Trash Tuesday w/ Esther Povitsky & Khalyla Kuhn - Trisha Paytas is Gen Z Madonna

Episode Date: January 24, 2023

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identity i'm like what do i do today so this was the look i was going for i'm not italian either everyone keeps asking me like are you italian like everywhere i went today on a reference right that's exactly it you get it yeah and no one else literally nobody i've never seen esther so happy i saw her post today and i instantly listed blasted pop it don't preach on my way here i'm getting in the mood i love it i love that you know that's why we're soulmates like i really do feel connected to you when i text you as i connected oh thanks yeah i saw girls wearing this every girl wears like alex or where is these and like those are so cute we're so blessed that you have been dressing as a mcdonald's employee

that's been the best everything you're doing is perfect that's how i know i'm living at the christmas special oh wow oh my god no you haven't no one's seen it you haven't like um well go watch it yeah there's a lot of content for you but you okay your husband's so much like my boyfriend where it's like you just have like a person there that's just like there to make you happy and do all of your things. And it's everything. It's the best. I've never had someone like that ever in my life. And he just goes along with everything.

And he's just so great. And he's like happy to do it too. It's like you have to like drag him to do it. He like loves to do it. Yeah, it's really fun. I love that you watched it. That's super cool. Just us with one camera.

We did buy microphones for that though. We did get like microphones. just us with one camera we did buy microphones for that though we did get like microphones and trisha how is life since becoming the mother to the most beautiful little malibu barbie i've ever seen oh my god thank you first of all i is so amazing it's so fun i mean it's it is like a lot of work but it's like literally so much fun like i literally like can't get any work done like i just have like so much fun with her she's like a doll and i know like whatever you're not like supposed to say that but she's like a little doll that you dress up because we were like babies aren't dolls that you just dress up and like literally that's what i do with my baby

all day it's like dress her up and she's so cute i just i love it it's like been the best thing ever i like miss i usually bring her with me like i brought her to like the zach sang show like i usually bring her with me everywhere but i was like let me just like not bring the baby everywhere esther are we not going to be those types of moms where we're like bringing like natasha our friend brought her baby pretty much on stage with her like she had the baby yeah she had the baby in like one of those like things that goes in the car and you can take it out

I don't know if that's going to be I think I've decided if I have a baby that I probably won't ever really meet it like you'd quit motherhood right away wait what would you do you just push it out and then like drop it at my doorstep oh i'm eyeing a few people oh my gosh a lot of our nanny but i have embryos so i'm

just gonna give her my embryos to burn i would love one of your embryos i feel like those shoulders i think you'd be okay tell you about my shoulders you might change your mind i have two you've been saying all of these years that you love my broad shoulders it turns out both of my shoulders according to an orthopedic surgeon today are shit shoulders they're both gone that's what the doctor said what grade four chondrosis i was like you're telling me i have chondrosis he was like bone on bone shit shoulders is what he said oh my god i just got horny and so you're gonna be so jealous but he says i've this is usually like an old person thing and also you need like soulmate total shoulder replacement

shoulder replacement no you can't do like you can have my can't joe dispensa your shoulders back but they did say he did say there's another procedure called oats where they can get cartilage from a dead person and put it in my shoulders. Do you love her or not? Kill yourself. You have to give your shoulders to her. First of all, I would give my shoulders alive and well.

Your shoulders would do nothing for a grown person. Now I really want something to go wrong with me where I need to take something from a dead person I want to have like dead person The idea truly excited me because I'm like I have extra shoulder I can give you some I would love it Wait what part do they put in? They put in a skin or a bone

into your shoulder? In between the socket where the cartilage is basically gone so they take cartilage from uh yeah from a daddy and then they put it in there barbara walters is fresh oh my god did she die oh i didn't know shit you're kind of excited no i'm so happy but people write like that's the problem with death like i know when i die people will be happy and like that's the problem No of course They will be it's like people were like excited like Barbara Walters

Was like you know this this and this and she like criticized Brooke Shields and people get like so nasty about people when they die And I'm like I have so many things for me to be nasty about But I didn't know she died that's so sad what did she die of just old I think she was 93 Yeah it was time but R.I.P. to a legend we would love to mine Some of her cartilage

Put it in your shoulder Imagine But RIP to a legend we would love to mine some of her cartilage But here's about Barbara Walters I watched this clip of her doing an old interview with Dolly Parton and it was the first time where I genuinely hated her She can be a bitch. Yeah, her interviews were crazy But no, but doesn't that kind of make a good interview when someone pushes a little that's what all interviews are And that's when you're like this being reporters reporter is like such a weird, fucked up job. This is why Madonna hates journalists. Right. Famously.

I remember I was a journalism student and I basically dropped out of school because she said that. Wait, you were a journalism student because you thought you were going to be like, welcome to Fox. I don't know what I thought, but I quit. That's so funny. I could see it being like the weather girl. They put you on an Apple box. You. That's so funny. I could see it being like the weather girl. They put you on an Apple box.

You know what's so funny? I don't know if you guys have seen these clips, but in COVID, you know how like the news anchors are doing their news from home or they were. There's like a guy doing the weather and his dog like kept getting into the frame and like rooting the green screen. It was so cute. He had like a green screen in his house doing it. Yeah.

Oh, that's everything. I would love to be a weather girl, but I feel like you have to go to college for it or no? Like you can just do it. I doubt it. Do you have to go to college for anything anymore? Yeah, I don't think so. I go to YouTube U. I'm a doctor.

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My pleasure. Wherever you listen to audio. It's very strange. Oh my God, look at all your props. What's all happening over there? This is what we used to be called Bloodbath. And then so as a present, Pete, our beautiful Pete, Predator Pete. Don't let him around your daughter.

Yeah, he's not a predator. He's into babies. I'm so sorry. It's not true. He's the least predatory person out of everybody. But he got the nickname. But that's why we call him. Why?

Why though? Well, during our live show, we were being sexual and Pete was there. So I guess he got blamed for it. I think you said like pervy Pete. Why did they say predator Pete? That's so aggressive. It's so good. It just. Yeah, I guess. Just waiting for Chris they said like pervy pee why do they say predator that's so aggressive so good it just yeah yeah Hanson to bust in with

that's a show I miss I miss Chris Hanson got a new one out on true blue there's some new blue the name of the album 1986 okay we're I didn't know you were such a fangirl Madonna.

I taught an extracurricular class in college called Madonna 101. We, I made our dolls. You line your teddy bears up. Participants were not willing. You are correct. I had to force my friends to make it an official club to get like the right number of people to let the college,

the college would let us rent a room out. I can't believe you dropped out when you had all this ambition. Blonde ambition. Blonde ambition. One of the most iconic tours. Are you like are you you seem like you're probably a pretty serious Madonna girly, right? It's so funny. Like I wasn't.

And then I feel like I found out Britney was a big Madonna fan when I was, like, a teenager. So I was like, I have to become a Madonna fan. So everything I know is kind of, like, through Britney. I'm not, like, the biggest. Like, I don't know too much. But I do love the Papa Don't Preach, like, video in general. And the reason I found that song is because of Kelly Osbourne. I, like, love her cover. I love Kelly Osbourne. So good. So good. I love it. I'm a failure.

Yes. I live for Kelly Osbourne. She does everything. And then at the VMAs, when she, like, ran down the stairs and said Papa Don't Preach. And I had no idea it was Madonna. So then I, like, watched the video, and and at the VMAs and she like ran down the stairs and saying don't preach and I had no idea it was Madonna so then I like watched the video I saw the video Madonna was like super sexual like having a baby and stuff like I was like oh that's everything like and then I like fell in love so I'm not like a huge like I do love Madonna but like do you know she said she saw one of my videos I love you Jesus and she said I had an angelic voice Madonna yeah I reacted to it on my thing I was like super excited but it was under the guise of TikTok live there was this like comedian on TikTok Live named Terry Jo and she was

showing her the I Love You Jesus video saying it was her. And she was like, oh, your voice is really beautiful. But technically it was my voice. So I was like, not to offend my voice. I love Terry. I love that you love, you know. All day long. It's just Terry Jo all day long. Yeah. The lives are great. I join in like lives

any time I can. She's like so comedically funny. Like I cannot keep up with it. Like she's so good. She's such a good troll. You guys know Terry Jo? No, I'm excited. So good. How do you describe?

So she does these lives and she plays this character of Terry Jo and she's basically, well, she's, well, how do we describe? She's supposed to be a Christian girl. Yes. Right? A pious girl but

she is she gets on the lives with bob the drag queen doja cat and hilarious and madonna she like does lots of lives with madonna it's crazy like madonna like promised her a car and she sent her like a little bmw like portable like it's great like it's like madonna has like long chats with this person and like she's like a troll like it's a troll obviously like she's christian but then also talks about being like horny and like being molested and all this stuff like that so it's like she's like a troll it's like kind of it's like interesting yeah i'm the top molested quaker i have to be a top molested something you're the top molested filipino swimmer yeah so specific top molested filipino mermaid i love that positive spin yes when i'm on the road people be like where esther and kalilah i'm like

esther's probably shooting a movie and kalilah is in the fucking ocean kalilah is under the sea i was like she's not above water i'll tell you that having the guilt wait so you actually i have to say because we know we were earlier joking about like how I was like, she's not above water. I'll tell you that. Having the girls. Wait, so you actually, I have to say, because we know we were earlier joking about like how motherhood is scary, whatever. I don't want to do it. But you have been giving me like vibes that you could really become a mom, love it, and still be yourself. Do you feel that way?

Yeah, totally. I really did think I would change like, you know, personality wise and stuff like that. But anything, I feel like if anything anything like being like having a kid makes you like want to be a kid even more like I have so much fun like every time I dress up and like go upstairs she like has the biggest smiles on her face like oh my god she thinks it's like so cool and she's like four months and I'm like how does she even know you are baby like you're like a baby like adult so it's like perfect you get to dress up with your baby so perfect it really is I'm like oh my god everything matching like all the Halloween costumes

like six Halloween costumes this year. Like everything is great. I love it. It's like it's literally so much fun. And it's weird. Like I always want to be a mom, but I like thought I would like, like I said,

be so different. I think, I think it's harder to take care of a dog than a child. So if you have a dog, I think like it's so easy to take care of a child. I had a dog for one week

and I was like, I gave it to my mom. I could not do it. It was so hard because they kind of poop everywhere like babies are contained poop and stuff it's not like that bad maybe diapers for dogs oh yeah they have those normalize right you're saying you're saying i'm gonna be an exceptional mom i have four shithead dogs oh my god that's right and one of them is like a dick

of a violent dick biter oh my god yeah you don't think you'd be a good mom huh you don't think you'd be a good mom you're a mommy yeah you're a mom by which shoulders how am i gonna carry my babies you gotta train the dogs to carry them wait do you want kids do you want kids yeah um or no yeah i i actually do i but i um it's been a kind of a testy subject because I never felt like in my last relationship that I could be um I don't know that we could be successful parents together yeah but I always had faith in my own ability but only in the last like three years before that I was like oh I am unhealed no that's exactly how I felt I was like like, I will fucking, a kid will die. I will be the, leave it in the car, girl.

