Up and Vanished - S1E25: Black Out - Part 2
Episode Date: August 1, 2017Part 2 of 2: After 2 years investigating and bringing weekly updates on the disappearance of Tara Grinstead, Up and Vanished Season 1 is coming to a close. Payne Lindsey takes it back to the beginning..., bringing the case full circle, and uncovers a new theory in the process. To learn more about listener data and our privacy practices visit: https://www.audacyinc.com/privacy-policy Learn more about your ad choices. Visit https://podcastchoices.com/adchoices
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A while back, I was at the Osceola Star with Dusty Vassie, and he shared with me some new information he heard.
A nurse, okay, a friend of mine contacted me and told me that a nurse,
and I've actually had multiple people tell me this story,
but the first time I heard it was a friend told me that a nurse had spoke to Ryan Duke.
I've since learned he was having blood drawn.
And she knew him separately from, I guess, before all this happened and asked, you know, what happened?
And he said, apparently, that she did not die.
I mean, she died, but she was not murdered,
that she died accidentally from an overdose.
Now, obviously, I find that hard to believe because she didn't even drink.
You know, I've had multiple people tell me that she never, ever drank.
So the idea that she was doing drugs at a party, which apparently that's what Ryan said,
I believe it was supposed to be at a pecan orchard.
Now, I don't know what pecan orchard.
But obviously, multiple people have contacted me.
I believe that the conversation happened.
I don't necessarily believe that the story that was told is true.
I don't necessarily believe that.
I believe that that is the story Ryan told, or at least close to it.
But I just don't believe that that's necessarily true.
No matter how I try to frame the story or which way you try to look at it, there's problems.
There's some flaw.
Apparently, according to one story I've heard, he was messed up the whole time.
Well, in this situation with the high adrenaline, you don't come to your senses.
You don't sober up some.
The idea that it didn't happen in the house there's problems with that
there's problems with everything i i hear i i haven't heard one theory that it just snapped
together like a like a lego well the indictments are very vague and there's that used his hand and
to me because i've heard whether sure or not i believe it that ryan has said that he hit her. Now, that's multiple stories have said that.
And from what Bo seems to be saying is that at least in one conversation,
he supposedly said that Ryan strangled her.
Well, which one was it?
Let's be clear about some things.
Tara didn't do drugs.
Tara didn't even drink.
So how could any of this be true?
Even if Ryan did say these things to a nurse,
how could he be trusted?
After all, he's in jail for her murder.
Proposing any other scenario for her death
would obviously be in his best interest.
A few weeks later, I heard the story again,
this time from someone different.
Maurice Godwin talked to somebody.
Ryan had to be taken to the hospital for, I guess, dialysis or something.
Yeah.
And said that while he was there, he had told a friend of theirs
his version of the story of what happened.
And, you know, I didn't say anything at first when he mentioned that.
I let him tell his story because I wanted to see what he was going to say before I said anything.
And he gave me the slobobus.
He gave me her name.
She basically, she said that she was like, what the hell?
I don't know if she knows Ryan or, I mean, not really she does.
But she's like, what the hell, Ryan?
And he basically told her that.
And she was said at first she was just out cold.
And so they put her in.
And I've never heard this name until today.
Yeah.
They put her in his truck and left her, and they continued to, I guess,
drink, party, socialize, whatever.
And then later, when they went to check on her, she was dead.
So they freaked out.
And so they hid her body.
And I guess, this goes to David later.
He did say that Ryan drove his car, her car back.
And Bo picked him up and Ryan told her that the glove was his.
One thing I did point out is I made the comment to this person.
I said, you know, one problem that I have with this story is that most of the time when a prisoner or someone who's in jail,
which I guess they still call that an inmate, whatever,
is transported anywhere, they have a guard with them.
And I said, you know, considering what he was arrested for,
I doubt very seriously they were going to leave him alone with a female,
a lot of it, or even a male, but especially a female.
You know, he had to be standing close by,
so I would imagine that any interaction,
he would have shut down quickly.
And this guy said, I asked the same question,
and they said that the guard was at the door
and one of the hospital workers
and pretty much whispering to Ryan.
The information was interesting,
but it's completely unverifiable.
For all we know, Ryan Duke didn't even say that.
And it's one of those white rabbits I've been chasing since day one in this case.
So I set all this aside and focused on solid information,
obtained straight from the sources.
One thing that I could never figure out in this case
was where Bo and Ryan lived during the time that Tara went missing.
