Upstream - [BONUS] A Winter Solstice Celebration for 2023 with Manda Scott and Nathalie Nahai

Episode Date: December 21, 2023

Happy Winter Solstice! In this annual tradition, Della is joined by two fellow podcast hosts to reflect on the past year and set some intentions for the year ahead.  Manda Scott is a novelist, smallholder, and host of the Accidental Gods podcast, which showcases individuals and organizations at the emerging edge of our world to set the foundation for a future we’d be proud to leave to the generations that come after us. Her latest novel, Any Human Power is available for pre-order on Amazon. Nathalie Nahai is a behavior science advisor, author and host of the podcast The Hive, which focuses on psychology, technology, and human behavior. Nathalie is the author of Webs Of Influence: The Psychology of Online Persuasion and is also the founder of Flourishing Futures Salon, a project that offers curated gastronomical gatherings that explore how we can thrive in times of turbulence and change. One of Della’s offerings in the new year is a Gaia Education course called Cultivating Regenerative Livelihoods that weaves insights from this podcast and her work as a Right Livelihood coach with practical solidarity economy tools to help us better align our work with our values and contribute to economic systems change. This 12-week online course will start on January 13th and is 300 pounds with half and full scholarships available and a 15% discount for Upstream listeners available here. Further Resources: Course: Cultivating Regenerative Livelihoods Course, Jan 13 - Apr 20, 2024, Virtual, Designed and co-facilitated by Della Duncan, 15% off discount for Upstream Listeners here: https://www.gaiaeducation.org/cart/155142-Cultivating-Regenerative-Livelihoods Poem: The Invitation by Oriah Mountain Dreamer Theory: Two Loop Theory by Meg Wheatley and Deborah Frieze Upstream: Marxism & Buddhism with Breht O'Shea Upstream: A Marxist Perspective on Elections with August Nimtz Upstream: Beyond the Clock with Jenny Odell California Doughnut Economics Coalition and positions available  Indy Johar: talking about Inter-Becoming and the model of the autonomous house on Accidental Gods  Alnoor Ladha and Lynn Murphy: on shifting from a Trauma Culture to an Initiation Culture  on Accidental Gods  Grief and Joy on a Planet in Crisis: Joanna Macy on the Best Time To Be Alive on The Way Out is In Event: Flourishing Futures Salon Event: Planet Local Summit Winter Solstice Meditation Summer Solstice Meditation This episode of Upstream was made possible with support from listeners like you. Upstream is a labor of love — we couldn't keep this project going without the generosity of our listeners and fans. Please consider chipping in a one-time or recurring donation at www.upstreampodcast.org/support If your organization wants to sponsor one of our upcoming documentaries, we have a number of sponsorship packages available. Find out more at upstreampodcast.org/sponsorship For more from Upstream, visit www.upstreampodcast.org and follow us on Twitter, Instagram, Facebook, and Bluesky. You can also subscribe to us on Apple Podcasts, Spotify, or wherever you listen to your favorite podcasts.

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Upstream. Upstream. Upstream. A podcast of documentaries and conversations that invites you to unlearn everything you thought you knew about economics. I'm Robert Raymond. And I'm Dela Duncan. Happy Winter Solstice.

In this annual tradition, Dela is joined by two fellow podcast hosts to reflect on the past year and set some intentions for the year ahead. Manda Scott, based in Northern England, is a prolific novelist in the host of the podcast Accidental Gods, which explores the intersections between science and spirituality, philosophy and politics, and art and activism. Natalie Nahai, based in Spain, is the host of the podcast The High, which focuses on psychology, technology, and human behavior.

Together, Dela, Manda, and Natalie explore the core questions in accidental gods, The High, and Upstream, share stories and insights from the year and create invitations and offer gifts for the year to come. One of Delos' offerings in the new year is a Gaia education virtual course called Cultivating Regenerative Livelyotes, which weaves insights from upstream and her work as a right-liability encounter, with practical solidarity economy tools to help us better line our work with our values and contribute to economic systems change. This 12-week online course starts on January 13th and there's a special 15%

discount for upstream listeners through the link in the show notes. And finally before we get started, upstream is entirely listener-funded. We couldn't do this without the support of our listeners and our fans. If you haven't already, if you can, if you're in a place where you can afford to do so, and it's important to you to keep upstream sustainable, please consider going to upstreampodcast.org forward slash support to make a recurring monthly or one-time donation. Also, if you can, please go to Apple Podcasts and Spotify to rate, subscribe, and leave us a review there.

It really helps us get in front of more eyes and into more ears. We don't have a marketing budget for upstream, so we really do rely on listeners like you to help grow our audience and spread the word. Thank you. And now, here's Della in conversation with Manda Scott and Natalie Nihai. ["Manda Scott and Natalie Nihai"] All right, well, welcome, so good to be in conversation with you, too too and happy December

Solstice. Let us start with some introductions. This is our, is this our third year that we've been doing this together? I think so. Um, yeah, so, you know, who are you in this moment as we join together today? Fourth, it is our fourth, yeah. It's definitely tradition, but. It's definitely a tradition by now. It is a tradition. So Solstice tradition, the three of us gathering,

let us begin with our introductions and also a little of our year in review. So what has happened for you on your podcast and in your life, what highlights, what themes, and perhaps what insights. So Amanda, can I turn to you first? Thank you, yes. All right, so I'm Amanda Scott. I'm host of the Accidental Gods podcast, and also a novelist. And this year has been the year of editing for me.

I just, so we're recording at the beginning of December and I handed in at 10.30 yesterday morning, having written 40,000 words since October 15th. So it's been a really big burn and this is my novel, I used to write historical novels, this is a novel of trying to take where we are and where we are is a changing space and has been, it's two and a half years writing this novel and the world has changed a lot since then. It was set when I first started writing 21. It was set in 2023, which is the far distant future.

And by the time it comes out, it'll be, you know, an alternative history. So there's nothing one can do about that. But it's been a really interesting experience of trying to write away forward that works to a future that we would be proud to leave behind. Because it's hard. I've been realizing getting older knots and bolts are the things that all three of us talk about in our podcasts, and I have been listening manically to podcasts, bringing in ideas, talking to people how to weave all those together in a coherent narrative that doesn't just talk to our echo chamber, but talks to, you know, the people who

still seem to think the business as usual is an option has been interesting. And I think, so I think for me, the big themes of the year have been the understanding of how fast we're heading for the cliff, that much faster than I thought, of seeing tipping points happen that I didn't think would happen in my lifetime. And they're just rolled past this year. Of realizing how close we are to the edge of AI, here we had the Eliazer Yakazki podcast, and back close back in April, but then we had Mo Gaudat on,

what is it, Dari, the CEO, and then Mustafa Saliman on the Center for Human Technology, who will remember it's name in a minute, you're on divided attention. And then all of that, you know, Biden producing an executive order of 800 pages. That, when I started writing, I had a few friends on the fringes of tech going, hey, I was going to be an issue, guys, and we're going over, really? Okay, and now it's here. So that's been big. And personally, I had COVID.

