The HoneyDew with Ryan Sickler - Rich Vos - HoneyVos

Episode Date: December 12, 2022

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Tickets for all tour dates are on my website at Ryan Sickler dot com. We got Chicago, November 11th and 12th. Grand Rapids, December 9th and the 10th. All right. That's the biz there. You all you guys know what we're doing over here. We're highlighting the lowlights. I always say these are the stories behind the storytellers today. Very excited to have this guest here. First time on the honeydew. Ladies and gentlemen, please welcome Rich Voss. Welcome to the honeydew ladies and gentlemen please welcome rich voss welcome to the honeydew rich this is uh this is too professional for me all right this is like it already on that i go why am i here i'm out of place

our fucking podcast we we tried patreon and we lasted about six months we go we can't do another one of these we can't do two of them uh we're like every every like uh every every week when you want to do it i don't know i don't want to get a you know like this is a studio you got a uh logo you got fucking cups and shirts it's just it's let me tell you something if my wife and i are not fighting on our podcast then it's not a podcast you know our best one is when i made her cry anyhow well to promote that it's called my it's called my wife hates me you know it's anywhere you can find a podcast bus terminals uh, whatever. My wife hates it. It's really funny.

I'll tell you a story. Well, tell them who your wife is in case they don't know who Bonnie is. Oh, Bonnie McFarland. Yeah, who's fucking hilarious. She's on fire. She's hilarious. She just sold like two TV shows. She's rewriting a movie.

All right. She was an executive producer on a Netflix show in the 20-something. You know, her career is on. We have the same manager. So he called me one day. And I go, oh, good. Something good's happening, right? And he calls me.

I go, oh, I wonder what's up because he never calls me. He goes, do you have Bonnie's banking information? I went from a fucking headliner to an assistant all right i stink so you know uh you know i got my i got my seventh album coming out it's called rich boss seven i think it'll come out two three weeks november and i have a special that i shot a couple years ago it's coming out it's going to be on like all these streaming platforms like Pluto, Roku. But it's cool. I shot it at a 12-step convention.

I love that. No one's ever done it. It's so cool. Bonnie directed the opening scene. It's so fucking cool. My stage behind me looks like a 12-step meeting, has all the signs, the coffee pots, donuts, chairs. Do you know Mick Betancourt? Do you remember Mick?

No. Mick's a Chicago guy. He's a really good comedian, writer, producer. But he used to do a show in the Valley. I can't remember how many years running, but it was at an AA because he was clean and sober. And it was at an AA cause he was clean and sober and it was at an AA, um, meet a hall and the, it was open to, you know,

the, what do you call it? Patients. I don't know. You know what I mean? The patrons, I don't know the alcoholics and the users and shit. And it was the best fucking show.

It was so fun. They, those people have done the wildest shit you could eat. You couldn't even imagine so hearing you talk about your stuff and they didn't care if you talked about drinking or drugs they're like fucking been there been there and they they you know you could go dark and low on them because they've been there it was so fucking fun yeah it's i've done a lot of conventions i've done some with you know 2,000 people I did damn really 2,000

big conventions you know a cool thing I did I got a call they were having a drug awareness concert next to the Washington Monument and they called me to host it I guess I got to the V's

and so they called me to host it. I guess I got to the V's. And so they called me to host it, right? And I hosted Woodstock 99. Did you see that documentary that's out? I saw it. I started watching it and I fell asleep. I'm not going to lie. I was on it in the first 15 minutes.

I'm going, let's go crazy. Let's go. I hosted that for three days. Not though there was two. Like a side stage thing or something? No, the second biggest. There was East stage and West. Anyhow, so I've done some big outdoor events, but this one.

That's the one everyone set everything on fire. Yeah, but that was the other stage. They asked me to come host that. I said, no way. I'll stay on my. And my stage has sometimes had 50,000, 70,000 people. I had them all – I had about 70,000 people at the counter. I'd go say hi to my daughters, Jessica and Ellen. I have it on tape.

They're all, hi, Jessica. Hi, Ellen. That's nice. So anyhow, so I did this big event in D.C. There was probably 15,000. And I got to do material. I did like big event in D.C. There was probably 15,000. And I got to do material. I did like five or ten. A lot of people in recovery.

It was just a drug awareness concert. Steven Tyler, Sheryl Crow, this band, The Fray. It was cool. But, you know, also, too, my career. Two weeks ago, I was working in Kenosha, Wisconsin. And I wish it was a parade. I was working in Kenosha, Wisconsin. So before I go on, the club owner, you're not going to do that many F-bombs.

And I'm like, anybody says that. That's still a thing? To me. Like, first of all, I know. Like, my seventh album is sparkling clean because I want to get it on more stations on Sirius. So, I mean, I could be cleaned. Whatever. I could do whatever the fuck I want.

So, he goes, no F-bombs. But why? I don't know. He's an old fucker. Was there a certain group out there he was worried about offending? I don't know. He's trying to get. They're all. Look, he's an old fucker was there a certain group out there he was worried about I don't he's trying to get they're all look he's an old guy he does a radio show in Kenosha

him and his wife he introduces me this week we have Rich Voss two time Oscar winner I wrote on two Oscars if I won two Oscars you think I'd be at your fucking club at the fucking Holiday Inn in Kenosha, you fucking jamoke? All right?

Fucking two-time Oscar winner. Look who we have on our fucking fly-by-night radio show. So that fucking week, that Friday, now he has two rooms at this hotel. One gigantic ballroom,

and then he has a nice size that would be perfect. It's like Woodstock, bro. He's got his west and east, bro. Perfect room. So it wasn't enough to fill the big room, and he lets people see themselves. So there's a big opening horseshoe in the middle. So that week he decides they're going to sell food at the club.

So as you walk in, he had all these samples. But people didn't see him as they walked in because they were reading samples. In the middle of my show, he has the waitresses passing out samples. Nuh-uh. I go, what am I working? Fucking Costco? What is this, a wedding? Right?

And I'm yelling at the waitresses, stop. I've never heard they're passing like people hey do you want a little sample of pastry you fat slob and uh i lost it and f-bombs do it i i i forgot i forgot about that yeah like oh really, oh, really? How am I not going to curse when you're passing out food? Like, you know, and I got off stage. I yelled. So, like, you do some of these gigs. They're the greatest.

