Shawn Ryan Show - #124 Captain Brad Geary - Inside the Failed Investigation and Tragic Death of Kyle Mullen
Episode Date: August 5, 2024Brad Geary is a Navy Captain and Commanding Officer at Naval Special Warfare Basic Training Command. Geary boasts an incredible twenty four year career in NSW. Captain Geary has completed numerous dep...loyments throughout the world while serving in leadership positions at SEAL Delivery Vehicle Team Two, SEAL Team Four, and Naval Special Warfare Tactical Development and Evaluation Squadron Three. Geary's career now hangs in the balance due to a Navy probe into the mysterious death of trainee and Seaman Kyle Mullen, who tragically lost his life during the infamous training period known as "Hell Week." The Navy investigation initially pinned blame on the training cadre, but as pressure from Congress and Geary's testimony grows, a different narrative is coming to light. Geary's attorney stated that "when all the key facts emerge, the Navy's improper actions will be exposed -- and it will be undeniable that Capt. Geary is being scapegoated as part of a larger scheme to cover up massive failures and abuses of power at the highest levels of the Navy." Shawn Ryan Show Sponsors: https://helixsleep.com/srs https://ziprecruiter.com/srs https://rocketmoney.com/shawn https://hillsdale.edu/srs https://ShawnLikesGold.com | 855-936-GOLD #goldcopartner Captain Brad Geary Links: LinkedIn - https://www.linkedin.com/in/bradley-geary Instagram - https://www.instagram.com/bradleyandamy Facebook - https://www.facebook.com/amelia.grey.5 X - https://x.com/bradleydgeary YouTube - @Bradley-geary  Threads - @BradleyandAmy Reddit - u/bradgeary TruthSocial - @deanandgrey Stand With Warriors Foundation - https://secure.anedot.com/stand-with-warriors-action/swwa-donate Please leave us a review on Apple & Spotify Podcasts. Vigilance Elite/Shawn Ryan Links: Website | Patreon | TikTok | Instagram | Download Learn more about your ad choices. Visit podcastchoices.com/adchoices
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Captain Brad Gehry, welcome to the show.
Thanks, Sean. Really appreciate you having me.
It's my pleasure. And we got a lot to dive into.
I've really been looking forward to this interview,
and I'm also very nervous about it. I don't want to mess this up.
But so we're going to cover a lot. We're going to do your life story.
And then we're going to cover the real reason
that you're here.
You were the commanding officer for Naval Special Warfare
Training Command, correct?
Basic Training Command, correct.
Basic Training Command.
What most people affectionately just refer to as BUDS.
But BUDS is just the SEAL side.
We did the SWIC side as well.
So over the years, they combined to basic training command.
Interesting.
Interesting.
And the real reason you're here is you were the commanding officer when Kyle Mullins,
the SEAL candidate, died in training.
Rest is soul and tragic event.
But it sounds like there is a lot of controversy and maybe some covering up that's
happening in regards to how Kyle died and some of the things that have gone on within the training
command. And so we will get to that after your life story. I think it would be a good idea for
people to kind of understand who you are as a man, where you came from, how you got to the position
that you're in now, and then we dive into that stuff.
How's that sound?
Sounds like a plan, appreciate it.
Perfect, perfect.
Well, I'm gonna give you a introduction here real quick.
Captain Brad Gehry, you are currently the Assistant Chief of Staff for the N9 Innovation
for Naval Special Warfare Command.
You graduated from the United States Naval Academy in 2000 with a bachelor's in mathematics
and also earned a master's of arts degree in defense analysis with a focus on unconventional
warfare from the Naval Postgraduate School.
You completed numerous deployments throughout Europe,
South America, and the Middle East, Africa, and Asia
while serving in various leadership roles
at SEAL Delivery Vehicle Team 2, SEAL Team 4,
Naval Special Warfare Tactical Development
and Evaluation Squadron 3,
and during your first command tour
at SEAL Delivery Vehicle Team 1, SDB T1.
You served as Executive Officer
for Naval Special Warfare Basic Training Command,
served three years at the Joint Interagency Task Force,
National Capital Region, and served as Operation Officer
for Naval Special Warfare Group 3 in Joint Base
Pearl Harbor, Hickman, Hawaii. You completed a second command tour at Naval Special Warfare
Basic Training Command, the force generation pipeline for all sea, air, and land SEAL and
Special Warfare Combat Crewman SWIP Maritime Commandos.
Most recently you served as the Deputy N8 Resources
Requirements and Assessments
for Naval Special Warfare Command.
Commands you have served with have earned
the Navy Meritorious Unit Accommodation,
the Navy Unit Accommodation,
the Joint Meritorious Unit Award, and two Navy Presidential Unit citations.
You were the 2020 Pacific Fleet recipient
of the Vice Admiral James B. Stockdale Award
for inspirational leadership.
You and your wife, Amy, have four children,
and you are a man of deep personal faith.
Am I missing anything? That's it, 24 years in a nutshell of deep personal faith. Am I missing anything?
That's it, 24 years in a nutshell.
Still active duty.
It's pretty surreal for me to be sitting
in front of a active duty captain,
especially under these circumstances.
It's a bit odd.
Yeah.
I'm not sure how many times this has happened.
This is my first for me.
Me too.
But, you know, and I'm going to say it right at the beginning.
We are, you know, one of the goals here is to get this in front of congressmen, senators,
DC political types to help bust this thing wide open.
That's right.
And so share this everywhere you can.
That's right. So share this everywhere you can. That's right.
But so before we get too serious and too into the weeds,
everybody gets a gift on the show.
So. Thank you.
Yeah, you're welcome.
Fantastic.
Ah, nice.
Those are gummy bears.
I see that.
That's right.
Made in the USA. They're legal. I was just gonna, that's my next question. Those are gummy bears. I see that. That's right.
Made in the USA.
They're legal.
I was just going to get on the next question.
In all 50 states.
I'm active duty.
So like, what kind of gummies are these?
They're okay.
Just regular candy.
Thank you.
I really appreciate it.
You know, I have Vivek on.
You know Vivek?
What's that?
Do you know Vivek Ramaswamy?
Yeah.
I had him on and he ripped the bag open and started eating them.
I said, those effects will kick in in about 30 minutes.
I think about shit his pants and it's hilarious.
Very good for a funny interview.
But, so one last thing before we get into your life story,
I have a Patreon account.
There are top supporters.
They've been around since the beginning.
They are why I'm able to sit here and why we're able to give you a platform.
And so one of the things I do is I give them an opportunity to ask each guest a question.
A lot of questions on Hell Week here.
So this is from James Reese.
Okay.
Hell Week was designed to be very physically demanding.
What changes, if any, would you make to the Hell Week training program?
That's a great question.
It's actually a perfect question.
Let me start off by making sure I say that everything I say here on this interview today
is only representative of my own opinions, Brad Gehry's thoughts.
Nothing is representative of Naval Special Warfare or the Navy's official positions on
anything.
Disclaimer out of the way.
I wouldn't change a thing with Hell Week.
It's an interesting question.
It's one I got a lot of times when I was the commanding officer of, we'll just call it
BUDs to make it easier for everyone to understand.
What a lot of people miss is that I did my XO tour back there as well.
I've had now four separate years, two consecutive, not consecutive, but two years at a time consecutive tours. The
thing that everyone's interested is always about the physicality of Hell Week and of
Buds in general. But what a lot of people don't realize, and we talked a little bit
about this, the physicality piece is really mildly interesting to us. It's what it produces.
It's what it highlights. When we put people in positions
of physical discomfort, it sheds the veneer of who they came to us and thought they even were.
We used to say the most uncomfortable thing we show people in BUDS is a mirror, because when we
put you through that, it'll expose the character beneath the surface. And the character is what
we're looking for. And when I say character, I mean the character attributes the Naval Special Warfare needs
in our future teammates.
So when Draper Kaufman conceived this idea of Hell Week, I think the first one was 1943,
he designed it around the stressors of war.
He'd been to the World War II a couple times before, and so he designed this to produce those stretches of war to know that this will produce people
that won't quit when we're in combat, when we're in the actual scenario.
So he did everything he could to get up to that point and then knew whoever was left
standing would remain.
And we've left it largely unchanged since then.
That's a long time.
There's been small changes, micro changes, some curriculum shifts here or there. We've added a lot of safety precautions in place and backside support
to make sure we're managing that risk effectively. Turns out people back in the 40s and 50s might
have been a little bit more reckless than we are today. But as far as the spirit of
what Hell Week is, we've not changed much and we never want to change it because it's
a formula that works. You have to be very, very careful with those.
You don't want to tweak those formulas
because you could end up accidentally or incidentally
diluting the product we get on the backside.
And that's not what we want to do,
especially given how Naval Special Warfare has performed
through the duration of our community.
I got a personal question.
And it sounds like not a whole lot has changed
from what you just said from the beginning to now,
but I mean, you know, being a veteran of the SEAL community,
there is a lot of hearsay going on, you know,
about the newest product coming out of training,
showing up to the teams. Yeah.
Is today a more diluted product?
No, not yet.
And that's part of why I'm here.
We're close.
I want to prevent that from ever happening.
Interesting. I have concerns.
Well, we'll get into that, but for starters.
I'd offer, sorry, let me just throw this out.
The product that we are delivering to the American public, and this is something we'll
get into as well, we very much view the American public as our customer.
We are producing SEAL and SWIC warfighters, I say we are, I was, for the American public.
What we were delivering to the doorsteps of the SEAL teams and the boat teams, those guys
run circles around what you and I were doing back in the day when we graduated.
The program has grown and this generation of warfighters that came to our front door,
absolutely, they're just unstoppable.
So I would offer, while the curriculum hasn't changed much for the core element, what we've
added to it as far as qualification training, these guys are just, and girls are absolutely
phenomenal.
Interesting.
Yeah.
That is very reassuring to hear, especially with where we're at in the world today.
Oh, this tour gave me hope.
Hope in America's future.
When I got to see these young Americans. America is still
producing patriots. And they're still coming to our door and
volunteering to do our program, which is very hopeful, very
encouraging. I love to hear that. I love to hear that. Let's
let's dive into your life story a little bit here. So where did
you grow up?
Grew up in Central Florida. My father and mother met there after my father left
from the north of my mother as well.
And very, very pivotal for me to see
in my father's background.
He was raised in a very broken family,
very emotionally abusive, sexually abusive,
just a lot of hurt, a lot of pain.
And that seems to carry on generationally when he made a break from that.
He likes to say he had, he met Jesus on a mountaintop moment and decided at that point,
he was going to pick a different path. And he was committing his life to not
revisiting the sins of the Father, not doing what happened to him.
He wanted to do something different.
And so was that before you came along?
Yes, yes, yes.
So he met my mother and then I came along.
And his mission in life was really to provide us
a stable, loving environment.
He was, I like to say, driving by Braille.
He didn't know what to do as a father
who didn't have a good example to lean on.
But he did a fantastic job.
And all I ever wanted to do growing up was be like him, provide this house, this stable
environment for my family, and try to do what he did for us.
He was a trailblazer, for the Gary family. He was the first Gary to ever
go to college and he paid his own way to get there. And then after having a couple of us,
I have a brother and a sister, he later realized if he wanted to promote in his job field,
he needed a master's degree. So while raising a family, he started taking night classes
on his own, again, paid his own way and got his master's degree to just keep providing more for our family.
It was really just looking back, I see now, as a kid, your dad's gone here and there and
you don't understand why.
But looking back, what I see is a work ethic and a sense of principle and commitment to a goal that really, I can tell now, ingrained itself into
us as kids.
What did your dad do?
What was his occupation?
Well, he's been all over the map.
The way I like to describe him to another military man, he's like an executive officer. He is an entrepreneur, to some degree, entrepreneur.
I mispronounced that.
And he's bounced around with a bunch of different companies,
working with people that did these startups.
And he's done very, very well as kind of the operations guy,
finding efficiencies.
He's got a master's in business.
And so he applies that, plus all of his experience
in a couple of different industries now to
just look for efficiencies, bring better return on the investment, and earn profit.
What were you into as a kid?
I was a bit of a nerd, actually.
I was in the band.
I was in the marching band.
They say not all heroes wear capes, but some do.
And I had a cape with my marching band uniform, played trumpet, first chair at one point,
no big deal.
I used to joke at graduations actually that I'm pretty sure that's why my wife married
me.
It's the muscular lips.
She, you know.
You guys met in elementary school.
We did.
We met in elementary school at our local church.
We've known each other for that long.
We didn't start dating until much later in life, college really, but we've known each
other for quite some time.
Family, friends, different schools, but same church.
So family get togethers for years, for years.
Yeah.
Well, knowing her for that long and not dating her until college, what was the tipping point
there?
So I was coming home from my freshman year of college,
and one of my best friends at the time
was dating her identical twin sister.
And I said, hey, I want to hang out this summer.
Let's do some stuff.
I don't have a few weeks off.
He said, well, I'm dating Emily.
Let's do some double dates.
You know, Amy, you guys are friends.
This will be fun.
Easy peasy.
I said, that sounds great.
And it was about one and a half dates into that we both knew something was a little different
There is it that was it. What got your interest in the military?
but wonder that I slam in addition to being in the band and
The Naval Academy recruited me for swimming. It was the first school that ever reached out and that kind of blew me away
I didn't know what it was at the time. I just thought they taught people to drive boats
So I almost threw the document away thinking I have this is weird
But my swim coach was a history teacher thankfully and he said hey Brad take a look at this pay attention
This is important like at least write back and see what they have to offer
The more I looked into it the more I liked what I saw
opportunity to serve free college not such a bad deal,
and guaranteed job afterward.
It looked like a lot of neat opportunities
to build some life experience, to build some leadership.
Leadership always interested me from a young age.
And so it just made sense.
So we just ended up taking each next step
until it brought us to the Naval Academy. And there we were.
No kid.
So you had no aspirations to join the military
even until well into college.
Well, I mean, college was the Naval Academy.
But yeah, it was probably around sophomore, junior year
of high school is when I first started
becoming interesting to me.
I really didn't like the idea of wearing uniforms
and being told what to do and where to go
and how to do things, which is probably how I ended up in the SEAL teams because we're
not quite the normal military.
Yeah.
Did any other schools reach out?
There were a few, but once I started getting interested in Navy, I kind of started just narrowing my focus to them,
and I looked at West Point as well.
Once I decided that lifestyle looks interesting to me
and it's worth giving up some of the freedoms
that I was holding on to at the time,
it became very appealing to me,
to where I really narrowed in on those two by the end.
So what was it about the Navy
or what occupation drew you to the Academy?
So when I looked at Naval Academy versus West Point,
knowing I was, I think I was 17 years old at the time,
it seemed to me that the Naval Academy offered more options
and I was smart enough to know
that I didn't know what I wanted to do yet in my life.
So I liked the idea of, hey, while the next four years takes place, and I mature and grow
and get exposed to different things, I have a wider array of things available from submarines
to surface to pilot to Marine Corps if I wanted to go ground.
And the SEALs sounded interesting as well.
So the SEALs was on your radar?
It was.
Interestingly, though, back then, the Navy didn't do laser surgery for eyes and my eyes were
too bad.
So once I got there and I got an assessment, turns out I was only eligible for Marine Corps
ground or surface or subs really.
That was about it.
So I committed to go to the Marine Corps.
It was my goal at the time.
Believe it or not, I had a high and tight and I was all in.
I did a summer
training cruise with an amphib with some Marines on board. It just so happens back in the day,
if you remember, I'm sure you do, we used to put seal platoons on the ARGs. The ship
I ended up getting a cruise with also had a seal platoon on board. I ended up meeting
those guys, really becoming very interested in what they do.
And at that point, they started saying, we're going to approve laser surgery on a case by
case basis.
So I came home from that.
I'll never forget.
At that point, while we weren't engaged, we both knew we were getting married.
And so she was all in.
And I was wringing my hands all night long, not sleeping, looking at the ceiling, thinking
about how do I have this conversation with Amy about, she thought I was going Marines, Seals is a little bit different.
How do I pitch that? So I worked on it all night long. I'll never forget calling her from a dumb
payphone on the base. I said, hey, what do you think about Seals? And it wasn't maybe like a
second pause. She said, yeah, that makes way more sense. You should do that. And I was like, oh my
gosh, I've worried about this all night
long, and I had you at hello.
So I put it in the waiver, got the laser surgery approved.
You had to pay for it yourself back then,
do it on your own time.
So I did all that, and then never looked back.
What year is this?
So that was, golly, going into my junior year, so that was
98. Oh, so you were, OK, I thought, so that was 98.
Oh, so you were, okay, I thought, so you did a cruise,
I don't know how the academy works.
Yeah, I'm sorry, I should have explained that.
So every summer at the academy,
what they'll do is they break it into three chunks
and they make you do two of those three training blocks.
So you have to go experience something in the Navy.
So one of them is a gray hole cruise for four weeks,
they'll send you out on a ship
and you ride that ship for four weeks.
You put on the Dunga Jams.
I don't think they wear those anymore, but you know, chip paint, do all the things and
just learn about life as a sailor.
I'm just curious, what was that experience like for you?
It was fantastic.
It was?
Well, I mean, yeah, it's eye opening.
It's exciting, right?
I think I've known up until then as only I was a kid and then academics.
And so you're starting to see the real Navy.
You're starting to get to talk to sailors and know what it's like to put in a hard day's
work.
And it was fun for me just getting to know these guys and girls and working hard and
building rapport with them.
And then every time I worked hard,
I was acknowledged and a chief would say,
hey, I'm gonna give you this next job.
You've shown yourself worthy, we're gonna add to that.
And I liked this idea of somewhat of a meritocracy
where, oh wow, hard work and relationships matter.
And it was fun for me, I really enjoyed it.
And that's where you met the Seal of Platoon
that was on the art. That's right.
What were they doing at the time?
So it was a float. We were going from Norfolk out to the Med. We were going to go to Rota
Spain. And so the whole cruise was pretty much spent crossing the Med. And they were
just fantastic. They took me under their wing. Hey, why don't you check out our guns? I walked
up, asked, what do you guys do? How does this work? What do you do while you're on board? And I just saw them really embrace me.
At one point they said, hey, we're dropping our ribs
off the side of the boat
when we're almost dead center of the Atlantic
and we're gonna go over the horizon from the ships,
nothing in sight, and we're gonna go swimming.
Do you wanna come with us?
I said, well, of course I do.
Sounds like a trap.
Yeah, I, knowing what I know now about seals,
I probably should have been more skeptical,
but at the time I was, you know,
just super jazzed that they were gonna do that for me.
And so, and nothing ended up happening, they had a great time.
And I just thought these guys are incredible.
Look at the freedom and autonomy they have.
Look at the trust they have with the captain of the ship
to be able to do these kinds of things.
No one else was doing that kind of stuff off the ship.
And they just, they welcomed me with open arms and I started asking them, hey, well,
how hard is Bud's really?
And like, what do you think?
Like, I'm a little nervous about this.
And every single one of those guys was just, they kept reinforcing everything that I have
seen and know now that, yeah, Bud's is hard physically, but it's cognitively is the challenge.
That's the part that trips people up.
And so the more I talked about it with them,
the more confidence I built that, yeah, I think I can do this.
So then you go back to the Naval Academy.
And what's kind of the pipeline for a Naval Academy
guy to get into BUDS?
Yeah.
So it's changed a little bit over the years.
But it's largely the same.
You put your name in the hat, you say, I'm interested in this.
And then you're competing with everyone else.
So they look at everything, your physical scores, your grades,
what other curricular activities you're doing.
I ended up swimming at the Naval Academy,
became swim team captain.
That's always nice because it helps, it's leadership.
And then what you'll do is before your senior year, so that summer right before your senior
year, they would send us out to mini buds is what they called it back then.
And it was basically exposure to what buds is.
It's a mini buds.
It's a clever name.
It's time under the boat, time under the law, getting an experience in the cadre there,
then watch and see how does this person interact?
How does this person conduct peer leadership?
How does this person suffer?
Does he suffer well?
Is he a whiner?
Does he complain?
Does he keep his head under the boat?
And then all that data gets pulled together,
and recommendations are made and are ranking.
And then your senior year, they put these huge boards together,
and they look at every candidate, every applicant,
and they make decisions.
And that year, I think we had 16 people that were able to select. About that time, we had
about 50 apply within the Naval Academy. Now it's changed. It's called SOAS, Seal Officer
Assessment and Selection. It's a little more robust and more thorough for sure on, we're
much better today looking at a candidate and saying, we know what attributes we're looking
for and we know specifically how to look for it in the evolutions
that we conduct.
But it's virtually the same concept.
Getting a pre-read on an officer,
that's always been very important for our community.
Ideally, we'd have all the resources in the world
to bring every potential candidate to BUDS out early,
or SWIC school out early, to get that look at them
before we say, yeah, you're welcome to come to the front door.
We live in a world of limited resources.
What they decided years ago was, well, let's focus on the officer cohort because we know
when leaders make it through BUDs or quit, they have a following either way.
You've seen that.
I've seen it anecdotally.
Everyone out there has seen it.
When a leader in the class, it doesn't have to be an officer.
There's tons of dudes who step up into leadership roles.
When they quit, people leave.
So we invested heavy into developing that leadership,
getting a good read on them to make sure
we're stacking the deck in our favor
when we say come to the front door.
Interesting.
Yeah.
Interesting.
So you graduate the Naval Academy.
How much time do you have before you go to Buds?
I graduated, I drove immediately down to Florida,
married Amy the next week.
We did a honeymoon and then hopped in the car
and drove to San Diego to check in.
Wow.
Started our life together.
What's it like, the first SEAL officer I've had on the show
and so I'm curious, what's it like checking in to Bud's is
is a junior officer fresh out of the Academy?
It's probably like checking in anywhere. You get the you come through the
quarterback and you get the salute and they say welcome Ensign with a little bit
of disdain in their voice. As you know there's I think, good banter and fun with young junior officers.
So it was, I don't know, I don't know that it was much different from anyone else because
especially checking into BUDs, we're just there to learn.
I've got this four year education at the Naval Academy.
That doesn't mean I know how to lead.
In any organization, you need to establish yourself as a teammate before you can actually
be trusted upon to lead.
So that was really it for me was, hey, I'm showing up humble and just excited to be here.
Thankfully, opportunity.
Let's get to it.
I mean, I guess I realize you have no point of reference on what it would be like to show
up as anything else.
But I mean, just for perspective, when I showed up, I was 18,
and I was likely looking at guys like you
out of the Naval Academy,
swimmer, head of the swim team,
and I'm like, how am I even here?
And then you got guys like you who are showing up,
who are, I mean, obviously green,
but I would think that the,
there's a certain amount of added pressure
to an officer showing up to Bud's
with the added responsibility of, I mean,
you have people under you.
For sure.
Yeah, that's interesting.
And so kind of what I'm getting at is,
and it's such, it's not that the people that show up to Buds
are anything special, you know,
but they are volunteering for something.
It's a certain caliber of person
that even would consider going into a career like that.
And so you're a leader,
you're a junior leader amongst men's men.
Yeah.
And so that's gotta be a certain amount of pressure.
There certainly was, yeah.
I'm glad you framed it out that way.
Here's the big secret, none of us knew what we were doing.
But yes, there was pressure.
And I'd offer too, there's a lot of pressure because the Naval Academy has a pretty good
track record of producing officer candidates that then do well at Buds.
And you knew these were friends.
The 50 guys, when it gets whittled down to senior, and there's about 30 to 50 real good
contenders for 16 spots at the time.
Your spot, you're taking it from someone else
that you cared about that might have deserved it more than you.
In these selection boards, there's always selection
are baked into these things.
We never get it perfect.
And so there's definitely a sense of responsibility
coming out of the Naval Academy, too.
Man, I better not mess this opportunity up.
I've got to figure this out fast.
I've got to learn.
And I've got to succeed in this program, I've got to learn and I've got to succeed
in this program because if I didn't, then this spot was wasted. And someone else that
might have deserved it more than me and might have actually been a better SEAL officer didn't
get that opportunity for whatever reason. So that was a lot of pressure was just feeling
not wanting to let down your friends that didn't get the nod.
How do your enlisted counterparts and buds treat you?
So that's one of the things that drew me to the SEAL teams the most.
So I'm glad you asked that. When you're at the Naval Academy, they have all these other officers and enlisted from
the various subsets of the Navy, the SWOs, the submariners, the SEALs, the Marines, everyone.
I was very interested in the relationship I saw between the SEAL officer and the SEAL
enlisted compared to everybody else.
It was one of the things that intrigued me and drew me because while there was still
a respect for the hierarchy, the chain of command, roles and responsibilities, what
I identified was more of a relationship.
It was almost a cross the threshold of you could tell those guys were friends too.
And they weren't friends to the point of being unprofessional, but you could tell they genuinely
cared about each other.
And that really resonated with me.
And then when I started learning more, realizing, oh, it's because they all go through the same
training together, the same standards expected of both.
There is no, for us and for them, it's all the same.
And I realized, oh, that's a really, that's a different model that you don't see in a
lot of other places. And that really interested me because then,
you know, coming out of BUDS, we have mutual respect.
We know exactly what each of us have been through
and it's not different or harder or better or worse.
Now we can go to the seal platoons
and fall into our roles and responsibilities,
but there's absolute mutual respect across the whole force.
Did you have to, I mean, I would imagine that the Naval Special Warfare,
how am I trying, what am I trying to say here?
I would imagine that the leadership style
within Naval Special Warfare is a lot different
than what was ingrained in you in the Academy.
100%.
How did it, I mean, how did you rewire yourself
to that type of leadership?
How long did it take?
It's interesting, it didn't take long at all for me,
but I think that comes back to,
before even the Naval Academy,
I was resistant to these ideas of too much control.
I think Naval Special Warfare offered a nice middle ground between we're in the Navy, good
order and discipline are absolutely paramount, but we're not quite right in the head either.
We are given autonomy to make decisions unlike where I think I've seen anywhere else.
In the Navy's that way, which is great, but Neville's Bush were even more so.
McCraven, not McCraven, I'm sorry, McChrystal coined the term, I think he coined it, command
by negation.
When we're downrange and instead of asking for permission and then gaining permission
to then execute, hey, I know my left and right, I understand my commander's intent, I'm just
making decisions and moving. I'm going to let my boss know what I know my left and right, so I understand my commander's intent. I'm just making decisions and moving.
And I'm going to let my boss know what I'm doing,
not ask to do it.
Now, as the authority figure, he can always negate that and say,
no, no, no, I have more context than you.
There's something you don't understand.
I'm going to pull you back, pull that leash back.
But other than those moments, you
have command by negation to make decisions and move.
You know, from some of our previous conversations,
I can tell that you really, it seems to me
that you really value the opinion of the guys under you
and that you take a great responsibility
in standing up for them,
making sure everything's good on their front.
And I could imagine that also, I mean, that starts everything's good on their front.
And I could imagine that also, I mean, that starts at Buds, right?
Yeah.
With you guys.
And so kind of what I'm getting at, and I'm going to ask you this when we get into your
career as a SEAL, but what was a point in time where you realized you'd end Buds, that
you had won the trust of the guys under you?
Yeah.
That's a great question.
I don't know.
I'm not sure if there was one moment.
Well, all right.
I'll tell you a story that I think is relevant.
I was 234, Buds234, so we showed up and were told,
hey, Discovery Channel's going to film you guys.
This was right around the time, this was early 2000,
so pre-911, this was right when the time when Survivor
was catching on all these reality shows,
and the way it was communicated to us
was Naval Special Warfare.
I was looking to recruit, build more awareness
into what the SEAL teams are.
So we're bringing out this film crew
to film you guys from first phase through third.
Of course, we wanted to be quiet professionals.
This is why we were trying to join the SEAL teams.
We didn't want the exposure.
So in our infinite wisdom as a class,
we decided to do a class protest on the grinder
and inform the cadre that we did not agree
with this decision.
Right. Your reaction tells me you know exactly how that went. test on the grinder and inform the cadre that we did not agree with this decision.
Your reaction tells me you know exactly how that went.
So anyway, we're getting filmed by Discover Channel because obviously they didn't care
about what we thought.
Thanks for your opinions.
Shut up.
Get back to hit the surf and let's get moving.
So one of the moments I knew I struck something important when you talk about peer leadership,
because that's really what the SEAL teams are.
If we all go through buds together, we're leading peers.
We're all the same.
We've been in the same place.
We've done the different things.
I might wear a different rank.
I might have a different role and responsibility, but it's truly peer leadership.
And as you know, when you roll with the people we roll with, there's no...
You're an idiot if you think you might be better than them because of some rank that
you might wear.
These guys are incredible.
And girls, they're absolutely some of the nation's best.
When you said earlier, nothing so special about just going to Bud's, those are my words,
not yours.
But if something like that, I disagree in the sense that I've looked at the numbers. Less than, it's like 0.001% of Americans even get to our front door. So that's one of the things we
would tell all these candidates, hey, no matter how this goes for you, you are already the top
0.001% of American youth. Hold your head high, hold your shoulders back. You had the guts to come
here and try this program. That's more than most people.
A lot of people out there will spend money on a weekend experience and talk about how
they could have, should have, would have.
You had the guts to come try.
That takes a lot of guts knowing we have a very high attrition rate.
You wouldn't say this to the candidates as the commanding officer.
Absolutely.
Absolutely. Absolutely. So you're giving positive affirmation for these guys.
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From day one.
All the time.
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You didn't get positive recognition?
Weird. I didn't either as a candidate either.
It was one of the things I wanted to kind of change a little bit.
And we didn't have positive information.
We didn't coddle. I was very stern.
But we absolutely give credit where credit's due.
And we look for those moments to positively affirm someone.
We see something special. Hey, I like what you did there.
I want you to do more of that. You're on the right track.
When I'd see an officer in the middle of Hell Week
as they're getting their burrito night camp surf,
make sure his whole boat crew and the whole class
goes ahead of him.
And he took last place.
And I watched it.
I saw it all happen with my command master chief.
And no one told him to do it.
I walked over and grabbed him.
Hey, man, why'd you do that?
I saw that.
I don't know, sir, just seemed like the right thing to do.
Well, you were right.
Keep doing things like that.
We're watching for those things.
These are the moments we write down, hey, this guy showed good character, good leadership.
That goes in his file.
That's now a data point we have on assessing that guy's character.
I've deviated though from your initial question.
So the first time I really think I stumbled upon what it means to lead a Naval Special
Warfare involves Matty Roberts.
So we went into Hell Week and it was very cold Hell Week.
We got reduced down pretty quickly in numbers and Matty was in my boat crew and we were
pretty good performers.
We weren't the smurf crew and our smurf crew were crushing it, but we were pretty good
performers.
At some point in Hell Week, and I don't remember when, we started dragging. And Matty was just having a hard time.
And he couldn't explain it.
But we knew him to be a trustworthy teammate and someone who's selfless.
He didn't duck boat ever.
He kept his shoulder under log every single time.
He was always rallying dudes.
He was one of our stronger guys.
But all of a sudden, he's dragging and we're losing every race.
And you know what it's like to lose every race.
You start paying the man a lot more.
And at one point, we start doing the internal grumbling.
Everyone's starting to get into pointing of the fingers and anger.
The emotions come out, the veneer drops.
And I don't remember what was said, but probably some not so nice things to Matty about, hey,
dude, you got to put out or DOR, like you're hurting your boat crew.
And I'll never forget, well, how I remember it is,
he said something to the effect of, hey, guys,
I don't know what's wrong, but I'm just
hurting more than normal and I can't explain it.
I'm not going to quit.
And you know me.
Please stick with me.
And we made a decision as a boat crew then in that moment, OK,
yeah, we're only as fast as our slowest man.
We're going to rally around Matty because he's earned it and he deserves it.
And if we lose every race from here to the rest of hell, who cares?
Oh no, so we're going to be wet and sandy?
You mean like we were anyway?
And once we turned that corner and I realized, oh, this is leadership, collective suffering
for one of our own who deserves it.
And then not just suffering and no bitching about it,
but embracing it. And then almost like bring it on.
We don't even care anymore. We're still going to put out, but who cares if we lose?
We're in this for Mattie. And so we got through Hell Week. And I would never say we carried him through Hell Week,
because that dude is a monster, as you know. I've met him. He's an animal.
He's an animal. He's an animal.
And all the more so, and this is what I saw.
The end of Hell Week happens.
We limp to the finish line, as you know how that goes.
We do the med screening at the time,
and he gets the x-rays and come to find out
is both tib-fibs were at something like a 70-something
percent stress fracture, if I remember correctly.
So the dude was walking around on toothpicks
that were about ready to snap at any given
moment and yet he finished Hell Week.
They medically rolled him to the next class right there.
They weren't going to let him continue in our class.
So he was there from the beginning.
But I remember thinking at the time as a young officer, like, whoa, what if we had run him
out of our boat crew?
Just out of anger, spite, we weren't winning.
We would have missed out on a dude who, at the time,
we saw a momentary weakness.
In reality, that was incredible resolve and resiliency
and hardness and grit and everything
we wanted in our teammates.
And then you know the story of Matt.
He's a war hero.
Aided PKM in Iraq with lifelong injuries.
The result, the guy is just revered on the West
Coast.
Later, he came back to be an instructor and is still contracting out as an instructor.
They're still pouring into the next generations.
That's another story I would tell our candidates when I was CEO.
Twenty something years later, it limited the story about Matty Roberts.
This is why you don't run dudes out of your boat crew.
You never know who that guy is and what he's going to do for you as a teammate.
You might misinterpret some signs.
Do you tell them about what Matty went through?
Absolutely.
Do you want to go into it right here?
It's not my story to share, I think.
That's okay.
I know he's been involved in a documentary that's coming out soon, so I'm going to save
that one for him to tell
when that comes out.
But I care very much for the man,
and I know a lot of people do.
And America should be very thankful
that we have men like him that stood the watch.
Yeah, yeah.
Let's move on.
Did you have any hangups on Buds?
Of course.
I mean, they film the whole thing.
You can watch it and find my hangups.
I had one or two, one or two through the time.
But no, I mean, I was fortunate.
I wasn't targeted like some guys were.
You know how that goes.
One last story, we'll move on.
I remember right before Hell Week, Terry Geddes was our OIC.
And for whatever reason, the cadre
decided they didn't like him.
And so we're doing the movie hour and the pizzas
as we're getting ready to go to the tents for breakout.
And instructors come in and call Terry out.
Off he goes.
Comes back in and he's ghost white.
And I walked over.
I was like, hey, what was all about, Terry?
And he said, well, all of first phase cadre pulled me
to the office and said that it's their mission in life
to make me quit in Hell Week.
And I remember, I think I said something smart ass like, well, that sucks to be you and I'm
glad I'm not in your boat crew.
But I was fortunate not to have that happen.
Yet what I'd offer is, what a stud to have that kind of pressure on him.
Still is our class OIC.
Not only did he not quit, he led incredibly effectively through our class with his LPO,
Luis Rivera.
That was really the first almost the elite, right?
Like NSW leader that I started looking up to, like, man, that guy, that's a dude worth
following.
He can deal with that kind of pressure when he knows the entire, the instructors, they're
scary.
They told him they want him out of this community.
And he refused to take that for an answer.
He gritted through Hell Week.
And then the cool thing about that, the other side of that coin is when he got through Hell
Week, all of a sudden, everybody loved him.
All the cadre were like, all right, I guess you're OK.
And we thrived as a class under him
and lose leadership after that.
I mean, we could do no wrong almost.
Where did you go after graduation,
after you graduated, Buds?
So again, different times.
We graduated, Buds.
They stopped filming.
We went into SEAL qualification training at the time.
I was the last SQT class in the beta kind of model.
So we did not get our tridents after SQT.
The next class did.
And so as I finished SQT, we're out at an island doing land warfare.
That's where 9-11 happened.
I had already had my orders at that point to SDV Team 2.