I lost a couple of months to COVID. And my dog died in January. And I am obsessively looking for a puppy. So there's a bit of me that's still planning ahead for the world where it'll be worth having a puppy and it'll survive and all of that sort of stuff and the rest of me is looking at a world where modernity is in breakdown and I have no idea what replaces it. So that's me. Thank you Natalie. Natalie what about you? So this year has been a turbulent year,

and it started out in quite a ceremonial space in a way I was down in an embacune reconnecting with nature after what had been a very tech intensive time. And one of the things that I've really noticed in an embodied way more than just in a theoretical way is quite how entangled everything is. And it's a funny, well not funny as in Ha Ha, but funny as I'm curious to watch the ways in which decisions that feel far away impact us in very close quarters. So for instance all of the technology

disruptions AI, I know quite a lot of people who at the beginning of this year were laying off employees and outsourcing their functions to chat GPT and that was in its earlier iteration, never mind the things it can do now. Companies, changing their tactics, firing staff, people, realizing that actually if they're going to get anywhere there needs to be greater sense of collaboration, community resilience. So it's just been a lot of change certainly in the kind of feels I'm working in that have pointed towards kind of a, depending on the perspective, an opening up of the fact that things are different and then not going back. And on the flip side, this kind of helplessness of, well, fuck, it's this bad.

We're just going to double down on whatever we were doing before and just pretend it's not happening. And so there's this really curious thing where there's this turbocharging of people coming together. I went to the Planet Local Summit in Bristol a few months ago, which was one of the most extraordinarily uplifting gathering of people that I have ever encountered. And it was so vital and joyful and robust.

And it made visible communities of people who are doing work in complementary spaces, I suppose, in different parts of the world, and realizing that there is a huge movement with very many different faces, working tirelessly, and I'm going to include within that practices for rest, so modeling, not just like the burnout culture, but working and modeling tirelessly with conviction and all of the other stuff that's around to create lived realities of what we need to do in order for the future to be different, in order for these

combinations of factors, you know, to be lived. And so I've kind of got this sort of weird journey where I feel like I'm very much straddling what I still feel are kind of two separate worlds, although obviously they're not in a recent conversation with Joe Confino, he was saying, but they're not separate. This is also part of a shift we have to make, which I completely get. But it's quite hard to do practically between, let's say, the kind of corporate extractive exponentially grow on quote on quote, because we can't grow exponentially. But that sort of that side of things. And the other side which is kind of a human scale, human paste, reckoning with who it is that we want to be as a species,

like these existential questions stepping into a quality of presence that is harder and harder to access when we're completely plugged into our devices. So it's kind of like straddling these two worlds of the system as it is now, that we, you know, I still have to pay my bills and my mortgage, and also the other side, which is, okay, I'm going to hold my formula in music nights and I'm going to gather with my friends and I'm going to paint in my studio and my phone is going to be off and I'm going to sing music and I'm going to go spend some time in the forest and being able to hold both and because that's

it's also that is like how do you chart a path forward when you have to find a way to live in this complex fractured world. And I think there's something in there around deepening one's roots or practice, certainly with relationships, community building is huge, that I think has been a real, lived, somatic revelation to me this year. This is what it feels like to actually build resilience with other people to come together and come away feeling connected and recharged in the face of unthinkable questions from AI to ecological disruption to,

do we have a future? Yeah, so that's kind of and the guests on the podcast have reflected that but I don't eat up too much more time. So Della, I'd love to ask you the same question. What's your year looked like in terms of peaks and troughs and everything in between? Well, first just to celebrate everything happening for you too, and as you're sharing I'm thinking of, you know, a metaphor of our livelihood gardens and the soil being our

resilience and self-care. So I'm happy to hear of the singing and the painting and the puppy that's soon to come into your life. So all the ways that we're resourcing ourselves. And something you said, not only around community, doing it together, I'm thinking of that, Audrey Lorde, quote, about, there is no liberation without community.

So just hearing that to do this work in connection and relationship. So happy to hear what's going on for you, too. For me, it's been a very full year on the podcast. I wrote down all of the conversations that we had had this year. And I say we because I am a co-host along with Robert Raymond,

so just wanna acknowledge and appreciate him. And yeah, I was just feeling a lot of gratitude for everyone who was willing to come onto the show and our listeners and folks just really feeling gratitude for the community that is part of the upstream podcast and our ecosystem of podcasts around social change. And a few themes, one of them has been really a learning, really the podcast can be a learning experience. And so learning about Marxism and communism and revolutionary left theory has been really fascinating. We've also gotten to have a few more lighthearted and fun conversations around beer and the story of the anchor steam brewing company,

the political economy of jazz, as well as this model coming out of Japan called half farmer, half x. So just these beautiful lighthearted fun conversations, as well as many very deep and very grief-filled conversations on what's happening in the world. So we got to cover Stop-cop city, for example, and then we're currently doing a series on Palestine. So it's that balancing of evergreen and learning, we also had a conversation on capitalist realism,

for example, on the text, what is to be done by Lenin? So it's like deep learning, but then also trying to be current and present with what's happening in the world and to honor that pain and move through that together in a way that is like, what can we learn from what's happening right now and how can we contribute?

So I'd say those are some elements of the year and review. And with that, I'm gonna hand over to you now, Lili, for our ritual of asking our beautiful questions. Thanks, though, that was very concise. So, the question that I'd like to offer back to you, and I'm sure we're familiar with this by now, is what do you sense or imagine is going on in the global human psyche

at this moment as we gather? or imagine is going on in the global human psyche at this moment as we gather. Yeah, when I think of this question, I think of Embutism, which I know is a theme for our podcast, this concept of the ultimate dimension, this kind of fabric or this kind of fabric or layer that we're all connected to, should we tap into it? And when I feel into the global psyche, what I feel is that it is lonely, meaning not of us are tapping into it a lot or often or as deeply as we could. Like I'm grateful for the teachings and the practices, the meditations that have taught me or informed me about the global psyche and how I may tap into it.

And as I say that too, I reflect on how we have much more medicine ceremonies in the Bay Area where I am mushroom psychedelics,, etc. So maybe there are more people tapping into the global psyche. However, it just feels like there is this collective fog or numbing, and I know social media has been a theme for us, AI as we mentioned. So for me, I think of the global psyche is kind of either forgotten or folks aren't accessing it as much as we could and would be of benefit to us right now. And when I tap into it, the phrase of this year for me or the invitation has been rest

in presence, radiate love, rest in presence, radiate love. That came through for me at the beginning of this year. So when I tap into the global psyche, I feel that sense of being held and connected in the web of life, and I am more able to rest in presence and radiate love. So thank you for that question. That's beautiful. Amanda, how do you begin to answer that question right now? I think on a similar level, I would be surprised to be wearing tall on a similar level.

