The Joe Budden Podcast - Episode 438 | “The Joe Budden Podcast" (feat. Joe’s Therapist)
Episode Date: May 15, 2021On this episode: The JBP discusses J. Cole as the king of album rollouts (21:20), Nicki Minaj dropping her old mixtape with a new song (31:30), and Migos new music (34:55). Meek Mill & Rick Ross may b...e beefing (41:23), Juice Wrld’s friend provides an update (45:05), and J. Cole is fighting Puff allegations (51:35). Joe apologizes to Rory (55:45) and clears up why he said he never asked for anything (59:05). He addresses accountability in uncomfortable conversations (1:18:00), and the therapist joins the podcast (1:22:10). They discuss Joe as the aggressor (1:25:30), the definition of insanity (1:30:00), and Joe being the last to know there has been an issue (1:35:10). They speak to dealing with your own triggers (1:50:40), accepting what happened (1:58:50), Joe feeling like he was losing the locker room (2:21:30), and getting it out the mud (2:23:10). Betrayal (2:27:15), repairing trust (2:34:10), being forced to evolve (2:45:30), fear of success (2:49:30), and more. For more exclusive content: become a Patron of the The Joe Budden Podcast at www.patreon.com/JoeBudden
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Yeah, so far, only one person has won this tournament every single time that it's happened.
How many times has the tournament happened?
Three times.
Okay.
When was the first one?
But the tournament only exists because somebody kept winning and wanted to figure out an infrastructure
because he kept winning.
Who's that, Ice?
I don't think so.
I don't remember.
You said somebody kept winning and what?
And they needed to come up with an infrastructure
because nobody would respect all of the wins
that were being tallied.
This is a monopoly conversation for the people that have lost.
It's been very heated for the past 20 weeks.
No, it was great.
This was great.
Heated between two dudes that have lost all the tournaments.
Y'all cannot get some headphones.
This hasn't been heated.
This hasn't been very heated for me at all.
I've been, it's a beautiful day in New York.
Everything is fucking cozy out here.
You're asking me.
Thank you, kind sir.
All right.
No, that was hilarious.
Enough Monopoly talk.
Y'all was going at it.
Enough Monopoly talk.
Let's get rid of all this shit off my screen.
This is a Patreon video exclusive. That's what we're doing?
For now, yeah. Okay.
For now, this is a Patreon video
exclusive. I don't want them
to see my energy on YouTube.
Right now.
It was on your ass.
My spirit has been heavy.
No, I mean, it can't be on my ass
if I don't put anything there.
You're suspending the accounts for a week.
Yeah.
I've read enough.
I've read enough.
Let me see. Let me see.
Mama say, mama say, mama
say. Y'all know my record
I go to, man. Oh, shit. Ain't no record
here. Yeah.
Yeah.
Ain't nobody praying for me.
Ain't nobody praying for me.
Ain't nobody praying for me.
Ain't nobody praying for me.
Ain't nobody praying for me.
Ain't nobody praying for me.
Ain't nobody praying for me.
I love the record.
Mic check, one, two, one, two.
Queens, mic check, one, two, one, two. Queens, mic check, one, two, one, two.
Hey, JC, mic check, one, two, one, two.
Oh, wait, the Newark boys is here.
Newark, mic check, one, wait up, yeah.
Irvington.
Hope everybody's feeling good, feeling great.
Shout out to Irvington while we're here, Camden while we're here.
All the oranges.
All the oranges. Talk to them. The Garden State as a whole. Shout out to Irvington while we here, Camden while we here All the oranges All the oranges
Talk to em, baby
The Garden State as a whole, shout out to New York, everybody listening all over the world
No matter where you are
Upstate, Parkside, you know what I mean?
I feel like a chip on my shoulders, I feel like I'm losing my focus
I feel like I'm losing my patience, I feel like my thoughts in the basement
Feel like, I feel like you're miseducated, feel like I don't wanna be bothered I feel like you may be the problem
I feel like it ain't no tomorrow, fuck the world The world is ended, I'm done pretending
And fuck you if you get offended I feel like friends been overrated
I feel like the family been faking I feel like the feelings are changing
Feel like my thought of compromise is jaded Feel like you wanna screw and that's how I
made it Feel like I ain't feeling you all
Feel like removing myself, no feelings involved I feel for you, I been in the field for you
It's real for you, right?
Shit, I feel like ain't nobody friends
I had a dream, I could buy my way down
When I awoke, I slipped that on a necklace
I told God I'd be back in a second
Man, it's so hard not to act like I don't feel
The whole mic is lifting my chest Get the rest of the guests until they get the message It's been a heavy week, but I hope everybody's feeling good, feeling great out there. Thanks to a higher power for getting us on here today.
It's what's good, right?
Under more scrutiny.
And what I do, act more stupidly.
Bought more jewelry, more Louis V.
My mama couldn't get through to me.
The drama, people suing me.
I'm on TV talking like it's just you and me. My mama couldn't get through to me The drama, people suing me
I'm on TV talking like it's just you and me I'm just saying how I feel, man
I ain't one of the Cosbys, I ain't go to Hill, man
I guess the money should've changed her I guess I should've forgot where I came from
No matter where you listen at If you you in the car, in the shower, in your crib, in your relationship.
Later.
Excuse me.
Some things don't change.
All right.
That might be the slowest hip-hop record of all time.
I'd have to think about that.
Amazing record.
How many BPMs is that?
It's slow.
Don't you get us to start out with BPM talk.
Get the fuck out of here, Parks.
I need some air horns.
And a round of applause.
Boost everyone's self-esteem.
I don't know who needs some artificial applause, but if you need some, it's there.
Let's hit a gunshot for all the criminals out there who enjoy listening to podcasts.
Let's hit the drops.
What's happening?
What's happening? What's happening? No, no, no, no, no, no, no, no, no, no, no, no, no, no, no, no, no, no, no, no, no, no, no, no, no, no, no, no, no, no, no, no, no, no, no, no, no, no, no, no, no, no, no, no, no, no, no, no, no, no, no, no, no, no, no, no, no, no, no, no, no, no, no, no, no, no, no, no, no, no, no, no, no, no, no, no, no, no, no, no, no, no, no, no, no, no, no, no, no, no, no, no, no, no, no, no, no, no, no, no, no, no, no, no, no, no, no, no, no, no, no, no, no, no, no, no, no, no, no, no, no, no, no, no, no, no, no, no, no, no, no, no, no, no, no, no, no, no, no, no, no, no, no, no, no, no, no, no, no, no, no, no, no, no, no, no, no, no, no, no, no, no, no, no, no, no, no, no, no, no, no, no, no, no, no, no, no, no, no, no, no, no, no, no, no, no, no, no, no, no, no, no, no, no, no, no, no, no, no, no, no, no, no, no, no, no, no, no, no, no, no, no, no, no, no, no, no, no, no, mmm. It's like, bruh, I cannot escape this shit.
What y'all on in the crib over there, man?
She just running around the house saying, you drop.
Because she just walks around.
Does she say the ish part to it?
The whole shit.
And the mmm.
No, you got to fight that.
Talk about the patriarchy he has in his home.
Yo, babe, I just want to hear my drop whenever I walk in the room.
No, I don't want to hear the drop when I walk in the room.
Cut the ish out.
Is she bleeping?
Ish is named?
What's your lady doing with the drop?
Ish?
Nothing.
No.
Oh, yeah.
She's not doing nothing.
She scared him up.
She scared him up.
She scared him up.
Oh, man.
I always tell when somebody gets scared up.
Welcome to episode.
What episode is this? 438 of the Joe Budden Show. I always tell when somebody gets scared up. Welcome to episode, what episode is this?
438 of the Joe Budden Show.
I am Joe Budden, and here I am.
I figured podcasts would be weird.
I'm trying to do things differently, no?
No, you don't like that?
I like the Joe Budden podcast.
I like the podcast.
Rogan's thing is called the Joe Rogan Show.
Copycat.
Howard Stern's is called the Howard Stern Show.
I guess it does box us into
a certain space
if you call it
just a podcast
I'm just telling you
the biggest people
call it
the show
experience
y'all don't care
alright what episode
episode 438
of the Joe Button podcast
I'm your humble
gracious
I don't even remember now
it's been such a long week
what am I I'm your humble
gracious grateful and highly favorite host Joe Button here with a few here with these
niggas man I gotta redo everything the intro Erickson is here Parks is here Ish and Ice
have blessed us with their presence today Koi is here Savon is here and Screamson is here. Parks is here. Ish and Ice have blessed us with their presence today. Kory is here.
Savon is here.
And Screamy.
Screamy, come over, man.
Yo, you guys.
So funny.
The internet has done a number on your soul.
Shut up.
Man, I'm sorry.
The internet's been killing us, man.
They killed you guys too?
What?
Oh, man.
Bro, first thing I woke up to, I was called a homewrecker.
Yo, you fucking homewrecker. Oh, shit. Then I was told I broke up to it, I was called a homewrecker. Yo, you fucking homewrecker.
Oh, shit.
Then I was told I broke up the pod.
You? Well, if you think
about it. Yes, word for word.
Yo, you're a piece of shit. You broke up the pod.
Stop your fuckery. You too, Ish. I didn't break
up a thing. Please die.
You've broken things up before.
You've broken up a bunch of things. You broke some shit up.
It might not have been that.
I did see a lot of Ish definitely You broke some shit up. It might not have been that. Yeah.
I did see a lot of
itch definitely fucks everyone's girls tweets.
Yeah.
It's nuts.
Yeah, you got the reputation
of being a scumbag.
You don't do that no more, right?
No more.
Because for real, at 47,
you should have had a long enough career
of home wrecking.
First off, I'm not 47.
You should just drive by homes
and be like,
I built that or I wrecked that. I built that. I'm not 47. You should just drive by homes and be like, I built that
or I wrecked that.
I built that
or I wrecked that.
Y'all built and broke
this whole block, yo.
The memories.
I used to go through that side
and do a little key
under the mat.
Come on, man.
You go check to see
if the key's still there?
Listen, I tried to keep
you guys away
from any mess.
I'm sorry. Let me say I'm sorry to everybody. I'm sorry to keep you guys away from any mess. I'm sorry.
Let me say I'm sorry to everybody.
I'm sorry to all you guys.
Anybody out there that I owe an apology to, you guys.
You don't owe me no apology.
You sure?
I'm cool, bro.
I'm used to that shit.
I laughed.
I was entertained.
I did an AMA on Reddit.
How'd that go?
In the midst of all of that shit.
How'd that go?
Chaos?
No.
Really?
Shouts to the mods.
Okay.
We had a private little Discord going.
They was like, listen, we got you.
Okay.
Anything disrespectful, anybody try some bullshit, they out of here.
You won't even see it.
Wow.
And it was like eight or nine or maybe 10 of them in there ready.
And it was posse deep.
Yeah, it was deep.
It was squad.
Gang, gang.
Gang, gang.
Yeah, you know, two gangs mean it's-
Real.
Yeah, it's real with the two gangs.
But no, that shit was cool. Like, I did it for an hour, and then it was like, no, you know, two gangs mean it's real. Yeah, it's real with the two gangs. But, um, nah, that shit was cool.
Like, I did it for an hour
and then it was like, yo, you can keep going.
You know I don't know what an AMA is, right?
It's a popular site.
I want to ask, what the fuck is an AMA?
It's a message board. It's any questions you have,
text them. Ask me?
It means ask me anything.
It's a Q&A.
It's a Q&A.
But it's not, it fans literally just ask anything.
I've got all kinds of crazy shit.
Somebody asked me, do I suck toes?
That might have been a wildest one.
Like, yo, you suck toes?
That's pretty mild, dude.
You say yeah.
Yeah, I say yeah.
My name.
But then the next question, I just left it alone after that.
Because I realized, oh shit shit this is a dude asking
okay
alright enough
enough
enough
enough
he said his feets
no he went
it was like
you ever had a foot job
I said next question
we don't need to hear
anymore about the AMA
or foot jobs
yeah I was
the fuck
nigga
it was wild though
Mary and Joseph um um I had to train the thought, but it left.
Your AMA went great.
I'm sure there are plenty of people waiting for you to do AMA.
Oh, yeah.
That's going to be the one.
There's a bunch of women.
That's going to be the one.
I'm cool.
I don't know if women be on Reddit like that.
Maybe I'm wrong.
Shout out to Reddit.
I'm going back over there just to fuck with them. It was cool. Shout like that Maybe I'm wrong Shout out to Reddit I'm going back over there
Just to fuck with them
Like it was cool
Shout out to the different gang
Shout out to the Reddit gang
Shout out to the YouTube gang
Whatever
Wherever you at
Shout out to whatever gang
Patreon gang for sure
Shout out to the Patreon
Patreon gang
Subscribe for the vibe
Shout out to Discord
Gen Pop
Real quick
My bad yo
Gen Pop
Discord
I'm apologizing to y'all
They turned up.
It used to be a little soft over there.
Now it's kind of popular. Yeah, I realize that.
Yeah, Gen Pop is with the shits. So, I'll fuck
with y'all too now. My bad.
Shout out to my favorite
app in the world, best app in the
world, the app that empowers us,
emboldens us,
powered by, sponsored by,
tolerated by, and put up with by our favorite
app, Cash App.
Again, subscribe to Patreon for the vibes.
Now, where was I at?
Where was I at?
Where was I?
Oh, yeah.
It's J. Cole Day.
You niggas is trying to AMA and Discord me to death, but it's J. Cole Day. It's J. Cole Day. You niggas is trying to AMA and Discord me to death, but it's J. Cole Day.
No, it's J. Cole Day.
I'm with you.
He will be appreciated.
Ice, nah, don't be phony.
No, I'm not being phony.
I don't want to get into his prime.
Still getting better after all this time.
You niggas say that they kill it, they lying.
Only thing I see I'm killing is time.
Oh, wait.
I was doing apologies.
That's what I was doing.
Yeah, man.
Well, I start by apologizing to J. Cole.
That's true.
For saying no J. Cole on Friday.
I didn't say no J. Cole on Friday.
Okay?
You just retweeted it.
I just retweeted it every Friday for the last year and a half.
So you didn't say it.
It was like a year and a half.
So you said it.
I just retweeted it.
You sound like Corey right now.
But yeah.
So the tweet was, it's Friday. I don't want to hear no jay cole so i went with it that was kind of funny
you heard them heat rockers and then you changed your mind today everybody's like i know you're
not gonna tweet that today yes the fuck i am i actually stayed up till midnight to tweet it at
exactly midnight good dick then went to sleep and tweeted it when I woke up this morning.
But,
then I heard 95 South.
You apologize to J. Cole?
I tweeted my apologize.
You don't think
you troll niggas
need to like create
or update
your disses
for certain rappers?
What's the diss
that I have?
Like I remember when,
I remember when,
what's the young lady's name?
The Dallas News Reporter?
What's her name?
Demetria. Demetria. Yeah. I remember when i remember when what's the young lady's name the dallas news reporter what's her name dimitri dimitri yeah i remember when she tweeted that but she didn't it
wasn't a like i know it wasn't this it wasn't the but it wasn't the j cole is corny j cole put me to
sleep it wasn't that it was just i don't want to hear it on a friday and but that is what i'm
turning up he don't make that music it's the weekend i know so that implies that it's kind
of sleepy or all of those people that said that latched on to that tweet and that was the tweet now now now there's a rapper's there's
a rapper's day that's just obliterated during the week every friday for j cole quiet it's some
bullshit because here's a herd of people that think one thing and that stuff and but that's
what i'm saying that stopped becoming true
and I did see
a lot of that today
like yo
nah bro
I don't know
this is Friday music
you might want to
listen to this
this is Friday music
that's what everybody's
been saying to me
this morning
is it one of his albums
called Friday Night Lights
yes
yes
anyway
Friday morning dark
so Ice was in the car
on the way over here telling Isha all these stories.
Yeah, I retweeted the Friday tweet.
I don't listen to Cole on Friday.
Right?
And he kept talking about how great the new Nicky was,
the Nicky Wayne and Drake shit.
Yeah, that's my shit.
And that's all he's been playing on repeat.
And that is a great song as well.
But I'm in my head like, you fucking up, player.
This Cole is Friday music.
And it's Friday.
And then I heard it.
And then we got here.
I forgot that it was Thursday last night.
And I went on Twitter at like 2 AM.
And that popped up.
I was like, I'll listen to the first song and see what's what.
I was up till 3.
All right, so look.
I was looking forward to the Nicki record.
I wasn't cutting it. I was looking forward to the Nicki record. I wasn't cutting it.
I was looking forward to the Nicki record because I got a text yesterday, right?
It said, you ready for that cold, you know, joking?
Because everybody know I joke about the Friday shit.
I said, nope, won't hear that until Saturday.
Text said, well, something else is dropping tonight too.
I was like, who, YG and Mozzy?
Which was supposed to drop as a joke.
It said, nah. I said, I drop as a joke. They said, nah.
I said, I know Nicki's dropping.
I said, is she by herself or is it any features?
She got some old friends on the record.
Couple little dudes.
Couple guys.
Got some old friends on the record.
Something like.
And it's rap shit.
That it was.
That it is.
So I heard that.
I'm like, oh, okay.
I don't care what else is dropping tonight
I'm running right to this
I didn't know she was
doing the whole
I'm putting the mixtape out
the Beam It Up Scotty
from 2009
you just went on
from topic to topic
that's not
what happened
I hopped
yeah you jumped
I jumped
oh this is where
your apologies are
J. Cole day
I forgot
my bad J. Cole again
Jesus Mary and Joseph AJ on my podcast again Oh, this is J. Cole Day. J. Cole Day. I forgot. My bad, J. Cole. Again.
Jesus, Mary, and Joseph.
Hey, Joe.
My podcast again.
I see.
You disrespected Cole with your Friday shit. I come in again to his prime.
Still getting better after all this time.
These niggas say that they kill it, they lying.
Only thing I see him killing is time.
100 million, I'm still on the grind.
100 million, I'm still on the grind. 100 million, I'm still on the grind. 100 million, I'm still on the grind 100 million, I'm still on the grind
100 million, I'm still on the grind
100 million, I'm still on the grind
Never ped a ride, never said a lot
Only what need to be said
Got a little guap when you get a lot
Wanna bitch, leave you on read
Don't push me, nigga, my feet on the ledge
This game is like follow the leader
If you lookin' closely enough, then you'll see that I live
The moves that I made, the people I fed, the evil I ducked
They minds is too feeble, they lean on they crutch
I'm bleedin' from fightin' my demons head up
When I get defeated, believe I get up
I come from a city more niggas ain't heard of
Until they popped in my first CD, now look
I'm on a Mount Rushmore, you niggas can't front no more
Bitch, I'ma reign until FEMA show up
Wish I got a ring and light freedom, I duck
EJ full on my cup, then bullets fly by, that shit's over you up
I'm proud of my niggas
They never switched up
Don't care if it's
Michael B. Jordan
That's calling my woman
The fuck she ain't
Gonna ever pick up
What's up with these niggas, man?
But why do these niggas
Keep putting Michael B. Jordan's
Name in the song?
Because he hitting the chick
They all want it
But what is going on?
Because the girls love that nigga
Yeah, but you can't do that
Why can't you?
He the new school Denzel
I'm saying even if she
If he calls, she ain't
She still ain't going Dude, you hear how old It's't you? He the new school Denzel. I'm saying even if he calls, she ain't. She still ain't going.
Dude, you hear how old
it is,
she's the new school,
the new school Denzel.
Wesley Snipes.
Fam,
women used to love Denzel.
Yeah, they did.
Yeah,
in 81, man.
It wasn't no fucking 81,
nigga.
They've been liking that nigga
in the 2000s.
I just want to play cold, man.
I keep saying it's cold day
and I keep having to hear from these two dudes. All right, I just want to, cold man. I keep saying it's cold day and I keep having to hear from these two dudes
This right here, this is 95,000 100 mil Definitely how you start an album, dude. Don't check your watch. You know it's her killer. I was like, man, I'm killing it. Dreamville, what's good?
Kobe, what's good?
This shit too easy for me now.
Nigga Kobe going black since back when CDs was around.
What you sold, I tripled that.
I can't believe these fucking clowns.
Look how everybody clapping when your 30s song album do a measly hundred thou.
If I'm betting on myself, then I completely double down.
Sheesh.
What happened?
You told me this wasn't for Friday.
Is it for Saturday?
No, this is Friday.
Can I play it on Sunday?
No, play this now.
Is Monday cool?
You can play this any day.
Yo, Cole ate, man.
Shout out to Cole before this goes any further.
Cole ate.
Cole, I'm sorry.
Again.
He ate, ate.
He went crazy.
This project has a real
mixtape feel to me for some reason
it does it does
it don't feel like an album album
yeah but that's how mixtapes were too
you'd have a couple album-y songs
he was rapping like it was a mixtape
this sound like I'm
proving a point Cole
you know what I'm saying
that's what he was saying in the doc
I'm trying to get better still.
That's why it's an off-season and all that shit.
The song structure gives me mixtape,
and Parks and I were talking outside.
This is like the first Cole album that came on,
and I was relating to it.
I was identifying with some of the stuff that he was saying.
Speaking for only me, that's been an issue that I've had with some of the stuff that he was saying speaking for only me
that's been an issue
that I've had with Cole
in the past
like one of the greatest
rappers ever
I'm just not experiencing
what the same
same things that he is
true
that don't seem to be the case
it sounded like he
was living our lives
for a minute there
someone is ticking him off
yeah he's pissed off
yeah
this is
I'm tired of somebody
or somebody or somebody's yeah y''m tired of somebody. Or somebody's.
Yeah, y'all. Tired of you.
But nobody, to my knowledge, has said
anything bad about
me. This is rap niggas.
I'm tired of you rap niggas. But it was also a lot of
someone close to me is putting me
through some shit too in there.
At the end. You'll hear it at the end.
If you hate it on a nigga, please don't
greet me with a pound.
I be staying out the way.
But if the Beast do come around, could put an M right on your head.
You Luigi, brother, now.
Trace my steps all in this game.
You can see we cover ground.
Back and forth from NC to New York when Jeezy had the crown.
Vivid memories.
Niggas start to squeeze, we ducking down.
So many shells left on the ground, it make the the Easter Bunny proud I get up, dust my clothes off
Sleep is the cousin of death
No plans to doze off
The streets that don't come with a ref
I never soul solve
Just creep where the hustlers crept
And got they O's off
You reach niggas up and like Steph
To blow your nose off
Kazoom tight
And then resume flight
As if it never happened
Shit we out
Don't tell me kazoom tight in happened shit don't tell me kazoon tight in
the song don't tell me sneeze blow niggas nose off kazoon tight i don't know what's going on
i need to take a drive with this he's going crazy that's when i heard it i i woke up i bought it
uh on the way to barbershop put it on had no idea what to expect, and I heard Cam's, well, kill her. I was like, oh, whoa, whoa. Right.
That was a wake up. Whoa, whoa.
It's 7.30 in the morning, my G.
No, no, no.
Can't do it.
It's 7.30 in the morning.
Hopefully you don't know horns.
Yeah.
I hear kill her.
And then Cole did, like, why?
Ugh.
Ugh.
And the beat came in nice.
Yeah, I'm relating to Cole now, man.
And I'm slow as hell.
I just caught it, the 95 South, because how it starts up in Harlem and ends down there with Lil Jon in them.
You drove down.
Damn, I didn't peep that.
95 South.
I knew you'd die, so I ain't going to lie.
You good, man.
You pretty good.
I just caught that.
Wow.