So I was incredibly disappointed there because everyone looked like they were going to the war and to the desert. And I was going to do some diving for extended periods of
time. And the other interesting thing is, our entire time through the pipeline, all
of our instructors were telling us, hey, the days of long-term warfare are over. Vietnam
is done. That'll never happen again. You have Panama, Grenada, Haiti. For the most part,
those are quick skirmishes. One guy said, I've, Haiti. For the most part, those are quick
skirmishes. One guy said, I've been in the SEAL team 17 years, I've never seen a combat
ops. So manage your expectations, gents. I said, okay, that's fine. Then 9-11 happens,
clearly changed everything. So I wasn't too happy to be going SDV.
Can you explain what SDV is?
I'm sorry. Yeah, yeah, thank you. SEAL delivery vehicles. So it's our undersea component within
Naval Special Warfare. While all SEALs are combat divers, there are certain teams that I'm sorry. Yeah. Yeah. Thank you. Sealed delivery vehicles.
So it's our undersea component with NAVIL special warfare.
While all SEALs are combat divers, there are certain teams that take that to the next level
and really specialize in that combat diving piece and use powered mini submersibles, partner
with the submarine force, and go places on extended dives that most people really can't
go.
That involves, they say in Buds you'll be colder and wetter
in the teams, for sure if you go SDVs.
That was where I met Danny Dietz.
We were new guys together and partnered together
in the front of the boat.
And I stopped counting our dive hours
after about 2000 together at some point.
Lot of diving.
2000 dive hours?
Lot of diving.
I remember the first night,
first night I did a long dive, and I mean like a 10 hour dive. I got off a bag that night, that morning.
It was a nighttime dive, so we pretty much went underneath as the sun was setting and
came up about the time it was rising.
And I was telling my mom about it, and she's like, Brad, you just, she's like, you did
an entire work day, but under the water, like on a breathing apparatus.
Oh, yeah.
It's bizarre.
Danny and I met new guys.
He was 2'32, a couple classes ahead of me.
But we met officially at STV Team 2, partnered as new guys
in the same platoon together.
And we did a whole tour in the front of the boat together.
I mentioned 2,000-something dive hours.
You get to know a person very well.
When you're spending more time on dive status with them
than you are with your wife in regular hours.
Learn to read movements, understand what he's thinking,
talk through bubbles, and comms are very spotty
underneath the water.
So we became very, very good friends, very fast friends,
and really loved each other.
Yeah.
Can you go into a little bit more about the SDV mission?
Yeah.
I mean, what is the SDV mission?
So think of it like, think of the SDV like a mini van underwater. But it's not a dry
submersible, it's wet, it's just a vehicle. So it fills with water.
So we're in there in the water in wetsuits breathing on full face mask regulators with coms and it's powered.
And what that does is it hosts with a larger platform, either a surface vessel or a submarine.
So what that does is buys us longer legs for the dive.
We can now go further on a vessel, STV from that vessel now go further to a target.
So it extends our reach and our capability.
But the only way to do that is spending a lot of time underwater in very miserable conditions.
What kind of depth are you at?
I don't want to get too into that because we can start to talk TTPs that might be, you know.
OK.
But generally speaking, it gets colder as you go deeper.
So we try to stay as shallow as we can,
to stay as warm as we can, unless the mission call is
for us to go deeper, for sure.
And you can communicate under there.
Yeah.
It's not great.
It's not like this, but yes, there are communication
Systems yes, can I ask how you navigate? Yeah, there's a series of sonars and Doppler and
Just GPS is so you can do GPS updates by raising up an antenna
And you just overlay maps and grids and plot out courses, just exactly like land nav.
It's exactly like land nav, but just under the water.
Okay, so there's screens and all that kind of stuff.
Saltwater and electronics, what could possibly go wrong?
I've never been in one of those.
Oh, it's an incredible capability and it's miserable.
So where was your first deployment?
We actually went to Rota, Spain.
It was a UCOM deployment.
It was another frustration of ours because now at that point, I think we had both wars
kicked off.
So we called it the global war on tourism for us in Rota.
Danny just got married right before the deployment, which is typical Danny because everyone said,
hey,
you met this girl, wait a while, like make sure she's all in and she can handle the deployment
in the teams.
And just like Danny does, he said, mom, I do my own thing.
I know she's the one.
So off to the courthouse and P.F. Chang's for a reception afterward.
It was fantastic.
It was fantastic. It was fantastic.
So we go to Rota and yeah, just bounced around.
We were training for some potential STV missions at the time.
It ended up not happening for us, but we bounced all over the med and did various interop training
events with some foreigners and just worked.
Had anybody had any wartime experience at SDV?
Not in my platoon at that point because since the war kicked off, everyone at SDV had pretty
much still been at SDV.
So we were just starting to hear some of the stories come back.
I remember Steph Bass had come from SDV, had just had the OP, Mazza Sharif.
Are you familiar with that one?
No.
OK.
He got partnered with the SAS.
And this was early, early Afghanistan.
And they went to try to rescue two agency guys who got taken
during a prison overthrow.
And so they rolled in as the small element.
You know, Steph and a group of the SAS or SBS, I can't remember now, ended up being one of the worst
gunfights certainly early in the war.
Steph got the Navy Cross for it.
A lot of discussion about should you have gotten the Medal of Honor?
I think so.
He was knighted in Britain for this thing.
So he's technically the only enlisted SEAL that everyone should call Sir.
He ended up being like Command Master Chief later at Basic Training Command when I was
an XO.
But he was coming back through to answer your question at that time and starting to give
us the AR on what they were learning.
It was one of the first real gunfights that we had someone come back from.
And he was on a roadshow just telling us, hey, we've learned a lot really fast.
There was a lot we were doing wrong
We were in a hyper learning environment now and here's the things we have to adapt to very very quickly or we're gonna we're gonna fall behind
Reason I'm asking is I want to know
What it's like is a is a is an officer as a leader in the community
Yeah showing up to a SEAL team amongst people that already have experience.
Yeah.
So it's humbling because you're walking into this position and no one throws you right
in charge.
You're cutting your teeth.
And a lot of what I would tell my JOs when I was now a more senior officer was, hey,
your first job as an officer is to learn what it means to become a SEAL.
That's step one.
Don't step into this thinking, follow me everybody, you're going to lead.
You have to earn the respect of the team.
You're only going to earn the respect of the team if you know what it's like to be one
of them too.
I would grab a broom and sweep up.
I would do all the jobs that all the new guys were doing.
Didn't matter that I was an officer. It would piss off Danny sometimes because
he'd be like, you got to stop doing that because the chief's gonna be mad at me
because I let an officer, you know, do this. I was like, yeah, but Danny I'm a
new guy. I'm no different than you. So what? I've got a different rank. So that's
what it's like is figuring out what it means to be a team guy before you can
figure out what it means to lead team guys.
There's an exploratory period.
It's a very short one.
You don't have a lot of time
because very quickly you're now the officer in charge
down the road versus I think there's a longer runway
for a brand new enlisted guy till he gets to LPO, right?
So we have a shorter time that we have to learn how to lead
and then be ready to go.
Interesting.
Yeah.
Were you at SDV2 when Danny went to Afghanistan?
I was.
So we finished our first platoon together
and rolled into a second platoon together.
And we both got back of the boat up that time,
or I should say mission set at that time.
We did our time in the front of the boat
as pilot navigator.
Now we're in the back of the boat as mission specialists.
And he was the comms guy.
So we did an entire workup doing recce's together
and these four man teams that would go out and do
reconnaissance.
This was right around the era where ISR
was starting to come on scene.
So there wasn't a lot of it.
So there was still a need for these recce teams
to go out and surveil areas.
And that's what we specialized in out of the back of that boat.
We did our entire workup together.
At the time, with the wars going on, there was usually a decision point somewhere in
the workup where they said, hey, if there's not an SDV op that specifically we're training
for, we're going to break and we're going to outsource the platoon to augment all the
other forces downrange to help because the platoon to augment all the other forces
downrange to help because the war was ramping up and they needed manpower.
We hit that decision point and they offered up to us, where do you want to go, Iraq or
Afghanistan?
The platoon split and we were supposed to go to Afghanistan together.
I very much was supposed to be doing everything with Danny that he ended up doing.
It was an administrative error that changed that.
I was already negotiating for my next set of orders.
They wanted me to do something disassociated outside of the community, so I volunteered
to go to Monterey to do my postgraduate degree.
I got pulled in the office and said, hey, something happened.
Your orders got messed up.
It turns out you're going to have to cut away to Monterey,
like halfway through the deployment.
So you're not going to deploy.
We can't send you out there to do this, which frustrated me.
Because you do all the work you want to go deploy.
And they said, well, what if we do this instead?
At the time, Dev Group was doing three-month deployments
out there.
So why don't we let you augment them,
and you can get a faster rotation
and still be back in time for your orders.
And then that'll work out.
At least you get to go forward and do something.
I said, well, that sounds better than nothing.
Let's do that.
And not better than nothing.
I was excited for the opportunity to augment, for sure.
But I wanted to be with my boys, too.
I wanted to be with Danny and the guys.
As it stands, though, we all ended up
at Bagram at the same time anyway,
just right down the road from each other
in different compounds.
So while they were starting to do their ops
and I was doing my augment, Danny and me
and a couple of their dudes had coffee at the Green Bean
right there in Bagram multiple times, just talking
about our shared experiences.
Danny and I, dreaming big about the future together.
Talked about should we both screen for DevGrip after this?
I don't know.
What do you think?
He was asking me what I was seeing.
And so yeah, we were there at the same time.
What were you seeing?
I was impressed with what I was seeing and it was inspiring to me.
And that was one of the things that convinced me to screen was what I saw.
When I first married my wife and we were doing this career, I said,
hey, I'll never ask you for that because that seems like it's...
The tempo is up a notch. And I know I'm already asking a lot of us as a family.
At this point, we'd already had our first son.
But one of the days when I was augmenting,
she drove me into work to drop a bag or something.
So we're sitting there in the car,
pull my three-year-old out of the seat.
And he's sitting there as these little birds come screaming in.
And these monsters, these animals,
are hanging off the sides of little birds
with these beards and sunglasses and kit.
And I'll never forget, as they touch and go,
like 30 yards from where I'm parked,
just dropping a bag off at the gate,
this one dude just looks over and gives my boy
a little bit of a salute.
And he starts waving as they, off they go.
And I look down at my wife, she's in the driver's seat,
and she goes, you're telling me you don't want to do that?
Oh! So that was it. And the driver's seat and she goes, you're telling me you don't want to do that?
So that was it.
And getting to see the level that those guys were performing and being a part of that,
it really was impressive.
And it definitely provoked an interest in me that I was talking about with Danny then
while we're on that deployment together.
Where were you when you got the news about Red Blinks?
So that was a tough one.
I ended up coming home from the deployment
per the administrative mess up.
I get home, and then they say, it turns out
the mess up was a mess up, so you could have deployed
with Danny and the boys anyway.
Sorry about that.
But you're home now, so we're going
to put you in a staff job.
And you know, it'll be OK.
So I was pretty frustrated and I was only home about a week or two.
And I was at dinner with my wife at the Olive Garden.
And I got a call.
So now I'm the only guy from the platoon home.
Everyone else is still forward.
Just the way it worked out.
And they said, you got to get over to Patsy's house.
Something's happened.
Danny's status is unknown.
And so we immediately dropped our son with friends, and off we went.
And then we spent the next about a week there with Patsy,
and then brought in his mom and dad and brother and sister as well.
We just stayed glued to the news.
What a lot of people don't realize, we remember June 28th, but people don't realize that we
didn't know they were dead until July 4th.
From the moment we knew they were status unknown for almost a week there, we just sat on pins
and needles, watched the news, hoped.
You hear rumors about one guy might be on the loose, running free.
You start convincing yourself, that's got to be Danny.
Telling stories to build hope.
Going into work, checking in, what are the Intel updates?
What do we have?
What can I say?
Drive back to the house.
We didn't have much at that time.
And yeah, so I was there.
Yeah, at one point it was horrible.
We finished off and some of the other spouses were with us and we went to eat at like an
all-night diner.
And we're sitting there just fatigued from the strain.
And I got a call from my boss and he said, hey, don't tell the family yet, but all forces
are recovered.
Everyone made it.
And the letdown that we had in that moment, there was like four or five of us and we're
all crying.
We were so excited.
And then he said, but don't go telling me.
We're like, all right, we're going to hang here.
And as soon as you give us the word, we're going to go right.
We were like a couple hundred yards from Danny's house
at that point.
We were right there.
And like 20 minutes later, he calls back.
Hey, it was a false report.
Still status unknown.
You didn't go tell her, did you?
I was like, thank God, no.
And then it was only about a day later that we got the official
news.
It was a roller coaster of a week.
How did you handle that?
It was a roller coaster of a week. How did you handle that?
Most difficult moment of my life?
Yeah, I got the word, be at the house.
CEO and the chaplain are inbound.
And so I get there.
I see him kind of hiding in the shadows.
So I go partner up. I send Amy inside.
I said, hey, get in there and be ready.
I think that's how it went down.
And we go to the front door.
And then the rest is just these flashbulb moments of grief.
I remember Patsy.
I remember her dropping to the floor and then bouncing up and running from the house.
It was such a...
She was just trying to run from reality.
We had to chase her down, bring her back to the house, and then as we're still standing there, just no one knows what to say.
There's no right thing to say, you know?
I'll never forget her body did what it could only do
in a moment like that.
And she fell to the ground
and started throwing up on the carpet.
And Amy and I were holding her hair back as she vomited.
and Amy and I were holding her hair back as she vomited.
Ah.
Terrible day. Yeah. Yeah, terrible day.
She's Patsy's family.
She always will be.
She's a special woman, as you know.
She's a special woman, as you know.
It sounds like nobody was closer with them than you and Amy. I would never claim that.
I mean, you guys deployed together.
You sat in the front of the SDV together.
You sat in the back of the SDV.
You spent a lot of time together.
We did.
More time with them than you have with your own wife.
Yes. From your own wife,
from your own words.
That's fair.
And I think you're right in that most of the guys in the platoon
would say that.
But I would never claim to be his best friend.
Danny had a lot of best friends because he
was the guy that made everyone feel valued.
Didn't matter if you were a SEAL, diver, support technician,
corpsman.
That dude just loved everybody
and made everybody laugh all the time.
And so one of the neatest things I saw after he died
was people would come forward and start
telling these stories about he made them feel like they were
the most important person in the world,
and they couldn't believe that this young SEAL would treat them
that way.
And so I had to take a step back
and I wanted to always make sure I never,
I never claim that part of him, right?
He was special to a lot of people,
but yes, I loved him.
I loved him dearly.
I guess where I'm going is,
is because you were so close,
how did you support Patsy through that time? Oh, I see, yeah. is because you were so close,
how did you support Patsy through that time? Oh, I see, yeah.
Show up.
And there were days where you don't know,
you don't have to say,
because like I said, there's nothing to say,
and you just be, and you don't judge. If I've learned anything from my career that was the first of many unfortunate tragedies
of our career, but you never know how a grieving spouse or mom or family member will behave.
And there's a spectrum of what will happen and you never know what to expect.
And so you just be and you love as best you can, sometimes not knowing what that looks
like, but in hindsight, just be in there and hugging when they need it and giving them
space when they need it.
That's another thing too, is sometimes they get overwhelmed with the support and they
just need space.
And so we were very clear with her, you just let us know, you're never going to offend
us.
That's the thing about Patsy,. Even in the midst of her grief, she
was worried about upsetting other people.
And I don't want to hurt your feelings.
No, this is not.
My feelings are not important right now.
So we accommodate whatever we could.
And we were brutally honest and said,
be brutally honest with us what you need from us.
And if you need space, then you get it.
You get it.
And you tell stories when they want to hear them, you know?
Especially the funny ones, because we all need to laugh in those moments.
You know, DJ Shipley's who's connected us and DJ, if you're listening, thank you for the connection.
Where I'm going with this is DJ married Patsy later on in life.
And so I want to know, you know,
as somebody who was that close to Danny's family,
what was it like for you to see Patsy move on?
It was beautiful.
And what I mean is,
It was beautiful. And what I mean is, DJ never felt threatened by Danny's memory.
And I've seen other people who are.
And they feel like they have to compete with this memory, which you can never compete with.
Like, Danny will always have a special place in Patsy's heart.
And DJ never felt threatened by that.
And not only that, like, here are some of the early stories Patsy told me, because of never felt threatened by that. And not only that, like here are
some of the early stories Patsy told me, because of course, she's family now, right? And so
anyone that comes, you know, through the doorstep, we were curious about is this guy going to
treat her right or not. Here's one of the first dates they went on. Once they realized
there was a romantic connection, he said, Yeah, do you have Danny's last set of camis?
He knew that she did.
You know, the ones she had, she didn't even washed them. They still smelled like Danny at the time.
She said, yeah, he goes, I want you to put them on and be ready. I'm going to pick you up Saturday morning,
whatever, we're going to go on a date, but you're going to be wearing Danny's camis. She's like, all right.
So he takes her to the drop zone out there in Suffolk and he had set up a tandem jump for, and he was going to jump with her. And he said, this is Danny's last jump with you and with me.
That's a dude that is so secure in his love for her
and not threatened by Danny.
OK, how could you not love that guy?
Immediately, we fell in love with him.
And absolutely, this is OK.
You guys are meant to be.
And his dad, he put me through a portion of training back in the day too, so I knew of him.
It wasn't a surprise at all for us and the relationship just took off from there.
There was another thing, at one point he's looking at Danny's shadow box in the room
and he realized one of his medals hadn't been updated.
At some point, I think Danny was given the bronze star, but then it got upgraded to the
Navy Cross later
when the paperwork finally came through
and the initial shadow box didn't have the cross.
And DJ Assad, he goes,
hey, would you mind, I don't want to upset you.
He said, would you mind if I just take that
and go get it fixed and updated for Danny?
And of course, she didn't mind, so he did.
Like, okay, good to go, dude.
Good to go.
Welcome to the family.
Wow.
Yeah.
That's pretty cool to hear.
Oh, man, we love them.
We ended up being in their wedding, too.
Amy was a bridesmaid.
I was a groomsman.
Like, huge celebration.
That had to be surreal, huh?
It was very surreal.
And it was so good.
I mean, you never move on from death, but you can move forward.
I think we need to move forward.
We can't sit in grief forever.
It'll always be with us.
The scars always remain, but we have to move forward in life.
You can do that in a way where you're carrying their memory and honoring it, but not in an
unhealthy way.
I think that's what we saw Patsy do.
She poured back into the teams after Danny,
she didn't isolate herself.
And then she married back into the teams
and kept giving to this nation.
She's given more than most women out there.
Yeah.
Yeah, that's for damn sure.
I mean, did you see like a sense of freedom in her
when DJ came along?
Yeah, you see hope, you know,
cause I'm sure, I can't know for sure,
but I can imagine having put myself in their shoes
as best as I can, surviving spouses,
there's probably a sense of fear.
Am I ever going to find that love again?
She was young, man. love again? She was young.
Man, I mean, she was young.
He was, too.
We were all young.
We were starting our lives together.
We're all buying houses at the same time and furnishing them.
And that's an exciting period of life
to get it just cut off so abruptly.
And I'm sure there's a sense of fear.
Like, am I ever going to find that again?
We were on track, we were
making plans, we had a future set, we all do these things. And
there's probably a huge setback. And then I can imagine also,
there's a sense of fear that what if it does happen again? Is
that bad? There's got to be some guilt. You know, am I giving up
love for my first by loving another one? And I don't know.
Those are difficult emotions to grapple with.
But yes, to answer your question, like I saw her, we saw her happy.
I wish we made us happy.
That's great to hear.
Yeah.
It was great to be a part of.
Let's move on to where did you go after SDV2?
Went out to Monterey for that post-grad degree and then I came out to SEAL Team 4 for my
platoon command tour and deployed to Iraq.
Great platoon.
Probably not worth spending time there so we can get to more of the stuff, but significant
leadership opportunity for me to go out to
middle of nowhere. We were at an outstation where me and a Marine captain, so two 03s,
were the senior guys on this outpost in the middle of Alhambra province.
We just had the time of our lives. Great opportunity, fantastic Seal Platoon. I learned a
lot as a leader there. And we made some difficult decisions, but grew a lot through that process.
It was a great deployment.
Was it a kinetic deployment?
At the time, for me, yes, it was something.
We were doing raids.
We weren't getting into a lot of gunfights at that point.
Things had started to quiet down, but we still did a lot of raids.
We stayed very, very busy.
I say that because at the time, it was exciting.
It was nothing for what was my next season of life to come, for sure.
You had mentioned some, I think you said, difficult decisions.
What were some of those?
Just leadership challenges, being out in the middle of nowhere.
For the first time ever, now I'm actually
in a leadership position in a combat zone.
And that's not black and white.
There's gray landscape to navigate in war.
And the right decision isn't always so obvious.
And so there's a improvement around there.
Let me rephrase that a little bit.
You know, you...
Academy to BUDs to SDV,
it sounds like not a whole lot of combat experience.
Maybe you got some at the Augment with Dammech.
Not even really, no, it was pretty quiet.
So yeah, this was my first real...
So now you're, now you are showing up to SEAL Team 4.
I shouldn't assume anything, but I'm
No idea what I'm doing.
Yeah.
But you're surrounded by people.
What year is this?
This was 2000.
I showed up 2007.
And then we deployed 2008 through the winter into 2009.
So there's got to be quite a bit of experience.
Oh, yeah.
It was humbling.
I tell these young junior officers these days,
I'm like, hey, man, here's the big secret.
None of us really knew what we were doing when
we're in those leadership roles.
You're doing the best you can.
But the point is, if you establish yourself
as a learner fast and just commit to the learning process
and be humble enough to seek counsel and advice and mentorship,
you'll be okay.
And that's what I did there, is I recognized, I was coming into these platoons.
I mean, I was rolling into a platoon.
They had just come off of Clark Schwether's loss, Clarky, that previous deployment.
And that guy that carried his body off target was my LPO for the next platoon.
He rolled that entire platoon and he left the blood stains
on his H gear, he refused to wash it.
And I'm that dude's OIC and I have no combat experience.
It was incredibly intimidating rolling with these people
and I knew I had to learn fast and back to being
a new officer, okay, I gotta earn their trust,
I gotta earn their respect as a SEAL
before they're gonna listen to me as an officer and you that you're the OIC
That was the OIC the platoon for those listen that means you are in charge of the platoon. Yeah
Yeah, so how I mean, how do you show up there and?
Earn the respect of a bunch of combat guys with a ton of experience who'd been there and done that probably
several of them multiple times.
And you're showing up green.
It's a balance.
It's a balance because you can't show that you,
you can't be too vulnerable.
You have to lead.
You have to show that you,
hey, I know what I'm doing for the most part here,
but yet still be curious enough and humble enough
to ask the questions and understand that,
hey, I might need a little more help. to ask the questions and understand that, hey,
I might need a little more help.
So I got my platoon chief.
Hey, man, help protect me from myself here.
You know I'm coming from a lot of undersea time.
I'm a fast learner.
But will you take me to the house
and walk me through some stuff?
Let's run some drills together before I
do it in front of the platoon.
Because I'm going to mess up from time to time,
but I don't want to fail catastrophically
and lose their respect.
I also did that with my troop chief.
He was a godsend.
He had just come from Damnec and was our troop chief.
So I grabbed him like immediately.
I need mentorship.
Help me, man.
That guy poured into me.
It's fantastic.
I would not be who I am today without people like that
pouring into me and
humbling themselves and teaching me just this young curious J.O. to help keep me from falling
too catastrophically. So you're putting in the extra work right off the bat. Oh absolutely. Yeah.
Yeah. That'll mean that alone will earn a tremendous amount of respect. Absolutely.
Yeah. A tremendous amount of respect.
Absolutely.
When you got overseas, I mean, were you on a lot of these raids with the platoon?
Yeah.
What was it like for you the first time that the platoon, that your guys went out without
you?
What's going through your head?
When they went out without me?
Mm-hmm.
Mm-hmm.
So, it's a great question, actually. We had to send a group up to Mazzoula
I just split up the platoon and send it because we were they were just breaking ground the army was moving up to Mazzoula
And so I had to send my AYC with my platoon chief up there
And it was very difficult because and I sat him down and had the conversation about Danny
and I said hey, I was supposed to deploy with him and I didn't get to.
And we all know how that ended.
Now I spent some time playing the what if scenario.
What if I had been there?
Would things have been different?
I don't know.
It's not very healthy to spend too much time in that world.
But I used that in this moment and said, this is very important to me that you guys understand
my commander's intent for you to go up there.
My left and rights, as your OIC, call me when you have questions,
and let's have discussions about your decisions.
But when we don't have time for that, you make decisions,
and you do the best you know how to do.
And so it was a huge piece of, oh my goodness,
I'm having to trust these guys to go do stuff,
and I know it's at stake because I've suffered. I suffered when it goes poorly.
And so it's very communicative with them about what that looks like and what my concerns
were.
Were you terrified that you would lose somebody under your watch?
Not terrified.
It's always in the back of your head, especially after experiencing loss. But seals, as you know, and switch to...
It's a double edged sword, our sense of confidence.
I think it's what allows us to do some of the things that are impossible to other people.
But at the same time, it's what makes us a little vulnerable because sometimes we can
be overly ambitious.
So I wasn't terrified. I had a sense of confidence that I knew how well we'd been trained. same time, it's what makes us a little vulnerable because sometimes we can be overly ambitious.
So I wasn't terrified. I had a sense of confidence that I knew how well we'd been trained. I was very comfortable with the platoon. I was very comfortable with how we operated, and I knew
they'd make the right decisions. That said, as I've learned, you can make all the right decisions in
the world. The enemy still gets a vote and Murphy still gets a vote. That's always in the back of my head that, okay,
this might be, the longer I do this,
this seems to be somewhat of a statistical inevitability.
It will happen again.
Thankfully, it didn't happen there.
So once again, I'll ask, what was it that you saw
switch in the platoon to gain the confidence
or gain your, you know what I'm getting at.
Yeah.
When they trusted you to be their OIC, their leader.
I think it's a series of small things.
And it was these small moments where I showed them
that I trusted them and I showed them I would back them when they were under the gun.
And we had a couple things happen, which I disagreed with and I made it pretty clear,
I don't like the way that happened over there.
We're going to do things differently because we're going to hold ourselves to a different
standard.
And so as that happens in these micro moments, these micro decisions, it builds trust.
And by the time you're deploying forward together, there's no question.
There's no question.
We all know that we trust each other.
And that's a great place to be.
As it wasn't one moment, I can't think of one moment.
It was that you had your guys back.
Yeah.
And not in an unhealthy way, right?
There's a lot of people that abuse that mantra.
Take care of the boys.
Yes.
Take care of the boys.
OK.
What does it mean?
What does it mean to have their back?
What it means to love them?
What does it mean to love?
It doesn't mean to be liked.
It means to love.
I love my kids.
I don't think of them and I don't think of my team as my kids.
That's too far of a stretch.
But the principles of love apply, right?
We trust, we love, we lead, coach, and mentor.
We learn.
I've learned more as a parent about myself and about, man, I messed that up.
I can do better.
All of that is the same thing in leadership.
And as we do that and we show that we're doing it, and we're transparent and genuine in doing it,
it just builds trust and cohesion,
and all of a sudden we can go.
And not only do I trust them to do what we need to do,
but they trust me to lead them,
and they trust me to hold them proportionately accountable
when we mess up.
And that's a huge piece, the proportionate word.
There's a lot of leaders out there who will say,
oh, you got to earn my trust.
OK.
It's bilateral, though.
As a leader, we have to earn their trust.
And what does that mean?
It means I'm not going to knee-jerk react,
and I'm not going to lop a dude's head off
for making a small mistake.
We're going to provide opportunity to fall forward.
We're going to both learn from this.
Proportionate accountability.
We can't be reckless with our trust and just send it, guys. Have fun. No, no, no, there has to be proportionate accountability. We can't be reckless with our trust and just send it guys,
have fun.
No, no, no, there has to be proportionate.
There's to be trust, but proportionate accountability
when we mess up.
And when we do that, that builds trust
because then they'll see, oh, I messed something up.
If that platoon over there, this had happened
and that would have been crucified, sent to captain's
mast, whatever.
This platoon here, Brad and the platoon chief thought that was a survivable failure, a teachable
moment.
So we kept it at our level and we mentored him through it and we provided that opportunity.
He fell forward and was fine.
Or we messaged up the chain if it was appropriate.
Hey, this is what happened.
Our guy messed up, but here's how we want him to survive it.
Here's what we want to do.
We're asking you to let us run with this.
And when the dude see that, okay, this guy has our back. Here's what we want to do We're asking you to let us let us run with this and when the dudes see that okay, this guy's our back
There's still a high standard. We don't compromise the standard, but they're gonna help me when I mess up
We're gonna ready to take a break yeah, and then we'll move into
what happened after after this deployment, but but real quick I just
We got a lot of people to listen to the show that are wanting to go to Buds,
wanting to go SF, Marsok, we got a lot of people
that want to be in special operations
and a handful of those are looking to go the officer route.
And so what are a couple of leadership attributes
that you pass on to
being the commanding officer over at
Naval Special Warfare training.
Yeah, it's a great question.
We're gonna hit a couple of these as we go through,
but if you wanna lead people,
you have to be curious about people.
And at an offer, you almost need to become a student
in what makes us tick as human beings.
So we have to understand first human nature, psychology.
I wasn't a psych major, but I've read about it quite a bit.
Beyond that, we have to break it down.
Now what's the organization I want to lead in?
I'll have to become a skilled tradesman in that organization before people are going
to be, you know, to be the best.
I don't have to be the best sniper, jumper, diver, shooter, whatever, but I have to become a skilled tradesman in that organization before people are going to be, you know, to be the best. I don't have to be the best sniper, jumper, diver, shooter, whatever.
But I have to at least be a skilled tradesman in that craft before I can expect that people
are going to follow me.
Then I have to understand the culture of the people that are in this organization, who
gets attracted to NSW.
Like I mentioned earlier, we're not quite right in the head.
We're not the normal part of society.
We generally on the fringes of normal behavior.
Shocking, we get into bar fights every once in a while, and our young guys do too.
Okay, let's manage that.
So understand human nature, understand the nature of the people that are drawn to the
organization you want to lead in, and then understand the culture of those organizations.
Sometimes that involves subcultures.
You've seen this.
Different teams, different troops sometimes have subcultures. Sometimes those cultures are healthy, sometimes
they're not. If they're healthy, well, shoot, let's jump on that, capitalize on it, score fuel on the
fire and run. If it's unhealthy, okay, let's start talking about what we need to do to shift that
culture. But it's really becoming a student in that world of understanding human beings and what
makes them tick. And then when we make decisions as leaders, well, why are we making that decision?
We're generally looking to incentivize a certain behavior or disincentivize a certain behavior.
And so as we make those decisions based upon all those other factors, human nature, organizational
culture, then did I produce the right behavior that I was hoping to with this decision or
do we accidentally go the other way?
Whoops, unintended consequences.
And then having the humility as a leader to, okay, let's revisit that decision.
Let's pull it back and shift fire.
Because if really what we're talking about is this, then let's figure out how to get
there.
What does that look like?
What do those decisions look like?
And how do we get buying for those decisions?
Someone much smarter than me said to me years ago, culture eats strategy for breakfast every
single day.
And what he meant is you might have the best strategy in the world to solve a problem,
to get an end state, but if your decisions to get there are countercultural, you'll
fail every day.
So we have to align our end goals as leaders and our decisions into the culture in order
to get to where we want to be.
Very well said.
Thank you.
I appreciate it.
Let's take a break.
Sounds good.
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All right, Brad, we're back from the break.
Let's get into green team.
So I know you screened for dev group.
Let's start right there.
Yeah, came back from that Iraq deployment, right into green team 2009 and moved on from
there to the squadron.
And how was green team?
Green team is brutal, brutal, harder than Bud's.
And I say that physically, it's probably, it's a difficult scale because you're older,
so everything hurts a little bit more.
So if you did them both side by side comparison, probably not as hard as Bud's, but there's
no hell week, right?
But what I mean harder too is the cognitive piece.
The psychological aspect is incredibly difficult because you're already a proven seal now.
You've got a reputation.
And in a sense, you're putting everything on the line to go over there and say, hey,
yeah, measure me and assess me and tell me if you're what we're looking for.
One guy said it really well.
He said, you know, we were about to go into the house and do some runs in green team. And you go in there and looking up in the rafters, you just see these animals up there,
beard, sunglasses, long hair, just pouring over the rafters. There's more of them up there than
there are of you down here. And you know that every single one of them is judging every single
thing you do, every move, every micro move. That's incredibly intimidating.
And one of the guys said, I've been on combat operations
in Afghanistan where we were troops in contact,
no kidding, gunfights.
And I'm more stressed right now going into this house
with those dudes in the rafters looking at me.
And I'm like, yeah, I feel the same thing.
Your heart rate's just going through the roof.
It's just a lot of performance anxiety.
And it's overwhelming.
It's overwhelming. Everybody I've interviewed about it says the same thing. It's harder a lot of performance anxiety. And it's overwhelming. It's overwhelming.
Everybody I've interviewed about it says the same thing.
It's harder than Bud's.
But I'm curious, what is the selection
like for an officer going in?
So it's changed.
I don't know what it is today.
Keep in mind, this is now, golly,
what are we talking, like almost a decade and a half ago.
But at the time, it was all the normal stuff that anyone else has to go to, the physical
fitness test, the psych profile, all that stuff.
But then what they did for the officers on top of that at the time was they'd bring you
into a room, just you, provide you a bunch of intelligence and say, plan a mission.
You have X amount of time to plan it, and then we're going to come back in the room
and you're going to brief it.
Start now.
And so you had to buy yourself, put together a cobbled plan with what assets they gave
you.
It's all notional.
It's all just a planning exercise.
And then you had to brief it competently back to these senior officers at Dev Group, which
is just a little intimidating.
How much time do you get?
I can't remember.
It's been so long.
I want to say they gave me like 40 minutes at the time.
40 minutes?
Yeah.
It wasn't much.
It wasn't much.
And part of the drill is they know
you're not going to get everything.
There's just too much.
Part of it is an information processing drill.
Can you figure out, scanning through this stuff, what's
the important information, distill it down
to some salient talking points, pick the relevant ones and then I'll brief them effectively
and manage risk from a planning perspective based off of all these factors.
It's almost like in college where they give you too much work and they know you can't
get it all done.
So you have to figure out how to prioritize what you prioritize and now message it effectively
as if you're briefing an op for approval.
Can you talk, do you remember the scenario?
It was some sort of a Helo Assault Force op.
It was somewhat generic at the time.
I think they evolved the scenarios they provide, but it's the typical.
They give you sometimes too many assets.
So they want to see, are you going to use everything and say that I need all these things
when in reality, hey, you don't, that's overkill.
There's a fine line they're looking for in there too on, hey, are you being prudent?
Are you being wise in your decision making and what you ask for and what you recommend?
It wasn't even the scenario.
It's almost as if they knew we were ill-experienced as officers to even handle some of the assets
they threw at us.
I didn't know what the capabilities of some of these things were.
I hadn't studied them because I didn't have access to those things until that moment.
They know that.
They know you're going to come up with probably a crappy plan and you'll misuse the assets
because you don't really know what you're doing even to some degree.
It's really more of a planning exercise.
And then, I did, I made a couple of mistakes, I remember, and they called me on it after
I breathed.
Hey, well, did you know that you can't fit that many people on a 47?
I was like, no, I didn't.
And so then there's that, I have to wonder what they were looking for there.
Am I going to be humble enough to acknowledge, hey, I messed that up?
And then they said, well, now that you know, would you do something different?
Well, yeah, I would.
I would do this, this, and this.
And so they're looking for how are you assessing risk,
how are you managing assets,
and then are you humble as a leader?
Are you gonna be willing to shift fire?
But then, you know, not be a pushover either.
You know, I've known a lot of enlisted guys
that screened and made it over there.