But I think one of the things that feels different to this time last year for me is this what Dalla just said about connecting into the web of life? And what I've noticed with the people who come on the dreaming workshops and the accidental God's workshops is, and perhaps this is because this is what I'm putting out in the world. But 10 years ago people were asking questions about their own lives. How can I find the perfect job? How can I find the perfect partner? Where do I live? And now they're asking, how do I connect to the web? And how do I find that place? And this is a phrase that I got from Della when we were at Schumacher together, is that place where my, the world's greatest need and my heart's deepest joy interact. Where does

my heart deepest joy meet the world's greatest need? And people are really seeking that. And then seeking that connection to the web of life. And there is a there is a level at which that feels stronger to me. And when I connect into the web in Sephora as I understand how to do that, it feels vibrantly shimmering and alive. And there was a very interesting part when I had COVID and I was basically unconscious for oil, but I was doing, I was doing work that I had never done before. I was meeting whatever we call the entities that connect with us that I had never met who were inviting me to open in ways that I had never been open before and it's been really transformative

and it feels as if when we step into that space and say I am here we're being met. Now, much more strongly than before and I don't know that's because I am in a different place or because the web is in a different place, but that feels on one side that feels and potent and connected. And then on the other hand, I meet up quite often with a group of us all teach shamanic stuff, and we meet up once every six weeks or so on Zoom. And we are beginning to feel, or I am beginning to feel, and they are saying yes with me, who knows, that there is, that which is fed by our absolute loving life, the moment by moment being in love with the divine and allowing that to flow through us. And it's compassion and connection or feed that. And there is that which is fed by

grief and fear and despair. And I was really struck by something, somebody said in one of Dellers' podcasts about that the capitalist system is the commodification of grief. And that it's accelerating. It is running for the cliffhedge in a way that this is psychopathy in action. And so there is something that is fed by that and there is something that is fed by that and there is something that's fed by the compassion and each of them ratchets up and at some point that tension cannot be held. And so I think for me, I think exactly what Natalie was saying, I think, Della

as well, it behooves those of us who want to connect, to connect with everything that we possibly have, in order to balance out the disconnect. The final thing, the other thing that has really struck me, talking to Annalada and Len Murphy, the concept of moving from a trauma culture, which I would suggest is the commodification of grief, to an initiation culture, and that that process is ongoing and is again unfolding for each of us, and I can feel that happening. I have no idea where it goes, but the trauma culture, there are parts of all of us that will want to hang on to it because it's what's known, and how do we get our clothes out of that and move it through, but it feels like that's much more in process than it was this time last year. So I think the global human psyche is in transition, the short answer. Over to you, Natalie, how do you answer your own question?

I always find this a bit retricut, so much easier to be asking the questions. So someone that I spoke with recently in conversation, We were talking about how human beings are like a constellation or democracy of cells. That there's always different selves or aspects within us that constulate to create some kind of dynamic form that over a span of a life constitutes our sense of dynamic identity, let's say. And I think that given that life sort of fractal in form, you know,

that you kind of scale up and you see similar patterns to when you scale down, the way that I'd begin to answer that question about the global human psyche is that, again, if we think about it, as a constellation of factors, there's so much in our tension, conflict, reckoning. And I think tension, conflict, reckoning. And I think my feeling is, and it goes to your point about trauma and initiation, is that we're at this moment where it's becoming impossible, even for those who are lucky enough to be in, well, lucky slash unlucky, enough to be in industrialized countries where we have greater protection for the time being from the worst effects of climate devastation or ecological disruption. Even for those of us in those countries, it's becoming harder and harder to ignore the fear, the horror of what we're doing, the horror of what's coming if we don't change a course. And I think there's something that I'm

noticing with people I'm noticing with people I'm speaking with, and obviously it's kind of like a self-selecting group, but there is the grief, but beneath that there's a deep yearning, there's a sense of longing and loss and wanting for life. And I think that's where I'm most interested in tapping into, because among all of the different elements that constitute the global human psyche, which is entirely unmatched within the natural living world because we're just an expression of it, the question becomes, well, how do we find a way to bring all of those parts around the table within ourselves and then within those of us who are populating the earth at this moment?

And if you're interested in kind of ancestral work, those that came before and those to come up. So there's a lot of ways that you can start to weave, but I think that's the key thing I think in this moment is that there is beginning to be a reckoning with the fragmentation of our sort of species-wide psyche. The harm we're inflicting upon ourselves and upon others, the longing for there to be something different, and hopefully increasingly, are willingness to crack open and allow ourselves to feel. And I don't think it's happening everywhere all at once. I think for those of us who have the luxury

to have these conversations from the safety of our homes, you know, it's easy to talk about it. We're just feeling the emotional ripples and not actually yet physically having to deal with precarity. But there is this invitation to really be present with what's happening. And Amanda, I'm sorry, Della, to your point about the presence that you mentioned, of being able to really that you mentioned, of being able to really plug into that, go deep underneath the waves and keep going down until you reach the rock, which is the bedrock of life, which is hopefully love, even though there's a lot of complexity. So that's how I begin to answer it.

Yeah, and that beauty is one of the ways that we find to reckon with the things that we find unbearable. Thank you. So over to you. Done. You, we? Yeah. Yeah, I'll go ahead. Oh, yeah, I'm just reflecting on a quote.

It's like, I want to know if you can see the beauty even though it's not pretty every day. Who said that? I think it might be roomy, but I'll have to then I'll check that. But yeah, just thank you for bringing that in. So the question that I would love to ask the three of us right now is around going upstream. So when you when you feel into your grief and what's happening in the world, what is it that's breaking your heart right now? And when you go upstream from that heartbreak or that grief, anger, sadness, despair, overwhelm, what are the root causes that are there? What do you see as the root causes? So, Natalie, maybe I'll ask you first, what is it that when you're feeling into the global psyche or what's happening in the

world right now? What is it that breaks your heart? And what happens or what do you see when you go upstream? This is going to be a bit of a weird answer, I think, just because of what I've ingested the last few days. I managed to catch the short clip of Elon Musk saying, there's customers, you know, go fuck yourselves. And I was like, okay, this is one of the symptoms

of a global story that has reached a point at which people can acquire so much power from such wounded places that they're acting out their deepest griefs and wounds on a global stage which impacts the lives of literally millions, if not billions of people. And as I was watching this, and it is weird because I think in the last year my sense around people has shifted. I don't know what's happened, but I'm going to much more into their felt sense versus what I hear them saying. And often there's a big mismatch between what's said and the presence of what they're carrying, whether it's their body language or the tone of their voice or the anger that's emanating

from them. And I watch this. And honestly, my feeling was there's just this sense of sadness, just a sense of sadness. I thought, I wonder how many people who are in positions of extraordinary power are feeling completely cut off from the world. And I don't know, I don't know, this could be complete projection, but I wondered, this question came up, and who don't have a sense of belonging, and who perhaps from that sense of dislocation and alienation feel that they have no other choice but to earn their rightful place, let's say, by proving themselves, by dominating the nature and others and the rest of it.

