Sounds Like A Cult - The Cult of Mission Trips
Episode Date: August 6, 2024Pack your hammer and your lack of cultural awareness, because this week on Sounds Like A Cult, we're interviewing Tia Levings, a former Christian fundamentalist, mission trip devotee, and survivor of ...church-sanctioned domestic violence. Tia is also the author of the brand new memoir A Well-Trained Wife. She joins to discuss the ever-so-common culty practice of recruiting church kids to go on white savior vacations all under the guise of bringing Sky Daddy and ultimate nepo kid Jesus into the lives of people who most certainly never asked for that. Aka, mission trips! Many thanks to all the listeners who submitted call-ins for this episode! Be sure to listen to the end, because we’ve got a verrrrrrrry exciting announcement about next season coming :) Follow us on IG @soundslikeacultpod @amanda_montell To order Amanda's new book, The Age of Magical Overthinking: Notes on Modern Irrationality, click here. To subscribe to Amanda's new Magical Overthinkers podcast and/or watch full episodes on YouTube, click here :) Head to Squarespace.com for a free trial, and when you’re ready to launch, go to https://www.squarespace.com/CULT to save 10% off your first purchase of a website or domain. Earn points by paying rent right now when you go to joinbilt.com/cult. Shop the SKIMS Soft Lounge Collection at SKIMS.com. After you place your order, select "Sounds Like A Cult" in the survey and select our show in the dropdown menu that follows. Go to the App Store or Google Play store and download the FREE Ibotta app to start earning cash back and use code CULT. Further reading: Mission trips are an evangelical rite of passage for US teens – but why? YouTube channel: ExMoLex Stop going on Mission Trips Why I'll Never Go on a Mission Trip Again
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Hello, Sounds Like a Cult Pod. This is Hallie from Alabama. The cultiest thing about mission trips is when mission trip attendees post pictures on their social media with individuals from
impoverished countries they specifically visit for missionary purposes, and almost 99% of
the time it includes children. To me, this promotes the culture of white
saviorism which thrives within Protestant churches. Most of the pictures
that I've seen are from young adults, and while they may see it as a way to try to
get likes on social media. It has more harmful implications
if the children are not able to consent
to having their pictures taken.
Hi, my name is Kat.
I'm calling from the Seattle area.
And I think the cultiest thing about missions
and mission trips, specifically Mormon missions,
since I grew up Mormon, this is my experience.
They are so isolated from the rest of the world,
their families, everyone that they know,
and they're just surrounded by church sayings
and verbiage and that kind of culture.
They take little things that don't mean anything
and make it seem like God's trying to tell them something.
Specifically, like the term personal revelation, which is a really big thing that the Mormon
Church pushes, basically saying that like God will tell you something relevant to
your life and you need to follow it.
Hi, my name is Taylor. I'm from South Carolina and as a Christian, I think the cultiest
thing about mission trips is how we will visit countries that are already
predominantly Catholic and tell them that they need to be saved.
This is Sounds Like a Cult, a show about the modern day cults we
all follow. I'm your host Amanda Montell, author of the books
Cultish and The Age of Magical Overthinking. Every week on the
show, you're going to hear a little analysis of some
fanatical fringe
group from the cultural zeitgeist, from tradwives to Stanley Cups, to try and answer the big
question, this group sounds like a cult, but is it really?
And if so, which of our cult categories does it fall into?
A live-your-life?
A watch your back?
Or a get-the-fuck-out?
After all, this is a show about the cultish spectrum that has emerged in our contemporary
culture.
Cults are traditionally thought of as the Jonestowns and the Heaven's Gates, these
satanic compounds where freaky people who have nothing in common with us
go brainwash themselves and die.
And while that is definitely a valid definition
of the word cult, the truth of the matter
is that cultish influence often shows up
in places you might not otherwise think to look
like our corporate offices and our online forums and certainly
subcultures having to do with mainstream religions. Religions that maybe were once considered a cult
in the United States like Mormonism or even Catholics but that are now overall accepted.
There are many jokes in religious studies about the blurry line separating cult from religion,
from culture in general. Jokes like cult plus time equals religion. Or a cult is a group where
the leader thinks he can talk to God. A religion is a group where that leader is dead. The truth
of the matter is that the boundaries separating mainstream religion, secular religion like Swifties and people
who can't get enough of their pickleball tournaments or whatever, and sort of classic
cults are ever porous. I probably don't need to do a ton of convincing these days to communicate
the point that cultishness is everywhere. Now, today we're covering the cult of mission trips. And I gotta say,
whenever I get to do a hashtag religious trauma episode of Sounds Like a Cult, it's my favorite.
Kind of weird and inappropriate to classify it as a favorite thing to talk about because it can get
kind of dark. But listen, I just love roasting pockets of mainstream,
institutionally accepted Christian society
that should be known more broadly as cultish,
because so many truly jack up rituals and traditions
and ideologies from Christianity,
all kinds of different denominations of Christianity,
dominate our society and are so interwoven with our upbringings,
our childhoods in this society, that by the time we get to our adulthood and maybe have
decided to leave those traditions and rituals behind, we might not necessarily be given
the space to process how culty that shit really was.
I say we, I did not grow up in a Christian community, but
my fascination with evangelicalism in particular, some listeners might know, was planted when
I was in middle school. I became best friends with a girl whose mother belonged to an evangelical
mega church and I would go with them all the time to services out of anthropological fascination.
And ever since then, I have been obsessively unpacking the role of
Christian cultishness in American society. And it shows up in so many places, which is why
hashtag religious trauma keeps emerging on this show. We've done episodes about purity rings,
celebrity mega churches, hell houses, church camp, youth groups, nuts naming all these topics.
But one of the main reasons why Christianity is so good at dominating so many aspects of life is because of its missionary aspect. And today we're addressing that directly by covering the cult of mission trips.
Now, I know how important and personal and urgent and sometimes even triggering these
religious trauma-themed episodes can be for folks because so many of us are hoping to
finally get the last word in about how fucked up some of these experiences really were and
continue to be.
And just in the spirit of setting expectations, I want those listening to know that today's overview and interview are going to be shaped
around the personal experiences of my guest co-host today, whose experience by no means
represents everyone, but is one that I felt was really, really worth sharing and hearing
about.
Stick around for today's interview in a bit.