Well, I just called out the comedy club. It was up in Vancouver. They got the, which is nice. They give the terminal to each table to pay their bill so that the waitress isn't going back and forth. Great. But the fucking thing beeps so fucking loud so you're just hearing beep beep beep i i was i was like is someone having a medical emergency right now are you already fucking down there like for real are you okay and they're like i'm just

paying my bill i was like wait that's something that the club guy was like of course uh it's of course a comedy club would give the fans something that would be louder than their fucking phone. Of course they would. And there's hundreds of them going off. It's like fireworks. I'm doing at least an hour wherever I go. 20 minutes of dropping the fucking checks. I go, listen, you fucking idiots.

You could sell at least two more rounds and make your money because that's their their job is to sell wings and fucking drinks that's the difference when you and i love doing clubs don't get me i love comedy clubs without you know and i i like theaters too but it's a whole different vibe you know comedy club like sit on a stool and i bring them you know what i mean and and then when they're dropping you know people like i'll be you know what I mean? And then when they're dropping, you know, people, like I'll be, you know, people are on their phones and I'm like, what the fuck? They're trying to figure out the bill, you know, whatever. It's a business we're in.

All right, well, let me ask you this question because we could sit here and bitch about comedy all day. I love it. I love doing shit. I love it. So let me ask you this. You decide to do this at a rehab, at an AA. Your special I'm talking about.

Well, no. Yeah, it was at a- At a what? It was at a convention. Okay, at a convention. This is the special, right? A 12-step convention. But did you pick that because you had gone through this?

Is that something that really resonates with you and is something you wanted to do to help? No, I don't want to help anybody. Take me back to the beginning. Let's talk about you. First of all, I got 36 years clean. Wow, congrats. 36 years. I did it for you and this podcast.

Yeah, man. Thank you. We've been waiting, bro. I'm telling you. I said not until he's 36 deep, bro. I said. Make sure he comes ringed up too, man. Listen.

You definitely have the most rings of anyone who's ever been on this. I'm a fucking headliner, bitch. These aren't middle rings. They're not feature rings? No, are you kidding me? Every now and then I'll let a feature touch them. But here, touch my ring. Let me touch it.

You're a co-headliner. So I was a fucking drug i the night before i went to you know when i in the 80s doing there was one-nighters all over in jersey i'm from jersey i live in connecticut new york i mean one-nighters like they were going you know i would do one-nighters where I was closing back then. I wasn't a headliner, but I was the closer. Chris Rock would be in the middle, Ray Romano, and Adam Sandler. I'll tell you a funny story with Adam. Me and Adam did a Holiday Inn in Scranton, right?

Adam played guitar. He went on, and then I went on. And after the show, the owner brought us in the back and pulls out a big bag of Coke. And he says, do you want Coke or money? And Adam took the money, and I took the Coke. And you see where his career is, and you see where my career is. Okay? But I took it. Yeah. where it is and you see where my career is okay but i joke yeah and so so i knew i had to go to

rehab i was going all right so i started smoking wait a second let's go to the beginning you're from jersey you're how old now for real how old am i yes like 65 it's amazing to me i think you look great okay i'm married i uh it's 65 yeah i think you look great oh thanks um tell me about your upbringing and how you get well onto drugs do you have older brothers what did you were you clean and sober up until comedy started hitting you with those one-nighters well what happened was my gym teacher said too much teeth uh no you know as a kid when you here's the deal and i don't want to get too deep when you come from a broken home like when i was young you won't even know this i used to come home from school in fourth grade, and I would listen to this comedy album, Von Meter, every day. He did the Impressions of the Kennedys.

It's called The First Family. They got shot, and his career was done. Done. This guy was the number one. He was a two-trick pony. This guy was the number one, had the number one selling album. Like they say, he went from Park Avenue to Park Bench. He died a full-blown alcohol.

And I used to come. It should be left. It's fucking. I didn't know that. What do you mean? I think Lenny Bruce walked on stage that night. Oh, God. I think Lenny Bruce walked on stage after the candy.

I think he said, well, there goes Vaughn Meter's career. Right? I think that's the famous line he said. So I used to come home from school and listen to that. And I didn't realize this until later in life. You know, I'm covering the pain of my parents' divorce. You know, I'm in fourth grade. Are you an only child?

No, I had a brother who passed and my sister uh my my sister's two years older okay so it's so and so growing up and my mom how old was your brother when he passed? Probably about 58, 59. Am I still fucking young? And the thing, you know, diabetic, he lost a leg and still I'm paying full price for a casket. All right?

I paid. Okay. All right. And this funeral. The funeral. The funeral, the funeral, $14,000 I'm paying. You know, I'm trying to save money. I'm like, can we do three feet? You know what I mean?

Look, he did one of his bits, a fucking Bodak. Anyhow, so you grow up doing negative shit. Negative attention is better than none. But you don't know. Your mom's doing the best. She's working two jobs or one job, three kids. She's struggling. What the fuck? She's a secretary.

Luckily, we lived above my grandparents for free. They had a multifamily house. What age are you when your parents split? Oh, fourth grade, eight or nine. But I dressed like a 12-year-old. So I was eight or nine. And you live with mom and his dad just like peace or were he around? Well, no.

Like this is how fucked up parents are back then. They didn't have self-help and all that shit. You know, I remember like my dad would come every couple, two or three weeks. And we stand and we're, oh, daddy's coming, yeah? And then he'd come walking down the driveway and detectives would jump out of the bushes and arrest them is that real yeah you've witnessed that yeah yeah so we were fucking like we were you didn't even know the detectives were in the book no no my mom so that's you were bait so we were bait you know so who's more up? Him for not paying child support or my mom using us to set him up? I remember we took the bus all the way to New York from New Jersey

to meet him at the Port Authority. Detectives, boom. You've seen him more than once. Oh, yeah. Not the same ones. Yeah. You're like, hey, Jerry. Yeah.

