me,
I've had several conversations with you.
I've communicated my issues, and if it comes to a point
where you're out of my life is for a reason.
So I don't think I've regretted it, but I always
give people a chance to prove who they are
and give them a chance to rectify it and correct it.
And if you don't do that, and that's on you,
yeah, so when I think about anybody that I've let go and ever regretted it or thought
that I did it too soon, no.
If I had to give younger crystals, some advice on when to let go and when to hold on,
because the intuition that I'm in tune with now,
I've always had it, but I didn't always listen
and I wasn't always in tune with it.
I would tell younger crystal to one,
know your boundaries,
to understand that you have a God given intuition and even though you may not understand what that feels like as you continue to grow and
grow into your womanhood you will eventually realize what that feels like and
what that sounds like and what the voice of God sounds like. I would say,
keep inventory, you know, start keeping inventory
at a young age, you know,
I feel like when I was younger,
I just allowed people to run over me.
I allowed people to do whatever.
I just was a people person, people, please, or,
okay, I just wanna keep everybody happy.
That's all I want.
I want everybody to be happy and at what cost?
It was at the cost of me not always being happy.
And I thought that was a nice thing to do,
but didn't realize how it was really affecting me.
I would tell younger crystal to, well, honestly,
I would probably would have told her to, well, honestly,
I would probably would have told her to get in therapy
a lot younger, you know, at an early age,
because I feel like that would have helped
read a lot of the lessons that I just had to go through
because I didn't have that.
You know, I did family therapy with my family,
but that was for other reasons.
But just to have somebody to talk to and really like bounce those ideas off of them,
hey, these are the issues I'm having.
This is what I'm seeing.
Help me understand what's going on here.
If I had had that at a younger age,
like kids nowadays do, at their fingertips,
it's readily available,
I feel like I would have definitely,
bypass a lot of heartache.
I would have bypassed,
because a lot of times you're hard to attach to your friends,
too, it's not always a relationship
with boyfriend and girlfriend and heartache.
There's a heartache from losing friends, family,
whatever the case may be, jobs.
You're hard to involve if you're passionate about it.
And anyone that I'm in close contact
to a close proximity to, I'm're passionate about it and anyone that I'm in close contact to a close proximity to,
I'm very passionate about them and I think that also being aware of who you let close to you and
having that awareness that everybody's not for you and pay attention to that because for me,
I just didn't, I couldn't fathom that because I'm not that type of person. And you can't be so gullible that you don't see the truth about people because you know,
well, I wouldn't do that. Why would, why would, why would somebody do that?
Why wouldn't go break into a house? That doesn't mean people don't do it.
So you have to be aware of that everyone is not like you and that you can't go around life thinking that,
okay, whatever I put out, I'm gonna get
because it doesn't work like that.
So I would say those few things,
even that I wish I knew, you know, as I was growing up,
so that I could be more in tune with my intuition
and seeing the signs when I asked for,
because I would ask for signs at 16 about a little boy.
Like, ooh Lord, just see me as a sign this my boyfriend.
Now I'm asking for bigger signs, but I feel like
those are the things that I would tell younger crystal
that I've learned as 40 year old crystal.
["Foreigners of the World"]
So now for my favorite part of the show,
Positive Outcomes, where you guys write into me and
tell me what you're going through and I give you my advice the best that I can.
So this one says, hey, so recently I've been on a self-discovery journey and I'm just
now starting to love myself again, feeling whole, being happy and finding the courage to
pursue my dreams of becoming an actress producer and entrepreneur.
I've learned that by walking away from starting people in my life, I've been able to set myself free from their baggage. For a long time, I've always felt the need to be there for everyone and to
always be a safety net for people. I've been a friend and aunt, a big sister, and more. But the thing
is, when I look around, there's very little to no one here for me, like I
am there for them.
Last year, I caught off two of my friends.
They were absolutely awful, emotionally draining.