Wow.
Wow, man.
I needed to drop one of these niggas.
That's interesting.
Yo, I didn't even see that.
I didn't peep it like that.
The science.
I didn't peep it, I said.
So that was just,
that was a real time
you peep live on air.
Wow, that was a breaking peep.
Yeah, that was a peep.
Breaking, breaking peep.
Not only am I relating
to the J. Cole project,
I meant to say last week,
J. Cole might be
the king of rollouts.
I had some shit going on
last week,
so we didn't get into all that.
But J. Cole is the king of rollouts i had some shit going on last week so we didn't get into all that but jay cole is the king of rollouts he's pretty good like to pop up at your house to then
go buy his old house and then go try out for the african basketball team and take a picture of you
with the jersey on the week of your release man no bat no rappers thinking like this well master
p did maybe but he didn't think to go to the African League.
He wasn't trying to roll out, though, was he?
When P did that?
Yeah, I think that was like after his peak of his career.
He was actually trying to just play.
He was trying to play for Charlotte and Toronto.
Toronto, yeah.
He played for Toronto, right?
Mm-hmm.
Yeah.
He ain't going to the African League.
I was actually, with Cole's rollout, I was a little surprised because this isn't usual for him.
Like, you don't usually get the, you know, Cole just drop out the blue and say, yo, my album dropped Friday.
Or my album's out at midnight.
It depends.
He did with the, what was it, KOD, was it called? That was more of a surprise.
But the Forest Hills, like you're talking about, when he bought the house and was sitting in the house and Dollar in a Dream and all that shit.
Like, that was a rollout, rollout.
Even the Dollar in a Dream tours.
Yo, we here today. Cole's beenout. Even the Dollar in a Dream tours. How do you,
yo,
we here today.
Like,
Cole's been the king
of the surprise
for a minute.
Like,
it's just,
it's happening now.
Man,
I'm not gonna roll out him to death.
He took a week.
It was a week.
Yeah,
but it was still a week.
came out last week.
This week,
all the basketball,
the footage,
the doc stuff.
It's been a week.
That's a lot more than Cole does, though.
But I'm not going to call it a rollout if you just bust your ass for a week
or if you jam everything into the week.
Hey, Nicky took a ride in the Cullinan with her husband,
and that was it for the week and a project drop.
Like, that's not – these ain't rollouts.
I like that J. Cole put a clip of him missing a shot.
Word.
Nah, nah, nah.
Yeah.
But I'm going gonna go to the league
no I just came in the gym
I'm getting loose
my first shot
brick
brick
I made that
that is dope though
that's dope
nah that's dope
that is very dope
that's dope
cause you know how many people
won't put the miss up there
exactly
they done shot that shit
a hundred times
exactly
so they got that right one in there
is Cole
being more vulnerable
or is it just hitting different today?
No, I think that's always been him though.
Yeah, but it's a different kind of vulnerability.
It's more vulnerability within,
in this album to me that I was hearing.
Maybe it's just because of the situations at hand.
It was more vulnerability within friendships
and personal relationships
as opposed to like with a female.
You talked about that. Yeah. And maybe that's why it hit me a little differently
because we're currently going through shit with our friends.
Yeah.
Well said.
This album's really good.
No, this is great.
Witness full of so much sickness
Angels shedding tears in heaven
Word to Eric Clapton
Off this clever rapping
Bitch, my pocket's gone forever fatten Oh my God
They gon' forever fatten
See?
That's how I tell you
Bitch, my pen and the paper's lethal
I'm sendin' them straight to meet the
The nigga that made them peep the
Reaper creepin' on ya
The sin of failure reakin' on ya
Check your genitalia
Pussy niggas bleedin' on ya Self fuckin' with cold as bold But it's imped reeking on ya Check your genitalia Pussy niggas bleeding on ya
Self
Fuckin' with cold as bold
But it's impeding on ya
Health
All your niggas
Eating off your wealth
All my niggas
Feeding all they selves
And it feels swell
Crispy cream dreams
Sometimes my dogs
Wanna kill twelve
Cause they're
Shots of Boy Wonder 2
Oh my goodness
Oh my god Boy Wonder did that beat oh my goodness oh my god
boy wonder did his beat
yeah
yo wonder man
that little folder
that you got
that's for the top three
and only the top three
it is
heat
in
there
you can't sit no real
rapping no beat like this
yeah
I wonder if little john
was on it already
or Cole had that idea
it worked that shit worked cause by the time john came on at the end oh man and no beat like this. Yeah. I wonder if Lil Jon was on it already or Cole had that idea. It worked.
That shit worked.
Because by the time Jon came on at the end,
oh, man.
I was losing it.
Oh, man.
I was way too excited at 245 in my house.
Now, some of y'all wasn't outside
to actually experience what Lil Jon,
what Eastside Boys was about, all of that.
But I was really excited that Cole did that.
That's dope.
And from down south.
So they look at Lil Jon and them different than we do.
You know what else I give this guy
props for?
He came out, he stepped out first.
Me too. That's what I said last week.
People probably never got to that part of the podcast,
but whatever.
You say.
Out of the big three.
Yeah, I'm going first.
He stepped out first
That's a lot
That takes
And the lyrics
And the lyrics
Now you set the bar
Yeah
And god damn it
It's so good to hear
Like the big dogs come back
And shout out to all
The independent artists
And hood artists
That have been holding us down
For the last year
But it's nice to hear
The big dogs
It's fucking nice
Yeah the thing about that though There's some more big the big dogs. It's fucking nice.
Yeah, the thing about that, though,
there's some more big dogs out there now.
Everyone's loaded.
Yeah, some more.
Some new pit bulls. I'm just saying, these three, Cole, Kendrick, and Drake,
and Nicki, she's a big dog, too.
Like, you're coming back now.
I think we might hear more Cole by the end of the year.
To some new big dogs.
Judging off that little list that he put out,
he had like a whole three albums lined up.
I don't know if they're
all coming this year,
but I wouldn't be surprised
if we get more calls.
His path to retirement
with the list he put out.
Yeah, yeah, yeah.
Cole sound like
he didn't give a fuck
about any of the new
big dogs out there.
Cole sound like
he don't give a fuck
about none of the-
Nobody.
He got Baby on there.
That's the new big dog.
Right.
Well, yeah,
as long as you get
your Baby feature-
21.
Him and 21. Why do they in 21 why do they why are they
it's crazy why are they like peanut butter and jelly and i usually hate when someone flips some
shit that i love but they bodied in my life hook they bodied that shit yeah no more is fucking
dope man he did that i was about to text pharaoh like i don't know he might have got you out of
here bro yeah i don't know i'm typically like when they do that either
but this might be my favorite song in the project to be honest with you it's
high it's high put a light in a out there hey this project what's today I
said I will be fully listening to this project this weekend it's like all we This weekend. This whole weekend. Ice, you didn't hear it. Shut up.
Don't try to be a Kohler now.
I'm not.
I'm not gay.
Don't try to be a Kohler.
It's still Friday.
Oh.
Spiling up.
You know Jake Walker?
Oh, this one hurt my heart.
No class on it.
Please stay the fuck out of my ass face.
Niggas say things about how I'm ass.
I'm going to cut it off, man, because the podcast job is to talk, but keep talking.
We can just play this all over the place. I'ma cut it off man, cause the podcast job is to talk but, keep talking Yeah, top of the morning, I know that you thought I was dormant
Woke up early from shots that were swarming, a block from the Alps, now the cops in the orbit
Cause somebody got popped, now they knocking on doors, tryna find an informant
But I ain't seen Nathan, I'm minding my business, his God is my witness
The weapon gon' prosper, that's forming, against me
Nigga, I'm starving, he missed me
Know when I'm done with these songs, you gon' miss me
Jammerin', I'm on my grizzly
You niggas just cubs, but no, not the ones in the big leagues
After the fall off, I promise I'm comin' and sellin' our Wrigleys
Nigga, I'm just a product of poverty
Full of narcotics to profit off quickly
My family tree got a history of users that struggle with demons
Not really the hustler instincts
Then for often, my pockets was empty
So I saw my partner was servin' up rocks on the corners of Project Assemblies
Me, I was startin' to envy Wanna be on the top where it's pretty Wanna be on the corners of project assemblies me i was starting to envy
want to be on the top where it's pretty want to be in the spotlight where every bitch want me like
rihanna dropping new 50 but i see the other music comes in reach up to the other music came in
i can't reach up to evidently i can't be out here mopping up wendy's I'm up in a Wendy's my life is all I have my rhymes my pen my pad
What you saying now
My life I've been in a coffin, but I done made it through the pain and strife. It's my time now, my world, my life, my life.
Oh, my.
Say what?
The 21 was talking to her.
It fucked me up.
I didn't mean to. I'm just trying to tell you.
I didn't take on a bandit.
I'm swinging them motherfuckers side to side.
It's Saturday, man.
Don't participate in it.
It's got your shit.
All we believe in is homicide.
I got a good heart, so I send teddy bears every time we make they mamas cry.
All right, we got to cut it off. 21, 21. We got to good heart, so I send teddy bears every time we make they mamas cry. Alright, we gotta cut it off.
21, 21.
We gotta cut it off.
That's it.
Gotta cut it off.
I got a good heart,
so I send teddy bears
every time they mama cry.
Every time I make
they mamas cry.
Word.
I like that.
I like that connection.
That's a great-
It's like the new
Stiles and Kiss for me.
Bro.
They two for two.
Is that-
Right?
They got two records. Just two? Yeah. Two ones, though.in Kiss for me. Bro. They two for two. Right? They got two records.
Just two?
Yeah.
Two ones, though.
Yeah, two ones.
Two of them ones.
Two of them.
All right, Cole did it, man.
I don't have nothing to say.
The production is great.
The music is great.
The rapping is great.
Everything is great.
I still don't like this album cover, but now that I've heard the album, it don't fucking
matter.
No, he did the right thing.
Actually, I take it back. We were supposed to discuss the album cover. I take that I've heard the album, it don't fucking matter. No, he did the right thing. Actually, I take it back.
We were supposed to discuss the album cover.
I take it back, though.
I'm wrong. I'm wrong.
If you're rapping like this and you're doing this,
you could just burn the booth.
Yo, just stand in front of some
shit and burn everything else on
fire. Facts.
Put it on fire in the back of the album too
and walk away in a walk away yeah like and then don't even look at the camera like you did indeed
this might be my favorite album cover of the year now honestly now that i'm thinking about it
now now that i'm thinking about it this is the best album cover that i've seen this year because
the album cover is supposed to tell you how dude is about to perform or what you could expect on the album.
And that was my beef.
Like, nigga, I don't care about this all black pajama hooded shit.
And why did you light the boot?
What happened to the hoop?
Why did you light it on fire?
I heard the music.
Now you understand.
I'm stupid.
I'm an idiot.
Me?
Look, hey, welcome to the boat.
I'm an idiot.
No, I knew he was going to do that.
Oh, yeah.
And then he did this.
I didn't see this yet. He did the shows of mischief. I'm an idiot. No, I knew he was going to do that. Oh, yeah. And then he did this. I didn't see this yet.
He did the shows of mischief.
Come on, Parks.
I know, man.
I know.
How could you not hear the shows of mischief freestyle?
Because my mentions were ruined.
Yo, how bad were your mentions?
Come on, give it to me.
Give it to me.
Give it to me.
I talked about 200 people.
No, man.
Easy.
Why?
Easy.
No way.
Nah, you got to come respectfully.
You want to tell people that they got to come respectfully.
Yeah.
All right, more music, more music.
We have brand new Nicki Minaj or brand new old Nicki Minaj,
but either way, there's new shit on it.
It's both.
It's both, yeah.
Beam me up, Scottie, streaming version of her old slaps.
Do you guys think that the Drake record was new?
Or do you think it was old?
Because Drake sounded,
that sounded like old Drake to me.
Sounded like an older record
that she had.
It's new to us.
I think it was a little older.
Nah, Wayne,
Wayne verse wasn't old.
Why not?
That might have been old too,
but I mean.
He was addressing
the pandemic
and all that other shit.
The pandemic has been
mad long-ish.
It's a year.
That's what we mean.
I mean, like, the same time that he had in the tuck.
You know what I'm saying?
Like, from years back.
We're just saying that.
I was talking specifically about the Drake verse, really.
It sounded like old Drake verse to me.
When you say old, what are you talking about?
Like, a year or two years?
I don't even know.
Old as in it wasn't done last month.
Okay, no.
Wasn't done two months ago.
I don't know if it was done last year.
Got it. Okay. I can see that. Just, like, the. Wasn't done two months ago. I don't know if it was done last year. Got it.
Okay.
I can see that.
Just like the way he was flowing.
That's what I thought.
Wait, when did he fuck himself up again?
When did that happen?
When he...
Broke his knee or whatever it was.
Yeah, whatever the injury was.
That's recent.
Yeah, it was last year.
Well, he says...
Didn't he say that?
They're saying it'll be the first time
that I do numbers on two crutches.
Oh, okay.
Maybe it's just the way it sounds.
He said the other line about the...
Where is it? Torn something. Who's that sub? Oh, okay. Maybe it's just the way he sounded. The other line about the, where is it?
Torn,
something,
who's that sub?
Oh, yeah,
play 48 minutes.
Maybe it's just the way
it sounded.
It sounded like,
it could just be a bar flip,
like word flip.
No, no,
I'm talking about
the sonics of it.
He said 2021 in it.
He mentions 2021.
You guys,
what do you think of the song?
Who cares?
Let's go.
Who cares when he's
in the verse?
I love the song,
personally.
This is a reminder
from the three of them.
Nah, it was dope.
Yeah, we still do this.
Hey, this is what we do.
In case y'all forgot,
I know we've all been
off for a little bit.
Let me remind y'all real quick.
I ain't hear Wayne
rap like that in a minute.
I do just think...
Nah, Wayne's been
rapping like that.
Yeah, he's been rapping
like that for a few years now.
I do think it's good
to see Nicki.
I think it's good
that she dropped the project. What what's the second one what's
the set fractions that's the one to me i like crazy on it i liked even seeing her yeah she went
yeah fractions yeah that's the one uh i even liked seeing her right in the in the culling
him with her husband like i like seeing nikki and today or yesterday she was tweeting some cryptic shit saying, fuck you, bitches.
Y'all can't fuck with me.
Don't try to be my friend now.
Whatever she was saying, I don't know.
But I like when Nicki comes out and tries to bully bitches.
Reminds y'all who she is.
Yeah, I like it.
I love it.
I do.
Because what happens is people tend to forget.
Especially, you know, you get a new crop of, I'm not trying to pit woman rapper versus woman rapper. But you get a new crop of I'm not trying to pick woman
rapper versus
woman rapper
but you get a new crop
coming up
and everyone loves to do that
and it's like oh
it's her time now
this this
slow down
let me just remind you
I'm still me
don't forget it
here it is
trust it's all fun and games
until I want to play too
see that's what I be saying
that's the Drake line
which is
I love that line
that's the Drake line
from the verse
no but I'm saying it for real and I think to play too. See, that's what I be saying. That's the Drake line, which is, I love that line. That's the Drake line from the verse.
No, but I'm saying it for real and I think she is too.
I agree,
because I think she should
fall through her verses.
Shit be all good
until I want to play back.
Right.
I'm shutting up
because everything I say,
people think I'm speaking it.
I'm not even talking about that.
I'm the same way.
I mean, it applies in everything.
It applies fucking in a relationship. All right, you get your shit off. Now, when I do it, I'm going to talking about that. I'm the same way. I mean, it applies in everything. It applies fucking in a relationship.
All right, you get your shit off.
Now, when I do it, I'm going to play it a little differently.
You're not going to like that game no more.
I'm happy for Nikki.
Shout out to her.
Shout out to her family.
We got a new Migos record that we heard a snippet of that is out now and it's crazy.
It's up and it's stuck.
That shit sounds wonderful.
Yeah, my bad, Migos.
No, no, no, no, no, no, no no no no no no no no no no no no
The apology need to be as loud as the disrespect. So you said it did I don't agree with that
No, I agree that it shouldn't but nine at this time
Everybody was savingvin' they outside music And more than we can command
Straighten it, straighten it, straighten it
Ain't nothin' but a little bit of straightenin'
Straighten it, straighten it, straighten it
Don't nothin' get straightened but straightenin'
Don't nothin' get straightened but straightenin'
Don't nothin' get straightened but straightenin'
Don't nothin' get straightened but straightenin'
And this guy sit back be patient
Niggas act like the gang went vacant
Niggas act like something been taped
Ain't nothing but a little bit of straightening
Been kicking shit popping out daily
On the island it's a movie I'm making
I'm counting dineros with Robert De Niro
He telling them that you're amazing
Put that shit on, nigga get shit on
I bought two whips and I put my bitch on
Turn this off, turn this off, turn this off, turn this off, turn this off. Shout out to QC.
Shout out to Migos.
Ice, we need a loud apology from you.
It's not just you.
It's a bunch of y'all that was behind the scenes, scared to say it on a microphone.
I said it on a microphone.
Scared to say it on a microphone.
You niggas was behind the scenes saying, yo, is it just me?
Or is that when you know niggas about to say some bullshit.
Is it just me?
Or is the Migos done?
Y'all heard it.
Y'all heard it.
I said it.
You said it.
People said it.
People were saying it.
Now that you hear this song,
you know better than that, man.
Come on.
I didn't know better than that.
Ain't nothing but a little bit of straightening.
You need a straightening.
I did not know better than that. You need a straightening. I got that Ain't nothing but a little bit of straightening You need a straightening I did not know better than that
You need a straightening
I got my straightening
You needed some straightening
I'm straightening
I got my straightening
Shout out to Takeoff
Who come on in the second verse
Taking off
Yeah he did
He come on taking off
See here's my thing
It's okay to be wrong
I like it when I'm wrong
Yeah I have no problem
Prove me wrong
I love being proven wrong
Straighten him out When it comes to music.
Yeah, it's fine.
Both of y'all need a little bit of straightening.
I got mine, Joe.
I'm straight.
Okay.
Not straight enough.
I'm straight.
Not straight enough.
You still a little crooked in the feet.
I'm 9'15 right now.
A little crooked in the feet.
9'15.
9'15.
This song is great, man.
Yeah, this shit's hard, man.
This is like a perfect cheat on your girl record.
Like, when the fun girls
come through
and you don't know
what to throw on
you can throw this on
nah the other joint
what was the other joint
yeah
when you about to do
some straightens
when you about to
take the dick pill
when you about to
take the dick pill
you about to
straighten some mouth
Tavon went to Miami
with no dick pills
you and your
dad bum ass nigga
how you really a freak boy with no dick pills
is you use the shit I gave you
you used it yet
oh they had some shit
yo
yo is a few dudes
y'all don't have mics just shut up we don't care
still ain't answer the question yeah Y'all don't have mics. Just shut up. We don't care.
Fucking, um.
Still ain't answering the question. Ish ain't answering the question.
Yeah, you noticed that, right?
He's just going to laugh his way through it.
I gave him three, too, trying to see if he could do some straightening.
Did you get any straightening done?
Oh, your girl think that was you.
Oh, God, don't worry about it.
I ain't give you nothing.
I ain't even give you nothing.
That was crazy.
I just like how Ish will not answer the question. That was crazy. I just like how it's real. I just like how it's real. Not into the question period.
That was you organically?
That was organic dick.
Almond milk dick ass nigga.
No electrolytes dick having ass nigga.
He running around the house letting.
Don't do that.
Don't run around the house letting your girl think that was you naturally.
This is me.
Oh, I'm so into you tonight.
It's something.
It's almost a full moon out.
Yo, it's something about what you're wearing tonight.
What are you?
What's that scent?
Has me on super hard.
This nigga's so stupid.
Ain't nothing but a little bit of straightening.
Shout out to the Migos, man.
I hate the niggas trying to talk that shit about y'all.
I'm glad y'all proved them wrong.
Continue proving me wrong.
I enjoy this. Thank you. Why don't you stop talking
about rappers? You'd be wrong.
I'd be right, too, though.
No, I'd be right, though. You'd be opinionated.
It's a difference. No, it's not.
My opinion can be right, and it can be wrong.
Listen, Georgia Smith dropped
as well. I ain't listened to this one yet.
Georgia Smith dropped me neither, because I got to hear that when I'm alone in my room
and I'm just staring at the wall.
You know what I mean?
That's when I got to, I mean, I need love type shit.
What's that?
Whoa, whoa, what was that?
What was that?
What was that?
Somebody else came out?
Motorbike.
Wait, whoa, whoa!
Yo, why y'all playing with me, man?
Why y'all ain't tell me Mac dropped something, man?
Mac dropped a song or album?
Oh, I'm copping that.
Y'all know Mac Ayres.
I don't know how you say it.
I think it's Ayres.
I think it's Ayres, too.
But Mac Ayres, that's what I say.
Y'all know that song, my automatic cop list.
Yep.
R&B. Copping it cop list. Yep. Army.
Copping it.
Yep.
Copping it.
You can set this one up.
Copping it.
White boys from Brooklyn copping it.
Oh, Long Island.
He's not from Brooklyn?
Well, the rollout might be Brooklyn.
We got Long Island boys from the house.
The rollout might be Brooklyn.
Let me hear where you're going.
Where you're taking the culture with this one?
Uh-oh.
Yeah. Uh-oh. Da-da-da-da. Yeah.
Uh-oh.
Da-da-da-da.
Yeah.
Yeah.
A vibe.
A vibe.
Ladies and...
Oh, this drop is over here.
Ladies and gentlemen.
Hey, come on, man
Where we at tonight?
Chill right there
Let me get that door for you, queen
You hungry?
Mad at the house
Yes, sir
Yes, sir Yes, sir
And it go
Nah, turn it off
I'm getting in my bag
Chill
Turn that off
Dilla drums
I'm in my Birkin
I can't get out
That sounds really, really good
Mack, friend of the show
We fuck with you
We love you
Thank you for the vibes
Also, something else that i read that i cannot confirm uh allegedly meek mill had
a birthday party in miami and reports came out the next day that said rick ross had a hard time
getting it uh the report said that he was turned away here's a story right here i'll read it to you
rumor going around and meek mill didn't justix9ine from his recent miami birthday bash
he also reportedly didn't grant rick ross access to his birth uh birthday party either
according to boss up and again i can't confirm this the two rappers ongoing beef led to meek
not allowing rose into his section at la at live nightclub in miami over the weekend
meek allegedly wants out of his MMG contract and is apparently having
difficulty doing so.
Shortly after the chatter started,
academics hopped on Twitch and essentially confirmed the rumor without
mentioning Meek's name.
Yeah, I saw when I said that, but.
And you've heard rumors of this for a little while.
This may be the first time we're getting closer to confirmation even though we have none.
I don't know how to feel about it.
Me either.
I don't know no details.
I don't know how to feel about it.
I don't know if Meek is unhappy.
I don't know why he would be unhappy.
And I guess more will be revealed.
We just have to wait and
see but it's unfortunate if that's happening at Live. And I guess more will be revealed. We just have to wait and see.
But it's unfortunate if that's happening at Live.
I'm saying it's unfortunate as I find myself in the same situation.
It's all unfortunate, though.
It is all unfortunate.
Hopefully, these two brothers can work this out, remain friends or at least friendly.
And hopefully, this doesn't get ugly yeah but in live shit just be
when when baby and wayne had that alleged altercation at live tori lanes and whoever
the loving hip-hop kid was at live live just seemed like the spot where you're gonna handle
your beef if you have some and see that person there well it's just that's that's the spot where
everybody's gonna be not me not me I'll be at the satai.