I don't know, and I know you're the only one
that I personally know now that I've talked to
about kind of jumping the fence and going over there.
I've seen a lot of officers fail
their attempts to make it over to Dev Group.
What do you think that they are looking for
specifically in an officer?
Someone said it really well.
He's not a seal, but he's a good friend of mine and he studied us for quite some time.
He said, damn neck is looking for wolves with table manners.
And I really liked that.
This idea that you're a borderline monster and to borrow how Jordan Peterson describes virtue, I like this a lot.
I've used it a lot over my career.
I didn't understand it.
I couldn't articulate it like Jordan does now, but when I heard him say it, I was like,
that's what he's talking about.
That's what I've experienced.
This idea of becoming a monster who chooses not to do monstrous things, someone who has
that capability but buffers it with restraint. They're looking for that in their officers there because they're looking for it and they're enlisted.
And it's why, just like Buds, officers go through Green Team the same as enlisted
and the same as expected of them in the house.
You have to be able to perform tactically.
There's a lot of people out there over the years that have argued philosophically,
why are we grading officers in Green team on their house runs when in
reality on target, they're the ground force commander, not necessarily the number two
man in the train?
Well, because that's NSW.
We expect the people that lead us to be competent in what the trade is.
You don't have to be the best.
Again, and you're not going to be the best because you're not going to get the reps that
the other guys are getting, but you've got to show that you can do it.
You've got to show that you have bridled aggression, and that's what they're looking for.
And the cultural fit, like back to the cultural strategy.
I know for a fact they look for cultural fit there.
That's a major, major piece of the puzzle.
I heard one story of one guy, an officer.
This was a couple of years later, so I'm telling it now second third hand, but there was a perception that he might have been a yes man officer
that just went with the flow.
Whatever the opinions was, he would go there.
And so they actually staged the scenario where they took a couple guys and said, hey, I want
you to be talking about a controversial issue and I want your position to be this.
And then he's going to come through the room and we're going to grab him and bring him
over and see where he stands on it.
Sounds good.
So they did it.
He jumps on board.
Everyone's very animated.
And he agrees.
Oh, I 100% agree with you guys.
Absolutely.
Yeah.
They said, OK, give it a couple days.
They said, take a different group of guys.
Hey, we're going to be talking about this topic.
Now it's the opposite side of the equation.
We're going to come through the room.
We're going to ask him to come over and ask
for his opinion on things.
Same scenario.
Comes over.
Oh, 100% agree.
They dropped him from the program.
We don't want someone like you, man.
Like you may be a competent tactical seal officer,
but we need people that have an opinion on things.
Even if it's a controversial opinion,
be yourself, have a position,
be able to defend your position
and have an intelligent discussion about it.
We don't need yes men here.
They want somebody to have a spine.
Yeah. Absolutely.
Interesting.
Yeah. That one, that one was fascinating.
Like what, what an interesting human experiment.
Yeah. That's a pretty slick.
And I'm glad it happened.
Like I'm glad.
Did you see that happen?
No, I only heard about it.
I was already in the squadron at that point and someone's like, you won't
believe what happened the other day.
I'm like, what's going on?
But those kinds of human experiments, just back to being curious about humanity and human
nature, those always interested me.
That's the best part about being a CEO at Buds later, was running those kinds of experiments
just to see a dude's character or a girl.
I say dude.
Let's just determine now that dude is an all-encompassing term, because I use it a lot.
I've been told I use it too many times.
But generally, it feels it refers to the people.
How many officers screened to go with you?
Do you remember?
Ooh.
I want to say there were 11 or 12 of us
that got into green team, and four of us got through it.
Only four.
It was a really high attrition year.
Yeah.
Yeah, and it was intimidating
because I came in the door looking at these peers of mine
and they are, I mean, they're studs.
I was intimidated, like, oh my gosh,
I'm rolling with these guys
and I'm being assessed compared to them
and I know they don't need all of us.
So they're gonna be looking for mistakes.
Is there any difference or is there any more training
or selection that you go through as an officer
versus an enlisted guy when it comes to green team?
Yes and no, you don't go into a different program,
but there are different portions of the training
where they'll pull you aside as an officer and say,
hey, we're gonna practice some ground force
commanding stuff now.
Like we're gonna get you on the radio, we're gonna start having you run some ops, we're gonna bring in one of the training where they'll pull you aside as an officer and say, hey, we're going to practice some ground force commanding stuff now. Like, we're going to get you on the radio.
We're going to start having you run some ops.
We're going to bring in one of the troop commanders
and start mentoring you.
And so at some point when you show you're good enough at CQC,
then they will kind of start pulling you back
and you start doing more of what you'll be doing when you
actually get to the squadrons.
OK, so they're not going to invest any extra time into you until you've proven yourself
in the team.
Precisely.
Precisely.
Let's talk about when you showed up.
Where did you go after green team?
Went up to gold squadron.
How was that?
Fantastic.
Everything I always hoped it would be.
Let's talk about day one walking in.
Overwhelming.
I mean, chandeliers made of AK-47s.
Yeah, it's just like, okay, like this is man town.
You know, like it was an incredible experience.
I was so humbled.
And you walk in, again, there's this theme, right, that these guys, you feel so overwhelmed
by the level of the professionals around you,
that it just makes you raise your game to that level. It sharpens your sword and drives you to
want to be better at what you do. I've got to be the best dang officer in the world
because these guys deserve that. And I'm not there yet. And I probably won't ever be there,
if I'm honest with myself. So, all right, how do I ever find that?
How do I get better at that?
Who do I need to talk to?
Where do I need to, what are my gaps?
How do I identify what I need to do?
Some of it I may not even know yet.
It's just, it's a contagious environment of just hyper performance.
I mean, once again, you're showing up to a place as a leader, as an officer,
into another culture or another unit that has
a level of experience that is just astronomically higher
than what you're currently at.
And so once again, how do you, as a leader,
a development group, prove yourself to them?
Same lessons just applied at a different level, right?
Recognizing I don't know fully what I'm doing yet.
I gotta understand this culture.
There's a squadron culture and there's a troop culture there.
I got put into the troop that was the Fight Club troop.
These dudes are just, I mean, they're fighters and I was not a fighter.
I mean, every steel is, but I had to learn fast how to fight.
I'm pretty sure that's where my nose got crooked.
I don't know 100%.
I can't remember.
But these guys are monsters and I had to become a monster.
Same exact principles that I rolled with with Danny.
How do I do that?
Well, I got to learn what it means to be one of these guys.
I got to fight with them.
I got to fight knowing I'm going to lose sometimes.
I was holding pads for one of these guys.
He's one of the scariest human beings in the world.
And at some point, I'm holding tie pads as we're doing every day.
We're just doing boxing and kicking together.
And he actually gave me stress fractures in my forearms
because his kicks were that powerful through the three inch tie pads.
I had to take a break.
And I felt like such a weakling saying I need to like, hey, dude, I got to throttle it back
for a while.
You gave me stress fractures.
I mean, you feel like a quitter.
And of course, he probably called me a quitter at the time, which doesn't help.
But yeah, I had to become this.
I had to become this thing in order to lead in these environments.
What rank are you?
I was Lieutenant Commander at that time.
Lieutenant Commander, feeling like a new guy.
Feeling like a new guy, once again.
That doesn't really change.
I feel like that's been almost everywhere.
Every time I go into a new role, you're like, Gally, I'm the new guy again.
I got to learn a whole other environment, whole another culture, whole another command,
whole another leadership job.
But that's what's fun too, is that it's just a constant.
Every time you get it figured out, I don't know if it's the same thing for everybody,
but as an officer, these two-year chunks of your career that are really different, and
each one is so different because the whole point is they want to diversify us.
So as we climb that ladder of leadership, we now understand what it means to lead a
wide array of different subsets and specialties.
So you never really get a lot of time in one spot.
You're always being diversified.
That creates a learning environment where you are always on your heels.
I mean, about the time I get it figured out and I think I'm effective in a job, they move
me on to another one and I'm like, oh my gosh, I got to learn something entirely new now.
How were you received?
Very skeptically.
I'd offered, I think that's one of the harder things to do there is roll into a troop as
a troop commander now, fresh out of green team, new guy.
And some of these guys had been staying in the same troop for five to 10 years.
They have an established way of doing business.
And the last thing they want is some new officer who they know is going to be there for two years
to come in and start telling them how to do business when they know how to do business.
Most of those guys had double digit deployments to Afghanistan at that point.
I mean, I couldn't hold a candle to them tactically. There's nothing I was ever going
to do to close that gap.
So, okay, how do I do that?
Well, I have to figure out how to earn their respect.
And then as a leader,
respect the roles and responsibilities we all have,
press in when I need to,
but also trust that they know how to do this stuff,
and they're gonna probably do it the right way.
Better than any way I could think of doing it.
So it was a huge exercise in trust.
Where are you deploying to for the first time with gold?
Afghanistan.
Afghanistan.
Yeah, pretty quickly.
I got in there and we rolled out within a few months.
So off to the races.
No tactical pause.
Off you go.
Wow.
Wow.
No, you jump right into it, man.
You're in the cycle and you're out.
You are vetted and expected to perform.
And so you do.
So you get over there, you're the troop commander.
Well, so at that point, there was a little bit of an overlap.
We were waiting for another guy to cycle out.
So for that deployment, I ended up being like a troop commander in training, I guess you
could say.
So I was rolling with them.
I was doing ops, but it was very much like an on the job training
type role for at least a few months.
And then I just cycled right into that troop.
Okay.
Yeah.
So it was the full deployment?
Yeah.
Yeah.
You were in training?
Yeah.
Not training, but yeah.
Yeah.
Yeah.
For sure. You were being evaluated to take the position or?
Of course.
Yeah.
Okay.
And that's the deployment we lost, Adam.
That's that deployment?
That was that deployment, yeah.
Do you want to get into specifics?
Yeah, I'll say something because then I know I don't want to repeat what's already been
discussed by a lot of the guys on your show, but I don't know that some of the guys talked
about that one, but there's an interesting part to that story that I think is worth telling that hasn't been told yet, at least to my
knowledge.
When Adam died, as you know, he was a man of faith and was on his last deployment, was
getting ready to roll back to Arkansas with his wife and kids.
And this was it.
This was short final.
This was the last run.
And so when he died, a lot of us had a lot of problems with that, specifically wrestling with God on that one.
And I remember I did. I said, why would you take Adam over everybody?
Not that one person's better than any others, but Adam, I mean, everyone recognized he was just one of our best and most unique and just a fantastic human being.
Why would you take him when he was this close to the finish line?
And I don't think God answers our questions fully.
We're never meant to fully understand, but a piece of it came to light for me.
When someone dies on a deployment, as you know, we ship them home, they have their hometown
memorial service, but we stay forward.
We continue the fight. But then the chaplains will usually come around
and do the memorial services at all the outstations
in memory of our fallen.
So by the time all that happened,
this chaplain finally came around to our outstation,
said, hey, I'm here.
We're going to do this on a night we have off.
So we all sat down in the typical plywood hut.
I'll never forget we're all sitting there.
And he said, I'm going to read you
what Adam wrote in his emergency data form.
That's that, addendum to our will, the last thing we fill out on the way out the door
just in case something happens.
It was interesting.
The chaplain said, okay.
He's reading Adam's words now, and I'm paraphrasing, it's been a hot minute, but it was something
to the effect of, in the event I die, I want the chaplains to go on and do a memorial service in my honor, and I want the gospel of Jesus Christ preached unhinged.
And so he looks up, closes the doors, and you've got all these war fighters in this
room.
And he goes, okay, gents, we're going to talk about Jesus today.
And being a man of faith, I remember in that moment being so overwhelmed with, oh my gosh, what an impact Adam is having
in his death.
I can't imagine another scenario in the world in which you'd get a group of warfighters
like us to sit down in a room and listen to a sermon like that unless it was in honor
of one of our fallen brothers.
Those were Adam's last wishes, and that chaplain fulfilled it to the T. And every single dude
in that room and in every other outstation that they went to heard that message.
And some of them received it.
Wow.
I'm a man of faith.
And scripture says, we're not going to understand.
Trust in the Lord with all your heart.
Lean not on your understanding.
We're never going to fully understand why God allows what he does, suffering in the
world, loss, grief.
But he gives glimpses of it sometimes.
And this was one of those times he opened up my aperture a little bit.
I'd already talked about what I saw after Adam died and what he wrote in his emergency
data form.
What Amy told me after talking to some of these surviving spouses at the funerals is that multiple spouses
said their husbands came to know Christ because of Adam's testimony.
And so then I realized even more so than I had previously that in his death and in his
witness and his testimony, these men heard and it paved the way for their salvation.
It was incredible. and heard, and it paved the way for their salvation.
It was incredible.
Now, if I could still wrestle with God, I'd ask,
yeah, but why did it have to happen anyway?
Couldn't we have done something different here,
back to we'll never fully understand these things?
But I was very thankful in that moment
to have a little bit of closure
and a little bit of understanding and insight
into what was going on there behind the scenes.
It was such a powerful moment for me.
Do you ever think that that was Adam's reward?
Yeah, sure.
Sure.
I mean, we know that things here on Earth are fleeting. Our reward's inevitably based upon our willingness
to testify here on Earth.
I think that was absolutely part of it.
And I can only imagine the celebration
when they joined him.
I'm looking forward to joining that table one day.
Yeah.
It still doesn't take the sting away. but you realize the impact a man has with his
words.
That man is still impacting everybody that reads that book.
Absolutely.
Everybody that hears his story.
I mean, what a just phenomenal human being.
Yeah, he really was.
Still is.
I mean, he lives on, right?
He really does.
His impact will continue for generations.
Let's talk about the first time you were in a leadership role
where you were involved in an engagement.
Yeah.
OK.
So fast forward, next deployment out there.
We did a couple other meeting deployments along the way.
It was a long, it was a hard season of life.
In about a three-year period, I was home less than nine months at any given time.
It was just a, we were moving.
We were always deployed or always on a training trip, always gone.
So I'm in my leadership role now.
We're downrange again.
And yeah, I'm not sure.
It was kind of anticlimactic, actually, the first few for me.
I remember thinking like, oh, that's it?
We rolled in.
We were very good at what we do.
And we controlled the target, never lost control.
And it was fun for me to watch these guys work and realize,
oh, this is what this looks like when guys have autonomy, when
guys are moving and responding to the enemy.
Like I said earlier, you can do all the right things
in the world, the enemy gets a vote.
But when your guys have autonomy and trust
to maneuver to contact as fast as possible,
you're responding before the enemy can keep up.
And so I saw us all just move as this collective element, the flow.
And it was one of those things like, target was secure, everything was done.
And I'm looking around like, I guess that was it.
This is not at all like what the movies make it out to be.
Man, I never thought of that.
So you're getting like the bird's eye view of everything all at once.
It was fascinating.
And now there's always ops that don't go as planned and being on your heels a little bit.
But most of them, I find that we have such tactical patience and our guys know what to
do and when to do it.
And they're so fluent in that language that nine times out of 10, it's like, oh, just
another night.
Great.
I mean, half the time, you almost, they felt bad for like our adversaries or enemies because
they wouldn't know what hit them.
And some of them, you could see them like getting their kid on, thinking they're about
to get in the fight.
They don't know they're already dead.
We had to beat on them before they even decided.
We were just waiting for them to make the decision.
Bad choice. That's hostile intent.
They had no idea.
I would imagine there's a certain degree of pride
in seeing your troop operate at that level.
It's great, it's a lot of fun.
It's a lot of fun.
I mean, it's probably like being on any high performing
like professional sports team where everybody just knows
their job, they're reading each other,
they're communicating without even speaking
and it just flows.
And everyone's doing all the right things every single time.
It's really fun to be a part of.
Very humbling.
I'll bet, I'll bet it is.
Was there ever a point in time where you were the troop commander and you lost one of your guys?
No. No. I was on an op where we lost some rangers, but I wasn't the troop commander on that operation. I was the troop commander when one of my guys got shot.
So we had to call in the medevac for that.
But I never lost a man in combat.
Had you ever thought about what you would do if you had?
Sure, sure.
You do what needs to be done.
You respond.
It's...
The few times I've been overwhelmed on targets or we had things go wrong where you didn't anticipate it,
emotion doesn't really catch up till later is what I've noticed.
I mean, you're in such work mode.
We have an incredible way of compartmentalizing emotions and not letting yourself get wrapped into the moment.
Even when extortion 1.7 happened, there were moments where I felt incredibly calloused and cold and couldn't figure out what was going on. I even brought in a psych at one point, like,
hey, man, is there something wrong with me? I'm having a hard time. There were moments where grief
would just be overwhelming, but then other times where
I couldn't even cry if I wanted to, and I thought there was something wrong with me.
And he said, no, no, you guys do this really well.
You compartmentalize.
That's what happens from day one of Bud's.
You learn to compartmentalize emotion, pain, suffering, and get the job done.
That's what you do.
You're on target.
You get the job done.
You let the emotion catch up later.
Does he talk about where that goes?
He didn't at the time. And I'm not sure there's one answer.
You talking about where the emotion goes?
Yeah. Where does it? I mean, when we compartmentalize,
because I think I would say the majority of special ops is very good at compartmentalization.
Yes.
And so I've never had this conversation
and I wonder myself why I've never had this conversation,
but where does, we tuck it away and sometimes,
I mean, it comes back in other ways, but where does it go?
I think it needs a release.
We like to pretend, like with the big joke, is where you take that, you bottle it up deep
down inside and you never let it out.
It's impossible.
It comes out.
It has to.
To your point, it comes out manifested in different emotions.
I think with men, primarily anger.
I know for me, anger turned to rage. It has to go somewhere. And
so for me, it came out as rage and turned me into an unhealthy person at some point.
A lot of guys will then cope with that rage by what? Drinking more, medicating more, pain
meds, whatever, whatever you need to do. Or some other addiction, right?
Adrenaline junkies.
Like, there's something that numbs that anger.
I think it's grief turned to anger and then we numb it as best we can until we finally
deal with it.
Hopefully, we deal with it.
Is there anything that you regret as a leader up to this point?
I like to say I have a lot of regret.
I have no guilt.
There's always things I would do differently and do better,
especially in our job field, right?
We, and as leaders, we are paid to make quick decisions
sometimes with imperfect information available to us.
And whenever you armchair quarterback those decisions
with a much clearer picture from the future,
there's always gonna be regrets.
I wish I had done this differently.
I wish I had thought through that.
I wish I had perceived this, but we didn't.
And that's the job.
We manage risk as best we can
with the information that we have available to us.
And we do it as wisely as we we can with the information that we have available to us, and we do it
as wisely as we possibly can in those moments, understanding that decisions have to be made.
So we make them, and then you live with the consequences.
And that's the burden, I think, of leadership, especially in our job field, is living with
the consequences of imperfect decisions made in imperfect environments by imperfect people
that are going to make
mistakes, it's going to happen.
That's a burden to bear.
That's a tough one.
Yeah.
Let's move on to extortion.
Biggest loss in SEAL team history still to this day.
Yeah.
Yeah. Very strange that prior to that, Red Red Wings was and somehow I was directly involved with both
Yeah, that was a tough one man, it was
You know what people some people don't realize I think is that
It was a troop. It was the largest loss of life,
but it was a third of our entire command.
And that's a massive chunk of personality
to just be gone like that in an instant.
I was up in one of our FOBs at the time,
and we got the word, we were all hanging out,
and we got the word, hey, something happened.
One of the birds went down.
And that's not that uncommon,
but usually it's one of those like,
oh, there was a malfunction, they crash landed, there's a couple of broken bones maybe.
But, you know, like, all right, let's not overreact, these things happen.
I think we become numb to that, just repetitive.
These birds were just very reliable and the pilots are exceptional.
So we're going to be fine.
That was the initial feeling I had was like, all right, let's see what happened.
So I remember going in the in the jock and standing there.
And we hadn't heard anything on the radio.
We hadn't heard anything on the radio.
And I was waiting to hear Jonas's voice come over
the radio, Jonas Kelsaw, a good friend of mine.
And he didn't come on the radio.
Minute goes by, minute goes by.
I'm watching the ISR footage.
And you've seen it. People have seen it from the movies. But goes by, minute goes by. I'm watching the ISR footage, and you've seen it.
People have seen it from the movies.
But we're looking at this black heat spot.
And normally, you can see the fuselage.
You can see the outline of the Helios sitting there.
And so they're just looking at this black heat spot.
And I was like, hey, man, can you zoom out?
What are you doing so zoomed in on this one heat spot?
Like, god, there's a fire somewhere in the crash site.
But zoom out and show me the fuselage.
Let's figure out what we're looking at here.
And then the guy just looked up at me and said,
that's the fuselage.
That's the helo.
And it was nothing but a heat spot.
And in that moment, I knew, OK, we lost the entire bird.
And then I'm thinking, OK.
So then I said, hey, will you print
the manifest for the bird?
Normally we would split up into different helos.
Normally, there's a lot of reasons for that.
But I said, print out the manifest.
I want to understand which half of the troop it was.
And then they printed out and handed it to me.
And I'm going down the list.
And I said, no, no, no, this is the troop roster.
I need the manifest.
You made a mistake.
And the guy said, no, sir, that's the manifest.
That was who was on the bird.
And in that moment, I knew, oh my God, it's everybody.
It's everybody.
And so I ran quickly.
Everyone else is making decisions.
I wasn't in the decision-making capability here.
Other people were solving these problems.
We were just observing on standby.
And so I ran to the phone and I called my wife and I said, hey, I need you to hear my
voice.
I can't tell you what happened, but I need you to hear my voice.
And I could hear the quiver in hers.
And she said, how bad is it?
And I said, it's worse than Danny.
And I said, I need you to watch the news and the minute this thing breaks, you'll know
it.
And I need you to call my mom and tell her I'm okay.
She said, okay.
And then we began to figure out what to do next and how to process that, which I don't
even know if we ever will.
I mean, there's no real way to wrap your head around that kind of a loss. figure out what to do next and how to process that, which I don't even know if we ever will.
There's no real way to wrap your head around that kind of a loss.
But you try and you have the team.
And we're all in solidarity as the team to suffer through this together.
And so we did our best to do that.
Here's what I'd offer.
Concepts that I couldn't wrap my head around until this.
31 Americans and seven Afghans, 31 including Bart the Dog.
Face timing with my wife is we're trying to figure out what to do.
No one knew how to process this.
The command didn't know what to do.
There's no plan for this kind of thing.
There was even talk of, do we bring these guys home?
What do we do here?
This is unprecedented.
Are they even in an emotionally healthy enough state to stay in the fight?
We always talk about staying in the fight.
We're never out of the fight.
Is that even possible with the gravity of this situation?
And we're all wrestling with that.
Of course, none of us wanted to go home.
We knew we had to stay for our future, for our sanity.
We had to stay.
We had to see it to the end.
We had to fulfill our duty.
I'm on a FaceTime call or whatever Skype it was
at the time with my wife.
And I'll never forget, I'm trying to articulate that need,
understanding maybe a glimpse of the pain she's enduring.
And she just looked at me and said,
you stay and you do what you need to do.
You finish the task at hand and then you come home to me.
And I'll be forever grateful for that, because then she went to every single funeral and
memorial service while we stayed forward to continue the fight.
She endured that.
At one point, my daughter, who was really, really young at the time, we try to shield
our kids from these horrors.
Everyone does, but at some point they know something's up.
And when our babysitter became a live-in nanny, because my wife's at another funeral in another
black dress with mascara running again, my daughter asked her, mommy, what's going on?
These aren't just meetings.
I think she was eight at the time, maybe.
And my wife said, well, sweetheart, you know how daddy and his friends go on
helicopters as part of their job? Well, one of those helicopters had a crash and
so daddy's friends got got hurt. And her first question was, was Mr. Jonas on
board? Because Jonas had previously volunteered to come out and take my
place on a deployment so I could come home for that daughter's surgery. So
Jonas was very close to our family.
And my wife had to say yes, sweetie, he was.
And she said, are they going to be okay?
And my wife answered it like only a warfighter spouse can.
She said, no, sweetheart, their boobies were so bad, they had to go to heaven to get fixed. I can't imagine a more perfect way to frame it for an eight-year-old's mind.
So Amy kept going to the funerals, and I stayed on deployment.
And DJ and his boys came out to help.
So there's the DJ, small circle again.
They came out and took our place, and my troop moved into Jonas' troop's location and we
slept in their beds.
We packed up their things, walked through their tents with what felt like their lingering
ghosts.
I mean, it was the eeriest thing, man.
Half-drank cups of coffee, sitting on a desk.
Derek Benson's tie shorts on the floor,
where it looks like he'd probably just changed out to his op kit.
I saw on Matt Mason's desk a letter from his wife, Jessica,
printed on a sonogram of their unborn baby and a note from her to him.
It was just these remnants of life that felt like they were still there and it felt
like they could walk in the door at any moment. But you knew they couldn't and they wouldn't.
And trying to reconcile those things in your brain was almost an impossibility. It was.
I mean, it was. And I think that was part of the beginnings of those emotions getting
bottled and put away,
which would later become rage.
But we did the best we can.
We did the ramp ceremony.
Two C-17s.
That blew my mind.
Two C-17s.
And we sent them home.
And then we got back to work. And this comes back to this comes back to everything I was talking about earlier
about becoming a monster and choosing not to do monstrous things.
What this was, this was one of the most difficult leadership challenges
I've ever faced because we wanted revenge.
We wanted, I mean, man, we wanted to get after it.
There was such rage and anger about the loss,
knowing that we all signed up for this.
This is part of the deal.
How do you lead that when you see it in yourself?
I'd offer,
brutally honest, there was bloodlust.
We wanted to get after it. So we very much looked at ourselves and realized,
hey, we're not careful here.
We will become the very monsters that we're here fighting.
And if we become the monsters that we're here fighting,
then what are we doing other than contributing to chaos?
And if that's the case,
then there's nothing virtuous about this anymore.
And then that defeats the entire point behind everything we're supposed to be doing and
everything we're supposed to stand for as Americans. And so we were very deliberate as a troop about
bringing in people to help us process these things and say, hey, help us understand our anger and our
rage. Help us understand how to harness that on the battlefield, how to keep that monster bridled and not do the wrong things, not give in to vengeance, instead
look for retribution.
And we did it.
And all eyes were on us.
And we did it.
And it felt so good.
It was incredibly difficult because you were bridling something that you almost didn't
want to bridle.
We wanted to let it off the leash.
There was a very strong desire to do it, but we held ourselves in check.
And we executed those ops with such precision and stayed within the ethical boundaries of
warfare.
I've never been more proud of dudes than I was of what we did following that catastrophic
loss.
Man, that's heavy.
That is heavy.
It was a rough season, man.
And then that wasn't even the beginning.
The harder part was coming home.
It was so unhealthy. And it's hard to describe without being embarrassed because I look back at how hard my heart had
become and cruel I'd become.
I mentioned the things my wife endured.
I mean, she's a fighter.
She's a fighter.
Riding the clock, walking around in buds, going into Hell Week, she's giving me a kiss
before going to Hell Week goodbye. And she said, if you quit, don't how week, she's giving me a kiss before going to how we goodbye.
And she said, if you quit, don't come home to me.
I don't want to quit her for a husband.
This is the woman that endured these things for our nation.
And I come home to her and I found myself having conversations with her and my mom and
my dad and my family and my friends and they'd ask questions.
And I found myself getting angry at their questions
and not even wanting to share with them
because in my mind I thought,
you haven't earned the right for me to be vulnerable enough
to share my grief with you
because you weren't downrange with me,
because you didn't endure what I did,
because you didn't move into their tents
and sleep in their beds with their ghosts.
So I will withhold that from you.
Why?
I don't know.
A coping mechanism?
Back to where those emotions go?
Incredibly unhealthy.
I mean, it was destroying me.
Anger, I've heard it said, is like taking a poison pill and expecting it to hurt somebody else. He was destroying me from the inside and
thereby destroying my relationships, my relationship with my wife, with my kids.
I mean, I already mentioned I wasn't home much already and now you add to that
that when I am home, I'm angry at her for asking questions. If anyone's earned the
right to ask those questions and have those conversations, it
was her.
But I was isolating myself and ostracizing her in that process.
And it took someone intervening.
It took someone who saw something and had the courage to say it.
And I'll never forget the moment I was home from the deployment and I'm wrestling with
all these things.
He said, hey man, you have a rage problem you need to deal with.
I was very good at not showing it.
So good that Amy's father was in the room and he said, Brad's not an angry person.
I think you've misread him.
He said, no, no, no, I didn't say angry.
He said, this is so far past anger.
Brad has a rage problem, and it's wrath,
and it's going to tear you up,
and you need to figure out how to deal with it,
or it's gonna ruin you.
Who is this?
It was a close family friend of ours.
Yeah, he was a doctor, actually.
He's a doctor, and we were there for an appointment
with my wife, and as she's doing this appointment,
he was very in tune to emotions,
and he kind of looked over at me.
He's like, Hey, you mind if I take a look at you and ask a couple questions?
I was like, whatever, bro.
So he does.
And, and he nailed it within five minutes.
It was just, he just stripped the veneer right off me.
And it was, it was really shortly after that, I realized I was not doing everything as well as I'd convinced myself
I was.
And I was straying from who I wanted to be.
I was a very, very good SEAL officer.
I was not a very good husband or father anymore.
How could you be?
You're absent.
And you're dealing with dark work, which comes with dark consequences and can actually, I
think, damage your soul over time.
And I was letting it.
I was almost, I was almost becoming like a self-martyr.
Like you convince yourself at some point,
like, well, this is what the nation requires.
This is what the warfighter ethos requires.
And if it costs me everything, then so be it.
This is the burden I bear.
Jonah said that to me once, right before his death.
We were talking.
And he said, you know, he said, as hard as this lifestyle is,
he said, I will never leave this command and this I'm forced to.
And I said, well, why?
And he said, because I'm addicted to feeling importance.
I was like, golly, dude, that's brutal.
I feel the same way.
Most of us did.
We were so addicted to those feelings
and this self-martyrdom of the warrior
ethos and what it requires of us that we were willing to do it
all and give it all.
And it wasn't until that moment that I
was kind of shaken free from it.
And I kind of had this epiphany of looking forward
on my deathbed.
And I imagined myself there.
And I thought, I can't imagine saying,
I wish I had one more deployment with the boys.
I can't imagine saying, I wish I had missed one less Christmas.
I wish I had one more tickle fight with the kiddos,
one more date night with my wife. We were at a point now where my daughter, I mentioned previously, was walking around
with a framed picture of me on Christmas holidays and putting it at the seat at the dinner table
saying, nobody take daddy's seat because I'm off on another deployment.
Doing what I felt was my duty, but I just kept withdrawing money from the bank of my family to keep doing it.
And I realized that is no longer a tenable solution.
I can no longer convince myself that I'm able to do it all.
I have to make a decision.
When did you realize that?
It was shortly after being home from extortion.
And I cycled up to the ops officer job.
I left my troop and I was scheduled to stay and keep promoting within the squadron.
They had, I think, soft slated me to be the executive officer.
I was on the track.
I'll never forget when I had that.
It was just that moment.
I was driving into work and it was just like I was just breaking the steering wheel in
half as my stomachs and knots, knowing that I just can't keep doing this.
I can't keep fighting myself.
And I walked into the CEO's office that day and said, hey, I'm leaving.
I can't.
I've loved this place.
I hate to leave it, but I'm failing as a husband and father, and I don't think I like the dude
in the mirror anymore.
He's too angry.
And I need to figure out, I don't know how yet,
but I need to figure out how to kill that anger.
And I don't think I can do it if I stay here and keep doing this
because it just kept fueling that for me.
What was his reaction?
He was a pro. He was a pro. He didn't skip a beat.
He's like, I understand completely.
For argument's sake, let's talk about what it would take to keep you.
I was like, listen, I'm done.
I'm seriously like, I'm, and he said, well, what would it take?
And I said, I don't know.
Maybe, maybe a training command or something
where I could go pour into our next generation
and just kind of breathe for a while, have shore duty.
Maybe, maybe.
And that's when they pitched to go out
to basic training command, BUDs, and take the XO job there.
Wasn't even on my radar.
They said, one of our legends, Jay Hennessey,
was out there about to take command of it
as a bonus command tour.
Why don't you go be his XO?
He'd love to have you.
And I said, hey, listen, no.
Like, I'm not picking my family up and moving.
We're done.
Like, we're just done.
And this guy was such a pro.
He said, I'll tell you what.
I want you to take your wife out on a date for the next
month, like multiple dates for the next month.
I'm going to tell everyone you're all in.
Don't worry about it.
In a month, come back to me.
If you have a decision before then, I don't want to hear about it.
I want you to take the full month and then you come back to me with a decision.
If you tell me you're out, then I'll act surprised.
No big deal.
I'll tell the detailer and we'll find someone else.
It'll be okay. If you're in, well, then great. We've. No big deal. I'll tell the detailer and we'll find someone else. It'll be OK.
But if you're in, well, then great.
We've paved that path and off you go.
It was really good guidance and mentorship
because if he was pressing me for an answer,
then the answer would have been no.
But he gave me that runway and we did it.
We had a couple of date nights.
And I'll never forget one Saturday morning,
we brought the kids in and we're sitting there with coffee.
He said, well, let's get a family
buy-in on this discussion.
Like kids, what do you think?
Here's what life looks like if we get out.
Here's what the possibilities look like,
or we take this move and we go out there
and here's what that looks like.
And as we went around the horn and got everyone's input,
these are little kids, but we wanted to give them buy-in
to the family decision, we all kind of came
to the same conclusion about the same time.
How do you say no to this?
So after a month, I came in and said, we're all in.
Man, how much time,
when is the last time before that
you had a month with your family?
Never.
How did you reintegrate with your family?
We did a family cruise.
I said, hey, we need to be off the grid.
So we literally found like a travel book.
It was in Afghanistan before I even got home and I saw this Disney cruise.
I was like, hey, I called home.
I'm like, hey, get the passports for the kids.
We're doing this thing down to the Caribbean.
I don't even know what it's going to cost and I don't even care.
And so I was like, I need to be on a place
that my cell phone doesn't work
and everyone knows there's no way to get a hold of me.
And so that was our first step as a family
was we just did that, went off the grid, had a great time.
Just doing family stuff, snorkeling, dancing,
jokes, tickle fights, all the good stuff.
Was it hard for you to fill that role again?
No, no.
As a full-time dad and husband?
No, that was fun because I could tell it was helping
and I could tell it was filling me,
selfishly of course, I was filling them too,
but the hard parts were these unexpected moments
when the anger would come back and I didn't know why.
And my instinct was to react to the anger and it took a long time for me to be able to, hang on a second, acknowledge that I just't know why. And my instinct was to react to the anger.
And it took a long time for me to be able to, hang on a second,
acknowledge that I just had an emotion,
acknowledge that I had anger, and then say, why am I angry?
Was it really what my wife just said or what my kid just did?
Or is this this deep-rooted thing that's coming back
at an opportune moment?
And are you going to take this out on them,
or are you going to process it, take a couple of deep breaths
and realize this has nothing to do with them.
And for you to react with them would be unfair and cruel.
That's a long process to get through that.
Very wise.
Now, painful and slow going, but we got there.
We're going to take a break and then we'll get into, into Bud's.
Perfect.
But I do have a question. I'm hesitant to ask it.
So it's not a no disrespect, but I'm taking, why were so many guys on one bird?
It's a good question. And it's one that everyone asks. Um,
so it's a very simple answer. Uh, and I think it's, it's a very simple answer.
I give a whole class on it to whoever's interested back in the teams, but I think there was a
couple things going on at play here.
One, there was an over-reliance upon the platform, the 47s.
For years, we've been coming back from Ops where you see an RPG sticking out of the side
that just hadn't detonated or bullet holes.
There was this growing sense of, I think, confidence that these things were just monsters
in the air, like indestructible.
There was an over-reliance on the platform.
