Trash Tuesday w/ Esther Povitsky & Khalyla Kuhn - We Go Goth & Annie Goes Off

Episode Date: August 31, 2021

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What a crazy episode this is about to be like i'm so scared for what didn't get edited out if it's not if this episode is more than five minutes i'm um you guys i'm coming on tour this fall i have all my dates in one place esther on ice.com which apparently means i'm on meth and everyone one told me. I just thought it was funny because Disney on ice, Esther on ice.com, Florida. My brain goes to you being a corpse, honestly. Oh. No one else's brain goes to like ice skating shows?

No, Esther, we're grownups. We're grown people. Today's episode is a mess. No, today's episode was absolutely beautiful. Sleepover by Esther.com for wonderful handmade garments. I'll see you in hell. And mine were really messy. So I'm going to say also go to Annie Letterman.com for the tour dates. And also this wig is a precursor to one a great episode and to a calendar I'm coming out with that's going to be really awesome. You can find all my merch

at Annie Letterman.com too. I think goth to me, I don't, like to me, you guys are more like, we're like Wiccan to me. Crossover. It's a crossover. You read emo. Okay. You read emo. Okay. You read emo, which is sort of like baby goth.

You look like regular, like you could just wear this. It works. It's fine. No, it's... I feel like I went for like high school girl goth. Yeah. Because that's what I know. That's what I think of when I think of goth. It's like high school girls.

But your high school girl goths were probably like in theater with you. No, no, no. Like they were able to take the makeup off. No, no, no. You have us all wrong. My goths god that's all wrong okay they went hard now kalilah you thought glowing on your top lashes was hard try going on the bottom bitches holy shit wait what i went i honestly esther i thought i was gonna look like second i thought you were gonna come in like trisha paytas well also i got added to this episode late.

Like, because remember, this was supposed to be a guest. Right. How funny is it to make a guest be goth? Just force them. You know what? Chris DiStefano as goth.

We almost had Chris DiStefano as goth. Wait, Annie, I want to know about these contacts. What country did you order them from? I am assuming China with how, no offense, with how chintzy they were. And that's not a China attack. You make the cheapest products, okay? That's why you have so much money and power. But Jules was trying to show me how to put contacts in. And I was like,

Jules, your contacts are like real contacts. These are like paper thin. They've fallen in the toilet several times. Like both of them wanted to just match. Wait, one of those was in the toilet and then went to your eye? It was worse than in the toilet. No. It was on the toilet. Oh, that is worse. In the toilet, there's some water washing around.

No, I will have pink eye. My hopes, I think, in the toilet would be worse if you're at my house. Because that's where you were born? That's where you were delivered? Oh, I missed you guys. I feel like I haven't seen you in so long. I love you. This hair. How's this munch in so long. I love this hair.

How's this munchkin head doing? I want this hair color so bad. It reminds me of Ozzy Osbourne on the Osbournes. Ozzy had like just the bottom half of his hair dyed a color like that. And I've always wanted it. I don't want to say I was going for Ozzy Osbourne. But I'll take it. It's coming from Forever Dave Grohl.

I told you. Did I tell on this when I was trying to get a from forever Dave Grohl I told you did I tell him this when I was trying to get a picture of Dave Grohl for you and Whitney was like get away from him she like wanted to be

nowhere near him you're like I don't even care about Dave Grohl this is for Esther I was like this is literally for Esther I was gonna tag her in it

what's a celebrity where who you absolutely needed to get a photo with and broke your own rules of being cool it was Jeff Probst I've been through this so much it's so much more embarrassing

than what about you, Esther? Has there, you know, in LA, we're never supposed to take pictures with anyone, right? Well, there was a story when Annie, I made Annie get the photo for me. We're at LAX and we saw Jordan Woods, who's Kylie Jenner's best friend. This was like the height of Kylie and the height of Jordan Woods. And I was like, Annie, I think that's Jordan Woods. Like, but I can't.

And if it's for someone else, I'm surely willing to. I'm like, I can't I can't and if it's for someone else I'm surely willing to I'm like I can't do it I can't do it and she's like what okay who where and so she and I have no clue she was too you're like and I I think I told you go say are you Kylie's best friend and you did and she's like yeah and then I got my picture you got your picture you didn't like the picture enough to post it because I was when the drama came out I was like you should post Team Jordan. I was not pretty enough. Are you not Team Jordan? No, I don't have teams for the Kardashian stuff.

I'm just not that invested. We're team Skims. I buy the products. We're not invested as in we're not investing in this company we're spending so much money on, which we probably should try to. Yeah, financially invested, not emotionally. What? I feel like I have a million questions.

How was New York? It was really fun. But I'm so glad I don't live there. Guys living in New York, not emotionally. What? I feel like I have a million questions. How was New York? It was really fun. But I'm so glad I don't live there. Guys living in New York, what are you doing? Why are you suffering? What's going on? What's the suffering part? It's everything.

It's the swamp ass. Like, when you're in LA, you can... But I feel like you mention swamp ass everywhere you go. You have that. Like, I feel like you went into Austin. Okay, but I'll say, okay okay austin there was swamp bass too well because we live in a dry a nice dry heat i don't feel oh i hate this dry heat i hate i prefer small bass well wait until you're back in it bitch well i grew up in the philippines so it's familiar

to me and my skin my eczema flares up in dry weather i look so beautiful in in human weather too i'm so pretty in human weather human never seen you seen you in it. Never seen you in human. Wait, Chicago is human. What if you were the alien on Earth? What if you were the one that's been here the whole time? And then your hair is beautiful in human weather. For you to accuse me of being the alien while your eyes look like that is actually very bold. Would the alien dress up like that as Goth or this?

The alien would be hiding in plain sight. Wait, you know what? I was thinking I was thinking about how you asked me why I keep calling you short out of nowhere yeah

it's because we were on FaceTime and I wasn't seeing you in person oh that's funny you're I wish you could experience what it's like to be a person seeing feet dangle it's like

it's the most it takes you see that's a really good answer I was it took me a while because I was like no because I always make fun of you for being short

your name is Little Esther. I don't think there's any been, there's, I have the hits. I have the hits that I make fun of people. There's nothing else. If there's black on my teeth

at any point, let me know. Listen, if there's an eyelash falling into my nipple hair at any point, please let me know. Annie,

I want to talk about this. I don't like your tone. We have. I don't like your tone. It, it't like your tone it it it involves your lower lash um we cry about it we cry about having to put on lashes we're so bad at it so bad we it must be everyone has this trouble everyone must have this trouble and annie sends me a video of a guy named gabe wheatley who has no limbs, who puts on makeup. He has no, not only does he have no fingers, he has no arms, and he's able to crush putting on eyelashes.