It's easy to assume that based on all the stories you've heard, that Bo and Ryan lived on the pecan orchard.
Well, they didn't. Not only that, but I couldn't find it anywhere. Not a single friend of Bo and
Ryan or Brooke herself could clarify where they lived. Why was that? Even a search through property
records turned up absolutely nothing. Brooke
said that there were seven to eight people at their house on the night Tara went missing.
She said the guys were drinking and that eventually they all left and that Bo was asleep
when Ryan allegedly stole his truck and drove to Tara's house. Because none of these boys would
ever talk to me, I could not be certain who else was there that night or any night for that matter.
All I can do is go off the facts. Pictures from old MySpace accounts reveal very clearly who was in this friend circle.
It was the same guys, everywhere I looked. And the more people I talked to on the outer circle
of this friend group, the more confirmation I began to receive. A few episodes back,
I told you that I had recently received threats and nasty emails from locals. This is true.
A majority of this anger stemmed
directly from having mentioned this group of friends on the podcast. Mind you, not by name,
but literally just the words group of friends. The rest of the dots, these people connected on
their own. But just so we're clear, I'm not saying these guys did anything or even knew anything for
that matter. I've been told countless rumors and theories about nearly every person in this case,
including this friend group,
but I refuse to broadcast anything without vetting it.
We've learned from the horse's mouth
that a search was conducted on this pecan orchard
just two months after Tara went missing,
all based on a tip that Ryan Duke said at a party one night
that he killed Tara.
Giving Bill and Ryan's friends the benefit of the doubt,
let's say that only one person heard that,
and maybe that person alone
went to law enforcement with the tip.
It's probable, maybe even likely.
And maybe he wasn't a close friend,
but someone who didn't hang out that often
and just happened to be there that night.
All these things are possible,
but based on the limited information I have,
I can't rule it in or out.
And as I've poked around for the answer,
I've been shut out repeatedly and harassed with nasty emails and messages. All of this seems so disproportionate.
I'm not saying you did anything. What if Marcus Harper had come out of the woodworks in the very
beginning, bombarding me with angry words before I had even said his name? That would be a red flag,
would it not? I'm telling you all this to give you some perspective. And though I
always do my best to call things how I see it, I know that regardless of why anyone is doing
anything in this case, this has been a highly emotional experience for everyone. Tara Grinstead's
disappearance has haunted the town of Osceola for over a decade. It's remained an open wound.
And when I came into the picture, in some ways, it's like I ripped off the band-aid.
So I completely understand why someone could view what I'm doing negatively.
But I also know that one day, people will see clearly again and look back on everything
that's happened and learn from it.
Before I get too sidetracked, I want to bring you back to my main point.
I have an interview with one of the friends in this circle, and I've had it for months.
This person was very reluctant to meet, but he felt compelled to clear the air. I recorded this interview with his permission,
but per his request, I will not be using his real voice, and his name will remain anonymous.
So in this clip you're about to hear, his voice has been replaced by someone else,
but my part of the conversation has remained the same. This is a verbatim copy of our real recorded conversation.
When did you first hear about what happened to Tara?
You mean about her disappearance?
About what really happened to her.
Well, I got a call I think 10 days before the press release
and checked my voicemail and it was a GBI agent asking
or saying that he
wanted to meet up with me and talk.
So I called him back and told him
that's fine.
I was available whenever
and as soon as he was ready
and we actually, we met in this
room.
And they came out here
that next morning and that's the first thing
I don't even think I could wait before they got in the door. I was and they came out here that next morning, and that's the first thing.
I don't even think I could wait before they got in the door.
I was like, can you all please tell me what this is about?
At first, when he said, well, it's got to do with a homicide investigation, I was, well, then he mentioned the terror case.
So that was the day before the press release.
So from the moment I was interviewed by them,
well, it really didn't start until the day after, I guess,
when they announced that there was going to be a press release.
And all them rumors started flying, and the names were coming up and all that.
Why did they want to talk to you?
Somebody else that they had interviewed had said that I supposedly knew something.
I was at one of them parties where supposedly they were bragging about it.
And they were bragging but saying they knew what happened to her.
And that I later went back and looked and
finally figured out the weekend the party supposedly happened i was actually in jacksonville
to georgia florida game this whole thing shocked you surprised yeah it was very shocking how'd you
feel when you learned it's just i don't know how to describe it i mean two guys that i once
considered friends of mine or you know still do once considered friends of mine, or, you know, still do,
at least one of them, they're still, you know, considered a friend.