It is with an author named Tia Levings who grew up in a
Christian fundamentalist community. She's a survivor of church-sanctioned
domestic violence and went on to become an important voice in the ex-phangelical
community. She's the author of a book called A Well-Trained Wife, My Escape
from Christian Patriarchy. And in the interview, we focus on her experience and
her observations of mission trips in the
community that she is specifically able to speak to.
But I'm also going to drop some sources in our show notes for those who would like to
further deep dive into the cult of Mormon mission trips specifically, or other voices
that are important to the subject matter.
Just wanted to get that disclaimer out of the way
because as always, this show is a funky tonal balance.
It's a more lighthearted approach to culty subject matter
just for the sake of approachability.
But sometimes we land on these subjects
that are just closer to the heaven's gate side
of the cultish spectrum.
And that can be intense.
So I don't want to disappoint anybody. This conversation is one that I hope you enjoy and
feel validated by and fascinated by, but is surely not the representative conversation about the cult
of mission trips. Okay. Enough of my babbling. What am I doing right now? Speaking in tongues, time to get into
the history, background, and cult analysis. First of all, what the fuck is a mission trip? And why
are they considered a good idea? So mission trips are an age old American tradition where young
people are tapped to travel to various communities.
Sometimes they're here in the United States, but most infamously they are overseas in developing
countries to quote-unquote help while actually just attempting to indoctrinate those people and
oftentimes causing more harm than good. Mission trips are common in evangelical communities.
They are very common in the LDS church,
AKA Mormonism, a highly, highly, highly missionary
denomination of Christianity.
The LDS strongly encourages slash obligates,
but doesn't technically require their young male accolades
to go on a mission trip at some point in their late teens
or early adult years.
Cue the song, I Believe from the Book of Mormon,
Cult of Theater Kids, shout out.
That musical makes me LOL, but also, oof.
It's funny because it's true.
Mission trips for Mormon men are typically two years long. Women are
also allowed to do them, but for women it's only 18 months. Mormons go through a
whole training process in order to prepare them for this godly mission.
Oftentimes the training involves learning the language of the country
where they're headed to. It's framed that your country assignment is ordained by
the Heavenly Father, and the goal of these mission
trips is to spread the word of Jesus Christ while also ostensibly serving this community
that may or may not need any help at all, and certainly not by a little white boy whose
underwear was given to him by his church. Temple garments. Anyone? Oh my.
Mission trips are sometimes called
volunteerism. It's a sort of thing where you kind of get like a free trip to Costa Rica or wherever under the guise of building new schools
and homes and teaching the children there about the Bible.
But really it's just a chance for some 16-year-old who has never done a single load
of laundry in their entire life to go on spring break and build a one-room schoolhouse because
Jesus said so.
It's all just one big opportunity to party with your friends with a big, fat, heavenly
superiority complex, possibly traumatize some people who never wanted to meet you,
and then go home feeling like Hercules.
According to some estimates, as many as 2 million youth and adults per year participate
in mission trips.
At least those were the numbers before the pandemic.
This includes both overseas trips and trips to poorer communities in the US.
All of that is according to a piece in The Conversation by Caroline
Nagel titled, Mission Trips are an Evangelical Rite of Passage for US Teens, but why?
The origins of this whole tradition have to do with a Christian tenet called the quote
unquote Great Commission, aka Jesus commanding his disciples to baptize more disciples in all nations. That's a little Bible quote from Matthew 28, colon 16-20.
I do not know how to quote that Jesusy Dewey Decimal System, and I love that about me.
Okay, missionaries have truly been a thing in their modern form since the mid-1800s,
when colonization was truly colonizationing.
Missionaries really started to become a thing in the mid-19th century as the
world was truly becoming colonized, but they didn't really blow up in their
modern form until the 1980s. And I can't help but think that it's no coincidence
that mission trips blew up during the very same era as the human potential
movement, aka when multi-level marketing
companies really adopted their identity as this entrepreneurial endeavor, this American dream
pursuit. Multi-level marketing companies are just an essential oils themed domestic mission trip.
All these ideals really go together. I was going to say like a communion wafer and wine,
but the Catholics don't really do this shit. In 2008, it was estimated that U.S. Christians
spent $2 billion on their mission trip endeavors.
That's according to a Huffington Post piece titled,
"'Short-Term Mission Trips, Are They Worth It?'
from 2011 by Dr. Dennis J. Horton.
Mission trips are honestly getting shorter and shorter.
They commonly take place in countries
that already have established Christian organizations
to support them.
These are termed local partners.
And it's kind of pitched that by going
on these mission trips,
not only can missionaries expect to promptly transform
the people that they are quote unquote helping and saving,
but that they themselves will be transformed by this work, AKA be closer to God. It is painted as a win, win, win, helping and saving, but that they themselves will be transformed by this work,
AKA be closer to God.
It is painted as a win, win, win, win, win,
when really it is a lose, lose, motherfucking lose.
As if the culty aspects do not wear themselves
on their temple garment sleeves,
let's get into a tiny bit of analysis
before we head into our interview with Tia Levings.
First off, the gaslighty false promise of saviorism to disguise white savior
imperialist colonizer shit is probably the number one culty thing about mission trips. There are all
these euphemisms used to paint taking long naps and like hammering one nail as hard labor. I love
when evangelicals say they're quote unquote, walking with the poor.
It is so manipulative, it is so expansionist.
It is such a clear, obviously culty way of establishing a sense of superiority and exclusivity
in the minds of those in the in-group, aka these missionaries.
In a blog post for Medium titled Why I'll Never Go on a Mission Trip Again, Cult of
Mission Trip survivor Mariette
Williams wrote,
The poor people around us were simply there to help us appreciate our lives back home.
They became props in our journey to fulfillment. Extremely dehumanizing.
Most missionaries are not taught anything substantial about the realities or values of the
people they're assigned to quote unquote help and I cannot wait
for you to hear an example of how bad that can really get from our guest later.
Caroline Nagle for The Conversation wrote quote, in effect what mattered to the
volunteers and organizers was simply that places were poor and foreign rather
than the reasons why poverty was so entrenched. It is such an unbelievably
cultish tenant to imbue your followers with this sense
that they are saving the world when they are at best kind of doing nothing and at worst
actively harming and traumatizing those communities they believe they're saving and carrying
on that unscrutinized mentality. From my understanding, the whole experience of a mission trip is also extremely infantilizing.
You round up these kids or very young adults
who've never before been independent,
have oftentimes led a very sheltered life.