Guys, I'm here to tell you, it's me. Does he use his feet? No, he doesn't have feet either. He sets it up in his neck. And then he puts it, he'll like put it with his mouth, he'll put the glue on, find the video. Yeah, so Annie basically sent me this video and she was like no excuse bitch we are so foolish so we're back to lashes the lashes are back on i mean we are just all trash this is really mesmerizing oh my god no

there's a guy listen i'm so into people that are like if you notice people that are born with like a disability or something that you would call missing they're always end up being better at things well it's because they they learn how to compensate like yeah right they can it's like people who have no arms if they have they use their feet to do a bunch of shit we can oh my god this foot fetish people are piping up look at those lashes perfection that's so beautiful the rhinestone i oh my god he's a king we're losers we're useless anyway everything hurts it's just i'm wearing toilet contacts i'm very concerned you know it you know it's funny so the traffic again was like a nightmare but i was like I can't like road rage in black lipstick. Like I can't like, I can't. So I just was at peace with it. We had a Godfrey on yesterday on Tiger Valley.

And he said we should reframe it. Gilbert or Godfrey? Not without the Gilbert. And he said that road rage is not real rage. It's passion for driving. Oh, that's so funny. That's convenient. It's like if you have a real passion

for like the technicality of driving, that's where the frustration comes from. It's the most, okay, that's so not true because I've never been good at driving and I've had road rage. But it's like, I think it's a control issue. And it's like, what I always try to look at is like, why am I like expecting other people to drive away? Like they're just doing their thing. It's nothing to do with me. But it is, I think people save up all of their rage through life. Yeah. And then they wait for this moment where no one. Yeah. I would love to hear you just slurring away in your I've never had a yelling. I've never had real rage. But wouldn't it be just so fun if that was your little secret? But it doesn't. Just your little little head popping up like that's not what gets

my what do you rage out over i i don't rage she doesn't have i don't think i have rage i you've gotta have when is the most pissed off you've ever been where you've yelled at the top of your lungs i don't i i need to think but i i do not to deflect but i do want to say that living in la has made me hate driving and i didn't realize it's just la driving until i i have to drive now like an hour away for work join the club bitch but like i thought i would hate it and because it's not a traffic drive i'm like it's so much fun i'm blasted by my music. I'm free. I'm by myself. I stop at my Starbucks drive-thru. I am living life. You need to go on a road trip by yourself. You'll like it. It's actually my favorite thing to do. It's so fun. You've done that? Yes. I used to

love to drive from Santa Fe to LA, LA to Santa Fe. Tell me about it. Somehow I think that you on a road trip alone is safe and Esther is not. I feel like someone would just like take your kidneys at a gas station. You got to give her enough phone books to sit on, little extenders, little put some tuna cans together in the bottom of her feet so she can touch. But what, do you like stop and get like drive-through fast food? Yes. Well, I do have a rule that I'm allowed a free lapse for me. So when you're sober, you're, which I don't even claim to be anymore.

I don't drink, but anyway. Sober enough. Oh, my God. Speaking of sober, I have a huge thing to announce. She drank wine. Did you quit the alcohol you never drank? No, no. Wait, if you quit – this is like when my mom quit drinking the same time I did.

She was like, oh, it's been so hard quitting drinking. I go, what? She goes, yeah, it's been hard. I go, Mom, you quit drinking too? She goes, I quit right after you did. I'm like, oh, it's been so hard quitting drinking. I go, what? She goes, yeah, it's been hard. I go, mom, you quit drinking too? She goes, I quit right after you did. I'm like, when did you drink? I was stealing my sober thunder. A free lapse.

Oh, my free lapse is always I can snort Adderall at Taco Bells on my drives. In Barstow? No wonder you love road trips. That sounds amazing. Somehow love road trips that sounds amazing somehow honestly that sounds like the most relatable thing you've ever said

thank you so much because I think that I have not snorted it but definitely fucked with Ritalin in Barstow at a Del Taco

on my way to Vegas you get it bitch you get it something about the open road in the desert it makes sense to me that's the thing you relate to Annie the most about. I just think it's an underrated

but highly relatable statement. I think that on the surface, it may not seem like something people would do, but it is. I will tell you the truth. I have retired snorting Adderall at this point because it does nothing. It doesn't help in any way. I realized it was just me again, chasing being bad. You know what I used to do when I said, okay, no more Ritalin. I got really hooked on something that's not even supposed to be addictive, but it's this thing that Herbalife and Nutrilife sells. It's called Rhodiola. And I used to just take packs of Rhodiola

and it's supposed to be like good for you. You just get on that fucking, you start nasoing. But not only does it, it gives you diarrhea, so I felt skinny. And then it gives you like a, it feels like coffee.

If diarrhea still at this point made me feel skinny. I mean, it's been so many years since diarrhea has made me feel skinny. I learned it'll hang there. It'll hang on. The bloat will hang. The bloat will stay.

The bloat is gas. Does snorting Adderall make a difference in any way? No. No? No. What? It was just like fun. I just was like, I miss being bad.

And I will say this, even though I have retired the snorting of anything, don't recommend it. Even though I have retired the snorting of anything, don't recommend it. I did go and I got a cup of coffee and the straw they used was so cute that I said, maybe I'll just do one more blue rail. Get some homework done. It was so cute. I was like, I would love to snort some Adderall. Because the straw was cute. It was so cute.

Esther, listen. This story is not adding up. Esther, nobody thought you were going to relate to this anyway. Nobody. You just said you had realized you had fun driving for the first time. You're in your early to mid-30s. What is the blue line? Why did you call it blue?

Because the Adderall would be a five milligram. You know how George got burudunga'd in Colombia? And it's that drug where you seem like you're acting normally but you're actually being you're you're fucked up what's cool is like george was like as george was like blowing this guy he was like really into it he was like but i wonder i wonder if we all burudanga'd each other and then just did did an episode i wonder if oh no we would have control of what we were saying and what would actually come out. If we drug ourselves, we should try things

that are not like crazy for you. I mean, I know that you've dabbled in Dayquil. Look at how hard you're laughing. Because you're pathetic. Because you're pathetic. How are we friends? It's really weird. I've literally,

by the time I was your height, I'd already done all these. It's weird. I always forget it too it's like i was so sincere when i brought up dave quill and you guys just fucking bulldozed me i was what did you want to throw you a party oh my god her gateway drug she's gonna be on fucking time time all pm in no time you guys don't you know z quill oh she knows the variations but no this is really important this is like i'm about

to blow your mind i thought you were gonna blow me do you know z-quil where it's like okay it's literally the same exact thing as benadryl it's the same drug they just market it as equal and benadryl is so much fucking cheaper and it's the same thing there it's diphenhydramine yes did you know this caloco yeah i like that you're like well you didn't tell us you just i like that you're taking them down but what if you take them down and then you can't have your sweet sweet day cool anymore what drug are you gonna do amazon brand day cool is cheaper anyway i want to take you to the amazon and give you something i want to i want to i want to shoot you to the Amazon and give you something. The Amazon. I want to shoot you with a dart and have you hallucinate for six. Poison dart frog.