It's scary. But if you have the right, it really is about the right partner. Because like, I feel like I want to get pregnant so many times with so many like people that I like, you know, and it never happened. But I'm so glad it happened with my husband because he is like such like a, like he really does do all, like helps out so much. Like he does like a lot of the work. And some people always are like, Moses takes care of that baby.

I'm like, well, a dad like should take care of his baby yeah you know what i mean my boyfriend todd will take care if he could burn the kids he'd burn the kids i'm like you do it i love it i hate that people like shame like guys who want to take care of the kids or like be like a primary caregiver and stuff like that it's like so crazy to me i'm like he's so good but any other like person i would have had a kid with would have been like a disaster i would have like lost my mind you know but if i need like a break to go get like coffee for like an hour like he's so good to just like watch her and like don't even like question like i need to come home and take it like he's so good like that even like this he's just like oh have

fun it's okay okay trish i have a question for you because this is something i've been thinking about a while just like in my own life and because we're the same age and have very similar interests i want to know if you relate like i feel like we're the same age you both give baby like you all she gets elderly baby right like benjamin button when he's the she's like fun happy baby right she's like just like learning like like looking at lights and nuggets no but you're baby vibes in a good in like the best way i see you on shows and you're always like a little kid and that's like everything thank Thank you. I feel like I'm realizing that I am a millennial in age, but like a Gen Z in spirit. I feel like I'm connecting with the Gen Z generation so much more. I feel so much more similar to them.

Do you also feel this way? A thousand percent. I just did a collab yesterday with like these TikTokers. They're like 21 or something like that. They're on the new season of RuPaul's Drag Race. And like literally they were so like young and like everything. I was like, oh yeah, me too. I just felt like I was like part of them.

Like I knew everything that they were talking about and relating to. I was getting the Stanley Cups. I was getting the mini Uggs. I was like, yeah, I like feel like I'm one of you. It's so weird because like my generation of YouTubers are so like just over social media. Oh, social media is awful and so hard. And like this new generation is just like all about it, embracing it. I love everything about it.

Yeah. You gotta roll with it. It's like why are you against the movement of life. Yeah. Surrender. Go with it. Paths of least resistance. Yes.

It's fun. Paula Abdul's really good at keeping up with the new generation. I was going to bring her out. She's all over TikTok. Yeah. She's the best. They've literally, her people like contact me like, do you want to do like a mukbang with Paula Abdul?

And I see her everywhere now. And I was like, that's everything. She's really like killing the game. I met her at the comedy store. She follows me on Instagram now. Oh, really? Oh, let on here oh she's thousand percent would she's just everywhere um yeah my brother my twin brother and I were like obsessed with her we had a cousin who ended up being gay but we didn't know him we were kids but he was obsessed with Madonna and Paula Abdul so once we would hang out with him it was like that's all we were obsessed with too we We just copied him. I have a question for you Esther,

since you never inherited any family heirlooms, are there any, is there anything in your life right now that you plan on passing on to your child that you're keeping safe? Cause I know that was a really big pain point for you. The Prada shoes. Iconic. Good question.

Well, I think every, all of my stuff they have to preserve. I would love to. My ideal scenario in life would be to be able to keep my childhood home and have that. I feel like the only reason I want to have a kid is so that someone can inherit that house from me. Because you don't want to actually live in it. You want to be in the basement. Yes. You're a basement dweller.

You're not sleeping in a room. Yes. Mommy wants to live in your basement but what are your thoughts like on me saying that i only want one do you feel like oh that'll make sense or do you think my mind will change no i think that makes so much i'm on tiktok right now where it's one and done i don't know if it's like telling me something you know everyone's on like tiktok page saying like that's the way to go i totally get it because it is like it is like a lot of work like so many people i know like just people have like regular jobs have like nannies and stuff like that because it's so much work

And I used to be like so against nannies. I'd be like, oh my god people have nannies We don't have one right now But I see why people have it because it's so much work and it's so exhausting and so tiring and like my baby hasn't slept Through the night yet. So it's just like so tiring So like I get it and also it's like you can spoil that baby The only reason I think I want like I want more is like because I liked having siblings, you know Like I just liked having – Yeah, it's fun.

Yeah. You kind of have someone and I always think when my parents pass away, my older brother will take care of it. I don't have to take care of it. As opposed to you're the only person, you're the only person left. You know what I mean? And it's like, yeah, you have so much attachment to your parents then. Yeah, right.

Remember when we were having our mom-ic conversation in Montreal? Yeah. One of our friends is an only child. Yeah. And she was saying she has so much. Her parents are older, too. So her parents are in their 70s and she's our age. And so she was like, I feel so much pressure to like, I got to create my own family now because my family will be gone.

Yeah, that's how I feel about that, too. But I know I have cousins and stuff, too. If you're close with them. Yeah. Do you have like siblings around here that like have kids and stuff? No, I have no one. Are you an only child? I so I'm a half. i have a half older sister but so i think because like for me i've just realized like

it's part of my culture to just have one because like my dad was an only child which was very rare for that time and like i was kind of a half only child so i think i'm like i think i've i've locked into this for myself i mean who knows by way, I could end up never having kids. I could have five kids like who fucking knows. It's also like not being attached to an outcome. It's like puppies. It's like puppies. It's like one or five.

You cannot have like anywhere in between. Like it's the same five and one is the same. I don't know. I swear to you. I don't get it. I swear to you because they all end up just entertaining each other and you're like, all right. Right.

But you're a two. I'm a two. And my, we were saying about nannies earlier. And I accepted it. I was like, yeah, I'm a two. Nobody thinks you're a two. So I grew up in a country where it is everyone. It doesn't matter like where you are on on the ladder everyone is has a nanny

you grow up with a nanny and but what happened with me was i grew up um my parents were very rich and so i had about like six nannies growing up and then what happened was my parents lost all their money and then i had i think from starting the age of eight or nine, the nannies went from six to four to just one lady. And that's when my mom started beating my ass. So it's like as soon as she lost the help around the house, all of her frustration started to like bubble over. And then the kids paid for it. So the rule is if you have nannies, keep the nannies until they're older or else the parents will start beating. Wait, because like you're...

You think she was like overwhelmed or she was angry? She was overwhelmed. Clip it for TikTok. That's why it's like keep them until they're 18 and then you can release the nannies. Don't do it in between because the mom will be like, what the fuck? I got to deal with your ass and just start beating you. But maybe when... How old were you?

How old were you when the nannies stopped? Right around eight. So it went from six nannies to like one and then it was occasional. Six nannies for two kids? Yeah,

because in the Philippines you have some, a lady that washes your clothes and you have someone who drives the car. You know, you have, they call it a maid's quarter

where the nannies live. We had like a little back house. Wow. So, yeah. So you're like five nannies live. We had like a little back house. So, yeah. So you're like five nannies in one as a person. I keep thinking about you and Jules bucketing out the water. I went home to tell her, they were just bucketing out the water. I just like imagining you and Jules just like back at home, like back in your homeland,

just bucketing water out of your house. It's true. No one else was helping you, just the two of you? Just the two of us. So sad. When she leaves work, that's what she does. Her shoulders are like. Do you know what is so annoying is when you go to a doctor's appointment and you feel

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die if you're like not around and the fact you have to like go back to work after three months is like insane to me like leaving my daughter for like an hour I like feel like she has like attachment you know like all stuff like that it's so weird I think they should get paid time off for like a year I think any other country does that they like give like moms like this like huge pay time off a year it's like really weird and really bad and like they don't pay them enough it's like crazy because being it's it's so hard it's so hard and i get the nanny thing is interesting like having two nannies they should like part of the government or something now uh speaking of um of newborns you have a newborn on your finger here oh yeah wow

it's so pretty that is i've been looking at rings with my boyfriend and he's like what size who are you competing with what size you and i'm like i'm competing with fucking like gwen stefanium oh my gosh i want like the bigger you know yeah but we ended up finding my mom found a um an old heirloom that she didn't know about from my great aunt that's from the 1800s it's like this emerald with all these diamonds so we're getting it like redesigned wait so you know you're gonna get proposed to oh yeah but so but yeah but so so my boyfriend and Whitney are gonna like plan a like some sort of flash mob or something to surprise oh my god that's everything some sort of something crazy to surprise is it for content not be more opposite that's like I've I

literally have a no flash mob policy you also showed up at his hotel room with like a gun it wasn't like wait did you surprise was whether he was gonna live or not i went to his bachelor party we were already engaged but you know but it was it didn't go well the wedding didn't show up what did you push him to do at the bachelor party? No, I just, I surprised. I thought it would be like a fun surprise. The girl who hates surprises loves to do that. Yeah.

Ooh. What was the surprise? Me knocking on the door of his hotel room. When he's trying to hang out with his boys. It did not go well. Was he with like a hooker or something? No, he wasn't. It wasn't fun.

She wouldn't like it. Right. He was literally watching the news. Oh, you guys are soulmates. I know. Thank you. Yeah, it did not go well. But wait, okay.

Question. Are you getting married? Because you've been engaged longer than me. You've been engaged for like so long. I know, it's weird. We're all going to get married before. Yeah, that happens. I mean, at this rate, I'm going to get married.

For sure. I don't even have anybody. I have a Christmas present for Kalilah, but it's in my car. And so I don't know if I should get it now or during banana break. Should I do it at banana break? Yeah. I'll do it at banana break.

I love that you still do those. I love it. That's everything. Yes. I thought that was like, just like a one-time thing, but then I watch your show and I'm like, oh,

they always do like banana break. And everyone's like mad at us for it, but we can't. Oh, they don't like to eat so much. The misophonic people. Yeah. I love it.

Trisha, we've seen you do so much. Musicals, you know, becoming different fast food, fast casual employees. What can you tell us about what you want for this year? What's coming down the pipeline? What's inspiring you? What are we going to see? Oh, my gosh.