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So, but now, like when my first wife and I got divorced, we're good friends. Because I did the opposite of my parents. We're my kids. My mom did the best she could with the tools she had. Sir, come on my chin? Yeah. So, you know, you do the opposite with your kids. My kids are fucking great.

So then, you know, you're doing- But you grew up a little like me. So then you had the extended family a little bit, grandparents. Well, I didn't get along with that i was the black sheep okay our family was the black sheep like my cousins their families they had hebrew school scholars houses down the shore and you know we're living free we so we were the black sheep you know during all the big family dinners at my grandparents, you know, my mom was kind of the butt of the jokes with, you know. And I was the black sheep of the black sheep family.

You got it. You're the black black sheep. I was the fucked up fuck. You know, my cousins were all honor roll students, college. I quit high school, you know, started a business. Did you really? Yeah, I started my own business. I had a good paint.

I had the biggest painting business in town. But I did coke, you know. It a business. Did you really? Yeah, I started my own business. I had a good paint. I had the biggest paint and business in town. But I did coke, you know. It's tough, and I was scared of heights. So paint my house. I'll do the first floor. You don't see no. This is a true story. It's on my album.

Step ladder and below, bro. That is it. This is a true story. I owed a drug deal. Everybody in town money. All drugs, everywhere I go. Every Friday, I had an old Dodge pickup truck. I would paint it a different color with house paint. Nuh-uh.

Yes, I did. No, you didn't. Yes, I did. There goes Voss. No, he had a red truck. That's shutter green. Brush paint on it. One week, it was brown, I remember.

It was an old thing. And it wasn't even semi-gloss. It was a flat brown. Look at that. So as you grow up doing negative shit, then you start hanging with the same type of kids that come from broken homes you you know i grew up in the neighborhood was you know my back street was all black people it was you know and the front was like white people so you grow up you feel i don't feel as good as them,

or I don't feel like I belong with them. I feel a little better than, I'm doing a little better than the dudes behind me. So that's who you hang out with. So you hang out and then it grows into negative, whatever. It just escalates. What's your first drug ever? Pot.

Or no, alcohol. Me and Rudy drank. His brother Pee Wee gave us a bottle of Thunderbird, and we drank Thunderbird one night. How old? Shit, maybe eighth grade. Eighth grade, maybe. Okay.

And we threw up the next. Me and Rudy were, you know, Pee Wee. And all the dudes, a lot of the dudes on my block all died of AIDS from shooting dope. Is that right? Back then, and, you know, Pee Wee. And all the dudes, a lot of the dudes on my block all died of AIDS from shooting dope. Is that right? Back then. And, you know, I knew dudes. They were all in prison or shooting.

You know, these are just the dudes on my block. And I only hung with some of them. The older guys were, you know, fucking cars riffing around the corner. Guns, FBI. Or, you know, they're chasing. My block was a lot of heroin dealing heroin addicts and we were young what area of jersey plainfield plainfield okay so then you get older and you progress and you start doing this drug that drug and the next thing you know

you're smoking freebase or crack we got that far oh yeah all right well so when's the how old were you when you first did cocaine and how did you do it you sniff it it was no it's on the tip of this guy's dick so it was you know i don't know probably with friends i snorted you know we were snorting like is it that early? No, it's probably after high school. We were doing like pot, acid, you know, going to concerts, New York Dolls. I saw them on acid and all. Then 21, you know, I get real bad anxiety.

I put myself in a hospital. They don't know what anxiety is back then they really don't they think you're just nuts and they feed you with thorazine and how you know i'm doing a shuffle around every day just shuffling around the fucking fifth floor of the fucking psych ward i remember my friends came to see me i go we're going for our walk today i can't have company you know i was know, I have had anxiety my whole life. I get it now, even talking.

When you talk, when I talk about myself deep like this, I get fucking major anxiety. So I'm suffering from anxiety. Then you just get older and you just, it progresses. Drug addiction progresses with certain people.

If you have that addictive personality, you're addicted to instant gratification. You know, so, you know, you're snorting Coke, you're partying, you're doing whatever. You're dealing and then you're fucking owing everybody money because you're doing all the product. It's just a fucking night moving from house to house. Painting that fucking truck. It's nonstop stress. I mean, you're just fueling anxiety.

That business is gone. You know? Okay. At this point that's gone. I owe paint. I owe fucking paint distributors, thousands. And this is back then.

That's a lot. That is a lot. So when you first free base, how old are you when you free base well i was doing comedy i started comedy i was so bad in the beginning so bad i didn't know i would just want to be a i i remember going to catch a rising star a couple times i remember that place in that hotel. Was it a- No, no. Not the one in Princeton. The one in New York. Yeah.

The real one. And I remember seeing Lenny Schultz. He did props. Crazy Lenny. I go, that's what I should do. I just went to Toys R Us and pulled it. And it was just horrible. It was horrible.

I remember going on the first time. Oh, my God. My friend's band was playing. I went on. It was just so bad. Then I did it. But then I started booking these rooms, one-nighters, where I would host.

Then other guys booking one-nighters like New York, Connecticut, we would trade. I'd say, you could do my gig, and I'd do their gig, so I'd get work. And my one-nighter, I mean, I had fucking top act. I remember having this headliner, Mulrooney, fucking great, and he brought his own middle, and the middle act, it's like, I don't know if you know this, but I work Catch the Rising Star. I go, well, yeah, you're making 60 bucks a night.

And it was Richard fucking Jenny. He was opening for Mulrooney. Okay. So I had all these, and I would get work, and then it built and built. But then now I'm starting a free base. I don't know how. Are you taking drugs instead of money also for payment and things like that? No, I'm just taking the money and going to buy drugs.

And are you keeping this quiet? No. Is this just a thing that you're doing? No, I'm doing it with other comics, free base, and friends. I mean, car accidents. I mean, just a complete nightmare of drug addiction. Complete nightmare. And when you wake up, is it immediate?

Like, is it all day long? No. When I wake up, I'm like, fuck it. How am I going to get money to get high tonight? You know, it's just horrible. It's a horrible feeling. That next morning, I mean, just nightmare stories after nightmare. Car accidents, stealing, whatever.