You slap some matching t-shirts on them,
a la a Disney adult family skipping off to Space Mountain.
These matching t-shirts will be like bright green
and saying things like, here I am, Send me. In preparation for this episode, I watched a bunch of missionary horror
stories and confessions videos on YouTube. Some crowd sourced experiences via Exmo Lex on YouTube
included giving these young missionaries bedtimes, giving them a teeny tiny radius that they weren't allowed to go past like a
little baby playpen, meanwhile expecting them to save these populations without
any life skills or tools to actually do so. So many of these youth group
graduates and church campers who go on to do these missions are, to say the
least, not skilled carpenters, okay? They are not plumbers. They are not electricians.
They are church kids wearing matching lime green cotton singing Amazing Grace in a school
bus in poor harmony.
According to this Caroline Nagel piece from The Conversation, critics of short-term American
mission trips have argued that these godly endeavors basically just dump unwanted, useless
goods on these host
communities.
They are extraordinarily culturally insensitive and commonly assume that locals need this
American expertise.
Insulting.
Meanwhile, these shoddy construction projects often push out local workers and often result
in building structures that aren't even safe to be in.
Again, these trips are basically just vacationsations and they're not cheap ones at that.
You have to pay to go on them.
I read in a piece for the Berkeley Beacon titled Stop Going on Mission Trips by Juliet
Norman that on the website for this one mission trip titled Mission of Hope, they list the
cost of this one week long trip to the Dominican Republic at $895. That's not
including the cost of airfare. And the way that the mission trip activities and inclusions are
listed literally make it sound like a group spring break vacay. Albeit one that is, let's just say,
very wholesome to put it nicely. They list all the delicious meals that you're gonna get in your beautiful lodging in a beach
day.
Meanwhile, you show up to the Dominican Republic and this vacay for the Lord that you were
promised is often not what is actually delivered.
Anyone in the cult of backpacking would be horrified.
This shit is giving into the wild.
These young people show up, oftentimes grossly unprepared, to areas that are unsafe,
weather that is uninhabitable.
They show up without the right clothing, without the right materials, without the right common
sense skills.
Again, from this Exmolex YouTube video, I learned that some of the unsavory experiences
reported by those who've been on mission trips included parasites, passing out from exhaustion, sleep
deprivation with lasting long-term effects, 90 degree heat, and 90% humidity.
There were reports of getting held at knife point or gun point, and some Cult of Missionaries
survivors were diagnosed with PTSD afterwards.
Via Exmolex, one story was reported where a missionary asked to leave the trip due to being
sexually assaulted by a trainer, which, unfortunately, is not at all an uncommon
experience and enabled by the unquestioned deference to authority that these folks are
conditioned to have in the church from a very young age. This missionary's request was denied.
They were told no, because there was, quote, no such thing as an honorable release. AKA, if you go home early, your peers would assume
that you had done something bad, like premarital sex. How imprisoning is that? It sounds like a
fucking cult. Oof, honey. From this exposition alone, I'm really leaning get the fuck out with
this cult of the week, but I want to give it a fair chance.
And so with that, I am delighted to introduce this week's guest, cohost, and interviewee,
a survivor of multiple different subcultures of evangelical life.
Please welcome Tia Livings.
Hi, I'm Lauren.
I'm calling from Virginia.
And one of the cultier memories I have of high school mission trips is that we used
to wear matching outfits as a group.
We would have a logo designed for our trip and it would say mission and then the name
of the country that we were invading.
And we felt very cool in our matching outfits and we all had to wear
the same color pants too. We wanted to you know really look like a unit
even though it was pretty obvious that 20 to 30 American
teenagers walking around together in a foreign country we certainly stuck out
but we really wanted to show our unity and
cultiness by wearing the same outfits. Hi, I'm Cammie from Baltimore,
and one of the cultiest things about my Mormon mission,
and I think a lot of Mormon missions,
is that you get sent to this foreign country
where you barely can say hello in the language,
and then you get there,
and the mission leadership takes your passport
and locks it away for safekeeping,
and then sends you off to a city several hours away.
So you cannot leave, literally, legally.
They have trapped you there
and I think that is really scary.
I'll tell you a story about two girls on a mission in Texas.
They were companions.
One of them had a dream that she got married
to a guy in their mission area.
She woke up, told her companion,
oh my gosh, I had personal revelation
that I'm supposed to marry this guy.
Well, turns out the other girl had a crush on that same dude
and was convinced that she had personal revelation
that she was going to marry him.
They got into a fist fight over it.
It was that bad, all because they thought
that God was telling them, you're gonna marry this guy.
Guess what? Neither of them got married.
It's just, it made them delusional, delusional.
I really don't think anyone outside of that environment
would make a decision like that or act like that.
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Well, Tia, thank you so much for joining Sounds Like a Cult.
Could you introduce yourself and your work to our listeners?
Yeah, I am an author and an activist. I wrote
my memoir, A Well-Trained Wife, which was the story, it's my escape from Christian
patriarchy. It's the story of how I got into and out of a high control cult that's
kind of taking over our country right now. So it's extremely timely. And I also educate
on the abuses in Christian fundamentalism and how we can be less fundamentalist in our
thinking. Could you do us the kindness of telling us a little bit more
about your personal backstory
and how you first started to question the culture
and teachings that you were raised in?
So some listeners may be familiar
with Shiny Happy People on Amazon.
My story was included in that documentary.
I grew up in a Southern Baptist megachurch that became more fundamentalist and more politically
nationalist in the same span of years that I grew up. And so when I was married
it was in that evangelical world where we didn't really get to know our spouses
very much before we got married to them. And so I was quickly in an abusive
situation but had no language or vocabulary to understand that and no way out of it. And then I was mentored. My coping mechanism
was to turn to an older, wiser woman for guidance, and that landed me in Bill Gothard's Institute of
Basic Life Principles, which is the IBLP cult. And then from there, we followed the evangelical
through line through reformed theology. And if you're familiar with Doug Wilson in Moscow, Idaho, and what's happening there
now, his federal vision was getting planted back in this was in the late nineties.
And I eventually was in a very high control cult church that I had to be excommunicated
from, formally shunned.
And then I escaped at midnight with my children from this violent marriage in 2007 and then
10 years of trauma therapy to get out of it. at midnight with my children from this violent marriage in 2007 and then 10
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but she is the force that unlocked my mind. And it still took me seven years to unlock my body,
but I was starting to question what I had been taught and indoctrinated into at that point.
