Trash Tuesday w/ Esther Povitsky & Khalyla Kuhn - Hookups & Hangovers w/ Sosie Bacon

Episode Date: September 21, 2021

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Go to Annie Letterman dot com to grab tickets and also get some merch. I just I literally walked in. George was like, here, you put this on, you're a little early. Oh yeah, you didn't learn to not be early? No, I thought you said 11, I don't know. Are you always early? Yeah, sort of. I mean, I'm definitely like an on-time person, but not half an hour early. I think I got the time wrong.

The half an hour early is the most intrusive thing for me. No, I know. It's rude. No, she'll fucking kill you. I will. She'll fly over there. She'll buzz over and stab you in the ear. It is, right?

I agree. I don't like it when people are early, especially, you know, when you have like a couple people over and somebody shows up like an hour early and you're like, I'm not even beginning to prepare for your arrival. Yeah, I have to get ready for you dumb bitches to beginning to prepare for your arrival yeah i have to get ready for you dumb bitches to come to my fucking house yeah and i have to clear my energy i have to physically fix my charcuterie board is not fully finished but also you just i just have so much social anxiety it's like i thought i had one more hour of being at peace yeah and then

i was like i'm sorry i was early i had to do my post no you were on time i didn't haven't rubbed one off yet i'm here anxious now i have to go into the bathroom and put the bidet on you guys i don't think i have a whole lot of blood flow left in my in my vagina what do you mean you guys have are you a vibrator girl i'm no i'm a finger girl that's just wait exclusively okay so what happens first is i stop growing hair in my pubic area. Not on the sides, but on top. I like how you said in. Like, oh my God, are they supposed to grow inside?

Can I show you my pubic area? Yeah. I have no hair. I want to see. What do you mean you're not waxed? Not from... I wish this was the first meeting. Not from...

I'm so jealous. I know. Let me see. That just... Wait, not from laser or anything? Yeah, that's wild. The few on the side are very. Yeah, there's stragglers.

But I didn't look on the side. I had one more look. I know. Let me get a little sniff too. So how did this happen? There's barely any. You could pluck as many as there are there. I have more on my upper lip than you have on your.

I have more on my asshole than I do the rest of my. Oh, my God. You have a mullet. She got a mullet. Fuck her in the mullet, guys. Well, here's what I'm saying. So. Oh, my God.

Do you think Theo is going to think that's a secret message to me? Oh, my God. I'm the rat queen. So I don't think I have a lot of blood flow. Also, on top of that. I wouldn't go blood flow the sensation is kind of I would go Asian I would go I'm Asian

no no no the sensation has lessened like I'm not feeling like strong like the same strong feelings down there I just had a fucking vision that you are going to be one of those people that needs to get like shot in a bulletproof vest to feel

are you becoming one of those people I just to get like shot in a bulletproof vest to feel. Are you becoming one of those people? I just need one of you guys to tase me right in the back. Wait, you guys, I sat next to a guy on the plane who works for Taser for like the original Taser gun. And I was like, can I come get tased by like the main? And he was like, yeah, they do like tasings. Wait, really? Yeah, they do like a like whoever wants to do it. Anyone that works at the company, I think has to have it done done which is kind of hilarious like you have to like i don't want to i'm just the secretary like everyone gets paid yeah to know what the product even the custodian the product to know what the product is but i would want to and i would like to i would like to drink as much water as possible i would like to ensure i'm gonna piss myself do you do

people shit themselves i think they do i think they do i think they pee i think whatever's in there i think it's just gonna energize someone like annie i think yeah it's just gonna be like cocaine for her yeah yeah she doesn't go down at all do you do you feel like there's like i don't know sometimes i like feel like i feel so much that like you stop it you like shut it all down just that like i don't i pain doesn't even i don't even like notice it like my i sliced my finger last night and i just kept doing it and then i was like you have to stop for a minute and like why is this a red salad it's like the feta is like dyed red well both of you how about this i taste the both i agree yeah i'm down i have you have the product here i have uh i've never she's a shot yeah but someone sent me oh i do have the

we should do the shot the shot color really did hurt me more than i've ever experienced like oh the dog yeah but i guess you're not supposed with the prongs directly on skin oh actually i have my parents have this dog named lily she's just like fucking crazy a crazy bitch she has so many issues and she has gotten she's so like dead set on her ways that there's a they have a shot caller for her and if she sees like a deer or something she will run the fuck right through that shot caller oh she'll go through like the one she's like yeah and she just go after the deer and you're like dude that's like it's on the highest setting.

Yeah. I think we're like that. That's the thirst for deer, for deer blood. You do look like Sweet Tooth. You look like Sweet Tooth. You're a descendant of deer. You have little deer ears. Wait, did I ever tell you about when I was with a therapist, like one of my first like

fun therapists, my woo-woo therapist. And he was like, all right, close your eyes. You you're like in the woods like what animal do you say and i said a deer and he's like that's your spirit i'm gonna go i want a fucking redo i'm not gonna be a goddamn deer i was so pissed it's gonna be a wolf or something a wolf most hunted deer gets hit by cars and shit i mean sucks smell bad i think we underestimate deer but i think it means something good can you look up what a deer means and then you can decide whether i'm a deer okay our spirit so wait you you don't have like feeling in your vagina or it's not as much um yeah so i just noticed this and i've been really bummed out about it and um the sensations

have lessened it's, don't you think? Not that like you can't taste in here and now you're- Which one of you guys want to finger me so hard and test me out? I think, I mean, Esther would literally like leave this earth. She would pass away if she knew that that was an offering

that she wasn't here for. She wasn't here. Esther is a resident lesbian. I know, like I said, I've listened to every show. She's our les our resident tell us how much you love us so no i really i really do love the show and i was saying to that like it calms me down which i think means that there's something wrong with me like it's soothing to me well it's like adderall like if you're if you don't have ad it shoots you

up and if you don't it brings you down yeah exactly you have um you have like psych psychosis tuesday hyper disorder deer because of their powerful sensitivity deer are symbol for instinct and intuition there you go there you go annie when the deer is your spirit guide you have the ability to pick up on things that others do not you're an empath i honestly i knew that your pussy was bald before you even showed me she didn't i'm a fucking deer i had no idea so see we're talking you're right about to tell me about the billy eilish documentary and i stopped you oh wait what happened i don't know did you see did you watch it no okay it's it's like so long ago it's a thing of the past.

But we were talking about Orlando Bloom. Who we look like. Yeah, exactly. Yes. I feel like this is so bad to say. But there's this scene in the documentary where he comes up to her at Coachella with Katy Perry. I'm already upset.