You know, probably one of the lowest things, it's a gross story, but I was in a bar in New York. I had no money left. I have 80 cents and I had 40 cent drafts, I think. I went in to have two drafts. And some girl comes up to me. She goes, oh, can I buy you a drink? So I go sit at her table.

And she goes, can I buy you a drink? She goes, you got to go up and get it. And she handed me $20. And I walked up to the bar and just ran out the door and took it and went and bought two more vials of crack. So it's two years or three years of just pure fucking drug addiction.

Crack. You got all the way to crack. Well, crack is freebase. That's just a name. Did you ever put a needle in your arm? Just only twice. I didn't like it. You did, though.

Yeah, twice. It wasn't my type of high. You know, I didn't like heroin. did though yeah twice it wasn't my type of high you know i didn't like heroin you know so coke was your yeah drug of choice uh so i remember one night i smoked an eighth of coke about three and i'm ready to fucking so i go up to uh i go i gotta go to rehab so i go up to fair oaks and I'm sitting in the waiting room. I had no, I knew nothing. And by the time they saw me, I came down. I said, fuck, I left.

So it was probably another half a year, a year of running. And then I put myself in rehab. I remember the night before I was going to rehab, I called this booker, Gary Grant. He booked one-nighters. I said, listen, I'm going to rehab tomorrow. I need to get high. And he gave me this one-nighter.

It was called BF Packies. A fucking nightmare. I did it. Went to New York. Bought five aisles of Coke. Smoked them. The next morning, bought five aisles of Coke, smoked them. The next morning, my mother drove me to rehab, and I have not picked up a drug or a drink a day since.

Yeah, I'm trying to do the math in my head. So if you're 65 and you've been clean and sober, 36, around 29, you're going. 28, yeah. Yeah, you're going clean and sober. Yeah. So what's the closest to death you've come in there and that could be gun being robbed i mean have you been robbed a bunch and shit like no but i've had guns held you know i remember one night we were going to cop me and my friend and he goes to steal like a vial or two from these and they they pull out guns. I go, hey, that was him, not me.

Whoa. You got two, three extra vials. I had keys to front doors of buildings up in Spanish Harlem. I mean, we were in a car accident once where we took down a fucking light post. I should have died there. Were you driving? No. We all got out. It was just horrible.

There was no airbags or anything back then it was come out i mean this thing was going fucking and we just spun all the wheels are off the car i mean total all of us should have died yeah and no one did no one we all know and i went back in later that night to new york i i made three trips that night and the next morning ended up in a hospital with a kidney stone. I didn't know what it was. And I think a couple weeks after that is when I ended up in rehab. But close to death, every time you're getting high, you're close to death.

You blow your fucking heart out. You know? So, you know. And I say this all the time, too, and I know I sound like an old white guy, but today, if you don't get clean and sober, you're going to die. That fentanyl is going to get you. It will get you sooner or later. There's no way you could run for three, four years these days of cocaine or whatever and not get a hot shot.

I feel like the odds are way against you. I mean, we're getting high every day smoking fucking coke. That's what I'm saying. Imagine, sooner or later, you're going to get one. And I used to, you know, once in a while snort it. But like I said, it's like reading a book backwards. After you smoke it, people go, hey, you want some coke? If we weren't smoking it, I didn't really want it.

That's that much difference of a high? Yeah. So anyhow, I go to rehab. They said, you know, you can't do comedy for a year because today I got out of rehab. I did a show that night. I got booked. And I just haven't, you know, my desire to stay clean is much stronger.

I mean, right now I have enough money in life i would die this watch i sell this watch i'm dead you know what i mean i gotta i didn't have any money there and i got a family i got what you would sell that watch for back then is not what you would sell it for today either no be pawning that shit off for yeah yeah a hundred dollars, let's not get crazy. A hundred dollars, I'll let you wear it for a day, motherfucker. Wear it around. Call you up.

Where's my watch? Time's up. I'm on a fucking watch time share. So, and then, you know, I started, I remember in the beginning, I mean, I just, I was working for a guy once and he was evicted out of his house so he was staying at a hotel uh he had all this shit in his hotel room so i get off stage i said he hasn't had my money so i go in this hotel room i took his tv to head store not to hotel tv history and i go home and my ex-wife is like what are you working

for a microwave next week you know i have so many when you start comedy i remember one time what's the scariest scariestariest drug deal transaction. Well, we were in New York. You've never been jumped all those times? You've never been jumped? No, man. No. I knew how to carry myself.

Plus, I was a good buyer. They didn't want to. One time, and this is a true story. I mean, I put this on. Maybe back then it was different. Because I feel like nowadays, when you come down to those those neighborhoods now and they know a white dude in these neighborhoods, you're going to get everything. You're not getting your drugs, your money's gone, and you might get out of there with your life. You know, one time was when somebody would go, well, with this another drug guy, he goes, look, I got a shotgun.

Let's go rip off some drug dealers. And we were this close. We would have got killed. Yeah. Because they have looked out. There's no way we would. And then I said, you know what? This ain't going to work.

And we were at that point where we were going to. But that's how deep in the addiction you are. You're considering. You're considering. Right. You're going, well, he's got a shotgun. We'll go. you're considering right you're going well he's got a shotgun you know we'll go and but everywhere you go to buy those places up in harm spanish harm they got lookouts you can't you're not going in there with a shotgun they all have so you just crazy things in your head you know what i mean uh

one night i go oh maybe i'll be a male prostitute. And I sit on a corner for about seven minutes and I go, this ain't, it's not my career. I just pick any corner. I'm sure there was a corner where they all hung, but I go, I wouldn't even know what to do. Hey, can you just give me the money and I owe you? So I quit. You know, just stuff goes through your head. You're so high.

But, you know, it's. But you're a one and done rehab. Yeah. That's rare too. Oh, it is. I mean, I sit here on this show and listen to people sit across from me and they tell me how they've failed rehab time and time again. So to go once and then not a fuck up. Well, because.

I mean, I think it's one in 33. One in 33 last. Something like that. You're an outlier, bro. Well, it's because. Yeah, what was it? I didn't want to die or go to jail. And there's only three endings, jail, institution, or death.