Thank you for sharing that. Thank you for what you're doing now. I hear not stories exactly like
yours, but I hear stories about escaping from religious fundamentalism, not infrequently. I pursue them, that's why. But every time I hear one from recent history,
I can never get over the shock of just the fact that this is all happening in the United States
right now. I mean, I personally live in a pretty progressive bubble in Los Angeles, and yet there
are still even things like this happening
here. So it's just pretty frightening. I mean, this is a show about the cults we all
follow, which is often a pretty lighthearted concept. We're talking about like the cult
of Peloton and stuff like that. But Christian fundamentalism is on this spectrum of the
cults we truly all follow.
Oh, it absolutely is. It's all the same thing. That's why my work's expanding to fundamentalism
in general, because people are attracted to a formula and a promise. They want a shiny
promise that's going to solve their problems. And that's true, whether it's an MLM or
whether it's groupthink at their church. I grew up in the shiniest Southern Baptist
Church. Our pastor was the president of the Southern Baptist Convention. It was wealthy.
It was beautiful, lovely aesthetic. Everyone there was well-meaning. And there's parallel cults,
you know, like we definitely had an MLM rising in our church. But I call what I lived through
the cult without walls because that's how we existed. It's an America within an America.
If you're familiar with the Handmaid's Tale, which I'm sure you are, like Gilead had a precursor and
everything in the Handmaid's Tale really happened.
Atwood used that as her real model and she said that everything in the book has already happened.
And my life was that. My life was the prequel to the Handmaid's Tale.
So my book is a harrowing story, but it's on the same spectrum as anyone who's ever reached for a pretty promise
and an easy formula that's going to result in this happy outcome.
How many mission trips did you go on over the course of your mission tripping?
My mission tripping, I mean, like we have eight years of Saturdays proselytizing and then
three weeks a year for four years and then scattered trips here and there.
It's just part of your culture.
And you would go mostly overseas.
Were you ever doing missions in the US?
Like how, where in the world was Carmen Sandiego?
Oh yeah, I wasn't that much of a missionary.
I got to stay stateside for most of it.
And there's an undercurrent of how exotic
of a place do you get to go serve.
So like it's a really big deal if you get to go to Haiti or if you get to go to Mexico, you know, you get to go serve. So it gets a really big deal if you get to go to Haiti
or if you get to go to Mexico,
you get to go to another country
because you have to get a passport
and then you're traveling under this holy sacred reason
to travel.
And so it's condoned by God and you're called by God.
Now you're called by God to go on vacation.
I got to go to Louisiana and I got to go to Texas and I got to go to Kentucky and I got
to go to rural Virginia, you know, really exotic places.
Well, God did not want you to go on vacation.
So you went on a permanent vacation from God.
I am just joking.
Yeah.
So you name some political figures in sort of like summarizing your story
briefly that not everybody might be familiar with. Could you sort of identify those folks
and their role in your story and then the broader cult of just American Christian fundamentalism
at the moment?
Yeah. I mean, I'll give you really tip of the iceberg. There's a thinking called dominionism.
It's dominionist theology and it teaches that Christians are to have Dominion over the country and of
the whole world through proselytization. So the evangelical mindset, this is why
we have missionaries, it's the idea that each one can reach one and you should
lifestyle witness. The Duggar Show, a lot of people are familiar with the Duggars
on TV, they were doing something called lifestyle evangelism, which is where
they're showing you this way of living.
The purpose behind it all is so that they can take dominion and everything that they do is
positioned to achieve that through different flavors of marketing. Whether that's one-on-one relationship that you might have with your neighbor,
it might be something that you see on TV, or it might be where you go to church on Sunday and you get preached to
how you should, you know, be in the world but not of it is a scripture verse that's used a lot. And so these key players in this
world, you know, are certainly all the big Baptists and church names that we see kind
of circulating now, but they're long standing multiple decades. So a lot of the seminaries
are rooted in Texas. And so we have a lot of like Texas scandal happening right now with
church abuse and things like that. But they're tied to movements like Bill Gothard's Institute of Basic Life Principles, his evangelistic
method. They did a really great job of showing us on shiny happy people with a map. People
would come to these conferences for biblical principles. So they were coming from multiple
denominations and faith groups because they believed in the Bible. And then they would
go into their churches and they would spread their gospel within churches. So these churches
were becoming more conservative and fundamentalist, but they thought they were just following
the Bible. It's not like through the lens of Jesus anymore. It's just straight on biblical
Old Testament hardline solution stuff. And then they have spin off ministries. So like
at the time it's, I think it's really important to remember the internet was just being born
and it was rising. So Bill Gothard led to a man named Michael Pearl, led to a man named Doug Wilson who has a
big, big, big empire in Idaho and everything that they're doing from the
representatives they send to Washington to the way they change the prayer in our
schools, you know, in the Ten Commandments in schools and the Speaker of the House
Mike Johnson and all of these, it's like two degrees of separation for everybody.
Forget six. We don't need six. They're all in the same bed.
Oh my God. Yeah. We had this interview on the books for quite a while, but I'm sure
that one of the reasons why I wanted to push it up was because of the Oklahoma ruling that
the Bible must be taught in schools. I'm just like, we gotta talk about this. Okay, so on Sounds Like a Cult,
we've covered many, many sort of furtively cultish ways
that Christian fundamentalism shows up in everyday life.
Those sort of lifestyle missionaries
that you talk about show up in so many covert ways.
We've talked on the show about everything
from hell houses to tradwives.
And you've gotten into this a little
bit already, but like, why do you think fundamentalist Christianity has so successfully
continued to insert itself in seemingly innocuous corners of everyday American life? Like, what is
responsible for this unsquashable rebranding prowess? Yes, and they do rebrand every 10 or so years.
I think it's important to look at the multi-generational nature of it so that you have a nostalgia that's
built into it, an attractiveness that this is an old value or that life would be simpler
if we were simpler, which is a major tenet of fundamentalism.