I think maybe in a podcast or heard a couple of different places at Ryan,
he's just not that type of person, and Bo isn't either.
I mean, well, they're different personalities.
Bo is, I don't know.
He's not, despite what people have heard or what people say about him, he's not that person.
I mean, he's not a crazy psychopathic killer.
I mean, just not.
He's just not.
I mean, it's just not.
He's just not.
I know him, and I know he ain't.
That ain't him.
What could have driven them to do this?
Well, like I said earlier, only sense I could make of it, and only thing that, well, it makes sense to me is that there's some sort of accident.
I just don't see either one of them doing
that kind of harm on purpose.
Never would have expected it, ever.
I was completely shocked
when their names were released. I mean,
I was in the balcony at the press release.
And when they said
Ryan's name, I was like, there's no
fucking way. I don't believe it.
There's
more to it. There's, I it. There's more to it.
I just...
Well, not necessarily
more people involved, but more to
it than the burglary gone wrong.
Because that's bullshit.
And if that turns out to be true, I mean,
I will be
shocked.
Hell, I still may not even believe
it. Because I mean, that's not them,
and that does not make sense.
Like I say, and like I did say, the only scenario that I've been able to think of
that makes sense to me was ever some kind of accident gone wrong,
you know, but one or the other, or maybe both.
You know, but one or the other, or maybe both.
Or hanging out with her one night and something, you know, some kind of accident happened.
Yeah, I'm ready for it all to be over with.
I want the truth.
But we'd love to know exactly what happened.
Yeah, I'm ready for it all to be over with and I want the truth.
But would love to know exactly what happened.
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Even six months after Ryan Duke's arrest,
it still feels like we know little to nothing about him.
We've all learned our fair share about Bo Dukes,
mostly thanks to himself.
But because Ryan lived a much more quiet life
and can't troll the discussion boards from inside jail,
he remains a mystery.
I reached out several times to members of the Duke family,
but I never got a response.
That is, until a few weeks ago.
I exchanged a few messages on Facebook with Ryan's mom, and after about a week or so, she asked to do an interview, but under one condition, that Dusty Vassie comes with me.
She arranged a day and time to meet with us, and she gave me her address.
All I had to do now was get Dusty on board
Which I knew he would be
I talked to Ryan Duke's mom
Yesterday
And she said that she wants to meet
Me on Saturday at 1 o'clock
But she wants you to come too
Okay I can do that
I told her that you could but I wanted to like verify
I figured that you wouldn't not do that
But yeah So I wanted to make sure that was cool, but I wanted to, like, verify. I figured that you wouldn't not do that.
But, yes, I wanted to make sure that was cool.
But she's down to meet at their house, and she gave me the address.
Okay.
Dusty had gotten sick about a month ago.
One day out of the blue, he woke up, and his voice was almost entirely gone.
He could barely speak.
The Tara Grinstead investigation has been an emotional rollercoaster for everyone, and Dusty especially. He too is someone who's been reporting on this case on a
regular basis. But Dusty and I have had two vastly different experiences. I have and always will be
an outsider of this community. Other than my grandma, I have no family ties or close friends
in the area. But Dusty lives here. Osceola is his
home. So his approach and the way it's affected his daily life is completely different than me.
On the June 28th issue of the Osceola Star, Dusty wrote an article titled,
I Lost My Voice. In my opinion, it's his best article yet. Dusty opens the article by saying,
I lost my voice. It's been gone nearly two weeks now, so I'm worrying it may
be permanent. Maybe that's a good thing, if it will stop me from being recorded saying some of
the things I said in last week's episode of Up and Vanished. He goes on to say, I reckon I lost
my voice in more ways than one. The truth at any cost is not my motto, but many people have seemed
to have adopted that motto in the online community devoted to this case.
This should not be looked at
as an indictment of the podcast, though.
I think Payne has helped us understand this case
that has baffled all of us for a very long time,
and I think there is more good the podcast may yet do,
but it's kind of like if someone was fishing with dynamite.
I respect that he catches all those fish,
and I enjoy the heck out of eating them,
but personally, I prefer fishing with a cork, where the fish bite when they want to. So I'm going to get in another
boat. Of all the people I've met throughout this podcast, no one has supported me more than Dusty
Vassie. Over the past year, we've built a friendship, a real friendship, one that will
live on for a lifetime after the podcast is over. He's one of the kindest human beings I've ever met,
and he's one of the most tactful
and well-spoken journalists I've ever encountered.