There's no three endings, jail, institution, or death. There's no good ending. And I talk to people. I see people, well, I only do it this day or that day or it's whatever. And you can't, and this is all 12-step sayings, but you can't carry an addict. You can carry the message. Your ego's not your amigo. Yeah, all that shit.

There's so much shit. That one right there hits me hard. I only let my ego drive in the car with me now. You know what I mean? Outside the car, we just shut the fuck up. Ego's easing God out. Fear, false evidence appearing real real there's so much shit and i'm not some fucking 12 step uh zombie you know i take what i want and leave the rest behind or take

what i need now does bonnie drink or anything like that she has drink yeah in front of you too and are you okay and how is that for you she's not always wonder she's not selling pussy to get high she's got a great ass you know she uh you know she has one drink she can't two drinks she's out she has one drink and She can't. Two drinks, she's out. She has one drink. And then never. My question is, that doesn't entice you to be like, let me have a sip of that one or something like that. No.

I mean, listen. I'm an addict. I gamble. You know, I play lotteries, which I got to get in check. I mean, I've always gambled since fourth grade. Roulette. What did you gamble on gambled since fourth grade. Roulette. What did you gamble on in fourth grade? We played roulette.

Yeah. And we pitched quarters and, you know, whatever. I stopped gambling for 10 years. And then also I went back and it's, you know, my problem was lottery numbers. I hear just, and like I was in the casino. if i shoot i'll step over a naked body to shoot crap there's there's nothing more exciting than shooting fucking dice let me tell you when that table's hot the head of the clan is high-fiving farrakhan when the dice table's hot let me tell

you there's no feeling like a hot dice table. Fuck that. Get Megan Fox away from me. I'm trying to fucking hit a hard eight. But it's weird because I've been to casinos recently where I worked, and I'm there for the whole week, and Monday night I win like 500. And I don't gamble the rest of the week. I go, I'll leave with 500. I'll pay for my golf. But there's times where I'm going,

hiding money in my room. I don't bring my credit card. I'm back and forth, up and down. So it's just addiction to instant gratification. Addiction is drugs, alcohol, food. Stand up. All of it, stand up, is just a symptom of yourself. Right. up. All of it. Stand up is just a symptom of yourself. Right.

Sex, all of it. It's just a symptom of are you burying something? Are you addicted to instant gratification? Look, that's why stand up is so different than acting. And podcasting, too. I mean, I get this with you now. This doesn't come out for a minute. And you forget sometimes what you even talked about with people.

Because we're doing so many of these things. We're doing stand-up every fucking night, every weekend. But that, good or bad, you're getting an instant fucking hit in front of that crowd. You don't get that acting. People go to me. Hell, your movie might not come out for a fucking year. Yeah. It takes a long time to get a movie out or anything.

People go, oh, you can't act. Bitch, I'm a comic. It's like telling a brain surgeon you can't do root canal. I didn't study acting. I fucking do comedy anywhere. I can do comedy fucking sleeping down on my couch, wake up and do a set. And I can semi-act, know if especially if i could ad-lib if you can ad-lib

i'll fucking knock the scene out the box if i can just be me i'm good if i gotta be anything else i'm not if i gotta read lines i can't remember them i can't read them anymore so you know and i my comedy career is fucking great. I'm at the, like, I've already won. You know what I mean? I see, you know, we're talking about all these comics doing crowd work online. And this isn't ego. This is just bare.

And besides me, I've named this on my new album. I'm one of the best at crowd work in this business, hands down. I've named this on my new album. I'm one of the best at crowd work in this business, hands down. But there's other good, you know, Big J, Attell, Bonnie's great. Andrew Schultz is great. Rick Ingram's great. Yeah, yeah.

Jimmy Brogan from back in the day was, you know, there's a lot of good crowd. But I did on my new album my impression of bad crowd work guy. Okay, yeah. And I'm like, where are you from? Oh, I've been from oh i've been there you know no jokes how long how long you're married 11 years whoa almost 12 i close out my new album with bad crowd work guy but now you'll see on you know especially in new york a lot of these they expect crowd work because they see so much of it online and i could do an hour i could do an hour of complete crowd work believe

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Yes. My first two, 32 and 30. Yeah. 32 and 30. So were you, you had just got clean and sober then for a few years, right? I think I had like. So they never saw dad during addiction. Never.

Okay. No. And now your youngest is how old? 15. All right. She's fucking great. As a dad of where you've been three fucking times, I want to ask you a question because we were just, it's so funny.

I just took my daughter. We're from, I'm from Baltimore originally. I went back to visit my cousins in Ocean City, Maryland, right? I was just down there. Really? Yeah. originally i went back to visit my cousins in ocean city maryland right i was just down there really yeah so we fly into philly and we got the two-hour drive down to ocean city right and a good friend of mine had come to see me that i've known since i mean we're in sixth grade and his daughter unfortunately got a hot shot and she died from fentanyl so how old 23 24 it's

fucking horrible um so i'm talking to him and he's you know he's emotional and everything and my daughter sees it you can't hide that so on the drive back to the airport she asked me dad what was he crying about what what happened to his daughter and i was like you know what you can either bullshit her now or you can fucking just straight up be real with her and i chose to to be real, and I was like, I'm going to tell you what happened. And I explained what drugs are. I told her what fentanyl is because I think there was a kid. It might have been the middle school here in Santa Monica

where some kid took a Percocet from a parent's something, a street perk, and it killed him. It was hot. So I told her about fentanyl. Why would a parent be fentanyl? perk, and it killed him. It was hot. So I told her about fentanyl. Why would a parent be fentanyl? Well, I don't know. I don't know if it really was at the parent's house. I don't know where they got it, but they got it somewhere.

And it killed this kid, and it's all over. So I'm thinking, you're going to be there in two, three years. Yeah. So I explained what fentanyl was. I explained drugs. I explained what marijuana was and alcohol. And I down-talked the whole scary marijuana shit i was like listen of all the things out there that's the one you know she knows i smoke it she knows the neighbors smoke it she knows everybody she goes

sees the stores the billboards out here you can't fucking hide weed out here from your kids so how did you talk to your kids about it were you real with them about it do they obviously now they probably know your stories well i took my my older daughters they should go to meetings with me okay because i had them in the day so they you know they would play in a kid's room or whatever you know and they both grew up with like asthma. So, you know, they just knew I was an ex-drug addict. And, you know, they saw at meetings that they never saw me high or drunk. So subconsciously they got to think, you know, he's a good dad, good life.