We know.
Yeah, we know.
I'm not leaving the satai to go to live on Sunday.
You're not one of them, though.
No, I'm him.
I'll walk right into that.
Fuck you.
You know what I mean?
Is it him or is it them?
They is them.
He's him.
He's him right there. You there yo this DMX track list
got released
oh yeah
yeah
a lot of big features on here
Jay, Nas
on the same song
with X
Lox and Swiss
Moneybagg Yo
Alicia
Bono
from U2
Cross Infrared
and Ice Pick
the whole
Griselda
another one with Nas and Mr. Porter.
Oh, this don't sound like a posthumous project.
Sound like they might have been working on this one.
Nah, he mentioned some of them already.
He said he told that he had to join with Griselda.
Oh, yeah, he was with Benny.
Yeah, he had to join with Griselda.
They took pictures and shit.
So, yeah, this is definitely not a...
So, Pop Smoke's record didn't make it.
Well, yeah, he said he had a record with Pop Smoke
I would like to hear
I'm not sure if I'm gonna be able to handle that prayer
at the end
yeah
and isn't
isn't Exodus
wasn't that this
one of his children's names
like the younger one
oh I'm not sure
I don't know
who
well it's right there
Exodus Simmons
oh okay
okay
yeah it is
I saw the skit part
but yeah that might
oh man yeah
X we love you Shock G we oh man yeah x we love you shock g
we love you black rob we love you every all the rappers that we lost we love you uh i saw juice
world's man a couple days ago putting out some heartfelt shit about him rest in peace juice
world always he was saying that uh juice didn't swallow those pills trying to kill herself he didn't swallow i mean he said he didn't swallow those pills trying to kill herself.
He didn't swallow.
I mean, he said he didn't swallow those pills because the police were there and he overdosed.
He said, we knew the cops was coming.
We knew the cops was at the border.
We knew that we had a weapon on us.
He said, Juice gave me the gun.
We wasn't worried.
I have a license to carry.
He said, everything was fine he
said uh the plane landed or the bus land or whatever it was and in a millisecond he looked
over and it was too late i have the tweet so i'll read it uh and i won't mention his name but
this the tweet says jay did not swallow a bunch of pills because the police were at the
airport we gave no fucks about them being there he could have flushed them down the toilet if he
cared he went on to say he had nothing to worry about he knew the cops were there before we landed
we put that strap in my bag it was all good i had a clean record and i'm a registered gun owner i
had no problem taking that charge i never thought he would od i was always scared
of getting bad press uh bad pressed pills so i got test strips i tested every batch he got but
no one knew how much how much he really took because he was hiding it once max and i really
started counting how much he had and how fast he went through them.
Jay just was hooked bad.
The amount he took daily was absurd,
and he hid how much he really took from mostly everyone.
Everyone around him tried really hard to get him to slow down.
When he agreed to rehab, it was because he wanted to lower his tolerance.
He did not want to stop.
Is that the last of the tweets?
Yeah, that's the last one.
I thought I saw more talking about how difficult of a time he was having with dealing with this information.
That's sad, man.
I feel like most people that I've known that have addictions, especially to pills, but even with alcohol, do a lot of sneaking.
Yeah, be it.
Nobody would ever guess how many pills I was doing when I was sneaking around doing pills.
Yeah.
Nobody.
Even if you're open with it. Impossible.
Here we go.
This is the one.
He says, I had to watch Allie holding him, screaming, losing the love of her life right in her arms. Yeah, this is some shit that says I had to watch Allie holding him screaming losing the love of her life
right in her arms yeah this is some shit that I never want to be present for and I can't stop he
continues and I can't stop thinking about him over and over again there on the ground and I was just
looking in his eyes that's how I had to say goodbye to him it just burnt it's just burnt into my brain
I want it to stop I had to watch little bro die at my feet.
I had to look in his eyes while he was dying and I couldn't do anything about it.
I miss him so much every day.
I miss having someone to talk to that understood me and cared.
I miss goofing off.
I miss filming him freestyling for me because he knew I loved it.
I miss making him Red Baron pizza at 3.30 in the morning
and he liked it burnt as fuck.
Shit, I miss rolling his blunts.
I understand this pain.
It's real sad that anybody has to live with it.
And thank God I don't have any of those type of pictures
etched into my memory because I can't imagine.
This sounds really tough.
Back to what I was saying,
nobody would have ever been able to count how many pills
I was taking. You wake up to some pills,
when they run out, you're taking some more pills.
At 30s, you're taking
multiple 30s at a time. And this is before
I was even worried about the bad press pills,
fentanyl, and all of that.
I dated alcoholics too. They would have, you know,
vodka stashed away certain places.
Yeah, yeah, yeah. You know what I'm saying?
You wouldn't really know. Or you could take them
to my parents' house and
they'd catch them in the other room chugging some shit
real quick. It's like, yeah, you can just drink. You can have a drink.
But that's not how
addicts think. I'm looking at
all of the
trouble that this gentleman
went through. He was testing every pill.
Right. He was getting test strips.
Right.
Rolling his blunts,
trying to keep an eye on him.
Mm-hmm.
Man.
Juice WRLD, we miss you.
We love you.
Peace and peace.
Fred Degas, son, same.
Word.
Mac Miller, same.
There's too many people that I'm forgetting,
but we miss them.
We love each and every one of y'all, man. Mm-hmm. Triple X, there's too many people that I'm forgetting but we miss and we love
each and every one of y'all man
Triple X
rest in peace that's my guy man
that's my guy
him I miss a lot that one really bothered me a lot
that one and Nip not to say all of them
didn't but Nip
and X
and X
be safe out there, man.
Outside is opening up.
Guess what?
I'll stand in something for us, man.
Please.
Come on.
Pick us back up.
Your love on top.
Yeah, something.
Pick us right back up.
Yo. You taping a podcast? Girl, you got me up X Yo
You taping the podcast?
Every Tuesday and Friday like clockwork
Never fails
Hey, KC
Hey, is Ice there?
Ice is here
Hey, Ice
What's up, Karen?
Hey
Is you and I are building a rapport so salutations
yo karen what's wrong with you man
i'm good i was calling you about this quick update um hit me afterwards so we have like um
hit me afterwards so we have like a renovated our pod cast space super excited oh you ain't got a bill coming
Yeah.
Lodge and tech and everything is in there. Hey, our dance is dropping the names on us.
I'm about to send you a video of the space because it's one area where you could do regular podcasting at a table with everything updated.
Karen, Karen, Karen.
Oh, I forgot.
You're doing a thing.
Call me afterwards.
I got you.
Bye. Bye. Bye.
Bye.
I like that, though.
I like that, though.
I get it.
I like that.
I can't say that about it, but I like it a lot.
That's ill.
That's very ill.
I need people like that.
I need people.
Are you doing a part?
I don't care about that.
This one's happening.
Listen to this. Shout out to KC. Are you doing it, I don't care about that. This one's happening. Listen to this.
Shout out to KC.
Are we done with music?
I believe so.
Awesome.
Before we leave
this music conversation,
I should have asked
you guys earlier,
what do y'all think
about Cole
finally speaking on
the scrap with Puff?
I'm not really familiar
with that situation.
I don't know what happened.
Okay. Do you remember the rumor? I'm not really familiar with that situation. I don't know what happened. Okay.
Do you remember the rumor?
I never heard the rumor, no.
I remember the Drake and Puff, whatever,
Tussle or whatever it was,
but I don't remember the Cole.
Puff and Drake,
it was Puff and somebody's football coach,
and it was Puff and Cole.
All this was, I think, around the same time.
I don't remember it, and I'm not asking.
And I'm not asking.
But what is this?
Multiple sources familiar with the situation told Complex
and went down like this.
Diddy was visibly in talk.
Shut up.
He tried to confront Kendrick over the King of New York claim
and the control freestyle.
Yeah, you goddamn right.
I can't see.
Diddy allegedly attempted to pour a drink on Kendrick
and J. Cole intervened.
The two started arguing and Cole allegedly put his hands on Diddy,
which then led to problems between their respective crews.
After a brief scuffle, both crews separated.
So he was trying to break it up.
All right, this is not the story that I heard at all.
At all.
I didn't hear the story at all and
the story that i did hear i'm not repeating but i heard it like that i heard it didn't go like that
okay and i heard it wasn't a tussle really i heard i wasn't there i don't know puff didn't
tell me i don't have an inside source not a connection but uh yeah but to talk about it though but to talk about it he said
something finally all of these years there's never like actually been confirmation unless you were
there but how do we feel that's dope my last scrap was with puff who would have thought it
that's dope somebody say something my last scrap was with Puff Who would've thought it?
I just said that's dope
Bought that nigga album in 7th grade
Played it so much
You would've thought my favorite rapper was Puff
Back then
Who cares?
How do y'all feel
That he said it?
He addressed it
I think it's dope
He's established now
He probably couldn't say it
You know
He's still kinda coming up
He's rich now
And he's trying to retire
No I just think he's
Putting it all out on his record
On the album period He's going in his bag Yeah he's opening up a little he's addressing all the hated niggas that have
been saying he's this that type of rapper he came with a whole different vibe in the beginning then
he went to his regular uh j cole shit at the end but these first few songs shocked me that he even
picked those beats for his album for his project project, it kind of shocked me. All of these stories
that have gone on
in whatever time frame
this was about
Puff and these
physical altercations
and every time
his name comes up
in something,
the fans start beating me down
about why I don't say
something to Puff.
Why am I not stepping to Puff?
Because all the stories
is Puff beating people up.
Why is Puff not giving
the locks to the Macy's
mask, blah, blah, blah.
Fam,
you ask him.
Now you know how we feel. You ask them. Now you know how we feel.
You ask them.
Now you know how we feel.
Yeah.
What about me?
Yeah.
For the last 10 years.
No, yeah, but especially for the last couple days.
That's literally what it's all been.
Nah, for 15 years.
I do try to.
I know that.
I try to protect people that know me
from all the shit that may come along with me,
including y'all in moments like this
where everybody's not built for all of that.
Not built for.
But maybe not used to.
All of that scrutiny.
So many comments from different places.
So many feelings and emotions.
From different places.
It could be a lot.
It could be like an onslaught.
So when I came on here to apologize.
And it was.
Some of that was for y'all
because y'all have kind of just been thrust into a situation that had nothing to do with you guys
uh parks you've been having the venus venus williams these comments away from you
venus and serena these shits over the net. Yeah. You're swinging with all your might.
I listen to Alex and Savon's podcast.
They whole crew sound stressed.
Yeah.
It's been a lot.
They whole crew sound stressed.
The two new people on the pod that I don't know sound stressed.
They sound stressed just for y'all, just because y'all be in the room.
Yeah.
It was interesting to hear you guys' thoughts.
I know Park's recorded something I'm going to listen to later.
Seeing all of this feedback and all this.
I do need to apologize to Rory as well.
Maybe Rory and Maul too, but definitely Rory.
Some of that stuff said, though it wasn't released the way it's normally released.
It was released behind a paywall.
People still got it.
I mean, well, who knew that?
Listen.
Who knew that all that spice was going to get picked up?
Yeah, like it's the internet.
It's out.
It's out.
Well, the thing about that is things always do sound a lot spicier on the go out.
They do.
Like it didn't feel that spicy to me in here, number one.
Me either.
There's a couple little jabs, but...
But when it dropped,
but when it dropped,
it maybe lived for about five minutes
until I called Savon, like,
let's just put this behind the paywall.
We don't need to live this way.
I didn't know it was all of this,
and they sure enough found a clip, bootlegged it, sent it around the pod where I think the bootleg clip might have done some numbers.
For sure.
One popped up in my, I hit Ian like, yo, man, somebody done ripped it.
Here, do what you got to do and get this taken down.
He's like, oh, shit, good luck.
I didn't even know.
Yes, I snitched the link out.
Yes, I did.
Snitch. down he's like oh shit good look i didn't even know yes i snitched the link out yes i did snitch
yeah i want to i want to apologize to rory whenever whenever i speak to him or whenever
we get to a space and i apologize to y'all too if you think i was being spicy i wasn't i don't
think in my personal opinion but i get it i'm standing next to you so i put it behind a paywall
it didn't matter the bootleg went around also what we need to address say von erickson parks we have
to hire uh we have to hire uh what a new editing crew like why do we miss every edit ever said
the edit that i called save on and said hey don't put this out until this is edited out and then i
was on it for hours then y'all hit me back and said yo we found it and then it went out with that exact part
that has to be edited
that can't happen understand I'm not
trying to assess blame here I'm trying to
say that can no longer
happen you guys I never got a note of that that can never
happen again I took everything out that I got notes on
if you haven't noticed we've had a few
problems this year
where things that were supposed
to be edited out went out.
Newsflash is too big. The bootleg did
numbers. The bootleg did numbers.
And I do want to apologize to Rory
when I speak to him since that last
pod. And I think, you know,
I've done a lot of internal. Everything
I say comes out wrong, too.
You're good at that.
Is that Asperger's?
It's assholers.
It's assholers.
You're a dick.
I don't want to be.
This thing is trying to put
a little affliction
on his assholeness.
Listen.
That was a good one though.
Ever since that last part,
I've just been having like
pictures in my head
of every moment
that me and the guys
have ever had together.
Hugs on stage.
Playing with songs.
Oh my God.
Come on.
Yeah, no, I have.
Same, I have too.
I have.
I have too.
I have.
Maybe I can get back, man.
You know.
So when I was in here saying shit like, let me clarify some things.
When I say I didn't ask you to do shit for me, because I don't ask y'all to do shit for me.
But that's the man thing to me.
You just don't ask men too much shit.
But when I say I never asked you to do something, that don't mean I'm not appreciative.
It don't mean I'm not grateful.
It just means I never asked. But when you say that but but you know when do you when do you say that
and then not sound like a dickhead you sound like you can never say because you're not supposed to
ever say that you shouldn't say that that's true uh it's like saying yo you never asked your mother
to do something yeah yeah but then you only say that right when and this is just me
have nothing to do with the fellas or anything i just have a problem this has been my whole life
you can ask my parents with people feeling like they have authority over me that has nothing to
do with the guys that has nothing to do people can't come to me and act like they have control over what my next move is.
Because I'm going to do something crazy.
I'm going to do something that you didn't factor in.
And I'm going to be cool with dealing with it.
And I talked about that in the pod.
Like, that's kind of the gift and curse of Joe Budden.
Like, you're crazy.
And that's great.
And everyone loves it and is entertained by it until it affects them.
But I don't want that to affect people I love, which is why I'm going to apologize to Rory.
Because me and Rory got so many fly nigga moments together.
Like fly, friend type of vibey.
Like it's unfortunate that they may not feel that we're so friendly today.
And it's unfortunate I can't not feel that we're so friendly today.
And it's unfortunate.
I can't tell you how we got here.
Maybe aside from if I'm taking accountability,
poor leadership skills,
but yeah,
communication skills.
I mean,
it's,
but everyone's to blame.
That was kind of,
that was the theme of my shit.
Everyone's to blame.
Everyone's right.
And everyone's wrong.
Yeah. I'd be right. and I'd go about it wrong.
Yeah, that's what I said.
That's what they had to do. And they were right, but they went about it wrong.
Yeah, that actually makes sense.
And as far as the spiciness and all the mean shit you said in the podcast,
people aren't really privy to the phone calls that you got right before we went on air.
You're mad.
You're upset.
You're sad.
Well, that's the other downside to doing it. And I the way to all the i'm dick riding joe i'm trying
to protect my job i'm mad too these guys i love these guys and them doing shit affects my life
and my income and my friendships with them and with other people but not just mad see and that's
why i have a therapist coming here okay that's why it's not just mad there's hurt yeah hurt there's
shock there's disappointment there's anger like there's a whole melting pot of emotions and it's
heavy and it's heavy heavy for me heavy for me because it was the right thing to do heavy because
it was the right thing to do it was but that's going to always be the result with me.
I don't respond well when I feel like I'm being taken advantage of.
That's the other thing.
Like, these things are constant things about me that I'm aware of.
Right.
And I'll try to combat it, but if it don't look like resolution is coming,
if you keep trying to hurt me, I'm going to say ouch.
All right.
And it also hurt the fans.
And that's the part that hurts doubly, I guess.
And that's why they lash out and say wild shit, because they're hurt and upset.
Besides the ones that just want us to fail.
There's those guys, too.
Yeah, but there's no such thing as failure at this point.
Like last podcast, I think I said the one that didn't go out to everybody might not
i think i said if they start a podcast i'm gonna sue that was hurt that was hurt am i am i suing
anybody for starting the pod actually i encourage it like they should it would be a shame the same
way i told uh ice and ish when they came here for four weeks and then it looked like it was about to
stop i said yo you've built up too much value to let it go.
Did I say that to both of y'all?
Yeah, that's what you told me.
In that very short time, you've built something,
so you have to do something with it if you started to build something,
if you want to.
I say the same thing for those brothers, man.
There's no reason why they shouldn't have a Mixie Boy podcast
or any type of podcast.
Get your shit off.
I already gave them the title once, I think.
Dude is eating out here.
And that is how you do it.
And if you love somebody
the way I love both of them,
in spite of where the relationship stands,
you want to see people do better
and you want to see people get to it.
Of course, you always wish them well.
Yeah, but it just sucks
that that's part of the gig
is having to come in here in real time
while you're feeling shit,
while you're going through shit, while while you hopefully that changes for me so hopefully i can respond with
responding things as classy as you guys one day it's hard though it's hard it's hard when you're
hurt that's not easy in my head i'm classy the whole room just gonna laugh yeah whole room just bust out yeah you can't really work
in my head in my head i'm classy but see that's where i got mad when i seen
rory's response publicly i get mad at niggas like that i get mad when people respond perfectly
publicly i hate that shit why So you wanted the messy shit?
No, no.
I like peace and serenity,
but I felt like,
don't give me the front-facing perfect shit and then be,
like, he called me messy,
and he was right.
Like, that shit maybe was messy,
but I think the behind-the-scenes,
some of the behind-the-scenes shenanigans
have been messy.
I think how y'all have gone about this with your council and your team and without communicating may be messy.
We just have different definitions of things and maybe different routes for how shit should go.
That's all.
But I definitely love those guys.
Me too.
Now you can't turn the love off.
You can't just like switch that.
Too much there. I just wish that everyone would have went about it differently myself included it is what it is people react out
of emotion anger uh what did you wish what do you wish that you would have done differently um
man you throw me one of those waters please i mean starting from the top the whole thing uh
the the conversation that was had i probably didn't need to tell anybody.
But at the same time, shit is fucked up in business.
I feel like people should know.
I could have sat on it and it would have probably been a bigger grenade later.
Well, that's what would have happened.
Yeah.
It would have become a bigger grenade.
That was also not the first one of those conversations.
Also, I know.
grenade that was also not the first one of those conversations also i know and savon and alex on y'all podcast uh savon was saying to me that i have to know as the boss and a leader that people
are going to talk behind my back yes right you said that regular shit well why don't you say
that to my face why you say on the podcast it's been been up for five, six weeks, Avon.
It never came up.
And that's the other part.
This stuff is important.
I've definitely told you that. That is the other.
But you told me a bunch of shit over 10 years.
Why is that a guarantee?
What's that?
That your employees are going to talk shit about you?
Right.
It's just the nature of capitalism, I think.
It's corporate.
I wonder if my guys talk shit about me.
Yeah, they talk shit about you.
They definitely do.
You can be the best guy in the world.
They're still going to, I don't like the way you did this.
No, they do.
And that would be some shit that would offend you and drive you up the wall.
I'm going to go ask them.
Y'all be talking about me when I ain't here.
The answer is yes.
I'm going to tell you no.
I'm going to be like, yo, y'all be talking.
Why you use this drywall? Yeah, y'all be kicking my back me when i ain't here you know why you be doing why you use this drywall
yeah y'all be kicking my back out when i ain't here say von man you got to get rid of whatever
that is that exists that barrier that that makes you feel like you're unable to say some of that
stuff to me but say it on a podcast do you know that that is why you're positioned right there
positioned right there niggas don't be one
niggas don't be one
if you know that's why
you're positioned right there
then you know that's why
you have to say something
if y'all brothers
are on the side
and you hear something
that it may be a little
if y'all ever see me going
in a way that appears,
you got to say,
especially,
no,
not just that,
especially from a position of,
of,
uh,
you ask,
you're saying it takes a lot,
but it takes a lot.
You're saying it takes a lot,
but it takes a lot.
Newsflash for any of the people that are confused,
this is next level shit.
I know we just in Park's crib,
but it needs to be cared for and guarded and protected
and saw about differently than probably anything
that we've ever been a part of outside of family
and shit that we love.
You know what I'm saying?
Right?
No?
Yeah, that makes sense. I don't hear nothing you're saying and it you got to find a mic you you
you find i i can't speak for him but i could see how it might be a difficult position to be in um
no shot he's a subordinate right so as such you as such, you kind of got to tap dance.
You got to pick and choose
when you could come to the boss
and say certain shit, right?
He probably also feels like
Mullen Roy or his boss, too.
And not only on...
So, again,
if they can't work it out,
I'm the newest nigga here.
Right.
Who the fuck am I to work it out
if they can't work it out?
And on top of that...
And speak out of pocket
or speak out of turn.
They friends. Not know who you offending. You get what I'm saying? Like, that can't work it out? And on top of that. And speak out of pocket or speak out of turn. They friends.
Not know who you offending.
You get what I'm saying?
Like, that's a real tough position.
I'm not saying that
he couldn't have handled it
in a different way,
but I see how you might
want to be like,
yo, I'm good.
No, he's right though.
Like I said,
and the fact that they're friends.
Y'all are friends.
I don't know y'all.
I'm the new nigga here.
That's what I said.
He's the new guy here.
So it's hard for me
to come here and say,
yo, there's an issue between y'all that you might not know.
Y'all are taking this conversation somewhere else.
I told Savon that he should have the liberty to say, yo, dog, people are going to talk about your back.
Oh, just that part.
Just that.
Well, you should know that.
That's the case.
Well, I do know that.
So why he got to tell you that?
No, that's a legit question.
Yeah, I'm just...
Yeah, when you're a boss of any business,
shit, I've worked for my sister
and brother-in-law for years.
We talk shit about behind their back.
That's my fucking sister.
It's just what you do.
The employees get together
and they get a couple drinks
and they say,
I don't like the way they do this shit and shit.
Everything could be fine.
And it's still,
I don't like the fucking lights you got here.
Yeah.
I guess. I guess.
I guess.
Give me the list of things
ish that I can say
behind your back
that you okay with.
I'd like a list of things
from each of you
of shit
that y'all are cool
with me kicking your back
in about
behind your back.
behind my back but not be kicking my back in.
And that's what I think.
And number two, you can say whatever you want to say as long as you are capable and willing to tell me to.
Or, if you feel I'm a fuck nigga, you can say, yo, I feel he a fuck nigga.
So everybody in here.
But I don't care.
Or either you tell it to you, or I don't't care and we're just going to keep on keeping up.
That's my man.
He a fuck nigga, but he's still my man.
I love him.
Exactly.
But you have to be willing to say it to me also.
Right?
Like you can't be willing.
Yo, man, I don't fuck with that nigga.
Like that.
When you start saying shit like I don't fuck with him, that's different.
Because you fucking with him.
I was about to say while fucking with him.
While fucking with me.
That's different.
But if you could say something behind my back, as long as you're willing and capable to tell me to, then you can say whatever the fuck you want to say.
That's my opinion.