I think that was part of the calculus.
Another part of it was a tactical decision because they weren't coming in to rescue the Rangers.
There's a lot of people that have that notion.
I think that was in the news at some points, people jumped on it.
The Rangers were doing fine.
They were in a troops in contact scenario.
They were doing fine.
The problem was they were bogged down in a troops in contact and the target they were
going after was heading north and they weren't going to be able to get through their contact
and get up to snag them up.
The whole idea was Jonas and the boys were just going to leapfrog ahead, pin the guy
in and then close with and get them.
The problem with that was they were in a very constrained environment and the only LZ they
could find that would work was a single ship LZ.
The thought process was, well, if we come in two ships, first one exposes the LZ, now
it's a burned LZ and there's already a gunfight going on in the area, the second helo is that
much more vulnerable and exposed, that's a lot of risk for that second helo.
First is we put everyone on one bird, touch and go, we're in and out before anyone knows
it, manageable risk, and the decision was made.
Okay. Everyone knows it, manageable risk, and the decision was made.
Like I said, right decisions for the right reasons.
Looking back, sure, we'd all do something differently, but it made sense at the time.
I agree with the decision at the time.
With where we were in that time and space, it made sense.
But like I've also said, the enemy gets a vote, and all it took was one dude on one rooftop
with a one in a million shot.
Man.
Well, thank you for sharing that.
Yeah.
Let's take a break.
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All right, Brad, we're back from the break.
Just covered some really heavy stuff.
I appreciate you revisiting that.
And now we're getting into you transitioning over to BTC,
which is essentially Buds.
Yeah, that's right.
That's right.
Yeah, a lot of years in between our last discussion
and where I found myself in the summer of 2020.
A lot of other leadership development opportunities,
but this is the meat of what we need to talk about today.
So I definitely want to set the scene
for what we were walking into.
People forget what life was like during COVID
as we started this whole thing.
There was a lot of fear,
a lot of uncertainties, a lot of unknowns. All we were seeing was dead people on the news.
That was right at the time I moved out from Hawaii and came to BTC and took command was
that spring summer timeframe of 2020. And while most of America was going into teleworking as a norm or 50-50 rotations at work environments to
try to manage the risk of transmission, to manage the risk of infection and transmissibility.
Our guidance at BTC from the SOCOM Commanding General was trained through this, figured
out.
Without knowing what we were even doing, we tried to do just that. And what we did was create a rapid learning environment
with real-time and consistent collaboration
with our medical professionals as we
tried to wrap our heads around, what is this disease?
What is this virus?
How does it affect our cohort, young Americans who
are in really good shape?
And then how do we manage that as leaders
to train through this without having something catastrophic happen?
This was what we talked about every single day.
Real quick. So you are the commanding officer in charge of BTC, of Buzz training, Swift training, all of Naval Social Warfare.
It was a bonus command tour, so I'd already been offered, I'd already successfully completed another commanding officer tour, where you have total
responsibility of these commands.
And what's interesting about this one was what an incredible opportunity, because one
of the things we kind of blew by, but it's worth at least noting that when I left the
extortion 17 scenario, I went to BTC as the EXO under Jay Hennessy.
That was second in charge.
Yeah, so I was this number two guy, which was a huge piece for me in learning from,
I think, one of NSW's legends.
I think he's one of the greatest leaders our community's ever produced as my commanding
officer.
And my commanding chief was Steph Bass, one of these tactical legends in our force as
well.
So I've got these two guys.
And back to what we talked about before about being completely overwhelmed with the
people around you and the level that they're performing to.
On a normal ExoCO tour, you're closer in age, but because that was a bonus tour for him,
he was seven years my senior.
It was a seven-year age gap and experience gap between me as his number two guy and him
as the CO.
One of the things he did that's worth highlighting because it plays to how I wanted to lead was
he completely revised the way we select and assess our candidates at BTC.
What he came to realize was that over time we had overvalued physical performance and
undervalued character in our candidates.
It wasn't that we didn't value character, it was that we didn't know how to quantify
it and we didn't know how to spot it.
And so what we did was say, well, let's measure runs, swums,
and o-courses.
And what do we say?
Well, that guy's a stud, so he's probably
going to be a good seal or swick.
So let's get him through the pipeline.
Well, there's selection there, baked in there.
Because what if he's a physical stud, but terrible man
of character?
And you can find that when you ask around, hey,
did anyone in your BUDS class have a guy get through
that probably shouldn't have? And almost every time you ask around, hey, did anyone in your Buds class have a guy get through that probably shouldn't have?
And almost every time you ask that, people nod.
So Jay tackled that problem. How do we identify those people and select them out of the program?
So we brought in these organizational psychologists at the time. It was hilarious.
They're the ones who taught me culture strategy for breakfast every day.
So they'd go out with our cadre and watch.
And a master chief or a first-phase cadre
would be like, well, that guy's a turd. And then the psych would be there and say, well, okay,
what does that mean? Why is he a turd? Well, he's a turd because he sucks. Okay, so that's not helpful.
Those are synonymous right now. But let's get, what are you seeing that you don't like? Well,
he's selfish. Oh, OK, now we're talking.
What makes him selfish?
Well, he ducked boat.
OK, why does that make him selfish?
Well, because if he ducks boat, then the rest of the boat
crew has to carry the weight.
You know this.
And so he had a moment of selfishness
at the cost of his teammates.
That's selfish.
That sucks.
He's a turd.
OK, so they helped us quantify what we saw.
And we knew kind of intuitively we don't like
when we see that as cadre.
Well, help me articulate that, help me quantify it, and now we can group them into these subgroups
and decide these are the character attributes we've decided we want in our future teammates.
So you guys brought in psychologists to identify characteristics.
Absolutely.
It was fascinating.
Was that your call?
It was Jay's call.
Jay was the vision. I was fascinating. Was that your call? It was Jay's call. Jay was the vision.
I was the executor.
So I helped take his vision and put it into practice.
And we had whiteboard session after whiteboard session about this stuff with these with these
sikes.
It was a lot of fun.
And it brought us to a place where it was really fascinating.
I'll never forget the first time Jay did it, he had to call his commoner up and he said,
hey, I'm making a decision. I'll never forget the first time Jay did it, he had to call his commenter up and he said,
hey, I'm making a decision and I'm writing a check that you may have to cash.
The commenter said, well, what are you talking about?
He goes, I'm about to drop a guy from this program who has not failed one physical evolution
yet.
That's unheard of.
We said, well, why?
Well, because we integrated in this process peer reviews and feedbacks in 360-degree surveys
from both
peers and from cadre.
What I'm seeing consistently across this guy's 360 feedback is he's a terrible leader who's
incredibly selfish and no one wants to go with him into combat.
He's an officer, so it makes it even worse because no one wants to follow him in combat.
He's dropping him from the program based off of the character attributes we've identified
through our new system.
That was one of the first beta tests,
like how's this going to go?
And he did it, and it worked, and it was justifiable,
because we had the data to support it.
It was revolutionary.
Wow.
Yeah, it's incredible to be a part of it.
So imagine my excitement now.
Let's see, that was so 1, two, three, four, five years after that
tour, I get to come back and build upon what we did back then when he revolutionized this
concept.
It was thrilling.
So exciting to dive even more back to understanding humans and being curious about them and what
makes them tick.
Start observing the culture, start observing the classes.
What's different?
What's changed? What are they looking like? What are they doing differently? What are the problems, start observing the classes, what's different, what's changed,
what are they looking like, what are they doing differently, what are the problems,
what's the risk, where's our blind risk, how do we identify that?
All of these things were just, these are the things we wrestled with every single day.
Super interesting, we found one of my first observations, this generation of candidates,
we didn't have cell phones when we went through, right?
And if you remember, you knew tomorrow's schedule at the end of the day, the day before, and
that was it.
You'd show up and you'd get the schedule.
There was a lot of uncertainty baked into our pipeline back then where you just had
to flex to the next day and understand that, well, we're not going to know and we just
have to move out.
Since then, with cell phone generation, with social media, with all these Reddit threads
and signal apps where they can hide their conversations and network that way, the candidates
had mapped out our entire curriculum and knew it down to the T and even had our instructions.
They knew that traditionally speaking, most of the evolutions we cared about were those
runs from to no courses because those are quantifiable metrics. that traditionally speaking, most of the evolutions we cared about were those runs, swims, and
o-courses because those are quantifiable metrics.
I could say, hey, this guy passed or failed.
They had started working the system against us and hacking it in a sense.
You don't blame them, right?
I mean, this is what anyone would do.
I wasn't mad at them, but we had to solve that problem.
The first one of the first real case studies that came up that was really, really interesting and
fun, first phase came to me and said, hey, sir, we got a problem.
We got these guys post-HEL week, and one of these guys is doing grinder PTs.
That's where we all do calisthenics on the pavement, the grinder, where every frog man
starts his journey.
He can't do pull-ups.
I said, what do you mean he can't do pull-ups?
He's like, yeah, he's struggling to get like two pull-ups up during the PT sessions.
Well, that's weird.
Is he injured?
No.
Well, send him to medical.
Have him check it out.
He comes back clean.
Okay.
He can't do pull-ups.
Keep an eye on this.
Let's mentor him.
Let's put him on a program.
He's post-TEL week, so we're invested in him.
Let's see what's going on here.
He goes into second phase.
Same thing I get from my second phase officer in charge.
Hey, sir, same thing.
This guy is not doing pull-ups.
It's really, really weird.
OK, well, how's he doing on the O course?
He's crushing it.
No big deal.
Huh.
That's weird.
He's gaming it.
So we say, well, let's not jump to conclusions.
Let's pulse the peer network.
Let's figure out what's going on.
So I start grabbing some candidates here and there.
Hey, what's going on with your boy that can't do pull-ups? We start pulsing the database where
we keep reviews of these guys.
And we start seeing trend lines of character on this guy
about gaming the system.
So much so that he even was telling his class, hey,
I don't care what it takes.
I'm going to get through this program.
I'm saving myself for the testable evolutions.
Even if it brings pain on the class later,
you're just going to have to deal with it.
Not exactly the kind of guy we want to roll within the teams.
So significant character flaws there.
So we realized, okay, how long has this been going on?
How many other guys are taking advantage of it?
Just not so obviously.
This one was right in our face.
And how do we solve this problem?
Back to as leaders, we have to make a decision
that will be designed to incentivize or disincentivize
a certain behavior.
We need to send a message.
And we know that they are on these network threads,
and word spreads like wildfire.
So let's send a message.
How did you find out they were in these network threads?
It's not too hard.
Yeah.
I mean, I'm kind of older.
Are you guys in them? I'm not great in social media, but I, I'm kind of older. You guys hit them?
I'm not great in social media, but I've got young instructors who are.
Oh, friend.
And they're like, oh, sir, here's what's on Reddit.
And they start pulling up and showing me.
Here's what they're saying.
No shit.
OK.
Good to know, man.
I mean, it's good tradecraft, but we got you.
Another thing they were doing, this was a funny one.
Fridays, for whatever reason over
our years in our curriculum, as it evolved in our scheduling and how we sequence it,
Fridays we had no testable evolutions.
It was all just like land portage or running with the boats on your heads down the beach
and back, which were traditionally non-testable evolutions.
It's really interesting though, every Friday morning, more so than any other day, you had
this huge
line at the medical ramp of people that all of a sudden had OUIs that couldn't participate
for an hour or two while they were getting examined by docs.
And so they'd have time out and they wouldn't have to participate in the evolution while
we had them checked and assessed.
And once they're getting a fit bill of health, okay, back into the pipe.
But that dude just missed an hour of L Lambo, but it wasn't testable.
So it's very interesting.
And we started realizing and once we started looking, we started seeing indications that
they had hacked our curriculum on our schedule and were using it against us.
We called those guys the medical ninjas.
So we said, okay, well, let's insert uncertainty back into the system.
Let's put another time devolution back onto Friday's schedule.
We didn't change the curriculum, we just changed the sequencing of it.
Boom, time devolution on Fridays. Let schedule. We didn't change the curriculum, we just changed the sequencing of it.
Boom, time devolution on Fridays, let's see what happens.
Oh, weird, the ramp shortened.
Less people started showing up for medical
because they realized I gotta be at a testable evolution
because if I don't show up for one of those,
there's a higher chance I'm gonna get dropped from training.
Ironically, this is what we talked about a little earlier,
what they failed to recognize is
the quantifiable test of evolutions,
the runsums and o-courses, we really don't care that much about.
That's, okay, you did it.
You met a physical standard that's needed.
Neat.
We actually care much more about watching you under the boat and under the log, because
that's where we see the true character.
That's where we see if you're going to be a good teammate, if you're going to be selfless
or selfish.
My CMC, Dave Hanson, used to say it well when they look at all these studies on how do we
select the right guy to come in the program to increase the chances of success through
the program.
He would always say, this is silly because how do you pre-screen for decisions they haven't
made yet?
He would say, the decision to keep your head under the boat, you can't predict that.
That's going to happen in a moment.
And it's a small decision a guy will make or a girl will make in that moment to keep
their head under the boat when it hurts.
Same thing with the shoulder under the log.
Or in any other team evolution we do where we're looking for that team ability piece,
those micro decisions become habits.
Those habits become character.
That character becomes exactly who we want on our team downrange.
Those are the people we're looking for.
And if candidates are shortchanging the system by hacking it to avoid those very evolutions,
well, I don't know what I'm getting anymore.
I can no longer assess for your character attributes because a four mile time run is
not going to tell me so much about you.
Neat, you can dig deep and run four miles fast enough on the sand.
It's like the smallest thing that I care about as a CEO, mildly interesting at best.
I want to see you perform as a team.
I want to see how you do under the boat.
I want to see even more than the physicality piece.
Who's the guy when you're losing the races that is still cracking jokes in the boat and
getting everyone to laugh and suffer well together?
I want to see
that guy. I want to see an officer, when they're down and out, somehow figure out how to motivate
that boat, even though they just got dead last and got goon squad. How do you motivate them? How do
you keep their morale up in the midst of losing and suffering, which nobody likes, pays to be a
winner? You know that. Those are the things we're looking for. And if the candidates are hacking our
system so I'm not able to even see that, well, then
they're cheating themselves first off.
But they're inserting selection error because I'm no longer getting their accurate picture.
And I say I, archivist, I'm no longer getting the accurate picture of what we need to see
out of them.
Wow.
Things have definitely evolved over there.
It's incredible.
It's super fun because you think that it's just plug and play curriculum.
Like we said earlier, I would never change a thing in the curriculum for how weak, but
it's not plug and play.
It's the human nuances and how they're navigating through our system that was the most interesting
thing to look at and deal with.
The pull-up guy back to sending a message, incentivizing or disincentivizing the right
behavior that we're in the classroom in second phase.
We said, OK, here's what we're going to do.
We're going to walk over there.
We're going to pull them out.
We're going to have the entire second phase
class on the grinder with pull-up bars ready.
And I'm going to have him mount the bar in front of his entire class.
And we're going to have him crank out pull-ups.
And I said, what's the minimum number for an enlisted guy
to test out of prep and come to Buds?
I can't remember off the top of my head what it is.
Let's say it was 11.
I said, all right, it's got to be 11 is the minimum for an enlisted guy to even
qualify to get here.
I said, OK, he's got to get 12.
Maybe, I can't remember for sure.
But that's arbitrarily what I looked at.
So we said, all right, so we told him what's going to happen.
I said, yeah, I understand you're having a pull-up problem.
Oh, yes, sir.
I said, OK, we've sent you to medical.
You're clear.
Yes, sir.
OK, what's going on? I don't know. I sent you to medical. You're clear. Yes, sir. OK. What's going on?
I don't know.
I can't explain it.
You can only do two pull-ups?
Like, hey, dude, I need you to do more pull-ups than that.
So here's what you're going to do.
You're going to mount the bar, and you're
going to knock them out.
We'll see.
I'm not going to tell you what number I have in my mind,
but you're going to get to that number.
And if you do, you can continue with your class.
Lesson learned, we're going to fall forward.
If you don't get to that number, we're
going to send you back to day one,
because you clearly cheated yourself from what this program will develop in you
if you pour into it and we need to make sure you have those things."
And he tried to explain himself away and get out of it. I said, no, I'm out the bar. Knock
him out. Entire class, entire cadre all watching. He didn't get to the number. Get back to day
one. Sent it. It was really, really hard decision to make.
It broke my heart, because I really
was hoping that he would knock it out
and we could all learn and fall forward through this.
And like, hey, man, don't do that.
Don't try to pull that here.
This is Naval Special Warfare.
Nobody gets by in our community by doing the minimum.
Absolutely not.
That's only everything we've talked about up until now,
being surrounded by high performers who are constantly
looking to get better,
not take shortcuts like that.
You will not fit in in our community.
You are incompatible unless your character's malleable.
So show me it's malleable.
I'll send you back to day one
and you can show me it's malleable.
That's the only time I ever sent a guy back to day one.
Every time we've remediated under my command,
it was always for a purpose.
It was to develop something that was lacking.
And you don't do that by going back to day one, but in this case we needed to
because he had cheated himself and he had cheated our program.
Now that said, I pulled him aside numerous times as he went back through
and said, hey, I need you to make sure you know I'm rooting for you.
This was not me being malicious. This is me providing you an opportunity
because you sure changed yourself.
You need to show us that you can do this.
So we mentored him through it.
It wasn't just back to positively affirm, right?
And when I saw things that he did,
I would positively affirm him
in front of his other peers and his cadre.
Case in point, this was a great one.
He made it back through Hellwick a second time.
He's hard as nails, super hard dude. We get back to second phase. He's in the same classroom evolution from the first time where
we pulled him out and had him reset. So what we do this time, same thing, time for redemption.
So we pulled him out to the grinder, but this time was different. This time, and I told him,
I'm going to mount the bar with you and your second phase OIC is going to mount it with you.
And we're going to do pull-ups together, all three of us, because I'm going to mount the bar with you, and your second phase OIC is going to mount it with you. And we're going to do pull-ups together, all three of us, because I'm going to reinforce
that whatever we expect of our candidates, we expect of ourselves as cadre as well.
And so the three of us knocked out pull-ups until we all fell off the bar.
It was fantastic.
I lost, by the way.
But I think I still got 20, which wasn't so bad for a 45-year-old dude.
But here's the beautiful thing too.
He got second.
My second phase OIC got first.
And this is a prior enlisted officer who's only a few years older than me.
And it was such a powerful leadership vignette for us to reinforce to everybody.
The standard's the standard.
I expected of me as I expected of you.
I'm willing to humiliate myself and lose because the value is in the effort and the value is
in showing that I hold myself to the standard still.
And you got to see as a young buck, there's still older dudes who are beat down, have
had surgeries and are still going to beat you.
So stay hungry.
Never stop.
It was an incredible moment. Full circle.
Wow. He made it. No. He didn't. He didn't. Turns out his character hadn't really
developed that much. It was super tragic. He actually, he developed a little
bit more. We had some more wins of them over the time. And in the end it wasn't
enough. And I had to drop from them over the time. And in the end, it wasn't enough.
And I had to drop from training near the end.
It was really heartbreaking for me,
because more than anyone else, I poured time and energy
into this guy.
I wrote sit reps about him.
They were going to like, the Senate
was asking questions about how you guys assess and select
for character.
We were using him as a vignette to show, hey,
this is a human experiment to see
how malleable a character can be.
And he made gains, but not enough.
And in the end, we ended up dropping him.
And I'm thankful we did.
We dodged a bullet.
He exposed himself.
And we'll get to this in a little bit.
He's one of the ones that wrote false testimony about me and my command in the later investigation.
And I've since filed allegations of perjury against him for doing so because I have his
written testimony from before and what he wrote, which completely contradict each other.
So knowingly lied out of vindictiveness because he didn't make it through our program is my
assumption.
Good thing he's not in the teams.
Yeah, no kidding.
You just say the Senate is, I mean, how involved is the Senate and Congress in training?
We get RFIs all the time, request for information all the time, all the time.
People are interested in BUDs.
People are interested in what we do.
I'd offer beyond even that, when Wyman Howard took now retired, Admiral Howard took command
of WarCom, he drove really hard this idea of cognitive character and
leadership attributes.
And he was really pressing in on how we select and assess at the training level and all the
way into serious and significant leadership opportunities down the road.
So this was one of his like, this was his baby he was running out with.
And so that provoked questions and people saying, well, what are you guys doing?
And how are you doing it? which trickles down to us.
How are you doing it at the base level right at the beginning where it starts?
So we were constantly entertaining questions and even key leader engagements where people
would come and want to know, what are you looking for and how do you look for it?
How do you select and assess for these things and how do you make those decisions?
Every decision we made on a candidate,
whether they state or were kicked out of our program,
was incredibly methodical and deliberate.
We did a phase board where they looked at all the data
and information available and made a recommendation.
Then an independent training board convened different people
now to look at the same problem to make sure
reducing any kind of bias that might be just
baked into the system.
Then both of those independent boards would come to me with their recommendations
and I would make an independent decision based off of all of that.
And even at that point, we'd bring the dude in and let him speak for himself.
Hey, man, walk me through your thought process.
Why'd you fail here?
What happened?
Are you worthy of another shot or not?
Here's the recommendations I have.
It was easy when they both agreed.
Drop, drop, okay, usually pretty easy.
It got difficult when one wanted to keep them,
one wanted to drop them.
I had to arbitrate and make the ultimate decision.
But context always matters.
And we looked at every single candidate independently
of the others and assessed who you are as a person,
what are the character attributes,
and are you trainable, are you malleable,
are you someone who has potential to be who we want you to be, who we need you to be?
Every single one, context always matters.
Wow.
I didn't realize how much oversight there is
or how involved the government is, Congress, the Senate,
all that.
That's fascinating to hear about.
People are very interested in BUDs because it's like we've talked about, it's interesting.
You see some fascinating things there.
This was also where going back to my discussions about Jordan Peterson's concept of becoming
a monster who chooses not to do monstrous things.
This became very important for me as a commanding officer
as we sat down and looked at our curriculum and said,
hey, if all we're doing is teaching capability
by executing our curriculum,
then we're potentially making a bunch of monsters.
We are producing monsters.
That's a lot of risk.
How do we teach those monsters now not to be monstrous?
How do we teach them that the capability we're giving them
by teaching them to shoot, move, and communicate,
the need to bridle that and pull it back and show restraint?
We use things like Ed Byers' Medal of Honor Citation
to talk about that, a man who can turn it up
and turn it down at a moment's notice,
who can show lethality and restraint and tender care
all within about a 10 second period.
That's what we expect in Naval Special Warfare.
We started having our instructors press in and mentor
and have discussions about what they've seen
in difficult decisions and what it means to be a SEAL or SWIC,
not just what it means to be a capable operator.
That's easy.
We can teach almost anyone to be an operator.
How do we teach you to be what our nation expects
and needs us to be?
How do you live up to our predecessors' expectations of us,
those who handed us the baton, those who built this community
from when it started and handed it off to us?
We've made it better.
How do we guarantee you will make it better
when we give it to you?
These are the things we talked about all the time, all the time.
And whenever we would see someone positively do something
that helped in that realm, we would reaffirm them and reinforce this is precisely what we're looking for.
Open all hands calls, giving out commander's coins or even awards to guys. This is exactly
what we're looking for. You are exactly who we're looking for. Small things. Small things. One
gate guard stopped a Chinese foreign national from wandering in the back beach gate. You remember
the old beach gate. Small thing, but he had the courage to like, hey,
what's going on here?
Who are you?
And that's an awkward scenario.
Someone walks in like they know what they're doing.
Takes a little bit of courage to step forward
and ask a question, especially as a Buds candidate who's
like, you're afraid of pissing off the wrong person.
This dude had the courage to do it.
Pulled this person aside, ended up detaining him, brought MPs,
arrested her, everything,
had a Chinese passport.
Like, dude, that was fantastic.
Good for you, 18-year-old sailor.
So we pulled that dude up in front of everybody.
Commander's coin.
This is exactly the kind of person we need as teammates that has the courage to do something
like that.
I don't know if he made it or not.
But those are the little things we were looking to affirm to show people.
That's a small example.
We've got hundreds of them out there, but a
lot of fun to start dialing in those attributes and then positively reinforcing what we were looking for.
And that's great thinking. Was that happening before you arrived?
It's tough to say. I think it depends is probably the answer. I don't know how. Yes and no.
I think every CEO that's important to them,
how they tackle the problem is probably different
in how we execute getting after those things.
My predecessor turned over a great command to me, for sure.
For sure.
But like anyone, we always look to take
what the guy did before us and make it better.
And I hope that's what we all aspire to do and do.
It doesn't mean they were not running a great command.
It just means, yeah, I'm building off
of the legacy you left me.
And I hope that the guy behind me does even better.
How did you deal with the whole COVID situation?
Man, that was incredibly difficult.
We were, like I said, nonstop learning environment, policies and
nav admins were coming out
that were directing us to do things in a certain way, which
were foolish.
For instance, mask policies.
All right, everyone else wear masks.
No questions.
OK.
I'm down at the pool, and I see our entire class of 200
candidates get in the water because they
messed something up.
So they get in the water to get wet.
They get out.
They get in formation to run to the next evolution.
They all pull out wet, white cotton masks,
put them on, and start running, aspirating moisture
into their lungs as they run.
I'm like, you've got to be freaking kidding me.
We are going to get kids with pneumonia
long before COVID is a problem here,
because we're doing something that
makes absolutely zero sense in our training environment.
So immediately, we're running waivers up the chain of command.
Hey, we need a mask waiver policy.
This is not going to work here if we're going to continue training.
Close contacts.
Hey, follow the CDC guidance.
Okay.
Well, then if I follow the CDC guidance and this guy gets COVID, the entire class is a
close contact.
Well, can you isolate them?
No.
Everything is based upon teamwork, under the boat together, under the log together.
We can't isolate them from each other.
So we were constantly having to figure out how to navigate policies for the masses, which
didn't apply to what we were doing and in direct conflict with how do you train through
COVID when the policies are keeping you from doing it.
We were seeing strange things like, well, even once we reduced
down to, OK, we'll determine what a close contact is, which
is a little different, and we'll find some common ground there
to at least be able to train through this.
But then close contacts would get polled.
And because of all the weird decision making that was going
on, this guy would test negative.
But then they would say, well, yeah,
but he's presumed positive because there's a close contact.
Okay, but he's got no symptoms.
He wants to keep training and he tested negative,
but he just happened to be in the same room as the other guy.
I mean, you tell me I can't train him?
Well, yeah, because he's presumed positive.
So the whole narrative of like follow the science,
like, well, you're actually telling me to go opposite
of what the science is showing.
He's pretty clean.
And if he starts to show symptoms, we can pull him then, but everything was about trying
to reduce that transmissibility.
But we weren't seeing a lot of it.
We weren't seeing a lot of it.
The classes were managing it well.
Even when we'd have outbreaks, they managed it well.
Not a lot of these guys were really going down hard.
Every once in a while you'd have one.
But we were just constantly chasing our tails on trying to navigate through the policies
with exceptions to policy and waivers.
Yet sometimes I'd pull a guy, have to pull him.
We did a massive administrative report on why we had to pull him all by their policies.
So it's like, I'm following your pulse and I have to justify to you how I'm following
your policy and why I'm following your policy.
In the meantime, he can't train.
And there's a certain amount of time where if he exceeds that time out of training, while
we're waiting for the waiver
or the exception to come through,
it's too late and now we've got to roll him again.
And you and I both know every time you roll a guy in training,
especially pre-hell week, decreases his chances for success.
Is there that much longer, that much more beat down,
that much more depressed,
that much more probability of having an injury
or something like that?
So statistically speaking, you significantly reduce success
every time you have to roll a guy.
There's the there's the anomalies.
One guy, one guy was I felt so bad for this dude.
Hard as nails.
He got rolled, I think it was two times the Friday before Hell Week.
So he goes through first phase all the way to the Friday before his roommate
pops positive for Covid. So he goes through first phase all the way to the Friday before his roommate pops positive for COVID.
So we had to roll him.
So he's sitting up in the building,
watching his class do breakout, almost there.
So I roll him back to day one, bomber, starts over,
gets all the way there.
We do another COVID test right before Hell Week starts.
He pops positive.
He has no symptoms, feels great.
He's like, sir, I'm not COVID positive. All the no symptoms. It feels great. He's like, sir,
I'm not COVID positive. All the science was starting to show
that might be just dead cells sloughing off at the time. So
we're like, hey, let's run a waiver. Let's see if we can get
him into Halloween tonight. Nope, roll him. Okay, sorry,
dude. Roll him back to day one. Third time's a charm. He did it.
He made it through and graduated hard as nails like,
third time's a charm. He did it. He made it through and graduated hard as nails. Like, total stud. But that's an anomaly. Like that's, you know, that's not normal.
Yeah. That's not normal. Now I love those dudes and they're like, they're the best. You're like,
galley dude. Like I can learn just watching how tough you are. But you can't expect that of
everyone. And so I know we were losing candidates regularly
because of this cycle of roles we had to endure.
How long did that last before it kind of went back to normal?
My whole tour.
The whole tour?
The whole tour.
And there were other variables.
We really pressed in and we're looking at this attrition
problem.
We dove in hard.
I even predicted it early on to some degree,
not to the degree we saw, but we, I mentioned
mini buds earlier, we had to do a virtual cyber so as it was called the seal officer
assessment and selection where we wanted to bring these guys out and watch them in person
before we selected that officer cohort.
But we had to do it virtually because it got shut down for COVID.
So we sat in the room and I said, hey, everyone recognizes this officer cohort.
We're baking in selection error right now, which means we're going to pick the wrong
guys because we haven't seen them here.
We don't know what they really are, how they do under the boat as a leader.
That means we're going to have higher attrition this year in our officer cohort, which you
and I both know whenever you have that, when a leader quits, other people will follow
every single time.
There's always a surge of followers when one of the leaders of a class quits.
And so statistically and anecdotally, we know that if more officers are going to quit, more
enlists are going to quit, which means we're going to have higher attrition this coming
season.
I said that a month into my commanding officer tour and everyone in the room nodded, thumbs
up, we agree, makes sense.
Okay.
So we know what we're buying.
You've mentioned this attrition problem a couple different times now.
I mean, was it, was the attrition rate going up?
Oh yeah.
It was.
Yeah.
Yeah.
Our numbers were starting to climb as far as our attrition numbers were climbing, which
is the same
thing as saying our success was on a downward spiral. I think what me and you around that
time frame went through, Buds, what was it, like, what, 85%? Attrition rate? Yeah. Generally, they
will say anywhere between 20% to 30% success on average, some higher, some lower. But that's
generally over the 50-year span we've been doing this,
that is generally what you can expect in any kind of given year of average.
So what had it increased to?
It's a great question.
It depends.
I will wait to get into that for our next session because that's a relevant piece that
we need to talk about.
What I'd offer is that problem, the attrition problem,
got conflated inappropriately with Kyle Mullen's death later.
And people started looking at it and then
disingenuously looking at the data
and making decisions about causality
that if you broke it down into the actual
variables and looked at it holistically, you would see what I'm going to show you.
But they went with the simple solution of, aha, attrition was higher when you were there,
therefore that means you guys must have just been indiscriminately ramping up training,
which increases risk, which is directly related to why Cal Moollin died, which is just not true.
The facts actually show completely otherwise, but that's the easy narrative.
And we'll talk about that here in a little bit, a little more.
Do you want to talk about risk management for a little bit?
Yeah, that's a great question.
Yeah, I do.
Thank you.
That's not a question, but I guess it is. Risk management.
One of the biggest challenges in any organization I've found with risk management is complacency
and the risk of complacency.
And especially when you're talking
about a repeatable curriculum, where we're cutting and pasting
every seven weeks a new class and we're
executing the same curriculum, that can be very boring
as it's repetitive.
And boring work breeds complacency because people get lazy and realize, I can do this
I've done it a million times.
So this comes back to the human element.
And we talked about this with our cadre all the time on the curriculum is the curriculum.
That's the easy part of what we do.
How do you develop their character?
How do you talk about attributes?
How do you look for and tease out and reaffirm
what we want and then show people this is also not what we want back to incentivizing
and disincentivizing? That's the fun part. The other fun part is where are we accepting
blind risk where we didn't quite realize it because we're just doing something on repeat
and not thinking through it? I would always ask my officers, hey, how many of you ever printed out an old ORM sheet,
operational risk management sheet,
and just cut and pasted the last guy's work,
maybe changed a few variables, put your name on it,
and then pushed it up the chain to get signed
because you now convinced somebody
that what was once high risk is now medium risk.
And you didn't really think about it much.
It became a paperwork drill.
It became an approval process drill.
Every time I ask that question, every single hand comes up in a non-disclosure environment
where people aren't going to be able to comment on that.
I said, yeah, I know that happens.
That's human nature.
Oftentimes what was a good idea when we turn into a military process or procedure, it can
subvert the very idea that was so good in the beginning.
Great, let's talk about risk.
Let's quantify it.
Let's figure out how to think about it.
Let's think about how to mitigate it,
is the term that we use in the military.
But then what it turns into is people that are like, galley,
this is just another drill.
I've got to print, sign, stamp this thing, and move on
so I can actually do my job.
And so you end up creating complacency and blind risk
in doing that.
You're no longer thinking about risk.
You've actually disincentivized them thinking about risk.
I'd offer even worse, even worse, this notion of mitigating risk.
I would talk to my officers all the time and say, I don't like the term mitigating risk
because it implies that you took something high risk and made it medium risk.
We're taking these candidates off the street.
A couple months ago, they were civilians,
and we're putting them through some of the most
physically arduous training in the world.
What's not high risk about that?
In what world do we live in that you can convince me
that you mitigated that down to medium risk?
Absolutely not.
It's high risk.
It's always high risk.
I don't wanna hear you talk about mitigating it
or buying it down. I think those are foolish notions, and they breed more complacency and high risk. It's always high risk. I don't want to hear you talk about mitigating it or buying it down
I think those are foolish notions and they breed more complacency and blind risk
Instead I want to hear you convince me why you can manage such high risk
how you manage such high risk because you're such professionals because you've done your emergency procedures because you're
coordinating and collaborating with metal because you
Have the conversation with me about how you manage risk effectively, not mitigate it or buy it down for me.
You didn't buy down my risk.
You didn't buy down any of this risk.
It's still high risk.
And I'd offer even more than that.
I read a book about this years ago, and I've used it in almost every tour I've had since
then.
Back to the slide for life example we talked about earlier at breakfast.
So for the audience out there, our obstacle course includes a slide for life.
It's a series of platforms where you climb up and you're about 30 feet off the deck and
there's this rope that comes down and candidates have to inchworm their way down the rope hanging
from it.
And by the time they get there, their forearms are smoked.
So at some point, every once in a while, someone's forearms give out and they
lawn dart headfirst into the sand and it's a catastrophic injury. It's very, very rare, but when it happens, it's catastrophic. So at some point, someone said, let's mitigate this risk.
Let's buy down this risk. Okay. So they put a net below the rope. So yes, you bought down some risk
in a sense, in theory. But what ended up happening was, as we discussed, more people started falling.
So we increased the rate of failure.
And so what we learned there was, as an organization, in the effort to buy down the risk, all we
really did was transfer it somewhere else.
Because now, the candidates weren't able to push themselves past what they thought was
their perceived failure.
They just fell because we provided them the net.
So I think I'm tired, so I fell.
Whereas before, Moore would say, I think I'm tired, but turns out my life's at stake.
I have a little bit more in the tank.
I guess I can go further than I thought.
So we drove human performance, which ends up helping us manage risk later.
Versus if we try to mitigate it right now with a safety measure that sabotages our desire to build human
performance, well, that just gets deferred later and we'll see it somewhere else, but
it'd be impossible to draw a causality back to this net.
But we know philosophically, yeah, that's a risk right there.
The net, instead of mitigating risk, actually increases risk because now I don't know where
it's going to go.
But it's going to go somewhere and we will see it manifest later.