They're very cute, but they're very, very toxic, Esther. They'd kill us all. Oh, I love frogs. Huge. I drew them in. Don't get too excited. My baby's learning. You look like baby's learning, mommy.

You look like the craft. I look like the craft? Yeah. Oh, thank you. I think that was what I was going for. You look more like a corpse. Like I look like the craft? Yeah. Oh, thank you. I think that was what I was going for. You look more like a corpse. Like I do arts and crafts. Yeah.

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very woke community way more so than I would say comedy and I remember once she said something that I always think about when people don't like me online and she said thank god for that unsubscribe button and so like I always say that to myself like when I'm like thank god that you're you can unsubscribe you can unfollow thank god for that what a concept like you are so let like go yeah if you're mad that whatever whatever reason well it's always just like a control thing and trying to like to help you it's just like what what's the point of being alive you know I get um I didn't get a platform because I follow everyone else's like I'm not I'm not even an actress like I am a comedian I say my own's like, I'm not even an actress. Like I am a comedian.

I say my own words. And I think this actually applies to like my experience as being like Asian American, but not Asian American the same way that other people are Asian American. It's like, I'm a 1.5 or I grew up in Asia. My sensibilities are different than someone who was born and raised here.

And what they what they feel they need to gatekeep in terms of their Asian-ness the culture I don't feel like I need to gatekeep because it's like I grew up in a culture that was like here we share it you want to wear a kimono and saya a kimono and saya wear it you want to dance the nikling do it it but that might not be the same for a filipino born and raised here where they're like no my you know my culture is not your costume or they have a completely different set of ideas than me because they're seeing it through their upbringing here but i don't feel the need to ever like gatekeep my asianess and i yeah i think i do get in trouble

there's a there's a rift there and I feel very disconnected to some Asian Americans in that way. That feel that way, right? But then there's people that you're resonating with that feel exactly like you. It's this, it's the conversation. It's like if you say what you believe, right? Like, and you are true to like what you think is like right for you. Yeah. That's literally the only thing you can do because what's the point of fucking anything right and it's it's this it's like when when there was a group of filipinos scholarly filipinos say for instance or i'm sorry um filipino americans who were like oh let's add the x at the end of filipina or filipino let's do philippine x i have trans friends at home in the philippines that i grew up with who are like, wait a second,

we don't have pronouns in our language. You Americans don't get to tell us what we're supposed to call ourselves. But in the meantime, there are people that do subscribe to it. And some people that don't. So there's sort of this like, back and forth about it. But it's like, ultimately, and some people that don't. So there's sort of this like, back and forth about it. But it's like, ultimately, no one is correct. And no one is wrong. Because we're all speaking from our own lived experience. And our lens and like what we value. It's like all your values. And I think it's just like, I just it's like, controversial, but I'll say it being that you know i grew up in asia but it's like say for instance the ollie london thing that kid who wanted to be he was white he said he considered transracial does it feel fucking weird for me to see that yeah it feels icky

but at the same time do i know that korea is the number one leading country in cosmetics to alter their eyes to be to look more westernized and white? Yeah, they are. It's just like, yeah, I feel like I don't want to tell like whether I don't want to say like to like Kim Kardashian, don't get your ass done. Like I'm a hippie. I would like in my perfect world in my life. I have no Botox. I have no nothing. I like to be like to get as good with myself

and my body as I can possibly be. If someone else wants to transition into another sex, that is so, I so support whatever their fucking journey is and I believe that

whatever they want and they're going to handle it. It's not my business. It's not my business to stand up for anyone to say anything. I live my life to be kind to everyone and give

everyone grace that's literally it but it's like someone who's gonna come for you for saying that you know for saying something like that it's like people don't stop and take a look at the fact that this kid ollie london looks like he's mentally ill yeah and that's the that that's ultimately what we were saying and i think that yeah you don't have to give him that he's great you don don't go like, all right, you're Korean and now you like, but you didn't have any of the struggles. It's just like there's so many different. Esther and I are friends and her big drug was Dayquil. OK, like, do you know what I mean?

It's like I was doing fucking crazy drugs when I was 13. It's like you can you can have different experiences and still like appreciate the other person. And by the way, for the record, I'm not saying that my feelings are correct. They're just my feelings from my own lived experiences. I will not gatekeep anything Filipino. She won't gatekeep either. I mean, she's really just let it out. Let's be honest.

She's let a lot of people have it. If someone says something extremely offensive towards Jewish people, towards women, something, you know. I'm right here, Esther. people towards women something you know i'm right here like i i want to approach them with love and like i want to help them understand my side from a positive place and not be like you're fucking sexist like you you know i don't want to be angry if i'm passionate about something because this is the opposite like the anger and the rage. Yeah.

It makes me really uncomfortable. It is a very American thing. It's not real. It's someone like literally going through their day trying to have a thing to make them feel like they're like, gotcha. And then I'm going to do this. Like it's the same as the Bloodbath Girls. We can't like look at what they're doing. Yeah, it's a joke.

What they all want is our attention and us talking about them. So the Bloodbath Girls are now trying. I don't know what they're trying to do to me or whatever is our attention and us talking about them so the bloodbath girls are now trying i don't know what they're trying to do to me or whatever i'm never watching it i don't care anyone that watches whatever their fucking bullshit video is and and and agrees with them please oh unfollow everything i've ever done get the fuck away from me i literally am here to fucking get over myself be good make people feel good make people laugh if you don't want to get on board with that get the fuck away from me like i will not be controlled i never have been i never will be it's like fuck off by the way the best point ever made was about the name bloodbath when

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to the victims. By the way, there's nothing to apologize to. And the serial killers are not okay. They're never okay. You are misogynist. You are misogynist.

You hate women. You pray and you try to make money off of the death of innocent fucking women. So how about that? How about that? Do you want us to fucking release that, bitches? Yeah. of innocent fucking women. So how about that? How about that? Do you want us to fucking release that, bitches?

Yeah. Do you want people to know that about you? Drop that shit on a Patreon. What are we doing? We're showing girls that they can be themselves, get over their fucking trauma, love each other, be supportive, and speak their own fucking mind in a world where men tell us what to fucking say all the time, and we have to conform. We don't fucking do that.

We talk about diarrhea, period blood, and we fucking eat gross shit, all right? Fuck you. All during a pandemic. We're horrible. We never bullied you once. We took the name down. We just were trying to be nice to you and you wanted more.

You wanted merch money. You wanted attention. All you want is money, clout, and to look like victims. Well, you're not fucking victims, but you know who are? The girls you exploit for your fucking show that has 40 followers.

So enjoy your shitty little career. And you'll never get $100,000 fucking dollars from us. If you had asked for 10, by the way, you might have gotten 10. You might have gotten 10. Mama has spoken. It's like enough. What do we want our followers to do?

Not be themselves and scared and victims of their... We were all fucking molested in every hole except esther but her time will come maybe during this episode i had some things yeah you had a couple things that's true for some reason she hides them i think that you hit the nail on the head and i think that ultimately we've not call it what it was which is they've been bullies you're you're bullying us you're trying to extort us. We know our power and that's why we don't talk about you because you will be destroyed by our fans.