I think it's like – Are you upset? No, it's upsetting. Okay. And he's like – Don't get away from me. Don't get away from her. Orlando, why are you near her again?

He hugs her multiple times in this way that's like really kind of upsetting. Like he's on Molly and she's 14. Yeah, 17, 14, whatever. And I was like, this is shocking. And I looked everywhere on the internet for somebody to say that this was creepy. And nobody has said it. Is that because it's Orlando Bloom and, like, we don't talk bad about him? We don't talk bad about Legolas.

Yeah, like, he's her elven brother. But, like, is he protected? I mean, honestly, I would say the insult where everything goes wrong is like, even though she is a musician, you should not be under 21 at a place where people are drinking and doing drugs, I think. Also, it turns out she didn't even know who he was. Of course she didn't. That was the whole thing about it. Like, she didn't know who he was.

And then the whole thing was made into like, isn't this funny that she didn't know who he was? And then when she found out, she wanted to go give him another hug. Nobody talked about, and I'm like of course she wants to hug a hot older celebrity. She's 16. But is he hot in person? I don't know. He probably is.

He probably is super hot in person. But is he little? They're always so little. Is he little? I don't know if he's little. You know who the littlest hottie is? Is Gael Garcia. Oh, yeah, yeah, yeah. Oh, my gosh. He's so hot.

Oh, I would put him in my pussy pocket and just keep him there. And there would be no hair at all. It's your mama, Tanya. Just slide right out. I know he's such a little. Five, seven. And five, seven is not correct. He is not five, seven.

No. Is that with his foreskin or without? How tall are you guys? I'm 5'8". I'm 5'6 1⁄2", depending on what people want. Am I 5'6 or 5'7"? What do you want? I'm shrinking for sure.

Yeah. I'm pretty sure I'm not 5'8 anymore. You're shrinking? Your pussy's shriveling up? What's going on? It's like fucking early onset menopause or something. No, it's not. Don't say that out loud.

I'm a deer. Take a dear oh you're not i think honestly we went through a very traumatizing thing that we all went through together and we're all kind of still going through and we've normalized it and i think a lot of pussies shut down i think a lot of pussies are on the pandemic as well they've been sent it's a panty puss yes i think a lot of vaginas have been um yeah because i think it's just like what do you call it um um sensory not acclimation but it's just like we're so used to just seeing our partner maybe every day that we don't get titillated in the same way at the brush of their skin i don't even i look at my vibrator and I'm like, all right, let's do this. Are you a full blast vibrator girl? Yeah.

But I'm just like, all right. And like sometimes when it like runs out of batteries in the middle, I go like, of course. And you're kind of like. I'm like, I totally feel you. We're vibing. Oh, wow. Like it just phases. But I know that I'm going to, I'll get.

Will you hypnotize me back into virility? Yes. And I think we can. I did do actually a vaginal hypnosis well you you put you dangle it

in front of my pussy or I don't like when you say dangle and pussy and look at me there's nothing dangling about my pussy it's like you have some

information you want to be sort of like oh so wait me and Jenna were talking about this how like wait are you can you tell me how you came into this world?

Is it through Jenna? I guess. Yeah. Through Jenna. Yeah. And then I was on Tiger Belly twice. Twice. Twice.

Which is, by the way, to this day, the thing that people come up to me about the most on the street. They're like, I saw you on Tiger Belly. And I'm like, not Mayor of Easttown. Not 13 Reasons Why? No, no. Definitely not anything before Mayor of Easttown? Not 13 Reasons Why? No, no. Definitely not anything before Mayor of Easttown. Only Tiger Belly.

I do not remember who you were on 13 Reasons Why. I haven't seen it in so long. Oh. I was like dressed like you guys were on the last episode. Oh, yes. Okay, wait. Yes, yes, yes. All right.

The goth. I literally look like exactly like that. Look at Sosie. How fucking cute you are. Oh, my gosh. That is so cute. Look at how fucking cute you are. Oh my gosh. That is look at the alligator tattoos. So legit. That's so funny. I didn't recognize you from that. That's good costuming. I know. I also feel like in high school, I got my first one in high school, but not like that. They didn't have fucking sleeves. I mean, it's so funny because every single character on the

show in 13 Reasons Why had a tattoo. I was like, what about all the teenagers that don't have tattoos? They're not allowed to be on TV. They're going to feel so left out. Do you know that I can't watch Picture Perfect? Why? Because I look so much like him? No, because growing up, your dad's character is somebody that I like. Yeah, I have a question. Young girl fap to, and I cannot. I cannot. I definitely have also masturbated to your dad, but fap to, and I cannot, I cannot. I definitely have also masturbated to your dad,

but in Friday the 13th when he was very young. And that was recently. When he had like this. That was very recently. The knife through his. Yeah, that was the hottest.

I don't, I've never seen either of them. I'm going to masturbate to your mom tonight just to make it even. Yeah. And then me. No, listen.

Do you think I didn't watch a thing about teen suicide with my pants off? I'm sorry. You think I wasn't on the thing? That's the type of shit that really turns you on. What a cute. Were you excited to play that? That was a cute character to play. Yeah.

I mean, it was. Like the costuming and everything. It's so cute. I was. I was. I thought I definitely liked the fact that she was like, I mean, the was... Like, the costuming and everything, it's so cute. I was. I thought, I definitely liked the fact that she was like... I mean, the tattoos were, like, kind of ridiculous. Yeah.

They were a lot. But it's better, right? And they took forever and, like... But I liked her wardrobe and stuff. I mean, it was definitely fun. There's another tattoo on a 16-year-old. Did you make out with anyone on any of the other actors? Yeah, well, I was in a relationship on the show, not in real life, with Dylan.

The, what was his name? Clay. Right, yeah. On the show. So yeah, we made out. Which, he was like a lot younger than me. I think I was like, I was playing a 17-year-old when I was like 25. Yeah.

And he was actually like 18. It was the Claire Danes, you were the Jared Leto. Yeah. God, I love that show. I know, I really, really love it. It was the Claire Danes. You were the Joe. Yeah. God, I love that show. I know. I really, really love it. It's so good. But yeah, it's weird that all the teenagers had tattoos on them.