They're going to make your world smaller by eliminating distractions and things that they deem could be damaging to the ideology. So when there's
a chaos happening, which there definitely has been chaos in our times, people tend to
gravitate towards order and structure and easy answers. And so where they might otherwise
be trailblazers and try something new, if they've come from a background where evidence
has been shunned, we're not allowed to talk about the fruit, we're not allowed to hear from survivors,
we only hear from the top-down authority structure, which in our country is dangerous,
because in Christian homes, it's a top-down authority structure. But now in our country,
our government is becoming more authoritative. At first can feel comforting and stabilizing,
but then can turn really ugly when the authority structure
in place is oppressive and denies rights and forces everyone to comply or you're out.
So I think that we keep seeing it come back because this idealism is what people reach
for when they're scared.
And the tradwife lifestyle, you know, I was a proto-martyr type tradwife.
We didn't call it that.
We called ourselves traditional wives, which is all that trad is short for.
I was a homesteader, homemaker, home birther, home canner.
I had chickens and gardens and all of that and wore dresses all the time.
I would have been a trad wife influencer if I'd had social media.
It just hadn't been born yet.
I think this young group that's just grabbing on and resurging this
movement is doing the exact same thing we were doing in the 90s. We just had had Y2K happen 99,
2000, and we were terrified the end of the world was coming. And so we're all grinding our own wheat
and stocking up on all the things we need for survival skills. And when I look at the prep
movements, the preppers now, I'm like, I get why you're doing what you're doing. You're scared.
Yeah.
I mean, honestly, same.
No matter where you are along the political or religious spectrum, like I get wanting
to can and grind your own wheat at the moment.
Grind your own wheat.
God, seriously.
No, I think because of this foundational missionary aspect, it is the job of a good Christian, it sounds like,
to meet people where they are.
And that once meant going door to door,
going overseas, and sometimes it still does.
But if you can do missionary work on TikTok
and you're like a young, charismatic, handsome individual,
you don't even need to leave your bedroom to proselytize.
So when pivoting to talking a little bit more about missionary work and mission trips, when
I say the cult of mission trips, what rituals, traditions, or beliefs immediately come to
mind for you?
Yeah.
So missions work makes me laugh because it's a cult that's supported by cults, which is like probably an exception.
Because cults by nature claim to have the rightness of everything and the right answer, and we're the exclusive, we have the truth, we have a corner of truth.
But when you're dealing with missionaries, now you're dealing with the A-list, the most devout in the cult, and then they become their own cult.
Like the whole expat and missionary mindset is like they
are the elite and they're recognized as the elite so that everyone else is understanding
like, well, we can't do that with our lives, but we can at least financially support them.
We can at least make sure that they have what they need to go out and tell the world. So
it all comes back to Jesus's great commission, go ye therefore and make ye fishers of men
and tell the world and spread the gospel. And so all of Christianity is predicated on missions work.
But what comes to mind for me is like really bad things like Renee Bach and white saviorism
and little white teenagers going into a sea of Brown and doing mission tourism.
It's all sales.
That's also true.
Like if it's all Christianity, it's also all a sales and marketing model that leads
to colonization and arrogance and
its own subset of dysfunction.
If you've ever talked to missionary kids that grew up in missionary kids, they're
disenfranchised, isolated, some of the worst cold stories because now they're in countries
where they don't speak the same language and they have no resources.
Sometimes they're under very duplicitous reasons too, so it's actually dangerous to
be where they are.
You mentioned the name Renee Bach.
Yeah.
Could you expand?
Yes.
Renee Bach is kind of like the poster child for the disaster case.
Like previously, I think I would have used Elizabeth Elliot, who went to South America
and Jim Elliot was killed by the jungle unreached people.
And then she went back down with her baby daughter and she
converted that tribe and there's a whole lot we could say about the Elliot's and they were like
the poster children for missions that went bad and they claim it as a redemption story for a long,
long, long time. And now we have Renee Bach and Renee Bach was a young white woman who went to
Uganda. She had absolutely no medical training and she decided to treat starving babies without any medical training.
I think over a hundred children died because of her malpractice and she's facing all kinds of legal stuff for it now and there's a documentary out about it.
But you know, when you look at pictures of her, she just looks like any young life white teenager who decided to go to Africa and save the brown children.
And I get the bleeding heart.
I get the empathy.
But it's with that missions mindset that I have what you need, I will bring you the solution. It's
still the same like formula and everything that I do for you will be reciprocated with
your belief in my system. You know, it's that transactional service.
Yeah, yeah. So the Bible quote that you cited just now, I don't have it memorized, but it references fish.
Yes, it does.
So that reminds me of some reporting that I did for Cultish about the children of God,
who were sort of referred to as a sex cult and it was helmed by this guy named David Berg. And he
really latched on to that particular Bible verse and corrupted it to coin this
sort of missionary practice called flirty fishing, where he would basically coerce his
female followers to like bait men that they would meet in bars or wherever with sex, hoping
to convert them and recruit them and the whole thing.
And that is a sort of of well-known cult example.
Children of God is not a cult that we would cover on Sounds Like a Cult because everybody's like,
yeah, that's a cult. This show is more for the cults that are along the spectrum in our upfront
discussion. Flying under the radar. Yes, exactly. And yet that example and all the examples that
you're naming now, from Children of God to the handsome missionary TikTokker,
make me think, basically ever since Christianity
became the dominant religion,
missionary work and recruitment and conversion
have been a big part of its business.
But my question for you is,
why do you think that some sects like Mormonism
and Bill Gothard's corner of Christianity are more hyper fixated
on mission trips than others.
Yeah.
So interestingly in my story, I made a conversion point from evangelicals, which is all proselytation,
they go you there for and spread the gospel, to Calvinism.
And Calvinism believes that you are chosen, predestined ahead of time.
And so your focus shifts to just being an attraction.
You are now trying to establish a presence and then if people are chosen, they'll come
to you.
So what that looked like in my life was altar calls stopped, missionary work stopped, church
planting didn't stop.
They still like there are reformed church plants all over the world, and they're
insidious because they do kind of the same thing without the outreach tentacles. They still take
over. They still have saviorism. They still colonize. All of that. Like the Puritans,
example, colonization is still there. But they're not going to go out in a predatory way and go
trade food for belief, for example. So I think at that time it
was very comforting to me because I was uncomfortable with the idea that we
would only go places, we would only offer aid in exchange for church
membership and conversion. That felt really dirty to me. As there's a storm
and we're going in as a presence, then we're just going in, period. We're not
gonna pray with you, we're not gonna tell you anything. And there are groups of
Christianity that take that viewpoint where they're just they're not going to pray with you. We're not going to tell you anything. And there are groups of Christianity that take that viewpoint where they're just not
there to convert.