Okay, so I play like the Mega Millions every Tuesday and Friday. It's over a billion dollars right now. It's like $1.3 billion. I always play it. I get $20 worth like every Tuesday, Friday. Like I swear a billion dollars right now. It's like 1.3 billion. I always play it. I get $20 worth like every Tuesday, Friday. Like I swear I'm going to win it. Like I see it in my head. So if I won the Mega Millions and get the billion dollars, I would go to India and I

really want to make like a Bollywood film. Like I really – about like me and Moses' like love story and like really do like the whole thing. Like I really, really – I like that you want it to be a billion dollar budget. That's so good. It will because it has to be. It has to be really grand. I want to go so good. It will because it has to be. It has to be really grand.

I want to go to India. I want to do it. Because I always like saw myself adopting kids from India too. So maybe I'll do that. Yeah, you can be in it. I like learn the dances. The little like light ball thing. I had like a social media team who behind my back bought all these like really cheap

ads. And so then I all of a sudden had all these like Indian, like everything was Indian. Oh, yeah. But it was like at midnight in India. It was like the weirdest thing. I was like, why is everyone Indian? Where was this at? Where was this on?

It was, no, my social media team. I had to fire them because I was like, did you do something? Like, no, we didn't do anything. And then all of a sudden, it was like all my reach was in India all of a sudden. So then I learned like Bollywood dances and stuff on my solo podcast. They might buy them too because I had someone Do that on my Facebook like monetize it and Then all of a sudden like everyone from India was like Watching my video so I don't know if they like bought them

Or they just get like a bunch of people in India to do it Yeah I was like I don't want that I want real I want authentic not the India I love an Indian artist We have a producer he's like How would you describe George He's like kind of this nerdy He's like

He had Bollywood How would you describe George? He's kind of this nerdy. Yeah, you didn't meet George. He had Bollywood dreams too. So he grew up. George and Bollywood? Yes, he moved to India to become a Bollywood director. What? You guys don't know this?

So he grew up. The story unfolds. Oh, wait. He grew up in a religious. He had a religious upbringing. And they were not a lot of things, which was dancing, no caffeine, no eating meat, nothing. So when he was finally, when he turned 18, I think like he lined up cocaine and like all like, and he was like, I'm going to move to India and be a Bollywood director. And he lived there for a couple of years. Did he do anything? Did he do anything?

I think at most he was a PA. Wait a second. George is a failed Bollywood director and he lived there for a couple years. Did he do anything? Did he do any, like, I think at most he was a PA on, Wait a second, George is a failed Bollywood director? He is, yeah. I will hire him.

He plays a lot. He does seem like he has a dream that hasn't been realized. Oh, he's fighting something. I thought maybe he was in the closet,

but it's not. It's the Bollywood. It's just the Bollywood. I will totally hire him as the director because I don't have a director in mind. I have actors in mind,

but I don't have a good director. Fulfill each other's dreams and he knows all of the big Indian. He knows them by first, middle, last name. I want to dress her like George. If we had this wig, but it had a mullet.

Like who? And then put George's glasses on her. Character George. I'll do it. I'll cosplay anybody. That'd be so fun. It really is so fun. It's so cute.

I love it. Oh my God. That's so crazy. Wow. Maybe that's meant to be that. Oh my gosh. Who's that? Oh, that's cute. I love it. Oh, my God. That's so crazy. Wow. Maybe that's meant to be that. Oh, my gosh. Who's that? Oh, that's him.

That's George. Oh, I did. You met him. Yeah. Yeah. Okay. I was like, he looks so familiar. Did he have a baby?

He just had a second baby, a girl. And he says it's like night and day from when he had his first boy. Oh, the feeling of having the kid? No, the baby. She's just dreamy and sleeps. Oh, I like that. And, you know, just softer and much easier. How do you guys feel about like the parenting style?

Like what George had? We're, I guess that's like a religion. I don't know. We're like, you're not allowed to have anything fun. I'll tell you what happens. He went to Columbia and got like basically date raped and robbed. That's what happens. If you restrict the child too much, they're going to up and leave to Columbia and get date raped. They're going what happens if you restrict the child too much they're gonna up and

leave to colombia and get they're gonna sniff that virgin out well let me take this guy's virginity like i grew up with no religion and no rules so that's all i know but i do feel like it made me not like when i got to college i didn't try drugs i didn't try alcohol because i was just like i there wasn't that like restraint or i don't know it wasn't like you didn't you feel like it wasn't naughty yeah it wasn't bad yeah so i'm just like it does i wonder like what is the right level though because i'm definitely not okay but like you're okay but you're good you know you're not like dead in a ditch you know yeah which is like totally because i think i mine mine's kind of like the opposite like i kind of grew up like i wouldn't

say like strict we weren't like you know like you know whatever but my dad was like super religious like catholic all stuff like that so like it was very much like you can't have sex until you're married don't live with someone until you're married like that kind of stuff so then like yeah when i turned like i mean i was like under 18 like 17 when i came to la like i literally i was just like full throttle like having sex with everyone i could like try any drug i could because i was like well this is like what people do and like you know i thought it was like fun and no one told me like i was never told like how you get pregnant how to give a blow job like none of this stuff yeah so like in our school we were taught abstinence and we weren't taught like condoms so like i've never this is like so

embarrassing but what that's not embarrassing it's whatever i never like wore a condom with anyone because like i didn't even like no i No, I didn't know what they were. Like it just seemed like something that like I did not want in my body. Well, if it makes you feel better. I like how you say wearing a condom like you think you have to put it in. Yeah, right. Like you put it in and then they put their dick in. I didn't teach you.

If it makes you feel better. I grew up with a like very Jewish liberal education and I definitely learned about condoms and I also did not use them. Yeah. Okay. Guys, condoms. Shmondom. We know Kalilah doesn't use them kalilah doesn't use we're not a real condom can you can you tell trish about the time when you were like you told a boy that no we don't need to wear a condom and he still insisted yes oh the first time i had sex

with the guy it was on our third date and i was like no we don't need a car i was like oh no we don't need a condom and he's like no we should use one and now he's gonna be my husband oh is it really did you wake up in a puddle was that who you bled for no that was a different guy where i woke up with my period and i was like i mean i can't tell you how many times they're like you're so wet i'm like yeah I am pretty wet And they're like Oh my god I have people get mad at me They get like so pissed Like why are you on my period

I'm like I just It just started like You popped it You popped my period You plunged it out But that really is a thing You can plunge it out I think But I do think it helps

Like when you have like heavy flow It does help to get a dick and down I think so too You get the big clots Yeah But you gotta do it in the shower If I'm having a big crampy day, I go to the shower and I ask my partner,

will you please plunge me? No way. He gets the clots just come out and my cramps feel better. Esther gets her shit for fecal. Esther, try it. Because do you get big cherries and apples in there? I mean, of course I have it all. But the thought of sex on my period

is very difficult for me. Like that is, I'm just, I don't want- You have to surrender to it. I don't want anyone in the same room with me when I have my period. Oh, because you just feel really ill. So you don't scrub? You guys have, like you enjoy periods?

Well, I have so much anxiety about getting pregnant because Todd's like my person and my guy and who I know, we have frozen embryos, but I just like don't want to get pregnant yet because I'm just having so much fun on the road you know and so I have so much anxiety that I know my like least least chance of me getting pregnant is when I'm on my period I think I just am super horny on my period I get like that too and I do get yeah because you are kind of wet you're like okay no totally and you just want to like do it I mean I kind of agree with you where I'm kind of like it is like i don't know i don't like love it but i do get so horny on it

where i'm like okay well i don't want to like stick a toy in there so i was just like let's do but the shower is a good the shower is a good alternative because i don't like it on the bed like with a towel like it's just a little sticky and like gross but yeah i mean i agree nannies i need a nanny to do the laundry i need a nanny and then I need one nanny to take my period. Towel up. Towel up. Well, like, were you Jewish now? No? Or just raised Jewish? I was basically raised, like, kind of half, like, barely religious Jew. Like, I went to Jewish preschool.

And, like, culturally, we did all the things. But I didn't – my dad was not religious. So we didn't do the religious stuff. And you're not practicing now? No. Because, like, Jewish and Judaism, like, you're not even supposed to sleep in the same room as your wife when she's on her period like you sleep in like separate beds for like respectful isn't that orthodox only though i feel like that's like super strict orthodox right i see it on my tiktok again

i'm on like this like weird like jewish tiktok now where it's like always talking about like when you can have sex and like and you can't use protection when you're like jewish because it's like you know trying to like interfere with god's plan like it's like always talking about like when you can have sex and like and you can't use protection when you're like jewish because it's like you know trying to like interfere with god's plan like it's like really interesting well i like that so when you're on your period like you're the meat and they're the milk and it has to be like it's interesting i was like wow it's so interesting and i think it's like two weeks they can't sleep with each other how is judaism going for you i didn't finish conversion i really did try i did try it's so hard you're a Hebrew school dropout i am a Hebrew school i literally have a shirt that says that there's a song do you know the no effect song the bruise it's a really good jew song you should listen to it are you jewish

i'm like a quarter every time i every time i do 23 me i get more jewish it's like so weird i'm like 23 i mean what are you fucking up to what's going on here everyone's a little jewish and um wait that would be cool if it was like run by jewish people and they're just trying to slowly turn i've been no honestly i've been doing a joke about that where i'm like kanye i don't know if you're right about hollywood but i think 23 is because they are recruiting me slowly well like initially like when the first time i got 23 and me this was like 10 years ago there was like two three percent that was unassigned um and they kind of don't know what that two three percent is but maybe that's why i think the more people that match your dna come together yeah i use that information to like grow right but yeah we're like 22 ashkenazi oh

i see it yeah not a good thing i think everyone is jewish so like if you think about it like everyone kind of stemmed from Abraham I don't know been watching it anybody been watching Abraham Hicks videos on YouTube oh I live for Abraham Hicks I get their like daily reminders to my thing it's so good Abraham Hicks is the like the first

non-binary I always think that do you know what Abraham Hicks is okay can you explain this to me i think i understand it it's esther hicks and her husband yeah and her husband's dead though right he passed away right i don't know but abraham hicks is like an idea an entity that she like made up and it's not just one person it's like a it's like the beings they like talk to her and she channels her and it sounds so crazy but it's like all of the work that I've done. If I watched these videos before I did Jim Fortin's podcast stuff, before I did hypnosis, all this stuff, I would be like, this makes no sense.