We don't want them to feel bad. We don't want them to go against you. We want to just move on with the shittiest name ever. Kalilah picked it. No, I didn't. I didn't. George did.

George fucking did it. George does coke though so we'll give him a pass. He's a drug addict and he was drugged. Do you guys want to hear two girls talk about the same murders you to hear two girls talk about the same murders

you've heard everyone else talk about? Yeah. Who are calling us bullies out of nowhere that we've literally been protecting for months and months and months.

Do you hate our new name? So do we. Everyone fucking does. We love our name. It made sense. We could have coexisted with them. We actually were going to have them be our true crime correspondents

but they went around and told everyone we were thieves and liars and said we were doing things. We never did. They are unsafe unsafe I don't I don't negotiate with terrorists

yes yes so go watch their show if you like it and resonate with it please give them your money give them your attention please

they need it seems like they really want to build an empire go follow them do whatever do it do it do it on a charity

it's no sweat off our back because even after we changed the name they still took it down vengefully they they literally gave us more shit even after we changed the name after we changed the name and it's like i don't even want to be mad because i shouldn't let anyone make me mad but it's like it's so fucking frustrating we're biting our tongues trying to help and protect them and they can't stop and we've been harassed and bullied harassed and bullied every they wanted a private apology from esther because they made up a situation in their head where they thought esther was speaking directly to them that's like stalker stuff someone out there thinks you're

speaking to them that like is what made me feel unsafe where i'm like you're making up something in your head that i'm i'm threatening you or I think the line that they were upset about was like, one of our first podcasts, which we filmed months before they even acknowledged us, was you said, we're the bloodbath girls, let it be known. It's been a bloodbath, let the court see. Because she's going to sue me all the time because I'm a killer.

Because it's bloodbath because we're friends that fuck with each other do you understand it has nothing to do with you listen angels go for your life get over yourselves

your life will be better okay I work on this myself too okay I'm not saying I'm perfect and I want I want you to be successful but your mindset is not correct

okay your mindset is paranoid and it's not it is not it's not where we're coming from. And you want an apology. I'm sorry. I don't know what the fuck I'm apologizing for, but I'm sorry. No, I'm getting emotional because I do feel like I, I think that anyone can relate to this. Like there's something in your life that you have to just keep a smile on your face

and you can't let people know what's going on behind the scenes. But like, since the day we started this podcast, this has been going on. And we never talk about it because like what women usually do, we just put a smile on our faces and like keep it going. And I'm just, there's something emotionally cathartic about this. I think that what it is, Esther, is that we genuinely don't want to hurt anyone. Even all of us. This is a comedy show. Yeah, like we've never set out to hurt anyone's feelings, step on anyone's toes.

This was our home project between three friends. We came up with a name from the English dictionary that we liked. That was once a movie. That was based on a band that is like, you know, and what we set out to do was just something light and funny and really positive.

And what has transpired and helping women helping such a bummer and the fact that we've had to just take the high road and play nice and pretend like nothing's happening is been you're right it's it's it's been a fucking frustrating process and did i not do we not have a conversation where it's like you know what we should just do a thing and try to be as nice as possible and every time we're about to do that they send another threatening fucking email some threat about something or we've done this or we changed the name on purpose like stop watching true crime stop it you're paranoid stop well okay get a puppy get a puppy go look at the trees it's beautiful out it's beautiful out what about the weeks

or months that like after we changed the name because we were being threatened like all a lot of our listeners were upset

and they were like oh I don't want to listen anymore because you changed your name and we're just sitting here like we didn't want to

change our name like we were being harassed but we couldn't tell anyone there was no taking of a name we didn't know

who you were as most people don't you literally have I'm not even trying to be rude you have a small following it's very very small We couldn't tell anyone. There was no taking of a name. We didn't know who you were. We literally didn't. You literally have a, I'm not even trying to be rude, you have a small following. It's very, very small. It's very small. You know what we're doing?

We're actually business women that are getting together to write to a podcast that resonates with young girls, that makes them happy. Do you know what happens when I do my shows now, my live shows?

Girls come up crying that they feel so much better about being molested and what's happened to them because we talk openly about it. So keep shutting us down. We're so mean to women. We're so mean to them.

And then go, oh, is there another girl that got murdered innocently that you want to bathe in their blood? Like, what are you talking about? And did we ever once say, we don't want you to have the name? Do we ever care? Did it have anything to do? We didn't know you existed until we already had launched and filmed the first few episodes. So sorry, we came up with the name before you existed.

I don't know what you're talking about. There's no thievery. No one's taking from you. And it didn't take anything from you. All it did was get you more attention. Yeah. And honestly, we're happy to share that attention. It's like, look, like whatever trickle down followers that you get out of this, happy

to have you see, happy to see you have them. We were going to have you be correspondents. But to have you see happy to see you have them we were gonna have you be correspondents but we you know who we don't have people that call us liars and thieves and make up stories about us and bully us that's who we don't have yeah i'm sorry this has been honestly my favorite episode because and i and i really apologize for like my i shouldn't be this heated because i don't it's anger is not the thing it's just it's exactly what Esther's saying it's like we've been holding it yeah I and like I literally am like on the verge of tears like since you started talking about the Asian stuff like I'm just so it's such a shitty feeling to like hold something in and be be harassed and be scared and like I don't know it's just and be told you're bad

when your intentions were never like never bad at all right I don't know it's just and be told you're bad when your intentions were never like never bad at all right i don't even know what to say like i don't i don't know what to say i'm just like glad we're talking about this it's like therapeutic because this has just been really shitty and i'm grateful that we have the show and that we fucking are we're a huge success yeah and guess what we are we're huge no matter no matter what we are sorry she's the only one that exercises whether we're whether this is bloodbath trash tuesday slug town annie esther kalilah show it's whatever we imbue it with right it's like our followers our fans we love them so dearly they've latched we've latched. It's like this mutualistic love.

And no matter what we are, no matter what name we have, we're going to do well. It also doesn't matter. It's like you can have the name. We don't care. We've done nothing but be nice to you. Just stop harassing us, guys. It's like we've given you A, B, C, D, and E everything. Just leave us the fuck alone.

You got our iTunes taken down. That's more people that could have been inspired and felt good about themselves that can't have that now so also when there was a third podcast bloodbath like they bully the shit out of those they did too and it's like dude like it's just how many bad friends are there there's five yeah yeah how many like hey babes are there 20 this exists i used to do a thing called sausage partyage Party Presents with me and my friend Abby. It was called Sausage Party. It was, we would take hot dogs and we would recreate scenes with it and we would make original content.

And then I saw my friend Kate Berlant on the subway. She goes, oh my God, congrats on the movie. I go, what are you talking about? She goes, oh, you're doing that movie with Seth Rogen, Sausage Party. And I went, nope, that's unfortunate. Oh, well, you move on. You make something new. You keep moving forward.