It's a small example.
We have to be careful not to make it bigger, but philosophically, it's indicative of what
could become a systemic problem in an organization if we become so safety conscious and consumed
with mitigating risk that we're actually just deferring it to somewhere else for someone
else.
I would offer, as we did with the Slide for Life, sometimes, you have to be careful here,
you can't be reckless, but sometimes it's more appropriate to deliberately increase
risk in order to drive human performance to therefore manage risk better.
And that's what we see in a micro example of the Slide for Life.
And I can give you 100 other examples operationally where that absolutely makes sense.
Makes sense to me.
It's tough though.
Yeah.
Because no one likes to see a guy fall.
And we all wanna put a measure in place
to prevent that from ever happening
because that should never happen.
Yeah, it's terrible, it's tragic.
Was it, is this, is this, I mean,
how long has this been happening about,
I mean, how long did we go without a net?
I mean, ages.
We don't have any more.
This happened years and years and years ago.
And thankfully, the leaders were in charge at the time,
predated me by far, said,
hey, we're not doing a net because we see what's going on
and we don't want that, so take the net out.
So it was only there for a short season.
Thankfully, those people at that time had the ability to recognize what was going on.
Now, I may be putting words in their mouth.
I wasn't there.
But it's a great example that is absolutely true.
With other examples of trying to mitigate risk by...
Sure.
When did this all start happening, I guess is what I'm...
I think it's American society, right?
It's this safety conscious society.
I'll give you a real world example.
I did a hostage rescue blowout where we jumped out of a C-17 into the Indian Ocean with boats,
got on board the USS Enterprise, like the most insane high risk thing in the world.
On the Enterprise, my old friend was a Hornet pilot at the time. So we're walking around and he's showing me his jet pilot.
We were like Academy roommates from back in the day.
He's showing me his jet with his name on it.
I'm like, wow, this is amazing.
I'm showing him our boats.
We're climbing up in our boats.
And we finish up and I jump off the boat, like maybe from like, I mean, maybe a little
higher than this chair to the ground.
Just hop off the boat onto the ground.
And he gasps.
Because we're out on the deck of the Enterprise and the ground. And he gasps.
Because we're out on the deck of the Enterprise, and the flag tower is right over here.
And I was like, what just happened?
He goes, I guarantee you, every single officer up there
is watching us right now.
And they all just about had a heart attack
when you jumped off to the deck.
I'm like, did you see us jump out of the sky a couple hours
ago?
What was so bad about what I just did?
He's like, it's hard to explain,
but safety conscious, you know, risk mitigation,
like we can't do those kinds of things here.
They will absolutely, he's like,
you'll probably not get talked to
because they know who you guys are,
but like, if I did something like that,
he's like, oh, stand by, man.
I'm like, you launch and recover your Super Hornet
on this deck and they get nervous
when you jump four feet onto the deck?
Why?
I don't know.
I mean, those are interesting kind of cultural insights
into society and our this obsession
we kind of have right now.
I'm speaking generally, of course,
but this obsession we have with making things safe, safe.
When did you notice, I mean, was this happening
on a smaller scale when we were going through training?
I don't think so.
When did you notice it?
I mean, moments like that, like halfway through my career,
you start seeing things, you're like, huh, that's weird.
I mean, I'm all about managing risk
and I'm all about doing incredibly dangerous things,
doing them well and reliably well,
but back to like safety, like, ah,
I think we've abused that word.
I think it's a good thing to try to be safe, I guess,
but I think we've abused it so much
that it's become this dirty concept of, no, man, you
don't get both worlds to some degree.
You don't get to build SEALs and SWICs and warfighters and super hornet pilots and expect
them to go do this incredibly difficult high risk stuff by saying, we're going to be so
safety conscious that we're going to mitigate and buy down risk to zero.
Because back to my philosophical point, no, you're just deferring it to somewhere else.
Wow.
I'm not saying be reckless.
And that's where we have to be careful.
It's not a pendulum.
It's not one way or another.
Jumping four feet off a chair isn't reckless.
I mean, I've seen parents that act like this with their kids.
And you see what their kids turn out to be.
It's a fucking disaster.
Speaking of kids, we see that all over the place now, right?
Like, don't climb that tree.
That's not safe.
What?
Or like if it's on city property, God forbid, you know?
I put a zip line on our front driveway
across the sidewalk between two trees
and kids are out there having a great time.
City came by like, it's too much liability.
Somebody could get hurt.
This is not safe.
We need you to take it down.
What?
Whoa.
I mean, I kind of understand from a legal perspective, but if we're letting lawyers
inform our decisions to the point where they're trying to buy down legal risk, I understand,
but that is a piece of advice that decision makers should consider when making decisions.
But for God's sakes, like let kids climb trees,
some of them are gonna fall.
Some of them are gonna break an arm of once in a while.
Payne is a powerful teacher,
and what you gain from those experiences,
they will learn way better than you teaching them
about climbing a tree, but not letting them do it.
you teaching them about climbing a tree, but not letting them do it.
Wow.
I don't know.
I just, I don't know what to say to that.
I think it's a problem.
Yeah, I think you're right.
But why don't wanna go too much farther in
unless there's something else you wanna cover.
I know we gotta get the attorneys in here before we get into Kyle Mullen and everything that happened after
that.
Yeah. I think that's the majority of it. I think that's the majority of it. That's probably
a good pause point for us to bring them in and take it to the next level of discussion.
Perfect.
Yeah.
Let's take a break.
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All right, Brad, we're back from the break.
We're going to get into Kyle Mullen's death and all the controversy and everything that's
happening around and encompassing that.
And I realize it's a very sensitive subject.
So you brought your attorneys on.
I'll introduce them real quick.
If you guys want to give us some background on yourself, that'd be great.
Jason Warren.
Wear him. Wear him.
Wear him.
Yeah, so I was a Marine Corps judge advocate
for many, many years, probably 12 active in total.
And I've since transitioned into civilian practice,
where I take primarily military, criminal,
and national security cases.
And Davis Yonkst.
Yonkst. Yonkst. Yonkst.
Yonkst.
Yonkst.
Yeah, so I was in law school when 9-11 happened, so I was a true believer back then.
So I joined the Air Force, applied to the JAG Corps, did that active duty for 11 years,
prosecutor, defense counsel.
Last job I was chief of the military justice division at the Air Force JAG school.
Left active duty after I'd kind of done every job I wanted to do and did the reserve thing
So I did guard for a couple years and then retired as a lieutenant colonel from Air Force Reserve in December of 2022
Thank you. Thank you
alright, Brad
Why this happened a couple years ago and my question is, why are you just now
kind of coming out about this?
Yeah.
It's a good question.
It's been almost two and a half years since Kyle died.
And in some ways, enough is enough.
It's time for the truth to come out.
When I first started taking steps toward this,
not knowing where it would take us,
I wrote, what I stand to gain in this I don't
want, what I stand to lose I desperately wish to keep.
What I meant by that is, try to articulate the risk of someone who's active duty in the
special operations community coming forward into the public eye.
As you know, one of our tenants is a quiet professional.
I risk a lot here.
I risk a lot to come forward.
No matter what my reasons are, I think
there will be people within my community that misinterpret
those and or look poorly upon this decision.
But to me, it's worth coming out for.
If I waited until it was all done,
if I waited until I was out of the Navy
to then come forward, well, then there's no risk to me.
But then people might argue,
well, that's totally self-serving then.
You're just trying to get in the limelight.
We talked about it earlier with Buds 234.
We were thrust into the limelight then, didn't want it.
I've been thrust into the limelight now, I didn't want it.
By coming forward now while I'm still active duty,
I'm risking a lot.
I'm risking a lot and I'm risking a lot.
What are you risking?
Well, it's a great question.
There's a very thin razor's edge to what an active duty service member can do in the public
press.
We have the freedom of speech, but there are left and right constraints that keep us very,
very tight.
We volunteer for that.
I'm a volunteer in the United States Armed Forces.
But that gives us very tight left and right lane ropes
to stay within, which is why I've got two lawyers on either side,
to help make sure I stay there.
I'll balance between both of them here as we go.
So there's a lot of risk that I misstep, especially in an interview like this,
where it's very freeform, very long duration.
It's a tell all.
How do I tell all without walking myself into more trouble, more reprisal?
And that's the terrain I'm trying to navigate.
But I think the topic is big enough and worthy enough of that risk.
The other day I was talking with a retired master chief and above him was a Trident on
the wall and it said, quiet professional.
And he asked, hey, how you doing?
I said, you know, highs and lows, keeping my head above water.
I said, I'm about to violate that principle again.
I said, I know how a lot of our community feels about that.
They've expressed that to me already, and this is going to be bigger.
And he paused and he looked at me and he said, yeah, but they picked a fight with you.
And we never back down from a fight.
I said, that's a good point.
When we have two conflicting principles,
quiet professional or never backing down from a fight
or never being out of a fight,
at some point we have to prioritize those principles
into a hierarchy and sometimes compromise one for the other.
And I think it's appropriate for me to compromise
being a silent professional right now,
even though I've shown a career of being in the shadows and quiet, for why we're going to
come forward and what we're going to say.
It's important and it's been suppressed.
And that's been an injustice, not just for the Mullen family, for my cadre who were vilified,
for medical professionals who were vilified, and for me personally and my family.
And enough's enough. Two and a half years is a long time. Frame it this way, if having been an operator,
if someone dropped you off in the Khorngal Valley, one of the most dangerous valleys in
the history of Afghanistan, without any weapons, and a small team behind you without any weapons
said, hey, good luck to you. Do your best here. Trust the process.
But by the way, don't pick up that one gun that's over there.
You can do anything but use that.
And we're going to culturally pressure
you not to use that gun.
And that gun was the media.
That was the press.
That was these kinds of forums.
We're going to pick up that gun pretty fast
to defend the people that are entrusted to your care.
That's what I'm doing.
I'm picking up a weapon that is typically not looked highly upon within the United States
military.
And I did it begrudgingly, but I did it because I was thrust in this battlefield and never
wanted to be here.
So okay, let's fight.
What specifically, I mean, we had spoken at breakfast, what specifically do you stand, could you possibly lose by coming out about this and
exposing the truth?
Well, I mean, anything's on the table.
They could take me to a Trident Review Board and try to take my seal bird.
They could convene an administrative board and try to take some of my pension, my retirement,
and they could try to demote me.
There's really the sky's the limit and it could be subjective based upon someone's interpretation of, did I cross lines here?
And there are some people, like I said, that would argue simply by being here, I've crossed
lines.
And so there may be people that hunt for those reasons.
I'm willing to risk it.
Do you have any hints of those type of repercussions?
Not, well, I have hints of reprisals, yes.
Not even hints.
I have evidence of reprisals, yes. Not even hints, I have evidence of reprisal.
As far as specifically because I went to the press, tough to say.
I'd be speculating if I try to draw a causal line there, but yeah.
What are you hoping to accomplish out of this interview?
I'm hoping to correct the truth record.
And I'm hoping that we can right some wrongs, because what I have noticed is that when an untruth
is allowed to perpetuate, even at a very small level,
even for the right reasons, seemingly at first,
it can grow into something that is manifested later
as institutional deception.
And that can rot the organization from the inside out
when we say we have principles,
like honor, courage, and commitment.
When we say things like the seal ethos matter, well, then they have to matter.
And the principles those are founded upon, we have to adhere to.
When we don't, well, then the very symbol that's supposed to represent those values
and those principles becomes cheap, stamped metal, something you can just buy.
I won't tolerate that.
And I won't tolerate people entrusted to my care being vilified due to lies, due to untruths.
Is there a target audience that you're trying to reach?
Specifically, yes.
We are trying to gain congressional momentum and we need Congress to exercise its authority over the United States Navy and mandate punitive letters of reprimand
and other measures that they see fit to correct wrongs that were perpetuated by senior people.
We are trying to do that by appealing to their constituents.
Our hope coming out of this is that people hear this message, are rightly frustrated
with it because, and we'll get to this in a minute, the US taxpayer is now a stakeholder
in this story.
I know we've watched it from a distance as the American public and we've been interested
in the news and it's interesting, SEAL scandals are interesting, but they are now stakeholders.
They should care.
And we'll get to why in a little bit here.
So if they hear this message and they decide they care enough, we're hoping they contact their congressmen and their senators and then they
can start pressuring the United States Navy to start owning up to what needs to happen here.
We'll try to get it there. Let's start with the day Kyle died. How did you hear about it?
What was the experience? Heavy day. Heavy day.
As we discussed, I've lost a lot of friends in combat, but none necessarily under my command
or under my leadership.
Let me start with, in the United States Navy, a commanding officer accepts total responsibility
for his command.
And I absolutely do that.
I accept total responsibility for my time at BTC.
With that is the heavy burden of when we lose a life that happened on my watch.
So the way it happened, we finished Hell Week.
Actually, let me rewind the clock just a little bit.
We started, I've talked to you about some of our struggles through COVID, administrative
policy procedures.
We started hearing rumors a couple of weeks before Kyle died of potential performance
enhancing drugs going on in the candidate population.
This has been a problem really in any industry that values physical performance.
You see it in the professional sports industry all the time.
We saw this at Buds before I was there as an exo, in fact.
I showed up right after a recent steroid scandal broke.
Really since then, so now for over a decade, we've been asking as Naval Special Warfare
for authorities and resources to test for performance-hancing drugs.
The normal urinalysis that we test for drugs doesn't screen for these things.
It does the normal, the street drugs, the heroin, meth, coke,
all those things.
And so while PEDs have been prohibited as a policy,
we never had the mechanisms to actually reinforce it
with a deterrent test.
All we really had was tough talk.
Don't do this.
You better not do it.
And educational piece.
We would educate the candidates on this is why this
isn't healthy for you.
We would always take it to another level level too. We made every single candidate that came to
Bud's or Swick School sign an agreement that you're not going to do any of these things.
Every single candidate signs it and I sign every single one as well. So we have those
on file. It's a written agreement. It's kind of silly because you shouldn't need to have
a written agreement about what's already prohibited and you shouldn't be doing in the United States
Navy anyway, but we did it.
We went that extra step to make sure these people know, hey, this is not healthy here.
When we are putting you through what we're about to put you through, we need to understand
the full clinical picture of what's going on inside your body, because we might have
a medical emergency, and our corpsmen are some of the best in the world, and our doctors
are absolutely phenomenal.
But if they don't understand what's going on
and what's chemically inside your body,
they might treat you with something
which could contraindicate what they're actually
trying to solve and create even more problems.
This is a huge risk for what we're
about to put you through.
You don't need anything other than good, clean chow,
icing your knees, and hydrate, just like you and I
were taught back in the day.
So when we started hearing indications that there might be some PEDs going on,
there were just rumors.
And like I've kind of talked to you a little bit about, we hear rumors all the time.
That doesn't mean you have to act yet.
You have to figure out, well, what's the scope of the problem?
What are we really looking at here?
So we started pressing in, trying to figure that out.
We had meetings.
Hey, we have their rooms.
We search the rooms all the time.
We don't really find much.
But back to this generation understanding how to be a little bit more crafty on some
things, they probably have some other avenues.
I asked, can we search vehicles?
Because as of now, we hadn't been allowed to.
And we suspected if they're bringing these things onto the base, they're probably hiding
them in their vehicles.
Legal advisors at the time told us, no, you can't do that.
I've since found out that's incorrect advice.
We can actually inspect vehicles.
We cannot search.
It's a bit of a semantics issue, but we were never advised to that.
We were just told, no, you can't.
So we said, all right, well, let's bring in drug sniffing dogs because even though we
found out they can't detect these types of drugs, well, that's at least a deterrent value
to show the candidates we mean business about this stuff,
and we're on the prowl.
We even entertain the idea of bringing in a recent graduate,
reinserting him in the pipeline as a student slash spy,
and having him blow out the network
and figure out where they're getting these things,
how they're getting it, and how we could actually
get after their supply chain and add more deterrent value.
So we were-
Was that ever implemented?
No, no.
We were discussing all those things with legal advice.
So this really was a problem.
Yes.
I mean, if you're going to measures to insert a spy,
I mean, what kind of drugs,
what kind of performance enhancing drugs are you finding specifically?
So we didn't know yet, because we weren't really
finding anything yet.
We had some weird indications of these offbeat things
you can buy at GNC, but so far those
were more couched as supplements at the time.
So we weren't seeing anything heavy yet.
So we had reason to be concerned.
But again, we didn't have no smoking gun yet for us
to really understand the scope of what's
going on.
But the rumors were starting to get a little bit more specific to where, OK, this is more
than just a rumor.
We might actually have a problem we need to start digging in for.
Where were the rumors coming from?
Interesting.
A prior, actually one of my old instructors from when I went through Bud's, still active
duty and was out on the beach a couple hundred yards down the way. And a failed candidate happened to strike up a
conversation with him and said, hey, by the way, there's a PED problem amongst the candidates.
We've heard that before. So the instructor, the retired or older instructor was not really
that wowed at first, but then the candidate provided some weird specifics like, hey,
there's a guy that apparently comes from off base.
The candidates will escort him on base.
He's got a Pelican case full of drugs, line guys up, injects them, buttons it all up and
off he's off the base and no one's the wiser and there's no evidence of what went down.
That was some pretty specific intel, which made me think, all right, there's probably
a problem here.
That's not just I heard something.
So we had a lot of construction going on at the time,
massive risk.
We brought that up numerous times
because all the camera systems were down.
So we couldn't actually get any information
on verifying if this guy was, in fact, real
or if this was, again, just a rumor three times removed that had no merit
to it.
So the cameras are down?
Oh, everything was down.
Yeah.
Yeah.
Most of the barracks are under construction.
All the buildings are under construction.
It was a massive facelift for the entire compound.
They're removing all the SEAL teams down further south and this was all being redone to be
strictly training up where historically we knew where they all of SW existed. Okay. Yeah. Yeah. So very hard, very hard problem.
And go ahead. It's important to understand the legal environment or
kind of tenuous legal environment was placed in through the advice of the
command judge advocates at the time. The Pat response of no, you cannot, quote,
search vehicles is a correct one under the law
unless you have probable cause for a search.
That is a quest for evidence.
What he was asking was how do I stop drugs
coming into my program?
How do I stop drugs coming into my base?
And I mean, everyone who's ever been on base anywhere
knows that at the base gate,
it's just like it's the same border rule
as if somebody's coming across the border, right?
They can absolutely inspect any and everyone
who comes through there.
It just isn't any targeted quest for evidence.
So as we first started to peel this onion
and I realized where he was operating,
his primary tool
that every commander has was removed through junior judge advocates failures to understand
distinctions that are clear and understood by everyone who's ever gone through naval justice
school. So I mean step one, I consider that malpractice, right? And he's given malpractice-based advice
and now told to operate in an environment
where his totally appropriate and necessary tools
are taken out of his hand.
It's very interesting juxtaposition
because through this entire process,
which will be revealed here as we tell the story more,
that's the only true causal line that I can draw that says if we had had that authority,
we would have searched those cars, we would have found these drugs, we would have stopped
Hell Week immediately with what we found, which we'll talk about in a second.
And he would be alive today.
Every other causal line they've tried to draw in between my leadership, my cadre, our medical
professionals is all speculative in nature and flimsy and even false evidence.
It's super interesting that no one ever questioned, hey, why are we not holding JAGS accountable
for giving improper legal advice, which actually handcuffed us and prevented us from solving
this problem from the beginning?
What would the repercussions have been if you would have caught somebody with performance
enhancing drugs?
Great question.
So the ones we found in Kyle's car are actually considered schedule three controlled substances.
It's a felony in the state of California to have in your possession.
Your possession counts as your car registered to your name.
That's guilty, I think, by up to five years in prison and a dishonorable discharge from
the United States military.
So the only crime here in this entire case start to finish is Schedule 3 controlled substances
on a US installation.
Unprescribed Schedule 3, right?
Schedule 3 can be prescribed.
Fair, fair.
Right?
But unprescribed possession is a violation.
How do you know it was unprescribed?
They were black market form procured.
As we understand it.
So the ones we found, and let me also preface this like I did with my disclaimer earlier,
everything I will say here has actually already been released by various government officials,
senior to me, to include a US congressman.
It's been piecemealed out there and it's been kind of hidden in the white noise, but it's
all been released, which allows me to comment officially on it
and not release information
that's not been previously disclosed to the press.
And I'll help him out even further.
Everything that we say is our own perceptions
and opinions of the facts as we've gathered them, right?
We, unlike the Navy, don't think we're 100% correct.
We act on the evidence that we find.
And so anything we say here, we're not giving it as gospel, but it is based on our work and our investigation and our opinions
derived from that investigation. Yeah. So why do you believe that they are black market?
So testosterone, cypinate, injectable with labels that say Karachi Pakistan,
One, Sipinate injectable with labels that say Karachi Pakistan. Human Growth Hormone injectables, labels that say the Netherlands.
Anastrobl Cildenafil, which is a generic version of Viagra.
Other unknown diluent liquids used in new syringes and alcohol wipes and other, I think
there's a couple of miscellaneous things in there.
All in a cooler, all in a cooler stuffed
in a backpack with gel packs keeping it cool in a car through the duration of Hell Week.
Pretty clearly, form procured.
I'm pretty sure that the Pakistani clean rooms for pharmaceutical injectables are not up
to US standards.
ED HARRISON Probably a good indicator.
Yeah.
DAN TAPIERO And what else leads us to believe this
is what's not there, right?
There's no entry in his electronic medical record
to our knowledge.
No one has brought that forward.
And I mean, pharmaceutical databases
and prescription databases are searchable as well.
I would presume, although I don't have a great deal
of faith in NCIS at this point on this case,
I would have presumed anybody would have run that
to see if he had a prescription, right prescription and would have published that in an investigation.
We haven't seen either of those things.
Combined together, I think we can conclude that they were bought on the black market.
RAOUL PAL, So rewind from the discovery you asked earlier, how do we find out what happened?
When we finished Hell Week, contextually, it's
important for me to add here.
You remember when you and I graduated Hell Week
back in the day, I think the extent of my medical check
was, here's a pizza, here's a Gatorade, how do you feel,
here's some vitamin E ointment to rub on your owies.
Now, walk yourself 300 yards down to building 618
and go to sleep, and then tomorrow we'll let you go.
That was about it.
I mean, I may be being a little flippant.
I'm sure they checked our temperature.
But that was pretty rudimentary.
We have come light years from there.
The medical staff we have are absolutely world class.
The ability to do triage quickly, the ability
to do head to toe assessments.
Every single candidate as they finish Hell Week goes through a rigorous review with various
corpsmen and no kidding physicians.
I think three separate physicians saw Kyle after Hell Week was complete and asked him
head to toe, how are you feeling?
He had clean vitals, all recorded, all verified.
He had no complaints other than my knees hurt, and they identified a
little bit of raspiness in his lungs. This is one of the things we have to remember about post-Hell
week, and it's one of the reasons why we're always very careful, because what's normal to us is not
normal to other people. So someone else might say, raspiness in the lungs, that's terrible.
Okay, except a large percentage of our graduates of Hell Week have raspiness in the lungs, that's terrible. Okay, except, you know, a large percentage of our
graduates of Fowl Week have raspiness in their lungs. They've just been exposed to the maritime
environment for an entire week and there's a lack of sleep. So their immune systems are compromised
a little bit. We account for that in our calculus. Every single candidate was given prophylactic
antibiotics in anticipation of compromised immune systems and the probability that you're going to get an infection of some sort.
It was not uncommon for candidates to test positive for bacterial pneumonia per se by
the time they finished Hell Week.
But given that they were on prophylactic antibiotics, we were already ahead of those curves.
So oftentimes, they wouldn't even show symptoms, but we diagnose them and say, okay, well,
let's treat it with more antibiotics and rest, which is already on the equation anyway.
So the way they were managing risk is through the roof.
We were managing risk is through the roof exceptional.
Back to other comments about COVID, we were collaborating daily because we were terrified
of this what we called the trifecta.
What if someone gets SIP, pneumonia, and COVID all at the same time?
SIP being swimmer-induced pulmonary edema, which is moisture that gets trapped in the lungs by being in a maritime environment, just aspirating moisture in the air. It happens off the beaches
of San Diego quite a bit. Pneumonia, obviously being what it is in COVID, all three attacking
the respiratory system. So we were dialed in like really tight on looking for these signs and symptoms and had
boards to monitor who are our high-risk candidates.
We had metrics we were using to determine who was at what status and when were we going
to pull them from training.
We were actually doing more real-time studies on SIP.
There's not a lot of doctrine out there on how to manage SIP and what is it and is it
even a fatal thing that we
should be worried about?
We were the ones breaking ground there.
I had my first phase officer in charge
running experiments with medical with the intent of reducing
our attrition due to SIP.
And what I mean is, hey, what's a causal factor?
Well, the water.
OK.
Can we change the data between classes
if we sequence the land and water
evolutions differently? So not changing the curriculum, but the sequencing of curriculum.
And we were doing studies in real time to see if we could decrease the number of cases
of SIPE we'd get in between one class and the next. And if we did, okay, we're going
to make some changes. We're going to manage this risk, not mitigate it, and we're going
to reduce the number if we can.
This was like active and ongoing collaboration.
We were talked about being a learning organization.
We were watching the news and started
hearing rumors that vitamin C and vitamin D could help
reduce the transmissibility of COVID
and even the symptoms if you get it.
So we procured on our own opt-ar, vitamin C and vitamin D, and got the senior
medical officer approval to start issuing that to our most at-risk candidates, the ones
going into the hell-weak in the tour in the seal and sway pipelines.
So, this notion that we were just turning a blind eye to medical risk and failed to
provide proper medical oversight is actually contrary to all the evidence of everything
we were doing on a day-by-day basis to manage risk to these candidates.
One of the things we were doing to that point was a deliberate effort was as we brought
PREP, which was a decision that was made to bring it from Great Lakes to basic training
command under my authorities, we reimagined the entire curriculum leading up to first
phase with the explicit goal of reducing attrition
due to injuries, impact injuries, stress fractures, shin splints.
And we did.
If you look at the collective tour of my commanding officer tour, what you will see is a decrease
in attrition due to injuries.
It was a deliberate and methodical collaborative effort with our medical professionals, our
sports physicians, our sports psychologists.
We brought every single expert in the room
and said, how can we do this?
How can we sequence our curriculum better
to crawl, walk, run, to reduce these injuries?
So that applied to SIP, pneumonia, COVID,
impact injuries, everything.
And we were successful in that effort.
So all the evidence contradicts this narrative that,
oh, you just failed to provide proper medical oversight.
It's false.
So Hell Week completes.
That was a long rant about where we were
when that Hell Week completed.
We do the three med checks.
The physicians, the last physician,
I just talked to him the other day that saw Kyle.
Again, no complaints of breathing.
And he walked out of the room on his own capabilities.
He was later provided, I think, a wheelchair just as his knees continued to swell, which happens,
you remember, after a week things just start to swell. But this notion that he was wheeled
out of medical was just not true. Multiple witnesses saw him walk out on his own.
So at that point, the medical staff does one more walk around with our
watch standards before we break for the night. This is the way we used to do business before
we break for the night. And then everyone goes home for the most part of it than our watch standards
because we've been given the head-to-toe evaluation and everyone's comfortable.
So I had left at that point. I was out picking up dinner for my family and I get a phone call
that a couple hours later that one of our candidates was having some troubles and not more than I've been called.
So by the time I get back on base I find out it's actually two candidates that
were having breathing problems, one of them being Kyle Mullen. By the time I get
there I hear one of the two candidates was in the ambulance right in front of
me. I talked to him. He seemed great. Had oxygen, was breathing, paramedics were treating him.
He was cognizant, seemed fine.
I said, all right, let's get you checked out, go take care of yourself.
And then at that point I found out Kyle had been already taken by the ER
to the closest hospital possible.
And my first phase officer in charge had either accompanied or driven separately to be there.
And they were working on him.
They said they had a hard time on site.
And he was coding, I think was the word that was used.
And they were working on him at the ER at the time.
So we brought the team together, started making recalls,
bringing people back from Friday night.
Do you have a question?
Yeah, I do.
Real quick, is this a common occurrence?
Coding candidates?
Two people?
No.
No.
That's pretty rare.
I would offer, it is not uncommon to hear the ambulance come running.
We have problems that happen on a somewhat regular basis.
We have excellent emergency action plans and the local paramedics are sometimes on a first-name
basis.
We're that familiar with each other so that we can treat injuries quickly and effectively
with the right triage and the medical professionals.
On every evolution, we always have our corpsman on site with a four by four AMBU, which is
an ad hoc ambulance with triage level medical gear to treat anything immediate, to do any
kind of real world assessments on site
as quickly as possible.
And they make the decision whether 911 needs to be called
or we pull them off and go see something more deliberate.
How many hell weeks previous to this
were you commanding officer for?
Lots.
I can't remember off the top of my head.
But this was February of 22, and I started my command
tour summer of 20. So I started my command tour summer of 20.
So I was getting to the end of mine.
We do seven classes a year on the SEAL side, six classes here on the SWIC side.
So quite a few.
Had anyone gone in an ambulance for similar reasons after Hell Week before?
Not that I recall for any kind of breathing problems, no.
Okay. No. Normally our emergencies were more, I twisted for any kind of breathing problems, no. Okay.
No, normally our emergencies were more,
I twisted an ankle, popped a knee,
something impact related.
Every once in a while you'd have a breathing thing.
Usually that was indicative of SIP.
And when we found with SIP and what all the conventional
wisdom at the time was saying was give that person
some oxygen, their O2 saturation level stabilized,
take it off if they can maintain, then OK,
they're going to be fine.
Usually within a day, usually people
would bounce forward from that.
What point did the performance enhancing drug problem
come across your radar?
So it wasn't until after I was notified that Kyle had passed.
We, at that point, realized we were now
in a notification stage of what was going on.
So there were no rumors of this previous to...
We had the rumors, but like I said, we were doing everything we can and we were just meeting
some walls.
And so we made the conscious decision to start how we, not really, again, knowing the scope
of what was going on.
We were still digging in.
We had a lot of exploration to do.
But we made the decision, hey, without knowing this, this could be a rumor.
This could be nothing.
We need to at least continue training until we understand what we've been talking about.
So we did.
Okay.
Yeah. So we were notified he'd passed and my first phase OIC came back from the hospital and
on there I forget to look on his face.
The absolute just devastation.
And none of us could, we didn't know yet, right?
It was just, it was like, what happened, what happened?
And immediately everyone, you know,
you start to just think, well, did we miss something?
Like what, there's that fear, shame, and guilt
that automatically takes root in your soul.
And just grief, you know,
this was a man who I'm responsible for.
This is a man that sacrificed a lot for his country.
He put it all on the line.
And how the heck did this happen?
We were clear after MedChex, how does this happen?
How does someone decompensate that fast and die
with no problems after MedChex?
We started immediately looking.
What did MedChex say?
Everything was clean.
Well, then how do we account for this?
And no one could explain it.
We said, all right, well, this isn't the time.
Right now, we need to take care of the family.
Right now, we need to focus on them.
So NCIS showed up and it was strange.
There happened to be an ice storm in Millington that night. And so all their servers were shut down and we needed to access his online page 13 in
order to notify his next of kin, his mother in this case.
So we were coordinating with SEALS on the East Coast and a casualty assistance care
officer to notify the next morning.
But we couldn't do it without the page 13, next of kin.
And so NCIS now shows up because we have the deceased candidate.
And we said, hey, we're looking everywhere, but the servers are down.
We can't find a paper copy anywhere.
Will you help us by unlocking his car for us to allow us to look in there?
Maybe he has a file of all of his hard copy papers.
And they begrudgingly agreed to it, but they opened his car and at that point,
opened his backpack to look in there and came across this cooler, opened the cooler,
and then came across this plethora of, like we said, schedule three controlled illegal drugs.
How many drugs were in there?
It was enough for me to think it was more than him.
Really?
Oh, yeah.
100%.
So much so that at that point, I said, hey, listen,
we've now got this other set of candidates.
We've got this entire class now.
One other one's in the hospital.
There's a concern for the safety of the rest of the candidates
because it looks to me like more people were
using this than just Kyle.
So we have got to figure this out before we release them the next day.
What if there's more in other cars and we release them and someone goes and injects
themselves after we cut them away and now someone else dies?
That is not in the realm of, I'm never going to allow that to happen.
So I said, we need to search every other car at this point.
And NCIS told us, no, you don't have probable cause.
I said, I've got a dead candidate and I've got a bag full of drugs that are clearly more
than what one dude was using.
What do you mean I don't have probable cause?
Clearly other guys are using this.
Nope, you don't have probable cause.
Okay, so I asked my boss, their legal advice said the same thing.
No.
He said, ask the base CO.
His JAG can authorize this as the base CO.
I called the base EXO.
We're very good friends.
And I explained the entire situation.
He said, absolutely.
This makes so much sense.
We've got to search those cars.
I'll get you an answer within the hour.
Called back.
Legal advice says, no, you don't have probable cause.
So I was told. So again, let me parse that a little bit
and try to keep it non-lawyerly in that analysis.
But even now, Captain Gary uses the term search, right?
Well, search is under the Fourth Amendment, right?
An aspect of a criminal investigation
requiring probable cause.
It is a quest for evidence on a target,
an individual or location, right?
This is, and these are the terms that NCIS is correct.
He didn't have probable cause for all the other candidates
on an individual level yet, right?
Or that he didn't, you know,
that they were looking
for evidence in a specific way, right?
To contrast that, if everyone had started using
the word inspect and inspected everyone,
it would have been just fine.
I mean, absolutely.
If a commander on a base sets up an inspection program
that is either totally complete and looking at everyone if a commander on a base sets up an inspection program
that is either totally complete and looking at everyone or randomized so that there is no inference
that a search of an individual
in a quest for evidence has occurred,
that's 100% within their authorities.
And I can't tell you how basic an understanding
of search and seizure law that is.
And so when I first got the investigation
and was looking at this and he was telling me this,
I was like, I am shocked that all the way up
to the base level, I mean three levels of different lawyers
failed to say, hey guys, we're using the term search,
hold on, this is confusing the issue, let's just inspect.
Let's inspect everyone. Let's inspect anyone who crosses the base
Gate line let's inspect everyone and guess what in an inspection if you find evidence
You get to use it right because you didn't target you didn't have to have probable cause and you didn't have to have a search
Authorization and that's a defense counsel saying it look, you know
I'm the guy who's not supposed to be telling them
how to get this done, right?
But I'm even saying I'd have a tough time winning any case
where they did a broad base across the board inspection
and they came up with evidence.
Interesting.
The other side of that is,
even if they did a search of every vehicle,
and even if Defense Counsel Everywhere filed motions
to suppress that evidence,
it still gets to be the command's responsibility
to stop the conduct, right?
So if we're worried about a drug problem,
I'm not worried about prosecution.
Maybe we'll hold them accountable,
we'll kick them out of the program, whatever,
but I'm trying to stop an active health safety risk,
search the vehicles, we'll figure it out later.
Yeah, I mean, that's inherent command responsibility
that was taken away.
I mean, even going back just to the authority
to search the vehicles, as a commander,
you have responsibility.
You have health, safety, morale, welfare authority
that was just missed.
So, so basic.
I mean, I taught at the Air Force Jack school, so basic to what was going on here, and that was just missed. So basic, I mean I taught at the Air Force Jack school.
So basic to what was going on here.
And that was just missed.
And Jason's right, who cares if we can't court martial
everyone who had PEDs in their cars.
If we're talking about the safety of these guys,
safety of other people, we do it.
We do it.
Commanders have that authority.
And ultimately I did.
I said I'm too concerned about safety to take this advice.
And so we searched everywhere.
We inspected every other car.
Well done.
Thank you.
Close call.
Close call.
So I inspected every other car.
We thankfully didn't find anything, but it gave me peace of mind that, okay, when we
release these guys tomorrow, we've at least managed the risk that they'll have access
to any other drugs for now
until we figure out what's going on here.