I am in this fucking bliss state listening to them now. It makes so much sense. It's just all about like leaning towards like the light of your life and just like the happiness and that you're on the earth to have joy. It's just so, it's such a relief. I was hooked. I like read like the earth to have joy, it's just so, it's such a relief. I was hooked. I like read like the first like 10 pages of it. And it literally is like her talking about

how it was like for 15 minutes, she had like this orgasmic feeling, like come over her where she's like, oh, it's just like peace. And like the answers like come to you later. And I do that every morning. Like when I was pregnant, I meditated for literally two hours every morning.

Now I do like 15 minutes. You really were like such a pregnancy icon because I feel like so many people in the spotlight when they get pregnant are like, I just want to like normalize how horrible this is. Yeah, everyone. Everyone's like showing you their barf bucket and shit. Yeah.

Ayahuasca ceremony. And it's like, I think that's great. Show your truth or whatever. But it's like, it is like as when we're cuspies, like when we're like, are we going to do this or not? All of us. It's nice to have you so happily pregnant. I loved it.

It was like the happiest. Like, I just want to like get pregnant again to be pregnant. Like, because the labor and delivery is kind of like awful. I mean, still not as bad as like people say. Like, I loved it. It was like the happiest. Like I just want to like get pregnant again to be pregnant. Like because the labor and delivery is kind of like awful. I mean still not as bad as like people say. Like I was scared. I literally thought I was going to die. Did you get up a jazz hole? Did they cut you? The one hole? No. Wait. What? Up? Or this way? When they cut the

Did you have a C-section? Oh no. I had a C-section. Yeah. I didn't like choose it. I actually like tried to push for like three hours because I thought that I love watching like birth vlogs. Like people like pushing and then it comes out. There's something like so like I don't know animalistic about it. And I like really wanted it. But it didn't work out for me. I was really sad. But I love watching like birth vlogs like people like pushing and then it comes out there's something like so like I don't know animalistic about it and I like really wanted it but it didn't work out for me I was really sad but but I will say like c-section and I don't want people to come for me for me it was like it's like so easy I was pushing for three hours I was like dying they put an oxygen mask on me the c-section it was done in like 10 minutes and

the baby's out I'm like well we should have started with that you know what I mean just taking it out of me and it was like so the recovery is like a little bit sucky but I'm sure like a vaginal one would be really now okay so speak of Abraham Hicks and what you just said where you were saying I don't want people to come for me I just listened to an Abraham Hicks yesterday that was about performers and stuff and it was she was saying like if you're attached to like the reaction of the audience that's not really what the vibration is what your job is as like a performer is that you are giving off your vibrations and when they match and help people align with their vibrations those are the people that you're there for and the other ones just aren't they just didn't match

they didn't align so that's what i would think but that's true with everything like frequency like if we're like we're all on the same frequency and like but like you feels good if it doesn't feel if it feels bad then you're not just not up at that level i'm all about that too i like never meditated i thought it was like all bullshit and i'm like all about it it's so fun and i do feel like i feel like answers i like just come to you sometimes like you just sit in silence for like a half hour and like all of a sudden like throughout like a couple days later you're like oh that's the answer to this yeah i've been doing breathwork too do you ever do breathwork oh all the time because i'm like borderline so i do like dbt classes which is all about like breathing exercises and stuff like that which is like

kind of the same thing it's all kind of the same like meditation. I love it. I love doing that stuff. It really helped me get myself under control. Did you have like – I'm noticing this is something that women are talking about more, which is like the fourth trimester, which is like the three months after you give birth that are actually – some people say are much harder than the pregnancy. Did you experience that?

Yeah, for sure. It is kind of weird because I never thought I like had like postpartum depression because I feel pretty good. But they're definitely it definitely your hormones do get out of whack. There was times like I would just like cry like a month after my daughter was born. My chemical romance was in town and I had tickets for all five nights and I wanted to go so bad. And every night I was like, I really want to go. I really want to go. But I just was like, no, I need to stay home. Like I feel so guilty. And I just ended up not going to any of the five nights. And like the last night I just like bawled my eyes out. I like locked myself in the bathroom

for literally like five hours. I slept on the couch at night. Like I was so I was like pissed at my husband for some reason. I don't know. And he's like, if you want to go, you should go. Go with your sister. And I was like, no. And I just I was like so upset. I mean, why am I so upset over this? Like I wanted my daughter my whole life and I'm like so mad that I can't go see like My Chemical Romance. So it's like stuff like that happens. And it's really scary because I was like, shoot, like what's wrong with me? and just other things like sometimes you're like oh my god like I had a baby like this is for life like there's like I'm there's no turning back like that can like also like kind of like mess with you for a little bit but um I think that's

like relatively normal when I talk to people about it like everyone else kind of feels that same way where I was like I don't really know what I'm doing and also like this is like the rest of my life like I can't like go yeah there's like moments like that but it's it's few and far between thank you for sharing that i really like hearing stuff like that because it's like i i feel like at least i want to anticipate those kinds of feelings so that when they do if they ever do hit i'm not and for other women you're like a freak yeah like it's so weird how little people know about postpartum depression like i can't remember if i've talked about this here but my dad recently was like postpartum depression is that where they try to kill the baby and i'm like oh my god we do not know like we're just it's just not talked

about enough yeah but stuff like that does happen where people do like have like violent thoughts about that like stuff like that it's like actually like as i looked really into it i was like you know is what i have you know just me being sad about my human romance depression compared to it's different levels because some people are and some people need to like be separated from the baby and stuff. Like it can be like scary for sure. But it really is like a hormonal thing. Like it's not really like your thoughts.

It's not like real. You know what I mean? Yeah. It's like your hormones are so out of whack and it's like birth – like birth is like trauma. Like it's like you go through like this trauma of like trying to push this baby out and you're like worried it's going to go wrong. Like it's a lot.

Like – and I was on a lot of medications, like a of drugs and i got the c-section they gave me like the fentanyl and stuff like that and i was like out of my mind and i remember when she came i like didn't know where she was i mean obviously my husband was there the whole time but like i didn't know where she was and it was or like what was happening it was it was like yeah when you get a c-section do they just like show you the baby right because they have to like do surgery on yeah you don't get to really like bond with it no i know i, I know. I didn't get any skin to skin at all. It was literally like they took her out. My husband cut the like umbilical cord

and then like washed her off. They like put her in your face, like kiss the baby and then they like take it away and that's it. Like it was really like crazy. And then you're in the hospital for a few days. But again, I was like, I was on so many medications.

When I went home from the hospital, I chose not to take any like pain medication because I just, I hated being out of it so much. Like I was so confused what was happening and it was it was like crazy. But but like like I'm really I thought I would be worse. Honestly, I thought I'd be more like depressed because like when I when we started living together, me and Moses, like I would wake up every morning and be like, oh, my God, there's someone next to me.

And I was like worried that was going to happen with a baby. Like, oh, my God, I have a baby. But I don't really like feel that way as much. But with Moses, I really was just like, oh, my God, there's someone like live like when we got married I was like oh my god he's next to me every morning it was like weird I have like that weird adjustment yeah but yeah but baby is like the best decision I like I want more it's interesting that your dad said oh isn't that when like women like kill their babies um what I learned in nursing school is that when um um young kids or young babies come in for like head trauma most of the time they call it like shaken baby syndrome.

Like 99% of the time it's from the dad. Oh. Interesting. And I'm like, you know, a lot of times it's like I think just like as a mother, like you just, you know how like the likelihood of you rolling over your dog if you're a woman is like really low but a likelihood of a dude rolling over your dog same with a baby i think that you're just sort of like primed more to like hear cries you know like kind of react better randy your dog randy there would be it would be a problem i think about that a lot like with the that how women have so much more intuition and attention to detail because dave my partner he's very smart

like he is smarter than me whatever like that's fine but i've noticed and i've learned it through him it's like my ability to remember details pay attention to details is so much more in tune and advanced than his. And I'm like, oh, it's literally like, that's just a skill that women have that men don't have. Right. Same. Like even I call them the tippy tappies of my dogs. If somebody needs to pee in the middle of the night, they don't need to whine or bark. I can hear their tippy tappies. And Bobby would, if they were barking, whining, like scratching at his face, he still wouldn't wake up yeah but the

tiniest little like tip tip tip i'm awake and i'm like okay let me take you out and i think that just women are a little bit better in that way i do feel like a like innate nurturing thing you know like even the other day when you pulled put my stuff up on the on the stool when we're at the comedy store it's like yeah those little things you just like notice little things that yeah that's like coming up for me more in my 30s i'm like i want to care for yeah yeah so it's because i think with our options right of like not we cannot have kids and still live these like rock star lifestyles and do all this stuff but it i think you have to find out where to put your energy because i think you just naturally are supposed to at a certain age be focusing on something else like just as our bodies are like made and stuff so it's like what do you do with

that because if it's just going into yourself you're gonna go fucking crazy yeah it's interesting because like I was at that level too I was like 33 when I got pregnant and it's kind of one of those like stages where I just feel like oh my I mean you can have kids in your 40s obviously too but like it was one of those stages where it's like okay like now or never like I'm gonna have kids or I'm not gonna have kids but then it's like also you don't know if you're gonna be a good mom until you have a kid and then like it's kind of like again too late so if you're like wait I'm not good at this like you kind of but I will say like what you're just saying the maternal instinct kind of kicks in because I don't I'd never consider myself

maternal or like nurturing before I was like really selfish and so when I did have a baby it does kind of like just kick in that like you know how to take care like I just know you just like knew how to take care of her like you know when she's hungry you know what her cries are for which is like something I never felt with like any baby or anything or even dogs like i was very just like not good at like taking care of anything i never took care of anything and it's actually that's so sweet because like you're molecularly entangled yeah like you're just connected your oxytocin is completely related to the cry yeah that's it's so true they say like the cuddles like alone like and it really does like when i was feeling like you know my bouts of depression

or i feel really sad like literally cuddling with a baby like like increases all those levels it's like crazy it's like really yeah it feels really natural and it is an extension i mean for the first month the baby thinks it's like still a part of you it's like really crazy so that's why like you can't be apart from it okay i still think she's a part of her parents i am that's because i am only syndrome. Maybe a too personal question, but we just want to ask in case, but you don't have to answer. Like sex life after baby is like, is I hear that like it's really hard and then sometimes it's like people don't have a problem.