He's not drinking or getting high. So something subconsciously, you know, my kids grew up, they drank. They weren't, you know, full-blown alcoholics. You know, they partied. They were fucking college kids. Yeah, they're going to do what kids do. Yeah, they're college kids. So I never had a well i remember i have

a video of my little daughters i was so cute they were probably six and four it's on tape and i would i sound them on the couch and i would ask them questions i go if a stranger pulls up to you what do you do they go run run i go what if he says he has a puppy run run you know and there might have been some drug questions you know and uh they're so cute we run daddy run call the police you know so and and when my daughter now i mean i leave it all up to Bonnie. I bailed. Yeah, this one's yours. I can't do this anymore. I'll take her to fucking Walmart. Yeah, wait, hold on.

She's 15. So 15 years you've been out of the game, man. You were almost out out, huh? Yeah. Well, she, God, she's so funny and cute. She's just, I mean, she's beautiful. She's smart. And I try to tell her, her you know because she's really

i'll show you a picture later uh you know i always try to say you're smart before you're beautiful i always try to say you know i don't want them i'm sorry about that three so i always try to first thing i do too it's never pretty first ever i am gonna battle that fucking you need to look good for a man or society fucking bullshit be fucking smart i wish i hung out with the nerds in school yeah you know i was a i was an athlete hung out with the jocks these nerds are coding shit and making billions of dollars i don't have any of it man be smart i i'm with you on that good so so you know she'll leave the house for this low-cut you gotta change your shirt i mean she doesn't but i tell her you gotta change you know putting on makeup and you know i mean she went from you know a piece of plywood to like a woman.

I'm like, she's 15. She hangs out with old friends and they have sleepovers. She has a good network of friends. They're good girls. And by the end of the day, it's like, how come she doesn't have a boyfriend? I don't care. Did your other daughters have a boyfriend? Yeah.

God, what age is the day first to have boyfriends that you were aware of at least? I think the oldest was seven. What? No. Oh, God damn, dude. My daughter did tell me she has a crush on a boy. They do. They have crushes.

No, I don't know. Teenagers, whatever. What's the first time someone was brought home to meet you well is it like a homecoming i don't know my daughter's getting married she called when she started dating this guy she was scared to tell me like she goes you know i'm dating this guy and he's black and right and is that real though yeah yeah he's light-skinned. I don't know. But she thought I was going to be mad. I grew up in an all-diverse neighborhood. You know, I mean, I've done every urban TV show.

I go, why would I be mad about that? If he's good, he's good to you, a good person. You know, I don't care. The white dudes you went out with were fucking assholes. Yeah i go those guys were assholes white garbage yeah they were god one dude you know i mean one was cool her boyfriend before that was cool he was a good golfer he was cool and the one before him was a fuck up i mean a complete fuck up so I don't care I mean you know my other daughter who married this guy you know wait to as white as white can be you know red hat white uh you know fucking uh he's just went to like some ivy league college you know I'm like oh you're just

just a perfect jaw you know he's a fucking jaw is white it's like a a jaw white jaw it's like the kind of jaw that rejects fucking minorities for for a fucking car loan you're going for a car loan you look at that jaw and go we don't have a shot so you know i just started that you just want to punch him in his fucking waspy fucking banker jaw. Your son-in-law. So, and the other dude is cool. He plays ball, you know, will talk Jordan sneakers, you know, we'll talk Jordan sneakers, you know.

You know, and as long, my daughter's, the one who's getting married, she has a townhouse in a real nice fucking area in Jersey. They bought a house in Tampa where they Airbnb it. They're getting ready to buy another house. This kid's 32. She's going to have three fucking houses. You know what I mean? Yeah, hell yeah. This kid's 32. She's going to have three fucking houses. You know what I mean? Yeah, hell yeah. You're doing well.

My other daughter lives in, she bought a fucking, a $750,000 house, her and her fucking husband. All right? Had a baby, just had a baby. You know, and these are my, you know, I was fucking,

this is all too, you know, from telling jokes. Right. From going on stage. That's right. You know, I get to do a speech at my daughter's wedding, you know, in two weeks. I just can't offend anybody. I know how I am, you know, because there's going to be a mixed audience, you know. I'll start doing crowd work, you know because there's going to be a mixed audience you know i'll start doing crowd work

you know at my god if you do well at my daughter's first wedding right the night before at the rehearsal dinner his father gave a speech you know he came with slides of them you know together going up he had a whole fucking presentation. So I didn't. I just went up at my daughter's wedding. I go, first of all, I'm not like this fucking boat act. All right? I didn't prepare.

Boat act. I call him a boat act or whatever. I don't know. I go, him and his dumb slides. I'm sure. I go, I'm surprised you didn't do magic. Right? I'm just trashing him, and I moved on.

But then I'll write some bullet points, but it comes from here. Just like comedy. To me, look, there's great comics, but to me, good comedy comes from the heart, not the head. Like you- Well, it starts with the heart, and you polish it with the head. Yeah, no, but there's joke tellers. Yeah, you're right. When you leave a show, for me, like I love all comedy.

Don't get me wrong. My favorite, you know, I love Maria Banford. I love fucking Stano. You know, I love Alter Regan, you know, from up and down. But when you leave a show, to me, I'd rather know something about that person. You know, you could leave someone's show and go, what'd they say? I don't know, but he was funny. Right. But you leave a show and go wow what a life you know what i mean you know you uh so you know it's all different and like someone like maria banford you just know

she's very she's out of her fucking mind she's so good you know and same with stanhope too he'll take a bit and go uh you know in complete circle and you go holy fuck he does a bit about a third world guy going to a fucking american prison it's as funny as anything i've ever heard anything i've ever it's so funny and you're thinking or patrice when me andrice, me and Patrice were good friends. We'd hang out, and when you made him laugh, it was so electrifying when you said something, and there was no better feeling to me. I'd make Patrice laugh when he fell on the ground.