You know what I'm saying?
You can say whatever you want to say, as long as you're willing to tell me.
Okay.
Like, if you see me fucking up and you tell them you see me fucking up, but I'm your man and you ain't tell me you see me fucking up, I got an issue with that.
Because you could potentially correct me you see me fucking up. I got an issue with that.
Because you could potentially correct me from going astray.
That's what friends, like that term is used mad way too loosely.
Niggas don't be friends.
You might have known somebody a long time.
That don't mean they're your friend.
Right?
Because friendship is an action, not in words to me.
Right? So if you're not acting like a friend, you could say you're my friend just because I've known you for 50 acting like a friend you could say you're my friend just
because i've known you for 50 fucking years that don't mean you're my friend because because again
to me friendship is an action not really in words yeah but because of that yeah but it's so real that
because of that when there is distinction in the friendship like let's say you start out one way and then you
fall off to a different level that that that's never really discussed it's gradual so it's
gradual that's never a that's never a conversation that's something you feel right but guess what
when you energy but when you are really friends you can call your man And be like yo Something's off
Like you just said
It's a feeling
Yo something's off
The energy
Do we need to have a conversation
It's the energy
Do we need to have a conversation
I see a difference here
What's up
Something's different
That's real shit
We need to have a conversation
Yo come over
And holla at me
Right
Like come
Come through
Yo you hungry
You can
Even if you feel
And they don't feel it
Yo what you doing Yo I'm about to go to the mall And get them in your sights right like come come come through yo you hungry you can even if you feel it now philly yo what
you're doing y'all about to go to the mall and get them in your sights and once you get them
in your sights now you can have a conversation that may be unpleasant right you know that he
ain't that type of guy he don't want to have awkward talks but if you value your friendship
force the awkward talk correct to save the friendship before it keeps just going on a
downhill slope.
And in Joe's defense, cue the Dick Ryders here. No, I'm not even talking about Dick Ryders.
No, no.
In Joe's defense, he reached out and tried
to have a sit down
and got blown off.
From what I heard. Allegedly.
Yeah.
But again,
I don't really want to go, but
some of these things could have potentially been festering for years.
That's absolutely right.
And they've never been discussed.
That's absolutely the case.
So again, two years ago, three years ago, five years ago, whatever, the conversation could have been had amongst two people.
And that would have had people in a more solid foundation.
Or any time between the two, three years ago
and today.
No, I was just
throwing it out.
No, no, see,
I wasn't even talking
about that situation.
I know, but...
I was just saying,
seven years ago,
five years ago,
three years ago,
we could have had
a conversation when I...
We both felt it
because energy,
you could feel it, right?
So did you see the difference?
Either party
or both parties
felt something.
Mm-hmm.
And if you owe it
to your friendship to...
Yo, let me holler at you.
In your business.
I love you, dog.
What we doing?
Something feels off.
Even if it's not business.
But even if it's not.
Again, I don't want to bring Maul and Rory in this.
I'm just talking about general friendship.
Two chicks.
It could be two chicks.
Right?
And one chick felt like Shorty said something
Out of the way to her man
Mm-hmm
They'll hold that
Yeah
And it'll fester
And it'll just sit there
And now y'all friendship
Has changed over the last four years
Pull her up
Yo
I didn't really like
What you said to such and such
People don't want to have
That conversation
It could be a misunderstanding
And the air get cleared
And y'all be fine
Or it could have been something
But at least y'all know what it is
And y'all can address that
And dictate how you gonna move on It's really easy to say that yeah because nobody likes nobody
likes some hard combos that people will speak more freely to strangers that's why people got
therapists yeah they feel just cool to speak to the therapist you could just go right right or
or the co-workers shit they won't say to their wife shit they won't say to their husband i'm supposed to be the closest person to you in the world
they'll tell a therapist something they can't tell a wife that's crazy to me sometimes you have to
you have to do that to get to the other thing you have to uh you can have all the thoughts in the
world but sometimes you need to express it to someone else to make sure you're not bugging or
to organize your thoughts in a cohesive way to go back to the other person. But if you never go back to the other person...
And a lot of
times, what will happen
is you don't want to go to that other
person because you don't want to hurt
that person. Or you fear what could...
You fear what could happen. The consequences of having
the conversation. Like, this could potentially
be the end of us.
And I really don't necessarily
want that either. On the friendship
tip, I get to thinking
if we're really friends and we go through something
and destroy and rebuild should be in effect.
If the friendship was real,
then it'll
come back.
I'm not talking about, I'm not speaking.
I'm worrying more. I'm talking about in general.
Thank you. Thank you. Thank you.
Not just that. I agree with what you're saying
unless you do some shit that you can't come back that's a don't like i got do's and don'ts yeah
right and if you do a something that's a clear don't i could walk by i this is a person i have
motherfuckers that i slept in a house when i was five six seven eight years old that i won't speak
to at all and haven't spoken to them for double digit years.
You get what I'm saying?
If I feel like you did something that
you knew better.
I got a family member like that.
My only thing with
friends is when I
confirm that you are
intentionally trying to hurt me,
that's out the window.
I have a problem with that.
I take the friendship shades off. I have a problem with that. That's right.
I have a problem with that.
I take the friendship shades off.
I say relationship, period.
Friends, family,
it ain't got to be whatever.
You can't hurt a relationship.
Once you're trying to hurt me,
that's it.
Intentionally?
Yeah, you're trying.
You're actively and intentionally trying to hurt me.
I agree.
At that point, we have nothing.
I don't care whether you are a friend,
a girlfriend, a family, whatever it is,
whatever the relationship was,
co-work, whatever, whatever we were,
it's over at that point.
Yeah, I agree.
And at that point, there is no going back.
Like, there's certain things,
you cross that bridge, it's over.
Yeah.
Or it's going to take a very long time
to get back to the bridge.
I'm good.
And even when we get to the bridge,
it's not going to be a bridge
we'll meet on the shore
I've had very close friends that violated to a level
that I thought I couldn't come back
and 15 years later
we can occasionally exchange a text
I have a sister
that I will never speak to
you might be better than me my nigga
I'm being perfectly honest here
I have family that I got to get with.
I've seen that in my family.
I'm not getting with them.
My grandfather and his brother had a fucking fucked up thing happen and they never spoke
to each other for the rest of their life.
And that shit still kind of makes me sad because y'all should have figured out a way to work
that shit out at some point.
So I'm not with the whole burn the bridge completely.
I am.
I am.
I'm not even going to lie.
I'm burning the whole shit.
Burn that shit down.
No,
the only way I might start
getting my
jigsaw construction bag out
is when
you literally,
I mean,
you got to come to me,
right?
Mm-hmm.
With this,
because apologies are hard.
Yeah.
Accountability is hard.
Sincere ones.
Sincere,
accountability is,
uh,
uh.
How we start talking again i apologize
of course you did bitch ass nigga but anyway but anyway nah again accountability like
accountability is just a thing like you got to be accountable and if you don't hold yourself
accountable then we have nothing to discuss right if you if, yo, I did some fuck shit, and I'm sorry, dog.
Then we can...
I'm a...
Yeah, I miss you, too.
Yeah, but again, nah.
If you not willing to hold accountability for what you've done, it's nothing for us to discuss.
Because I'm going to keep moving like I don't know you.
See, but that's...
It gets trickier than that.
Because even some of what I said in the last part, not any of the shit where I'm hurting and in pain.
But some of that shit that I said to Rory, I may not have even felt like I needed to say it to him.
I might have needed to say it to whoever he's talking to.
Like sometimes you got to speak through through people who whoever and I'm assuming now whoever it is that may be putting batteries in backs that maybe may think they have a bright idea or maybe fueling him to hurt someone that he loves.
Yeah, they need to hear where I'm at.
I need to come in here and say what's going on.
So I so I want so it could be documented and two so everybody
will be working with the same information because i don't know who'll be talking to niggas i don't
no but my stance don't change like whether it's rory or rory's handlers or i mean my position is
my position you're still the same and the fucked up part is i kept trying to get them out the way
of the blast like i felt I felt a blast coming.
Your grown people handle grown business, right?
So if you, because this is what my opinion is, and I'm going through a similar situation as we speak, right?
So if your advisors are advising you, they're advising you based on what you told them.
So if you're leaving information for the
most part right we all leave information out when we're expressing our feelings so you leave the
information out if you came to me and said yo i caught my wife doing some bullshit i'm gonna advise
you right you ain't telling me that you did this it was a response to what you did right you left
all so i'm advise you but if you gave me the whole entire story in its entirety, I'm going to advise you differently.
It's not true.
It is true.
People omit, in my opinion, people omit.
Purposeful omission or exaggeration is a lie.
That's tricky.
I've argued against that in arguments.
You have.
You're the king of that.
If you didn't catch me.
Purposeful omission?
Absolutely. Well, why wouldn't everybody me- Of purposeful omission? Absolutely.
Well, why wouldn't everybody
take advantage of purposeful omission?
So you don't have to take accountability.
Oh, no, but I'm big on accountability too,
so don't do that.
If you're big on accountability-
You just told me,
you called me a bitch ass nigga
because I came here and apologized
and I took it.
I didn't even say nothing.
But again,
if you could get away
with the purposeful omission,
you're not willing to take accountability.ission, you not willing to take accountability.
Because when you're willing to take accountability, you're going to throw all the cards on the table and say, yo, I apologize sincerely.
Right. But if you can leave me about that, I could kind of get it off.
You get what I'm saying? Like, so I don't have to own everything.
Yeah, accountability. Accountability is recognizing the part that you played in
the result and owning it and owning it and highlighting it and attempting to
change it right own it but I think it's a little bit more you have to express
that to the other party no exactly like I. Like, I can know I'm wrong, but if I don't tell you that, yo, I was wrong, that's a little different.
Well, we have a guest.
Let me give him a round of applause.
We have a guest here because clearly a room full of men navigating emotions didn't turn out the greatest.
It did not.
Yeah.
So we had to invite a woman.
We've invited a woman here.
I have therapist Alicia here.
I've never said therapist Alicia.
I know.
You just call me Doc.
I say Doc.
Yeah, Doc.
Yeah, because it ain't time for all them syllables in therapist time.
In therapist time, Doc, this is what the fuck is going on but i have doc alicia here uh with us to help us through any trauma and pain that anyone may be
feeling doc we've had a tumultuous few weeks here to say the less of the least well you know
you know because uh i call you every time i call you right before i hit the button every time
therapist yeah it's not just
a therapist right i have called uh your therapy i've called this is one of my therapists i have
a few therapists okay but uh i have called doc when sin and i were on our last leg there was a
lot of those sessions uh and then i called doc a lot after that relationship ended. Had to get on my feet. Had to get back right, right?
Absolutely.
And then I called Doc for Rory, for him and I.
This is for you guys.
Yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah.
For him and I.
And we sat there for a few sessions.
And here I am calling Doc again.
She getting that money.
No, no.
You giving out loans?
No, no.
Now, she getting a lot of money because so many people's mental health
is in the basement during this pandemic.
Absolutely.
She used to stay 30 minutes past the appointment.
Now she rushes out.
Hey, I have to go.
Hey, Doc, but I'm crying.
I have another session.
Can't really stick around too long.
I gave you a life plan
you were supposed to
follow the plan
after I leave
I think I did
I read it though
it's okay
he said it was helpful
it was
you can't just read it
it helped me to
implosion
it led me right to
let me clarify too
right
because therapy
is not somebody that just fixes the whole problem, right?
We just help you figure it out, right?
And sometimes figuring it out is ending it or continuing with clarity, right?
On everybody's roles and expectations.
So it's not always necessary to fix something.
It's just to hash out whatever needs to be talked about and brought to the
no i blew it yeah no no yeah no well you've been a little resistant in therapy sometimes so it's
okay yes yes what you meant to say was i challenged thought oh. That's fine. I am a thought challenger. How much therapizing does he
try to do with you? A whole lot.
A whole lot. Like, dog, look,
just you get on the couch.
You get on the couch. She be wrong.
You're wrong. I'm like, okay.
I could be, but it's just another way
to think about it. Because she never
sees where I'm coming from. When I mean
I say never. Don't say that. Let me not say never.
She sees where I be coming from. That's what it is.. Don't say that. She sees where I be coming from.
That's what it is. I'm neutral, right?
This is what it is.
I'm always in therapy when it's a
twosome or threesome, whatever you call that,
with somebody who
probably is
more sensitive to things than I am.
That's what I feel like.
In therapy, it's time to
let's focus on this person,
what the issue may be, and what I can change to make them feel better.
In therapy, I never really feel like you're addressing any of my problems.
Well, because that's not individual therapy. You're always affecting how I deal with somebody else.
But you just admitted that most times you're not as sensitive as they are, which means nine times out of out of ten you're the aggressor his need for therapy my point right so do you think i'd be the aggressor
in things probably 90 of your relationships you're the aggressor wow maybe 95 do you have a calculator
are you just pulling these numbers out of okay i, I'm open to this. But here's the reality, right?
Couples therapy is not just me pick one person to now focus on.
It's both of you, right?
So you equally play a part, whether it is you're pressing the button all the time or this person is overly sensitive.
My response is just always louder than the other person's initiation possibly but
that's also personality right you know if you have a dominant personality that's going to show up in
a session right but that doesn't always mean that your dominant personality is right it's accurate
right right so you know sometimes you it's good to look at things not just in one perspective
but all perspectives right because
it's not just you that you're dealing with you're dealing with someone else their mind their views
their values so it may be very different from yours and how can you two meet doc for months
for months people have seen me try to troubleshoot behind the scenes and think of everyone else's position but my own
am i am i off in that no oh now y'all want to say that's cool but yeah that's correct but i also
told you joe you need your own therapy right outside of those sessions when you work with
someone else that is going to kick up something and you need to have a place to process that
on your own yeah right here i got
i got you with a whole room full of people a whole world full of people a whole world full
of people only a million people listen but it's okay you know i do no harm because you're very
open so um i i can see where i can see where i have failed in this equation where is that um oh i was saying
before you got here i maybe have not showed the best leadership skills or the best uh management
skills managing people managing personalities absolutely maybe i haven't been the best
communicator that's a big part of management.
Well, why people don't know.
The biggest.
You said why people?
Why people don't.
Why you didn't know.
No, why people don't know.
Why people don't know what?
People aren't managers.
Whatever I need to communicate.
Why you didn't know, nigga, what you was doing.
I'm joking.
But those are the areas where I felt like maybe I could have worked on
a little more and delivery
but delivery is always my problem
it's going to be a problem
it is until you acknowledge it
as a problem
you may not see it as a problem right now
like I said part of that is your personality
I don't see it as a problem if you try
to attack me 1000 times
and at 100 thousand and one
you get a bad delivery no but i don't see it that way conversation needs to be had on a third attack
it shouldn't be a thousand but what if you have those conversations well first is why it could
be the way you have in that we don't get to a thousand but why are you labeling it an attack
right if someone says something that doesn't mean it's an attack on you it's only you
and how you perceiving that oh no i was using the word attack for when i go but that was always your
theme right you know doc is not taking my side because this person is coming at me and they're
saying this to me and i say you never pick my side it's okay it's okay go ahead that's part of
your growth right because you're very assertive, right? And you're very knowledgeable, intelligent,
you know, right? But what we talked about is the difference between logical, intelligent,
and emotional intelligence, right? And if we're not emotionally intelligent in certain situations,
we're bound to react a certain way. So this is where I say for you, the work comes in is, okay,
act a certain way. So this is where I say for you, the work comes in is, okay, once I see how my delivery is and how it affects someone, right? I want to empower change in that person, right? I
don't want them to continue to do what they're doing. So I'm not going to keep attacking or
addressing them or approaching them the same way if I know I'm not getting a result.
Indeed.
Right? Right. So, you know, we call that insanity.
Sorry, I didn't want to say that, but...
I'm going to edit it out.
No, you're insane.
You can say whatever you want.
Doing the same thing and expecting a different result, right?
Absolutely.
You said therapy, right?
I did 90 different things.
Nah, again, like, all jokes aside,
what she's saying,
with management, right?
Doc, do you know
I'm never going to therapy
with a man?
Do you know that?
That you what?
That I'm never going to therapy
in a couple session
with a man.
I would hope not.
What do you mean you would hope?
You've had a million
female...
Well, listen,
most male
will gravitate
to female therapists
though
most males
will
you know
no he's talking about
no he's saying
he's never been
in couples therapy
I'm saying
I went to therapy
with Rory
with you
and I've never
done that before
so you saying
I did try to do
a bunch of different things
that's proof
I'll give you that
that is trying
something different
I give you that
for argument's sake
mad other talks
no that's how many sessions you were present for
how many sessions
did I do with Rory alone
but that's not therapy
if you're doing it alone that's a conversation
I was being his therapist
you can't be his therapist
you can't be his therapist
I was just about to say that he thinks can't be a therapist. You can't be a therapist. I was just about to say that.
He thinks he's the therapist.
That's the problem.
That's the problem right there.
Right.
He just acknowledged his limitations as a manager, and now you want to take on a role as a therapist?
That's way too much.
Yeah, that's true.
On your plate.
So I think that might have been-
Well, that's been part of the problem.
You just hit that on the head.
It is.
I have had too much on my plate.
Okay.
I think it's...
Oh, I'm sorry.
No, go ahead.
I think it's an experience thing, too.
Like, you're running a multi-million dollar business, right?
It's new to you.
And unfortunately, these are the bumps and bruises that come along with that.
It's like coaching, right?
Your point guard, you could curse him out to get the best out of him.
But if you curse your center out, he going to wilt up.
You got to pull the center to the side.
Yo, come on, man.
You got this dog.
And you're going to get the best out of him by communicating with him that way.
Your point guard, you got to curse, what, mother?
And he going to kick up, right?
So you got to deal with each person individually because this person responds to this stimulus.
This person doesn to this stimulus.
This person doesn't respond well.
That was my knock on Phil Jackson.
He critiqued everybody in the media.
Some people don't take to that well.
Like Smush killed him, right?
So.
I don't know what Smush did.
Smush Parker.
I don't even know who that is.
I do know who Smush is.
You're an asshole.
I knew what you were saying.
But again.
Yeah, but he was making such a profound point and then said
smush Parker
like nigga
dummy
alright but go ahead
no look
you could critique Colby
in the media
because Colby's gonna respond well
but when you critique
this individual in the media
it doesn't
give him the motivation
that you were looking for
so you're new
in running a
a conglomerate
and you're looking to
ascend to even bigger things, so your approach
might not, you got to
figure out what works with parks.
What works with parks might not work with Save Arm.
You get what I'm saying? So it's just trial
and error. Or delegate someone that can
do that better. Absolutely. But your trial
and error is coming in front of the
world. Right. Unfortunately.
So if you was running a Fortune 500 company,
nobody would know that
you're the ceo and you having these conversations with these people and it's and it's turning into
shambles unfortunately yours is being broadcast to everybody to sit there and nitpick every day
on twitter and that's the unfortunate part like again if you was running at&t you could be
fucking up behind the scenes but your profit margin is popping so you looking at like the greatest CEO in the world
here your shit is on
four cameras in front of everybody
every single day
well that's why I have to do a better job
I agree but it's trial and error though
that's good insight
because when things go
you did
you did
he's got cash
he missed mad callings You did. You did. You did. You should. He's got cash. Well, listen, I believe everybody can. He missed the man calling.
Everybody can be a therapist.
You know, they can be some type of mentor.
But I think awareness is key.
So just you having that insight.
Okay, it didn't work out the way I wanted to.
Let me take a step back.
Let me evaluate what was my approach, what things I could do different.
That's that whole processing thing that I feel also wasn't really happening.
Processing?
Yeah, for yourself.
With me?
Yeah, yeah.
Just when the conflict first began, just, all right, if it happened this way, what should I do different?
It was just like, okay, whatever, you know, just show up.
I agree. Just show up. And I was like, that's not all that's needed to make things work.
Yeah. But when you say conflict. When people have a hard time communicating or aren't the best communicators, sometimes whatever their problem is at the core may come out all over the place, right?
So I think when I was trying to address it,
I think I was late to the party.
I think I was the last one to know.
Yes.
I was the last one to know there was an issue, right?
And by the time I found out there was an issue
and I was trying to address it,
it wasn't the right issue.
And it was so many things on the friend side. Then it was so many things on the friend side then it was
so many things on the business side and now you just offending me on both sides and now if i'm
talking to somebody who don't give a fuck about therapy or give a fuck about how i'm feeling in
in the moment here then it's like at some point i'm gonna say dog you know what
fuck how you feel too and that's when I end up calling
yes
and that's
this is the other thing too
right
fuck is the point of therapy
if the person that I'm talking to
ain't in therapy
what
but that's for your growth
I know
I know
I know
I know
yes
self focus
right
so
what you were saying about
um I'm sorry I lost my train of thought i was saying
i was saying that by the time uh you find out what the problem is right there are so many different
problems that you don't even know where to pinpoint right and this is what i was saying you
are the ceo right and a ceo's role i think you said a little bit, about knowing your players, who's strong, who has weakness, right, and applying them in positions that suit them.
And I think there wasn't no check-in, right?
And once you saw that there might have been someone slacking or not meeting your expectations, if there was no discussion from the first inception of that happening is going to be
difficult for you to address it in the long run there was there was discussion there was no resolve
resolution yeah there was no resolve right right i just which sometimes we can have conversations
and not have a resolution you know we're just talking to talk but we're still walking away
and still have the same feelings that's the purpose of therapy but two men look at it like yo we addressed it so you should fix it absolutely my opinion the entire time is all people
all parties involved in this particular case should have let other people kind of discuss things
because everyone's too emotionally attached absolutely a good mediator i think everyone
has managers yeah a good and lawyers a good a good middle. No, I don't even think that far.
I think a good middle man, like just a neutral party, would have been key here.
And that's the other part where I'm taking some of the onus in this.
Maybe I should have took some money and tried to hire a general manager or somebody so other people could communicate with.
I can't be that person at my network. I can't be that person at my network I can't be
that person on my podcast I can't be that the people that know me personally kind of know when
the yeah I mean I have to have some sort of protection of my own so yeah but I didn't I
didn't do that I didn't lesson learned you know that's the lesson learned unfortunately right and sometimes some
of our biggest lessons come out of our biggest falls yes so but i think the big thing for you
too is just you owning that that insight and what are you now going to do with that moving forward
absolutely right because now you're going to bring in a whole new team what are you going to do with that moving forward absolutely right because now you're going to
bring in a whole new team what are you going to do same thing you were doing with the last team
that might not be nah beneficial
that might not work you know so no that's real i don't have the answer i don't it's okay
i don't think you should call in in business conversations. You said what?
With your employees.
You said what?
I don't think Joe should have business conversations with his employees.
Or my friends.
Or your friends, who happen to be your employees oftentimes.
Or my friends, it's not my employees.
I don't want to have them.
Yeah.
I don't want to have them with nobody.
You really should.
Dude, you creators and curators are nuts.
And I'm already nuts. and i can't add nuts
to nuts pause i don't y'all talk to somebody that's not nuts yeah i agree with that but you
have often uh put yourself like i remember uh in the blow-up rory saying that he talked to ian
everything was straight and then you called Rory and
blew up at him.
Big facts.
That's a fact.
You shouldn't do that.
You shouldn't have did it.
You should have let Ian be the mediator because, again, Ian doesn't have the emotional...
Let's say Rory...
And again, I hate talking about this, but let's say Rory said something to Joe.
Use a different name.
Tommy.
We're not talking about Rory.