And the amount of pain that is the one can witness at that level and that's then propagated to others. So I think that's something that I've been really somehow kind of like taken a bit off God by, which is you know the fact that there are so many people who are perpetuating harms, who themselves are suffering a lot. And it's easy to say that when I'm not at the whim of their decisions, you know, if I've been fired from Twitter when it was still Twitter, I probably feel quite differently. So again, you know, just naming the context. But so there's that, which is the pain that is at the root of the people who are causing the most harm and feeling compassion for that. And then going upstream,

the question that I come to time and again is, what is this kind of reckoning with suffering in whatever form it might be? Just part of a, is it just the name of the game? Is it part of the system in which embodied, incognit life? That's part of it. It's unavoidable. And I think, you know, I'm not a Buddhist, but I do like a lot of the tenets that are carried by Buddhist people that I've met. This idea that, you know, you have a choice whether you experience pain as suffering, the way that we relate to

it changes how we experience it. And so I think at some level, on a, I guess like a, I don't know, how deeply, because I'm not in pain right now, but on some level, conceptually, hopefully, I've got my mind accustomed to this idea of to be alive is to also include the experience of pain, and that's part of it. And then to go one step beyond that, or one step upstream from that, which is that if we're lucky enough to live lives where we have love and we can express ourselves and we can write books and we can learn and we can talk to people and we can come together that kind of the linchpin of the beauty, is it worth the pain and the suffering just to have the opportunity to be alive in this moment?

And for now my answer is a resounding yes. But so there's also this question of how do we frame the ways in which we deal with what's happening in the world right now. And I think we need reasons to be here and reasons to long and reasons to love and reasons to go through what's going to be an increasingly turbulent experience. So for me beauty is the root and I think for different people it's different things but yeah that's quite a long answer. I think that wasn't too long. Yeah, Mandage you want to go back on that one? I'd love to. Yeah, yeah I've written myself so many notes, things that arose while you were speaking. Because going upstream for me this year has also meant going backwards along the timelines

and my ancestral lines and the work that I work with, we have ancestors of our blood lineage and ancestors of our spirit lineage and what happens when I explore back a bit. And one of the things that really shifted for me this year, two things came together. One was something Jill Stein said, and I can't remember exactly what she said, but it made me understand that every human being alive on the planet, actually, everything on the planet was once hydrogen. And not only do we back a long and evolutionary line that takes us

to being hydrogen molecules, but all the way along the billions of years, the ancestors, the ancestors, the ancestors, all survived long enough to produce the next in line. And the odds against that are vanishingly small. What are the chances that the three of us made it, that all of our ancestors, for tens of thousands of millions of generations back survived long enough to produce something that survived long enough, produced something that survived long enough, eventually to produce our

parents who survived long enough to produce us? It's vanishingly small. And so that being the inheritor of that lineage feels like everybody even musk is that. And then I look, I've really been thinking hard about the initiation culture and the trauma culture and what happened. And I read a book sometime earlier in the air, Gunnose, and I'm civilized to death by Christopher Ryan. And one of the core takeaways for me in that one was the understanding that the agricultural, we call it revolution, as if it were a progress, was a schism, and it was not a voluntary schism. It was a default action taken under extreme

duress and nobody wanted to do it. One of the key phrases that really stands out for me in that book was him expressing the fact that good innovations, beaker technology or the ability to cover hand acts differently, spread very fast right across the verteal crescent, which is where most humility was at that point. The agriculture, and I quote directly at the speed of an old man in carpets lepers, we did not want to do it. And even in Britain, we know from Graber and Wenger, that agriculture came about 5,000 BC in a couple of generations who went, oh yeah, we could plant stuff in our own city and we went, no, we don't like this, this is very bad. No, and we went back to foraging hazelnuts.

For many generations, several centuries until it just didn't work. And at that point, not only things had changed, a huge lake of 144,000 square kilometres in North America that was meltwater, had burst its banks, tipped all this fresh cold water and changed the planetary climate, and so the fertile crescent that had been massively abundant became less. And we had lost the skills of being forage hunters. We'd lost the nomadic skills. We had no choice.

And we'd also, in forage hunter charms, apparently, women came into puberty about age 18 and we had about one child every seven years. Then we settled down a wee bit. We were beginning to have one child every two to three years and we'd lost the capacity to go to to be who we were and so agriculture, this now we own land, now we take land, now we have to defend our land, the psychopathy that goes with it was not voluntary and was not progress. And yet, we, the inheritors of that, have created a system

that elevates the psychopaths and disempowers everybody else. And I came back to that, that rupture. How do we heal that rupture? How do we heal the trauma? Because I had a conversation with Rachel Donald with the amazing planet critical podcast recently and She very strongly said even if Musk suddenly decided to take on worried everything that we believe He would be destroyed by by the people who don't believe that He would cease to have the power that he has It's the system The people make the system that the system isorable. And how do we create a new system

that doesn't elevate the psychopaths? So I go upstream and I look at a broken system that broke about 10,000 years ago. That has been elevating psychopaths. The Romans were capitalists. They had a fiat currency on which they charged interest. The whole of the Bodican revolution happened, revolt happened because

Senegal tried to get take back 26 million sister season loans with interest to people who had no idea what coins were really. We'll give you this money and you can pay us back and we want tax and we'll have the same stuff we just give you. You're like, okay, that's fine here, you want to back of yourself a back, have your bag of silver back. And then somebody turns up with a big club at the door going, oh, we want the rest now. Pardon? No, no, we'll take your children then. Sorry, their slaves. It was, you know, the colonialization. And it wasn't that the Romans invented this. They were, they were traumatized too. So how do we heal? Thousands upon thousands of years, yet, acknowledged that we have evolution from

hydrogen, in which we were an integral part of the web of life, and acknowledged that we have evolution from hydrogen in which we were an integral part of the web of life and 300,000 years of human evolution. We were an integral part of the web of life. So I go upstream to that schism. We have a system that is the inheritor of that schism and I question and I wonder and I explore and I try to think how do we heal that? Because we can play Wacomal with the individual bits, but actually it's that schism that we need to heal. And so I think for me the big question is what do we hear for? Because it's not just pay bills and die. We all know we are not here just pay bills and die. And we live in a system where he who pays the biggest bills wins. You have muskies

must because he can buy himself anything he wants and clean your rocket to Mars. How do we how do we shift to a different value set in a time frame that will work? So that was that's I look up upstream and that's where I get to. So, Dello, it's your question. What happens with you when you look up stream? Just so enjoying listening to both of you and thank you for the different ways that you took that question. The map that I've come to from all of the folks that have gotten to ask this question of I've come to from all of the folks that have gotten to ask this question of, is we have the social and ecological, political challenges of our time. We go upstream, the first stop upstream, we find supremacists, so power over thinking, white supremacy, capitalist supremacy,

patriarchal supremacy, human supremacy over nature, and more recently and into the next year, I'm going to be more exploring Christian supremacy. Oh, brave woman. Yeah. Moving upstream from supremacy, I find separation from, because in order to have power over, we need to be separate from. And so going upstream from that, it's really that concept of ourself, whether it's that small, isolated, rugged individualistic sense of self, or remembering ourselves to the web of life and a more ecological sense of self.