You know, it's so electric, and he's made me, you know, me and Patrice were walking down the street when I was giving him a ride home, and. you know, me and Patrice were walking down the street when I was giving him a ride home. You just said me and Patrice were walking down the street one night. I was giving him a ride home. No, I gave him a ride home. And then we're walking down to his, you know, we get walking to his house. And he looks at me and goes, I don't have a fucking thing going on in my career. Nothing. And I go, I don't have an agent a manager nothing and we just both

started cracking up laughing like you know we we didn't audition me and him for the two leads in a sitcom so we're auditioning for marcy phillips the head of casting for abc nicest lady in the world and we're up there and I can't act and he doesn't want to be there. So he won't take his face out of the copy. And she's yelling at me. I go, how the fuck can I connect with a guy that won't look at me? And I'm trashing him. He's going, fuck you.

And then she goes, can you two just leave? Wow, really? And we just walked down the hallway laughing. We just blew, and we just started laughing. It's so funny to us, and we're walking down the hallway, and there's three executives behind us, and I didn't mean to, but I farted, and he fell on the ground laughing so hard because

the executives were all fucking like oh uh you know there's certain comics like that they're like when you do when i do radio with gervais ricky his laugh is so electrifying yeah he loves comics yeah he's one of my favorites and he'll laugh like if you say something funny like there's no ego and you could trash him too you could you know he's gonna trash you he'll laugh like if you say something funny like there's no ego and you could trash him too you could you know he's gonna trash you he's just like hanging with the dudes and that's how our crew was in new york we were fucking brutal me patrice norton uh keith robinson bobby kelly you know kevin hart started with our crew. Bill Burr. We were all fucking ruthless. We beat Billy down one night at the Cellar so bad.

He came in. He came in and we're all sitting there. And he goes, I'm going to the World Series. The Yankees were playing the Mets. He goes, I'm going to the World Series. And we're like, how do you get tickets? He goes, I'm doing a show. These guys hired me to do a show on their bus to the game.

And for 45 minutes, we fucking did sweat was pouring down his face. Patrice, we did like we were doing stuff like you guys were a good crowd. Walking off the bus. And like once he said that, like our eyes lit up because we go, here's a fucking victim. Yeah. Victim. And we had so much fun. And then Patrice, you know, one night, the closest we came to that.

I mean, Kevin, I walked in one night with a little bump on my lip and everybody's yelling, Voss has herpes. And they're yelling it on top of the ceiling. Everybody's yelling. They're banging the table, Voss has herpes. And they're yelling it in top of the cell. Everybody's yelling. They're banging the table, Voss has herpes. You know, fucking dumb little Kevin Hart with his little hands bouncing on the fucking table. You know, Voss has herpes. And now he's, you know.

The closest we came one night, we're sitting in the cellar. Who's the nicest guy in the world? Russell Peters walks in. He's done the show yeah and he he has this you know what the p code is you know the navy coat but he has one up to his waist it's a waste he's walking in with his crew and we look at his coat and we just me keith and it's just non-stop and bonnie goes you look like the little boy on boardwalk empire

and we just like so nobody with his crew would laugh but we were he came in the next night fucking red just firing off shit at us he came in he goes fuck these guys. And the nicest guy in the world. So we had like our table in the back of the cellar. It was in the doc, the Patrice doc. They talk about it. We were fucking Ruth. But we were so funny. We were like just comics having fun. Then we'd leave there and a lot of nights it would be me, Patrice,

Keith Robinson, and Jim Norton would stand in front of Boston Comedy Club have him playing then we leave there and a lot of nights would be me patrice keith robinson and jim norton would stand in front of boston comedy club and just trash each other till three or four in the morning and it was the most fun and the best times in comedy you could have like now we i was sitting at the table and there was some young kid he said something and i trashed him and he went what's that about went, what's that about? I go, what? What's that about? Shut the fuck up.

It's a trashing, you dummy. They're so thin-skinned. And I don't think L.A. is like New York. People don't sit around beating each other up like we do. It's not. It's not like that here. I'm an East Coast guy. It's not. So we grew up, hey, asshole was just a polite way to get someone's attention.

You know what I mean? Yeah. It was never. It was all ball buster. It was all just, I want to make you cry. Like, I want to make you cry. And then you're like, hey, I'm sorry, man, when he goes around. If I'm fucking with you, it's so funny.

If I'm fucking with you, that means I like you. Yes. I'm spending time on you right now so many mcs on the road you know i'll go do you have my number at the end of the week and they go no and i go good and walk away good i go you see me in new york don't act like you know me right don't act like we're buddies all right but also i'm not an asshole like if so many of them can i saw merge and i always say yes i'm not one of like if so many of them can i saw merch and i always say yes i'm not one of these headlines you can't of course they don't make any fucking money

you know so it was so much fun throughout the career now it's this is what i want to ask you a question how many years in comedy were you using? How many years were you doing comedy? Just three years. Three years. Two or three years. How long do you think you could have kept that up while in comedy? I would have died. You would have died. I would have got shot or caught in an accident or went to jail. Why do you think shot? Just from having to go to the area to get the shit?

I would have put myself in a position somewhere, tried to rip somebody off. Like I was working in uh boston i met a this is when i was a waitress beautiful and i go can you get coke up here we drove from boston to new york i spent all my money we got a hotel room did coke all night. And she said, my sister wants an ounce of coke. Can you get any? Yeah. And I would have ripped her off.

In my head, I would have ripped her off easily. Three years later, I'm working in Florida, and that sister's in the audience with her monster boyfriend. Nuh-uh. So if I would have ripped her off, you know. And she came up to you and told you I'm the. I don't know. She goes, oh, yeah, you met my, whatever.