All right. We're talking about Tommy. Rory said something to Ian. Ian's different name. Tommy. We're not talking about Rory. We're talking about Tommy.
Rory said something to Ian.
Ian's not going to internalize it.
He's looking at it from a totally objective point of view.
Rory can say the same exact thing
to Joe and Joe be like,
what motherfucker? You coming at
and take it totally down.
That's it.
Whereas Ian's going to get a resolution. Joe's going to turn the situation
from a six to a ten.
Joe's going to get a gas can.
The other problem that kind of arose
is that I don't know if those guys trust.
I didn't respond to that problem.
I don't know if those guys trust Ian.
So that's a whole separate thing.
They don't.
This was an onion.
They don't.
They don't trust Ian.
This was clearly an onion of issues.
For years.
Yes.
For years.
Like I said,
it was a rolling ball just picking up as it
was going the fact that we got as far as we got with some of the issues for as long as they've
been there to say and i'm thinking a lot of it was because it was just whatever swept under the rug
yeah and that just builds more tension you know when you're when you're not really addressing it. And I think that's another learning lesson is that you got to look at how can I resolve
things, right?
And resolve means we both walk away with clarity and we both walk away with a good feeling.
That's hard in success.
Nothing is hard if you don't say it that way.
It's a challenge.
In success. In success. It's a challenge. And success.
And success.
It's a challenge.
Like the sports team, like the running back might hate the quarterback, right?
But we're winning games.
Right.
You niggas had the number one podcast or the top ranked podcast in whatever.
I don't, you know, this is the new arena for me.
So even in your successes, it's like, eh, it's not a big deal because we're still winning. When it starts
to show, right,
in the bottom line, when the revenue
hit takes a hit or the views take
a hit, now it's something that got to really
be discussed when it should have been discussed two or
three years ago, maybe five years ago. But
now it's showing up in the money. It's showing
up at the bottom line. Now it's too
late. Now it's too late.
And the product starts to suck up.
And so now,
but based on the product fucking up,
the number's fucking up.
Correct.
Right.
Right.
So now we got to have this conversation
that we should have had five years ago.
So now it's kind of
a difficult conversation.
As long as you winning,
you can sweep shit under the rug.
Absolutely.
You get what I'm saying?
Yeah, I do.
Damn, I did miss my call.
I promise you, you didn't. we should we should we should have called for a third and fourth therapy session dumb
shit was kicking my ass how because i don't want to sit in therapy with another man let's just talk
about that you were triggered all over the place, right?
So when you're triggered,
it's going to be
an uncomfortable situation.
Nobody wants to walk into the fire.
You know, we want to make sure
it's clear before I get in there.
But here's what I tell people
about therapy.
It's going to get worse
before it gets better.
But if I'm triggering somebody,
I feel like they should just be able
to get away from me.
Like, you don't have to.
Because I don't want to be a trigger to nobody.
But if that's your business partner, right?
And this is where you have to separate.
There's a whole kid together.
It's not a resolution.
There you go.
That doesn't solve anything.
Y'all have to deal with each other.
Yo, even talking to you now and listening to them i still don't know what i could have done
differently outside of uh the way in which i fired them publicly that's not true yeah you just told
you all that you could have when you first that's not true detected a problem how long have you guys
had a rift that you that you personally- That you are aware of.
You.
Became aware of.
Probably about a year and seven months.
And you didn't.
And that's-
You didn't stop.
Let's discuss this.
Let's get the ship right a year and seven months ago.
I did.
I did.
I tried to anyway.
You mentioned it.
Maybe I didn't try clearly hard enough.
You knew me a year and seven months ago.
He didn't call me for that.
He didn't try.
Well, in Joe's defense,
one of the issues,
and I'm not going to talk about it publicly
because it's part of the mess.
Yeah.
The person in the room with us at the time
was maybe not being truthful or honest
or owning up to maybe his part in it.
So I guess it was kind of difficult
to get a resolution.
To get a resolution.
But that's what I'm saying.
In my new position,
whatever this position is,
because I don't know
because only other people see me like this,
they don't really kick it to me
the way I think that people should kick it with me.
One.
Two, in the event that I think I'm talking to my friend,
like if I'm talking to Parks
and I'm saying something, I'm like if I'm talking to parks and, and I'm,
and I'm saying something,
I'm communicating the way I have our entire friendship,
but because the friendship is not there,
his antennas are receiving it differently.
So he's responding to it differently.
Like maybe I am really poor in the emotional intelligence area.
Cause when I had enough,
I just had enough and fuck everything.
And I know how to operate and fuck everything mode but as far as the just logical intelligence part i guess
when i say something different the logical explanation i tried to give to brothers who
i thought were my friends and were receiving me as friends and at no point other than uh in the
art on this couch when rory's like hey maybe we're not friends but other than that at no point other than uh in the art on this couch when rory's like hey maybe we're
not friends but other than that at no point did they say yo we're not receiving you that way dog
i had to find it was a surprise when i had to find out through attorneys that oh y'all got the same
attorney i didn't know i got to find out through this person i got to find out through through the
streets like if you're doing all of this talking and it's keep coming back through the streets almost
perfect to prediction why do you think so joe why do i think what why do you think that you
was hearing it all from the streets rather than because they weren't happy to you
no what i'm asking is why didn't come because i didn't i because i did not create a welcome
a welcoming space There you go
To be spoken to
Okay
So that's what you gotta own
And that's what y'all started out with
Right?
Accountability, ownership
Right?
So we gotta own
Sometimes when we are not creating
Opportunities for people to
Don't you have to know that the smoke exists
To make the space?
But sometimes you don't
Y'all was riding for three four years
but now and now you're saying the same thing that you sat there and heard me say to him in therapy
fam we've smoked hookah a million times we've watched a million fights we've watched a million
basketball games we have hooked up for kickbacks we have been together entirely too much for me to
have zero idea that this is the issue. And that is very common.
That's common in a lot of relationships.
But how do I own that?
How do I own that?
Just own your part.
We're not saying own the whole thing.
Okay, got it, got it.
Right?
Own your part and not create in the forum for them to have a space to vent.
Right?
Because here's the reality about people venting.
We shouldn't really take too much personally about venting because that is a way to release. Right. And that person to get clarity on what they need to know. Sometimes whoever they venting to may not be the best people to do it. Right. Because they may unscrew your words. But we should normalize people venting. Right. And people getting stuff over their chest before they bring it to you. But you also now have to be aware that I have to create that space for people to come and talk to me and feel comfortable with doing that.
And my thing is too, one of the things I was saying is if you're always shutting what somebody else has to say down or what they're feeling, that doesn't create the openness for them to talk to you.
That just shuts them down even more.
And my thing is we can agree to disagree they don't gotta know that you totally disagree with what they
are feeling that person's feelings is valid well that's not true you do you do where we argue
that person's feelings are valid yes my girl is mad that I liked the picture that I shouldn't like.
Her feelings are real where they stem from.
Fam, are we really going to talk about me liking this girl's picture?
So, yeah, I can listen to my friend who has feelings and say they're all valid because there's no right or wrong in feelings.
But eventually that conversation has to get to, well, what did the feelings stem from?
And that's what kept happening with me and my brothers here.
We know you got feelings.
I can see these feelings.
I can see there's something visibly wrong.
Tell me what's wrong.
Okay, this is wrong, Joe.
Whoa, that's wrong.
That's all the way right.
Why do you feel like this is wrong?
Tell me.
I've never gotten any of that.
Well, I answer that that I had the time to respect like it was maybe that is the core of this.
OK. Right. And when I put y'all in a plan, I said the first rule of thumb is you have to have respect for one another.
When you don't have that respect and sometimes those lines of respect
get blurred when we have these conflicts and as i say you have to be respectful because one you
have to listen to one another you have to respect what each other's saying even if we don't think
it's true or we don't agree with it like that that's the first opening of creating a space to
be vulnerable if you know i'm shutting your feelings down or what you're thinking
and that's where I ended up flipping out a little because they because they came here and they said
that they said yo as long as there's respect in the relationship then we can get through anything
and I was like yo I apologize there's respect now okay that's the first rule of thumb but
but what came after that you need need more than that, though.
Who?
That whole situation.
Y'all needed more conversation.
Right?
You can't just have
one or two conversations
and think your whole situation
is resolved.
We only had one or two conversations.
You don't think so?
No.
No.
Therapy is a process.
Well, he needs a lot of it.
Can't spell issues without ish.
I got him.
I think this.
What?
I think that if everybody
genuinely puts all their cards
on the table
and does not withhold
their feelings for PC,
like being politically correct or being diplomatic,
and you really tell somebody how you feel,
I think a resolution can come from that.
All right, the percentiles are a little low.
Yes, I think you get a guide, right,
on where the resolution can be, right?
But it's still ongoing work.
Because for Joe, he was still triggered, right?
So even though they had the conversation,
that wasn't eliminating
well that's where i got mad because my friend my friend my friend or somebody i call my friend
hold up one minute it's my friend or somebody that i call my friend we left the that conversation
of what what's what's triggering uh each other about each other right and then they continue
to trigger me right because
i told you and then that's when i say i gotta get fall i gotta go right because you have to learn
how to deal with your triggers and you dealing with your triggers is not that person removing
themselves people are going to be people you're not going to have the control over them i don't
want control over people i want the people that love me to not go out of their way to hurt me.
Right. But here. Right. This is this is why therapy is not just one session, because it's going to uncover more layers of stuff. Right.
So now you your interpretation of their behavior is they're hurting me.
And I said, I know. and you also felt like that was their
intention and i don't think that that was their intention i never said that see and that's where
me and you go wrong that don't have to be your intention i don't care about your intention i
care about the result and that is where we always have our i know the the intention bums in the
street had intentions of fucking going to harvard you landed in the street i care about
the result doc okay i don't think i think those i think they love me so and i don't and i don't
wait and i don't think that they but this purposely and still left me with the benefit of the doubt
but actions have told me but i don't think that they are intentionally trying to hurt me i don't
think that they see it like that in their mind at all but the result is me and my business and all things attached
were being hurt I get it so I had to make a real uncomfortable decision I did that on air
and all week I've been living with the weight of that not because i feel it was wrong but because i feel it was right
so what so what's the weight the weight should be relief not the relief is there but it's heavy
at what cost so you you got your relief right but what's the look what you had look what you
had to go through to get it two of your dogs dogs, two guys that was dead in the mud, helped build it, went through all the times.
It had to end like that. See, that's what my brain says.
My brain says we had a two year deal and seven months after that ends.
This is what happens that this journey is way longer than that.
The money that came ain't no
in here the money that's coming and i just i guess i felt i just never saw none of that because
i was doing it with my brothers and there was a camaraderie there
yeah but when it left oh shit maybe i played a part in leaving maybe people just grow apart like
i don't know i don't know but i know to have to do
what i did and i've never had to do that not like that to people that meant like that much to me
nah i didn't that one hurt it hurt it hurt it's like having to kill somebody you love
let me ask it's like seeing somebody you love knowing that they're making a decision that
could go uh and you're trying to stop you trying to stop it eventually I gotta get the fuck away from the blast so you
saying that they you feel they intentionally went out their way to hurt
you no I'm saying I don't think they intentionally tried to do it that was
just the result you feel that they feel you was hurting them mmm good question
hurt I don't know.
Clearly something was happening.
Something was happening.
They clearly thought I was lying to them,
stealing from them, maybe hurting
their pockets,
skimming the books,
not having their best interest.
Some of the things that this podcast was rooted in,
those things stopped.
Could be conceived as hurt. Like my man's rooted in those things stop could be conceived as
hurt like my man's or the result okay i don't know the inner workings right but let's just i'm just
again i'm playing devil's advocate i'm shooting them some bail uh if they felt as though you were
being deceitful somebody that loves me is being deceitful that that's hurtful yeah that's
how do you communicate that how do you communicate that and how do you resolve that
because that's where that's where yeah that's where we're wrong that's where it went wrong
communication because to me that's like that's like when your girl thinks you've been cheating. I want to go in the phone.
And you saying,
well,
I didn't cheat and I don't want you to go on the phone.
But if you go on my phone,
nothing's the same.
This will never be the same.
Can't go back.
See,
and that was the impasse.
I want to prove to you brothers that I'm not lying to you and that I'm not
skimming or whatever you're stealing, whatever you think I'm doing.
But in order for me to do it, there's no turning back.
And I'm never looking at you the same again after I do it.
And I'm not going to pay for you pay for the audit.
God damn it.
But that's what a cross between a business and that comes. And that's where I have trouble at that intersection.
And I have trouble with what I have to do at that intersection.
And I don't know what to do.
And all the people that I admire and look up to and that have had to go through stuff like this,
they hitting my phone and shit to say, nah, you did the right thing.
Like, sorry, but that's normal joe and i'm like yeah
but did it feel like this and this type of business is unique too but but think about it
right it's like a relationship okay it may not suit you and you may have to part ways but you
still won't have the feeling but that's why this is unique because they're tied in. Yeah. Right? Like, again, if you're a CEO at AT&T.
Right.
You don't got to work with them close every day.
Right?
They're not your friends neither.
And the whole world doesn't get to see it.
You can make a business decision and it not impact your personal life.
If it's your girlfriend, you can make a personal decision.
It doesn't impact your business life.
This podcast was built on the chemistry that the three of y'all had.
You can't have the same success in the podcast because now y'all don't have that chemistry.
Based on something that happened personally is now affecting the business.
Because the business is the pod.
The personal friendships and the laughy,key kiki ha ha ha that people can
see it resonated out to the world yeah but it can't be the same with the business turmoil
see but before you even got there let me just get this out and you can ask away
that weighed on me for a year before this blow up where i'm saying or maybe nine months where i'm
saying damn the tuesdays and fridays don't feel the same for me coming into work.
I'm coming in just on defense, on guard.
But did you express that?
Can't finish my thoughts.
Did you ever express that?
Can't get my shit out.
I thought I did.
I thought I did.
But in that, right?
Still successful.
In that, what happens is it was still successful.
Still successful.
Hey, in that that the fans still loved
every second of it
my friends call me
every side of the answer
J.B.P. Boyd
look at them
and laugh at the jokes
ha ha ha
even with all this messy shit
that's been happening
those episodes did numbers
it's hard to like
it's fucked up
yeah but I was going home
feeling like shit
yeah exactly
I was going home
pouring my heart out
to fucking Corey
I was going home saying and heart out to fucking cory i was going home saying
and i said it on episode here yo if a creative's happiness is altered he's gonna stop he's gonna
leave like i was trying to throw all types of little hail mary boomerang something's in here but didn't quite acceptance is hard sometimes you know when i
have to accept that we've come to this end you know and but i think right because i challenge you
in working on your acceptance but also creating a vision for your future because i think when you don't have that focus on what is to come
it forces you to focus more on the past right so and and i think i know what's coming baby i know
trust the process right like allow yourself to feel what you are feeling okay because you're
human embrace it yeah right so when you lost something nobody if you cared about it right which that's what i got that you guys cared about each other
that's why you went to the point of let's go to therapy but when you care about something okay
it's not that easy to just say bye see you later right so there is a significant loss so there's
grief there all right so allow yourself to gr, but don't sit in that grief forever.
Right. Because if you made that decision, you have to ground yourself. I made that decision,
right. Weigh on the benefits of why you made that decision and focus now on what what's to come.
Joe, I got one question for you. Prior to making that decision or day of making that decision,
making that decision or day of making that decision whatever do you feel i'm only talking about you that you you personally have done everything possible to to keep the ship together
like do you feel you've exhausted all other like i have no choice but to now do this
i have exhausted everything
within my power
anything else
I'm probably powerless over
I'd say 85%
I think I would say I've tried
85% of all things there are
to try
but can I tell you a common thing
right of working with you
if trust is broken right it's not that
easy to repair right and we can't just give like two or three weeks for somebody to get over
not trusting a situation and the question I was going to ask is what do you think right
made them feel like you were lying or being deceitful to them in the first place.
That's the question that if I that's the question that I would want them to answer.
I don't know. I know. That's why I kind of wish that it was all three of you that I met with instead of just me and Rory.
Yeah. Well, the other one wouldn't pop up at all. I still haven't spoken to him alone.
well the other one wouldn't pop up at all I still haven't spoken to him alone
well that also
right because here's the other thing
if it takes two
y'all both have to be equally
vested in this
does the reason that they thought that
matter maybe it was just
maybe it was just
like three people cut me off
maybe it was just the eye test
maybe it was the eye test maybe i'm seeing something and it looked like a lot is going on
maybe it was my miscommunication miscommunication of wait all right we lost a deal but i'm seeing
raises i'm hearing raises i'm hearing i'm hearing i'm hearing shit i'm hearing too much you come in
here we talk for three hours twice a week i I'm hearing things. Maybe it was. And you know what? I will own this.
I'm coming in here and I'm call myself giving it up freely to creators and curators out there.
But everybody don't know how to apply some of this stuff. Right.
So I'm coming in here and I'm giving it up. I'm giving it. I'm talking about how I'm sticking.
I stuck this company up. I did this over here. And if they are feeling like I'm company in here and I'm giving it up. I'm giving it up. I'm talking about how I'm sticking. I stuck this company up.
I did this over here.
And if they are feeling like I'm company, man, maybe you do try some of that shit on him.
Maybe if they've been got rid of the friendship aspect of it, then I could understand why they did this.
Well, I agree.
I agree that there should have been more focus on a business, but I'm still rely on the CEO.
Right. To dictate dictate to execute that
and ensure that it's happening right and that was what I said I said y'all don't have meetings
how y'all don't have meetings you have to have meetings that's how you get the opportunity to
talk about things whatever's your problem the concern and you seek resolutions as a team
and I think that's where a lot of the separation came in is that you made
all the decisions we didn't make any decisions and I think that's the perception that they got
so when that happens it's like well you make any decision you want creatively the same way I do in
every other podcast right deal that I have with people, I want nothing to do with what happens on your shit creatively.
But when it comes to the business side, anything that I'm investing a dime in, I'm going to
have final say.
That's not just here.
That's all of my contracts.
Hey, sometimes it's, listen, when Slaughterhouse, they came up with the voting system, everyday struggle.
They came up with the voting system. What happened was Joe's the only one ever with a problem.
So I was always outvoted. It was two people over here was three people over here in this room.
When I'm when I'm investing and it's two podcast hosts and it's me.
No, I have the final say. So, I I mean what happens if someone's not okay with that
so because that's where the business and friendship thing went a little yes but here's the here's the
the business side of that right just because the person is the CEO is not going to make the other
players not feel as important right right? Like even though we
know you made this decision at the end, those players and their, you know, input is very
necessary, right? To feeling a part of, right? And I think you might've given the perception,
right? And being that, that that was fact, you were the one who handled the finances. So you
are the one that has the final say. However,'t make people buy into it right it doesn't keep people motivated
i thought the success would do that i thought the success would do that nonetheless if cory
keep telling me yo if i know you know you're not a walker you're not a power walker you're not a
jogger but if you just walk straight for the next three years this was gonna
happen and that happened exactly all the way on my walk oh shit he said i would pass this gas station
you know when somebody give you directions oh shit he said this building was right here you get
confidence on the way that's what i thought would be happening but that might be false confidence, right? And this is what I was saying
about, you know,
paying people regular
when the business is failing.
That gives a false perception
that things are good, right?
So, right?
When that's not
really what it is.
She's doing a good job.
See, I thought that
that was me doing a great job.
I'm trying to earn my paycheck here.
That's all I'm just trying to do. No, finish your point because I thought that that was me doing a great job I'm trying to earn my paycheck here that's all I'm just trying to do
no finish your point
because I thought
that that would be
damn somebody's
killing that shit
but now I see
but this is your lesson
learned
right
that it takes more
than just the success
right
of a business
to make it prosper
right
and work
because you now
you're dealing with people
you're not dealing
with just the dollars
these are real people with feelings thoughts you dealing with just the dollars. These are real people
with feelings,
thoughts.
You can't just eliminate that.
Yeah, but they got the dollars.
Because they're successful
just because they got the dollars.
You got the dollars.
You're going to get the fuck out of my face.
what they feeling?
Then what happened?
And now I know
to spend the dollars on therapy.
Hey, I'm spending my dollars
on therapy.
What the fuck are you buying?
You're an asshole.
Well, see,
those are those meetings to say right because every job has
an eap which is an employee assistance program right so when your employees are destroyed or
have some type of mental emotional issues no they have a resource that they can go to
right and as a ceo if you've got some people on your team that may be struggling mentally
emotionally your role is to say hey let me extend this help to you.
Not just, oh, we're going to talk about it and that's it.
See, the other problem it sounds like is because the friendship was so much there.
Like you said, meetings and stuff.
You know, you're thinking we all friends.
Right.
Just kick it.
If you've got a problem, hit me.
We need formality.
You need formality.
There's no formality.
Absolutely.
They couldn't separate
they could not separate
that's what it was
I've been advocating
that's what it sounds like
regular meetings
and scheduled
time off
quarterly
or something like that
I think you need
sincerity too
yeah
because again
even in the meetings
if
if
motherfuckers not gonna
keep it real
the meetings are useless
oh sure sure
you get what I'm saying
we can meet till we blow in the face.
No, no, no.
I'm going to disagree with that.
Let me tell you why.
Because people tell on themselves, right?
Just like he said he saw them coming here and they had a feeling and they looked like
something was bothering them.
You can hold on to that buff for so long.
That's not true.
Everything in the dark going to come to the light.
Yeah.
When it implodes.
And that's what happened when it exploded
but look
now it's too late
it may not be
if you feel
if you start seeing
say we did
say we did
say we did
a monthly or bi-weekly meeting
you would start seeing some tells
yes
we had a conversation
you'll see trends
you'll see themes
yeah
right
either of dissatisfaction
people not showing up on time
people not showing
something right and
then if you're not held accountable because that's what y'all started off with you're not holding
your people accountable they're gonna feel like they can just do whatever they feel like absolutely
and i think that's that was the whole map of what was happening here it was just it was whatever
and when you that ceo of your company it not whatever and you do not want your employees to just be like whatever
and again because
he wasn't looking at people
as employees
looking at them as friends
I don't even think
I think because of the success
you guys are talking
over each other
the success
I think it was the success
that just let you be like
eh
we still winning
right
but it's success
with your friends
it's much
it might be a combination
of both
I was just about to say
like again it's much easier
we all boys we all making money whatever okay cool we good nah i i agree like again back to
the sports analogy if if we're still winning but the team isn't practicing hard nobody says a thing
until we start losing.
When we start losing,
now,
yo,
you're not busting your ass
in practice
like you used to do
when we was 0-14.
You get what I'm saying?
We winning,
everything is lax.
We in chill mode.
We in chill mode
and mad shit is starting to,
your car turning into a hoopty.
You know what I mean?
Like,
that's what I see.
But again,
you're using a sports analogy.
When it's all friends involved,
it's a little bit different.
Like now,
I'm not going to come to you,
yo, this is fucking up.
We're so cool.
Until we start losing.
When we start losing,
I'm going to come to you.
Yo, you're bullshitting.
You would have never dropped that pass.
You could have run that route.
You bullshit because you're not practicing as hard.
And then, Doc, this, you know, I watch a lot of murder mysteries.
A lot.
That's nuts.
Where you going with this one?
Do you know that?
I watch a lot of murder mysteries.
Like, I really don't even watch something unless somebody dies.
Okay.
You have some fascination, some dark fascination.
Well, I like to see people try to figure things out.
That's all it is.
Okay.
It's a brain exercise.