And so then from that source point, we go back downstream and we have connection and solidarity and power with instead of power over and then ideally ecological and social thriving or well-being for people in the planet. But this year, one metaphor that's come to me strongly in framing that differently comes from a quote that I heard from Marion Williamson, which is this idea that when we feel or believe that we are a wave in the ocean,

we are small and afraid of all the other waves of being trampled and pummeled and we have to resource ourselves and build walls and arm ourselves and all of that. But when we see ourselves as a wave of the ocean, we feel deeply interconnected and deeply powerful. So I've been reflecting on that and actually spending time with the ocean and watching waves and just studying what does it mean to be a wave in the ocean and watching waves and just, you know, studying what does it mean to be a wave in the ocean and be a wave of the ocean and just dropping that question in in my life like when am I feeling that and whenever I'm feeling the scarcity or precariousness or anger or othering judgment it's usually a wave in the ocean

instead of a wave of the ocean and a related anecdote or story that has also helped with that Ramdance, who I've mentioned before in previous years, a great teacher. He was once talking to his father and he said to his father, or his father said, why do you give away all your teachings, your CDs, your recordings, you just give it away. You're not very capitalistic. You're not making money.

There's some money to be made here and you're not accessing it. And Ramdas turns to his father and he says, hey, remember that case because his father was a lawyer? He said, remember that case that you did for Uncle Bob? You didn't charge him in Arminalink, did you? And he said, no, of course, that for Uncle Bob, you didn't charge him an arm in a leg, did you? And he said, no, of course, that's Uncle Bob. Why would I extort or, you know, charge Uncle Bob?

And Ramdas turns to him and says, well, that's my problem. Everyone is my family. And that is wave of the ocean. And so it is when we think we can extort or extract or other, or profit from anyone and anyone in the web of life that we are the wave in the ocean. And when we feel that everyone is family and that we are deeply connected in this web of life,

then we are a wave of the ocean. So that's where I've come to more so in this journey upstream. Anything you want to add, either of you, before we move to our next question? Natalie, over to you first, because I'm organizing ideas, but there seemed to me a lot of stuff. I mean, there's a lot of stuff in all we've said, but everything. I think for me it comes back again to this, so that the, here you talk about the recognition of those around us as kin, as family, as Uncle Bob, as something which is profoundly powerful. And also at the same time, living with that and living within a reality that is shot through with having to make ends meet. And it's that question of how do we really connect with and

feel that sense of presence of being one with the ocean and holding lightly that sense of wave-ness. Maybe that's the thing, maybe it's a question of, okay, for now this is me doing X, me doing Y, but I'm rooted in something deeper that then shows up in these different spaces as certain quality. I'm very curious about how those things dance together because in this moment I think they're called to

by a great many of us who can't just, you know, make the large life changes that maybe we'd like to. So it's that, it's kind of, how do we find those courage to hold both and not lose sight of the being the wave of the ocean, seeing things lightly. I think Manda, what are you going to add to the Delas' beautiful poetic answer to that question? Well, possibly, I don't know, because it took me to a lot of places. I was listening today to one of Delas' podcasts with a gentleman who was both Mark's assistant Buddhist, which was a really interesting bringing together of two arms of philosophy and to welding them into one. And we get to how do we bring this essence of the difference between the wave and the ocean and the wave of the ocean into our reality? Because I think it's really easy for it to be an idea and living it is really hard

and living it for me and as far as I can and I have an extraordinarily privileged life stock because I get to sit here and write books which is the best thing the world has ever done and then I get to write books, which is the best thing the world has ever done, and then I get to make podcasts, which is the second best thing the world has ever done. And I get to walk up the hill, and at the moment, my level of privilege is huge. And I turn that into inwards, in an attempt to be available for the web of life in whatever way it wants to express. And I have a really profoundly deep felt sense that the way forward is in us evolving consciously to the point where everyone can do that. And then I spoke to Rachel Donald

in a podcast that'll be out before this is out. And then I listened to the gentleman on Della's podcast. And both of them were absolutely adamant. There is needs to be a violent wing in order that the pacifist wing can make difference. And it breaks my head in very big ways of that, but that's the old paradigm. Guys, that's not. That is not being a way of the ocean. And I can hear the arguments of that, but that's the old paradigm. Guys, that's not being a way of the ocean. And I can hear the arguments of that,

and they're perfectly logical, and I can see exactly where it comes from, and I can see exactly where it goes, and I think where it goes is off the edge of the cliff. And so I love that metaphor, and I get to, it is urgent now, that we find ways to make that real for people because for most of the people I bump up against my everyday life, it's not even it's not even on their radar, never mind

becoming real and even the people who want it to be real, it's an idea that's somewhere out here, it's not an embodied reality of this is how I live my life. And how do we, what's the actual practical? How do we make that happen? I don't and I don't have an answer for that. It just arose as this huge yes, yes, you're right. And this is urgent now. This is really urgent. So it wasn't probably as poetic as you were hoping, actually, it's much more, we need we need conscious evolution and we need it yesterday. But I think also it points towards something very tangible and again this is this kind of, this is something I've been thinking about a lot, you're talking both of you've talked about being in the service to life and to the flourishing of life.

And I think one of the things that I hear a lot spoken about, obviously about community and the rest of it is, these ideas about what we can do, or these ideas about how we might be able to be. And the practical realities might be something like bartering, sharing your resources, meeting up on a regular basis without your phone so that you feel that you're in community with people, making space for grief, being in ceremony, you know, shopping at the local food store that supports community assisted

agriculture, if that's something that's available to you. I think there are lots of small practical things that don't require huge behavioral shifts. There are the forebears of, was that word even like that? It's kind of like it's the wave before the swell. It's like there are ripples that then emerge into something else because they are ways in which to tap into a different kind of power and and that like they're like forming music notes, they're gathering and the singing together, always leads to someone sharing something that was heavy on their heart and when they leave the evening we all feel better for having shared a variety of different feelings without having to fix anything. That's modeling a different system. It's not the kind of your ill,

let's fix it. So there's, I think there are lots of small practical, tangible things we can do and things that we need to ward against, like for example, I was interviewing Brett Scott, you wrote this book called Cloud Money, talking about resisting the cashless society because we need to have options. And if you suddenly create a system in which everyone is forced into digital channels, a friend of mine wanted to go to a punk music night. This is in Barcelona last week.

They denied a mentoring. In a punk music night, they said, well, you have to use your phone to scan the QR code. It's like, but this is a punk music night. You do realise the legacy and the culture of what, so it's these acts of resistance while living into those qualities that you want to see in the world, but you have to start from a small localized space.

And if you do that, then big changes can happen. Because then it feels possible. And I think that's the big thing. It's how does the small action connect to a felt sense of what it could be like, and that sense of empowerment with, that then has an impact on our imaginaries, to be able to conceive of a bigger system and a bigger system that is connected to those specific ways of living? So I think starting small is one of the ways in which we can do that.