How long after you found the drugs in Kyle's car,
did you inspect the other vehicles?
Hours.
Hours?
Yeah.
Is there any possibility
that the candidates went back to their cars and-
Yes, yes.
Okay.
There were no cameras, remember?
Yeah, but they had heard about...
There is a chance that, yes.
Cause they, two pieces, one, they have freedom.
They're not in jail while they're healing after Hell Week.
Two, back to the candidate network,
and this will become clear in a few minutes.
We know that they were talking with other people
who were helping facilitate the use
of drugs.
Interesting.
And so they could have had other candidates from other classes go clean the cars while
we were figuring it out.
Absolutely.
Or they even had the option to freeze the entire scene, tell all the candidates that
they can't return to their vehicles, and then conduct the inspection.
But again, these are, I mean, I get frustrated about this
because I mean, and I know I've gotten to know Davis,
we're professionals, we're professionals.
I consider ourselves held to the same standards of doctors
to acquit our duties, right, period.
And what passes for what was going on at the time,
advice in a clear health and safety
and in view of someone who had just passed,
it doesn't qualify as professional legal advice.
It's nonsensical to me that no one was coming up
with solutions here.
Makes sense.
So we, at that point, moved forward and did our best.
We did a safety stand down for a day to address,
we weren't allowed to address the fact
that we found the drugs yet,
because now it was an open NCIS investigation.
So while everyone kind of knew what was going on,
we had to just not talk about it really,
was the conventional wisdom that was provided to us.
And we made some decisions to continue training
at that point, but those were based off of a lot of advice.
We saw it from a lot of graybeard mentors
on not taking a knee for too long and allowing this to fester and these candidates to kind of
spiral out of control in grief, in self-defeat, in just an unhealthy place. Get back to work.
Let's get focused on the mission, back to learn to compartmentalize and move forward,
as difficult as that can be.
We did provide every candidate wanted access to the psychs and chaplains.
And I said, a personally, if anyone feels like this is too much to start, we will pull
you and let you administratively roll another class to let you process what happened.
You all knew you're getting into a high risk field, but this is not something that typically
happens in training.
So we want to acknowledge that you might not be cognitively resilient enough to deal with some of this maybe.
So we provided all of that.
I also said, hey, because we don't know yet, we still didn't have the authorities to test yet,
because we don't know who else in the class might have been using.
I said, if anyone as much as sniffles differently than what we normally expect post-Hell week,
we're going to admit them to the ER immediately and send them.
So I think we sent seven other people over the next few days who just, I mean, you look
a little weird, we're going to send you.
It's interesting and it's unfortunate because how that got spun in the media later was,
oh, look at this disproportionate number of people that was sent to medical in this class,
indicating there was gross failure of leadership
to acknowledge the risk that was in front of everybody's eyes.
No, that was me being overly cautious
with our medical professionals saying,
we're going to take no chances and be conservative if we're
going to err anywhere and just admit these guys to the hospital
to be safe.
Things can be twisted so quickly into something that just wasn't the case.
How long did it take for this to hit the media?
I don't know.
It wasn't long at all.
The drug part took a while to come out.
But it hit pretty fast that we had a candidate who died after a week.
That made the news pretty fast.
What was the narrative?
At first, it was pretty bare bones, just the normal kind of a release, you know, very,
very limited information.
There was a seal candidate who died, a name, you know, from, you know, New Jersey.
And there's an ongoing investigation into what happened.
And then of course, the frenzy starts and the speculation and all the rumors and the threads
and the comments.
And then slowly things started getting released, but then we saw things getting twisted pretty
quickly.
So we brought out the family.
We did a memorial service there.
We at that point wanted to shield them from any of those uncomfortable discussions at this point.
This was not a time to address things like that.
This was a time to grieve and to care for them.
And we made a deliberate decision of organization to do that,
to tell them everything we could without compromising the integrity of the investigation
was our goal, and to be as empathetic and loving as possible.
And so we did. We held a memorial service for him there.
And I spoke.
It was the most difficult moment of my life, I think.
We talked earlier about this moment with Danny's death, but to stand in front of a grieving mother and give a
talk about her son was next level for me. It was so difficult. As we're
starting the ceremony, I was overwhelmed with emotion and it wasn't nervousness
but it was it was everything. It was grief. It was the magnitude of what
happened. It was being in this was the magnitude of what happened.
It was being in this moment, standing with these people and having to stand up there
and talk about this young man.
And they're playing the national anthem.
We were indoors but covered.
And so I was saluting for the national anthem like we all do.
In that moment, I was so overwhelmed.
My hand was just shaking uncontrollably.
I could not hold it still. I was just overwhelmed, my hand was just shaking uncontrollably. I could not hold it still.
I was just a wreck.
My wife was with me next to me.
Without even saying a word, she ducks her shoulder, steps in, and then pops it back
up and holds the weight of my arm for the salute.
It was an incredible moment for me because it's very symbolic of how she has been in my life
through everything we talked about before this and how she continued to support me and
carry my weight when I needed her to in this moment of just guttural loss and mind-bending
grief.
Once again, she was there.
Even the night we found that he was dead,
I called her and I said, hey, this is what we know.
And she said, well, what do you need?
What can I do?
And I said, I don't know.
I don't have words.
I don't know.
I don't know what to even ask for.
I just need to get, I just need to figure this out
with our team and we need to help the family
as best as we can.
So Amy just showed up.
I'm just gonna be here. I don't So Amy just showed up. I'm just going to be here.
I don't need to say a word.
I'm here.
I'm here.
And I would look and see her.
And she was always just there.
And always that steady pillar of support
through every phase of this.
Not just her.
I got to say before we go further, what I saw the team do,
what I've seen our team do, the collective NSW team,
when we lose something like this and someone like this,
absolutely inspires me every single time.
I wish we didn't have to go through grief to see it,
but some of my front office assistant,
whose husband was deployed and they have a kid,
she comes in, brings her 10-year-old daughter to work at 8 o'clock at night to help however she can, and they
stayed till midnight.
Let's her kid play on the dry race board while we're dealing with this.
Other people did the same exact thing.
When you see the team rally and everyone comes and some of them are there saying, I know
exactly how we need to help.
They hear it, they weigh in, they take initiative and they help.
My ex-o put the whiteboard up and just starts mapping out,
here's all the decisions we need to make,
here's what we need to make sure
we don't say the wrong thing, do the wrong thing.
It was incredible.
It's so inspiring to see the team
just do everything we've been talking about,
but now in different form.
Yeah, it's humbling, it's inspiring, and it's so tragic, too.
My command master chief, you know, the day the day I notified
Regina Mullen the morning after she had been notified by the two seals on the East Coast.
And so this is my first call to her.
And I'm in the room and I said, listen,
I've known too many grieving parents over the years,
but help me.
So we brought in our advisors and we
went through all the things that could happen here.
We had the psych, the chaplain.
We had the counselors.
We had my wife in the room.
We had everyone that was a subject matter
expert in this stuff, the gold star representative for the West Coast who's seen this happen far too many times.
I said, give me all the advice, tell me what to avoid, tell me how to be careful here.
I never want to say the wrong thing to someone who's in this moment.
In that moment, as I'm getting ready to pick up the phone, my command master chief,
you probably know the name, Dave Hansen, a legend on the West Coast, stands up in front
of all these people, walks across the room, puts his hand on my shoulder and prays out
loud for me before I call this grieving mother.
I don't know if I've ever been in a situation when I felt the power of that moment
and the magnitude of this man who just did that.
Same hand, by the way, he's a boxer.
It's the same hand he has used
to knock people out in the ring.
It's the same hand he's used to take down
our nation's worst enemies down range.
This comes right back to everything we talked about,
being a monster who restrains himself, virtue. Now, Jordan Peterson just defines virtue. This is the things
you get to see in these moments. People of virtue, not just seals and swicks, but every single person
there just rallied and exhibited virtue to support and love on this family and do right by them
in an unbelievably horrific scenario. So we brought them out to the memorial. We did that.
We gave them a tour of the compound. Talked about a lot of things you and I have talked about. Our
methodology for training, some of the things Kyle experienced.
And then they headed back east from there.
And at that point, we did our best to keep in touch.
At one point, Dave and I traveled east to go to his memorial service in Jersey for the
memorial service with my Commodore and a couple other people as well.
And just continue to try to love on them and stay in touch. And then, you know, I was hearing nothing but affirmation
from our force at the time.
Brad, you're carrying this rock for Naval Special Warfare.
We appreciate the empathy that you're showing here,
how you're leading the memorial service, the care for the family.
You're doing all the right stuff.
We're under the boat with you, is what I kept hearing.
We're under the boat with you. That's what I kept hearing. We're under the boat with you. Is it okay?
I know everybody out there has to be
Just as frustrated as I am when it comes to the bs and the rhetoric that the mainstream media
Continuously tries to force feed us
And I also know how frustrating it can be to try to find some type of a reliable news source.
It's getting really hard to find the truth
and what's going on in the country and in the world.
And so one thing we've done here at Sean Ryan Show
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So I was asking for updates.
What were they finding?
How could I get after these problems?
In the meantime, I was kept out of those meetings, but we started finally getting some authorities
to start testing for urine and sending it off to labs to start
trying to determine if people were in fact using.
Interestingly enough, a couple of weeks after Kyle died,
one of the guys from his class popped positive
for one of the very drugs we found in his car, which
verified my initial suspicion that more than one person was
using the drugs we found.
At that point, it began our hunt.
And we started pulling in candidates
and confronting them when they had
ratios that looked abnormal.
We were following the World Anti-Doping Agency standards
for their threshold on when they would pull someone
from a professional sport and say,
you're no longer eligible due to enough suspicion here.
And we were doing everything we could
following that professional sports industry
to make the best decisions we could following that professional sports industry to make
the best decisions we could.
Understanding we were in a learning environment and you get in some weird legalities, we were
mainly just administratively dropping guys from training.
Nothing punitive.
We weren't taking them to the captain's announcement thing after that.
Just, hey, there's reasons to believe you're unsafe to train.
We're administratively dropping it from the program.
We managed it as best we could for the next few months there.
And fast forward, got to my change of command
and Dave's retirement send off.
And we finished that with everything seemed to be on track.
Every time I pulsed anyone, I kept hearing the same things.
We're all under the boat with you,
and so far nothing is showing anything crazy.
We did a safety investigation.
They started a command investigation
to look into the PEDS problem.
NCIS was doing their own investigation.
No one interviewed me.
I was provided an introductory meeting at one point
with the command investigation team, who basically said,
hey, we're here.
We're going to be looking into stuff.
I said, hey, we're totally transparent.
I've told my command we're going to contribute everything
we can here, and no problems at all.
That was about the extent of anyone's questions for me,
which I found to be strange given I'm a commanding officer
and I have total responsibility to this command.
Why would anyone not want to sit down and talk to me
about what my observations are and what we saw and didn't see
and what we were doing to manage risk?
But what kind of questions were they asking your staff?
Great question.
I don't 100% know.
But I can tell you what that produced, whatever
questions they asked.
Let me say a couple more things and I'll get to that answer.
So we changed command and I headed east for a three month
course I had to do on the East Coast, took my family with me,
we stayed with my wife's sister out on Virginia Beach.
And I kept calling back, hey, any news? Like anything going on? No, we're onto the family with me. We stayed with my wife's sister out in Virginia Beach. I kept calling back, hey, any news? I get anything going on? No, we're all under the boat with you.
Everything's looking good. You have nothing to worry about. Everything's showing that it was
the drugs. Okay, sounds good. Then I started getting nervous when all of a sudden news starts
breaking. This answers your other question about when did things start going crazy?
All of a sudden, I'm sitting with my family in
Virginia Beach, and we're seeing pictures of me on the
news calling me a murderer.
Not really a great moment for the family.
And I call back to work on, hey, is this alarming?
Do we expect this?
Do we anticipate this?
Usually we have a heads up on press releases.
Anyone want to clue me into where we're at on this?
Last time I talked to everybody, we were all into the boat together and everything was showing that we were clean.
What's going on? Oh, nothing to worry about, Brad. Okay, it seems like I have something to worry
about. It's certainly uncomfortable being out here in the dark and hearing nothing other than
what I'm seeing on the news, which doesn't look great. They're calling you a murderer?
Yeah, it was on the press.
Is there any context behind that?
No.
They had no facts to release, nothing.
It was just the family started, I think, speaking out.
And somewhere in the mix of all that, I don't know who and how,
but I was coined a murderer.
And some of the press regurgitated that. It's an uncomfortable place to see your kids see their dad called a murder on TV.
Yeah.
Not something I'd ever want them to see. So I keep getting calls. Finally, they say,
hey, listen, here's what's going to happen. The Admiral's going to come on,
have a meeting with you. And what they found is some happy to glad things that could have been better.
Obviously, there's always room for command to improve.
We found some of those things.
By the way, we actually found them before I left command and we actually corrected all
the small things we discovered.
So thanks for your suggestions, but they've already done.
I know because I implemented them, but got it.
Yes, we found some small things.
Okay, well, the Admiral is going to come and he's going to issue a non-punitive letter
of caution.
So again, non-punitive, but it's still a mark.
It's an uncomfortable scenario.
I said, okay, I didn't anticipate that.
I thought I'd done everything right, but okay, I got it.
I was in command.
I started calling my attorney friends who said, hey, have you been able to read the
investigations that they're basing this Nip-Loc off of? I said, no, no one shared anything with me. I said, well, have you been able to read the investigations that they're basing this nip-lock off of?
I said, no, no one shared anything with me.
I said, well, that doesn't make any sense.
You should ask for that.
So I did.
I was then reprimanded verbally for asking for it.
I was told, you're not warranted that.
This is not your investigation.
It's someone else's, and you don't have a right to see it.
And by the way, get back in your box.
My words, not his necessarily, but the message received was get back in your box and read
the CNO's charge of command if you need a reminder about the total responsibility of
command.
This was coming from a guy who I'd spent almost the same amount of time in command with, not
at the same command, but consecutive time in command.
I understand the charge of command.
I understand responsibility.
I also understand if you're going to write me even something non-punitive, but it's a
cautionary letter for something I failed on, you should at least be able to talk to me
about what you think I failed on so I can have a conversation with the man who's issuing
me this.
A couple of days later, I hear, hey, that's off.
The NIPLOC is no longer happening. At that point, a couple of my attorney friends said, you hear, hey, that's off. The nip lock's no longer happening.
At that point, a couple of my attorney friends
said, you need to get a lawyer, man.
Something's very strange here.
And that's where I first contacted Jason Wareham.
My college roommate, Jason Bresler,
had gone through something very similar in the Marine Corps.
Jason represented him while you were still active duty.
He was on my first call.
I said, hey, what do I do?
He said, call my guy, Jason.
I called Jason up. We have an initial conversation. I start thinking about how can I do this?
Is this worth it? It's one of those risky and analysis. Do I really think something's
going on here or are we all into the boat together? At that point, I call Cash Patel,
who we didn't talk about on camera, but I knew from my joint tour and he offered up
the Fight with Cash Foundation to help and said just retain the best lawyer you can
find in this field that will be able to defend you. Something's coming.
He said it's coming. I can see it too. So at that point we called, hired Jason and
it was like three days later. On a Monday afternoon they called me and said okay
we need you to go over to the legal office on the base on Norfolk.
And there's a JAG that's going to meet you there.
They're going to bring you up.
They're going to read you your rights.
And they're going to issue you a notice
of nonjudicial punishment for dereliction of duty
and negligence as a commanding officer.
Captain's mass will convene this Friday, virtually.
You have four days to prepare.
By the way, we need you to continue in the course
you're doing right now and still continue to succeed there
because that could look poorly upon you
if you start slacking on your courses to prepare for MAST.
I said, hang on a second, I still haven't read
one investigation that was put together
that's warranted this kind of a response.
So I called Jason up.
You were still a reservist at the time.
I was.
With a security clearance.
Style of clearance.
Yeah, so I called the force judge advocate
who I was talking to and I said,
hey, I would like you to send these documents
to my lawyer who lives in Colorado.
He needs to review them so we can consult
on what my path forward is.
The military
attorney they gave me in that moment said, you're screwed. That was about his counsel.
He's like, there's no surviving this. I think my wife kicked him out of the office at that
point. She's like, beat it. We don't like quitters in this family. I was very glad I
had retained Jason at that point.
What were they coming after you for?
So I'll get there.
So then, this was terrible.
I said, I need you to send this to my lawyer so we can consult.
And they said, no.
I said, wait a minute.
It's an unclassified document.
He has a security clearance anyway.
He's my attorney.
I've retained him.
He's on retainer. We have attorney client privilege
He's bound by legal ethics
and I'm brown by clearance and and
Being a reservist. I mean government had their controls over me as much as they they could
There's no way I could take that and just throw it to the press
Yeah, so there was no reason not to send it to me. It's all unclassified. So I asked, are you the deciding authority on that?
Well, no.
OK.
Well, who is?
Well, the admiral.
OK, why don't you go ask the actual deciding authority then instead of pretending like
you have that decisional authority at your level?
Well, OK, but I'm going to recommend that he disapprove it.
Well, of course you are.
It was disapproved.
So then I had to fly last minute out of pocket to get my attorney to Virginia Beach. And now we're down to about 72 hours left to prepare for NJP.
We looked through the document to answer your question.
Well, there's more context there, right? They didn't even, once we were co-located,
give us a copy of the document. They required that we review the document in a SCIF.
This is an unclassified investigation.
One you would be entitled to
if there were criminal charges, unrestrained.
But even if you're not entitled to it yet,
they could have handed us a copy,
given us an office to work in,
but instead they treated it like TSSCI classified evidence
and made us review the entire thing in a skiff.
Why do you think they did that?
No, well why I think they did that
I think they did that because they were they were
scared of
Any portion of it becoming known publicly frankly and even with all the safeguards
That someone was tracking
Because these people are idiots,
even if they're giving bad advice,
someone was tracking the failures of the investigation
and the holes of the investigation
and the summary nature and conclusions
that were made early on.
That's why, I'm convinced that's why
Captain Geary was frozen out.
That's how the Navy works, right?
They come to a conclusion, they draw a line around you kind of administratively.
They start asking people around you almost in an echo chamber gossip forum, draw their
conclusions and they didn't want anyone contradicting those conclusions, right?
Let's keep in mind that NJP or Article 15 punishment is entirely within the discretion
of the person imposing it when to hold it,
but to give us 72 hours when there's been
a death investigation, I've never seen
anything like that before.
And so all of this points to me,
they knew exactly the pile of crap
that this investigation was, how unsustainable it was
towards any sort of deep dive analysis.
But they wanted to ensure that Camp Gary just took it.
So some of the things we discovered as we read through,
there was two investigations that were being used.
There was a line of duty investigation
and there was a command investigation.
The line of duty investigation was pretty astute
and it came to the conclusion that he died.
They agreed with the autopsy, however, qualified that and said, performance-intensive drugs
were likely a contributing factor or rewards to that effect.
This is a recently released document by one of our congressmen who's supporting us.
So, we said, okay, that seems pretty clean.
They came to the conclusion that we did.
That makes sense to me.
We looked at all that evidence.
It was pretty clean.
The command investigation, on the other hand, was where it got a little dicey.
I started reading testimony that didn't make sense to me.
It was from some of my officers in charge who I thought I had a great relationship with.
I'm reading their testimony and it made me sound like a derelict and negligent leader.
I remember telling Jason, wow, this is what my people thought of me.
I guess I did fail. All this fear, shame, and guilt what my people thought of me. I guess I did fail.
All this fear, shame, and guilt starts getting heaped on me as I'm reading some of these
documents.
But as we dug through it, we noticed none of them were signed testimonies.
They were all summaries of interview.
So it was an interview where someone recalled what that person said based off some notes
and then just jotted it down.
But typically, when you do that, you're supposed to give it back to them to verify, yeah, this is generally what I said. I'm comfortable with this.
Let's move forward. I think of the entire investigation, it was maybe two or three that
were totally signed. The rest, over two dozen, easy, if I remember correctly, were just unsigned
summaries. Some of them just paragraphs on a blank page, just random paragraphs on a blank page.
So this one in particular, my SWIC, OIC, my SWIC officer in charge, phenomenal warrant
officer, incredible reputation.
I was like, man, this guy, he's really just crucifying me in this document.
This is terrible.
So Jason calls him up, hey, by the way, we're just double checking our facts here.
We're trying to understand what's going on.
And Brad says there's a discrepancy between how we thought your relationship was
and how you viewed him as a leader versus what we saw here.
So Jason reads him the document and he says, That's not what I said at all.
That's one eighty out from what I think about Brad.
I never said that.
Why does that say my name on it?
We couldn't have an answer. Still don't know.
So he said, OK, that's interesting.
Would you be willing to submit a sworn testimony signed
that contradicts this and says how you really feel? Absolutely.
So he did it from his like sailboat that he was out in the Hawaiian waters on.
He was retired at that point and like heading off to greener pastures and pulls into a port with the sailboat to gen up a actual sworn statement on our support.
Another one. We found that a couple of times, by the way.
We found that a couple of times, by the way. Another one was somebody fabricated evidence and said that somewhere along the way leading
up to Kalman's death, we discovered this backpack full of drugs like steroids.
I had ignored this evidence and we just thrown it away and said, well, weird.
Not sure where that came from.
This was in testimony in a couple of them.
It was regurgitated a few times, to use Jason's words, as an echo chamber.
Jason's doing his due diligence.
This is my attorney, calls the master at arms who handles all evidentiary collection at
my command and says, hey, we're just trying to connect the dots.
We see this annotated a few times by a few different people, but there's no actual pictures
of this evidence ever.
We can't trace this back to an origination point.
He replied in the email, there was never a backpack.
What are you talking about?
Completely fictional.
Completely fictional.
Just created through leading questions by an un—I don't mean to say unprofessional
is an intentionally bad investigating officer, but someone who was not trained to do investigations
was the one that they relied on for command investigations.
So an uninitiated investigator using leading questions that injected material fact in the
investigation of evidence of beds in a backpack that was ignored.
So they're legitimately just making shit up.
Somebody did.
False testimony and fabricated evidence.
Is there any legal recourse against that?
We'll get there.
Well, unfortunately not.
I mean, the easy answer is not for active duty.
No.
I mean, outside and in real world, if somebody fabricates something against you, you have
a tort for defamation, right? You have a tort for abuse of you, you have a tort for defamation,
right?
You have a tort for abuse of process, you have a tort for a number of things.
In the military, the Federal Tort's Claim Act prohibits you from bringing any of those
claims against other members of the government.
So there's a get out of jail for get out of liability.
So you can just lie about anything you want.
Absolutely.
I mean, the government does it all the time.
I don't know why. The government does a very good job of protecting themselves when it comes
to active duty people holding anyone accountable. Here's what's interesting
too is we started seeing some other trend lines. Well you you know they
mentioned we mentioned that other supplemental chemical we were
finding months before Kyle's death that was couched to us and say,
this is a GNC supplement.
All of a sudden as we're preparing for mass now, summer of 2022, they point us toward
a website.
Well, this is an official Navy website, which prohibits those substances and requires out
processing from the Navy.
And here's an instruction which talks all about this.
And so we're reading these things like, oh my gosh, you're right.
I must have failed here.
We must have failed to recognize that I needed to out process those people from the Navy
for catching these things in their rooms.
Wow.
Okay.
Got me.
Then we look, wait, when was this instruction written?
Oh, a month and a half after Kyle died.
When was this website created with this database of prohibited substances?
Oh, a month and a half after Kyle died.
What did the previous version of that instruction say?
Well, it was a nutritional supplement guide that said something about eat more protein.
So basically, what became pretty clear was because of Kyle's death, everyone snapped
too, and all of a sudden generated all these instructions and policies to cover themselves
and tried to hold me retroactively accountable for decisions I made which preceded the policies
themselves.
Well, it's worse than that though.
I mean, they didn't even realize when that had passed
and passed it over to us as if it was live when you were in.
And when I specifically asked them,
what standard do you state that he breached here?
Where was the error?
Where was the notice, right notice around this kind of stuff
that had to be enforced?
And they gave me this in direct response to that question.
And it was only after I was like,
what's the date say on the top?
The date is after any of this happened.
So even the people in the chain responsible
for the application of the law,
again, judge advocates here, right,
who were responsible for delineating the charges and the basis for the accusation, even at
NJP, didn't know their own standards or was intentionally passing it off as a retroactive
standard and trying to pass it off as something that existed to get us to accept NJP.
I don't know which one it is.
Did the investigators ever ask or talk to you about the fact that you would ask for
drug tests for performance enhancing drugs?
No.
No.
That never came up?
No.
Are they aware that you did that?
They were, yeah.
Everyone knew that.
We were open meetings.
We had these discussions.
I mean, a fun little anecdote, I guess,
if you consider it fun, is while we were doing
the Skiff review, we ran into one of the judge advocates
who had provided the failed advice in the parking lot.
Randomly.
He had a PCS'd and we randomly ran into him.
And at the point, I hadn't formed all the conclusions yet
that I have now, and I just simply asked to talk to him.
Ghosted me.
Ghosted me.
Wouldn't even come in, have an interview with me informally.
So based off what we discovered there, we built a rebuttal. We submitted it to our
admiral for review. And to his credit, he delayed mass through the weekend to consider the evidence
we provided, which pretty clearly showed this was an entirely faulty investigation, full of nothing but false testimony
and fabricated evidence.
Monday, we got word that he was canceling mass, dismissed it,
pulled me into a video teleconference
and said, I'm issuing you a non-punitive letter of censure.
Do you understand?
I said, yes, I understand.
A jag slid across the table and he said, this case is closed.
We're going to move on and we're going to reinvestigate this down the road.
I said, all right, sir.
Sounds good.
And so that was it.
We thought it was done.
We thought we won at that point.
We thought reason had prevailed and evidence had prevailed.
Thank goodness at the time, our admiral in charge saw that.
He saw what had happened and took corrective measures there,
but he shortly retired thereafter, and so.
I mean, when we say rebuttal, it was like 20 some pages.
Right, it was. Single-spaced,
citing two different evidentiary statements.
Put together. And statements
we had pulled together in 72 hours
from the actual individuals who'd given statements
in the summary of interview.
Yeah.
And I don't think I can emphasize this enough,
because I don't want this to be missed.
This is a Navy captain being accused
of violating the Uniform Code of Military Justice,
committing dereliction of duty,
and the standard they cite is one
that was not in existence at the time.
And I was magic-com selected at that point too.
Right.
And so you're looking at a Navy SEAL, a Navy captain with his career, with his decorations,
who is being just a career destroyed over something that wasn't even in play.
You didn't follow this regulation.
You didn't follow this instruction.
So you were derelict in something that didn't even exist at the time.
And that passed through all the legal channels, all the Navy levels up to the Admiral.
And that's either just incompetence or something else.
But they thought, oh, he's just gonna take this.
He's just gonna take Article 15.
He's just gonna take NJP and not push back.
And oh, by the way, we're gonna make you and your attorney
review thousands of pages in less than 72 hours.
How many total pages was it, Jason?
I mean, that investigation, those two sets?
A couple hundred, I think.
A couple hundred.
The attachments, I think, altogether were a few hundred.
Yeah.
Four or five hundred.
So the one you're thinking about at thousands
is the later investigation.
Oh, the later investigation.
But still, hundreds of pages.
To get, I mean, I got about,
we got about eight interviews done in that time period,
plus the review.
As much as we could.
Yeah, I mean.
And every single one we did came back
with completely contradicting evidence
to what had been reported.
But that's just, I mean, again, like I just want, I can't,
this is when I first started hearing about this
and looking at this, there's a standard.
You're saying you didn't meet the standard.
You, Captain Gary, did not meet the standard.
The standard didn't exist until then.
And that went through.
Everybody just missed it.
Like as Amy and I were digging into it,
we started to realize, you want to give everyone
the benefit of the doubt, right?
This is our teammates.
They said they were under the boat with me.
Maybe this was just an accident.
Maybe this was just innocent mistakes
that all wind up in a Swiss cheese moment.
But the more we read, the more we realized
there was something nefarious here.
And when we started to understand the scope of that betrayal, again, contextually, from
what we've been talked about here on what my family's endured for this nation and for
the Navy and for Naval Special Warfare, when my wife first understood this, she sobbed
so hard she couldn't breathe.
And I had to hold her head in the freezer
to catch her breath.
That's something that will haunt me
for the rest of my life.
It's something my kids saw.
You don't unsee your mom sobbed so hard she can't breathe
because we were betrayed by someone within our force
that said they were under the boat with us.
What at this specific point in time, do you guys have any idea what the motivation behind
this is?
Not yet.
We were all confused.
I mean, we're still a little confused, but even then, especially then, I was just asking
the question, like, what is the rush?
What is the, what's the target here?
I don't understand.
So we come back West and I honestly thought,
I still had hope in our community.
I still had this undying faith.
And I still love our community, let me be clear,
but I fully expected we'd come back to a huge apology
and an explanation.
Man, we're so sorry. How did this happen in NSW? Here's what we know. Here's the explanation.
Man, that got away from us. We're really, really sorry, Brad, for what we put your family through.
Crickets. So I start asking around, hey, why I'm concerned that nobody else is concerned back to
the point these two gentlemen make.
How did we get to a point where you were rushing to take a major command selected captain to
MAST?
I'm not a perfect human being, but I have a pretty good track record of being trustworthy
and professional in this force and reliable.
How did we rush to going to MAST with me and no one around here is concerned that we had
false testimony and fabricated evidence?
That's a problem.
Even if it was all innocent,
which I hope it still comes back to be,
I said, are we not concerned about that?
Shouldn't we be like really concerned about that?
That sounds to me like a cultural problem we might have
that we need to address.
Certainly worth identifying
that it was innocent versus malicious.
This is the stuff that at breakfast I was saying,
this reminds me of the Gallagher case under different circumstances.
I mean, the Navy is always the Navy, let's be clear.
I've been doing this a very long time.
I wait for people to contradict me that I believe I'm the longest serving military
Marine Corps Defense Council continuously serving Marine Corps Defense Council. I did it Oh
Almost ten years right most people get rotated out. I've seen this play out in the Marine Corps in the Navy
It's it's how our institutions run these kind of cases now if it's public they will do whatever they want
the rules don't apply.
And you've got to have somebody who's ready
to get in that knife fight because you can't be confident
that anybody's gonna conduct themselves honorably.
What a shame.
So this is just the tip of the iceberg.
Let's get to the meat.
Yeah. Great.
Fast forward, we hear then a few months later,
I kept Jason on retainer because we had this eerie feeling
when no one was concerned that, hey maybe we might be revisiting some of this
stuff.
So we hear then, hey, the Navy has given this to NETSE, Navy Education and Training Command,
to do a new independent investigation that will look into the death of Stephen Kyle Mullen
and the circumstances surrounding his death at BTC during your time.
I said, okay, that's fine. I was pretty confident at that point, objective evidence would rule the
day and we would be vindicated at some point. And right as they started that investigation,
they sat down with me in October and I was able to provide testimony to them.
That was the first time in October, Kyle had died the previous February. That was the first time October, Kyle had died the previous February. That was the first time any one single investigative body
asked me for my perspective on anything.
No one who did the Lodi talk to you?
No one who did the command investigation
talk to him at any time.
Brief introduction, but nothing substantial.
No interview.
Why?
Why?
No idea.
Rigged the investigation, that's the only conclusion.
Very strange. Right?
We don't want to include any sort of exculpatory or contradictory information because we've
concluded our outcome.
And so we're going to shape it to meet our outcome.
Who did they talk to?
My cadre and a lot of failed candidates.
Yeah, that's right.
A lot of failed candidates.
A lot of people that would have an axe to grind, frankly.
Some of them I dropped for ped use, some of them I dropped for character.
They talked to those guys quite a bit.
So when I did-
Did they talk to any guys that made it?
A few.
But those- so yes, to be fair, they balanced it out in the eventual NETZI investigation,
they did do that.
But what I'd offer is while they had pretty fair between the two, the ones that made it,
that reported it, this was a great professional command, they just kind of buried in the enclosures and they
brought to the forefront really the visceral testimonies about my command.
When they talk about findings of facts, when you talk about the executive narrative, they
specifically cherry picked the negative comments from failed candidates and included, so for instance,
the guy that I said we dropped for the same drugs
that we found in Kyle's car, his definitely was included.
And there's no indication that you should consider
that testimony as less valid
than any of the one that you read.
In fact, that context, I don't think,
was necessarily given. No, no.
No, they never described,
the only reason that I knew that these
so-called summarized witness statements
were completely impeached by their own character
was Cam Gary.
There was no context.
What kind of information was on the witness statement?
Oh, not in your favor.
We're going off of two years of memory,
since they won't give a lot of this.
We recommended that we drop this candidate.
Brad overruled us and retained him anyway.
I mean, just things that talked about how I just kind of was
running my own show and not listening to counsel
from my expert instructors, which is just not true.
I've already explained how we methodically
manage those scenarios.
There was just a lot of stuff like that,
making it sound like I was a negligent and just absent-minded
commanding officer.
Who looked a blind eye, really.
They potentially looked a blind eye or took a blind eye away from drug use.
So when NETSE questioned me, one of the things we did was we provided them my rebuttal to
that faulty investigation, that initial command investigation.
They read it and one of their lead investigating officers told Jason after the fact that was
edifying.
So, we had hope there.
We had hope.
So, we know that they had the initial investigation.
We knew they had my rebuttal.
They continued the investigation for the next few months.
Went silent again for me.
During this period of time, all of a sudden, the Navy released a press statement in October
of 22, right around the time they were starting that investigation.
And the press statement was very, very brief, but it said something new. It said something that confused me. It said, maybe my words, I don't know if I'll get it exactly accurate, but some of the
effect of performance-dancing drugs were not a causing factor in Kyle Mullen's death. I thought
that was very strange because in all the documents I had read in all of our
rebuttals and digging through documents, we never found that statement anywhere,
because you can't say that statement. So it was confusing.
We found the opposite.
We found the opposite.
Yeah, like I said, the original line of duty we found was actually said that the drugs were a
contributing factor. So about this time, I started asking more questions and I found out that
contributing factor. So about this time, I started asking more questions and I found out that that initial
line of duty investigation had actually, this was a brilliant move by the admiral who had
directed it to be done.
He gave it to an inspector general representative to WarCom, Naval Special Warfare, who was
an aviator by trade.
So zero bias from an NSW SEAL perspective, an aviator, independent Inspector General
rep outing outside of his Inspector General role, but still, this guy is a trained investigator,
fully trained investigator with pretty objective, no bias.
He's the one who came back with that PEDS were likely contributing factor conclusive
statement.
Then the Admiral said, we're going to take it a step further.
I want to take this investigation and outsource it and have Vice Admiral Kitchener, now retired
from surface forces Pacific, do an independent review of everything with his force medical
officer, force training officer, force judge advocate, and a couple other experts.
They came back with, we paraphrased again, my words not theirs, but not only do we agree
with all the findings,
we affirm that drugs were likely contributing factor. And they even went further to add more
causal nature to his heart size being a major factor. His heart was 63% larger than it should
have been and had been interiorly restructured over time. Pretty significant differences in his heart
from yours and mine versus what his looked
like.
And our basic Google search said long-term PEDS use can be a cause of that.
Not definitive, but can be.
So now we have some proximate cause relating the two.
But almost none of that was ever mentioned.
So as we dig in, what we find is even though that review was independently verified, they
send it up to Washington DC to the Pentagon for final review.
This all predated where I was in time, but we're just now realizing it.
And they were told, no, we don't accept the findings.
We want you to re scope this investigation.
We are going to limit what you can say.
And they redid the entire thing from scratch
Even though it had been independently verified by other experts and the new one now no longer said anything about drugs being a factor at all
They changed the investigation because they didn't like what it said. What's really interesting about it is when I dug into that investigation now
This is I'm sorry. Is this three investigations now? We're at three now, yes, yes.
With a fourth ongoing, still.