Nothing about our show gets in the way of your show in any way. Yeah, I think that if you spent all of this energy and legal fees into actually creating legitimate content, you would build an empire. But if you're continually obsessing and using that energy to go after girls that are just trying to do a home project, it's gonna backfire. Esther, how many alone togethers were there in the world? A lot. Well, look, it became like the slogan for COVID-19. Yeah.

Look at that. COVID stole from Esther. And there was another. We should sue COVID. COVID owes Esther an apology. COVID's been looking at you through the camera and yelling at you. Oh my God. yeah look at that covid stone and there was another we should sue covid covid owes esther an apology covid's been looking at you through the camera and yelling at you yeah it's just it's this is a it was a it's been a really weird situation that i just didn't see coming for myself or for us what i found the funniest though is they really had it up for you

poor little baby i mean that made me feel scared like i you know i've had stalkers and stuff like i that there's there's protocol for that like yeah i you know had to do some things to make sure you know i i just don't know who these people are when they start talking to you like they know you i don't know it just this whole thing is it's really shitty and i feel like people all all day every day there are people out there in their own workplaces where they have to grin and smile through something where they're being harassed or like threatened um and it just is so shitty and i wish there was something that we could do and maybe even just sharing about it is helpful. But it's I don't know. It's just it's like I just feel really emotional. Like I can't articulate.

And I don't know. Like I just am so grateful that Annie is here to like be our mouthpiece. Yeah. Because you're good at it. And like say what I think we've all been feeling and afraid to say. All of this to say, by the way, stop complaining about the name change. We're going to change it into something else we're like an art exhibit every two months down trash tuesday now i want to like maybe we should just keep it

honestly maybe we should just keep it the name doesn't matter you guys are what matter the three of us i look my i wanted to pitch to take the h out and just be blood bats that was my pitch that's great we should do bleed baths bleed baths I want slug bath slug bath oh yeah slug bath slug bath is cute slug bath

even bath girls I know I shit all over Esther and her mother but now I don't know she's been being harassed online I want to get on track but I'm also glad we did this

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I'm targeted. Esther, you need to accept responsibility for what you are. If it's like a bat. If it's like a bat. You have to accept responsibility for what you are. Which is what? A walking tiny little target. Esther, your reaction looking at it

will be more than their reaction eating it. So that's why it's fun. Oh, I'm really scared. I'm really, I'm now I'm scared. Just don't drop it. I meant to eat it off the floor. I'm not scared. It's not gonna attack me. It might. Oh my God. Oh my god. That's really All right, hold on you're actually that's you guys really like worst nightmare example that like no one would ever do

But like i'm in shock Okay, here's what I have to say, you know what i'm not is i'm not hungry for my banana anymore That's a fucking tarantula Okay, here's what I have to say. You know what I'm not is I'm not hungry for my banana anymore. That's a fucking tarantula. Don't! Oh, get rid of me! Oh, it's kind of cute too. Why is it so...

Okay, wait. I'm gonna have to eat this. I might have to call Jo. I have to leave. I'm gonna call Jo Rogan. I think I have to leave the room. It's not alive. It's a tarantula.

It's not alive. I had two tarantulas, one named Boris and one named Charlie, they're very sweet. Oh my God. I'm gonna see if Rogan will coach me through this. This can't happen anymore. This is not. It's gotta keep happening. Do you understand that is why it has to keep happening?

No. No, Annie, no. They do worse on the challenge. Oh my God, she's doing it. Oh my God, she's doing it oh my god she's doing it I don't really like I don't want to touch it

oh my god I'm not like interested in it Annie's punk rock she'll do it even if oh it's crunchy not chocolate

it's not chocolate nothing chocolate about that what you lied to her oh my god just dried yeah I just said

dried tarantula I just gagged she's's a dried tarantula. I just gagged. She's throwing up in her Lady Gaga shirt. Please fill up. We need the views. Again, it's like there's no taste. There's nothing tarantula-y about it.

It's just something about, like, you thinking it was chocolate. Fear is not a factor. And then after you bit into it, he told you it wasn't chocolate. Chocolate is, like, making me really sick. Do you know what's kind of sicker? You know what's kind of sicker, Esther? What? That Kalilah, like these were her pets. This is like if we ate our dogs.

Like Kalilah, you sick bitch. These were your pets. I used to feed them crickets. You want to know their names were Boris and Charlie. I have pictures. I'll send you sick bitch. These were your pets. I used to feed them crickets. You want to know, their names were Boris and Charlie. I have pictures. I'll send you guys pics. But it's like... I don't think Esther needs a pic.

I'm... Can I just apologize for laughing so hard to the audio listeners? Seeing Esther being the only one who did not eat that and react the most is kind of hilarious.

Well, that's smart, Annie. Give me some of your banana to chase it with. Oh. Like, are you going to go home and, like, kiss Todd with that mouth? Here, here. I that's smart, Annie. Give me some of your banana to chase it with. Like, are you going to go home and like kiss Todd with that mouth? Here, here. I got my own, Annie. I'm going to suck his dick.

I was literally so hungry and so excited when I got my banana. And now I, the thought of eating it. I cannot believe the transformation of you and bananas. I've worked through my anger and now I'm just proud of you. I feel like it's your favorite fruit now. I like it, but I don't, I'm just proud of you. I feel like it's your favorite fruit now. I like it but I don't I'm so hungry now and watching you bite into the dried non-covered tarantula like I just am so scarred. How do you feel? I feel great but I'm having a breakthrough with you because I feel like it was annoying me when you were like adapting and getting better at things a little

bit because I was like why was she like so difficult about it before if she could eventually eat a banana? But I actually, I'm fucking proud of you. You're actually breaking down boundaries. You're getting better. You guys, the new and improved Esther 2.0.

Also Esther, I want to walk through. She's big Esther. I want to walk through the psychological terror that you're feeling. How, what are your thoughts on eating crab or lobster or shrimp i don't need any is it repulsive to you yeah when you see people eat it or when you see it on a table just lobster meat i'm just not i'm not i'm not repulsed but i'm just like i don't want that because i'm not repulsed because my fiance yeah dave likes crab he loves that right so essentially all dave is doing is eating sea spiders that's exactly it they have an exoskeleton they are the same family we actually call them bugs like when

we go lobstering we get we call lobsters bugs because they're you're not helping her they're insects they're water insects but certainly you must know that like people, it's a very common fear to be afraid of spiders. I'm not letting that. Yeah, but it's dead. That's the famous argument. Oh, if you see a spider, it's good. You guys are eating the bugs.