Is there anything you can share on that? So interesting. Yeah. And again, I never want to like discredit anyone else's journey because like my pregnancy is so easy. And like, honestly, I like wanted to have sex like right away. It was actually so weird. Like I was so horny, but you bleed, you bleed. And this is something I didn't know. Maybe a lot of people know this, but like you bleed for like six weeks after, like just constantly, like I wore a diaper for six weeks after you're just like constantly

bleeding. Esther's dream. The bathtub. Yeah. It's literally that. So like the only thing that was like really stopping us was that like I was like bleeding um but i was like really really horny but but i also didn't have vaginal so like i didn't like it didn't hurt you know what i mean so i think i think that would make like such a bit because you have stitches down there and so like to me that's why so i had this the c-section but i had like a um like lipo and stuff before and to me it was kind of like the same recovery thing for that but we had sex like within like three weeks i mean mean, we were like, okay, because they say you're also really fertile. And of course, we want another baby. And my husband's like in his 40s. So we're like, let's try for baby number two right away. So we've been trying. But no luck yet. But hopefully,

but like they say you're really fertile. Yeah, they're like, because I never thought I was gonna get pregnant. I was like infertile for like so long. And we did this one test called HSG test where they like clear your tubes out. And we got pregnant like right after that. Oh, interesting. Yeah, because I like couldn't get pregnant even with my husband not like we couldn't have a pregnant for like a year and a half so it's crazy as soon as we did that test got pregnant so maybe we'll do that again i don't know yeah um one of my good friends she has four kids now but she said that um the doctor was like well listen to your body when it's time to have sex again you know we always say six weeks but just listen to your body. You know when you know.

And she's like, I had my husband, like, just pop those stitches at two weeks. She was like, I was so fucking horny. I listened to my body. She's like, I couldn't do it. I was willing to just give any, like, risk anything to get fucked. That's kind of how I felt, too.

Because you're like, it's like a de-stressor. Like, I don't know. Sex to me is like very, like, it's like something to de-stress. And it's like, you can't really do much anyways when you have a newborn. So it's kind of like, that's kind of the thing. I loved it. I mean, I still do. And it's like something to de-stress and it's like you can't really do much anyways when you have a newborn. So it's kind of like that's kind of the thing. I loved it.

I mean I still do and it's just – I don't know. You just feel like more like sexy. I don't know. And I feel like it's probably harder to have sex when the kids are more like they need you more as far as like walking around and you need to be like really watching. Yeah, for sure. So that's what the cages are for. They do have those. Oh my God.

Is that why they put you in a cage? Because they were just banging so much? That's my the cages are for. They do have those. Oh my God, is that why they put you in a cage? Because they were just banging so much? That's my culture. Oh no. That's good. That's good. It's a good thing. You don't want your parents not banging.

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New customers on first three-month plan only. Speed slower above 40 gigabytes on unlimited plan additional taxes fees and restrictions apply statement mobile for details we're so like baby starved this is crazy or i'm just i'm just curious and she's like been such a public like i feel like you're like the public facing millennial with and we saw you right before you got pregnant too. Yeah, yeah. That was crazy. That's so long ago. Yeah, and you came to my wedding. I'm so sad I missed your wedding. No, I know. I knew you guys were busy. You were in Hawaii. It was so beautiful.

I was shocked to see you actually because you know like always you're like, you know, you don't expect anyone to come to the wedding. So when I saw you, I was so excited. Oh my gosh, no. You look so great. You're the only one in color and I loved it. I felt so bad. No, I had to live for it. We had a dress code of like wearing all white and Esther had like this bright turquoise thing and you looked beautiful though. I was like everything. You look cute. I felt so bad. No, I kind of lived for it. We had a dress code of like wearing all white. And Esther had like this bright turquoise thing. And you looked beautiful though.

I was like everything. I read it wrong. I don't know. I loved it. I loved it. Seriously. I loved it. Because you like stuck.

Like I saw you. Like I could see you like in the crowd. I needed to stand out. Yeah. No, you look great. I love it. What inspired that? Because that was so unique and special.

You actually like gave me some, dare I say, my own wedding motivation. Because like you created this like unique experience where like she said, everyone was supposed to wear white. Not me, but – and you came out in this beautiful black, amazing, gorgeous wedding gown. Like what inspired that? Well, I mean, Christine Quinn got married the year before and she had a black one. So I really was inspired by that. But like she had – she didn't really have the dress code. The reason the dress code came around was because like our wedding ended up being a disaster because like we spent so much and we, it looked like really cheap. Like we had no lighting. It was like, it was crazy. We

got, we got scammed all over the place for our wedding. Like literally like two weeks for our wedding, nothing was booked except for the venue. So like we had to like pull, like we like spent all our savings trying to get like entertainment and like some sort of like things because I don't know where all the money went. Like we got, we definitely got a little scammed. I'm not going to lie. So it was like very frustrating. So we didn't have like any props, any flowers. If you notice, there was like no flowers at our wedding, even though our wedding was crazy expensive and it looks like it was like literally twenty thousand dollars. But we got scammed out of like hundreds of thousands

of dollars. No flowers is kind of iconic, though. Oh, it was not iconic. You don't need a fucking flower. We put like candles from our own home down like the aisle. It was like literally that. And so we thought, well, if we have like our guests were all white like they kind of like become like part of the decoration so like when you watch like the crowd you see like all this like sea of like white and everyone looks like really pretty and then one esther i live for it i live for it i really did i thought that was everything what color did you wear it was a turquoise coat i think i had white on underneath the coat and it was cold maybe it's always cold in esterland and you came by yourself right i didn't go by myself i thought your like fiance was gonna come with you no i know i forgot

where i think he had something weird that night and i was like i'm gonna go by myself we're so bummed because we were like really looking at like furry white jackets and stuff like we were gonna really go i love going i love going to things by myself. Like I just and I met such great people at my table. I love that. Did you have to like learn to love it? No. I love being alone. Your boyfriend blocked you?

That's something I can't do. I cannot go to places alone. I cannot like go to restaurants by myself, movies by myself. I don't even like going like again, Moses used to come with me everywhere. Like he'd drive me everywhere and stuff. Like even now it's like scary to go anywhere by myself. Like to go to like through a fast food by myself. I like don't like it at all. But to go to me everywhere. Like, he'd drive me everywhere and stuff. So, like, even now it's, like, scary to go anywhere by myself. Like, to go to, like, through a fast food by myself. I, like, don't like it at all.

But to go to a wedding by myself, I'd be, like – You're, like, have the confidence. I told you this in text, too. Like, your confidence is, like, so insane. You just, like, don't give a shit about anything. Thank you. And I love that. I love everything about it.

I follow you for hot girl tips, but you're, like, the hot girl of my heart. Oh, my God. I love you, Shasha. I love you. I really do. I got so excited when you texted me. I was just, like, oh, my God. I get really excited. Oh, my God. my god we're so mean but i know i try not to be a girl too hard no it's me oh my god like no ask carlos i was like trisha's coming oh my god i was dying when you showed up

in reboot because that was like my show i like lived for that show and i didn't know you were gonna be on it and i was like look at esther pop I wish they stopped that halfway I love that show I I feel like they might have more I'm not sure it's a show on it's a show on hulu with rachel bloom it's really good i feel like it's really good actually so good and a huge cast yeah i love it i love what's his keegan michael yeah he's i like that esther does pop up esther pops up it's crazy if you look at any tv show from like the past like 13 years there's like always like a little esther cameo playing an 18 year old like above age 18 to look younger that was my sweet spot for a while that's how i feel about sosi's um boyfriend scoots yeah scoots in everything scoots in everything we have a friend um sosi bacon and her her boyfriend i mean i now we have

a running joke in the house where it's like oh scoots in it scoots in it scoots in everything oh yeah oh wow i fucking love scoots yes he's hot yeah yeah yeah he's that person like you wouldn't know his name but you see his face everywhere they match really well together too yeah what's who's his, who's his, is his girlfriend someone too? Like an actress too? She was in that. Smile. Smile.

She was the lead in that. Is that a horror movie? Yeah. I feel like I've seen that like, oh, wow. Yeah. They're,

they're the it couple. Cute. I love her. Show her dad. Show her dad. Her dad's Kevin. Oh. Kevin Bacon's her papa.

I wonder if that gets annoying. And Sarah Sedgwick. Like, because everyone's like, oh, your dad's Kevin, they get excited, you know, that her dad's Kevin Bacon. Like, or does she like love it? Because I wonder that. I think she's Kevin Bacon's her papa. I wonder if that gets annoying. And Sarah Sedgwick. Like, because everyone's like, your dad's getting excited, you know, that her dad's Kevin Bacon. Or does she, like, love it? Because I've wondered that.

I've always wondered that. I've always wondered. She never seems, like, annoyed by it. Never. She never seems annoyed by it. She loves her family. They're, like, a really close family. Because then you see people like Bono's son,

like, never, like, be associated with his dad. Like, I'm like, why wouldn't she want to, because he has his own band and stuff. I'm like, why wouldn't she want to say you're Bono's son, you know? Well, the iconic Billy Bob Thornton thing where he got mad when they were – he was like doing something with his band and they kept wanting to talk about the movies that he was doing and he like didn't want to do it.

But it's like I feel like you should be proud of all the things you're doing and bring it to all of your – Yeah. That whole thing right now is the Nepo babies. Everyone's like pissed about Nepo babies. I'm like, it's just so crazy to me. Like why do people care that much? Like why do they care?

Like you have to be like talented like, be on Stranger Things. Like, Uma Thurman's daughter. I'm like, you know, she's obviously a good actress. And you're hanging out with good actors all the time, too. Yeah. So you're, like. But also the idea that if my father was a mechanic and I was around mechanics and then I myself become a mechanic because I love cars. Yeah.

Is, like, am I a mechanic, Nepo baby? Yeah, literally. It's, like, it's just kind of what you're immersed in i just watched um made the like short series on netflix with um with uh andy mcdowell's daughter in it and she's such a good actress it's like oh yeah you can't like fake being a good actor like she was just like really good there are some nepo babies where i'm like okay like acting could use you know some work there i think the problem like, okay, like acting could use, you know, some work there. I think the problem, like what seems to be like the theme of the conversation is like when people are a nepo baby and they're like, that didn't help me.

I think like that's what pisses people off. Especially I think in a modeling world. Yeah. Not so much in acting because you really have to kind of prove your worth in acting because people can obviously see whether or not you're talented. But in modeling, like Kendall Jenner saying like, or who was it who was like, you know, like, I really did work so hard. And of course you work so hard, but you had the leg up. Yeah. Also working hard to be a model.

Okay. But it's never. I'm proud of all of you. But I also agree with you guys. It's like that is it's cool. I mean, we all like it. I also agree with you, you guys. It's like, that is, it's cool. I mean, we all like it. Like, we like seeing someone and finding out, oh my God, they're that person's kid. Like, it's fun when you watch this.