I really enjoy someone losing life in the first three minutes of a show.
And in the next 57 minutes or 41 minutes is spent trying to figure that out.
So I'm like trained to try to figure things out, even when people are not dying in the flick.
So what happened was this has been going on for like two years.
And I've been like, just, it's been like a case study.
And I just been observing and watching and when this last five weeks of something
occurring i went back to just watch all of the game tape and it was just right there it was just
right there smacking me in the face some of the uh some of the lack of friendship uh some of the lack of formality uh and then when i was confused like god always does
he showed me clips of each of them saying as right as i'm sitting in my head saying
well damn why they don't care as much as me and why the passion why they not as passionate about
me and why this and why that and why that i'm seeing clips from both saying i just don't really
care about podcasting and then that like was like a stab.
They didn't mean to do it.
They didn't even know they was doing it,
but it was a stab.
My every fucking day revolves around making sure pod shit is good and it's
killing me.
And their defense,
by the way,
they would usually follow that up with outside of this podcast.
So maybe they're not passionate about the art in general, but they were
passionate, at least from their words,
about this podcast.
And he might have
interpreted it as... Because that's not what that means.
Because that's not what that means.
It's not, yo, I hate rap,
but I like this one rap song.
It's not that.
It happens.
Yeah, and usually that person that likes the one rap song is probably not going to be a reoccurring customer.
So, yeah, you like one rap song, but why are you there?
You there?
You're going to spend your three dollars on a single.
You're going to get it and you're going to go.
So if they tell me, I don't give a fuck about no podcast and nowhere but here.
Right.
don't give a fuck about no podcast and nowhere but here right and i look at some of the behind the scenes turmoil that's been happening with the accusatory and maybe you stealing maybe you
skimming and maybe you are doing something i'm registering that as oh it's not that you love
podcasting at all you just want to reap differently from something you invested so much time in and
that's natural that's natural so
there's nothing wrong there but what if that's not where it is what if that's not where the
creation stand at the moment and i guess that goes back to your earlier point of of not paying
unrealistic pictures for people see i thought i was being superman holding the house up everywhere but i guess no let the leak show yeah yeah yeah yes but what i was gonna
say too right is did you ever ask them you know were they happy with being here and doing this
i think every episode at the beginning when the first no no no i know because that's a
that's a...
That's a formality.
Yo, what's up?
You good?
Somebody could have just got their ass
whipped at home by their husband.
Corey, get up and walk over there
if you got something important to say.
God damn it.
No, look.
Somebody, a woman could got her ass
whipped by her husband at home.
Right?
And she comes to work and be like,
girl, how was your weekend?
Oh, girl, I was good.
That's just passe.
That's just conversation.
Surface.
But, yo. Maybe I never did. Let me call my man on the phone again yo let's go get a drink let's go get a hookah
yo you good you cool great point you're absolutely fucking right no i didn't because they may not
say it because the behavior is definitely gonna show show. Yeah, but it's going to show when.
See, let's pretend this goes differently.
Let's pretend the Spotify deal is so amazing that the re-up happens.
And now there's a however many million dollar bag for everybody.
Then even if you don't want to pod, if're them you're potting you're potting you're
potting still absolutely and then i'm never gonna even think to say hey is this something that you
still want to do absolutely but because that didn't happen and i was like okay wait it's time
to hold the house up hey i did it i said no so i'm gonna hold i'm gonna hold the
house up and that's what happened i was holding the house up looking for the effort from people
that might have been put off by whatever happened the spotify deal or me saying what it is and that's
where the resentment is coming from absolutely i'm holding the house up saying why aren't you
doing anything and they're saying i'm not doing shit fuck that we don't i don't want to podcast
or what they were saying was what they were doing was contributing well what they were saying i'm not doing shit fuck that we don't i don't want to podcast or what they were
saying was what they were doing was contributing well what they were saying what the action said
was no we got a clear answer now i'm not doing anything and you're not getting any effort because
i don't like the situation i'm just angry that that couldn't be just said like that because then I would have said well how do you want to
change it help me out right and then I would have listened because I love you and hopefully we find
a happy medium because we love each other but if that comes out and hurt and I'm hitting you I'm
hitting you every time I'm hitting you then I'm gonna move and every time I'm hitting you, then I'm going to move, and if you're not
hitting me, if you're hitting somebody else, if you're hitting somebody else, like, I have to move my people,
it don't mean I don't love you, because I still love you, brothers, but if y'all don't get what I'm
doing, if y'all don't see the play as it's playing out, I can no longer stop and explain it,
remember I used to say that to you in some of them sessions, yo, I keep feeling like I have to stop and
explain every little thing, and I'm losing time, I'm losing traction, and I'm not, I'm to say that to you in some of them sessions? Yo, I keep feeling like I have to stop and explain every little thing and I'm losing time
and I'm losing traction
and I'm not,
I can't be my best me with,
that was a thing.
And we right back.
Because you were holding up the house
and I was saying,
that's exhausting.
Right?
At my age today, dog,
and that's my revelation,
I don't want to hold up the house.
You shouldn't have to.
It takes a village.
That's part of your team.
And this is what I was saying to you, Joe.
If the team is not working, it is you, who is the boss, that makes these moves.
And I think what made it difficult was that there was friendships there.
And when we have a friendship, we have these other expectations
of how we should,
supposed to move.
Right?
And it doesn't always happen that way.
And that's ended up how it happened.
I think also,
like I've been self-employed for,
man.
Can you,
can you at least sound awake?
Can you at least sound like it's 5 p.m.?
I don't know.
I don't know.
I ain't been an employee.
I have no doubt.
That might be his sexy voice.
You know, like...
Anyway, I'm not trying to be...
Hey, you trying to get free sessions?
Hey!
Anyway, nah, I've been self-employed for 15 years.
And what you're saying that really that
requires joe to relinquish some control and sometimes people would rather hold up the house
and say y'all need your help holding up the house come over here i'm gonna give you some
control you you take that left corner and hold it up and that's your responsibility
and then you take this and hold it up and now it lessens the burden on me but now i was giving out
control and i'm not saying that this is you and you know i don't pander i'm just giving an example
that you might not have been ready to relinquish that control over some shit that you built from
the ground up some motherfuckers don't want to do that yeah but there's different types of control
there's creative control there's you know what i'm saying i'm just saying like you're holding up
the house and you feel it's your burden to bear to hold it up like you just said yo i didn't take the spotify deal
so i feel like i owe some people something so i'm trying to adjust right no i didn't feel like i owed
anybody anything i just thought it was the stand what i'm saying i thought it was a stand-up thing
to do all right so okay cool therapist is telling me that was dead ass the wrong thing to do. Well, no. I was saying it wouldn't be wrong if you were feeling good about it, right?
If I'm doing something for you, I'm not expecting anything too much in return because I did that from my heart.
That's what I keep trying to say and it keeps coming out where I keep telling you things I don't owe y'all shit.
I know.
You got to say things nicer, Joe.
Jesus.
You can't tell somebody, yo, I did this and I don't owe you'all shit. I know. You got to say things nicer, Joe. Please, us. You can't tell somebody, yo, I did this.
I don't owe you shit.
No, no, because I feel, no, me saying I don't owe y'all shit.
I never asked y'all to do this.
I didn't ask for you to do this.
I didn't ask for you to do this.
I didn't ask for you to do this.
What I'm trying to say is what she just said.
What did you just say again?
I know what she just said.
I'm trying to say, yo, I don't owe you shit.
So whatever I'm doing or whatever I have done or whatever I continue to do is because it's coming from the kindness of my heart.
And the same for you. All of the beautiful things that you did during our friendship, they're coming from your heart.
I'm assuming you feel good about it. I'm assuming you assume I feel good about it.
The second that either one of us later on in the relationship says, well, I did that.
And then I did that. I feel like you're only saying it because you feel like I maybe am in
debt to you or owe you something for you doing that. If you did it from the kindness of your
heart, what the fuck are you telling me? I i don't care do what comes from your heart i'ma do what comes from my heart i just don't say it the kindest way
but that's how i feel right but i think you had that expectation that they would see it that way
that you were doing this from your heart and this is where the lines are blurred between business
and personal before let me cut you off. Yes.
I come in here and I do a very loose, casual, state-of-the-room business address three times a year.
Three times a year at the end of every pod, I'll say, hey, this is what we need to focus on.
This is what's happening in the meetings.
This is what the need to focus on. This is what's happening in the meetings. This is what the numbers are dictating.
This is where we are.
And a lot of times I got pushback.
A lot of time that was met with resistance.
And as a creator, when an amazing idea is met with resistance, what we do is we don't try to come up with another idea we try to circumvent whatever the resistance is and because it might be a really great idea that this one
person that don't get it just don't get but during those meetings is it was such an obvious play that
i never nobody ever told me it needed to be explained further and i never assumed it needed to be explained further and I never assumed it needed to be explained further like
if you trust me I know some things that's coming and I can never say right like and and no need to
say but sometimes you have plans for the future that you can't say for whatever the reason is
so it may look like we down it may look like that's why i love when my when my
frenemies and my enemies when it appears that we down and they just start sending dots start
sending shots and i'm like oh y'all falling for the y'all falling for that shit is all the way up
but if somebody don't feel that i can't make them feel it i felt like the second year of our spotify
deal i was losing the locker room but not because the friendship was jeopardized, but because, all right, you see, we're not getting the greatest negotiation.
We might not be here. I know you put a lot of time in. This is our fifth year. Going to have to find another way. See, that don't deter me.
me that's why i can come and walk in any negotiation uh negotiation and put my dick on the table you telling me no or it's not working out or it falls through that don't
deter me the plan is the plan like we gonna get there but i can't make somebody else have faith
in that and i don't know if i'm able to today either i think that speaks to the lack of
experience in this field or related fields to some degree i don't think that they've ever you know you always criticize them i can't wait till
the day you put out an album yeah and it was a reason i was saying that right because it's so
tough to sell one thing to somebody right one thing i mean we get on we get on here and and
if you haven't had that experience then you could just find yourself talking shit oh man this guy only sold
45,000 records
oh man this guy only sold
50,000 records and it's like dog
do you know how difficult it is to sell
one of anything
I would say things like that I would say things like
yo I can't wait till you have kids
you used to say that to me
all the time I thought about
that the other day.
It would be certain, my stances and my positions on certain things,
and you would always be like,
God, I can't wait till you have kids.
Because that's what it means when you say it to certain responses.
You'll see it then.
Because then it's time to get out of your own thinking.
That's when you're not looking at it from only your lens when you got kids
you view things a different way so i mean i was saying shit like that when to quote
savon and alex from their podcast when you've gotten it out of the mud you view it a little
differently when you've tried to get it out the mud you know when you get it from out the mud
you look at it a whole lot different. Or if you've tried.
Like, you failed.
That part is the part, Ish.
That part is the part.
When you try and you fail.
The failures make the success.
If you try on your first go, you don't get the lessons.
Right.
But to the people that have not experienced.
When you bust your ass 17 times.
But to the people that haven't experienced that, Ish.
They don't have any lessons.
And they don't know that the failures equate to something and that was part of my strong resentment with
maul like i can see that there's some resentment here from the past from when neither one of us
were probably our greatest selves you can't keep talking to me like that today today things are a
little different like you can't you can't hold me to that i forgot what
we were just saying but it was applied what were we talking about we're talking about getting out
the month oh yeah getting out the month yo so if you've never done that then you might just look
at the failures like failures i'm sitting here looking at it like yo every single time that i
got fucked i needed to get fucked for the today. Right. The lawyers fucking me. The labels fucking me.
The TV fucking me.
Fucking digital fucking me.
The streamers fucking me.
All of the times I got fucked lead me to here knowing how to not get fucked.
Today, when you put the contract in front of me, I'm going to refute some things.
When I got the Spotify contract, the thing that at the end of it all,
I was going to sign it.
Marlon Roy was signed.
I was signed.
A-Buy was signed.
The money was good.
Deal points agreed to.
And all the way at the end, the shit was like, yeah,
but we can fire you for whatever the fuck we want to fire you.
We can fire you at any,
if you do something that has the company looking crazy, we can fire you.
And it made sense.
I said, well, I seen that one before, buddy.
I said, no, no, no, no, no, no.
I seen that one.
I never plotted that one.
So I said, wait.
Well, the lawyer, not me.
The lawyer said, well, what are these fireable offenses?
They need to be distinguishable.
You mean if he gets arrested, the charge is this, company's looking crazy, but not just because the company says X, Y, Z, and now blah, blah, blah, blah, blah.
You said bitch.
You said bitch on the air, so I'm going to fire you.
And that's what they do to black people.
That's why the shock jock for blacks and shock jock for whites is different.
Black shock jocks, you don't have that rope.
They got all types of language and clauses
in your contract now back to familiarity with clauses had i not seen that one before or had
a lawyer that saw it before i maybe would have agreed or he would have said what are the fireable
offenses and we would have put them on paper and that would have been the end but because i had
some representation that was familiar and because i might have been familiar, we was like, well, no, if you fire him, arrested or no arrest, you got to pay him X amount of dollars.
And it was a lot of money.
It was so much money toward the end of the contract.
I wanted to get fired.
Please.
Y'all didn't see it?
Yeah.
It was like 13 episodes left. I think he made mention of it.
There was like 13 episodes left.
I was trying my best for them to fire us, but they wouldn't.
At that juncture, we would have made more money if they fired us.
But that's what I mean.
Like if there was something in this contract that because they were inexperienced with,
and that's not a knock.
That's what contracts are for.
If you're with a friend
or someone that used to be a friend,
there's no better time
than to bring it up now.
Like normally,
we got to deal with a company
where they don't really give a fuck about us.
But you're kicking it with your friend,
there's nothing here to get angry about
to the point of all of this hurt and resentment
and wanting to sabotage things.
And that's why I called you. yeah i did the right thing and yeah well i didn't handle it the best
the decision that was made was the correct one but i still don't really know what to do with
the betrayal aspect of it on both sides i feel betrayed i am certain that they feel betrayed and with that comes a lot of shit and
I don't know even as the business is fine even though I stand firm in my decision because I
thought about it long nights and days that betrayal that's the part that hurts because
like you say you I never saw this this is God reminding me that he is in charge
and whatever I see don't mean that that's what's about to be right well I think along with learning
the lessons you also have to narrate the story a little differently to yourself right because
if you say it's betrayal that's exactly what it's going to be that's exactly how it's going to feel words have power right absolutely so i think saying it a little different right that one it might have been
of them not knowing miscommunication when they just don't know just like knowledge yeah like
and that is powerful right and i don't think that they realized how powerful if they would have been informed or kept themselves
informed how that could
have made them feel you know
more invested in this
but
you can't keep narrating the story
as betrayal right
you do have to now see
that I have to. Is that a story or a feeling?
So
how we say it to ourselves
is going to dictate how it's going to make you feel.
Right? So when you're angry about something,
that person did this to me.
Now I feel like this.
Okay? So if I say it a little different,
okay, they didn't mean it.
Their intention wasn't to hurt me
or to make me feel angry.
Well, that's what, before you got in here, I was saying
now,'d 100 percent
owe rory if not both of them an apology because i've expressed myself when hurt was present i was
expressing myself when that betrayal was prevalent in me and that ain't how i want to represent
myself especially the people that i love once loved got history with got a foundation with
i don't see that's the difference between probably me and them i don't care what happens with the
business side of things like we can we can get the friendship together later a year from now
two years from now but if that's cool then cool this this is numbers and corporate and money and
people's lives and well livelihoods and well-being. That's cool.
But I didn't feel good about how I communicated when that when that betrayal was present.
That's it.
Absolutely.
So I am going to make that my business.
Just so you know.
To work on, right?
No, to apologize.
Okay.
I think that's commendable, right?
Joe, this is just, of course, me and Ish
don't know all the sides of everything, but
I keep hearing the word betrayal.
I keep hearing the word betrayal.
You do keep hearing that word?
I'm asking. Yes.
From you. You've been saying betrayal. Oh, I've said that
a lot. Today. Right now.
Right now.
What I'm saying is, is it possible
that they might feel some form of Is it possible that they might feel some form of
betrayal
but I'm saying
they could feel you
I said on both parts
I said betrayal on my side and I'm sure there's someone
on their side too I said that
but I
have a question
for you Joe how will you move forward with people who are not as informed as you are?
I don't want to talk to those people.
Well, I think that's a good standard, but how will you determine that?
By talking to them.
Well, again, you should have been letting Ian have the discussions about this.
Or someone. Let's not say Ian. Okay, whatever yeah okay whatever someone it should be in but they don't trust
in maybe it should have been somebody well that's that sounds like a whole issue too like there's
what relationship can thrive without trust on any front that's the thing that's the problem
so you cannot trust me in some areas i'm not mad at that right i ain't mad at that
i have friends where i know i used used to trust you on Monopoly.
I don't trust you with rugs.
At all.
I have had
friends where we have been
out and I know if a scuffle
breaks out, I don't think
that friend is helping.
Now, some men have an issue with that.
Not me. It's important to know
which one of your friends is for whatever
situations. Me and Corey joke
around all the time. My driver that I
employ, he's the best driver
in the world, unless someone's
shooting at me.
If someone
is shooting at me,
I'm probably going to lose my life
because my driver doesn't move with urgency.
And Corey's with me every day saying,
yo, man, I pray you never get into a bad spot
because your driver, man,
if a shootout, if niggas ever got the drop on you,
and it takes me to say that.
Wait, Corey's got some trouble too.
Did you need to put that in your contract though
you know maybe shot at so you might have to but this is when i have to say to cory dog
fam i'm not living my life in a manner that i think is conducive we're getting shot at yeah
it still might happen i'm from the street i know i know that but i'm not living my life that way. So I appreciate the driver that does the speed limit,
that moves a little slow.
Nah, but when you're outside the strip club,
when you're outside the strip club and jokers know you in there
and they get to drop, so got to be right there.
You think I've never played that out, fam?
If they got to drop on me in the strip club,
I'm going to have a long night to the road.
I'm going to have a long night to the to the road i'm gonna have a long night getting out so i was gonna have to just make the call that said yo something they got him they got him i was outside i was right at the door with the car i couldn't
drive it in i forgot the point i was making Well, I was asking about how you would, you know, approach someone who may not be as knowledgeable.
You know, about...
I don't know, though.
But, I mean, that's good for you to think about.
You need a buffer.
Right?
I need to hire a general manager or somebody.
That helps you hash out some of that stuff.
Because I agree, you know, when it it's about business you don't have too
much time for the personal you don't right because you got to focus on that business so you know I
think you know having someone who you trust right um that can help oversee and manage and and filter
anything to you that may be of concern but the other point i wanted to make too about trust right when people
say oh i don't trust it's not necessarily i don't trust you is i don't trust myself if you were to
betray me that makes sense yeah right i know it's okay i could okay're flirting so when someone betrays right when somebody betrays you right
you know it's a devastation I'm hurt right um and I may not know how to maneuver now because you
betrayed me or hurt me and this is why I say it's very crucial to learn these lessons so that
you know how to manage yourself moving forward one you, I'm not going to talk to those people.
That's a standard now that he's going to set.
I need whoever I'm going to be working with to have some level of education when it comes to this business.
Oh, yeah.
Yes.
You know.
Or good representation.
Well, no. Not at all.
Hey, these two niggas don't even know to talk in a microphone.
But it's fine.
But you're right.
I'm trying to say this.
We're getting there, though.
Have a meeting to discuss that, okay?
This is the mic.
Everything I think, I agree with her, right?
No, I've noticed for the last hour and change.
But go ahead.
Now get your ear off.
I'm listening.
Nah, this business is really, really, really unique.
It is.
And more unique than others because to get what you guys had, you have to damn near befriend the people.
If you had two jokers up here that didn't know you, this shit would be a dud.
Yeah, this doesn't work the same way.
It's a dud.
Everyday Struggle wasn't a dud.
You didn't know that.
Yeah.
There's been instances where it has not been a dud.
Look, Everyday Struggle wasn't this one, in my opinion. yeah there's been there's been instances where it has not been a dud yeah look everyday struggle
wasn't this
one
in my opinion
and then number two
over a period of time
he built up
a camaraderie
with at
yeah
they bounced off
of one another right
they did what they did
so
everyday struggle
in the beginning
was a smash
day one based on based beginning was a smash day one based on
based it was a snap based on the chemistry the numbers the content the reaction impact it was
a smash from day one because you got up there and started being an asshole no no let me help you i
see the point that you're trying to make that's what happened but there are there's a select
group of people that really do this. Yeah. They really do this.
And when I sit down with that person, because I really do this, we're going to always be magic.
That could be Ack.
That could be Charlemagne.
That could be anybody I've sat down with that really does this.
We don't have to prep.
Right.
We don't have to talk.
It's natural.
That's natural. we can get it done
so act was one of those people so your point stands but not out it's five percent that it
don't stand with you can sit with me and wendy williams gonna go not talk for years and sit down
and it'd be some magic every day y'all can sustain that every day uh i don't know i don't know an interview is different than coming
up here with somebody on a because you're pulling from your life to entertain the people so if you
didn't have a 15 year friendship with mall the stuff that you're pulling from is non-existent
right so when you get those dead spaces when we don't really have no current events going on and
you need to pull from the person that you know.
But if you're sitting there with the person that does this,
y'all pulling from the same sandbox.
You don't have to necessarily pull from each other.
If y'all have commonality.
No, we don't.
We don't have to have commonality at all.
I don't think that's sustainable.
Me personally, I don't know.
This is not my area either. I don't think that's sustainable.
You can go for three episodes.
Maybe you can go for four.
Let me tell you
that there are people
out there working together
professionally right now that don't like
each other. That they
are so great at
their jobs, respectively.
You wouldn't know.
You can't fire me. No, you just wouldn't know.
They both in there cooking for three, four, five hours,
and then that's it.
Give me an example here.
I won't name names.
I'm not naming names.
Give me an arena.
In this arena?
In media?
In media.
Podcasting.
Let's say Charles Barkley and Kenny Smith didn't get along.
They might not.
We don't know.
I'll give you a good example.
That's an easier transition than this.
Because we're talking basketball.
We both have a commonality.
We both know the game of basketball.
We both play the game of basketball.
We both are talking about games that are going on every single day.
And this, sitting in this chair, and I've only been here for two months, this comes from somewhere else.
I don't think you could sit here with a complete two
complete strangers and get the results that you got with rory and more i don't think me personally
i don't think so uh not to uh professionals not art not artistically not not creatively
and that's where the struggle and that but that's where the struggle comes from
because you probably could because if there were two complete strangers sitting here, right?
Joe's amazing at this.
Then all of those.
I'm going to get y'all finished.
No, you're amazing at this, right?
You're amazing at this.
And you can pull, right, from people.
I can pull from strangers, dude.
You could.
No, you could.
I've seen it.
You can.
You can.
I'm saying I believe you.
You can do it.
I don't know if it's sustainable. But this is what i'm saying to that got you um maybe not maybe it's not 50 but those issues that i was
having with friends about the barriers and boundaries and respect may not exist with strangers so much so that it's able to to make
the back end of things run exactly the way it is supposed to so that's why i said friendship
and the business intersect maybe as a podcast in this business that you wouldn't have had if you
was the ceo at&t i said that in the beginning like you wouldn't have ran into those issues
because you're not friends with them.
The controller, you're not his friend.
It's his business. If you're not performing,
you got to go.
You're not thinking about his personal situation. Maybe it's kids and shit,
but if you're not performing, it's his business.
Bottom line, it's effective.