Dusty agreed to go with me
for the interview with Ryan Duke's mom,
but on the morning of, he messaged me
with some frightening news.
His condition had worsened overnight,
and he had to get immediate medical treatment.
With that being said, I want to take this moment to ask you to keep Dusty Vassy in your thoughts and prayers. This man embraced me
from the moment I stepped foot in Irwin County, and if it weren't for him, I don't think I could
have made this podcast at all. Ryan Duke lived in an area called Pleasure Lake, about 15 minutes
outside downtown Osceola. The lake itself is actually a swamp. En route to Pleasure Lake,
within minutes of traveling down Tipton Highway, the terrain begins to change rapidly.
I was nervous this time. I was going to do this alone.
Starting route to Pleasure Lake. The End I arrived at a small house.
I sat in the car for a few minutes as I gathered my thoughts.
I had ran over the questions I wanted to ask her a dozen times,
but in this moment, my mind was blank. I was greeted by Ryan's mom, Karen, his younger brother, James, and four dogs.
Without the presence of Dusty, at first they were a little uneasy.
But after a few minutes, we sat down at the table and we began to talk.
What do you want people out in the world to know about Ryan Duke and your family?
people out in the world to know about Ryan Duke and your family?
That he's not the person that he's being portrayed to be.
And he's a kind, loving person.
And I think he wants the truth just like everybody else. He just, you know, is kind of stuck.
Do you think we're going to know the truth one day?
I hope.
I really hope.
Whether it's for better or worse, you know, I hope we find out what happened.
better or worse, you know, I hope we find out what happened.
He was, from what I saw, but, you know, he'd probably know more about that.
He was very kind and a little bit on the romantic side, you know,
giving flowers and poetry. A few times I did, you know, see him, you know, with his girl.
A lot of times he'd have candles made up around the room.
The only girl that I seen him break up with that affected him,
I really won't say it tore him up, but he was down about it.
It upset him.
He was sad.
I just like a normal breakup.
You don't want to see anything that reminds you of the person.
Anytime you do, you see something that reminds you of them.
You know, it makes you sad or, you know, and that's what it seemed like.
It just seemed sad.
He wasn't much of a talker about stuff like that.
You know, when he was going through something, he wanted to be alone.
You told me one time that you have to understand Ryan
to know the way he is.
You said that he's just a sad person.
Can you elaborate on that a little bit?
Well, what I meant by that is
I attribute it to the alcohol and substance abuse
because when you're depressed and you do that,
it just brings you even further down.
He did and still does at times struggle with depression and anxiety
and panic attacks, you know, he can't go out and be around a lot of people
because he literally will have a panic attack.
Really? Was he always like that or did that just kind of develop over time?
It just developed over time.
Because he was pretty happy in high school.
I mean... Happy in high school. I mean...
Happy after high school.
Well, but I mean, he was popular.
You know, we had a lot of friends.
I can't believe that this one night
that he would break into her house and kill her,
and he's never done any it that it just doesn't make any sense
at all he's just not that type of person but you know they're trying to tell me that uh
well he just decides he's gonna break in to to, of all people, a schoolteacher's house.
Ryan worked.
You know, Bo was the one that didn't work.
But he didn't have to work.
But I just can't believe that this one night he decides that he's going to do this.
That's ridiculous.
It makes no sense.
No sense to me at all take me back to when this all started about six months ago whenever the gbi called just break down how that happened from your perspective
um they came out here and pulled up in the yard over there. And when I realized something was going on,
of course, I walked out and they really didn't have much to say to me. They said they would
come and talk to me after they talked to Ryan. But yeah, they wanted him to come to the police station because they said they had some questions for him.
And I told them, well, he doesn't have a license, so I would bring him up there tomorrow, which was, what, on a Wednesday.
And so I took him up there.
The tomorrow was a Wednesday? Yeah. yeah this is two days before the press
conference yeah they came on Tuesday and then she took him up there on Wednesday yeah I mean they
just said they had a few questions for him it wouldn't take very long. And they came out. We were waiting
in the lobby. Came out
and got him. Said,
you know, it won't take
but a minute. He'll be right back.
And
well,
it didn't take but a minute.
They came back in about
what was it?
25 minutes later.
I just walked in the door and said that they were going to arrest him for terrorist murder.