It's very fun. You see the, they had a, it was a short-lived TV show, I think. I don't think it got a second season. I only saw a couple episodes, but it was a good, it was a fun idea. It was like a bunch of Nepo babies put in a house. And it was hosted by like the other Jonas brother. And it's like they're all siblings or nieces or cousins or daughters of famous people. Claim to fame.

Claim to fame. Love that show. What a fun show. Yeah. It was so good. But it wasn't fair because they had like Dean Martin's granddaughter. I'm like, who's going to know that? Because you had to like basically guess who they were related to, which is like so crazy

because some of these people were just so random. They have to have known each other, right? Like don't Nepo to know that? Because you had to, like, basically guess who they were related to, which is, like, so crazy because some of these people were just so random. They have to have known each other, right? Like, didn't they? Don't nepo babies know each other? But then it's, like, were they nepo babies? Like, Brett Favre's daughter. Like, who would know, you know? But, of course, in, like, Laverne Cox's twin brother, of course, you're going to know that

Laverne Cox is. Like, it wasn't so fair. Yeah, maybe they knew or maybe they gave him, like, hints or something like that. Like, Kiki Palmer's sister was on there. And it was just, like, I don't know. It was an interesting – I love that show though. I was like so about it. Because I do like,

I love the like, who looks like who and what. Like when you meet someone's baby or someone's kid or someone's parents, like I love seeing like the combination of the parents. I love when Nepo babies

turn into Chet Hanks and who's that other one? Yes, when they go, they go away. Yeah. I mean, but I love that kind of rebellion and who's the other one?

But callbacks and shathanks, it's so funny. So funny. I think they are, yeah. Whoa. I thought it was like dead wild. It's wild.

You have one, there's usually one rapper in the bloodline. Should we have a banana break? Yeah. Shall we? Let's do it. Wait, but who is,

whose daughter is a daughter of a really big director who became a porn girl it's not it's not steven spielberg it's somebody else bobby told me this recently but they try to like keep it on the hush he's a famous director famous director's daughter like a huge i also have like a nepo baby i just found who she's a model she's not that successful at it but she's like really pretty um jake ryan from 16 candles daughter remember he quit he like quit acting right he did i was just like where is he now and they're like his daughter's a model but he um he married a model and then had kids and then quit acting did you watch 16

candles was that one of the two movies you saw it It's Steven Spielberg's daughter, by the way. Oh, my God. What? My alma mater, Long Beach State. What's your name? Michaela. Michaela. Wow. Wow.

Steven Spielberg. Wait, what? Oh, my God. I'll be right back. This is from 2020. It's a healing journey. That's so interesting. So she thought doing porn was...

Wow, that's awesome. Before she thought doing porn was wow that's awesome before i leave can i just say um wait this is my gift hour i'm going to get you a gift i got now esther is known to call me out on my ridiculous spending oh no this is one where i can say this was a wild purchase oh my, my God. This was very impulsive. Go get it now. I saw it. I don't think anyone really owns one. I might be the only one that actually bought one.

It was $360. Oh, my God. Don't feel pressure to do it. I already told you. When you are given a gift, you can throw it in the dumpster. It's fine. It's already been done. I thought at one point it had been stolen by a homeless person.

And I was like, this is actually the funniest thing for someone to steal. it did come in the mail yesterday i'm so excited i'll be right back oh my god oh my it's a man-sized teddy bear to spoon at night when you're lonely any that rule I know I wish you had a dick Do not touch my lover There's only one rule When you're on your period it has to be in another room He's Josh The weight is really good Hang on let me roll with him

No you could really spoon it straddle it Where did you find that It was like I think like a gag thing that was like, I saw on a meme and I bought it. I'm the bitch that buys the meme thing. I love that. Isn't it good? Wow.

You got a sick boy. I got you. Oh my God. Esther, it's a boy. It's not a girl. Get up. Oh my God. Demonetized.

Isn't it so good? Wow. This is the greatest gift I've ever heard. Wait, imagine a homeless person stole that and was like just on the street. Are we sure it didn't spend a night with a homeless person? It did not. I promise. It did not.

We got the box yesterday. Todd and I were laughing. Todd's like, on my solo podcast, Annie Wood, we have a segment called The Thing Segment because I just always buy things. And this is probably my most epic thing. I love that. I'm not really into dudes with small heads. But the body is good. The body is good.

I usually go for really big heads. You know I like big headed dudes. But I love a tubby tubby right here. He's so fucking hot like body type long-legged look at the calves you know i don't like chicken legs yeah fingers oh my god annie you know wait i could put like um i can make this um a little bit stiffer and use it oh my god i should have gotten you the rubber fist to like put in it oh he's so cute you can just swap the heads if you want a bigger head just swap it out Oh my God. I should have gotten you the rubber fist to like put in it.

Oh, he's so cute. You can just swap the heads if you want a bigger head to swap it out. I was like, you fucking bought that? I was like, yes, I did. I like to spoil my girls when I see them like I get it. This is thank you so much. This means so much to me. You're welcome. My shoulder.

That's so cool. Oh no. Maybe you can get his shoulders. I heard that bone on bone. Oh my gosh. That's so cool. Thank you, Annie. You're welcome. I shoulders. I heard that bone on bone. Oh, my gosh. That's so cool. Thank you, Annie. You're welcome.

I don't know why he's so sad. You got to lift his eyelids up. Was he like 5'10"? I think he's a little taller. I think he's taller than me. He does look cute. Trisha, I love it. It's so cute.

Another question. Love it. We're so happy for you. I knew I was going to set you up with someone. We're so happy for you. I knew I was going to set you up with someone. We have a podcast coming out soon. Yeah, I have two actually, but I can't talk about them until February. They're two separate ones,

totally different with two different companies and two totally different people. One's with a guy, one's with a girl. And so I haven't done podcasts. That's why I came to do this because I haven't done podcasts in so long. So I've been trying to get back out there doing podcasts and stuff like that

because I just don't know if I'm good at it. Because I literally- Oh my God. I don't know podcasts in so long so I've been trying to like get back out there doing like podcasts and stuff like that because um I just like don't know if I'm like good at it because I look literally oh my god I don't know when I was pregnant I like didn't see anyone and I was like can I even talk to people anymore like it's really you know it's scary so that's like let me come try this again I wouldn't knock yesterday but today has a has a glisten to it yeah I don't know that is something you will never lose that's just innately just you're just good at it I hope I don't know

and also I like have don't do much anymore like I used to have like all this like controversy and like I don't really just do anything I don't like say anything I don't even keep up

like genuinely I don't keep up with like anything that's out there so like if people are like oh she's just gonna get riled about this I see it all the time

like are you gonna respond I have no idea what anyone's talking about I don't even like go to like indulge in it because I'm like I don't even know yeah

I just got so tired of everything I don't know and like again I brought on like all the drama myself so I I don't even like go to like indulge in it because I'm like, I don't even know. Yeah. I just got so tired of everything. I don't know. And like, again, I brought on like all the drama myself. So I was just like so tired. It was like so exhausting. So I was just like, you know, just like I don't really go online. I just go on TikTok and that's it.

And there's like no drama about me. And if there is, I like scroll. As soon as I see something, I'm like scroll. But that's great. Yeah. But there's nothing really going on. I don't think. I don't know.

Maybe there is. But for me, I'm like, I don't think there's anything going on. Yeah. I feel like since doing this podcast, I've really arrived at this place of like people are i think we even talked about this yesterday it's like people are gonna some people are gonna hate you some people are gonna love you might as well just do you yeah because no matter what you do they're they're not gonna like it or they're gonna like it so true like last year i didn't like talk about anyone anything i disengaged from everything and they still found like waste like hate on me it was

like so crazy and i was like okay that's why from everything and they still found like waste, like hate on me. It was like so crazy. And I was like, okay, that's why I had to like stop reading because I'm like, I'm literally doing nothing and getting hate. But Kalilah came up with a, you were saying like maybe like three or four episodes ago where you were like, I'm just like, you're like surrendering to the fact that you're just like an online celebrity, right? Yeah. Whatever it is, they need me to be to um exist in a compartment in their mind i cannot like contend with that or compete with that so whatever it is that i am to

you as an audience member is i accept it yeah all i truly care about for myself is who i am to my mother my family my friends my co-workers And those are the things that I can control. And who else? And my new boyfriend, who I will treat with so much. But I sent you the quote from the Velveteen Rabbit because I had forgotten about that. And I texted Esther at like 2 a.m. yesterday. And you forget like all of these gems that, you know,

you read when you're younger and you're like, wait, like now it it lands a little bit differently. And the quote is, once you are real, you can't be ugly except to people who don't understand. And I don't know that just I'm like that just releases you of like so much, you know. Yeah, it's also it's just like there it like so much, you know? Yeah. It's also, it's just like there, it's so much about them. I've had so many times in my life, more so recently, because I think I'm open to it, where all of the answers to why someone was treating me a certain way are like, I go, oh, that's, and it has nothing to do with me. Like even, I had this really crazy thing happen.

So I was sexually assaulted by one of my teachers in high school. Sorry, trigger warning. But by one of my teachers in high school. Sorry, trigger warning. But by one of my teachers in high school. And one of like the hardest parts was the year after I graduated, I went back to the high school. It was a really small school. I had this sort of like Stockholm syndrome thing. Like I kept going back to the school to kind of be like, I'm good.

It wasn't me. Like I wasn't the bad thing. And like, do you guys still like me? Even though the whole school like didn't really support me in taking this teacher out and um and I would keep going back and one of my like most painful memories was going back and the teacher that I had gone to to tell what had happened to it was two art teachers so the teacher that had done something to me and then it was this other art teacher that I went to and I was like he did this to me and um he was so mean to me when I went to the graduation ceremony

the next year. He screamed at me and told me to get out of the room. And I couldn't understand, why would you be mean to me after this happened? It just didn't make any sense to me. And then I talked about it on Marc Maron's podcast three or four years ago. And people just randomly will DM me having heard it. I got a DM from one of my other teachers from that time, my math teacher. And he was like, I don't know if you remember me, but I just listened to your Marc Maron thing. He's like, I'm really proud of you. He goes, I also want to let you know that that teacher that was rude to you had, I found out, he goes, I didn't even know you went to court. I would have gone with you to support you. I had no clue. He goes, he found out after like all these things went down that he,

that that teacher that was rude to me was the teacher that had had assaulted me as teacher when he was in high school there and he had had a relationship with him oh shit so he had been his molester and it's like so he was lashing out at me because i came for his like ex-boyfriend or they thought and the whole school has this weird like history of this type of shit well he had the stock stockholm syndrome too right but i have don't forgive him you don't yeah you don't do that to people but um i mean i forgive no no i forget that's not true i forgive him but i don't excuse that behavior in any way but he um but there's and then there were just so many things other things that unfolded about that school and it's just like oh my god i was just like in this

like predator's den thinking that it was my fault this whole time. And that this was just this one experience that happened to me. And it was like the whole institution. So Chris Hansen, come on Annie Wood, come on my solopod. But it was like, he wrote me this thing and it was just this key to like this. So for, that was, I was like 15 when that happened, 16. And so I'm like, for years have been just carrying around this like confusion about it. And so now my goal is either to like ask the universe to give me more of those answers or to just be settled in that it is not me. And when those things happen, it really does not have to do with me. There's so many like factors about it that have nothing.