Amanda, have you got a response to a response? But have you got anything else that you wanted to say because I think that's this is taking us in a really generative conversation. So just there. Well, what I was going to share was knowing where we're headed in your question of theory of change. I think it feels natural coming after the upstream question

because it's like, you're right, Manda, that when you go upstream and you get this root cause, you know, understanding, you can't just stay there, right? You have to then go back downstream and enact the changes that not only is saying, but also Manda, you're like, how do we actually do this? So I think that's actually like a natural journey. I should ask my question now then. I'll ask you first.

Yeah, yeah, go ahead and ask your question. I think they're connected. Okay, because you're segueing into it. All righty. So the question that I've evolved quite recently on my podcast, just because I really want to, I think asking questions is a political act, and there are times when this needs to be asked. So my question was, and is, how long do you think we've got, and what is your theory of change? So, Della, let's come straight back to you with that question.

Great. Yes, so when you ask, so two questions, right? How long do I think we got? And then what is theory of change? The first question, I immediately hear Martin Shaw saying, when we claim doom over earth, when we claim that earth is doomed, doomed, it's like we've walked out of the movie 15 minutes early.

And we could weave our grief to something other than that. We could weave it to possibility. And one of the greatest insights from this year on the podcast came from Jenny O'Dell, author of How to Do Nothing and Saving Time. And in that, she invited this other way of thinking about time. This she exposed to me the ways that we think time is linear and that it's marching in a particular direction. Like climate change, parts per million is just going up. And we all see that graph of the exponential curve.

There's so many exponential curves that I have really become aware that I see in my mind. She gave this invitation to say, let's say you have a conversation with a friend tomorrow. You could absolutely plan, what do I want to say? What is it that feels important? How do I feel going into it? But when you're in that conversation, anything could happen. That person could be really receptive, they could be resistant, you could come to somewhere

else, it could change directions, it could implode, it could connect. You have no idea. And so the idea that we think we have the sense of what's happening, but to weave our grief to possibility is to entertain, it might not go that way. And in fact, it could be otherwise. So to be open to uncertainty and to be unexpected. And this also came for me through Charles Eisenstein wrote an essay recently saying, could Israel, Palestine be the fulcrum that turns the whole world towards decolonization and peace and harmony? And I was like, whoa, because again,

I was seeing a march of progress that was just horrible. And like, what if, what would bravery encourage and total a shift in what's happening, look and feel like. So that's my sense for that question. How long do I think we've got, kind of dodging the question in a way? And then the second point, the second question is theory of change. And this is where I want to weave it back to the conversation we are just having. So yes, this learning from this year around communism and Marxism and revolutionary left theory, and again I want to just say some gratitude

for Brett O'Shea who you mentioned earlier and Alison Escalante his podcast host. Yeah, this idea of violence and revolutionary left theory. This has been something that I've been working with and the podcast has been working with through our conversations. And, you know, one way this has come through is August Nims who we interviewed about the Marxist perspective on elections. He said, you know, he just made clearly the connection between the state and capitalism. And how, if we in the US particularly just have two parties, will we ever vote our way to systems change? And how, unless we change the systemic structure and particularly the state, neoliberal capitalism will continue to erode the gains that we think we've won,

such as reproductive healthcare for, you know, like, Roe v. Wade in the United States, but also for what's happening where you are, Manda, the UK, the eroding of your healthcare, the NHS system. So it's like, we could have these winds, but if there isn't a change in that on that systemic state level, these winds will not be codified into something more secure. So that that that's why revolutionary left theory has been helpful and and really seeing electoralism or even the new economy movement, such as co-ops and things like that, as not enough for the systemic change needed.

So I think that's part of it. And then in terms of the violence question, and really that conversation with Brett O'Shea was really, it's still working on me. But the kind of insider thought there is, you know, the violence that the planet is feeling and oppress peoples in the global south and also people of color women as well. That is violence. So just seeing that structural violence as violence and what does self-defense mean and look like. And how do we do it in more of a keto way? Or a calling

people in versus calling people out? But I do think this transition to a post-capitalist future is going to take a lot more exercising of self and peer accountability. And that doesn't necessarily need to be forced, but sometimes it can be. So that's where I come when I think about that question is, you know, we will have our nose, but as go Paul, the in any one said to me, it's not just holding actions or nose. There's also a need for a pushing, a pushing back, a changing. It's not just a static, no, a passive note, it's a pushing.

So that's a part of the theory of change that I'm working with lately. So I'll see if either of you wanna add anything and then of course, not only we'd love to hear your thoughts, how long do we have and what is your theory of change you're working with? So when I heard you ask the question earlier, Manderna, podcast with the lady who does the round treat. Sophia Parker. Sophia Parker. Very compelling conversation. When I heard you ask that question, I was walking down my corridor,

and out loud said to myself, how much time do we have for what? Exactly. And it was a sense of, ah, for what? Exactly. And it could be how much time do we have the first place my mind goes is, okay, until we're dead. And I was like, okay, no, but wait, hold on. Is that as as imaginative as I can get? And I didn't come to an answer because I thought there was so many questions held within the question. And there is something about possibility and about Deleu, you also mentioned that the holding space for something different to happen like the Israel Palestine conflict,

which is horrific. And one of a number of awful and horrific experiences that people have experienced ever since our species has been alive. I'm sure, I mean, it's part of our being alive, although hopefully we can evolve beyond it. I don't know if that's true or not, but let's see. But the point that I was coming to, when I was thinking about time for what, there's two things really that I want to point to. One of them was something that really struck me in a conversation between Jo Confino and Brother Fab who was the abbot of Plum Village, who's, you know, Zen abbot.

And they, well I mentioned that first, they run a podcast called The Way Out Is In and they were interviewing Jaram AC. That's when they wanted to say, the other one was about something else, about presence in small ways, so I'll come back to that. But the thing that really struck me on this podcast, as I was walking through on a very sunny afternoon, my neighborhood, and coming into a square, and I was watching kids playing, as you know, people do in Spain, it was bright and sunny, kids playing, parents having a cheeky beer, some tapas, a nice sense of vitality and life. And as I walk into the square,

I'm listening to Joanna saying, something along the lines of, imagine that you were, and again, this is within the Buddhist cosmology. Imagine that you were somewhere in the cosmos, consciousness, knowing that the earth and its people's human kin and paraphrasing him, but knowing that the earth was going through this extraordinary time of transition. And you don't know if you're going to be the midwives of a birth of something new or the dolers of a death. And I was thinking, well,

there's someone who does not want to have my own children. I don't like the idea of giving birth and being pregnant, it terrifies me. And also there's other ways not want to have my own children. I don't like the idea of giving birth and being pregnant. It terrifies me. And also there's other ways I want to be creative. But as someone who's seen other people go through that initiation in and of itself, life and death are dancing together at this knife edge. And she was describing this and I was thinking about all of the things that are happening in the world, in the sense of contraction.

It's like a labour and the contractions are painful and there is bloodshed and there is horror and there is pain and there's also potentially room for initiation and we don't yet know how this is going to unfold. I don't want to say resolve because that feels very final. I don't think it is final, it's more like a flow than a hard stop. But she was saying, if you knew that this planet was in transition, wouldn't you want to come back and bear witness to and be present with this moment in time and with those who need your help?