I was battling so much anxiety and stress, which led to suicidal thoughts and attempts
because I wasn't strong enough to let them go.
I wasn't until I rededicated my wife to guide.
Love that.
I realized that holding on would hurt me more than letting go.
So I did.
When I talked about my dreams and goals, I didn't feel heard.
When I was say to them what I wanted to accomplish, I didn't feel like they cared.
They're so consumed with their lives, spouses, partying in their kids.
I'm single.
I don't enjoy clubbing, me neither., I don't enjoy clubbing, me neither.
And I don't have any kids, me neither.
My question is, how do I audit my circle?
I don't wanna lose my friends,
but I also don't wanna feel guilt of my success
and if they're still where they are.
I'm questioning how they feel about me.
Okay, wow.
First of all, I get this on many levels.
I know what it's like to not feel heard and feel sane by your friends.
not feel heard and feel seen by your friends. And I want to commend you on rededicating your life to God
because I feel like when you do that and you find God all over again in a new way
in this season in your life, it's going to help guide you in a way that you haven't been guided before
because you were probably looking to your friends for different affirmations
when you need to be looking guy for confirmations.
I would say auditing, which I call it inventory,
taking inventory of your circle is very important.
And like I said, just write it down.
Every time you feel something that makes you go, hmm.
Okay, that made me feel a type of way.
Just write it down.
Everything doesn't need to be addressed at once.
I would say take on that.
And then also, find friends that are happy for you.
Find friends that have something going on.
You know, a lot of times they say hurt people, hurt people,
they do, if they're not in a space where they can be happy for you,
maybe you need to find a new set of friends.
And I feel like you may find that in church
since you're rededicating your life to God.
And you said, I'm questioning how they feel about me.
If you ever have to question,
how someone feels about you, that's not a friend.
All my real friends, I don't have to question it
because we affirm each other daily. We tell each other when we talk to each other,
like how much we love each other, how proud we are. We are our biggest cheerleaders. So if you
have to question that, I think that in itself is a red flag. Okay, so I'm praying for you.
I'm so happy that you're moving in a new direction
in your light and I feel like these are things
you need to take into consideration
and make sure you write those things down, all right?
I wish the best of luck and especially on becoming an access
producer and entrepreneur, those are not easy feats,
but it's something,
if I can do it, you can do it.
There's so many people that have been successful
in those areas and anything you wanna do,
stick your mind to it.
Maybe focus more on what you're trying to do
than focus and on how people feel about you.
That's another thing I was saying.
All right, I love you and best wishes.
What are you doing?
What are you doing?
What are you doing?
All right, what I'm going through and what I am growing through, going through and
growing through. Whew, right now in this season I am going through losing people, you know,
thinking that everybody that was going to come with me isn't.
And they say that everybody that comes with you can't go with you.
And that's a real thing.
And I'm learning that to be more and more true every day.
So that's what I'm going through.
What I'm growing through is understanding that I too have worked to do.
The I too, I'm not perfect, that I too have to do inventory.
I have to fix myself.
I have to unlearn things.
I have to unpack and continue to heal.
I have to do what's best for crystal in this healing season, in this purging season,
and understand that nothing is personal.
It's all about my path.
It's all about my purpose and where I'm going.
And if it doesn't serve that, then it can't reside here.
So that's what I'm going through
and what I'm growing through.
And we do our keep it blank, sweetie.
For this one, I would say, keep inventory, sweetie.
Keep inventory. All inventory, sweetie.
Keep inventory. All right, guys, thank you so much for tuning in
to this episode of Keep It Paws is Sweetie.
Guys, I'm healing, I'm growing,
I'm learning so much about myself.
I'm learning a lot about you guys too,
as we both heal together.
I appreciate you guys for your love and support.
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Until next time, you know what to do.
Keep it positive, sweetie.
Bye, bye.
Bye, you.
Bye, you.
Mm-hmm.
Let's talk about that.
I'm sure you do with that.
Let's talk about that.