So nothing good would have happened if I would have kept doing it. It's not like, you know, oh, I'm a crack at it. I'm hitting lottery. There's no good ending. Yeah, you're right. There's no good ending. There's no good ending. There's no, you don't fucking get a trophy, know uh death institution or incarceration there's one of those three so

luckily i stopped when i stopped because the progression was out of control and thank god i didn't wasn't making money doing comedy you know i would go on the road and mc for 125 for the week it probably cost me 50 to fly then i would go let me ask you this you battle addiction so you've beat the alcohol drug substance you beat something you say you gambling's a here and there it's an issue yeah what do you do to fucking center yourself to really actually check yourself uh what do you mean by like i mean like if you're ever i mean that maybe you're doing

too much gambling or whatever like you obviously you have a an ability to reset yourself or self check like what do you do does it just hit a point where you finally go hey enough of this fucking shit or well you know i mean you don't look like you meditate maybe you do i don't know okay all right fucking gandhi i uh like i don't meditate shut your mouth i uh no my wife like i got 30 36 years clean and meditation is a big, I don't meditate. I don't know how. And I'll go by my wife's room, and she's meditating. And I'm jealous that my wife, you know, her career has taken off. She tries to, she had the best analogy.

You know, she goes, you know, think. She goes, because I have a lot of times my power of thinking, things happen for me when I do it. It's for some reason. She goes, just think. She goes, if you want to be a millionaire, you'll be one, right? And then I said to her, God gives you what you need, not what you want. She said, you think Chelsea Handler really needed a TV show? No. She thought that was my theory. There's your God.

There's your fucking God. I do got to start meditating. I do. I think. So what is it you do? I try to disconnect from it. I do. I think. So what is it you do? I try to disconnect from it. It's play golf. Okay.

So when I'm out there four and a half hours, four hours, I'm as disconnected with this business. Are you gambling on the game though? No. Once in a while, me and my friends will play $5. But usually I go by myself and they put me with three people or whatever. And they ask me what i do for a living i tell them an fbi profiler then i just bullshit my way through that you know or whatever because

i read a couple john douglas books back when i used to be someone new every time you know back in the day so uh I guess getting away is playing golf. Or when I'm doing yard work, I had my, for three years, I ended season three of Landscaping with Rich, which I do. Dude, I had this idea for a show years ago. I was trying to pitch where it's called I'll Cut Your Grass. Yeah. Because I'd be on the road meeting people at the meet and greet.

They're like, well, it's so cool what you do. It's so cool. I'm like, what do you do? And they're like, no, tomorrow I'm just cutting the grass. I'm like, do you know how much I would love tomorrow to just go fucking get on a ride mower and cut the fucking grass? Oh. And I wanted to do a give back show where maybe it's a woman who has breast cancer and she has to go get her chemo. And the house is a single mom in the yard. she has to go get her chemo and you know the

house it's a single mom in the yard i'm gonna come cut your grass while you go breaking the house no but come cut your grass that's a good you know what i mean you go you're single dad you haven't been with the kids or whatever it is go take your kids out and have a good time i'll cut your grass see that's funny i did three seasons of landscaping rich but if you look it up i would say what i'm gonna do okay i'm gonna put in you know uh 40 arborvitaes and then you know i say hey welcome to landscaping rich and this is today's project you're to be with me all along the way. We're going to get this done together. And then I would just show at the end the finished product.

I wouldn't show them me doing anything. It would just be a picture of the arborvitaes fucking planted. So I never did anything, but I always set it up when I was doing it. But all the deer in my neighborhood, I have an acre of property. I planted 36 arborvitaes. The deer ate them. They're sickly. So then in the front, I took them out

and put in the front 20, I put big rocks out front of my house. You know how they lay there. Then I put between them 20 20 alberta spruce and we had a drought and a heat wave and they're all dead they're brown dead and i ended season three i go listen it was a great season but everything's dead it's a wrap i'll see you next year all. First of all, thank you for coming on here and talking about this shit. I don't know how I got into the whole us and our crew and Patrice.

I always end up talking about that because that was my favorite time in the business. You know, and we're in a tough business. Yeah, we are. Yeah, that's the moments that matter. I love doing stand-up. I love creating. moments that matter yeah i love doing i love doing stand-up i love creating you know and if i was getting high i wouldn't have any of i wouldn't have my family i wouldn't have comedy i wouldn't get a free fucking ryan sickler mug yeah man you don't know this i'm gonna use it tonight i can't wait uh and so

i i i go off in tangents and i'm sorry if i did it's all good no yeah this is your episode dude this is what i want to ask you though i told you at the beginning off my start over i was gonna ask you. Advice you would give to your 16-year-old self. And it's interesting because that's you a couple of years into just drinking maybe and smoking some pot. You know it's about to come your way in a few years. What advice would you tell yourself? Try not to cum so fast.

It's only pussy. I don't know. I bet you nine out of ten people go, buy Apple, buy Microsoft. No, they really don't. After an episode like this, they really do look back. I guess the advice I would give to myself is. I mean, obviously, don't fuck around with cocaine, but. No, I would probably say be more grateful. Enjoy what you have in life.

I go, you know, don't compare, identify, and just be more grateful. That's great advice. Don't compare, identify, and I be more grateful. That's great advice. Don't compare, identify, and I'm on this gratitude thing right now big time too. Because we're in a business where you're like, what the fuck? And also, at the end of the day, none of this fucking matters. It doesn't. You got your family. You got your health.

None of this fucking matters. I am, but I don't like them. You got a grandkid. You got a son-in-law you don't like. But whatever. He's got a great jawline. You know what I'm saying? No, but it's true. I've've been in a business and i have a minor speech impediment my shs i fucking made a career out of talking yeah you know yeah and i i followed chris spencer last

night i had no problem he killed uh yeah just have i have more gratitude that's great grateful um plug and promote everything again please uh our podcast is uh my wife hates me it's wherever they you know podcasts are played uh my album rich boss seven should be out two or three weeks, four weeks on iTunes or wherever. Special Rich Voss Anonymous will be on, in November it's coming out on all streaming, you know, like Pluto, Roku, all that shit. My manager's coming out with a whole new stream and uh i don't even understand it's uh uh i forget the name of it anyhow uh it's gonna be everywhere

and you know what i don't whatever i'm not a just if you look here's my advice if you're at a podcast and it's a dish of candy take some load up you got that mug loaded bro get some candy dude thank you for coming on for real this is great thanks for having me um as always ryan sickler on all social media ryan sickler.. We'll talk to you all next week.