They're there to serve, which is, I think, probably the closest thing to ethical you
can do for that kind of work.
But no, the idea that you're only going to help somebody if they agree with you, if you
sell them, you know?
And it is like flirty fishing because you're still using bait.
It's a question of what's going to be using bait. You're just, it's question of what's gonna be your bait. Okay, and so some denominations have a more passive approach
versus a more entrepreneurial approach.
Yeah.
Yes.
Are there any religions besides Christianity
that do these kinds of mission trips?
I mean, because my radar is honed in
on like fundamentalist attitudes
and like the way that we adopt these same things
without the same external clothes.
I have been in like quote blue groups that are going in.
It's just a different ideology they're preaching.
So I think that Christianity is so dominant that it's really, I don't know if the margin
is worth mentioning, but I know that if you're going in to spread an idea in exchange for
something in return, that's one thing. And then if you're
going in to just help humanity, that's another. Yeah. I mean, you see, like we've done an
episode of the show on the Peace Corps. Like you could argue that that is a sort of form
of secular mission trip. Yes. And I'm sure they get culty. Oh, 100%. Yeah. No, check
out that episode. But then the argument can be made that like in the United States where Christianity is so dominant,
can you really have like an institutionalized mission trip program that is secular? Like it
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the poor and they leave or they strengthen the environment and then they leave like they believe that Jesus's message was to serve the poor. And so they serve the poor and they leave. Or they strengthen the environment and then they leave.
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My name is Nina and I'm from the Bay area and the cultiest thing I find about
mission trips is someone who engaged in them before is the nature of some of
these mission trips can be super exploitive.
They can prioritize the experience and the
satisfaction of the volunteers over the actual needs of the community that they're serving.
This can look like taking exploitive photos for social media gain, not protecting the identity of
the community that they're serving, promoting a poverty tourism mindset which could be controversial,
or engaging in activities that the local community may not find beneficial
especially on a long-term economic level.
Hi, my name is Michaelene and I have so many years of experience on mission trips
and I think that the cultiest thing about mission trips is that there is a pressure to be as vulnerable as possible with people
you just met three days ago.
I worked for multiple Christian organizations in the past, and one in particular that made
it a quote-unquote tradition and part of the Mission Trip experience that every student
on the trip shared their testimony or their life story.
It was not required, but it was highly encouraged.
I have been victim to it myself and have witnessed many times in which individuals felt pressured
into sharing the deepest parts of themselves even when they weren't comfortable doing it. I
can even think of a time in which a student came out and told their group
about their sexual orientation and that student shared it because they were in a
vulnerable space and that information was later used as a reason for that
student to not be a part of student leadership the following year.
So don't even get me started on the lack of alone time that you have, the constant exhaustion that can lead to spiritual manipulation,
but also just like the reality that you think that you're crying because it's the Holy Spirit moving you,
but realistically you're actually just an introvert and you're getting four hours of sleep a day.
Can you talk about the missions and ministry that you had personal experience with?
What did that work look like and what strategies were used to recruit people to be a part of
it?
Yeah.
And this is like such an interwoven part of my upbringing.
So in my big mega church, the way it looked was they're preparing us for the mission field.
And so to be a missionary is to be called.
You have a special calling on your life and you're chosen. So, you know, like
with your young teenagers, you don't know if you're called to be a missionary or not.
So they give you lots of practice. And so what that looks like in our city was they
sent us out in groups of two going door to door all day Saturday, we would knock on strangers
doors and they'd take eight busloads of kids and drop us off in neighborhoods. And I'm
thinking now as a parent and as an adult,
I cannot believe that they did this.
Like we just went all over city.
Jacksonville is an enormous city and they just dropped us off and we went knocked
on strangers doors for eight hours and then we came back.
And if we did that every Saturday, we got a ski trip, you know,
it was always reward space. And then twice a year,
we went on week long missions trips and I still see youth groups do this where it's like missions tourism.
So you get to go somewhere cool as long as you have some missions type activities.
So we would go survey and proselytize in other cities and we would perform our choir and
orchestra stuff for them.
And we would just show them what great kids we are.
Like we're just wonderful.
We have such blessed lives.
Don't you wish you were us? And this is how you can be like us if you pray this special prayer.
And then we would leave. And then there was the top tier of the missionaries and those were
families that had been called to the mission field. And so then some of our efforts were like
raising money to support their cause. They would come on tours back from their countries and tell
us what life was like. And it was always with this arrogance that they were there to save this poor country.
And we should, number one, have adoration for the missionary and we should really feel
sorry for the country that they came from.
And there are civilized countries sometimes, you know, like France or Ukraine or, you know,
places where people with science and progress live.
They're not just jungle kids, you know, so they have traditions and religions and backgrounds in their own countries and we just learned it's
like a conditioning to disrespect across the board. They're wrong because they don't think like us,
period. So we just need to find the way in so that they'll believe us and they'll convert and
they'll come to our churches. And they have a huge stronghold in the Philippines. Like my church is
where Tim Tebow went to, the football player.
And so the Tebow family, that's a good example.
They've taken over the Philippines.
They have a massive, massive ministry in the Philippines.
And Timmy Tebow, his mom taught me how to sing scripture.
I'll never forget it.
She used to wear this hot pink lipstick.
And she would sing Bible verses to us because she was in my home school group.
And then they would pray, ask us to pray for Timmy Thiebaud because he was a good baseball
player and a good football player.
And he was going to be a football player for Jesus.
So we should pray that he could go to UF and become a Florida Gator and play football for
Jesus.
Stop this.
Oh my God.
And look what God did.
Look what God did.
Yikes. My God. Okay. So you mentioned
how kids of missionaries who are out in the field can be really isolated, that sometimes they're
there under sketchy circumstances. Can you talk about some of these worst case scenarios? What
were the cultiest, in a bad way, aspects of the missions trips that
your church spearheaded or that you heard of? Yeah, it's interesting you just used the word
spearheaded. So I'll go back to the original story of the Elliot's. So the movie's called
The End of the Spear. And so Jim Elliot is this young, closeted, gay guy. We know this now from
old journals. This is all that the truth eventually comes out. But at the time, he was a young newlywed seminary student
who went with a group of men to the jungle to tell these people who had
never been contacted by the outside world before about Jesus. And as soon as
their plane lands, they get speared to death. And then two years later, Elizabeth
Elliott takes her two-year-old baby down to the same place and decides to live
among the people,
take the gamble that she's not gonna get speared to,
and her baby gonna get speared to,
and then they proselytize and they raise.