Chest tattoos too. Yeah, like really bold ones, like a neck tat. Yeah. Well, if you did like a documentary about a high school, would they all have tattoos? Now? Yeah. No. Because you can't get a tattoo well in some states you can you need a parental you know because i got my mom to consent

for me at 16 for a clit ring to get my well i did have a clit ring but also oh there was nothing unpierced on my body we are really learning why her pussy doesn't yeah i mean shouldn't it work better is it do you have it out? Is it out or is it still in? Like everything, my tongue's out, my eyebrows out, my lips out,

my, what did it, I never got my nipples though. I did. You have, I saw this thing today on Instagram that was like,

if you, if you can get your nipples pierced, you can go through anything. I mean, I did that when I was 14. I was, I, did I tell you this last time my boyfriend told me I wouldn't be able to handle the pain of a tattoo? I was like, I did that when I was 14. I was, I, did I tell you this last time my boyfriend

told me I wouldn't be able to handle the pain of a tattoo? I was like, I've had cluster headaches, nipple rings. The fuck are you talking about? I think I've been getting, what's a tension headache, Kalilah? Is it the one where there's a strap around the back of your head? A strap on? It usually is getting fucking someone from the back you're getting skull fucked from the back i think it's at least my tension headaches always start from like the my traps here yeah and then it's stressed out and then it creeps up into my jaw and then my head okay so that is what attention headache i assume i get an attention headache where people aren't paying attention to me and i just i lose it I start screaming and crying the last time we sort of got into this um topic about um feeling like the ick for boys we've

dated oh yeah and never turning back I want to ask you guys what are the pettiest reasons you've stopped liking a boy or broken up with them it's that feeling that comes on suddenly and then you're like you can never go back you know what i mean like once you once you get the inkling of it there's no turning back and it could be something like so i mean i can't remember a specific example i remember one time i hooked up with this guy in college and the next day he you know when you would hook up with somebody in college and you woke up and you're so fucking hungover and all you wanted to do was like get some shitty food and like smell that did I get the grade or not professor wake up yeah and they would just I remember this one guy in high school like I'm in college. Stayed at my dorm. I said pervert. Wow.

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I was so fucking drunk. And you know when you want to like wake up and be hungover and smell bad and sit in your bed and like eat gross food. And the last thing you want to do is be around. And I remember he stayed for like probably 20 minutes too long. And he like wanted to order food. And I was like, okay, yeah, I'm going to order food. i was like okay yeah i'm gonna order like i have to fart so yes that's exactly what it is exactly there's nothing like i think it's got a mix in here and it's called a swiss oven instead of a death oven there's nothing that feels that

gross and you have to like poop a bunch of times i I mean, it's just so. Just the hangover shit. I mean, just the fucking mental gymnastics to not even accidentally fart while you're asleep. But you know what's so, what you definitely do, but it's like, well, just whatever. I always tell people, whatever happens when I'm asleep is your problem. That's not on me.

But you know what's so funny? It's like looking back as like a grownup, you realize you probably could have just gone like, hey, can you leave? Exactly, like boundaries. But you leave exactly like boundaries like oh you think 20 minutes is bad i once dated a cockroach exterminator because i thought i have a really like visceral like a fear of cockroaches and he was really cute i met him at mountain bar we danced to reggae all night he was really cute ucla boy and i was like what do you do as a side hustle? He's like,

I exterminate cockroaches. I was like, I'm in love. You're like squirted. You're like, oh my God, exterminate this. He didn't go home

for four fucking days. Not from my place, my sister's house. That's how many cockroaches she had. And he's like, I got so much work to do. I can't leave.

And you know, it's so crazy. It's because like, he was like, you guys, it's all about water source. Apparently, you need to cut off the water source apparently you need to cut

off the water source for cockroaches to leave well maybe that's what it is you just don't want cockroaches to go on your pussy and that's why you cut off the water source during the pandemic i hadn't spoken to him in four years because after i told him that his four-day stint was a little too long during the pandemic my friend had a termite issue so i randomly texted him i was like hey the last text i've been like you up he's like four years later can I come over before usually I didn't even say hi or anything I was like hey like do you know about termites and he sent me the lengthiest thing about termites dude this guy's so fucking clutch he just stays too long in the house and we went to like Chinese buffets with my

family like my family knew who the fuck he was he's some random dude i was dating but um he knows a lot about termites and cockroaches so if anybody needs help shout out you know who you are the guy i once uh had i once had a guy stay i would say two years and eight months too long i said that was supposed to be a four monther and three years in i was, I was like, I mean, talk about not being able to set your boundaries. I, like, literally could not break up with this guy. I was like, I feel too bad. I know. He's a nice guy. He rollerblades.

It's like, what else does he have? That's the worst. People keep asking who he is. It's like, he's not a rollerblader that you would even know. He just rollerblades. And he dated a rollerblader for a long time. I dated a rollerblader for three years. Meaning, like, a professional rollerblader. No, like, he did it like he it was a profession but it wasn't but

it was a hobby it was a passion a passion right now i'm crying all the time because he'd always like break his phone it would be so funny i'd be like laughing so hard because i'm like you broke my phone and it was three years three years years. Yeah, three years. But I just couldn't. I could not. I wanted to. Sweet guy. He's engaged.

Congrats. Oh, congrats. Did she roll her blade? Yeah, I was going to ask that. Did she roll her blade? No, but I think she probably respects him more than I did publicly shaming his favorite hobby constantly. I once broke up with a guy in Mexico while we were on vacation because i didn't like the way he reacted to a cockroach attack it's very cockroach related for you it's always it's

always got to do with cockroaches you're like if you don't exterminate it you're not as good as my ex exactly i need you to come with this guy was like big and burly and he played he was an australian guy who played um footy is this the one where it was on his shirt at the bar? Yeah. He was wearing a white shirt. We walk into this bar and a cockroach scurries under his shirt and I can see it. Why are cockroaches following you everywhere? I don't think I've ever seen.

That's my spirit guide. Yeah. Oh, my God. Why don't you just accept them and stop trying to kill them? They can live headless for 20 days. That's you. It's me. But anyways, I didn't like the way.

So when I saw the cockroach scurry up the back of his shirt. I'm imagining you'd be headed, holding your own head, still chilling. Yeah. Oh, somebody make that art. And so I saw it. And instead of trying to help him out and saying hey there's a roach on you i'm so frightened by roaches so i ran out of the bar and from a distance inside of my eye i could just see the bartender like he threw a chair on this dude's back on on the guy that i

was dating and the guy was like so he was like hey he was doing this i didn't like it i didn't like the way he he was like and i was like oh no more if your wrist goes limp enough when you hit it it's like the roach, it's like, do you want me? What would have been the correct way for him to kill that roach

on his back? Yeah. But not like, there's like a, it's too feminine. It's too feminine. They have to be, I will say you can go over masculine.