It wouldn't give us no reason why.
Just for us to keep our mouth shut and, you know, try to avoid any media
and let them do their job.
And that's what we've done.
You know, we've sat back and, you know.
It was very confusing.
How long was the GBI here that first day?
About 15 minutes.
And then y'all had agreed that we'll take Ryan up there 2 o'clock tomorrow.
Yeah.
And then y'all had agreed that we'll take Ryan up there at 2 o'clock tomorrow.
Yeah.
So when the GBI left, you were with Ryan.
What did you ask him, or what did y'all talk about?
Were you saying, hey, what was that about?
Well, yeah, of course I asked him what it was about.
And he said they wanted to ask him some questions about Tara.
And I was like, well, why?
Why do they want to ask you something? And he said he didn't know.
And I said, well, they probably think you've heard something.
You know, like everybody has heard something over the years.
And so that's what we figured it was.
I asked him one simple question.
I asked him, did you kill her?
And he said, no, ma'am, I did not.
Well, no, I did ask him.
I said, do you know he did?
And he said no.
And that was good enough for me.
You think he was telling the truth when he told you that?
Yeah.
I absolutely do.
I know he was scared, you know.
I mean, I was scared.
We're just normal people, you know.
GBI's coming out here.
And it was just so out of the blue.
coming out here and it was just so out of the blue and do you remember that weekend that is in question back in 05 or any anywhere around that time the only thing i was in tara's
class the day she went missing come to that morning, everybody was freaking out because she wasn't there.
Nobody had heard from her.
But as far as the weekend goes and what I did, I have no clue.
I know I played football, so I probably had a football game that night.
Next night, I normally hung out with my friends.
I didn't really see Ryan a whole lot on the weekends unless I didn't have nothing to do
or he invited me over for a football game or something like that.
I was normally with my friends.
And I said I woke up that Monday, went to school, and she didn't show up.
And around that time frame, that's pretty much the only thing
that i can remember where did bill and ryan live at that time in that the house the trailer was
fred's remember yeah fred and steven and ryan live yeah. But Fred had to move because he got that job offer somewhere.
I don't know exactly when they moved to that house, but before they lived there, they lived in a trailer almost outside of Fitzgerald.
Not quite outside of Fitzgerald, but...
It's kind of catacorbs of the hospital yeah i don't
know how sad it was by the gas station it was tailors i think yeah it's tailors but the um
that's how i street zone it's on merrimack but the house has been torn down. Was Ryan a football fan?
Oh, yeah.
He really is.
Yes, he is.
What's his favorite teams?
As far as I know, Bulldogs and Falcons.
Yeah?
Georgia.
Yeah.
I heard that, you know, he could have blacked out
and something happened
and then woke up the next day
and Bo's telling him what he done
hey man you done this
and I'll help you do this
and we'll be good.
But anybody who's ever blacked out before has no way of knowing what you're doing.
Like I said, he blacked out plenty of times, fairly regular.
I won't say all the time, but if he got on it hard, more than likely he would.
Who knows what they do other than what they're being told when you black out.
Right.
Hopefully your best friend will tell you what you did.
Hopefully.
How do you feel about the loss of Tara and what may have happened to this woman
outside of everything else that you guys were dealing with.
It's tragic.
It really is.
I mean, it's unbelievable, you know, really what happened.
And like I said, I was in her class when all that happened,
and it affected a lot of my friends.
It affected me because she was my teacher.
I knew her pretty well.
I think I was in 10th grade at the time, you know,
so I'd known her my whole 9th grade year, talked to her,
and then I was in her class my 10th grade year.
You know, so it's devastating to me.
It still is.
I can't, for the life of me, imagine what her family is going through.
You know, we're going through a lot, you know, of course,
but I can't imagine what they might be feeling.
That's one of the things that I wrote Miss Connie a letter,
one of the things I said in that was,
I feel like I have walked into your nightmare that you've been living for over 11 years now,
and now I'm right in the middle of it.
over 11 years now, and now I'm right in the middle of it.
And I don't know how she deals with it.
And I think with a lot of this stuff that Bo was saying, that people actually forget that Tara was the victim.
You know, let's not make any more victims out of this.
You know, it's bad enough already.
And so that's where, you know, the truth comes in.
And some, that family needs it.
They deserve the truth.
Yeah, they do.
Even if your son was involved somehow?
Yes.
I feel like if Ryan had his involvement, whatever it may be, he needs to be punished.