So like, I'm raised with that stupidity.
Like, that's not even good risk assessment.
You know, like, who does that?
What mother does that, takes her baby in there.
So by the time I'm an adult,
I'm like not supposed to question
that there's a family in our church that's going to Yemen, which is a very, very closed country.
You are not allowed to be there as a Westerner, certainly not as a Christian.
And they went in under the guise of some sort of water program and they had four children
and one of them had a heart problem and they did this anyway.
And we were supposed to laud them for being so courageous.
And by then, you know, I had, I was a heart mom, my baby had that same heart defect.
And I was like, you'd be kidding me.
You're not going to go live in the desert under like where you could be killed any day
just because they found out who you really are.
And so the the dishonesty that is so bred into it and the dangerous risk taking on the
behalf of the people that you're supposed to be protecting.
I would definitely consider my own children the higher priority there, not anonymous strangers.
But that flips it.
It flips it because you're not supposed to value your children as much as you value the
lost people that you're there to save.
And it just doesn't jive in a mother's body.
I don't think, not mine, not mine.
Yeah.
Like what are they thinking?
Like what is going on?
I think this is where it's super important right there why it matters
We talk about outcomes because they will always lead those organizations will always lead with the shiny new young generation
The new people coming up to spread the message
but what we have to look at is the minefield of
Actual survivors and evidence because what happens most of the time is people have a breakdown. That couple from Yemen ended up divorced and they're in America trying to
struggle and their kids are grown up and you know whatever and that's not an
unusual story. These stories, these like the whole ex-vangelical movement, it's
just a massive movement, is made of people who believed they were supposed
to proselytize and value other people's conversions more than what was happening
in their own lives and it led to a crisis of personality and value other people's conversions more than what was happening in their own lives.
And it led to a crisis of personality and it led to a crisis of faith and it broke everything
and they had to deconstruct it completely.
That's way more common.
But what the churches do is they push all those people away as bad apples, failures,
shunned, you know, it was formally shunned out when I was excommunicated, and instead
put the new onus on a new batch of 16 year olds.
These are the hope for the future.
And it's always young kids.
They're always the teenagers.
Yeah, yeah, yeah.
That's something that's so insidious about this because when you're out and about, you
can tell when a group of kids is like a mission trip group of kids.
Oh yeah, you can.
They have a vibe.
Yeah, it's a Chick-fil-A vibe.
It is.
Listen, you said it, not me. it's a Chick-fil-A vibe.
It is. Listen, you said it, not me. It's a Chick-fil-A vibe. And you know, it's not totally unfamiliar to me because like I went to theater camp and like theater camp kids are just as annoying
as mission trip kids and we're popping around singing schoolhouse rock all over, whatever.
So there is something in adolescence that is so geared toward community and fanaticism.
And that's, you know, why teenage girls are like the biggest fans of One Direction or
whatever. Like there is something thirsty for communion and purpose and ritual in all of us, but especially
in youth.
And so when I see these mission trip kids, I'm like, it's such a shame because that buzzing
of energy and like want and desire that they have is so universal and is so human. And it's being taken advantage of in this
really jacked up way. And it's like hard to look at. I call it zeal. They're so zealous and
it's always the soldiers. It's always the, you know, armies are made of young people. There's a
stage in development and human development that makes all that group think very excited. You know,
theater kids aren't trying to take over the whole world, but missionary kids,
that's what they're being taught. They're being taught that way that they are to take
over the whole world and their energy is being completely exploited. But it is on brand.
The Bible stories I grew up with, Shadrach, Neshach, and Abednego were thrown into a fiery
furnace and they were young teenagers who were sent to a conversion camp. It's like Mary, Mary was 13 when she had Jesus. It's part of it. It's not separated.
Yeah. And that zeal can be weaponized in such an insidious way or it can go Greta Thunberg.
It can go in so many different directions, but we can't sort of like minimize how teenagers in particular are so susceptible to cultish
influence only for the fallout later to be like rejection by the community that you gave
everything to.
That's why it's our responsibility.
Like as a mom, what I did was recognize that this is a developmental window in their brain.
It is to be protected.
I am an adult who is supposed to protect that zeal and that interest and make sure that they have resources to learn, step outside their
worldview, broaden their worldview. I don't think we change that teenagers are that way.
I think what we have to become is better guardians of that.
Yeah, so true. And it becomes even more challenging, I think, in the age of social media missionary
work, right?
Oh, sure.
Lord love them, they're the best ones at it.
TikTok adoptees are young,
and us oldies, you know, like, we can figure it out,
we can use it, but they're gonna always be
the early adopters, and they spread ideas really quickly.
For better and for worse.
For better, for worse.
What happens if a missionary is literally
unable to convert anyone?
They're fired.
Like, what if they, okay. Yeah, they're fired as failures. They're fired. What if they come?
Okay.
Yeah, they're fired as failures.
They're probably brought under like some rehabilitation and some coaching that happens.
They're brought in on furlough so that they can come back and fix their marriage problems,
put their kids through some remedial stuff, you know, whatever's broken, they're given
a chance to fix it.
That is how I met the Tebos because they had some family issues that their kids weren't
thriving in the Philippines
And so they had to bring them home so they could speak English and have like an American life
Their kids were depressed and other things that I'm too distant to know but that was the whole story was that they're home on
furlough so that they can fix these problems and then if that doesn't work if you don't renew your commitment to God and feel
That excitement again, then you're just fired. And that's their livelihood. Oh my God. This Teabow tea is really piping hot. Jesus. No pun intended. So how did
you come to realize that mission trips might be doing more harm than good? What was that specific
piece of your story like? Yeah. The background is that I kind of like,
that's how water wears something
down. Time after time I was like I've started to find world cultures really
beautiful and not I didn't want to take that like arrogant view that something
was wrong with them and that I had the answers. But on a personal level the last
mission trip I went on was to build houses in Mexico and we actually built
the house. We stirred the concrete with our hands and we erected this house in Rosarita and one of the workers there
heard that I was a doula. So a doula is somebody who helps women have babies
with aftercare as well and early you know childhood and I've had lots of
babies so I did part-time work as a doula and they heard that and there was a
baby, a mom and a baby that were struggling in their congregation. And so quickly, like in the span of an afternoon, I find myself
off the job site being taken to this woman's house somewhere deep in Rosarita to help diagnose why
her baby is not thriving. He's like two days old and he wasn't nursing. And I get into this house
and like we go into this really deep dark house and I'm realizing like as I'm doing it that their mindset is
that I somehow know what I'm talking about just because I'm white and American and I'm
supposed to have the posture that I have the solution for you just because I'm white and
American and a mother and have done have some experience with babies.