I was dating a guy, this was like before everyone was like really into it. I dated a BJJ guy, a Brazilian jujitsu guy back in like, when I I lived in Santa Fe he worked at this bar Willie's and I worked at the cowgirl and we would go bang each other in the bathroom but and he would I would my payment was like a plan does make me sound like a prostitute but I would get like a pint of Jager out of it but I was always just wasted falling I always had like holes in my knees

but anyway so he would do the thing where he'd be like the wasted bartender who like if there was like a little bit of an argument outside on the street he would jump over the bar and like his shirt would be on you're just like dude yeah but it was still a little like it was so it was it was masculine but it was like a turnoff but it was also like I'm still gonna fuck you but it's hot the first time only it's just like that argument has nothing to do with you dude exactly if it's repetitive behavior first time only. It's just like, that argument has nothing to do with you, dude. Exactly. If it's repetitive behavior and you have to assert your masculinity where it doesn't belong, that's a big boner killer.

It is. It's really unattractive. There's something like not. I like quiet. I like quiet strength. Exactly. You don't, you don't need,

you don't want to like be with somebody who's trying to prove it all the time. And if I sniff that, it makes me like, he was a nice boy. I do remember when I woke up blacked out. It's funny that I drank so much in college in those years after that I really – the guys, when I go like, those guys were such good guys. Like, they didn't like date rape me.

Yeah. Oh, my God. Like, this is – thank you so much. I know. Totally. But he – I remember waking up on his couch and my pants were unbuttoned. I was like, where am I? He goes, you unbutton them, bitch.

I put you out there. I'm like, do not. And I was like, okay. But he was the guy that used to, I like had a girlfriend who looked like a boy who was like kind of like throwing in some vibes at me for a little while. And he's the one that we would like make out, we'd get drunk and make out at his bar and he would like throw ice at us. He would get so mad. Why? I don't know. Well, he always said that he thought I was, I think he was just jealous, but I and he would like throw ice at us. He would get so mad. Why? I don't know. Well, he always said that he thought I was, I think he was just jealous, but I think he would, the way he would

say would, he would go, you're leading her on. And I'm like, first of all, this bitch has the reins, I promise you. But he always thought, he was like, it's not, and I'm like, I am like pretty fucking straight and I can't say it, but with enough pints of Jager in me, the tongue is wherever there's an open wet hole it's just going I'm the same way but I think

that I've retired eating pussy for the rest of my life you've never done it I've eaten pussy yeah how did it like was it a threesome was it how many different people how many licks did it take how many different yeah um probably maximum three okay and there's a difference between the three like was it all did you have them set up was it like all three the last one is what did me in that the last one threw me into retirement is because she didn't have the courtesy to tell me that she had a bv oh you had a BV. Oh. You had a little cottage cheese for dinner. I literally just, I could. What?

Wait, what did it, what did it, sometimes you describe things, Kalilah, and it's like, it's so visceral. Like, I will never forget when you described to me what the smell of the poop thing that people get in the hospital. The GI bleed? Yeah, yeah, yeah.

No, no, no. She's talking about C. diff. Is it? Yes. I don't remember the name, but it's so visceral sometimes. And the way you describe things really makes you feel like you're experiencing it. But she also says it like the way she just said it sounded like it was like a delicious type of kebab you could get.

C. diff? Is it C. diffbab you could get. C. diff. Is it C. diff? C. diff. Yeah. And then it's like a nosocomial infection. So a lot of people get it in the hospital. And yeah, it smells like Toe Jam married the fucking B.V. basically. Honestly, to point and look upside down when you're trying to select the other

gross thing for to marry, you went it's like if it married mmm. What disgusting thing about this pig can I pick out? Very dumb. By the way, if you have BV, it's all good. Just saying, honk the horn

and say, don't go down on it. If you're like, what's BV? But when you walk into a room, everyone's going, who brought the fish filet? That's BV. What's the smell of that? It's like the most.

It's fishy. It's extremely fishy. And you can't wash it off and it goes through all your pants and like you, you literally walk in with like a fish cloud. What?

It's really bad. What is it? What causes it? It's a bacteria. Oh a bacteria bacteria i got it from the uncuts listen uncuts i'm a fan but you gotta just scrub the shmeg okay take your showers homeless julian it was good sex i loved wait homeless julian homeless julian i banged he gave it to me in santa fe was it like maybe because he was homeless that he didn't have the he actually wasn't homeless but he gave off a homeless vibe okay but he did have he had a monster truck did i tell you what it used to take me wrong he used he would come in and hit on me all the time at this uh bar i worked at and i was like i can't i can't i can't and then one day i

just was like he's like do you want to go let's go romping in my car which is what he called i don't know if that's the term for it, but like taking his like monster truck into the Arroyo and just going straight down and up. And I don't know what you call that. Off-roading. Off-roading. He called it romping. And we're just drunk driving through the.

And then we just like drank beers and fucked on his hood. And then we went to. That sounds so romantic. And he really. No, I'm not even kidding I remember I think I said this because this is a pretty

monumental fuck of mine because he then put my legs behind my back so much that it hurt and I was like dude I haven't done yoga in a while

he goes he's like I've been trying to get you in this position for so long if you think I'm letting you out and I literally like came all over him that's cute

it was really good but then the bb was I fucked him like a couple more times he was so dumb from concussions I felt like he like even though he came on to me i was like can he legally consent at this point i was like i wanted to like when he came to my house i was like i want to burn the fucking sheets just in case it's evidence like it felt like he i could see him thinking like yeah it hurt him he'd ugh. And then this is why we ended up breaking it off.

We were never, like, a thing thing. But I got a motor scooter, a Yamaha Zuma. And he wouldn't. Like a bird? He wanted to ride it. But I was like, no, I'm driving. And he, like, refused. And so then he rode his bicycle really fast next to mine.

Oh, kind of. And he wouldn't do it. What? I love, like, BMX boys. Yeah. And it was hot. And I get that his ego was, like, attached to being, like, the leader ofX boys. Yeah. And it was hot. And I get that his ego was like attached to being like the leader of a bike. Yeah.

But I was like, nah, dude. Dude, the amount of times I've sat on the handlebars of a Cholo's bike. I thought you were going to say on a Cholo. The amount of times I've sat on a Cholo. The amount of times I've also sat on a Cholo. There is something about their just so so they're they're innate toxic masculinity is very attractive but you know what they're i find them to be the least toxic because number one cholos the cholo boyfriends i had were loyal they were tender we listened to oldies we listened

to art le beau we would bike you know bicycle around town they love camping like they're they're sweet tender loyal lovers they're used to having to not go to their address cops are looking for them so they love camping oh i love that cholo love no i do love i mean in santa fe like there was like a yeah it was fun do you ever date a cholo so see no i don't think so i think i I think I've only had like a couple boyfriends, like two or three. Oh, were you raised healthy? No, no. Proper childhood.