Definitely.
Definitely, most definitely.
If he had any involvement whatsoever, then he needs to be held accountable for it.
Well, I think everybody should.
Anybody, anybody that's involved in it.
So what do you want to happen next?
What I want to happen, I want somebody to tell the truth.
I want some closure, you know.
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For any of Tara's family or friends that would be listening, what would you want them to know
about your family and your feelings about everything?
Well, I'd want them to know that I'm very sorry for what happened to Tara.
I really am.
And I know they probably don't want to hear that I don't believe Ryan did it.
Because they're on the other end of that.
You know, they got the GPI going, yeah, we got him.
I wouldn't know what to say to them about that, you know,
other than just I don't believe my son did it.
I just don't believe it.
And I hope that some way, somehow, the truth will come out for everybody.
For everybody's sake.
And we finally put this to rest.
And, you know, it's been too long.
It's been too long.
Yeah, I do too.
Like I said, if Ryan had any involvement, then he needs to be held accountable.
And as far as Tara's family goes, like I said,
I truly cannot imagine what they've had to go through.
And I wouldn't dream of that happening to anybody.
I'm really sorry
that they've had to deal with this.
And I'm even more sorry
if Ryan had anything to do with it.
Yeah, I mean, I agree with James.
I mean, if Ryan had anything to do with it,
yeah, he needs to pay for that how is ryan's uh his health um i heard something that he
had like renal failure or something like that isn't that true can you tell me about that a
little bit like his health his health conditions and how he was and how he's doing now? So I just left it in the courtroom that day.
He's got
the veins in his legs
collapsed.
And when they got him
blew back up,
I guess you'd call it,
there was nerve damage
done to his feet.
So he's got permanent nerve damage.
And that's why he's limping.
What caused that? I don't know. They never did say, but you know, he had
circulation in his legs and his veins eventually just collapsed because there wasn't enough blood running through just from not being active.
He had gone in his organ failure his organs were shutting down and they transferred him to Douglas
and he stayed in ICU what two months
an ICU. What? Two minutes. No, it wasn't that long. He was in there on dialysis too. Oh, he was on dialysis for about four months. Four or five. In the hospital. Oh. In the hospital, he was on that dialysis machine constantly 24-7. Yeah, and then we had to go twice a week.
Yeah, they finally got it.
You know, he responded to it, but they told him then that he was going to have to stop drinking.
You know, he was going to die. His liver and both of his kidneys were shutting down in Osceola. That's why they sent him to Douglas.
And once they got his liver and his kidneys back going,
he was on dialysis in the hospital for three weeks a month.
How's his health now? Has it declined or has it stayed the same?
It's gotten better and it's kind of leveled off.
He's got high blood pressure.
Before he was arrested, how was his health that day?
He constantly suffers from chronic pain just from his feet,
not having that circulation like he should.
Well, he's got that nerve damage, you know, that's,
it's constant. Like she said, he's got high blood pressure, you know, his, his liver and his
kidneys, you know, they were, they're better now, you know, but they're not nearly as good as what
they should be. You know, he's done pretty good at taking care of himself for the most part
after all that stuff happened.
After all of his liver and his kidneys shut down
and he realized that he had to stop drinking, he did.
And he started taking his medicine like he should.
As far as health-wise, he was in a lot better health than what he was
as far as when they picked, he was in a lot better health than what he was. Right.
As far as when they picked him up.
That's good.
We love Ryan.
We don't believe he did this, and we're going to support him.
And we're behind him 100%.
We're also behind Tara's family, too.
We stand with them just as much as we stand with Ryan.
If he had something to do with it, then we want him punished just like they do.
And we also want justice for Tara, whoever done this, to be brought to justice.
So they know exactly what happened.
That's what it all boils down to,
that they get closure and that this is over for them
and that they got the right man, men, whoever's involved.
We all want the same thing.
If Ryan knows something, then yeah, he should come forward and say so.
You know, if Ryan, you know, knows something, then yeah, he should come forward and say so.
But, you know, in the same sense, you know, he's got to be held for what he's done.
Of the many questions I had about Ryan, some of them were answered.
One of them being where Ryan and Bo lived at the time, in a little house across the street from a gas station called Taylor's.
Like the rest of us, Ryan Duke's family seemed to have little to no inclination of how long this might take.
It's been six months since Ryan was arrested, but a trial or plea seemed nowhere in sight.