You just can't control. So to clarify, it's like that guy yelled at you and then that made you feel... It internalized. It made you feel like you must have done something wrong. But then... I was so confused by it too.

Yeah. What did I do to make him... But it's like he had this whole affair and other thing that I had no clue about. And it was him yelling at you was nothing to do with you. Yeah.

And it was like this missing piece of the whole thing. And there's so many other things again chris hansen let's do this you ready uh anyway come on myself i guess we have a lot to talk about uh at this point you me and chris hansen need to go on the road i mean sorry esther you haven't been diddled enough she rhymes with molester I'll be the stage manager that's like no but that's why I wouldn't I don't I think I will not send my daughter to like public schools at all because that same thing happened to me so like in so many different situations and some more serious than others but like no one did anything about it people still to this day like tell me I lied about like my sexual self from like middle school and they weren't like

not even there and people who like came forward they shame it's like insane I like don't and it's not like everyone i'm not saying like don't send your kids above school but like i just couldn't mine was an alternative school for troubled kids so that's another place to be careful because it's a target because the kids are less reliable yeah that's uh the guy who um i i'm we had we both went to bhc yeah that was crazy. I was like, I had no idea. But the BHC is a psych hospital, right? But the third time I was in a psych hospital was one in Torrance. And the guy who was one of our counselors there, he ended up asking me out and I ended up dating him. And I was 17 years old and he was in his 30. And I just remember him. The only image I have of him now is I'm like, this guy wears a lot of Aeropostale. I'm like,'t think he's that cool like all the girls he yeah he's

for me it was like kids that came over from mexico i gotta live for arrow i used to have arrow shirts but he was he was uh latino but um yeah and i but that's the thing it's like if i would have said anything then they would have been like no she just tried to kill herself like she's an unreliable. Yeah. Yeah. Zero credibility on my end. So I was just, but then also at that time,

I just didn't think I was doing anything wrong. I was like, ooh, I'm dating the counselor from the psych hospital. Yeah. Like it feels good. You feel like chosen. Yeah. Yeah. Because all the girls at the hospital were like, oh, he's kind of cute.

And so, yeah. On the last day, he was like, hey, let's kind of cute. And so, yeah. On the last day, he was like, hey, let me help you pack. And I was like, hmm. And I remember singing like a Casey and JoJo song like all my life. You know, it was like, that's a really good song. Isn't it so annoying how many like molested moments stole great songs? Yeah. I like cannot hear Journey Open Arms because I got like molested by this archery instructor at Club Med.

You know a Casey and Jojo song. Great. That's what's really. Are you kidding? Grow up. That is very Gen Z. You're a millennial. Stop playing.

Stop trying to get your TikTok up. Not on the inside. That was written for his daughter. That song. Really? That Casey and Jojo song was written for his daughter. And then they were like, that's not like sexy enough. So then they turned it into like a relationship song. Oh, that's sad but why they have to like tarnish it like

there's not a lot of songs for butterfly kisses all those are like butterfly kisses i love that song that was great that was a hit in the philippines maybe you need to make this maybe instead of a boyfriend this is your dad do you know what i could give you a dad that's what i would give you do you guys know that r Ricky Gervais was a pop icon in the Philippines? What? What? Yeah. Before he was a stand-up comic, he was part of this 80s duo.

Look it up. And they weren't big anywhere in the world but the Philippines. Is this why he has to come so hard for everyone? Because he needs to really protect himself from how embarrassing it is to used to be a pop star look at this from time magazine oh wow he's cute yeah guys i'm being big over there you know who else was hugest even seagal but i think he was huge every year no he's not and pepsi for a second saw the doc they fucked you yes they fuck thank you and you know what i feel like i was one of the first people who talked about

there's a documentary about how pepsi ruined my country but now okay so pepsi yeah it's i can't remember what it's called but pepsi was doing these like point systems and stuff and they had a thing where they were doing like on caps like there would be like one out of however many would be like, you get what? A million dollars. Yeah. A million dollars. Which in the Philippines is like huge.

Yeah. Chain life changing. But they misprinted and everyone got them. Oh, they gave like $20. They're like, they all got $20. Imagine you won your billion dollars to go make your Bollywood movie.

Oh my God. And they're like, Trisha, just kidding. Here's $20. Oh my God. But, but I guess Iisha, just kidding. Here's $20. Oh my God. But, but I guess I wouldn't feel like I was like one chosen as like everyone was

chosen. But still, what's up? When was that? Were you over there? But this is also like a third world country where people are like, this is a third world country. Yeah.

And Pepsi has all that money. And the only reason they did that is because Coke was like so prevalent there that they wanted to come in and infiltrate the Coke scene and steal cola from them. And then they did this fucking thing that was just like so fucked up. Thank you so much for watching a documentary about my country, Annie. Well, they didn't like it. It was about a hangar jet. And then there was like a little piece about your country.

Oh, really? It was this other thing. How many people are in the Philippines? Now about 100 million people. And how many of those are your brothers that you've had? About 95 million. How do you feel about how the Philippines are portrayed in like 90 Day Fiancé, like Big Ed? Oh, God, it really, really, really, really bothers me.

Not because of how they're portrayed. they're portrayed it's just this idea that you can go over there and kind of exploit someone's um what do you call it like but i'm a product of that so i can't say too much yeah um my dad was in his mid-50s when he got with my young 20 something mother and they had a 36 year age gap so like i'm kind of a product of a predatory relationship. My dad had a lot of money, even though he didn't set out to go to the Philippines to find a wife. He was already living there. Kind of this playboy lifestyle of I come from a rich family and I'm just going to go live on the islands and be this kind of Don. And then he met my mom, who was like young and beautiful, clearly clearly and who came from a very poor family

fucking rip but and not yet so it's a little bit washing her clothes like a different i was like i must have her but i think there is something you know like i yeah there's something mutually beneficial for both i just don't like it when they're portrayed and like oh she's only with him for the money I'm like what the fuck do you think he's there for right yeah like that somehow that's disproportionate yes that show is like unfair especially like the foreign people in the relationship they make them look

like so awful and like it's like but Rose fucking handled him I love Rose yeah so good she was like fuck you he's like facetiming her still he has like a I just watched the reunion and she's like Was on the reunion And she goes yeah He FaceTimes me all the time Like so weird

Oh my god Yeah And he's like engaged To someone else It's like crazy Is this Big head Big Ed

Big Ed Big Ed is that his name He's like your height Okay I like him Oh you know He's got His head goes into his neck He's a very interesting

Yeah And he's disgusting He's also just like A disgusting person Like he's like nasty to people Yeah He's not nice to girls But then he but then he seemed like for a second like he was going to be this like kind of like fringe guy like helping people that are like different and stuff and then but he was an asshole yeah he like more than he was helpful to

he's an asshole literally everyone wife on the with Yeah, on the left is the fiancé. Okay. Yeah. Oh, my gosh. Look at him. They had like a spinoff show or something. Silver Fox. Yeah, I can't.

I cannot watch. Yeah. 90 Day Fiancé does like – it triggers me. So does like Married at First Sight. Like some of them like – like there's just something – Oh, you don't like – I love Married at First Sight. I watch them. No, I watch it all.

But Married at First Sight, I always say say like meredith first it's one of the shows that like when i play it and fall asleep and i wake up in the middle of the night i'm like turn it off turn it off like i can't have it like infiltrating me my subconscious like i love it but it is no it's very it's a very interesting experiment i do yeah i don't watch any reality tv and i'm now wondering like is it because i did a reality pilot with carlos actually like 12 years ago and i just saw how everything was so over produced that it literally took all the love and joy out of it and now i don't and like i never i don't see any of these i'm like maybe that's a good thing but i feel like that could be why some of them some of them you get enough realness in the moments that you do yeah it will sustain you over the parts where you can tell that they're like i do agree taking a shot or

they're like a lot of the testimonials are like these people are not good actors so you can tell that it's they're being so produced and told exactly what yeah but i think i had this because i grew up watching the osbournes that was like my favorite show of all time. And it had this like romanticized view of it. And then when we were doing it, Carlos, like I remember they'd be like, producers would come in and be like, okay, now you guys are going to take tests

for your cholesterol. And I was just like, oh, like we could have just gotten to this organically. Wait, aren't you a big Big Brother fan? I watched Big Brother when I started dating Dave because he was into it. And I did like it. But that's not overproduced because they're – It's just 24 hours.

But the testimonials are so fake. Yeah. The testimonials are like wild. They're like – And I'm like, Bob, you need to skedaddle. Yeah. You're like, oh, my God. Tell you what to say. What reality show was the Oh my God. Tell you like what to say.

Yeah. What reality show was the context of yours? Was it like dating? Was it like. It was just about like being a, like a young female comedian and like having like a bunch of guy friends and like what it was like to be like, this was like in 2010 when it was like,

Oh, comedy was still male dominated. The people you would have highlighted in that show would have been so funny. Carlos, Benji, Rick. Did not air. It didn funny. Carlos, Benji, Rick. Did it not air? No, it didn't get picked up.

Do we have the pilot for it? I have it somewhere. We have Glassman was in it. We should show some little clippies of it. Sure. I don't know. I would hate to see you. No way. You would hate to see it?

No. You would love little Esther, little Munchkin. Yeah, like seeing yourself little. Carlos, what are your thoughts on this? I wouldn't want to see it either it's like seeing footage of you from 12 years carlos with less hair weirdly enough no i had hair i had a little bit on top trisha this is what i look like right now oh i live for it though thank you he won't he won't take it he won't i love it he won't quit i love it yeah thank you i do you should dread it you ever think about that i i thought about getting like white guy

braids to be funny oh my god i was like don't do that yeah get canceled get canceled who cares yeah but i kind of want uh the color hair you have trisha yeah it's very like gerard way like it's very cool just Just to be wild. Wait, Clayton is bleach blonde right now. Oh, really? Yeah. Maybe you should connect with him. Well, last time I reached out to Clayton, he said I didn't have enough hair for his services.