But I don't mind the bugs. It's the spiders. Okay, bring her bugs next week, guys. No, no, no, no, no. If I brought, and i wouldn't do this because i don't want to terrorize the poor tarantula but you would never hold a tarantula in your hand like in fifth grade they never said hey hold this tarantula or some somebody bring that what about a big snake like from slavery uh if it was like a snake that wasn't gonna kill me

and like people none of them are gonna kill you snakes no no no but none of the things that we brought to you we're gonna kill you no but that's what i'm saying is if the snake didn't wasn't a threat to my life i wouldn't be super creeped out by a snake i like lizards like i think we all have our thing oh i have my thing if you if i see even one when when we were when i was in hawaii last time i was in the middle seat um sandwiched between um my sister that's my boyfriend more than a spider exactly and we we were driving back from the north shore and i look over at the ac vent right in front of my knee and i see a cockroach just go inside the ac vent i almost killed the entire car i freaked out so hard that I sat on top of my sister

and I was threatening to open the car door as it was going 80 miles an hour. Was it the roach spray that was coming out of the air conditioning? The roaches do to me what I think spiders do to Esther, which is like this visceral, this need to just run. Whether even if it kills me, I just need to get out of that car.

Yeah. Well, you realize like people do say that could be a thing like a d in your dna that because of like like a spider could have killed an ancestor like you know like that's a real thing well i have one here and they say that like pregnant women are especially afraid of spiders because spiders have something that can like harm the baby like there there is truth to this are you telling us that your ancestors were killed by spiders by the smell of fire by spiders by the texture of bananas can i you can't disprove it can i give you my history

on cockroaches yes the reason that i feel a need to jump is because my whole life I was terrorized by cockroaches. So in the Philippines, we have the aerial ones that fly. So anytime I was walking around the house or even asleep, they would jump into my hair. And I would have to crunch it in my hair. And then all of its juices would come down. And if they didn't, if I didn't kill them beforehand, my sister and I would wake up and we would have these holes in our shins because they were carnivorous what and they would just eat at our shin meat and when i came to america they promised me they weren't there weren't any big roaches here so i was like oh my god we've made it america doesn't have now you're living with one

that's so weird and so our first apartment there were these tiny little roaches and i was like oh that's nothing american roaches are cool but there were thousands of them and every time i i went to school in my back back when i opened a textbook there just would like like roaches everywhere and they would tease me they'd be like oh dang girl like where do you live you brought roaches to school i would bring them to swim practice they were fucking everywhere so roaches have terrorized my life i had crabs in college we've all been through it okay that's why you look now i still eat them by the way everybody it was 200 she gave me everyone's been wondering oh yeah and there's about 20 left there's about 20 left oh we had a feast i have a question is your vagina like is europe vagina is your vagina like where is it no

because mine's right here do you ever like do you remember like guys like in the early days they thought it was like here but it's like deep well you're not really far back is yours is like in there right it's between mine aren't mine is Are you ever surprised by like how it's far back? But what do you mean surprised? Like did it move while I was sleeping? I don't know. Sometimes I'm like, I feel like mine is like really down there. All right, pull it out.

Let's see. Okay, no. I want to see like are ours in the same place? Here. Here's mine. Guys, I want to be clear that Esther is asking to see my vagina. The hole? Oh my God, she's touching it. Right here. I want to be clear that Esther is asking to see my vagina. The hole? Oh my God, she's touching it.

Right here. I want to say that. Give me your finger. Give me one finger. It feels like the Twinkie from last week. It's right here. That's the hole. That's the hole?

Yeah. That's really forward. Will you feel mine? All of this just so someone can touch your pussy. Come here. Is it here? No, that's my butt. Yeah, Esther, it's normal. Are you sure?

I guess no one wants to touch my pussy. Mine's right here. Let me see. Okay. I think I'm okay. For all the audio listeners, everybody in the room touched each other's pussy. Everyone's pussy is in the right place.

I didn't touch Kalilah's because I want it to be really special when i touch hers candles have to be lit no no esther's gonna be holding the camera and there'll be petals on the bed esther will be placing the petals but that's i'm not making that up right like guys used to think it was like in the front well i think it's because the the the placement of the clit is but the clit is more in the front and that is the one they really need to be looking for. Guys, Pete and George said that since

we're having a special goth episode that I should read you one of my poems. Oh, another poem. Is this a new one? What year was this? These are all teenage poems, guys. By the way, I think you should read one in episode. I'll write one.

I'll try to read a genuine one. I know you don't like the rhyming ones, so I'll steer clear from the rhyming ones. Do everything you want. Look, I like to rhyme in high school. Rhyme. Oh, my gosh. Oh, my God. We can turn it into a rap.

Esther, drop a beat. I feel like you can. Can you drop beats? Schools are great in District 68. It's time to celebrate. Oh, my God. Join and participate. I said schools you can. Can you drop beats? Schools are great in District 68. It's time to celebrate. Join and participate. I said schools are great. There's not a nerdier rap of all time.

This one is called The Unfeeling. Oh, my God. Esther, are you paying attention? Okay. No, it's better. I'm already so bored. I don't want to hear the poem. I'm just being honest. I feel like my makeup matches this poem. Please look me in the better. I'm already so bored. I don't want to hear the poem. I'm just being honest.

I feel like my makeup matches this poem. Please look me in the eye when I'm reading this, Annie. I'm putting my necklace on. For even in the liveliest corner, on the brightest hour of the year, when my pockets are fullest, the sun is at its highest, the breeze is at its gentlest, and the untroubled croon of my friend's laughter envelops the mood and sits against a backdrop of a joyous enormity. I am defunct.

I am dead. Oh, I like the message. That you're dead? Make like a dead person and never write another poem. The message is the message. If you could make like a corpse and not be able to use your fingers anymore that would be great is is the message like even though life is happening and all these things around me are going seemingly good i'm it doesn't matter i'm still dead inside i'm depressed oh my god of course you like that. Oh my God. I think it was beautiful. Thank you so much. Can I buy it off of you?

Yes. It's $100,000. I think I tried to kill myself three days later. I know. You're like, I sent this poem out to everyone. Why did no one come to my house? What is that thing, George, when you, like the antique road show, when there's a story behind it?

A provenance? Oh, see, that's a provenance. Of course you know. The provenance of the poem is that three days later, I tried to kill myself, guys. So if you want to purchase the poem, let me know. NFTs coming soon. Yes. NF.

Please don't write that again. Tease. No. No, it was good. I liked it. I appreciate your poetry. I love a good teen poet, too, because there's so much in it. There's so much heart.

We're so much more emotional and dramatic when we're teens. It's really weird. Well, as someone that's never grown out of your teen years. It's weird. No, I really infantize you. I don't know if that's the word. Infantilize. Infantilize you.

Yeah, of course, there's a fantasy involved. I wish Dave would. I walked you to your car. Like, I do not look at you as someone that's able to like oh I know and I cross the street without holding a grown-up's hand and looking both ways I recognize that you do it and I do not stop you I fully am like yeah no you should walk I'm like do you even grab I'm like I'm carrying her I'm like come on Esther it really is your instinct and I just I didn't want you to notice that it was happening because I wanted it to keep happening oh I okay I just I didn't want you to notice that it was happening because I wanted it to keep happening.