It's been six months since Ryan was arrested, but a trial or plea seemed nowhere in sight.
I asked Philip Holloway for his thoughts on this and the future of this case.
What's going to happen next?
And more importantly, when?
The first thing that I want to think of, and I want everybody to remember, and hopefully they will,
is that an innocent person lost her life.
And she lost her life in the most senseless sort of a way,
and for undoubtedly a senseless reason. When we first learned of the arrest of Ryan Duke in connection with Tara's murder,
I would have bet my last dollar that there was not going to be a trial in the case,
that certainly some kind of a plea deal would be reached and some hasty resolution of this
would take place in a courtroom and the case would be closed and everybody could claim victory.
But as we've learned more about the case, I'm not quite as certain as I was in the beginning that there will be a swift plea deal
in this case and I guess it's sort of 50-50 with me as to whether or not there actually will be a
trial but I'm leaning more and more that way the more I think about the case and the more I think
about what we've learned. Really it's not going to be in a big hurry to have a trial because there's only three possible sentences.
One is the death penalty. The next worst is life without parole. And the only other remaining
possible penalty for someone convicted of murder is life in prison with the possibility of parole.
So unless there's some sort of a really sweet deal that Ryan's offered, it makes sense to try to do everything they can from the defense side to protect his rights, which include a right to a trial, and to avoid a conviction.
That's what the defense's job is.
Every member of society has an interest in seeing that justice is not delayed, but primarily the right to a speedy trial belongs
to the accused. Just like any other right, this right can be waived. I hope that the GBI didn't
blow it back in 2005 and let the statute of limitations start to run as pertains to the
state of Georgia versus Bo Dukes. I think this case is a textbook example that highlights the problems
that exist in the criminal justice system. All too often, the left hand doesn't know what the
right hand's doing. Evil really does exist in this world. Monsters are real.
Up and Vanish changed my life. It's affected the lives of hundreds of people. It's brought truth,
it's exposed secrets, and most of all, it's shared with the world the story of an incredible person
named Tara Grinstead. It's hard to find the good in a story like this, but I think that underneath
all the lies, deceit, and the heinous taking of someone's life, there's something we can all learn
from this. Tara Grinstead's disappearance had an astounding ripple effect, touching the lives of people all across the world. She was a beautiful person
whose life and dreams were taken. And the decade of searching for truth revealed many dark secrets
about the town she lived in and forced people, including myself, to look in the mirror.
I want to thank all those who've listened to Tara Grinstead's story, and I'm honored to have
had the privilege to share it with you.
May Tara Grinstead rest in peace.
May those responsible face the consequences.
May the Grinstead family heal.
And may this community in South Georgia become whole again.
As tough as it is, it's time to let the justice system run its course and for all the healing to begin.
But before I conclude this season, I want to share one more thing with you.
Not too long ago, I met a man in a parking lot about an hour outside of Osceola. We spoke for
nearly four hours that night. He has no direct connection to Tara, the accused killers, or anyone
else, but he had a story that he was compelled to tell me. Given his own position and his job in the
community, he asked that I keep him completely anonymous.
In the column about the play you, his voice has been changed,
but the words are exactly what he told me.
I had a relative who's since passed away
that used to go to the White Horse in Fitzgerald on a regular basis.
He and I both are friends with the guy that played in a band down there.
They were kind of like the house band.
They were playing there not just every other weekend or once a month, but they were literally playing there every week. That's part of my brother's social life. He was there every time
they played. He would just go there. My relative was one of these guys who's never met a stranger,
who feels like his point, his purpose in life was to help other people. If he saw somebody that needed a dime, he'd give them a dime.
If he saw somebody that needed a ride or whatever, he would help them.
He was very outgoing with that type of thing.
He trusted people and was just a giving type person.
He had been in the white horse and was leaving and went out and got in his vehicle.
He said that he looked across the parking lot,
and I don't know if you've ever been to the white horse and know where the White Horse is. The parking lot kind of runs
east and west there. He went to his vehicle, got in his vehicle, was leaving, getting to pull through
and he saw somebody in the parking lot with the hood up on their vehicle. Him being the type of
person he is, he drives over and says, hey you need some help? He said this kid, he called him a kid, he said this
kid is in the truck and had salt on it, trying to crank it until he had killed the battery. Battery
was clicking at this point. He said the guy was, yeah, my truck's torn up. I need to jump. Somebody
jump me off. My brother said, well, I got jumper cables. I'll jump you off. So he pulled the nose
of the vehicle up and got out and raised his hood. Said, well,
the guy got out of his vehicle and was walking around it. He could notice him stumbling real bad,
kind of wobbling. He was like, okay. So the guy comes around and they raised their hoods and my
brother's making small talk with him. The guy's not really like focusing on him, you know, like,
okay, or making a connection.