No, no, no. Did you have to love yourself? No, no, definitely not. I had a couple of boyfriends in high school, but I don't know if I would like consider it that. in high school, but I don't know if I would like consider it that. By the way, one of my boyfriends in high school is, I found out, sorry, in college. You were doing that? In college, I found out. You got confused. You're an actress. I went to Brown and there was like a major rape, rapey culture there. And I found out after like four years after high school that he had like raped someone that I ended up meeting and now he's like now he's like dating someone very much in the public eye I'll tell

you about oh shit but nobody knows like and I'm like wait like somebody needs to somebody needs he's he's not like famous himself but he's dating somebody who's famous and I don't know that anybody in his like orbit knows about it but anyways I was a real like blackout queen in like high school college so I don't think anybody wanted to date me they kind of just wanted to like either have sex with me while I was like a corpse or not. And then that was my gauge of like whether or not they were good people. Same as you. Yeah. Like whether they wanted to bang me or not. Like, oh my God, thank you. You don't want to bang me. So nice. Oh, what was it like to live in Santa Fe? I just, I can't, like, it seems like such a cool place.

And my boyfriend loves Santa Fe. He's like obsessed with it he wants to move not move but he wants to like get a house go to town like yes oh my god he's from texas so i feel like that makes sense whereas i'm from the east coast and i'm like what what is it about but i'm from philadelphia and which maybe i know a little bit about you oh yeah someone from your family I don't want to objectify you. I don't want to. No, that's okay. Da-daughter-fy you. That's okay. But I was ready to go when I went to college.

I was like, I'm fucking out of here. And then I liked the Southwest, but then I hated it right away. Like I ended up leaving college and going back. I went to Temple University for like two weeks. And and then I was like I didn't like this um and then um I went back to Santa Fe and Santa Fe is just like I don't know I just fucking love it it's so beautiful it's so unique I did uh become a raging alcoholic blackout drunk there because I was didn't have much else to do but I'm sure it's really beautiful. We should definitely do a fucking. We should go. But have you been to Taos?

Yeah. That's where he's like, you have to see it. I love Santa Fe, too, because it looks like a little old like village. But it's like I don't know. It's cool. I feel like coming from the East Coast, I definitely feel I prefer like the West sort of like open spaces. Like when I'm back on the East Coast, I feel very like box sort of like open spaces. Like when I'm back on the East coast,

I feel very like boxed in by the trees. I don't, I don't like, I don't know. It's weird. I feel like I need to get out of there. Exactly. I mean,

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And my friend's mom, it was really crazy. It was insane to be around someone's mother while this was all happening. And so then my friend had this Chrysalsalid baron and we drove it to where the fuck did she live but we drove out into the desert where her like aunt lived and like it was one of those houses where like her aunt and uncle like bought a plot and then built their dream home so it was like we were going to like literally the fucking coolest it's so and we drove out and a pink floyd block came on the radio and we I just remember going, this is the best moment of my life. And honestly, there's been a lot of best moments, but that is still in there.

What I want to do is I want to know what it's like to be in the ocean on mushrooms. Like actually dive. You should get a fucking like legit shaman. Like when you go to Hawaii, I bet you there's like a sick, legit shaman that can like do a whole water ceremony thing with you. Like it's good because I feel like we do these all recreationally. But if you can have someone that's like a guide that can really – it can be so like –

Did you guys not hear? Bobby has offered me to a Hawaiian god. Like are you touching your massive ears? No, he literally has. Did you guys not hear? Come on, guys. Where's your intuition, Annie? He's already offered me up to a Hawaiian god.

Where's the deer? I never heard of a Hawaiian god. He literally said I could have sex with him. Oh, it was a specific man? It's a specific man. Oh, I thought he just said you can fuck whoever you want. No. It's a specific person.

Wait, you mean he said actual? I can't fuck whoever I want. Like, he had a sexual reaction to a man and was like, I want to watch his penis go in You can or can't fuck whoever you want. I, he had a sexual reaction to a man and was like, I want to watch his penis go in you. You can or can't fuck whoever you want. I can and should is what he said. What? Really? To a specific person.

Oh, so it's just one person that he- I thought he said he just opened you up. I was like, this is not good. No, no, no. He didn't open me up. Oh, to one guy? Okay. Yeah.

This is the cupcakes. The cupcakes. Yeah, yeah, yeah. What cupcakes? Cupcakes. Cupcakes. cupcakes the cupcakes yeah yeah yeah what cupcakes cupcakes it was last week we had uh maddie matheson on and he we were talking about jizz on cucks we were talking about cucks basically and like i think that i'm a little bit five things came together i'm a little bit of a cuck where

it does turn me on if i think about my partner i like when I see people hit on my boyfriend. Like I'm like, drive Uber or something. You need to get out there more. Like I got to see some girls gripping you up. Yeah. Like if somebody else thinks their boyfriend's hot or like, yeah, I know. I think if you're like secure in your relationship, that's just a bonus. Yeah. Yeah. And I like to sit in the corner and watch it happen. Like when, like after Bobby shows, when I see like women be like, hey, look at these nipple tassels. And I'm just sitting there and I don't go. Sign my nipple tassels.

I don't interrupt it. I just sit and I watch. And they probably like you watching it too. Maybe. I don't know. I just like it. I like watching it. Yeah, well, because we know.

I go, that is a good. I go, it. I like watching it. Yeah. Well, because we know. I go, that isn't good. I go, yeah, you should want that. Yeah. Exactly. Because you know that you like won. It's kind of fucked up, isn't it? But not even like that. Like, I like, sometimes it's like good to remember that you're right.

You know what I mean? Like, my instinct is that this is like a super hot awesome person that you want to fucking jump their bones and then when you see someone else do it you go like that's right I wasn't blinded it's true it's more universal not that you need everyone else to think that but yeah no I mean I know I totally get that you're like oh yeah no he is amazing I don't get like bitch back off no way I always think that's a sign of like insecurity in a relationship if you really are like

get the fuck away from my boyfriend it's like why like what are you that like do you find it that and also for guys like if they get

super jealous it's like dude oh that's a big boner killer for me it's a turn off it means that you're not I'm on my high horse like with this ear. You're not listening to me.

Every time we say listen we're like listen. Let me hear. Yeah I think it means that you're insecure in our relationship which I think makes me feel like trapped. That's why I don't I wouldn't want to do it to another person. But also it's to not

trust me means you're not trustworthy in my head, right? Like I always think people are projecting the things. Like when people assume I'm lying about something, I'm like, why would you? I never assume people are lying. Yeah. I never go there unless I've like learned through their actions before that that's something they do. Right.

But I never, I always assume people are telling the truth because I'm like, it shall set you free. I'm like, that's true. Why is George putting up a banana like that? Oh, it's banana break. But it is weird still. It still is not okay. The way that you were holding it was so interesting.