See, but that's more what I mean about everybody running around saying
they want to be a boss, want to be an owner, want to be a boss,
want to be an owner. It's not easy want to be an owner it's not easy when i said that i never envisioned a world where i would have to
get rid of someone that i love that just didn't pop into my brain i maybe would have had a different
decision right if i thought about that listen when my dogs died brooklyn and harlem rest in peace y'all know i love y'all i'm never
getting a dog again really i'm not dealing with the pain that comes with having dogs for 16 17 18
years and then the same year they both just disappear i'm not the owner that's going to get
i'm not i'm not going to get another dog to substitute the dog i'm that's owner that's going to get... You want seven? I thought you wanted seven. I'm not going to get another dog to substitute the dog.
That's not who I am.
And that is just another way of avoiding reality of life.
That's not substitution though.
Right?
Because the reality of life is things do not last forever.
Yeah.
Okay?
And you always have to put yourself in a place to evolve and be prepared to evolve.
Yeah.
Prepare to change.
Right?
So you're right.
It might not sustain for six years.
But that's what
he could do too and reinvent himself in the third year so two new dudes but that's like saying you'll
never have another girlfriend because you went through hardy no there you go no it's not no it's
not the same that's not the same that's not the same at all so you're not gonna get it's not
similar at all it is after you broke up i agree i think it's similar now tell me the 17 year
relationship you've had with any girl i I had a nine-year one.
I'm asking parts of the question.
I haven't had a 17-year one.
I had a nine-year one, though.
I had a seven-year relationship with a girl.
And when it was over, I was devastated.
I had a three-year, four-year one.
And when it was over, I was devastated.
I'm in a seven-year one.
I mean devastated.
Like, to a point where mentally and emotionally, I couldn't function.
I was devastated that bad.
It's not the same.
It's not the same at all.
A loss is a loss.
Yes, it is.
A loss is a loss.
Yeah, but you don't,
you don't,
yes, a loss is a loss, dog,
but you don't have to walk,
you don't have to walk
right into losses that way.
You don't have to walk,
I don't have to go and,
I don't have to rush
to go get another dog
to substitute the loss
that I just encountered
when that too will be a loss.
I think you'll get a dog eventually.
But I think the acknowledgement, but I think the acknowledgement is that he-
I like the freedom.
Okay, that's a different conversation.
I don't have-
Oh, you like the freedom?
It's not.
That's part of-
You lost your dogs.
You put in a bid for 16, 17, 18 years,
and now you don't have the responsibility
that comes with your dogs or children.
Right.
So now you can vacay without the dog sitter.
Now you don't.
There's things you can do.
So I put 20
years in 25 years into my life of pets maybe more if i'm counting raven all of raven's life yeah
like i did that already they died i cried got the videos on my phone worst day ever yes i could go
get more dogs but you you could see you could see the But you could see the end.
You could see the end.
So I mean now, not to say,
not to go back to your relationship example,
but working with friends,
I could see me being jaded from that now.
I could see me considering some things
that I didn't consider before.
And I said that when you were outside, right?
I said, I think that long-term with Ice and I,
you would treat the situation totally, maybe not totally
different, but you would definitely do some different
things than you did with
Rory and Maul. I said that, right? When he was
outside. Like, yo, you would
I would naturally
because I've learned, I would
like to think I've learned something from what just happened, but two
we communicate
differently. We do. You and I
communicate different. You are my favorite fight friend
I don't fight with no other friend
the way that
the way that I fight with him
him and I are the most
opinionated
argumentative
mind exercise
playing mind game guy
like we'll fight it up
they just fought for 30 minutes
about Monopoly before
no we did not
that was dumb
but you would do the same thing
but listen
he likes mental stimulation.
Him and I fight about everything.
Him and I have fallen out for years upon years.
And we made our way back to each other.
And we communicate differently.
Ice and I have gone through a bunch of shit.
We communicate differently.
And I guess that's what's highlighted here.
Rory and I were friends.
And Maul and I were friends.
But that friendship didn't have the communication
infrastructure that it needed to have it was three people that maybe did not know how to
communicate at all i agree to see that yeah i can see that yeah i can see how that's a
and i also can see you not having the motivation to do it either if they're not willing to meet you
halfway. Oh yeah.
That's true.
The root of the fucking problem.
And this is what I say.
You're not going to make any movement unless
everybody's on board.
You can't be the only one moving
and then this person is stagnated.
You're not going to get the progress
out of it.
But I think looking at that is another benefit. Right.
To why you had to make the decision. And I think if you ride on all the benefits of you making the decision, it'll help lessen the pain from the betrayal.
Right. Because it's not going to look as betrayal
it'll shift to I'm making a decision as a CEO that's the decision I made right that's the
decision that I made for weeks I tried to get I felt like there was so many solutions and
fixes that it would be bound to land on one like i get this together with them we good uh i get
this together with them now that's two different pods that's good hey we all know each other we
all cool maybe we do one big hybrid to get that didn't work like for me there were so many
solutions it couldn't land on a on a bed and somehow God fucking popped in again. God popped right in again with,
I'm not so fast,
buddy,
but you know what?
Know what I love about that doc?
Anytime I've evolved in life,
God forced me to,
I wasn't ready to,
I couldn't see it.
I couldn't feel it.
I was trying to do something else.
And then he stripped some options away.
Just like now. I didn't, I didn't really want want to pod without i don't want to pod without these guys let me go do another job i can go get some other shit but slow down buddy maybe you can do it alone
i might even said that to rory a few years ago when we was beefing i was like i think the evolution
of the pod worries me by myself not me and some more like I have to grow
to a place where I got this everybody moved dolo that's it so I don't know my point was that I was
getting that but I think another point too right is yes that was for the business part but for the
personal part right you know your growth in this is, you know, learning, you know, where it went to the left and really making amends with yourself, you know, of, okay, I did this because, you know.
Because I want everybody to be rich.
Right, which I think was a great intention.
I got to make amends about that, right?
Absolutely.
Right?
Because... I hate her
What's wrong?
What did I say?
I said something wrong?
No
Oh I said something all the way right
Right
But you gotta make amends
Absolutely
And I think it was a commendable thing to do
And I don't
I don't say stop doing that
Because that's who you are
Because of this situation
Just now be mindful
Right
That everybody may not be able to play that position.
Okay?
And we got to be okay with people not fitting the role.
You know, they may be better off doing something else.
You know, and that's something that we...
Did you just start playing the music?
Oh, that's the end of the broadcast?
No, no, no, no, no, no. You're good, you're good. No, no, no. No, you cook it, you cook it, that's the end of the broadcast? No, no, no, no, no, no.
You good, you good.
That's it.
No, no.
That's the end of you talking.
That's it.
Delete.
No, no, no, no.
No, Fisher Boyd, we're here.
We got it low in the background.
This is our sage.
This is our sage.
Oh, okay.
But I was telling him to, you know, make amends, right, with himself, you you know and set some standards right be very clear on those
standards for yourself because when you don't have that you're not feeling certain and sure
of how you're going to move forward this is why you're like i don't want to meet with no friends
no more at all but that may not necessarily be true because you may can do it with friends
you just have to approach it a little differently you know so that's real shit same same with dogs
no absolutely but i'm gonna go to the dog thing right because i think that is the personal part
you have to protect yourself if someone is no longer pouring into you right you have to be okay
with i gotta go get my water somewhere else, you know?
Because it's no longer here.
And sometimes that's hard to do
because our expectation is,
you were supposed to pour into this cup.
I wanted you to pour into this cup and you didn't.
That was me.
I know, I know.
And I thought that was a good thing though.
I thought that was a great thing, right?
But they may not have been ready for what you wanted to offer you know um and sometimes and and i i was wondering too were they
maybe fearful of the success because that's also a baseline for people sabotaging things is when
they they don't see that they can be that successful. I've wondered that myself.
Maybe not the success specifically, but just, do they even want to do this anymore?
Yeah, because it was a sabotage.
The sabotage.
Correct.
And especially if you know that I'm doing something that's triggering the boss or whatever,
I'm not going to keep doing that unless I want to get fired.
Right.
That's something that's been hard for me to kind of comprehend.
Me too. Maybe they didn't want to do it anymore, man. right that's something that's been hard for me to kind of comprehend is maybe they just
me too
maybe they didn't
want to do it anymore
man like
and didn't know
how to say it
and didn't know
how to say it
or didn't even know
maybe themselves
that they didn't
want to do it anymore
yeah that's true
yeah
that's true
but that's a question
for them
because you know
it's not easy
to part ways
like even when
it's the end
of the relationship
it's still awkward
like I don't want
to be with you
but I'm still got these feelings.
You know, I'm still unsure.
Right.
You know, so you bounce back and forth on that.
But ultimately, you have to say with yourself, what is going to be the best decision for me?
Right.
So that I can feel good.
And that's what I commended about you.
You were able to acknowledge, I was triggered.
This is triggering me.
Okay. Because most people can't take that that's triggering me. to acknowledge, I was triggered. This is triggering me. Okay?
Because most people can't take that that's triggering me.
No, it was killing me.
It was killing me.
It was heavy.
And they didn't, well, let me not say they didn't because they're not here.
It didn't feel like they cared.
Like, I could tell I wasn't being poured into anymore.
Like, I'm getting killed.
I am getting killed online for it looking like I just treat my friends like shit.
And I laugh at it because, because like you could feel friend energy
like i wasn't feeling loved but are you also sure about what you did towards the friendship
wait hold up before you get to that okay did i need to feel loved on as the boss absolutely
you have to know people care see that's where i struggle i just think it's nobody's job to
care about me because i know i run the shit yeah but part of you running it is them being vested
and if they're not vested because they don't care you know that's your problem you know so
yeah all right what question were you asking oh dang I forgot you forgot hey
it's fine I'm playing outstanding it was a heavy session
it felt good
it felt good to me
I don't know how
I guess you guys
maybe are
traumatized but
I feel
I mean it's heavy
for me still
it's heavy for me still
but this
because I love those guys
this felt good
I understand why
people do this now
I've never been to a therapist
she helps me
I can see why
she helps me I need to see why. She helps me.
I need to run my thinking.
I need to run my thinking by her because it's off.
It's off.
But you know what?
You have all the tools.
This is what I tell people.
Even in therapy, you have all the tools.
It's just sometimes when we're portrayed, violated,
slighted in some way, it gets blurred.
And this is the art of therapy
talking it out
so you can rationalize
so you can
identify
okay
what could I have done differently
how could I think differently
about this situation
so
it's not sitting so heavy
and you know
this is what I say too
it's a process
you also might have the tools
but not know what tools
needed for this job
absolutely absolutely and and you definitely have to arm yourself with more tools to help you keep
emotionally balanced especially when you're triggered right that that is easily triggered
easily triggered yes it wasn't an easy trigger i was home that. That's why nobody sees how I cry.
Except for when you posted
on the internet a couple times. Really, did I?
You posted yourself crying?
I never knew that.
I think it was when Prince died in his
defense. I cry a lot. Oh yeah, I definitely posted that.
When Prince died?
When Prince died, me and my mom.
We went to see Purple Rain.
Aw, I guess. There was a day last year. We couldn't get there split. We went to see Purple Rain. Oh, God.
There's a couple times where you cry on the internet.
I cry a lot.
Yeah, it's cool.
I cry a lot.
I think that's good that you cry.
I know.
Do you other men cry?
Yes.
I need to know this.
Do y'all cry?
Look at this one right here.
It's your cry.
It's definitely your cry.
No, of course.
Nobody got no cry.
I haven't cried in a minute.
Of course I cry.
In a minute,
you just cried in the court,
you know?
Get it. That's fucked up.
He walked out with his head high up.
Not no crying at all.
But I think crying is healthy.
You know, that's a form of release.
You know?
And that you're in touch with your feelings.
You know what else I learned through this though, Doc?
What?
And you can try to refute it.
Actually, don't.
I'm not.
I'll try.
Because people don't see how I cry.
And how I feel.
And how I hurt.
And because I'm brash.
Don't do that scream, man.
And because I'm brash and loud and could come off away.
I think people just assume
I don't feel anything.
Possibly.
That's the image you give off.
That's right.
Because that's the tough exterior.
I don't feel for fucking you.
I just don't feel as much
as you loser feeling ass niggas out there.
But...
You wonder why they feel that way.
You felt it when your dog died.
This is why you feel these feelings
by yelling.
You fucking losers.
You be sad and start yelling. This is the one thing I told... Shut is by yelling You fucking losers You be sad
I'm feeling yelling
This is the one thing I told
Shut up
I told Joe
I told Joe
You're sarcastic Joe
And I said
Sarcasm
Oh yeah tell what you said
Yes
I said sarcasm
Is really anger
It's unresolved anger
Shut up
No
Never
Hey
Anger to eat
No I get angry today That's what you said Sarcasm is anger anger shut up no anger to eat no
I get angry
to that
that's what she
said sarcasm
is anger
yes
no it's
I'm gonna be
sarcastic to a
stranger
google it
google it
I disagree
with that
you can buy
anything on google
you know
I was on your
team till that
one
I'll go to
Webster
go anywhere
sarcasm is
look look he's
looking it up
you'll be back
on her team
look at that
is it a thinly
veiled attempt to disguise feelings of anger fear or hurt what if you just like that style of
communication yeah i still disagree with that yeah it's not always that it's not always sarcasm
but i thought him being sarcastic
was him hiding
he was hurt.
Oh, no, that's true.
In that moment, yes.
Yes, you got it.
You got it.
I don't think there's enough
feelings
as to what sarcasm
can represent.
It can represent a lot more
than those three things.
I agree with you.
You are right for me.
I'm just giving the clinical
approach to it.
For me,
this is applicable here.
In that instance.
My last part
Some of the sarcasm
Some of the
And it even sounded like angry sarcasm
I ended with
Aurora you're a fucking sack of shit
And I don't
I don't
Yeah
And that was one of the things
I was like you cannot say that
At the end
But it's the end
I would say to his face
But I don't mean
But I don't mean it's right
But I don't mean it
I don't think he's a
He's not a measly sack of shit I don't mean that I know you mean and I don't think he's not a measly sack of shit
I don't mean that
I know you mean
but in that moment
I was hurt
I was angered
hurt people
it was sarcastic
like are you
fucking piece of
hurt people
and that's what
I wanted Joe
to recognize
you were hurting
I recognize it
that's why I had to
fire people
hurt people
were trying to hurt me
are you talking over me Joe
no I'm not
oh okay
yeah she's trying to hurt me. Are you talking over me, Joe? No, I'm not. Okay.
Yeah.
She's trying to do it.
Yeah.
Yeah, nigga.
Oh, this is great.
We're both Virgos.
We're both Virgos.
That's why.
So here we go.
But yes, hurt people hurt people. She be having it.
And this is what you have to recognize when you are hurt.
Right?
And I said, Rory can't do anything about your hurt.
You have to do that.
Y'all can talk. You can hash it out. No, no, no. That's not true. His hurt was hurting me. can't do anything about your hurt you have to do that y'all could talk you could hash it out no no that's not true his hurt was hurting me nigga go fix your hurt
then i'm over here yeah okay yes stumped you yes stumped the stumper but but we're talking about
you because i have you here right and we're talking about you and your feelings right and
when you're feeling heavy what do you do with those feelings?
How do you resolve those feelings?
Call my mom.
That could be one.
Right?
And you.
But I think within yourself.
I call women.
I call my girl.
Mad women.
Mad women.
I call all the women for men and their stupid shit.
Because you need some nurturing, though, I think, in that sense.
I call my mom.
Which a lot of men don't really like to admit to,
but they need that nurturing from women sometimes,
especially when they're hurting.
I'm rolling.
We with you.
I'm with you on that one.
Yeah.
We with you.
We stand with you, Doc.
Doc, I appreciate you.
You know what?
After the intercession, guys, Maul, Rory, if you guys are listening, I don't think I appreciate you. You know what? After the intercession,
guys,
Maul, Rory,
if you guys are listening,
I don't think I said nothing nasty to Maul, right?
The internet just keeps
saying I did.
They said I called him homeless.
I didn't call him Maul.
Internet's fucked.
I didn't say that, Doc.
I think academics
called him homeless.
But I didn't say that.
Wow.
And they also misinterpreted
me saying that
academics had some valid points
in his reaction video
as me, like,
standing up for him. He was saying a lot of foul foul shit but some of his business points were on point so let me clarify
that rory if you're listening out there i love you buddy and i apologize yes i'm still with my
thinking uh but yes some of that shit didn't have to be said that way. It was hurt. It was pain coming out in real time on a public platform.
And,
and in my head,
they laughed at me when I said this,
but in my head,
I want to be classier than that.
Like,
I don't want to do that.
I never want my words or actions to really hurt people I love,
but I also don't want them trying to hurt me either.
Cause I hurt back.
See,
I need more therapy.
I need more therapy. You're not supposed to say i hurt back it's always been it that's always been your from your music
well at some point it has to change absolutely it has to change at some point
listen when i'm 51 it ain't gonna be like that okay i ain't gonna be screaming on that 51 well maybe let me tell you this though right you can never get any relief causing anybody else pain zero
none it's a childish yo i'm so sick of your flirt what'd you say i mean what'd you say
no it's a childish mechanism what she said that It is, dog. That is a childish mechanism.
Listen to your OGs, man.
So as you mature, as you mature towards 51, there you go.
As you mature towards 51, you look at approaching things differently now.
I'm going to approach things differently.
I am.
Soon, too.
Okay.
Soon.
47.
What? I plan on changing my ways. I'm. Soon, too. Okay. Soon. 47. What?
I plan on changing my ways.
I'm just procrastinating.
I put all this shit
in rap songs, man.
That's what I'm telling you.
I heard everything before.
15 years ago.
It's a shame
that Doc ain't heard
some of my songs
because then she would know
I could therapy for somebody.
I could give somebody
some therapy.
Of course.
Anybody I say,
they're like,
oh yeah,
I work with Joe.
They're like, yeah, he needs therapy.
Wait, for real?
Get out of here.
Yeah, he's a tough cookie.
You got to.
I had no idea you were in the streets breaking all of our therapist confidentiality.
Wow.
Whoa.
Whoa.
Are you telling people I work with Joe
First of all
Just like that
Joe becomes a dick
Yet again
I don't know if that helps her though
Telling people she represents me
They think I'm psycho
No but they think she's qualified
No they think
You can deal with you
Yeah
I'm working with Hannibal Lecter
Oh I'm her billboard
Yeah
If they could get Joe,
if she could get Joe to be nicer.
You see how calm he is now?
What?
He looks nicer, but a little bit.
But wait, the funny part about that is,
don't you think I'm nice?
You are nice.
I just think you have a tough shell.
She never beef with you.
That's true.
Right.
That is true.
But that's men.
Because he has been hurt.
That's men.
That's not men. What's wrong? You said that's not you? That's not men. Because he has been hurt. That's men. That's not men.
What's wrong?
You said that's not you?
That's not men.
Oh.
No, he said that's men.
No, no, no.
I didn't say that's men.
He said that.
He did.
That's not men.
I'm a tough shell.
All right.
Like you said, you say he's nice because.
I'm coming out there.
Maybe we don't know the side.
I'm coming out the tough shell.
I'm coming out the shell.
I'm coming out of the shell.
Shout out to flower lotus queen
flower queen lotus
whatever her name is
that's my boo right there
I'm coming out the shell
I'm coming out of the shell
and I will be nicer to people
when I'm hurt
and when that looks like
they're hurting me
and betraying me
and flushing my
multi-million dollar business
down the toilet
even after I
even after I repeatedly said
yo you're losing us
millions of dollars. Why don't you stop?
Mad people got to eat. But hey,
I'll be nice.
Yo, how you apologize and then
go right back to shooting?
The sarcasm. He's still angry. He still
hurts.
Yo,
she has to get the fart out of you.
I'm fired. Okay, I'm fired okay I'm sorry
no no
you're the third person
fired
mad people are fired
all you people
telling me about myself
get the fuck out
no I get it
I get it
I get it
I get it
I get it
I'm cocking out
standing back
I cocking out
oh yeah
this was awesome though
thank you for inviting me,
by the way.
This was really fun.
This was great.
Yes, yes.
Yeah, definitely.
Have you been to therapy before?
No.
Dish?
I want to go to therapy.
I've said that a couple times.
Joe, give him my number.
There you go.
More clients.
You just pick up my number.
I'll give I your number.
Come on now.
How many people
you got watching your podcast?
The funny shit is,
I'll give I your number.
I send all the people
That be crazy
Right to her
Here's the thing though
And don't take this
Anyway please
I feel
I would like
My therapist
To be a black man
That's good
Shut up
No listen
I like that though
I'm serious
You can have preferences
Definitely
Definitely
Because mentorship
Might be needed
Right
And you may need to have
Somebody who identifies
Just like you
Absolutely
That was it
Absolutely
I didn't take any offense to that
Thank you
But I'ma tell you
I could do better
Hey
Yeah
We stand for
Black queens here
Bitch
I ain't ask you about
No black therapist
Man With all this Woman here Nigga Bitch I ain't ask you about no black therapist Man
With all this woman here
Nigga
I ain't satisfied
No doc you did a great job
Thank you for coming
Especially on short notice
Boy was I a wreck
I needed this
I needed to hear
I needed to listen
Absolutely
I tell you to keep going on your journey You know Just soothe yourself It was our wreck. I needed this. I needed to hear. I needed to listen. Absolutely.
I would tell you to keep going on your journey.
You know?
Just soothe yourself.
When we're hurting, just remember to do things that make you feel good.
Right?
Extra.
And that's okay.
What if murder makes you feel good?
That doesn't have harsh consequences.
Okay?
Okay.
There we go.
Got it. Got it, guys.
Are you going to call rory for a
session if he would if he would like one but but i usually i usually work with people who want
the therapy right i don't want to trust you you think he's gonna trust your therapist
yeah oh okay rory's seen her a bunch of times he trusts her he trusts her Definitely You see Ish do you need therapy as well
Yes
Look at her
Anybody out there
That needs anything
I'm getting sold right now
Yep
Doc tell
Doc tell people
Where they can find you
People that might be hurting
And in pain
Or people that just
Need you
Well I have a website
www.alisha
With a Y
A-L-Y
C-I-A
The life coach
All one word
So you can reach me there
I'm on Instagram
Still with Alicia
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Alicia The Life Coach
Hey
This was just talking about
Coach
What about Spokes Parker?
listen I want to thank doc I want to thank Alicia the life coach for coming by support black therapist a women ice my back
uh thank you I do feel better As I normally do when I see you.
Awesome.
And I will book another session soon.
Solo.
Okay.
Okay.
Solo.
Yeah.
Without your friends, right?
Yeah.
Yo, them sessions be so funny.
You know, I can't talk about them sessions, man.
But they be so funny. You know, I can't talk about those sessions, man. But they be so funny.
She be really so intently listening to the other person.
He's like, who the fuck?
The other person?
Look at Joey.
Yo, she is the best therapist ever for whoever.
Pay me more attention.
Hey, put them.
Me, me.
Yo.
Hey, I'm here.
Me.
Let me just say,
Sin handled our breakup
effortlessly thanks to her.
Thanks to her.
I was crying in bed,
fucked up.
Oh, man.
Thank you, Alicia.
I appreciate you.
And hit her up.
You know where to find her.
You know the vibes.
A lot of y'all need help out there.
Hopefully we didn't bore y'all to death,
but let me hit the air horn.
I think it is Mental Health Awareness Month
or something like that.
Really?
Yeah, I believe so.
Hey!
I don't know if, you know.