Oh, I OK. I just heard a philosophy that we're already dead. And if you just assume you're already dead, how your life could be more free and good. Well, that sends me somehow into a panic. Does it? I feel like. Our friend Jenna has a tattoo. Doesn't it say like you'll be dead?

Something like that. You're going to be dead. Yeah. If you're reading this, it's like you'll be dead something you're gonna be dead yeah a little if you're reading this it's like this ring jenna you bitch but seven days later i feel like it's a similar thing of okay so let's say you're afraid to do something whatever you're gonna be dead soon anyway so why not just do the ask the person out or you know whatever it is that you're so scared of well you're gonna die teenage for that to be the thing for you to prom well is there something that you are scared to do but if you tell yourself i'm gonna be dead one day like i'll do i'll just do it yeah when i let you touch my vagina i'm not really afraid of many things but i think because i do kind of live that way i'm afraid of many things a lot more than it

would seem I'm a lot less afraid now that I'm on Lexapro yeah I think I'm gonna get on that level yesterday or the last week in therapy she was like it's time really it is she yeah I'm gonna I'm seeing a psychiatrist in in September because I think that her thing was how many days out of the year are you willing to suffer? And I said, you know, she's like the last couple of years of your life. She's like, how many days are you willing to give to that suffering? I'm like, okay. Touche, bitch. I have an alternative option to pose for both of you.

Now, get on your Alexa Pro and enjoy it for a little while, okay? I'm not on it yet. And then in five weeks, I don't know how long it is wait are you gonna get certified i'm getting certified no to be a hypnotist no way yes hypno motivation hypnotic recollections i don't know what any of these are yet i just got the box oh please let me be your guinea pig i'm gonna guinea pig the fucking shit out of both of you guys now this is an issue it's dvds i have to hypnotize it i have to hypnotize my computer into having a dvd player there it is i thought these weren't real oh it's like a it's one of the things

oh you are getting taller wow i'm gonna i'm taking like eight hour classes are you serious and why do you want because you can't hypnotize yourself right no i mean maybe you can i don't know it's just you're george is not i just okay so i've been talking a lot about yeah i guess you can hypnotize yourself but i've been hypnosis has like really helped me so much and so many people are coming up to me after shows and stuff and they're like really interested in it and stuff and I want to like I think there's just something I can do with it that's like melding what I do which is being funny and hypnosis somehow and like I just I don't know I just have a vision of some things I think like how could it hurt if I learn it yeah it's really

helped me so much it's been so cool I'm telling you I don't have my jaw is not tense anymore oh wait I didn't can I make fun of your TikTok real quick? Fine. You're so dirty that you wore gloves to go into your own mouth. It's not why. It's because the gloves make it feel better. More like a dick? Can I, I will, if we have gloves, I'll put my hands in your mouth right now.

Manipulating for your TMJ pain? Yes. Esther, do my TMJ, because it's still sore, but it's like, I'm telling you, I'm not like, the clenching is like over.ching well let's see if this is so i did a tiktok showing how i go into my own mouth i was just i was like i wonder like is she is she do you think your mouth is dirty or your hand i couldn't tell okay yes okay esther is hovering above annie she is right about she's using her right hand she's moving to the left side of ann now. And she is sticking her left thumb into the right side of Annie's jaw.

Her thumbs do not go far enough back. Commit to it, Esther. Go all the way back. Are your fingers too little? I'm not going to bite. You think I'm going to chomp down? No, no. If it was your dick, I would.

She's reentering Annie's mouth. Is this what you're? Trying to manipulate the masseter muscle. How's it feel, Annie? Is it getting there? Okay, Annie's giving. Is this what you're? Trying to manipulate the masseter muscle. How does it feel, Annie? Is it getting there? Okay, Annie's giving me the thumbs up. Seems like she's really getting that masseter muscle finally. Did I do anything?

Like, how did I do? It was good. I mean, it was light. You were more scared than me, which I feel like is not usually the practice. I'm not usually the one coaching the massage therapist into it. Imagine a nurse how'd i do asking her patients i mean esther said she's going to nursing school is one i'm like i've never wanted to dare someone to do something more yes esther to nursing school she goes klyla how did i do from where i was standing it seemed as though

at first you were a little hesitant i wanted to be gentle you know i'm going it's very i'm violating her i didn't want her i wanted her to feel safe i'm wide open i was yeah like my my jaw was behind my ears let's just say that okay what would you hypnotize me and kalilah for oh my god you i i don't know yet but it'll be fucked up let's just say you'll be eating spiders. Let's just say you'll be with a fucking smile in your face. She's going to be like, someone put a fire. I want you to smell smoke. Do you want to call your mommy?

Okay, so I'm on my podcast, mama. And I wanted to, I was telling them that I got to the bottom of why you were telling my sister-in-law I was infertile. So I asked her on vacation, I said, mom, why did you tell people that I got to the bottom of why you were telling my sister-in-law I was infertile. So I asked her on vacation. I said, Mom, why did you tell people that I couldn't have kids? You want me to really tell the truth?

Say the exact truth. Because you had so much sex and never got pregnant. Mrs. Annie Letterman, how do you know that Annie had so much sex? Because she told me. Was it weird for her to tell know that Annie had so much sex? Because she'd tell me. Was it weird for her to tell you that? All right, all right. I'll tell you a story. Oh, my God.

And Annie will not be embarrassed by this story, I promise. I'm filling with blood. She invited me to Brooklyn to help her move, I think, or clean up her apartment or something. It was the first apartment you had in Brooklyn. It was my third apartment, but yes, I did. I brought you just to help me clean it. Well, I wasn't even moving.

I was just like, oh, my room's messy. Mom, come clean it. All right. Okay. I know you're into it. Where you live, those two guys, right? Yep. Mike Christine and Nancy and Jermaine.

So I slept in your double bed with you and I had to get up and go to the bathroom in the middle of the night and I slipped on some lube. She slipped on Astroglide. Are you serious? I have a picture of her cleaning up Astroglide on my floor. I'll find it. All right. Well, I'm going to go. I love you. Does anyone have any more questions? I mean, millions. Now's your chance. Now's your chance. What do you think of her wild childness? Don't ruin my streak. Annie's always been very conventional. Very, very conventional. Mom, you've sent me some really sweet texts recently.

You're very proud of me. I am. Really? Yeah. It's really like I'm getting everything I want in life. It's very weird. Like my mom's sending me texts that are dream texts. Really? Yeah. It's really like I'm really I'm getting everything I want in life. It's very weird. Like my mom sent me a text like they're dream texts. What?

What do you have in your eyes? I have contacts, but I dropped them in both in the toilet. So I think I'm going to get pink eye, but it's worth it. Yeah, it's worth it. It's a podcast. It's worth it to get to get eye infection. Wait, mom, how about remember when I was like like, you were like, podcasts are so boring. And I was like, oh my God, what podcast do you listen to?