Obviously, he was impaired in some way.
My brother said, okay, you hook your jumper cables up and I'll hook mine up.
So it was a fair deal.
It's kind of like what people do.
Well, the guy couldn't get, for some reason, seemed like he couldn't get either his hand on the jumper cable or couldn't squeeze the jumper cable or get it on the jumper
on the post on the battery the thought that went through my brother's head was that this guy is
messed up and does not need to be driving because the guy was bumbling around stumbling around he
just didn't know what condition the guy was in i've told you he was my brother now i've said
a relative earlier but it was my brother anyway the guy gets in a relative earlier, but it was my brother. Anyway, the guy gets in.
He tells him, go ahead and get into your vehicle and try cranking. My brother purposely took his
jumper cable off where it wouldn't crank because he didn't want this guy getting in the road.
He said, if I jump this guy off in this vehicle in this condition he's in and he goes out and
kills somebody, I helped. The guy gets in, click,
click, click, click, click, click, nothing happens. Long story short, he tells the guy, he says,
I'll tell you what, your vehicle's not running, he said. You live around here? He said he mumbled
something, and my brother said, well, is there somewhere I can take you, or you can come back
and get your vehicle tomorrow, or some other time? The guy said, yeah, you could carry me.
My brother didn't remember the names or whoever this was or where he was supposed to be taking him.
My brother said, fine, lock your vehicle up, make sure you got everything and I'll carry you there.
The kid gets in the vehicle with him.
When they're pulling out of the parking lot, my brother was making small talk with him.
They talk about football. That's how I made it relevant to how I remembered when it was.
Because my brother, in telling the story, he and I had been talking about football.
This was in 2005. The best I can nail it down during the holidays when he and I had this
conversation was because he related it to Florida beating Georgia. He said, oh yeah,
let me tell you about this kid I met that was a Bulldog fan.
Anyways, part of that was the kid was a Bulldog fan and because Florida had beaten Georgia,
he was cussing and carrying on because Florida had beat Georgia.
In going, my brother carried this guy.
Every once in a while, he would just keep silent and he'd drop out.
His head would drop.
My brother, he said he was sleepy or totaled out drunk or high as a kite.
Something got him impaired.
My brother took this opportunity in pulling over to give him parting words of wisdom.
Of saying, you don't need to be getting drunk.
You don't need to be out on the road.
Something bad could happen.
So the kid looked up at him and said,
yeah, when I get tore up, I pass out.
And one time, he said, someone told me I killed someone.
He didn't say I passed out and I killed somebody.
He said, someone told me that I killed someone. Now relating that to be any person in particular
that would have ever been in the parking lot at the white horse saloon it could have been one of three thousand people so no way of knowing and pinning it down i may be pulling a conclusion out of thin
air there because my brother's not here to retell it or verify it or clarify it or anything i even
went so far to ask a friend that played there in the band i said did my brother ever tell you the
story about the kid in the parking lot?
He said, maybe he did.
I can't really remember.
Gosh, it's been 11 years ago, you know.
It's been 11 years.
My brother mentioned it two or three times.
Probably three times in the years after that,
he and I would be sitting around talking.
He would retell it.
But he said that kind of giving the guy some parting words of wisdom saying
you don't need to be out drinking.
You don't need to be out at night driving drunk.
You need to get somebody else to drive you.
That's when the guy said, yes, when I get drunk, I pass out.
And I don't remember, I don't remember what I did.
He didn't say, I passed out and I killed somebody.
He said, someone told me that I killed someone.
I asked him where his brother dropped the man off that night.
There at the corner of Taylor's.
It was right there where Taylor's is.
Every story has an ending Sometimes they're puzzling or even unsatisfying
But in real life, you can't control the narrative
Sometimes you only get bits and pieces of the truth
But in my story, I hope that one day we get the whole truth. ¶¶ Hello?
Hey, Payne. Dr. Godwin here.
Hey, what's up, man?
You know, I've been thinking.
We did some really good work on Tara's case.
We did some really good work on Tara's case.
You know, there's another case I had in mind.
I've been looking to it for years.
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