And she wasn't saying it from the Christian, the savior, archetypal. I'm going to come in here and do it my way. It was more a sense of, let me be with you together. Let's bear witness and be present. And I said tears, literally walking to the square, seeing life as it was, and hearing her say that, I thought, God, we just don't know, we don't know.

And I've kind of, that really went to my heart. And then in a small way, this came up recently when I had what I was expecting to be quite a fraught conversation and negotiation. And I went to this meeting, and before I left the house, I caught myself, it turns my partner and I said, you know what? Just imagine if this goes so much better than we could possibly have hoped for, if it's completely surprising, if it entirely undoes any assumptions, what if something amazing happened and we don't know what it's going to be.

And so I held that around my end, I was like, we're going to stand here and we're going to just think into that and we're just going to go and see what happens. And I'm not, you know, I don't like negotiations, I go in quite defensive, that's kind of, I guess, a relic of how I'd be moved. And we went. And the conversation was extraordinary and unexpected and new connections were made in the most remarkable ways, within the first few sentences, and this was like a financial negotiation,

we were talking about regenerative agriculture, we were talking about retreats up in the mouth, I was like, how, what, like, where does this, different energy? Yeah, totally different energy. And so to the point around systems change, or theory of change, I'm always mindful, and I do have this schism within me,

and it's an interesting kind of dynamic to dance between, because it's quite tense at times. On the one hand, I have the lived experience of what it is when you show up to something with a different quality of presence, knowing that you could be entirely surprised by something extraordinary. And at the same time, I know that horror's happened sometimes, they're completely arbitrary, non-personal, and this is also the nature of the reality

in which we exist. And so it's kind of holding those things together. But I think the theory of change that I've most been struck by this year when I've interviewed in the Silicon Art and the New Season of the podcast, peoplericia Miguel Viveros who's working in Mexico with women who've experienced extraordinary traumas. And she's dancing them back in the relationship with their bodies and with nature, extraordinary work. Or people like Michael Schumann, who in the States is talking all about local economies.

He's managed to change laws to help people to crowdfund local startups, or people like Darcia Nadeves, who talks about the evolved nest. So neurobiologically, the impacts of creating cultures that support children that you see much more present in global, southern countries and cultures. So there's all these pockets and theories of change that together create a constulated effect of what we can do when we bring our hearts and minds together.

And so that I'm hopeful, I am hopeful. And Manda, before you began, you know, one thing that Natalie mentioned that it brought something up in me from your podcast with Sophia is the Meg Wheately to loop theory, right? Where the idea of the the midwife or the person laying something to rest, and whether that's separate or both and. Luke one, Luke two. Yeah, so I don't know, Manda, if you could, if you could just share that since that was part of your conversation that resonated with something that Natalie was saying. It was resonating with you, you share it because go with it. Yes, stay with it, it's fine, go. Yes, so in your conversation with Sophia, she brought up Meg Wheatley and Tulip Theory, which is this idea that instead of is the system dying or is

something being porn, she framed it as both loops are happening simultaneously at the same time. So just two realities present in the same times. Yeah, because that's the point of the question is, how long do you think we've got, and to what is not defined, that's why I asked that question, what's really interesting is where that takes people.

Because we do live in this moment that is exactly a death and a birth. The earth, people talk about saving the earth, and everybody says the earth will continue. We may achieve the extinction of 95% of all life if we really work at it and we're doing quite well at the moment. And it's not going to be the the the hairless pink bipeds that keep going. It'll be the amoebas and the bottom of the Marianas trench that take over and some of the life in the soil and things like that. But you know, the earth will keep going. Something will evolve. But I keep going back to we're in a complex system, not a complicated one. And Robin Wall, Kimmerer, has a beautiful quote. And I can't remember the exact detail, but it's something like time is not a straight line time is a

drop in a pool. And the ripples are moving out. And we have no idea at the moment to moment. I think one of the great harms of the schism that I was talking about is that we got locked into linear cause and effect. Even when the linear cause and effect was, I offend the psychopath God and the psychopath God smites me. It's still a linear cause and effect. Whereas when we are connected to the web of life, all we need to do is ask what do you want of me and let the broader web worry about the cause and effect and I just do what I'm asked to do to the best of my ability

I show up and I am what only I can be in the best way that I can be and that's all it is required of me and it It removes a huge amount of responsibility of I have to work out why I'm doing this and where it's going, because you can't know. Exactly as Dela said, you have no way you can plan as much as you like. And this is one of the things I was talking to someone who runs a business podcast, beautiful, called Julia Sherbockoff. And she said, the thing everybody in business knows

is that the moment you finish your business plan, it's obsolete, even if it was not you finish your business plan, it's obsolete. Even if it was not fiction to start with, and not to eat this fiction. And yet everybody does it. And everybody pretends it's not fiction, but that's not the way the world is. Why have you got to your five-year plan? There is no chance at all, even if we weren't heading for a meta-grises that five years from now, everything will be in stasis. A bret said, and all of the buddhas that you guys have talked to have said, changes the only constant. And we live in a complex system. Unpredictability is a given. And

we don't know what happens. I had a conversation with Indy Johar that just touched me so deeply on so many levels. He was talking about interbecoming at the emergent edge, the step beyond interbeing, of consciously stepping to the very edge of our system and creating newness and not knowing. I was at lunch today with a couple of friends who I loved dearly and we were having exactly this conversation and I was realizing even with people that I engage with a lot, how do we step beyond the but what happens if X? I don't know, X is in the old system, it's let's assume that X isn't a thing anymore. What happens if we give a building autonomy and then it interacts as an autonomous being with the community

around it. What happens? We don't know. But it's going to be different than a building being a block of stuff that is basically a rent-seeking system that takes money out of people and pushes it to the people who don't need it. We don't know. So I think the unknowing for me, my theory of change is we don't know. So I think the unknowing for me, my theory of change is we don't know, but I think what

we can know is what are the values that underpin a future that we will be proud to have left behind. And they are compassionate. All the things that you guys have talked about connecting this being of the ocean, not in the ocean, being harder, being vulnerable, being prepared to risk vulnerability in strange situations, without the guarantee that it won't be weaponized and turned against us. Because we do live in a system that has learned

how to weaponize other people's vulnerabilities very well, and it's very painful. But how can we take that risk again and again? Because in that risking, I loved what Natalie what you said about when people come to your evenings and events and and somebody shares something that is breaking their heart and then everybody knows that it's okay to share that and it's okay to be heartbroken and if the grief is held with balanced with love I think then it's okay to grieve because there is a return path.