What was your answer? I don't remember. You said, I've only listened to yours. Wow, you should do Roast Battle. All right, I love you, mommy. All right, I'll call you later. Bye. I like your podcast. Thank you well it's the only one that

exclusively talks shit on you so you better like it it's the only one I've watched but I do like it I know she was talking about my solo before all right I love you bye mama

bye Mrs. Annie I would love to do like a full-blown sit-down interview with your mom that would be so fun I think we should do that with all ofblown sit-down interview with your mom. That would be so fun. I think we should do that with all of our – We should have your mom, your mom, and my mom on these chairs

to just replace us for an episode. Oh, my mom would be so nervous about that. My mom too. She would freeze. But also very into it because all of our moms, I think – Pretend to be nervous. My mom's not into entertainment. Your guys' moms are like our fans of entertainment.

Yeah. But my mom, my whole family just wants attention. I brought my brother up. I did Caroline's. By the way, everyone that came out to the show is like, it's amazing. Like when you go back on the, it's, you're going to see, it's like, it's a whole, it's a special thing. Like, I'm so glad we're resonating with you guys.

It's like fucking, it's such an honor to perform for the Sluggies. It's like unbelievable. It's really something going on. But, um. You brought really something going on. But – You brought your brother on stage. My brother was – my older brother was there and I just knew he was going to heckle. So once he started talking, I was like, do you want to do stand-up? And he went, well, okay.

And then came up immediately and then tried to do a set and was like – Are you still laughing at me? I'm like, yeah. It's really hard. You have to do it for a really long time. Yeah. Wow. How bold.

I can't believe he was like, yeah, I'll come up. My whole family is, yeah, I'll come up. Max like sticks in the back, but he wants to. Yeah. Wow. How bold. I can't believe he was like, yeah, I'll come up. Yeah. My whole family is, yeah, I'll come up. Max like sticks in the back, but he wants to come up. Wow. Oh my gosh. That's incredible.

My mom would be on a plane back home to Cebu. You know who I would have in place of my mom is Bobby's mom. Oh. She is a personality. She should have her own show.

I would love to hear. Jeannie. Jeannie's a fucking Jeannie. Ooh, Jeannie's a good name. She's the best. Oma's the best. What's your mother's name? Maritas.

Maritas? Yeah. Does she watch our show? Because my mom watches, Annie's mom watches. Yeah. Really? Yeah.

She watches it. And so does my stepdad now. You want to hear a text that I got from him? Yes. This will make you feel good. Which is like the weirdest thing because my whole life he's always been like, you really are, what a waste of a good brain is what he's always told me my whole life.

Mm-hmm. But, you know, Roger has his feelings. He's always like, you just could have been a scientist. You could have been this. It's not. It's actually a compliment if you look at it. It is. It is. We really like take things. Yeah. He's always like, you just could have been a scientist. You could have been this. It's actually a compliment if you look at it. It is. It is.

We really like take things. Yeah. He's probably not wrong. He said, I am very pleased with you. I wasn't sure at first, but you've really found your niche now. I always liked your independence, but now I'm even more impressed. I love you, Wench. That's it.

Aw, that's so sweet. Wench, that's so cute. Can I read you my mom's nice text? Yeah, I wanted to askch that's it wench that's so cute can I read you my mom's nice text yeah I wanted to ask about that okay so she goes

I forgot to tell you when I was trolling you on the internet I listened to a podcast you did at the beginning of COVID and I have to tell you you are absolutely hilarious

I couldn't stop laughing except to cough and blow my nose oh my god I'm so proud of you and what you've accomplished sweetheart it's all's all you, no one else. Oh, that's amazing. Oh, Annie. I want to cry. Our podcast is good, you guys. We're finally getting our parents' approval. For real. For the first time. Tiger Belly didn't do that for me. I mean, I've always had your parents' approval.

Do you remember the night my mom came to our show? This is amazing, you guys. My mom came to watch me and five of my friends do stand-up. And when asked who her favorite one was, she said Annie. And I was like, are you sure? I was so good. It was very funny. I was on that night. That's really your answer? I was shocked.

My set was half your set too, though. Oh, then you were part of my set. Yeah, that was really fun. It was the night that we all, it was right a few days after we all found out Brody passed away. Oh, I think it was that day. It might've been. And we were just like, we can't do this.

And then we're like, let's just do it. So we were all together. My mom was in town and yeah, it was, it was, it ended up being, I mean, I rambled on stage and I don't know what I said, but it was fun. That was really good. It was, anyways, my mom discovered her favorite comedian that night. So that's cool.

I've always had with parents that have trouble like being vulnerable with their children. They always like go through me. I'm like the conduit to that. I don't think that's what this is. But thank you. Thank you so much. I want to end on a positive note since we had some highs and lows and peaks. What a ride.

I hope this whole podcast is edited out and this is a five-minute episode. It's a five-minute episode. It's just Esther walking in. For five minutes? Yeah. It's slow motion. Whatever was left. It's just you fingering both of us.

It is the juiciest. I want to say that we've been doing this now for what like six months and dare i say i've never been prouder of something that i've even taken part of like you know we were just three friends on facetime saying hey why don't we do this and not only did we do, we followed through and we still have a good time doing this. We're so silly. And we made a thing, guys. And I'm really proud of you guys. And I love you a lot. And I hope we get to do this for a very long time. Yeah, me too. I'm going to cry because I do feel like I'm so annoying. And I'm like, do you hate me now?

Esther, no one hates you. I just took myself out of the group chat and it works perfect. It's literally all I needed to do. Like I feel the same way, but you guys know I'm like such a sucker for like girls hanging out and like making money in business

and like speaking your truth and owning your like, like what you said, like you shout out about being molested and like the way that that had the impact that has on other people like that not just you with the bow i don't know i mean i really know how to beat a raped horse don't i honestly that might be my favorite thing about the three of us that I think we all have in common is being confident about our fucked up lives and our flaws and like sharing that so that if someone else feels that way too, they don't have to feel so bad if they have nipple hair or if they're nervous that their vagina is a little further back than it should be. Honestly, if you don't have nipple hair, you should feel ashamed of yourself.

Honestly, if you don't have nipple hair, you should feel ashamed of yourself. And I recently met a bartender at a rooftop hotel who was like, oh, I love your show. And I was like, oh, of course, it's Tiger Belly. This guy is like super yoked. He's bald. He's like a break dancer. And he was like, no, I love Trash Tuesday. And I was like, thank you so much.

No, it's fun to tell boys about diarrhea and stuff. It's like fun for them to know. It's good to just be ourselves in front of people. I love that we have like boy slugs and yeah yeah so with that said no matter what our name is it doesn't matter it's the three of us and we're gonna have fun doing this for a very long time to come so go fuck yourself is this a weird time to tell you guys i quit i can't stand you i hate the show show. Anyway, I got to go. I'm joining Bloodbath. I need a third. We love you guys so much.

We'll see you next week. Bye. I'm going to cry all the way home. My eyes are going to be sealed shut with pus. Wow, am I getting pig eyes. You're so fucked. Your eyes. Thank you.