I felt that way during Mare of Easttown, the bathtub scene with the baby. Oh. I was like, Sosie! I know. Sosie! Wake up! Like, literally, that's what I thought.

Oh, and the baby was. Oh, yeah. Yeah, that. I know. That was such a traumatic scene, a show in general. The show was very traumatic. So good, though. Can you be in something that makes us happy?

I know, right? Like, it's so. And I'm about to do this really dark. Oh, wait. I have a show that's not'm about to do this really dark... Oh, wait. I have a show that's not depressing. It should be out in January. Notice how you didn't remember it for a second? You sick bitch. I know, right?

Can I get a comedy? I mean, I know I'm not funny, but I could at least... Oh my god, that's so sad. You've been being funny the whole time, bitch. Love yourself. No, but... On a comedy podcast being funny. No, but like... I'm like, how many podcasts being funny? No, but I mean like, I don't,

I think I'm a pretty light person. So the fact that I'm in all of these traumatic shows, I'm like, this is... That's why you're a good actress.

Yeah, it's depressing. I am on a show that isn't dark. But then I'm about to do this movie that's like a horror movie about like, it's so, it's so fucking dark.

And every single frame is like just dark and depressing. And I'm like, not again. The only problem with that is that I find in horror movies when the acting is actually good, it's really, really distracting. It's like you really need it to be bad sometimes. And to take you out of it. The hills have eyes when the rapes, I'm like, these rape scenes are literally, I'm PTSD twitching watching these.

I need someone to be bad at this. I need someone to like, look straight into the camera. I was like, turn it off! No, I'll wake up and, my boyfriend loves horror, so I'll just wake up to shit that's like so crazy.

As long as it's not true murder, I'm good. We have so many true murder shows on. I can't, like I used to be really into it. And I just cannot. It's not good. Yeah. I think that I was, I had a phase as well. But I realized it was also seeping into my mental health.

Because on my road trips, I would just be like sweating buckets. Yeah. No, it is very like, it really does bring you down and it's dark. And that's why I started like watching. Like, have you guys seen a hundred foot wave? Yeah. See, that shit's like, you know what really pissed me off about that documentary? What? The end when

they were like, it's COVID. I was like, literally this big massive build up and then It was like literally this big, massive buildup. And then it was like the wife, like stirring. She's always cooking. Yeah, she's always cooking. What is it? The whole time, I get it.

The wife, like, okay. But like, I was just like, this poor lady. She's on the fucking lighthouse calling, telling you where the waves are. I'm like, and then she's like always cooking. I'm like, can we stop showing like, and holding a baby. A cooking i'm like can we stop showing like this is a man holding a baby and i'm like chasing a really big wave right so he goes to nazare portugal and what really pissed me off about that he he was like he told his wife to surf one of the bigger the bigger sets that day and she washed up on shore she couldn't breathe

she was she she has such a bad pts PTSD that she can't even surf small waves anymore. And then he went out and kept surfing. Yes. By the way, I would fucking kill my husband if they told me to fucking go out and surf one of the biggest waves. And I was like, okay. And then I almost died. Yeah. I would be so fucking angry.

And there's footage of her just passed out on the fucking sand. Wouldn't you be angry? of her just passed out on the fucking sand. Wouldn't you be angry? You also have to probably see it from his side where it's like, you know when someone is just so impassioned about one thing and they fixate on that one thing and they have to conquer it? I imagine that's really just

all he dreams about all night. For sure. It's like she can't take that away from him, but also he can't make her surf those waves. Yeah. Like he probably just wanted her to like have the experience. No, because this is what Bobby did. But it is. This is what Bobby did bobby did to me it's just like here you should do stand-up you should do stand-up and guess what i did and i had a fucking heart attack on stage well some people some people like have a different temperament it's like it's it is weird to think that everyone

would want and that's why i have to remember like even when i'm talking about this like true crime stuff it's like well i just have my opinions like do your thing but it's like it's like other people have their thing that they want to do like there's no like right or wrong right yeah so I love doing stand-up but I completely understand how that is like not a thing you want to do no I like doing like when we're talking to Maddie and he's like completely sober like I don't drink but I do but I don't say I don't think like everyone you got to go do this or whatever yeah I will say when I get COVID tested think like, everyone, you got to go do this or whatever. Yeah. I will say when I get COVID tested, I'm always like, are you going to find special? Am I going to get diagnosed with special K?

Oh, you got up there. Wait, so see, you and I have this in common. We love the trashy reality love shows. Oh, yeah. I can go so far. Remember when I was in New York and then I think you were in New York, but we were there for two separate things and we were going back and forth about Dean

from The Bachelor. Oh my God. What about Dean? Dini baby? Dini babies. What about Dini baby? Wait did I, I,

oh my gosh this is so embarrassing. This is so fucking embarrassing. I talk to these people. Don't worry. I'm involved in these worlds. Wait you, do you know him?

I've never spoken to him but there's, I've gone for Survivor and before. Oh yeah, fucking love Survivor. I like them all. I mean, I liked like real world.

I saw Jemay from the real world in New Orleans and like took a picture with her. I like totally geeked out. She was like, wow. Do you watch The Challenge? Of course. I've talked to all of them. Oh God. Johnny Bananas is really avoiding me. I don't know why.

Why? Johnny, I bought your, I bought a picture. I'm a starstruck. A signed picture of Johnny Bananas when he took the money from Sarah and he chose to not give Sarah the money. I bought a signed picture. Johnny, like, Wes told you. Everyone's told you. I love Wes.

Jordan has told you. We love you, Wes. Wes knows. Wes looks at my, like, I'll see that he's looked at my stories and then I'll screen grab and I'll send it to him and be like, Wes, this means a lot. I just want you to know every time. Jordan. I fucking love Wes. Wasn't he used to be with Joanna, right?

Yeah, but that was so long ago. Yeah, he's married and lives in. I can totally see you guys being on the challenge. I think Annie and I could. I would love to be on the challenge. Both of you have the personalities and the look. I just don't have the alcoholism. Do you know Jordan?

Jordan. Oh, that's true. You didn't watch since Jordan. Well, I don't. A lot of them are fucking sober. You know Jordan, the one that has one hand? Of course. He was hot.

He came to my shows in Burbank. I got all these pictures with him. Yeah. They all live in LA, don't they? I want to know what you DM Dini baby. Okay. So it was before I knew that he had come back to Vassar in Paradise. This is before he got with Kaylin.

Yeah. Yeah. But obviously they were together in real life. It's just that. Oh, was that this? We didn't know it yet. Yeah. You know how?