But a doula is a support role.
It's not a medical role.
So I can't actually help a baby that's failure to thrive.
Now I get it back there and this newborn
is like covered like an Eskimo.
It's 90 degrees, 95 degrees, so hot outside.
And this baby is in so many layers.
And the first thing I do is I take the baby
and I take all the clothes off of it
and the mother starts screaming and crying.
And then the translator says, in our culture, we keep our babies bundled.
And I just stood back and I was like, you need to take the baby to the hospital.
It's not nursing.
It's going to dehydrate.
That's all I can tell you.
And that was my like, I'm done.
I'm not participating.
And I haven't.
That was 12 years ago.
I have not participated in any other missions type endeavor
I've given to a lot of charities, but I won't I won't do that ever again. Right? No, right
I don't know how they take care of their babies, you know
Yeah, yeah know that culture clash sounds like it was actually traumatic for everyone involved
Oh, everyone not helpful not helpful. Yeah, I've got one more question for you
and then we're gonna play, if I dare suggest it, a game.
It's a funky tone that we have here on Sounds Like a Cult,
but if you get it, then you get it.
With more and more criticism surrounding missions trips,
both in and outside of Christianity.
Like I couldn't help but notice as I was doing research for this episode that like
there are a great many churches that are vocalizing critiques of these behaviors.
How do some churches continue to justify them?
I think it gets justified because the establishment can't continue without missions work in some
capacity.
Like an evangelical model
needs evangelism in order to thrive and so they have to keep growing and as
their own country becomes more restrictive they're looking at other
countries to take over and spread. It always comes back down to that
dominionist theology of they're supposed to spread Christianity throughout the
world. So I think that's why it persists. I think the obstacles start to come up
with when you have like what just happened in Haiti with those young
missionaries being killed and like they went in there and they're tangling in
regimes and problems that they really have no business in. Or the other thing
that will happen a lot is they'll go in for a short term, provide a bunch of
relief and then leave and there's been no infrastructure help. Again, all with
this transactional, you know, we will help you
colonization mindset. So I think it's the more the certainly in America, the colonization
conversation continues. We're starting to look at these systems and like, oh, we shouldn't be doing
this. This is actually not helpful. But then that's a direct existential threat to their
organization. So it's a really a sticky a wicket. So we're going to transition into a little game. There's no way to lose this
game. It's just a classic sounds like a cult game called What's Cult Here. So
I'm going to read a list containing some of the Christian fundamentalist
quote unquote cults that we've covered on the show before. And I'm going to ask
you whether you think that is cult here or missions trips are cult here. What is cult here? Mission trips or purity rings?
Purity rings. Why? Just longer standing and more difficult to extricate from
your thinking. Mmm yeah yeah, yeah, whoa, okay.
What's cultier, mission trips or church camp?
Oh, that's so hard.
I'm gonna say church camp again
because you can't get it out of your system.
I've gone to therapy for a church camp.
I haven't gone to therapy for a missions work.
Wow, wow, this is illuminating.
I'm so glad despite my discomfort
that we decided to play this.
Okay.
What's cultier, mission trips or celebrity mega churches?
Mission trips.
Okay.
Because real people get hurt, not just plastic surgery and butt implants and prosperity.
They're going to fall on their face, but people die and the other thing.
Very fair assessment.
What's cultier, missions trips
or reality TV religious families?
They're the same thing.
They're the same thing.
Yeah, it's a tie.
Okay.
What's cultier, missions trips or tradwives?
Tradwives.
Tradwives, yeah. Mm-hmm.
Because I feel like missions trips are kind of maybe dying and
tradwives are on the come up.
And you can't leave your tradwife life.
You're stuck.
Right.
Last round, what's cultier, missions trips or hell houses?
I mean, hell houses remind you of what happens to you if you don't go on a missions trip, so...
Yeah, that's a snake eating its tail. I mean, hell houses remind you of what happens to you if you don't go on a missions trip.
So yeah, that's a snake eating its tail.
Yeah, totally.
They all, yes, no, all of these things work in tandem.
A hell house for those who haven't listened to that episode and are blessed not to know
are like just sin themed haunted houses that also teenagers put on for churches and youth
groups. It'll
be like instead of having like a graveyard room and like a witch room
with a cauldron, it'll be an abortion room and a premarital sex room. Yeah.
They're real fears. They're their real fears leading to real damnation that
keeps them motivated. Yeah. Yes. Absolutely. Yes. But also like a fun activity for
Christian theater girls to do in October.
Yeah.
Cool.
Okay.
I have one more question for you, Tia.
It is the ultimate sounds like a cult question.
Out of our three cult categories, live your life, watch your back,
and get the fuck out.
Which cult category do you think missions trips falls into?
Ooh, it could be watch your back based on location,
but I'm gonna say get the fuck out.
Yeah, it's kind of feeling like a fundamental get the fuck out.
Like there's no way to do it ethically.
It's a get the fuck out.
Get the fuck out.
You don't belong there.
That's not where you should be.
If like you doing your absolute best
and like going the hardest for the mission
results in death and or excommunication from the very
institution you're trying to support.
That's so bad.
Right.
It's so bad.
If you really want to go to the beach, just go to the beach.
Maybe God does want you to go to the beach, but he wants you to, she wants you to send
yourself there.
Tia, thank you so much for your time and for your work.
If folks listening want to keep up with you and all your many endeavors, where can they
do that?
The easiest is Tia Levings writer on all the social platforms.
My sub stack is TiaLevings.substack.com and my website is TiaLevings.com.
And your book is a well-trained wife.
It is and it's available everywhere books are sold.
Hell yeah.
Hell yeah. Thank you so much. Well, that's are sold. Hell yeah, hell yeah.
Thank you so much.
Well, that's the show.
Thanks so much for listening.
Stick around for a new cult next week,
but in the meantime, stay culty.
But not too culty.
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