Oh, more money or talent. Or not talent, sorry. Talent. I didn't do that. I took it back. I took it back. The hair painting is real. Annie, did you know you cannot, well, according to Stanford, the word trigger warning is no longer allowed.

So Stanford, like, put up, I think it's Stanford. It's Stanford. Why? I love that. It's now called a memo. So, like, all of the. Why is triggers triggering? This is from the Stanford website.

I'm going to say this again i've said this everywhere i can possibly say it i say when i'm triggered i say twigger because i'm being a baby mind yourself say twigger i'm twiggered and then you go oh i'm being a child i'm a grown-up now yeah i'm safe i'm good what other words are canceled carlos like you can't let the whole world a lot are yeah yeah the triggers like deal with what makes if you get triggered deal with it in a good it's a good thing. Being triggered is a wonderful tool. You can't. It shows you that you have something to work on.

Instead of addict, you now have to say person with a substance use disorder. What? Why? Addicted. Rather, they say hooked or devoted. Devoted. Devoted. I'm triggered by this.

I'm triggered by this. Yeah. This is crazy. What? We have tears. yes i'm triggered by this yeah this is crazy what i also i was thinking about this too like the triggering thing like what you were talking about recently um like there's no way i could ever just me i could never protect myself from all the things that like caused me stress and chaos and harm like i would have to like that to me i would be building a lifestyle where i have to like hide

and not and then that would trigger you yeah so it's like i think i be building a lifestyle where I have to like hide and not go out in the world. And then that would trigger you. Yeah. So it's like I think I'm in a place where I just have to learn how to move through the world and have things trigger me and control my emotions around it. But also negative feelings are useful. There's a reason why we feel them in the same way that when you touch a fire, pain is useful. So you don't touch that fire again. So it's like when i'm feeling super anxious but it's like it's just my body saying hey it's an alarm bell and probably for a reason sometimes it's not good for good reason because i have like anxiety disorder and i get panic attacks

but other times i'm like oh like this warrants this feeling and i should sit with it and get to know it and figure out a way yeah you know what gives me that feeling that i didn't realize this until like last five years when like all the young people were like, things are triggering us. And I was like, oh yeah, same. But like whenever I've been on like a comedy podcast with guys and they start talking about like,

and then she was blowing me. And like for some reason, the way men talk about like getting blowjobs from women, it makes me so uncomfortable. And I think I would maybe used to want to be like, please don't say that for me, but I need me so uncomfortable. And I think I wouldn't, you maybe used to want to be like, please don't say that for me. But I need to just learn to be like, I don't know. I don't know what the answer is. But that definitely does make me uncomfortable. Yeah, guys with podcasts are cringy. Like, oh, you see it on TikTok all the time. Like,

there was that whole like trend, you know, like the Aaron, who was it? Aaron Tate? I don't even know any of these people. But I see all these guys. That is fun. I love it. I don't know. And then one of those other guys, like, there's another one. Fresh and Fit. Yes, those guys too. Like like i just see them on tiktok so i see the thing so it's like i feel like they have to just try and be cringy maybe to get like views i don't know that's the only thing you can think of why they talk like that because like nobody i know talks like i think okay so back in the day um i used to do girl code and i used to do girl

code and guy code there was like a girl code versus guy code thing we just did like multiple seasons of it. And on the show, the way MTV would produce it, sorry MTV, I'm spilling your secrets. They would, you would shoot all like 13, 18 episodes. I can't remember what it was. It was some sort of odd number, but it was like 13 or 18, 15 episodes or something.

You would shoot all of them, but you would only get paid for the ones that you were edited into. So I noticed the guys, like Schultz like was so Schultzy back then. You know, he would say, he would take, like, they'll take, like, the craziest take because it'll be the soundbite. You know? So it's, like, I think it, like, encouraged that sort of behavior.

Right, right. I think that's why people do it. Like, the fresh and fit people. Like, I would never know them, but they just say crazy things and everyone's reacting. And same thing with the Andrew Tate. Everyone was, like, reacting. And I was, like, I don't know. Maybe he's really, like, I and fit people. I would never know them, but they just say crazy things and everyone's reacting. And same thing with Andrew Tate. Everyone was reacting and I was like, I don't know,

maybe he's really like, I have no idea. But to me, I was like, just give me some attention is like what he loves. Yeah. But he's also a legit

like human trafficker. Oh, yeah. He just got arrested. He just got arrested. Yeah. I've been trying to find out more of the details. I haven't been able to find out

too many details about it. He got arrested in Romania. Wait, also, Greta Thunberg, didberg i'm saying her name right thunberg okay greta thunberg thank you predator um you know she is she's the climate okay so she like got in this fight exchange with him and as i was looking at her i realized she kind of looks like todd todd i've been putting my hair extensions on him and bringing him on stage. I go, can you see this a little bit? If Todd was shaved,

they have kind of the same. Does she not look half Asian? A little bit, she does. She looks like fucking Todd. She's got the round nose. Oh my God. She's like my fucking boyfriend. Todd has juicier lips

and obviously a beard and is a man. Oh my God. Okay, I have a similar thing. There's a female porn star that looks just like dave we look oh my god you show time arabella danger i love her no it's abella danger and i know why dave knows her no i know oh you know her oh is it because she's jewish no it's because i oh my that's different. We went from Greta to Greta. Because I just introduced- That does look like Dave.

Oh my God. And I'm so wildly attracted to her. Can I tell you something? Yes. Okay, so you introduced me to one of Dave's best friends. Yes. And I introduced a Bella Danger to him.

Shut up. And he was like, she's phenomenal. But then now, do you think that he looks at Dave and sees a similarity? Whoa, we have to call this out. We should all have crushes on our same-sex friends a little bit. We have to call this out. That is so funny to me. Take it out.

We have to call them out. I love a Bella danger. Oh, my God. She's always performer of the year, too. She's incredible. I love how she rolls her eyes back. And she does the whole. Oh my God. She's always performer of the year too. She's incredible. I love how she like, she rolls her eyes back and she does the whole,

I like when she rolls her eyes back. I haven't watched porn in like since 1992. Oh my God, you're missing out. I had a little, I had like a couple of weeks where I was getting porning back. I had a moment of really big, obnoxious confidence the other day. He does look like Greta.

Oh my God, he looks like Greta. By the way, that's the funniest I've ever posted in the entire world. It's so hilarious. The different things you can do with your neck pillow. You guys would have cute babies. You have embryos? Yeah, we have four boy embryos.

I feel like people want babies just to see what they look like together. You know what I mean? It's kind of a cool thing to see anyways. Well, I like, so he's half Asian, so that'll be quarter Asian. and all of his nieces are so beautiful that's really cute so in the last year esther and annie have really been trying to like hype me up after the breakup saying you're beautiful you're stunning you can have anybody

so i had a moment of obnoxious confidence the other day and i was talking to this guy that i'm kind of like seeing and i was like mad schmidt and i i don't know like i had annie and esther's voice in my head and then i was on instagram i was on the phone with him and i scrolled through a picture of sophia vergara like taking a mirror selfie and so like without even thinking i was like oh my god don't i look like sophia vergara and i said that straight to him and he was like kalilah and he just like burst out laughing and he was like look you're pretty but like there was the one time where i needed someone to be like fuck yeah you know what i see yeah yeah and he was like nah oh i was like

if she was cross-eyed he wasn't but he was just like look i think you're beautiful but you're you ain't that oh my god, she's not hotter than you. You look different than her. She's not hotter than you. I can see similarities though. I do. Thank you. I do think you have like the same quality.

Right. When I brought, when I'm back after five minutes later. What is that? You got that refugee. Really? You say refugee? Refugeen. I didn't.

But that's my heart meant to say that. When I came back Down to earth I was like okay I don't look like her And I don't know What came over me But it was both Of you guys' voices

Hyping me up You could get Like slight Plastic surgery And look like her Immediately No you're Like slight

Like you could Like it would take Like one I think my doppelganger Closest because we have Close eyes Is probably more Brittany Furlan

Because our eyes Are like closer set I see Sofia Vergara More so Yeah I do closest because we have close eyes is probably more britney furlan because our eyes are like closer set i don't see sophia bagar i'm more so yeah i do and they both are beautiful yeah for sure for sure i can see it i guess i love that we need to have her on this show i love i like um the the tiktoker who goes to people and ask them what number they think they are what does he goes out of like one to ten what are you what do you think they are. What does that mean? He goes out of like one to ten, what do you think you are? And then he takes a picture of them after what they say and he asks someone else, what do you think they are?

Oh, I hate this. No, it's good. I like the bitches that are like, I'm an 11. It's like, we should all just do that. Yeah, that's true. It's just better. No, you need someone to hype you up. Like my husband, he gives me like grand illusions all the time.

Like we watch White Lotus and I was like, I want to be on White Lotus season three. He's like, I believe you. Wait. I can't even. I love manifesting it still. I can see you on that. Oh my God, I love you.

I mean, like there's no way I don't act. I don't have any connections. It's like the biggest show on HBO. But like in my heart, I was like, oh, I should be on the show.

My husband will be like, I think you can do it. And I was like, okay, how do I get it? You know, he's very much that person. And he's like dead serious too.

He's like, well, maybe you have to come manifest when you fucking you try. You try to come at the same time and then manifest and think of the same thing wait really is that a thing i don't think it's called come manifesting but i've never come manifested i've actually never manifested during sex i like don't think about it but maybe i should that's a good time because you're like you're just like and yeah you're like otherworldly at that

point yeah i don't know i mean yeah i feel like i feel like thinking during coming would interrupt my calm yeah i, I can. I think that manifesting what I'm learning more is a feeling. It's not a thinking. It's like you feel the feeling of having the things that you want. You can just think about White Lotus earlier in the day. And then when you're coming, you just have the feeling of how you would feel once you got this thing you really wanted. I feel like I would just manifest more coming. Which all fine thank you more whitney cummings thank you so much um

tricia thank you for joining us today you are our favorite guest ever yeah this is great you fit in so well oh thanks i love you guys have guests now they're so fun to watch it's like i love the all like the all three of you guys do but i love love the guests. Thank you. We got more guests coming. And is there anything we should know about where to find you next or any of these future podcasts? Shout out your holiday special too. Oh, holiday special, Christmas special on the Blonde Sundal Forum Day channel. And I'll be coming up in season three of White Lotus on HBO.

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