They've been popping up with holidays and shit,
but it's a good one.
That's true.
That's true.
I think it is.
Let me see.
Let me see.
Yep.
Mental Health Awareness Month.
May 1st to May 31st.
Absolutely.
Mental Health Awareness Month. I like that. Oh, so this was great. This was awesome. yep mental health awareness month May 1st to May 31st absolutely mental health
awareness month
I like that
oh so this was great
this was awesome
you were right on time
hey
hey
oh yeah
there you go
alright round of applause
for Doc
aka
Alicia the life coach
I will speak to her
soon
or nah
or nah we'll see depends on how you feel if more if more troubles on the horizon yeah I will speak to her soon or not. Or not.
We'll see.
Depends on how he's feeling.
If more trouble's on the horizon, yeah.
If he wants me on his side, you know.
Shit, that won't happen. That won't happen.
It's fine.
But that's why I call you.
I call you because you're never on my side.
Hey, come over here so I can tell you how stupid this nigga is.
I'm kidding.
I'm kidding.
All right, where we at? Is it mental health week or mental health month month i believe mental health month i really i really love that we did that for mental
health month let me hit the round of applause yeah right on accident we just did it because
our mental health was in shambles see how shit work out though but uh again thank you to Alicia, the life coach.
Doc, really appreciated her coming by.
We're going to get out of here so everybody can go continue to enjoy their beautiful weekend.
But before we do, I just wanted to throw out something that means nothing to nobody.
I was watching People's Court.
Not even me, but my mom was watching it.
You know, all the TV shows now are trying to modernize and update and make it fucking current friendly or whatever they're trying to do but i've always
loved people's court people's court came on and the people's court judge has a segment where
she go in the back and start talking to her husband about the case oh that's the one with
the husband sitting there husband sitting there all that's the one with the married judge. Husband sitting there.
He's sitting there in a button down, some slacks.
He ain't a judge, prosecutor, he ain't shit.
And she just sitting there telling him
all the business of the court.
Like we want to hear from her fucking husband.
Oh, that's not that one.
That's all I had to say.
Way to get a judge.
I have nothing else to say about it.
That's your take?
Hey, people's court judge judge we want to hear from you
not your fucking husband at the end sorry what's the tmz dude name harry
harry harry from tmz you another one nigga we don't want to hear you go ask the crowd so what
would you think if you love harvey if you lost a sink and your tenant wanted the sink, what would you do? We don't care.
Just show the fucking case.
That's it.
That's all I got.
I thought it was important to know.
I thought people should know that People's Court's husband is a show.
You want People's Court or you want People's Court husband?
It's the husband and wife.
They judge the case together.
Oh, my God.
I would throw up in my mouth.
Seriously. I'm not looking at that. So they go there. It's a husband and wife. They judge the case together. Oh, my God. I would throw up in my mouth.
Seriously.
I'm not looking at that. So they go there.
It's a husband and wife.
Both judges.
And then they go in the back and talk the shit out.
And then they come out and deliver the shit.
Is this real shit?
This is real shit.
I thought this nigga was about to bring up some point.
Wow, this is some real shit.
They doing everything.
They bugging.
I'm going to play this song.
Because I'm not listening anymore.
People been sleeping on it.
No, I'm going to play this song that people might not listening anymore people been sleeping on it now I'm going to play this song that people might not
have been sleeping on
I think they have been
I just think that
now that Outside
is about to open
I thought this song
was going to be a hit
I know
you heard it
you've heard me go crazy
over it
but it's different now
that Outside is open
and Outside is open
and I need to hear this
with a chick
with her head down
I love the and outside is open and I need to hear this with a chick with a head down
I love love I'm just fucking bad at it I just can't escape all these bad habits
I had way too many one nights I keep messing up my love life
I love pods I'm just fucking bad at it I just can't escape all of these bad habits
I have way too many one-nighters
I keep messin' up my life
Every time I think that I've found the one
I turn around and then another one comes
I'd be tryin', baby
We should know the truth, I ain't lyin'
Every time I see my new girl is the best
Then I get another text from my ex
Oh God, it's like clockwork
She come through, I take her down and buy a new purse
So now you gotta pray just a little
Make a way just a little
Today I found, figure it out
Don't know what of these bad habits I had way too many one nights
I keep messing up my love life I love love love i'm just bad at it i just can't escape all of this bad habits
way too many one nights yeah i keep messing up my love life if you knew i bet i wish that i could
love you baby i keep messing up my love hey if you knew i bet i wish that I could love you, baby. Earth, y'all. I keep messing up my love life.
You take me back, and then I lie to you again.
I slip into the DMs of your best friend.
Oh, God.
Oh, God.
That's the best part.
Oh, God.
Why are you slipping into the DMs of my best friend-ish?
That's gangster.
I would never.
Oh, you wouldn't do that.
But that's gangster.
He wouldn't do that.
He wouldn't do that.
I only messed up because you saw me. I wouldn't have. Oh, you wouldn't do that. He wouldn't do that. He wouldn't do that.
I only messed up because you saw me.
This guy's great.
That's true.
All right.
I'm going to turn it up.
Oh, God.
This nigga done called out to God nine times in this record. Baby. You gotta pray just a little, make a way just a little Till the day you finally figure it out
Don't know what all these emotions about
Baby
I love love, I'm just bad at it
I just keenest keep all of these bad habits
I have way too many one nights, yeah
I keep messing up my love life, yeah
I love love, I'm just bad at it See, I gotta buy a new car to play this song, right?
We've been telling you to get a new car.
Your neighbor's been telling you to get a new car.
Ice.
My bad.
Turn the music up.
Turn the music up.
Ice.
No, the song's always Bad Habits, whatever.
Usher, whatever.
Fuck it, out of here. brand new old music from usher that one is called bad habits uh yes my neighbors have all types of exotic foreign cars
in their driveways while mine is empty and my friends think that that is funny yeah yeah that's
the problem get that piece of shit fucking cadillac out of my driveway or whatever that is uh what is that get that Buick out of my fucking driveway because my
neighbors is looking like oh that's what Joe did no they're like oh Joe got a red Pontiac
no I didn't get the red Pontiac I'm riding to the store with ish the other day
ish is in the big body truck the work truck what happened somebody pull up right next to us in the
same exact truck but the newer version all the features this this one this this one said electric on the side. It said eco-friendly on the power windows.
It was clean, big body, new brake lights.
It's trying its best to look straight at the red light.
All it's doing is looking straight diligently at the red light.
I'm in the passenger, so I can sense he looking over.
I look over, he looking at me.
I'm like, nigga, this ain this ain't this ain't my V it's still looking at the red light I'm like nigga pull up to that
song god damn it yeah so it's good I ain't the only one getting killed out there god damn it
Corey bum ass made me buy his car to give to my kid and that don't work
now my kid need a whole new car.
Look, my friends, period,
are just lying to me.
He gave you the loving.
Robbing me, stealing from me.
Oh, man.
God damn, that's $600 down the drain.
Now I got to take my ass
right over to the Paramus Honda.
Oh, man.
Get this new Accord.
The Accord look like something, too, by the way.
Shit ain't cheap, neither.
Yeah, nah.
Nah, them shit ain't cheap.
You fuck around with one of them Accords that spent $45,000.
Oh, yeah.
That's what it said, fully loaded.
Yeah.
Here come my bum ass son talking about,
God, nah, my first car was a truck,
so I want a truck.
You're lying.
That's what my kids said.
What's wrong?
Why y'all laughing at me?
Y'all kids ain't said that yet?
My daughter's five.
My daughter's five.
My daughter got a Jeep, and she's one.
Your daughter's one.
Your kid is close.
How old is she?
Twelve. Oh, is she? Twelve.
Are you coming?
It's around the corner. And then my mom told me,
hey, Trey says you can't. He wants a truck.
He can't get him a car because you got him a truck already.
I said, uh, mom,
that's a kid.
He can't afford a truck.
And then I brought up some old beef. I said, why
you ain't buy me a car when I was young? How'd that work out? I just said, because you didn't have a truck. And then I brought up some old beef. I said, well, why you ain't buy me a car when I was young?
How'd that work out?
I just said, because you didn't have your license.
And I said, that didn't answer my question.
I said, why you didn't give me a car?
That's an amazing answer.
I didn't say nothing about a license, a permit, none of that.
What's up?
Who got sleepers?
Come on, what Michael Jackson joints you got?
All right, Ice.
Let's go to Ice.
All right, so we doing what
records that we slept on
cause outside was closed
no we're just doing sleepers
you can do any sleeper
that you like
my bad
I picked one that I would like
to see resurrect
now the outside is open
listen even if that don't
that song don't pop off
now the outside is open
when I'm outside
I wanna
you wanna hear that
that song
I'ma hear it
I'ma hear it
trust
no trust I'ma hear that when I'm going to hear it. I'm going to hear it. Trust. No, trust.
I'm going to hear that when I'm outside
or when I'm inside in the corner.
Or when I'm in the house,
in a room with company. It's getting played.
It's happening.
With a massage.
Oh my God.
All right. I'm out of here.
I didn't even say nothing.
Ice, come on. Play a South record, man.
What young little Bunnyhop 38 did?
Nah, nah, nah.
I'm going.
Yo, we heard that note.
That new young Bunnyhop 38.
Little Kit Kat.
Yeah, some bullshit.
Little Kit Kat.
What little Kit Kat did, Ice?
This is T-Grizzly and King Von.
Oh, my God.
What is wrong with this guy?
Little bro shot in the crowd
I think he painted in the tape
I think he threw it with the tape
I think he wasted it
this dude sound like something
I think he wasted it nigga
I ain't gon play with you niggas
I'm not gon play with you niggas
ain't finna play with you niggas
you know the niggas that's dying I know the niggas that did it I know you niggas I ain't finna play with you niggas You know the niggas that's dyin'
I know the niggas that did it I know the niggas that solid
You know the niggas that snitch
I ain't gon' play with you niggas
I'm not finna play with you niggas
I ain't bout to play with you niggas
I ain't gon' play with you niggas
The niggas you got with you pussy
These niggas I got with me with it
And ain't no point in you hidein'
I want you, I'ma come get you
I ain't gon' play with you niggas
You got with you pussy These niggas I got with come get you I ain't gon' play with you niggas, you got what you pussy
These niggas, I got with me with it This shit like GTA, we be on mission
These niggas be dancing that stick, how I'm twitchin'
Nigga, don't ask me who is my opposite You ain't the gang that stay out our business
Ain't gon' respond on the net But just know I saw it, I see who you givin'
You talkin' too crazy, we ride, we lookin' Niggas ain't not right, they find when they pussy
This gang don't claim when they say dick suckin' You know that I'm quiet, them choppers talk fuckin'
Behind here, L.A, I brought him a pole
I gave it to Gleeson, we walked in the store
I was with Booker first time in the O
And I had that bitch tell me he was ready to blow
But I ain't gon' play with you niggas
I ain't gon' play with you niggas
I'm not gon' play with you niggas
Ain't finna play with you niggas
You know the niggas that's dying
I know the niggas that did it
I know the niggas that solid
You know the niggas that snitch
I ain't gon' play with you niggas I'm not finna play with you niggas I ain't bout to play with you niggas that did it I know the niggas that solid You know the niggas that snitch I ain't gon' play with you niggas
I'm not finna play with you niggas I ain't bout to play with you niggas
I ain't gon' play with you niggas The niggas you got with you pussy
These niggas I got with me winning It ain't no point in you hiding
I want you, I'ma come get you
Boy, I ain't gon' play with these niggas I got bodies from back in the day on these niggas
Better watch what you say to a nigga He'll take it to quarter-turn, stay on the niche
And now keep me a pistol, F in the initials
I promise to God I won't miss you
And you know I'm official, my niggas gorillas
I tell them to get you, they get you
Folks, them snakes, they low down
If we catch a opp, it's gon' go down
Pull up on they block with the clothes out
Niggas play crazy and this bitch knock his soul out
Them niggas with me, they be steppin'
They steppin' for love, they ain't steppin'
They put tin on his head, that lil' nigga cheap
I just got a call, he got found in the street I ain't gon' play with you niggas
I ain't gon' play with you niggas
I'm not gon' play with you niggas
Ain't finna play with you niggas
You know the niggas that's dying
I know the niggas that did it
I know the niggas that saw it
You know the niggas that snitched
I ain't gon' play with you niggas
I'm not finna play with you niggas
I ain't bout to play with you niggas
I ain't gon' play with you niggas
The niggas you got with you pussy These niggas I ain't about to play with you niggas I ain't gon' play with you niggas The niggas you got with you pussy
These niggas I got with me with
There ain't no point in you hiding
I want you, I'ma come get you
I ain't gon' play with you niggas I know you're going to play some hits from the 80s. Classics, yeah.
Shit sounds so crazy.
Oh, my mace.
I might go in my mace bag.
This is Lost Boys, my crew.
Featured by A-Frost and Kavis. I see all type of shit, baby I'm all spoiled and my food Fuck it, yo, yo, and now, and now When I wake up before I gather up my pens
I shine up my fronts, I give a got to hold my mans
The walls from all the gay, I smoke my weed and clean my kids' and dishes
I click the sky, see my moms is always bitchin'
I'm done buffin', got my cheese, my pen and paper
It's time for me here to prepare my paper
I ran it down the line and now a ring is on my phone
It's my nigga's big night, he telling me he in the zone
Yo, I got the liquor, it rain fool, let's make a take
I'm caught up in my own zone, aerobics, hey
I ran it down the line, it's easy role play
He took my vibe, he said to me, yo, later on about an hour passes
I got my Lucy Deuce loose and my tented glasses
I got the bike that I got from my younger cousin
Cause that cat is up in class like a nigga like he wasn't
I'm concentrating on these moves, I'ma soon be making
And once I break it, I'ma show my beef and I'm not faking
See my man Papa die from the block
Niggas run first reverse as we handle water, take a rock
See certain situations happen
When you caught up in the hood and the game of rappin'
You cease clappin', now leaves the cap in
We used to have each other's back, what the fuck happened?
You're fuckin'
Anyway, man, we used to wreck the store
Walked to the back, yo, let me get full
Exit from the spot, everybody know what's hot
You get your homies, soon as you say the D's, turn the back
Jump on the bike, now a nigga's chillin'
If you ever scored a lick, you know how I'm feelin'
Grabbed open my St. Nines
Took a straight at Mama Blackwell
Respect
He's out of this town
He represents my
He's out of this town
I don't even know how
He represents my
He represents my You represent my 2 You represent my 2 You represent my 2
You represent my 2
You represent my 2
You represent my 2
You represent my 2
You represent my 2
Which one of y'all think I'm ill enough to bust a plus
Get crushed by a stand feed of the elephant tuss
We LB families, niggas don't understand us
Lips and skin are diagnosing niggas for cancer
You got a problem, I got the answer
Twin glocks on bananas
Buckets in the supply stand, the sunset
Told someone's been mathematically functioning
I used to get suspended for keeping the clad jumping
Had the blackboard with the chalk in my hand
Mr. Cheek snatched the leaves off the cannabis plant
Watched the crowd get ant while they screamed and chant
It's ill how they can't keep still Like a fire drill, we desire milk
From 9-7 until fire at high caliber Still on this battlefield Ooh, those boys hot Ooh, Groupon was my
Ooh, everyone is my Ooh, Reebok's my
Ooh, worldwide's for the fortune and fame I entertain for my personal gain
Rockin' go teams, big enough to cause neck pains
Cannabis is my name, I'll be the last one to set it
You can find my name in the Lost Boy album credits
If you open up and look at the cover You'll see Pop Killin' Queens and this motherfucker I'll be the last one to set it You can find my name in the Lost Boy album credits
If you open up and look at the cover
You'll see Cop, Kim and Queens in this motherfucker
And we all represent the group Home Click
L-O-S-T-P-O-I-Z for the nine six
And as the clock ticks, record sales climb
I remember when them niggas first got signed
Fuckin' with Uptown, bustin' they ass A-Dane
From Lifestyles to Jeeps to Rene Now they gettin' mad and playin' with Uptown, bustin' they ass A-Dane From Lifestyles, to Jeeps, to Rene
Now they gettin' mad and playin' all over New York
Top ten on your sound scan report
Yo, who would've thought these four
Nappy-headed niggas would've got an article on the billboard
But hard work produces results
And I'ma keep rockin' till the day somebody stops my pulse
So yo, tally up, it's the Lost Boys crew
Mr. Cheeks Ty Leakes
Big Nice
and Pretty Lou
my crew
East Coast
my crew
that's Lost Boys
featuring A Plus
and Cannabis
my crew
summertime just makes me feel like
I want to hear some Lost Boys
y'all over there bickering
can you have this record please
what's the record
intro it
I'll find it
I'll find it
I'm quick
just to get by
oh okay
yeah yeah it's a summertime vibe I'm quick Just to get by Oh okay Yeah yeah
It's a summertime vibe
I'm sorry
The Jay Z version
I don't know if I have that
Just on deck
Damn
Pinkity Parks
Yeah yeah
I don't think I got that
I'm not playing the YouTube
Stanky ass version
There you go
Yeah
I slept on this
Yeah
Yeah
We sell
Crack to our own
Out the back of our homes
We smell the musk
Of the dusk
And the crack of the dawn
We go through episodes too
Like Attack of the Clones
What till we break a bag
And you hear the crack of the bone
To get by
Just to get by
Just to get by
Just to get by
We commute to computers
Fearless
They mute While your eagles spread rumors We survivalists Turn to consumers Just to get by, just to get by, just to get by We commute to computers, spirits stay mute
While your eagles spread rumors
We survivalists turn to consumers
Just to get by, just to get by, just to get by, just to get by
You askin' why some people gotta live in a trailer
Cause like a sailor I paint a picture with the vessel
Paint like Norman Mailer, me and Quella
Raised three daughters all by herself
With no help, I think about the struggle
And I find the strength in myself
These words melt in my mouth, they hot like the jail cell in the south
Before my nigga Cor bailed me out
But to give out, just to give out, just to give out, just to give out
Do or die like best stars, see the red sky off the window of the red island
The lead blinds, the T-Rap shit, livin' the lead dime
Now this morning, I woke up feel brand new I jumped up feeling my highs and my lows
And my soul and my goals Just to stop smoking and stop drinking
What I've been thinking I got my reasons just to get by
Just to get by Just to get by
Just to get by, just to get by, just to get by, just to get by, just to get by, just to get by, just to get by, just to get by, just to get by, just to get by, just to get by, just to get by, just to get by, just to get by, just to get by, just to get by, just to get by, just to get by, just to get by, just to get by, just to get by, just to get by, just to get by, just to get by, just to get by, just to get by, just to get by, just to get by, just to get by, just to get by, just to get by, just to get by, just to get by, just to get by, just to get by, just to get by, just to get by, just to get by, just to get by, just to get by, just to get by, just to get by, just to get by, just to get by, just to get by, just to get by, just to get by, just to get by, just to get by, just to get by, just to get by, just to get by, just to get by, just to get by, just to get by, just to get by, just to get by, just to get by, just to get by, just to get by, just to get by, just to get by, just to get by, just to get by, just to get by, just to get by, just to get by, just to get by, just to get by, just to get by, just to get by, just to get by, just to get by, just to get by, just to get by, just to get by, just to get by, just to get by, just to get by, just to get by, just to get by, just to get by, just to get by, just to get by, just to get by, just to get by, just to get by, just to get by, just to get by We keep it gangsta, safe and shizzle for sheezy and stay crunk
It's easy to pull a breezy, smoke trees and we stay drunk
Your activism attacking the system, the blacks and latins in prison
Numbers in prison, they victim black and division
Shit and all they got is rapping to listen to
I let them know we missing you, your love is unconditional
Even when the condition is critical, when the living is miserable
Your position is pivotal, I ain't bullshitting you now
Why would I lie, just to get by?
Just to get by, to get fly
The TV guy that's reaching for stars
Not the ones between Venus and Mars
The ones that be reading for parts
So people get breast enhancements and penis enlargers
Saturdays, Sundays, Sunday morning at the feet of the Father
They need something to rely on
We get high on all types of drugs
When all you really need is love
Just to get by, just to get by, just to get by, just to get by
My parents sing like John Lennon, imagine all the people watch me
Rock like Paul McCartney from now until the last beat of drop
This morning, I woke up, feeling brand new
And I jumped up, feeling my highs and my lows
And my sores and my goals.
Just to stop smoking and stop drinking.
I'm thinking I got my reasons just to get by.
Just to get by.
Just to get by.
Just to get by.
Yeah, yeah, yeah.
Yeah, yeah.
Some people cry.
That's the record that most of y'all probably have never heard.
Yeah, that was just...
Damn, what was that that he was spitting like that?
I believe that was just to get fun.
I think I slept on that.
Damn, son.
Where did you find this one-ish?
That's the old man.
He's going to play all the 90s slaps.
The funny part is he wanted me to find
the Jay-Z one too.
He wanted to find
the Jay-Z version
of Get By.
Yo, Ish,
let me just...
That wasn't dope?
Yes, it was dope.
Everything Jay-Z did
was dope.
Now,
Jesus.
At least he didn't ask
for the Drake version of it.
Mic check,
one, two, one, two.
Yeah.
Yo. I mean, mic check, one, two, one, two, yeah Yo, I mean, mic check, one, two, one, two I mean, uh
Nah, you good
Parks don't wanna answer the phone on the weekends when it ain't part time
He know what I be comin' to do
Nah, no, no, you good though, you good
Mic check, one, two, one, two, it's Joey
They used to know what that meant, man
They used to know what it meant
I could've really, the wild shit that
I could hear it Of course I can hear it of course
you could hear this is a Joe beat it is a joke they gave this beat to Kendrick as a Joe style beat
I feel like I'm losing my focus I feel like I'm losing my base me feel I want to thank all y'all
for listening man I want to shout out to the people that this may have been a difficult listen for
I know I can't be the only one that's been in pain
There's gotta be some of y'all in pain
Y'all been invested for a long time
Shout out to y'all
Shout out to my brothers hopefully they doing well as well
Shout out to the day ones and the last time listeners man and shout out to
scissor just because drop that project honey hey yeah when that scissor drop oh man i'm cuddling
up something nice something new yeah you'll catch it when the whole scissor project drop
when best of both worlds tour you'll get around to it y'all want to thank
everybody out there for listening man you could have been anywhere in the world but you're here
with me i appreciate that i want to shout out to all the entrepreneurs the creators the curators
and the podcasters out there do remember life is a series of moments and moments are guaranteed
to pass so let's make this one last as if it's all that we have
Until then I bid you adieu, farewell, hasta la vista, adios, so long, goodbye, Arrivederci
Lastly before I get out of here, do remember
Ayyyy
Now you're going crazy, you gotta let him cook right now
Yeah, you gotta let him cook
I'm sorry, y'all Yeah, shout out to the rappers out there
Shout out to Outside rappers out there.
Shout out to Outside Beers back open again.
Remember, happy mental health month.
Let's keep mental health at an all-time high, please.
Change your voice on these niggas.
Boom!
You done did that, y'all?
I don't think you can hit it with a voice change on your shit.
Went up an octave a little bit?
Nah, nah, he killing me
He killing me
I wouldn't have did this
Hey, they gave me this beat out
They gave it back to Kendrick
I feel like the whole world want me to pray for them
Ain't nobody praying for me
Yo, please keep each and every one of us in your prayers
Please, please, please
Until next time, do remember
The baddies are insecure the stagnant
women want to travel and the closed-minded women want you to teach them things grab a ib pro friend
enjoy your headache man i'm gone