No, they kept it a secret. You know what I mean? Like and you didn't know whether or not they stayed together or whatever. And I so I was at this is so fucking embarrassing. I had I had just like recently gotten out of like a five year relationship. So I was just being like wild. So just everywhere you stood was Bachelor in Paradise. Exactly.

Like in my head, but my group of friends is like 10 people. Like there was no option. So I was like, okay. So anyways, I was at my – I was somewhere and I was like – oh, when I was in my relationship, I didn't drink. Like I was sober full on and then when we broke up, I started like reintrodu when I was in my relationship I didn't drink like I was sober full-on and then when we broke up I started like reintroducing alcohol into my life did he not drink and that's why you didn't drink yeah basically I would say I mean I started drinking

like a year before we broke up I didn't really no no he knew but it was very much like one drink or two drinks you know oh my god was he jealous was he like you can just drink one or two drinks bitch he was just weird about other about other people maybe he's not anymore but like i feel like he didn't want he didn't like being around other people that were fucked up that was like a very big thing for him i like seeing that because it reminds me bobby does too he like nothing turns him on more than when i come home drunk out of my mind. Oh, really? Like, too bad for him, though. It happens, like, once every two years. Like, rarely.

Yeah. I don't ever really get drunk. And I was very much not going to get drunk when I was with him because he, like, did not like it. So I was like, okay, okay, I won't do it. And then it was just, you know, we broke up. So I was like, I'm free. Like, you know, whatever. So anyways, I think I was, like, tipsy.

free like you know whatever so anyways i think i was like tipsy we were at my house and i was with my friends and i was like i'm gonna i'm gonna um dm dean okay so we're all sitting around trying to figure it out like saying i i told everyone that he lived in a van like it was at a time that we were and so my friend michael took my my phone and just dm him. I know some good spots in LA with no street cleaning. So you can like park your van there. And I was like, this is perfect. Like, boy, come on. I had like the blue check. I was like, there's no fucking way he's not going to respond.

Like, no response. A week later, it comes out that he went back for Kaylin. Now they live together in the goddamn van. They are a really cute couple though and we did we did stand them so see to be fair we just didn't know they were getting back together I just didn't realize that bodes well for Dean that like he was in a relationship

with Kaylin and like he didn't respond to a DM you know I'm like that's awesome good for him just kidding I'm trying to think of celebrities I'vem'd that i never got a response back from but then i've only ever dm'd one person one celebrity in my whole life and he did reply and that's doug stanhope oh when i was living alone in long beach he's like my favorite comic

of all time i'm supposed to go to the desert with him i know but i know that he doesn't i canceled a weekend but when i was in my 20s i was just obsessed with him at the end of the month. I know, but I know that. If he doesn't, I cancel the weekend, Doug. But when I was in my 20s, I was just obsessed with him. And he was going to do a show at the Alex Bar in Long Beach. It was like a really small dive bar. And I was like, oh, this is so like his brand. Of course he would do a show here at Alex Bar. Who does a fucking show at Alex Bar? And I wrote him.

I was like, hey, you know, really innocently. I think I might have been like 23. I was like, oh my you know, really innocently. I think I might have been like 23. I was like, oh, my God, you're right down the street from me. He was like, great, bring the drugs. And that's all he ever replied with. And I was like, oh, obsessed. He's the best. I met Zach Galifianakis at the Snake Pit, the bar on,

I think it's on Sunset, when I was like 21 and he wasn't like famous famous like I think he'd been in what was the apple music video but the Fiona Apple music video great music what was the snowboarding movie he was in there was some snowboarding movie and he had and he had done I think there was he had a his special live at the Purple Onion was out and I said something there was some joke I was like oh I liked your joke about like fucking your cousin or something and he's like oh I don't this was way before I did comedy

and he's like I don't have that joke which I do believe he did have a joke and he was just maybe trolling me or whatever but I remember he gave me his number and then I called him you called? I just left him a message and I was like hey it's Annie from the snake pit and he never called me back but it was like it was a positive good interaction was it before so it was like you didn't dm you called you actually got his number

yeah I flipped my phone open yeah besides zini baby remember those envy phones that you go and they went oh yeah I never had one of those I never had one of those it was kind of like a sidekick yeah it was like a sidekick I remember the sidekick yeah you're right it was like a lame sidekick

aww Sosi have you ever oh my god Sosi no not like that it's just I remember the sidekicks had an easier flip and then like the envy speaking of envy

you have a little envy for the sidekick huh and for Kay I wonder if Kay kaylin probably had a sidekick she probably had a also have you ever shot your shot with anyone besides beanie babies no no i've never dm'd us like i said i feel like after when i turned 21 i was just in relationships so i know that was the first time that i had been single and I was single for like two weeks. So it's not like I had a lot of time getting tipsy.

I aggressively tried to get to manifest Liev Schreiber inside of me. And I even told my agent, I go, just get me to the Ray Donovan party. I'll do the rest. And then as time went on I it went away I don't want any crush I don't want I don't I don't I don't have I've never met an actress been impressed um I've never thought that nobody I've never like my crushes are never they're always on a character. Yeah. And then you see the person you go, oh, you're an actor. OK, I'm a psycho. Yeah, I think it's because actors like definitely a lot of them are very insecure. And I think it's like very easily sniff right when you meet them.

You know what I mean? They wear their insecurity like right on. Yeah. Right out there. So either they're like trying to prove that they're something that they're not or you know what I mean, they wear their insecurity like right on, right out there. So either they're like trying to prove that they're something that they're not or, you know what I mean? I mean, I'm dating an actor and my, every one of my family is an actor. So it sounds like I'm, I don't know. Shitting on your whole family.

Was your dad, did you feel like, did you, did you miss your dad when he was filming The Invisible Man? Were you like, more like the invisible dad I saw that with my dad which is a double feature can I take these off wait what was it called it wasn't called the invisible man

what was it called hollow man hollow man fuck no it's fine hollow dad hollow dad it's like ghost dad except

I don't even remember we were all there except him you know what I mean the associate asked if we had any snacks today, and we do. Did I? What do we have to eat?

Like gross snacks? I feel like we're just repeating at this point. I feel like I've eaten these before. What are these? Oh, this is earthworm jerky. Every time I eat one of these, I feel like Kalilah's vagina. Nothing. I've never tried this.

Is it good? Let's hypnotize. I'll find some hypnosis. I'll ask my hypnotist if we can do this one, mind-blowing orgasm one. What you said, can you just like smoke out the demons out of my pussy? Maybe.

I think there are demons in there. Let's de-demonize it. Angry horned demons. What is this? These are bug kebabs. Oh, we got bug kebabs. This tastes like the flavor of the jerky, not the earthworm.