With a fourth larger one going.
This fourth one's still ongoing, aren't you?
Yeah, that's the other one.
It's super confusing.
Yeah.
And just so you know, the regulations, I mean, that's one of the unfairnesses in the military
as far as I'm concerned is that these administrative investigations are owned by the implementing
commander,
that person who owns, who orders it,
and they can re-scope it or redirect it
or disapprove findings any time that they want.
They're in total control.
So the fact that we have this concept
that command investigations are somehow
an unbiased fact-finding development thing,
it absolutely is not.
It's just another tool to slant the narrative
to commander's intent, you know, so is that how this works when when when a
Commanding officer's order orders an investigation. Yeah, is it this so I want this to go
I as a commanding officer am able to order
Let's say junior officer investigating officer to conduct this investigation.
I give them the scope in the enabling letter,
in the promulgating letter.
I tell them what to look into.
I tell them I can even set it what not to look into.
I've seen some command investigations,
in fact I'm litigating one right now in a different case,
where they essentially said don't look
for contradictory information, right?
But even in cases where that doesn't exist,
the minute the investigating officer finishes it,
even after it passes a legal review,
it can go back up to that same commander
or a superior commander and they can disapprove it.
They can just say, no, I don't agree, go back and redo it.
Or they can even go so far as to say,
well, based on what you received,
I disapprove finding a fact A, B, and C,
and I enter finding a fact D, E, and F.
So it's totally malleable.
Okay.
So as I'm looking at the new investigation now,
which says nothing about drugs being a causing factor,
I go to the final six enclosures,
which are six subject matter expert doctors. They consulted
What's very interesting is five of the six all agreed drugs likely or probably or possibly contributed to his death
The sixth doctor abstained from commenting was outside of his field of expertise
So that that was strange you have a five of six pretty good consensus over here
Yeah, we just left that language out like when the original reflected
So if I recall even the six said I'll rely on one of the guys who did suggest.
I defer to the experts.
At this point, I now start confronting senior leaders.
I'm doing exactly what they tell you to do in the Navy.
You have a problem, you have an ethical dilemma, go up the chain and start asking questions.
I say, hey, I don't understand why the Navy released a press statement saying drugs were not a contributing
cause in his death when we pretty conclusively know that they were.
Well, Brad, you have to understand that these things aren't that easy.
I said, well, okay, help me understand.
That's what I'm asking.
That's what I'm here for.
Well, what we don't understand, Brad, is that the original line of the investigation was
way outside of scope, so they had to narrow it down.
Okay, well, that's weird.
But either way, why'd they come to a different conclusion?
Well, you have to understand the medical professionals didn't have a consensus.
And so, well, actually, they did.
You had five of six. That's pretty good.
I mean, that's that's the majority.
So, again, why did they say it?
Well, Brad, we have to understand is the autopsy said that drugs
weren't contributing causes.
Actually, it didn't because I read that as well.
The autopsy was silent on the issue of drugs never mentioned one drug possible. That is not saying they didn't do it
And then I was told well Brad I'm concerned that you're letting this consume you
You know, we have mental health professionals that you can talk to if you need it. So you're crazy Brad. You're crazy
You're letting this get to your head. So I don't really appreciate that answer. This is a man I consider a friend.
He said that to my face.
I mean, it shattered my soul a little bit.
I'm coming to you in a vulnerable position with an ethical dilemma, and I can see what's
happening.
You're deflecting and marginalizing and justifying things that you know to be not true, and you're trying to spin it
back on me as if I have a problem because I'm concerned that we might be lying as United
States Navy.
I go to another senior leader and I was told, Brad, this is what we do.
We protect the organization.
I was in on those conversations.
We made a deliberate decision to reinforce that narrative.
I said, why would we do that?
This doesn't make sense to me.
I can see what's happening here, and this is going down a very, very dangerous path.
How are you protecting the organization by faulting the organization rather than-
Because the organization had set a narrative, right?
The secretary of the Navy had set a commander's intent of what was going to be the Navy answer,
and nothing could contradict that.
So what was revealed to me shortly after that was an insider forwarded us an email.
And that's the email that the congressman released to the press, which explained
this. It finally at least explained it to me. It still didn't make sense why we did
it, but explained at least what we were doing. So as they were debriefing the family on-
You have this email?
Yep.
We'll put it on screen.
Yeah, the congressman released it, so it's out there. This email, they were debriefing
the family on the findings of the new investigation,
which now left out any mention of drugs, even though the previous one did talk about drugs.
And in the debrief to her, they showed the family an advanced copy of the press release
they were going to send.
And she asked the United States Navy to change the press release to reflect that drugs did
not contribute to her son's death and they agreed and changed it.
Yeah.
And it's clear.
I mean, it's absolutely clear that the narrative in the paragraph says, we gave Ms. Mullins
a copy of the press release.
She said that we needed to include a statement that PEDs were not a contributing factor because she
had been targeted with some harassing calls, blaming her son for trying to cheat, and she
needed to, quote, clear his name.
And look, let me tell you, that is entirely the intent a mother should have right it just doesn't become policy and factual
Representations by the US Navy, right?
You don't just get to change it and that was that email was the same day October 12
2022 that they issued the press release that still is hanging there with that statement
they issued the press release that still is hanging there with that statement. So they changed it from might not have been or was a contributing factor to not a contributing
factor.
And if as people are looking at the email, take a look who's on the two line, right?
Everyone of any consequence in the Navy was notified of this.
The investigating officers who started the NETZI investigation around the same time
were CC'd on that email.
So as they began their new investigation, they had pretty clear commander's intent on
what your findings will be, that drugs did not cause his death.
Now what we also learned as I started asking about this, hey, why did the autopsy not mention
drugs at all when all of his physiological symptoms point
for point were consistent with all the peer-reviewed studies of every drug we found in his car and all
the side effects that can cause catastrophic organ failure? It was very interesting through
that process we learned that the autopsy pathologist deliberately chose not to test for any of the drugs
that we recovered even though NCIS was in the room and showed that pathologist
a list of said drugs.
Instead, that pathologist decided
to do a standard toxicology screening
for the normal street drugs.
Which wouldn't indicate any performance-enhancing drugs.
What I would offer, the laws of logic dictate, I got it.
You decided not to test.
That's a whole other conversation
on why you would have done that, but okay.
So we can't medically definitively say
that drugs caused his death because we just don't know,
because you didn't test his body.
But if that's the case,
then you cannot say the equal and opposite position
that drugs did not kill him either.
These are the laws of logic.
The trade space is in between the two.
They might have, possibly could have, probably, sure,
we can negotiate and debate that all day long
based upon the contextual evidence.
Or just omit any discussion of pets.
But you cannot say that they did not contribute to his death
when you never even tested.
You don't know that.
What did the autopsies?
It determined cause of death as pneumonia,
and it said contributing factors, I think,
were cardiomyopathy,
cardiomegaly, so in a large tart, but it ignored the actual internal restructuring as well,
even though they annotated in the notes, they didn't qualify that probably with as much severity.
I'm not a doctor, but I've talked to quite a few cardiologists on this thing.
And it was very interesting because what a lot of other doctors told me, hey, you don't
go from clean vitals to five hours later being dead from pneumonia. Nobody decompensates
that fast when they're breathing normally and have a good O2 saturation and good pulse
and no fever. That's not how bacterial pneumonia works, especially considering, like we said,
he was on prophylactic antibiotics at the time.
His last med check after a week is all been documented in his med record.
Absolutely.
Ironclad.
It's out there.
That actually has been released to the public as well, all that data.
I can't remember who released that one, but I remember for a fact it was.
All this was sounding very interesting.
Then it progressed.
NETSE wrapped up their investigation, I want to say January, February of 2023.
And it was interesting, they sent an advanced draft to Naval Special Warfare to review and provide
comments. And this is where it gets even, I think, more nefarious. So I'm on the Naval Special Warfare staff at the time.
I'm one of the key leaders there.
And I'm going to these meetings where they have taken most of the senior leaders, 06s
and GS-15 government service employees, and said, hey, your primary job is to digest this
investigation, come back with recommendations to the Admiral.
At this point, what was made known to me is, hey, that investigation is about 3,500 pages
long.
I was like, wait, what?
That's massive.
So it took them a while.
This is a massive staff effort.
Very weird because they'd be talking about progress in meetings that I was in, and everyone
knew I was there and hadn't been briefed on anything, wasn't allowed to be briefed, but
they were talking around it with me in the meeting, incredibly isolating and dysfunctional.
But okay, here we go.
So they did that for a few months.
Insiders fed me information like, hey, did you know that the executive summary of this
thing never once mentioned drugs?
3,500 pages didn't even mention drugs.
And the charter for the investigation was, remember, investigate all the context surrounding the
death of Seeming Colomel that's relevant to his death.
The drugs we found and you didn't even mention them in the executive summary.
Our staff put together a proposal to our admiral, which included 70 pages of rebuttals, which
they sent back to NETSE.
Now, I don't have the inside information on what was changed, what was not changed, but basically around this time, I was very, very concerned about the
path we were going down based off what I was hearing and finding. And I wrote two letters
to the Admiral and said, I'm very concerned. Like, by the way, here's your referenced ethical
guidance to the force. Here's some of the evidence I have that there have been ethical violations,
not only within your force, but up and out related to this whole case.
I don't want to presume to speculate or understand why,
but there are major problems I'm seeing here, violations of joint ethics regulations.
And I have concerns. I'm asked, this is a cry for help. This is a cry for help.
concerns. This is a cry for help.
This is a cry for help.
I'm getting very uncomfortable about how this is going because every time I ask, all I ever
heard was, Brad, you have to trust the process.
Brad, you're overreacting.
Brad, this is what we do to protect the organization.
All reasons for me to be uncomfortable with where this is going, I could see it coming.
And I will note that in the NETSE investigation,
we fully complied.
Like, you know, against almost every fiber
of a defense counsel's being, right?
We made the decision to do a full and complete interview
with the investigating officer.
Unfortunately, even then, I mean,
we saw things deliberately misconstrued.
Some of your quotes around attrition and things like that.
We're good there, we're jumping too far ahead
because they hadn't published it yet.
I wanna pause and provide another piece of context here
because we've talked a little bit about,
I'm a man of faith and our faith has helped us in my career
go through some serious adversity and suffering.
And it's what drove a lot of my, as we discussed, philosophies of leadership at BTC, how to
love the people entrusted to my care, both cadre and candidates alike.
And so I was struggling with this, like I struggled with Adam's death.
I was like, God, why in the world are we going through this?
I'm watching this happen in real time.
I'm standing up and down. I'm screaming and waving my this? I'm watching this happen in real time.
I'm standing up and down.
I'm screaming.
I'm waving my arms.
I'm asking for help.
I'm concerned nobody else is concerned.
Why is this happening?
We have evidence of people betraying us
within our own force.
But no one seems to care.
I just keep getting the same lines.
How are we so obtuse?
How are we so just numb to what we should all be concerned about?
And we spent some time really deep in prayer just searching for answers in Scripture and
looking for some sort of resolve, some sort of reprieve, some sort of answer.
And I think we got it.
It was interesting.
Around this time, side story that's very relevant to this, I realized I had a lucid dream one
morning as we're in the depths of this despair, just utter despair, just dragging.
It's hard for me to get out of bed in the mornings.
It's the last thing I think about as I fall asleep.
It's the first thing I think about when I wake up.
I had this lucid dream.
It was me climbing this mountain in Afghanistan. It was one of those nights, you know the nights,
where nothing's fitting right.
My kit's off kilter.
It's rubbing me on the wrong places.
My gun's banging on my knees.
My nods are fogging.
My helmet's canted.
I'm smacking my elbows on these rocks as I'm climbing these massive boulders up this mountain.
I know it's wartime because I can hear the sounds of war, but it's just me.
And I'm there and I'm climbing this mountain. and all of a sudden I'm at a funeral for
one of my teammates and I'm pounding his trident into the casket.
You know what that's like.
And I'm back on the mountain.
This was a weird dream.
I've never had anything like this happen to me, but I'm heavier.
I'm carrying that weight with me.
I'm climbing again.
And now I flash back to another funeral, another trident, back to the mountain. This goes back and forth
a lot, way too much, to the degree that by the time I get to the top of this
mountain, I'm so bone-weary fatigued. I'm hunched over leaning on this beam,
and I'm sweating, and I can't even catch my breath.
But finally I do, and I lift my head,
and I see I'm standing at the foot of the cross.
And I see Christ's feet at my head,
and they're a bloody pulp.
And I hear someone say,
how beautiful upon the mountain are the feet
of him who brings good news.
And I knew in that moment what I needed to do,
and in my dream I pulled my last trident off
and I pounded it in the foot of the cross.
And I woke up and I wrestled with that one.
And I was praying about it.
And I said, Lord, are you asking me to give you my bird?
Are you asking me to take steps which is
going to take this off my chest?
Has this become an idol for me that I've held onto too long?
You gave me a lot of success through my career,
like ridiculous, absurd success.
Did you give all that to me so that you'd then say,
now give it back to me and show me how much you love me?
And I felt that was what he was doing.
I felt that's what he was saying.
So then we got to the point where
I was about to send these two letters.
And I knew once I crossed that threshold
and started advertising my knowledge
of the ethical violations, this is going to go one of
two ways, but it's probably going to go the way I think it's going to go, which is not well for me.
I started making those decisions and I was wrestling with the Lord at one point. I said,
is this for sure what you want me to do? I need to know. This wasn't just a crazy dream. Maybe I
had too much whiskey the night before. Is this really what you want me to do? Are you asking me
to take this step in faith
and give you everything that I've bled for,
everything that I've watched my friends die for?
And it was interesting, I was on this prayer app
and I swiped right to the next verse.
And as I'm wrestling with the Lord on this,
the verse pops up, it's Exodus 20, verses three to four.
And I've read this verse in the past and many people have,
no one saw it for what it was. You're gonna dig it. I've had my phone. I pulled up it. I'll quote it. Basically, it's
Moses coming down off the mountain and he's telling the Israelites, he says, you shall have no other
gods before me and you shall not carve for yourself idols of images of beasts of the air,
beasts of the ground beneath the air and beasts of the water beneath the ground.
the air, beasts of the ground beneath the air, and beasts of the water beneath the ground. Wow.
Sea, air, and land.
The Trident.
It blew my mind, man.
Right as I was praying for, is this really what you want?
Are you telling me to give you my idol?
That's the verse that comes across my phone.
I started sobbing and laughing at the same time.
I'm belly laughing now.
I was like, you've got to be kidding me.
You have an incredible sense of humor. Okay. Message received. I'm belly laughing now. It's like, you got to be kidding me. You have an incredible sense of humor.
OK, message received.
I understand.
Now, I would offer at the time, I still
didn't understand the scope of where this would take me
to this moment today.
I didn't understand fully.
I was still hoping my career could
be salvaged at some point.
But I knew I was taking definitive steps
on a different path at that point.
And I was giving up something that had meant a lot to me.
But I was doing it for the right reasons, for truth,
for the values and the principles that we say matter to us.
For all the professional development,
you and I have sat there where they talk about the need for ethics
and the need for principles and the need for standing up to do what's right.
So about this time, right around that time,
I find out that they're going to release the
finished NETSE investigation out to the press.
I think it was late May, early June of 2023 now.
And the day before that happened, it was, I think they released on a Thursday.
Wednesday night, I was talking to my admiral about it.
And I said, hey, sir, pardon my language.
I said, how fucked up is it that I've not been briefed on any
of this?
This was my command.
You all say I have total responsibility for my command.
Okay.
Why have I not been confronted with any of the evidence that's been gathered here?
Why is the news going to hear about this before I do?
Why do I stand to learn more about this investigation into my command by watching the news this
weekend than I do by my own force?
Does that seem odd to anybody else?
That sounds terrible, Brad.
Really sorry about that.
Okay.
So they released the investigation.
And at that point, what I read redacted indicated to me that there were lies
throughout it. It was even worse than the original CI that we talked about.
At that point, that's when I started appealing Congress and saying, hey, I have problems.
All the things I previously highlighted in these letters, I started talking to congressmen about
because at that point I was convinced nobody else is going to be concerned about this. We have to go
outside the lifelines. The three congressmen that I appealed to gave me the time of day.
I said, listen, don't listen to me because it's a compelling story or because you like
me.
Look at the evidence I provide.
If you disagree with me, shoot me straight.
Tell me I'm taking crazy pills.
Within 24 hours, each of them and their staffs called back.
No, we're on your side.
This is insane.
We are submitting an official congressional inquiry that deliberately questions the investigative integrity
of what happened here.
And they did.
I think it was 40-something questions
they submitted to the Special Operations Legislative Affairs
Department of the Navy and said, here
are problems with what we see that looks like happening.
We want answers to these questions.
They were owed a response by mid-July of 2023. Here we are mid-June of 2024, and they've not received a response by July, mid July of 2023.
Here we are mid June of 2024 and they've not received a response yet.
Nothing.
Nothing.
Nothing.
Since it was your command, could you have ordered your own investigation?
Not at that point.
No.
No, no, they were, I was marginalized.
I was put in staff purgatory and I was the guy in the back seats of the room.
No one was paying attention to what I said.
That was one of my other problems too that I articulated up the chain of command.
I said, I'm seeing a lot of people making decisions about things that need to be done
over in the training command, yet no one's talked to me.
I'm concerned the wrong decisions are being made without the context that I have.
Why would nobody want to talk to me about this, especially given the fact that not only
did I do a commanding officer tour there, but it was a bonus command tour, and I'd done
my executive officer tour years ago.
Out of all the officers in Naval Special Warfare, not one other person has as much experience
than I do in our selection assessment and training in our pipeline than me.
Not one.
But you're making decisions based off of what?
What are you missing?
I don't know, I was concerned.
I think you're missing things.
Little did I know how much they were missing.
And let me just tell you, that's fact pattern alpha
for how even senior officers are treated
when something like this happens.
You're ostracized, you're excluded.
You're relegated to this happens. You're ostracized, you're excluded. You're relegated to this side
and you're lucky if you end up finding out why in detail.
Let's take a break.
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All right, Brad, we're back from the break.
I had a question about some candidates.
And if anybody witnessed Kyle using Yes.
So the answer is yes.
Drugs.
To explain that contextually, shortly after we were just
talking, I was again charged with NJP.
It was only at that point that I was now
able to fully see the entire 3,500 page investigation,
plus the 1,500 pages of references
that it was built from as well.
It was insane.
And it was the same MO that we had previously
experienced where I could only review it
on a standalone laptop in a closed environment
with no print capabilities.
I had a redacted version with everything blacked out
that I could print at home.
And so I would have to review at home with my wife
and attorney on the phone.
If we had questionable material, I would walk that into work, review it side by side, comparison
on the laptop, handwrite in the information that answered the question whether this is
relevant for us to pursue more of or not, and then rinse repeat for all 3,500 pages.
Keep in mind our first redacted copy we got from the press.
Right.
We hung it online.
So, very frustrating effort.
One of the first things I learned once I started reading everything was I came across that
original NCIS investigation that started when I was still in the command seat.
I finally had access to that.
Very interesting because I found out that within a month and a half of his death, NCIS had ripped his phone
and came across four separate text threads where Kyle was talking about using drugs,
sharing drugs, buying drugs. Can I get the contact info for a drug dealer and then contact with that
drug dealer about purchase and exchange of money for goods. What was that on? His phone.
That NCIS had ripped within a month and a half of his death.
And that was in the investigation?
This was in the NCIS investigation that I was now able to finally see in the fall of
23.
Is that the same investigation as the 3,500 page report?
No, that's just a referenced investigation inside the 3,500 page report.
Okay.
The NCIS criminal investigation.
It's buried within and hidden and obscured.
I thought that was very strange.
Here we had basically confessional.
We actually had Kyle on a text thread saying he had a bad reaction to his injection site
in his buttocks from apparently a bad batch of tea, indicating he may have gotten a bad
batch of testosterone and basically a confessional
saying he'd injected it himself.
What's interesting about that also is we found out through this, and I'm getting to your
question, no one ever tested the contents of the vials for any kind of contaminants,
even with that information.
So we don't know what he could have contained himself with.
When I later told the FBI and the DEA about that, they said, what about the fentanyl crisis
across the United States?
Did anyone think of that?
I said, well, that's a good question.
You should ask somebody else.
But all I know is they didn't bother testing the vials.
So we had now confessional text threads of using injecting with other people and the
purchase of drugs.
It took me about five minutes to realize, well, hang on a second.
Let me run those names through my student database and come to find out three of those
four text threads were with other candidates that were serving underneath my command.
So NCIS and Naval Special Warfare had information about people actively using
drugs with Kyle Mullen while I was still in command and withheld that information
from me and let me to continue to train them, knowing the risk that was
presenting to their health. Never disclosed it to me. I did another database search. One of them graduated is now a SEAL at SEAL Team 7.
So I asked my successor, hey, did anyone fill you in that you were training a guy who confessed to
using drugs and buying drugs and sharing drugs in text threads with Kyle Mullen? No.
So we were allowed to accept blind risk. While the narrative was, we care very much about these, and we want to stop this problem.
You had direct evidence within a month and a half of his death, and everyone ignored
it.
No follow-up questions by NCIS for any of those people, even though we had their names,
phone numbers, everything.
I double-checked the NETSE investigation.
Did anyone bother to question any of those guys?
Not one. Only one of them was questioned at one point.
It was before they discovered the text threads about him.
He was discovered as talking about how he visited Kyle in his room post-Hell Week Med
Checks, and he gave a description of how Kyle looked and behaved in that moment.
So let me get this straight.
We've got a guy who confessed to talking with Kyle after Med Checks were complete when we
all left the area. We also have that same guy on confessed to talking with Kyle after med checks were complete when we all left the area
We also have that same guy on text was talking about using drugs. We also have drugs found in his car with a cooler and ice packs
I
Mean, I I'm not a I'm not a detective but this isn't really that hard to piece together
And we had all maybe you should be maybe I should have been I didn't stay at a holiday
So, yeah, we have that information what's even worse than that I should have been. I didn't stay at a holiday and express myself.
So yeah, we have that information.
What's even worse than that, we've recently discovered a lawyer reached out to us and
what's the term I'm looking for, Jason?
You had me on this one.
The lawyer reached out to us and said, hey, is anyone-
An exculpatory email.
Yes, thank you.
Recently, and said, hey, by the way, I represent some clients.
We've been trying to get a hold of Naval Special Warfare.
I emailed them back in September when I was charged with mass and preparing for my defense.
And said, I represent clients that have exculpatory information that will clear the senior medical
officer, Brad, and the other officer as well.
So Jason reached out to him and said, what's this exculpatory information?
He said, well, I have guys who are willing to come forward if they're provided immunity
and admit that not only were they using drugs with Kyle, they saw him inject himself post
med checks complete right before he died.
So we said, well, the next question was, wait a minute, you sent Naval Special Warfare an
email about that last September while I was preparing for mass because nobody clued us in that we
had a line of exculpatory information that we should pursue in our defense.
That's a violation of due process rights.
And let's be clear, where they're going to come back and try to parse this is, you know,
NJP is not a criminal charge.
In a criminal charge, it criminal charge It is it is
A rule that all exculpatory information anything that would be materially helpful to defense has to be disclosed
um
I mean yet technically it's not a written rule that in an administrative proceeding you should disclose all exculpatory information
But it absolutely echoes in the same due process concerns You're basically going into something that is quasi criminal in nature, right?
And non-judicial punishment has charges
specifications your option if you deny
Mast or or NJP is to go to court-martial right to demand court-martial
So it's like just short of the criminal line, right?
And here they are holding an exculpatory piece of evidence
and just failing to disclose it to us in any way,
let alone re-scope some of the investigation,
let alone start inquiring as to areas
that would clear Kam Giri, right?
Other things we discovered.
Yeah, I was just gonna say,
but talk about accountability and talk about leadership. You still have the big Navy narrative, right? Other things we discovered. Yeah, I was just gonna say, but talk about accountability and talk about leadership.
You still have the big Navy narrative, right?
You still have the big Navy narrative,
which is performance enhancing drugs
had nothing to do with this death.
We have to look for a scapegoat for this.
So they have access to all this information
at the highest levels.
It's all out there even before these guys do,
let alone that.
That's one of the pieces of this that bothers me the most is they knew that and they're
allowing a false narrative, they're allowing him to catch the blame, they're allowing
his cadre to catch the blame when they have access to all this information.
Other things we discovered in those references for their total in 5,000 pages of material
here, they referenced that initial investigation that we showed through our rebuttal
that was false testimony fabricated evidence. They had said, my rebuttal was edifying. Here's what's interesting. They included the investigation we showed was false.
They excluded my rebuttal, which I provided them, which they said was edifying.
On top of that, they borrowed 12 enclosures of those summaries of interviews and reused those
same 12 enclosures in their new investigation, copy paste, now it's ours.
I already showed them the entire investigation was faulty and fabricated, and yet they not
only excluded mine, but they used them anyway.
Other things we found, they continued like we talked about, grabbed testimonies from
failed candidates, the pull-up candidate I talked to you about previously. He submitted false testimony. He said something to the effect of,
I believe Kamel is dead because Naval Special Warfare Basic Training Command cadre are drunk on
duty, remediating outside of curriculum, and denying medical coverage to candidates.
It was the most inflammatory thing I've ever read, absolutely patently untrue
and provably untrue.
And yet these are the testimonies that people were compiling and regurgitating in the narrative.
One of the opening lines-
Do you have recourse against these?
So I have filed-
Well, I have filed a complaint, allegations to the CNO, which the congressman also released,
so that's out there now, stating
all these point for point.
All of the things I say, hey, they claim this, we said this actually.
So we claim that they knowingly produced a false document, knowingly perpetuated untruths,
and we showed evidence to support all of that, to include everything we've said here and
more.
I've been met with silence so far.
Silence. Besides IG complaints or despite,
complaints of the CNO, there's no legal recourse.
Again, somebody who makes a false statement in uniform
is protected by the Federal Trotsky Claim Act.
Wow.
They claim point for point,
we were reducing interstitial recovery time, we were increasing
water time, we were reducing rest.
We were creating this scenario with these cadre that were running amok, creating all
this risk.
And yet, I was able to pull an email dated from about two weeks before Colin Mullen died
from my first phase officer in charge
talking about how we're trying to handle the curriculum,
or the attrition issue we've mentioned.
And it point for point contradicted exactly
what the NETSE report said.
He said, hey, sir, by the way, I've
given candidates an extra 30 minutes per meal
of total rest time.
By the way, uninterrupted rest time,
when you did meals in Bud's and how we...
Was that uninterrupted rest in your meals?
No.
Yeah.
You were harassed, we were messed with.
You weren't given rest.
You were eating quickly and then getting hazed.
So they had an extra two hours per day, 30 minutes per meal of rest than any of us had
in our generations.
He said, I moved a night swim from pre-hell week to post-hell week to reduce water time.
I've canceled some of our water immersion events just to reduce the risk of SIP and
more attrition.
I've mandated heads on beds at a certain time every single night to ensure they get enough
rest.
Did you have heads on beds time before Hell Week?
No.
Neither did I.
No.
There were a couple of other quantitative and measurable things he did.
All official records, official traffic, emails sent to me and I sent up to my boss,
all easy to access, took me five minutes to find them.
Just like it took me five minutes to find the text threads
were candidates of mine as well
that nobody ever followed up on.
And yet point for point, they claim the opposite
with 3,500 pages of rumors, conjecture,
an echo chamber of failed candidates
who like to throw them mud at BTC.
All of it is hard evidence.
I can show ContraDicts every assertion they made.
They claimed we never did an annual high-risk training safety review.
It turns out we did.
You were wrong.
If that was the only error in the investigation, I would assume maybe that was innocent and
unintentional, but in fact, the trend line shows pretty consistent bias here.
I found one testimony of a candidate who I didn't recognize the story.
I start digging, pull his name in our database and realize he was dropped from my successor
before I ever took command. So you included a testimony from someone that never even served
under me as evidence that I was a derelict and negligent commanding officer.
How is there no recourse against this shit?
Not only is there no recourse, that's very investigation This is the record said there's problems with and yet that's the very investigation was used as basis to levy charges against me again
And take me to NJP for the second time now for dereliction of duty and negligence, but all based upon false
untruths, knowingly demonstrable untruths.
We showed it point for point.
Yet, I said, hey, here's all the evidence that we have that contradicts this.
Waiting for someone to say we're dropping all charges against you.
In the meantime, the two charges levied against us that are important to note, one of them
was just the safety reviews which we did.
We can show that's just false.
We did it.
The other one was you failed to provide adequate oversight of your medical department.
We already talked about that a little bit.
What's interesting here is take a step back.
I know that Naval Special Warfare outsourced this whole investigation to a team of attorneys
who are like prosecuting attorneys, the Regional Legal Services Office, real so.
Their job is to hunt for the crime and be able to say, we can prosecute these guys in
a court.
Someone in the room, when they debriefed their findings, came back and said that they told
our leadership, not only is there no evidence of a crime by basic training command cadre,
there's no evidence to suggest they ever stepped outside of the left and rights of curriculum
execution.
They stayed in their lanes.
This is why that's important.
Those two charges levied against me after they'd had this investigation now for nine
months and digested with their staff that we talked about all 3,500 pages with another
1,500 pages.
At that point, Jason and I decided, hey, we're going to start taking action back to like
putting my Trident on the wall, it's time, or on the cross.
We filed allegations of fraud against the United States Navy, certain officials for
that false press release that we said was a known lie at that point.
I notified our chain of command that in fact we did that.
I said, hey, I'm being open and transparent like any good sailor is supposed to be.
Please think of this as independent of anything you're supposed to adjudicate, unrelated,
but I have to take action on this.
I've expressed why I have a problem with it.
Within 24 hours of me notifying them that I did that, an additional charge was added
to my NJP.
That charge stated explicitly exactly the opposite of what Reel So had reported.
They started alleging that Mike Cadre had stepped outside
of the left and rights of curriculum to a degree
that brought dishonor to the United States government.
How so?
No one can give me any examples.
We just know what happened, Brad.
Basically, failure to supervise as a Article 134
general article offense.
So not even dereliction of duty,
just general failure to enforce standards.
So after nine months of digesting this,
coming up with two charges,
24 hours after I say there's a problem over here
in the United States Navy,
you all of a sudden think of a third charge
that happens to contradict all the legal advice
you got from prosecuting attorneys?
It's very strange.
Which would have to be disclosed to us
if they charged him criminally.
Again, exculpatory
information, right? That they haven't. That if we didn't have people that would come forward
to us independently, we would never know about.
It was around this time I finally stopped naively hoping that people would do the right
thing. And I started realizing we were being reprised against.
I mean, why?
Why?
What's happening? It would be speculation if I had to guess, but...
I'd love to hear some speculation.
I think...
What I've noticed a trend in the United States government of when somebody dies,
there is a desire to get to the conclusion that they died in the line of duty.
The reason is the next of kin get the SGLI life insurance at that point.
If his death was associated with misconduct using illegal substances on government property,
well, now it gets debatable whether he died in the line of duty or not.
So all of a sudden, the life insurance is off the table.
I think it was a well-intentioned early twist to get to he died in the line of duty.
And the only way he can get there is by ignoring all the drugs, which is why they didn't test
for him, which is why they didn't test the contents of the drugs, which is why they left
it all out of all the narratives.
So they could say that and then move on, hoping this would all go behind us.
Unfortunately, like I talked to you early on, a small lie, even for the right reasons,
can turn into institutional deception and can cost people their careers and reputations.
And if this had just been me, okay, but when you start vilifying my cadre and painting
a picture that they were doing precisely the opposite of what they were doing, well, that's a step too far.
They served honorably.
They were trustworthy.
They executed curriculum professionally only every time.
I said, I've had a lot of experience in this world.
I'm not an idiot.
We talked about trust and autonomy, but we also talked about proportion and accountability.
I trusted them and I know that they executed my trust because I checked in on them.
I would sneak over to Proctor Hour.
Lights are out, everyone's gone for the day.
You remember Proctor Hours.
And I would sit outside the door and listen.
And only every single time did I hear nothing but clean mentorship going on.
No hazing, no beat downs, no getting wet and sandy, just good old fashioned, here's what
you guys did today, here's how I need you to be better. This is what's expected of you in naval special warfare.
I must have done that a dozen or so times.
I started having internal naysayers
back when we saw attrition.
Some of our GS employees, our gray beards,
were starting to say, the cadre are running amok.
The cadre are running amok.
OK, I'd go out to first phase.
When was the last time you saw that person, that GS-13,
at an evolution?
We haven't seen him yet, sir.
Okay, so they're telling me Kadri's a muck, but they're not here to watch it? No, okay.
Well, let me come out then, at least see.
So I got under the boat.
I got under the boat and ran Lampo with candidates more than I think most COs
before me.
I did it at one point with a broken foot in a boot and
was told to not be on my feet, yet I found myself under the boat.
Not because I'm that bad ass, but because I wanted to see how bad is this training really.
I had my Apple watch on checking the pace.
We were clean inside of curriculum.
Every time I looked, I found nothing.
I found nothing but professionalism and cadre actually leading coaching and mentoring all
the attributes you and I have been talking about all day and positively reinforcing these guys when they succeeded and then help them pick them up when they failed.
I saw it every single time. I'm not naive.
I brought in people to help expose my blind risk. What am I missing, guys?
What am I not seeing?
I'd ask senior officers, hey, show me where I'm wrong. What am I missing?
They would bring up things that were just ludicrous.
I told you about a pier earlier, I think, over breakfast. Well, Brad, you know, I heard that an instructor came to a boat and said,
by the time I'm back on my next shift, these guys, one of you guys will DOR. And then he came back and a guy had DOR'd.
So that's evidence to me that your cadre were running amok. Oh, okay.
I looked at my peer and said,
did that happen in your bud's class 25 years ago?
Well, yeah. Okay.
Weird. It happened in mine too.
I think it happened in yours is what you said.
So while that's not good instructing,
while we don't endorse that kind of behavior,
we've established a cultural norm here.
Nothing changed from the last 25 years, at least in that realm.
And by the way, if that's all it took that guy to quit,
is that who you really want to
go downrange with.
So what have you shown me?
Nothing.
Show me something.
Nobody has yet to give me any quantifiable evidence which shows our instructors are running
a muck.
To the opposite, actually, I find nothing but evidence that they were professional and
trustworthy the entire time.
Are they perfect?
Absolutely not.
Nobody's perfect, especially Seals and Swicks.
You know that.
We've got our rough edges. but man, they were professional.
I would offer the NetSea investigation 3,500 pages as proof of that.
The only thing they found in an entire investigation that was actually like anything close to a
bit of evidence was rumor that one of my instructors might have made a joke offhand comment about
using PEDs at some point. But for the couple people that reported that might have happened, joke, offhand comment, about using PEDs at some point.
But for the couple people that reported that
might have happened, there were others who said,
absolutely not, that guy would have never said
something like that.
It was nothing.
You dug that hard and you found nothing on us.
That's fantastic.
I couldn't be more proud of my command for that.
That's it. They served honorably.
To the attrition part, golly, the thing
that was conflated in this whole thing that Netzi jumped on,
because back to your point, if you have the end game
that he didn't die from PEDS, well, what did he die from?
And then you find that there was large attrition
to that period of time, well, you're
going to conflate those and say, ah, they're causative.
Well, that's overly simplistic.
It's multivariable.
We talked about COVID being a big part.
We talked about nav admins coming down.
But the way some of the people that betrayed me framed it was, well, look at the collective
data from the two years Brad was there.
In that collective data, what you'll see is the attrition rate's higher for the time he
was there with his first phase OIC.
They were deliberately redlining candidates is the argument.
That's the narrative that spun and perpetuated through this investigation.
When you actually break down the data, which is accurate, again, there's misleading things.
Like when the Navy early on said, we found drugs in his car, his toxicology came back
negative.
Okay.