That's what I'm saying. I'm never like. I feel like they put too much jerky, not the earthworm. That's what I'm saying. I'm never like. I feel like they put too much stuff on it, like garlic and. Okay, here. We have a kebab and I'll tell you. Okay, they look like worms and crickets. Oh, my God. There's a cricket face.

It's okay. I want to see a face. I want to eat a face. Oh, okay. Grasshopper. Silkworms. And salt. There you go.

It's going to taste like salt. It's actually tastier than all the other stuff that we've had in the past. What is that? That's a lot. This one's not as bad, Annie. Better than all the previous ones. Do you see the eyes? Do you think that we could be on the challenge because we could eat like gross stuff?

Do you eat anything? Do I eat anything? What do you mean? I mean like what are your do you mean? I mean, like what are your limits with food? I don't have any like limits or allergies or anything. These are good. Yeah.

They're not bad, right? Oh, Esther, you changed. You changed Esther. Can I have another banana? All the fans,

let Esther know you miss her in the comments. I think this would have been more fun with Esther here. I'm sorry. I'm sorry. The one part. I know. I'm sorry. I'm not freaking out enough at the I'm so like, I mean, we're gonna have to really start up in this because I'm really getting like, very immune to board. What you got Pete? If you motherfuckers bring a cockroach in here, though, everyone is's the only thing we can do oh you i i dare you oh my god patreon can you eat i'm gonna keep this for later no

it's the whole bag jerky just tastes like jerky flavor you know what you mean like it's all too flavorful or it's like a the taste of like something that's been in a bag for yeah yeah yeah shelf life taste yeah wait do you have like um dietary restrictions like of like gluten or yeah we don't i get a rash on my legs with gluten but i just don't push through it go right through it i know you push right through it it's just annoying it's like i i mean i would like to maybe start listening to my body more yeah and like daily diarrhea probably isn't good look I I chronically shit blood and I just power through life because I'm unwilling to give up the food that I like I know I'm like anything is well I remember going to get like

my mom took me to a homeopath doctor and they did the thing where that you like hold like a jar with and it says eggs in it and you push down which I'm always like are you gonna be it by the hour I'm so confused but I mean I guess it's muscle testing but I'm always like didn't aren't I just okay you're pushing oh wait can I tell you the reason why I broke up with a guy yeah in seventh grade David Romberg I'm saying full names here he knows what I'm talking about showed up he was in eighth grade we were boyfriend and girlfriend for a couple weeks. His dad was an artist. He's from Argentina. He's cool. Dave's cool. He's still cool.

He showed up in leather pants and I was like, goodbye. We're too young to take fashion risks like this. I was so humiliated. I couldn't believe it. I was so mortified. That's embarrassing. And we were done. Oh my gosh. Do you know that one time? Oh, this was actually in high school. Okay. High school, not college. Are you

sure? I swear this was really in high school. Cause I remember I called my high school best friend. I called my best friend and I was like, I think I was hooking up with this guy. Was this Hannah or she was dead? I can't imagine you having a real high school life. I had just gotten my alligator neck tat. And no, I went over to this guy that I was hooking up with's house and we like made out. And I called my friend and I was like, normally when I really like someone, like I don't, I won't have to poop around them for a really long time. And I had to poop while I was over there.

Do you think that means that I don't like him? That's so fucked up. That's obviously my problem. I was, like, blaming it on literally anything but the fact that I just obviously didn't like him. You know what I mean? I was like, this is a sign. But it was your body telling you listen I want to take a dump in front of this guy that's how much I don't want to find yes that's

what in my head that's the way I sort of like rationalize it and I didn't really like him it's like that obviously was true but I was like I called my best friend and she was like so see that's so messed up sociopathicic. Yeah. You are, right? I feel – look, here's my thing about feeling the ick. The ick comes within a two-week window of first getting with someone. Is that a small dick, an ick? Yes. Hard to feel sometimes.

It's suctioning. But do you know what? You've been with a micropenis, right? Of course. Yeah. I was in love I was in love and love with a guy with micro penis. So Wait, I'm not a shallow micro. She is saying was and we are hoping The love is fading

You guys aren't in love anymore? But yeah, it's in that first two-week window where you're first hooking up with someone that just about anything can kind of like turn you off But the truth is it's your intuition being like this isn't like there's so much going on when you're first dating someone. Right. It's like you have like the pheromone match or not. Yes. You have like the excitement of something new. And honestly, like I was attached. And I think just because of like the way the chaos in my household when I was a kid, it's like just I liked the idea that someone wasn't going to like me. But I don't know.

It was like really sick. So I was like, it's the unknowing that's exciting and stuff. But then when you realize you like had them, you're like. Yeah. When you have to poop in front of them for the first time. Oh, I know. What a sad, sad day that is. Pinch one off.

But you know. No, definitely it's not, this will not last. A lot of it too is not necessarily your ick against that person. It's your ick of yourself with that person. And it's reflecting off. It's reflecting because my friend, she was dating a b-boy. And the first night that they slept together, they were spooning and she farted on his dick. B-boy, like a breakdancer.

And they were spooning and she farted on his dick. Well, it's hard because he was spinning on spinning her it's hard to hold in a fart and she was so ashamed of herself that like she just ended it completely like the next yeah totally it could be about your own it could be about your own behavior around them and you're like ew i'm so gross with this person i fart on todd's dick like it's an alarm in the morning for him to get up. I'm like, I can't wait. I flip onto his dick. If I'm away from him, I'm like, wake up, sunshine. And I will say, Todd and I wake up very happy. We wake up extremely happy.

I bring Randy up to get in the cloud. That's so cute. Yes. That's really cute. You guys, thank you so much. This has been Trash Tuesday. And it was an absolute fucking delight what a treat

thanks for having me you have to come back so soon I will do you want to know what we were going to dress as what

eggs so you'd be the bacon can you imagine if we just didn't like let you invisible man oh my god we just didn't show up

we just didn't show up we just didn't show up this is what it was like when you were a kid it wasn't it you talking and then just subtitles oh my god oh for Halloween by the way if you want to join us I don't know if you saw the movie Con Air

if you've seen it you're uninvited to our Halloween party we forgive you we don't like you anymore but we forgive you didn't watch last season of the show I know I know wow

no it's just exciting is it a good one everything's good it's always good but this season's good too I mean they're always good oh they're so good well thank you guys

so much for watching we'll see you next week I got a concussion and his penis flopped out. So we have it. I have like four strands of hair left. No, we were just talking about this. So do I. I have clip-ins in right now.

No, but your hair is not. I do have nice hair. Yeah. I just need it. Yeah. You should. I do have nice hair. Yeah. I just need it. Yeah. You should clip it into your pubes. Yeah. We did get it.