Those are two independent facts, but when placed together, it implies that
your toxicology screened for the drugs, which we know that you didn't. That's misleading. That's
deliberately misleading. Same thing with the attrition piece. Yes, if you look at one number
in my command tour, it looks like our attrition was higher, which you might be able to reasonably
say, yeah, clearly that's evidence that you guys might have been ramping things up.
Except when you actually start breaking it down into a graph, which I did,
you guys might have been ramping things up. Except when you actually start breaking it down
into a graph, which I did, what you'll see
is a couple distinct spikes of attrition.
Okay, and what's interesting too is the people
that started lying about us started at a certain date
which was into my command tour.
So why didn't they include all the command tour time?
Why did they start here and not back here?
Well, because right here where they started
is right when that first phase OIC checked on board.
And that fits their narrative, that he and I conspired to just red line candidates.
Well, the problem with that is if you back it up a couple of classes, you see that there's
actually a bubble of attrition that predates him.
OK, well, so if it predated him, he wasn't the causal factor then.
You can at least clear that up.
So what was the causal factor?
Well, in that bump, I went back to my old data
and found we actually did a huge detailed analysis
on those classes.
And what we did was we compared them to the classes
from the previous year.
Because we always do that for the same seasons
because you don't want to compare a summer
and a winter class.
What we found was that the DORs, or the quitting, the quitters,
the percentages overall were almost equal year by year. And in fact, in one of my classes, the percentage was better.
We had less percentage proportionate of DORs than the previous year, who was my predecessor.
It was different command, different everybody.
Okay.
If the quitters were about the same, what accounts for the growth in attrition?
We realized it was medical, medical attrition.
Okay. an attrition, we realized it was medical, medical attrition. Well, the next thought process someone might provide is, well, yeah, you guys clearly ramped
up training so hard that you were hurting people, except we've already discussed that
one of our clear goals was to reduce medical attrition by revising curriculum, which we
accomplished.
When you take down the medical attrition and you break down into those multivariables,
you see that the injury is actually reduced.
So then what accounts for the medical attrition? Oh, COVID rolls. You can overlay data showing
time and space when all these nav admins are coming down, implementing new policies and new
rules and new procedures, which were causing us to have to pull exceptions to policy and slow down
our processing. We had to pull these guys and roll them into another class to then reset for
another date, which we talked about, always
increases the percentage of attrition.
That accounts for those classes.
Well, that's weird.
We had all that data.
In fact, the guy that helped me compile the data is the very guy that then later told
everyone that, no, it was just Brad and his OIC ramping up training.
Huh.
I've got your early analysis showing that it was the medical stuff, all the COVID related
stuff, yet later you're saying something different.
Well, that sounds like you perjured yourself. Beyond
that, the next spike, very, very interesting for me. I was going to draw it out, but I
think I can talk to it. The next spike happened at one precise moment in time and it went
off the charts in attrition, class 351, the class before Kyle Mullins. This was an interesting one.
So what happened?
OK, well, if we're going to believe the narrative, then precisely that moment in time, my OIC
and I decided, send it.
Let's just redline these guys and get them all to quit.
Why not?
Let's just do it for the hell of it.
That's an argument you could make.
OK, well, what other variables change other than that theory?
Well, if you look at it, what you'll find is there's two other variables.
The first one is 351 was the first class that we had a female get into first phase ever.
So the next argument someone could make is, well, we have Brad's sexist and he was just
trying to ramp up trading to drive the woman out, except my history of proven performance
speaks exactly the opposite.
We talked in the break about we, while I was in command graduated the first female SWIC
operator ever in the history of Naval Special Warfare.
While I was a commanding officer at STV Team 1, we employed the first female operational
Navy diver on a real world op, ever.
Had nothing but consistent command climate surveys come back talking about equality of
opportunity being a major priority of mine. When we talked to that female candidate after she
didn't make it in first phase, I sat down with her, my command master chief, tell us what we're
missing. Tell us what we could have done better. We're trying to make this total equality of
opportunity for everyone here equal and fair chance. Sir, I have no suggestions. This place
was fantastic. Not only is your staff professional, they mentored me personally when I went through
some serious life challenges while I was here, and I can't thank them enough for the impact
they had in my life.
I'm so proud.
So proud of my cadre.
So the data shows actually, no, no, no, we were the opposite of sexist.
We were providing equality of opportunity every time, all day, every single day.
So then what's the only variable that changed?
I think it might be good if you go into specifics.
Was it the female in the SWIC?
Yeah.
Let's go into that just to show character.
Sounds good.
Talking about the story we talked about earlier offline.
Yes.
Yeah.
So this was fascinating. It was such an interesting growth for us as a command.
At one point, when Congress rescinded the exclusionary rule and we started knowing we're
going to be bringing women into these combat roles, Naval Special Warfare was very proactive
and we brought in female instructors from other rates out there in the Navy to instruct
and be integrated fully
within our cadre for a couple of reasons. One, make sure we're unbiased, make sure we're getting
that perspective from a female, usually war vet if possible. Two, provide internal accountability
to make sure we weren't going to drive things off the rails or even be perceived at that.
Three, they provided to be great mentors for female candidates that would come through
the pipeline.
Someone who's been there and done that, not as a SEAL or SWIC, but can at least help you
understand what this looks like.
So we had a female master chief as one of our first phase instructors, EOD, absolute
professional.
I mean, just top notchfighter, trustworthy professional, one
of my closest advisors who I'd always go to for, hey, give me some context, give me some
perspective.
She was engaged with this female SWIC as she went through the pipeline.
At some point, our female SWIC candidate failed in evolution.
We did the independent boards and they all came back with the recommendation, hey, you
should drop her from training, sir.
It's time.
I said, okay, well, let me go back and look at her records like we talked about, her peer
reviews, her data.
Turns out she's a pretty dang good performer overall, top half of her class on most stuff.
She was pretty consistent and reliable and showed some great character attributes along
the way, just really impressive standout among some peers.
I said, so what's different here?
Because we've had other male candidates fail this one evolution and we've retained them
or given them another chance.
Sometimes we'll give a second chance, allow them to fall forward.
So what's different here?
Why would I drop her versus them?
One of them said, well, because she cried.
I said, all right, well, I get it.
No crying in NSW.
It's uncomfortable.
That's certainly a foreign thing for us being in a male-dominated industry for so long.
Let's break that down then.
Let's figure out what's going on here.
We brought in those female combat veterans and we brought in the psychs.
We sat down at a big meeting and said, okay, let's break this down.
I said, hey, from my EOD master chief, hey, have you ever cried in a stressful scenario?
She said, well, yeah, sometimes.
It's always uncomfortable.
But yeah, it's happened.
OK.
So, psychs, what's normal?
What's the bell curve of normal for male and female
when we process stress and how that manifests itself
physically?
Well, typically men get angry, apparently,
and women cry, apparently apparently not true for all, you know, it's it's the bell curve
But that's the statistical norm of what they see from a psychological perspective. So then as we broke that down we then said well
What's better or worse crying or being angry? Does it really matter and turns out it doesn't
What really matters is can you?
Perform the task through the stress regardless of what
that stress manifests as emotionally?
And then we realized, yeah, I really don't care if you're angry or you're crying as long
as you're blasting the enemy's face off with a 50 cal and accomplishing the task.
So then we pulled her in the room and said, let's have a discussion about this.
Hey, here's a mentor who's had this happen before in a male-dominated industry and how she survived it.
She's going to lead coach and mentor you
through what this looks like.
We're going to give you one more opportunity
because you've earned it.
We see your track record and it's fantastic.
You got to accomplish this.
I don't care if you cry anymore.
Turns out we don't really care about that.
What we're really selecting and assessing for is,
can you manage your stress and can you perform the tasks?
So feel free to cry all you want,
but we got to get you to accomplish the task.
And she did.
She totally knocked it out of the park the next time
and graduated and went on to be the first female
SWCC operator out on the East Coast.
And what's beautiful about that too,
it was such a great case study on,
this is what happens when you hold the standard
and she meets it, She's now earned it.
And we have total equality of opportunity.
And then what I saw is when people started naysaying her, we heard that you guys lowered
the standard.
Her cadre came in and defended her.
No, no, no, no.
Our little sister met the standard.
I know because I held the standard and she met it.
That was a beautiful thing to see.
It's one thing for a commanding officer to come in, no, no, no, we did the right things.
Okay, sure.
But when your cadre at the E6 and E5 level are vouching and saying, no, no, no, she earned
it.
Every single day, every single opportunity she earned.
Now she's our teammate.
She's our sister.
Go get to work, Ro.
It's an incredible learning opportunity.
Super fun to be a part of that.
So the argument that I was running women out of training doesn't stand.
It doesn't stand.
It leaves the only other variable remaining.
The only thing that changed between class 350 and 351, and this can be controversial,
the mandatory COVID vaccine.
It's the only variable that changed.
Now, let me qualify that with I do not want to get into the politicized debate about all
the things that happened during COVID.
However, what both sides of the aisle have absolutely agreed upon is that the vaccine
produces fatigue, as does the virus.
Sometimes long fatigue, it happens.
Having had the virus both times and the vaccine, I can tell you, yeah, it produces a lot of fatigue in me
as well.
So what's interesting is the mandate for the vaccine
came down for class 350, but it was the week
before they started Hell Week.
So we said, no, no, no, we're going to waive that.
That's way too close.
It's way too much risk.
We don't know what's going to happen.
So we let them do it after Hell Week.
So 351 was the very first class that we then
gave the COVID vaccine to as they started first phase,
right beforehand.
What's interesting about that too is all the attrition data for classes 351, 352, which is where Kyle died, and 353
show that the majority of the attrition happened within the first 48 to 72 hours of those classes,
which was another anomaly that was different from everything we'd seen in the past.
Well, kind of makes sense when you think about the fact that these guys were just really fatigued.
You gave them a shot that fatigued them
and then expected them to perform
in some of the most difficult training
as we dropped the hammer on day one of first phase,
and then we acted surprised when they all quit.
I can't remember which class it was,
but one of them, over 100 people quit within 72 hours.
The helmets had lined the corner.
We weren't even done with week one.
I brought in a PhD because I was losing my mind.
I'm like, I need you to help me.
Like, what is going on?
And he said, Brad, I'm telling you,
I've looked at this stuff for 14 years.
I've studied every single soft branch and selection
assessment and training.
When this kind of thing happens, it's
usually Kajre running amok.
I was like, come look, please.
Tell me.
Tell me I'm taking crazy pills. He's like, I'm bringing my bias with amok. I was like, come look, please tell me. Tell me I'm taking crazy pills.
He's like, I'm bringing my bias with me, just so you know.
I said, bring your bias.
He walked away and said, it's not your Kadre.
At the time, we hadn't isolated it down to that one variable,
but he had a lot of other variables
he added to the mix, which were absolutely contributory as well.
So it's just a false narrative that we were just ramping up training.
The data shows it.
It's the only variable that changed.
What's interesting too is the attrition starts dropping off a few classes later.
Well, why?
Well, that would make sense as now people are entering the Navy, going to boot camp,
getting their shot at boot camp, and having 12 weeks to bleed off the effects of the fatigue
before they check into buds, then do the seven weeks of prep, and then start first phase.
So it makes sense the attrition would start spiking down
right about the time I changed command, by the way.
So inconvenient for me, it looks like,
oh, Brad left and things started getting fixed.
No, they started self-correcting based upon the variables.
Nothing was broken, nothing needs to be fixed.
Nothing needed to be fixed.
There were small things like we said, happy to glad.
We fixed those, nothing else.
Has the curriculum changed at all since you've left? Well, a couple of things have we said, happy to glad. We fixed those. Nothing else. Has the curriculum changed at all since you left?
Well, a couple of things have been changed.
Yes.
I don't know specifically.
Like I said, a lot of people don't talk to me anymore.
But for the most part, they've tried to hold the line.
But this comes back to why I come forward now is I've heard people start to perpetuate
the lies inside the force.
That's always a dangerous thing because now people start making decisions and saying things
like we fixed a problem.
Well, if you implemented a solution to a problem that actually didn't exist, that can create,
back to the discussion on risk, more blind risk that we're not even tracking right now.
Where did that get deferred to?
What did you solve?
Did you make things better or worse?
I'm hearing a lot of big talking points about we fix things.
We fixed the toxic culture.
There was no toxic culture.
I had one of the medical professionals tell me recently, he was one of the last ones standing
that was there when I was there.
He said, oh yeah, everyone now loves to talk about how they fixed medical.
He said, there was nothing broken with it.
It was fine.
It was fantastic, actually.
He said, what I would offer, back to our discussion on risk, he said, now the only thing that's changed is we have
more policies and procedures in place, which are really cover your ass for accountability,
but that's more paperwork and more administrative work for us to do. But we don't have more
manpower to do it. And we don't have more time in the day to do it. So we're spending
more time now doing those things, which make us look like we're doing things better,
but that's actually detracting
from our real mission of patient care.
So are we really doing things better
or are we incurring even more risk?
There's a couple things to be fair,
I gotta give credit where credit's due,
we're doing better.
We're doing this whole system now
where they finish out week and they go into one big room
and we have all their data up
and they're wearing heart rate monitors
and all the resources that we've been asking for for 10 years and couldn't get are now
there. And so they're doing a better job of managing awareness on candidate health after
Hell Week. That's great. But here's what I'd counter that with. We'd been doing virtually the
same thing since 1943 when Jay Perkofman started Hell Week and we'd never once had a problem
thing since 1943 when Jayaprak Kauffman started Hell Week, and we never once had a problem with someone post-Hell Week MedChex complete going that fast into decomposition and death.
So what's the outlying variable?
Well, it's the drugs.
So if we just remove the drugs, well, then we probably wouldn't need all these other
resources to do all this other stuff, which makes it look like we're doing better, because
there's only a problem because of this unknown variable at the time.
Have they implemented any type of drug policy?
Yes, there is now an official drug policy
and they are testing for it.
They have the resources and the authorities for it.
So that is happening, which is good, but this is the other.
Why did they implement that?
I don't understand.
Great question.
Because it's hazardous to your health apparently. Yeah. I mean, if there's never been a problem with that before, then why did they implement it
all of a sudden?
Great question.
Right?
Why spend the money for the expensive tests for steroids, the additional testing?
Especially if he didn't die due to steroids.
It's interesting.
The other unintended consequence, two other unintended consequences back to decisions
and what are we incentivizing and disincentivizing.
The greatest deterrent factor we had for candidates to be afraid of using PEDs was this fear that
Kyle had died because of the PEDs, which I think is accurate and fair.
That's a natural fear that people are now who were thinking about taking that risk because
by the way, these are young 18 to 24 year old men.
They tend to make bad decisions from time to time, I hear.
So they were willing to take those risks, but they were fearful now that that could
have killed them.
So a lot of them, I'm going cold turkey here.
What I heard from the candidate network, because I kept in touch with quite a few of them,
when the Navy released that press statement saying drugs didn't kill him, well, the candidates
believe that.
So we just sabotaged our own efforts.
If we really don't want them to use drugs,
we just sabotage that because we removed the fear factor
and the only deterrent we really had.
Now we're back to square one of, well, it's a policy,
and you better not do it, and we mean it.
Now we'll start testing for it.
That'll help.
But that's absurd to me that we allowed that to happen.
We sabotaged our own efforts.
Beyond that, I'd offer that by saying that in any way at all, we've denied the Mullen
family closure to their son's death.
That's cruel.
Because without that as the causative factor, they're always going to pursue an answer.
But why did he die?
Who failed?
Someone must have failed.
That's cruel. That's cruel.
It puts him on a never-ending search for closure, which I don't think you'll ever find because
you're looking in the wrong direction. Kyle wasn't the villain here. That's not the moral
of the story. Kyle was a young man who made a couple bad decisions. That doesn't make
him a bad human being, doesn't make him a man of bad character, makes him
pretty normal for a 24-year-old man who every once in a while makes bad decisions.
Those decisions came with a catastrophic cost, unfortunately.
We could be doing so much more in that messaging if we would just be honest about his death.
Yeah, I'm glad you said that.
It's not Kyle.
It's not his family, it's the Navy.
And going back to your why question, I place the blame entirely at the feet of the Secretary
of the Navy, 100%.
He set the tone here almost immediately early on.
And you know, our armed forces do really well to execute on intent.
And he set the tone that highlighting Kyle Mullin's drug use was victim blaming, right?
This is the message we get, and that we weren't going to do that.
And so if we're not going to do that, then what does that leave? Well that leaves all of these permutations, that leads all of these misconstrued investigations,
right?
Because we're gonna meet that intent.
And you know what's insidious about it, and I've seen it play out in so many different
cases that resonate at this level, is that the investigating officers don't know they're
doing it sometimes.
I don't think they come in saying, I'm going to be biased, I'm going to be unfair, I'm
going to misrepresent, I'm going to misconstrue.
But they do execute on it and they do inject investigational bias.
And they do, I mean, NCIS, for example, reports directly to the Secretary of the Navy.
It was taken out of the command chain back in the day and is a direct report to the Secretary of the Navy
I am under firm firm belief that as we continue to prosecute this case in whatever direction
someday we're gonna get records access that shows a direct line between the Secretary of the Navy's office and NCIS and
And an instruction to stop investigating well, I'd offer offer two, Jason. Some of them may not know.
They may be unwitting.
I'm not sure, but the trend lines would suggest otherwise.
Other examples that we didn't even get into
was as I was getting into the investigation
to build my defense, and I noticed at that point
I had that line of duty that had been changed.
I asked for access to the original one,
if you remember, that had been outsourced
to Admiral Kitchener to be independently verified.
And what I was told by the forced judge advocate at the time, I have an email,
Brad, that investigation was never signed or serialized, and it was never independently
verified by Admiral Kitchener. And I said, well, that's interesting because I just LinkedIn
messaged Admiral Kitchener retired who said, I stand by my independent review of that investigation.
So can you please give it to me now? Yeah.
And he delivered it within 24 hours.
Yeah.
That's very interesting to me.
Because to be clear, in Brad's case,
I think a lot was done intentionally.
I'm speaking generally that I don't
think every time an investigating officer is
going in here with an investigational bias.
All the evidence to the contrary in Captain Geary's case,
by far.
Another interesting data point. Coming into Thanksgiving week as we're preparing for
mass now, again, digging through piles and piles of papers, comparing notes and everything.
My boss at the time, who was a GS-15, I was working directly for him as a staff officer.
Our command reached out to him and said, hey, we're thinking of tasking Brad with something
new.
Are you good with that? And he wrote a very robust reply saying, absolutely not. First off,
Brad's consumed with over 5,000 pages of documents. He's very in-depth with that.
We're doing a human factors council right now, which he's involved in measuring all of our leaders
in our shop. By the way, of all those people, Brad is my most redlined human factors
individual right now because of the stresses on his life.
In addition to all this other stuff, his son just developed an autoimmune disease
partly catalyzed by the stress their family's under.
His wife was just diagnosed with PTSD from this and has an ongoing ulcer.
I'm paraphrasing a little bit.
And he said his tagline at the end was, at this time,
I do not recommend giving Brad any extra work that
could be perceived as frustrating his efforts
to prepare his legal defense.
Wednesday afternoon, after receiving that email of advice
from my boss, Wednesday afternoon before Thanksgiving,
I get a phone call from our command.
Quote, on speakerphone, my wife heard it.
So Brad, I was talking with the Jags,
and we're concerned that we're giving you too much time
to prepare for NJP because it puts the command at risk.
So we're gonna give you an additional task.
Are you serious?
I'm dead serious.
Verbatim.
I said, let me, I said, what risk?
What risk?
Can you articulate the risk?
Well, we're giving you this so much time, and so we have to give this amount of time
to everybody in the future if we charge them.
So if we have a fictional future E6 that we charge with mass, we have to give them this
much time.
I said, okay, first off, you're saying this based off of a fictional future scenario?
That's arbitrary.
Second off, if that E6 has 3,500 pages of evidence to review and is being frustrated
in his efforts to review it, yeah, you give him this much time.
If he has 100 pages, well then proportionately you give him the amount of time he needs to
review 100 pages.
These are leadership decisions.
This isn't risk.
Do you hear how stupid that sounds as I say it back to you?
I may not have been that brash in my comment back, but it was something to that effect.
Well, so you're saying you won't do it?
I said, well, I'm saying there's a conflict of interest here because by the way, what
you're asking me to do is inappropriate.
You're asking me to do a get real, get better survey for our force.
By the way, you know very much that part of my allegations are against the very people
that authored that saying.
So this is weird.
Does anyone else not see this as a conflict of interest
and inappropriate right now?
Pause, have a nice Thanksgiving, hang up, email on Sunday,
need you to come into work tomorrow.
Go into work, hey, we're gonna have you do this.
All right.
Yeah, and let me frame it,
that if we were anywhere outside of the administrative space if we were
In a criminal space for example an intentional attempt
Stated intent to frustrate your defense would be on lawful command influence. It would dismiss the case
Right, but here we are in administrative having commanded twice having commanded twice if one of my sailors came to me and said
My son was going through
the health crisis that our son was dealing with, this was catastrophic.
This broke me to my core.
I had to fly my wife to a conference in Florida who was dealing with this autoimmune disease
to figure out some single parent dadding while building my defense in NJP.
While having to go to an air gap laptop.
Yes.
If anyone of my sailors would come to me with a problem like that, the only thing that
we would have said was, come off line, take care of your family business.
You got a lot going on right now, man.
You tell us when you're ready to come back.
Instead, you're finding things for me to do because you think it's a risk to the command
by letting me prepare a defense.
When I'm mounted against thousands of documents and it's just me, my
wife and my attorney pouring through them when you had nine months with countless staff
officers and legal professionals to digest this for you.
It's mind blowing, man.
The trend line is insane.
It's insane.
All that said, I have to throw this out there back to our faith and the journey that God took us on this.
And this is how I can sit here and I can have this conversation.
This is why I can have this conversation.
This is a big part.
As I was questioning God, why did you do this
like I questioned Him about Adam?
Give me insight into your will here.
Help me understand this. He brought me insight into your will here.
Help me understand this.
He brought me to the book of John.
Similar to that other verse it just came across.
It was particularly John 15.
And it's Jesus talking.
And he said, you'll recognize the verse.
The verse is, he says, I'm the vine.
My father's the vine dresser.
You are the branches.
Branches that produce, the branches that do not produce fruit are cut off and thrown branches. Branches that produce, branches that do not produce fruit
are cut off and thrown away.
Branches that do produce fruit are pruned by the father
so that they'll produce more fruit.
And I realized this is our season of pruning.
I was having a hard time with anger.
I talked to you in the past about the wrath
and the rage I was experiencing, the extortion.
I had that again.
My wife even called it out one morning.
She said, I see the spirit of extortion on you.
You have got to figure out this anger again.
It's back, and I haven't seen it in a decade.
I was asking for help there, and this was the answer.
And what I mean is, I realized back to basic training command,
I talked to you about my CMC, putting his hand on me
and praying over me.
We were men of strong faith and leading by faith-based principles during that time, and
we were producing fruit.
We weren't Bible-beating, but we were pretty open about what we stood for.
I was pretty open about my philosophy, being rooted in the fact that I'm called to love
my neighbor.
In doing that, I love my command.
I love my cadre, and I love my candidates
and I'm gonna do the best I can for them. So I knew that we were producing fruit more probably
than I've ever produced in my whole career. It was a different era and it felt amazing.
So this was my reward. This season of punishment, of actual pain and suffering, and just took me
to my knees in absolute brokenness, betrayal was my season of pruning.
And if that's the case, well, then this was orchestrated by God the Father as a reward
for what I had done in preparation for a coming season in which we'll produce even more fruit.
So if that's the case, which I think it is, God is sovereign.
He was never surprised by this.
Not only was he not surprised by it, he allowed it and ordained it and orchestrated it to happen, which means even the people that betrayed me with evil intent and lied about me and
perjured themselves about me and built this false narrative about me and my cadre and
our senior medical officer, who's one of the best doctors I've ever met, even though they
meant us evil intent, well, that doesn't matter.
God sabotaged their intent and has used it for his purposes and my good.
And I know what that's going to look like in the coming season, which is goodness.
That's how we can get to forgiveness.
Because if I'm going to be mad at them, then I've got to be mad at God.
But I know what he's doing, so I can't be mad at him.
Therefore, I have to forgive.
And when I got to that epiphany, it's the most beautiful place in the world.
Because all of a sudden, the anger was gone and there was nothing but peace.
I came home and I told Amy about this revelation I had had, this epiphany, and she starts crying
and I'm crying and she says, well, how do you feel?
I said, total peace.
Total peace.
I'm free.
I'm free from the anger.
It's no longer there because I know what's happening and why it's happening now.
Now all I have to do is endure and know that suffering produces endurance,
endurance produces character and character produces hope.
And I know where that's going to take us as a family.
We're going to produce a lot of fruit in the coming season.
It's going to be magnificent. So now and only then am I free to make this fight
because before it would be a fight based upon vengeance.
It'd be a fight based upon my pain. We'd be speaking from our pain,
which is never a healthy place to fight from. Now I speak from peace and from love.
I'm not fighting you because I'm angry at you and I want vengeance. Not at all. I'm fighting
because it's the right thing to do, which gives me the moral high ground. I'm fighting because
it's the right thing to do because I love the United States Navy, because I love naval special
warfare. So I'm fighting from place of love. I wish you no ill will.
I hope you come clean and apologize for what you did.
I will provide you the grace and mercy that's been provided me.
But I can fight now cleanly.
And I can fight from a moral high ground.
And that's what allows me to do it with a clear conscience and sit here and have these
conversations and sleep well at night, because I know the heart I'm coming out from this.
This is what love looks like, and this is what it offers. We probably get close to wrapping up here soon.
I know it's gone late.
I want, if you could say, what do you guys want out of this?
I would want congressional immunity administratively and testimonially for those gentlemen who
are willing to come forward if provided immunity.
I want an official apology from the United States Navy to my command center, the senior
medical officer, and all of our families that were involved in this who have been raked
across the coals for two and a half years now.
I would like punitive letters of reprimand written for every single officer that participated
in this deceit or perpetuated or was even complicit in it and allowed it to keep going.
All that said, like I just talked about and like we've hit on, I'm a flawed man and I've
had made a lot of mistakes in my career.
I was fortunate to have some of those leaders we talked about
press in with me, lead, coach, and mentor me,
and provide me grace and mercy when
I needed it to fall forward and grow through those trials.
I've been provided grace and mercy
by our Lord Jesus Christ, and then some.
When I was in my dark days of extortion,
He left the 99 to come back for me.
And so I have to be willing to provide the same to even my enemies,
and I'm willing to do that.
And so what I offer is, in spite of all the things that I want,
if people come forward, and I hope they hear me right now,
if they come forward individually with a public apology that admits what they did and it includes,
I'm sorry, please forgive me, all that stuff gets wiped clean.
I won't pursue anything with them.
In fact, I will be the first advocate to allow them to fall forward and continue their naval
service honorably and move forward into the future.
This is what love looks like.
This is what I've been taught through this whole thing.
It's the entire reason why we're here here Sean. This is what love looks like. It will risk
everything for those entrusted to their care. I risk it all for my cadre and for
our medical professionals and for our senior medical officer. Everything I lay
on the line by sitting here and telling this story and exposing myself. I risk it
all for them and I do it with joy and this is what love looks like.
Forgiveness, grace and mercy to my enemies
if they ask for it, it's theirs.
I'm happy you found that piece.
I am very happy you found that piece.
It's everything.
Sounds like my last question was gonna be
what's your best case scenario?
And I think you just described it.
And I would just say to piggyback on that,
and it's hard to add anything to what he just poured out.
I mean, think about everything he's been through
and what he's done.
I mean, that's why I'm here.
That's why I'm here sitting next to him as two pastors, guys
from Apologia Church in Arizona.
Jeff Durbin and Luke Pearson met me
because they had a room full of Navy SEALs
that didn't know what to do.
They were being threatened with court martial
over the COVID mandate.
And that was a leadership crisis.
That was a moral crisis.
They were being lied to.
They were being threatened.
I got a phone call in the middle of the night.
I was there.
My brother's in the Navy.
So that's why this fight matters.
So understand, Brad's a target because of his faith.
He failed the loyalty test.
At multiple points in this,
he put the truth and integrity
over the institution and the institutional lie
because someone thought, because of woke ideas,
because of you can't blame the victim mentality
that's ruining our military, he stood up to that.
I get emotional thinking about it.
He stood up to that.
That's why he's here.
He made himself a target by doing the right thing
because of his faith, right?
And again, there's so many people that are engaged.
I can tell you of all the people
that are behind the themes in this,
and it all starts, I'm here because of these two pastors,
but all of that matters in this fight,
matters moving forward,
because what we learned during COVID,
when people were doing, were being treated poorly,
when they were getting the wrong things happening to them
over that, they had to stand together.
And it was simply saying,
I'm not gonna go along with your lie.
I'm not gonna go along with your lie.
There's things Brad doesn't even wanna talk about.
Going into his admiral's office and saying,
hey, these guys have a sincere religious objection
to the COVID vaccine, and I'm gonna support the guys
that have a sincere religious objection to it.
And the admiral told him, don't do that.
I'm gonna deny all of them.
Part of that blanket denial.
Why does that matter?
I'm telling you, I think the SEALs
are one of the last bastions in our country
and our military that are willing to put each other
that brotherhood and the truth over everything else.
And this case, among other things,
is allowing Naval Education and Training Command,
bureaucrats at the Pentagon,
to put their hooks into this training.
And that's why a lot of this fight matters.
We need people like Captain Geary to stand up
and put the truth and put what's right
and put their faith over an institution or anything else.
Because if we don't do that, if we lose that foundation,
our military's gone, and that's the moral crisis we're seeing.
2015, the Army War College did a study.
They identified a crisis, that there
were too many officers willing to simply check off.
I completed all our training.
I completed the inspection to get to 100%.
They were willing to put their career over the truth,
even though it was impossible to do all of the training
in a calendar year they were all signing off on
that they completed.
That was an indication.
All of this is a symptom of a moral crisis.
And that's why this matters.
That's why I got excited about this fight.
And then I met this man and get to stand with him.
So that matters, and that's the future of our military.
We have to take a stand.
We have to stand behind people.
Congress needs to do their job and use their constitutional crows to get the bureaucracy
under control and push back because we're losing our moral fiber in the military.
We're losing it.
One small point of correction.
It wasn't the Admiral that said, I was going to die, I apologize.
It was my direct senior, but he wasn't the Admiral at the time.
Yeah, but appreciate it.
But that mentality was there.
And I can almost guarantee you there was I didn't speak to another 06 during COVID that
didn't simply deny all recommend deny all.
Yeah.
In clear violation of federal law in the Constitution.
So a question for the two attorneys.
Is that a realistic outcome?
Oh, Kevin Geary's request?
No, it's not a realistic outcome.
The realistic best case at this point, it would be for him to take an unqualified retirement, I think.
It's not the outcome I want.
It's not the outcome I like.
And it's not the outcome he deserves.
He deserves to go back to full duty and execute.
But realistically, our best outcome right now is that he just be allowed to move on
to what's next.
And that is part of what we're asking now as well.
I just want to leave. And I'm actually not even allowed. Can you just be allowed to move on to what's next? And that is part of what we're asking now as well.
I just want to leave.
And I'm actually not even allowed.
There are people that are advocating for that,
which is good.
It's helpful.
But at this point, like I said at the beginning,
it's been 2 and 1 half years.
This has gone on far too long.
I would like Congress to reach in and mandate
that all charges against me in the past
just be stricken from the record.
Wipe this claim and allow me to retire.
And our senior medical officer, he's in the same boat.
This guy, I will be fine.
I will find another job.
Our senior medical officer, he relies on his medical license to perform medicine in the
real world.
He doesn't transition to a new career.
It's the same career field.
And at Offer, he's licensed in 12 different states.
And two or three of those have already been under review unjustly.
And he got letters from them.
He has to pay lawyers to fight this because they said,
hey, well, we're tracking that you were charged with NJP associated with the death of Kyle Mullen.
Well, here's back to the deception, Sean.
None of our charges on NJP, me or the senior medical officer, reference Kyle's name at all.
Specifically because they know we didn't fail.
There's nothing in those 3,500 pages which shows causal links between us and Kyle's death.
So what they did was clean his name from any of the charges so that it's just what they'll
tell us in a conversation is, this has nothing to do with Kyle.
Kyle died. We had an investigation. The investigation exposed these things. We have to hold you accountable for these things
Well, that's somewhat of a half truth because I know on the other side of the mouth you're telling his family
That you're finding us accountable
For the time period that their son died. You don't get to speak out of both sides of your mouth
So when the senior medical officer advertised a I'm now fighting for my license in a
second state based off of a false link there.
I suggested to him as his friend, we're very close, he's an incredible human being.
I said, hey, why don't you just reach out and ask them to say what's already known?
Just annotate that Kyle's name is not associated with your NJP charges.
That should clean this up with any future medical board
because that's a great idea.
So he reached out and at first got a yes,
we will do that for you.
24 hours later, after talking to the Jags,
they rescinded the offer.
So you refuse to speak the actual truth
about his charges that Kyle's name is not mentioned.
Why would you not even be willing to do that?
This guy's going to keep fighting his medical license.
He's going to keep having to pay lawyers to fight for his ability to provide for his family
until we clean this.
Back to one of the original reasons why the taxpayer should care here, man.
They are a stakeholder now. Because of these lies, again, when you're searching for closure, what killed
Kyle Mullin? The family has filed a wrongful death lawsuit against the United States Navy.
Now, this is a little bit of speculation, but I would offer the only way you're going to fight
that lawsuit is if you admit the nature of his death and that we weren't wrong as United States
Navy and how he died. But in order to do that, you have to admit that we deceived everybody in
the process as a Navy. Well, that's probably not going to happen, which if I had to speculate,
I would say that means there will be some sort of a settlement in which the U.S. taxpayers
are going to pay money to conceal the lies further unless they're forced to expose them.
People should care about this, not only for the ethics involved
and on our current commitment, which matter a lot to me,
but taxpayer dollars are not going to go to further conceal these lies.
Will there be any type of retribution to these admirals?
No.
No.
Won't even be a stain on their career?
No.
I mean, not based on anything I've ever seen of equivalency.
I mean, there's just, the admirals don't get punished.
So they'll just do it again?
They'll do it again, yeah.
Well, if they are punished, what that looks like is they'll get a punitive letter of reprimand
in their official record, which prevents them from promoting to the next star up and so they just retired their current rank
That's about the extent of what you can hope for
But if you ask if I see that happening in this case, I don't
I'm an eternal optimist. I tend to like to disagree with Jason
Congress could do a lot. Congress can do a lot. Now, Congress has authorities that are intentionally broad
compared to anyone within the chain.
So yeah, Congress is the one with the power
to make some real change here, no question.
Well, gents, is there anything I should be asking
that I haven't asked yet?
Do you mind if I check the gallery behind us?
Absolutely.
Missed it, we got it.
She says it's a wrap.
All right.
Brad.
Sean, thank you.
I really cannot, sorry I just interrupted you.
It was an honor.
It was an honor for me, thank you.
I just, I wish you the best of luck
and looks like you got some really good attorneys behind
you and so just...
We do.
Beyond the attorneys, I keep saying this isn't my side, right?
This is truth.
We've aligned ourselves on the side of truth and truth is unbendable.
What we are is relentless.
More important than that, it sounds like you got a hell of a family behind you and a great woman.
That's for sure. She's a fighter.
Congratulations.
If they're not afraid of me, they should be afraid of her for sure.
Yeah, I am.
Yeah, yeah.
So did Dave Hansen. He was as well. He admitted that once.
Appreciate this, Sean. Thank you for your time.
Thank you for giving us a voice.
Means the world to us.
I think it's gonna make a difference and I appreciate it.
My pleasure. Yeah, that's the love. God and I appreciate it. My pleasure. It has to love.
God bless.
Appreciate it. God bless you.
Thanks.
Alright brother. Thank you.