I'm working, or I was working a little bit with Sophie Banks on trauma becomes locked in our bodies if we don't have a return path to a sense of connectedness and connection to each other and ourselves in the web of life. And if we can give each other these little micro return paths, then the trauma that is otherwise damaging becomes a learning experience, so we can flow with it. So that's my theory of change, is show up, be vulnerable, be connected,

don't expect that we know everything, but be prepared to be the living edge of the interbecoming, emergent change, and then dance with whatever happens because time is not linear, exactly as you said. So does anybody have anything that they want to say, with that or shall we move on? That's a wonderful place to look at little thing. I'm just enjoying you. Enjoying all of you. Okay, so we had our other question, which was, what do you bring us gifts to the table? So, Dele, it so was since you spoke,

what do you bring us gifts to our traditional table now? One gift, Bioekualafae, he said, what if this were not the time of enlightenment, but a time of indarkinment? So I wanted to bring that phrase in, indarkinment, particularly for you, Manda, I thought you'd love that phrase. Yes, yes. And yes, and either whether that's literally I think it's in dark. Nice. Yes. Yes. And either whether that's literally for those of us in the Northern Hemisphere and the December Solstice being the darkest or a more of a metaphorical and darkened, what would it mean to, as we're all sharing, to tap into the world's pain and to do that together, right? You don't have to do

that work alone. You can be in ritual or ceremony or in sacred space to do that. But I do think our work that reconnects or our great rituals really will serve us in this time and can allow us to move not, you know, to transform our grief, anger, sadness, and despair into inspired collaborative action. So a time of indarkinment is one offering coming again from bio cumulafi. I want to say the quote that I shared earlier, but correctly attributed. So it's actually a raya mountain dreamer from a beautiful poem called the invitation. And the quote is, I want to know if you can see the beauty even when it's not pretty every day. I want to know if you can see the beauty and source your life from its presence. So that

would be the offering particularly for you, Natalie, who brought in beauty many times through your shares. So just, you know, may we all tap into beauty and wherever we find it, wherever we can present it. And then the other kind of gift for the next year in the California or the donut economics model has been another kind of theory of change in terms of changing the goal of the system, right? Kate Rayworth and the and the donut economics team are really doing this work all over the world. And this past year, I've gotten a real strong guess and encouragement from the universe to bring the donut more into form. And so myself and a few other volunteers, collective, we founded the California Donut Economics Coalition. And we just got a large grant that, you know, to be really honest, we didn't even seek out.

It really came to us. I mean, this is the universe saying, yes, continue this work. This feels good and important. So in the next year, we're doing the work to become a a nonprofit, actually a worker self-directed nonprofit, you know, using sociocracy, pay equality, things like that, but also hiring for many positions, so offering many different plants for different people's livelihood gardens. So I feel very grateful to have gotten to do that work

with this group and do this work very slowly and intentionally really living in alignment with the new economy, principles and practices, and then giving that gift in 2024, you know, to California, but of course, as part of a larger movement to really change the goal of our economic systems to well-being for people in the planet. So that's another gift for this year. Amazing. Gosh. Thank you. Yay, profusion of gifts. It's a stocking filler.

You've got like all of these amazing things. So Natalie, what would you bring to the table? So a few things. One thing that was so enriching for me this year that I think would be amazing for people to check out if they want to is the Planet Local Summit run in collaboration with local futures, which was established by Helena Norberg Hodg. Check out those different projects, absolutely extraordinary.

And if you, I think the videos from the summit are now on YouTube. So if you feel even remotely interested, people like Bioakomolafi, Michael Schumann, Darcia, and that by me. Jeremy Lent was there. And actually Charles Eisenstein, Rupert Reed. It was basically, and also in McGill-Christ, Roswats, it was just who's who of extraordinary people. And a lot of unsung heroes as well who are there with generosity and vim and vigor. So definitely check those out.

The other thing that I think that I mentioned earlier that had a big impact on me was this interview. So the way out is in podcast and the episode was number 12. It was grief and joy on a planet in crisis. Joanna Maysee on the best time to be alive. So check that out. And then when I was spending more time in London two years ago, up until present day, I set up kind of a friend's salon called Flourishing the Futures Salon, which is an intimate curated dinner of about eight people in a house.

And it's become something which has increasingly been like tapping me on the shoulder. So anyway, I've decided to take it live and make it available to more folks. And it's become something which has increasingly been like tapping me on the shoulder. So anyway, I've decided to take it live and make it available to more folks. And it explores what it means to flourish in a time of turbulence and change and aims to bring people from different disciplines together physically in a room in a gastronomical gathering over great wine to dialogue in a facilitated, robust, and hopefully life a firming way. So if that strikes your fancy, that's ffsalons.com. Yeah, those are my gifts for this year. Amanda, how about you? What are your gifts? Well, at some point very soon, I'm going to send you a verse of copy as a book.

There probably a bound book proof and advanced reading copy. Definitely. I hope to have it by now. I was going to hold on up and go look book, but not quite yet. And similar to Della, I wanted to offer you because we are all in the Northern Hemisphere. And actually I recorded the southern, the longest sun is an important solstice too and the people in the southern hemisphere are doing that and I have a recording that I made at our summer solstice. So people listening are in the southern hemisphere. I can send a link to you guys, you can put it on your various things so that, because it feels to me really important, really important that as we connect to the web of life, that we connect to the land that we're on.

So I wanted to give for you guys, I wanted to light you a virtual fire for you to sit with at the darkest night because part of the ritual of sitting with a flame as the nights are darkest goes back. Beyond time immemorial, it goes back to the point where we learned how to sit with a flame and possibly even before that. The passage toms in Ireland, one of the virtual things I would love to give you guys, is the chance to go into the passage toms of either of you being. No, pre-paleolithic, I think, it's certainly many thousands of years ago, these stone structures were built that are still watertight in Ireland and it it's a bit like in a glue,

in that except you're going to quite a long tunnel, and then there's the dome. And it has a light box that is oriented to the rising of the winter solstice sun. And for three days, I have this side of the winter solstice provided it's not cloudy, the light, and they replicate it because it's booked up for about 30 years in advance for people It takes six people in there

But they replicate it and the light comes across and it starts like it's a hairline of light and it grads It gets wider and then it goes away again to be a hairline and you're in a womb like structure. You're in absolute darkness With the stone all around you and the arse-like structure. You're in absolute darkness, with the stone all around you, and the arse beneath, and then this light comes in, and broadens, and there is again. And it's even when you know it's electric light, and it's not anywhere near the winter solstice, it's an extraordinary and moving and visceral experience

of connectedness to the earth and the fire and to everything that matters. So I wanted to to give you that sense and a little lit fire. And then as you were talking, I did a podcast recent with a gentleman called Hugo Sparras who has set up a company called River Simple Movement and they're making hydrogen cell cars. They want to make personal transport, not involve rarists and certainly not fossil fuels. However, for me, the most exciting thing that he's done, and I'm thinking of Dela and your things that you're setting up,

he set up the future guardian governance model. Is this something that you both know about? I've heard of it. So they have investors, and they're very keen to have lots more investors. If any of you know anyone who'd like to invest in personal transport and ways that isn't going to kill things, it's in that way. But the investors have no voting power.

Instead, there is a board that is consisted of six incorporated companies each of which has one member. And one is for the investors and one is for the workers speaks for the workers and one speaks for the investors and one is for the workers, speaks for the workers and one speaks for the supply chain. So now their supply chain is all working on how can we produce say the catalytic converter for the hydrogen cell in a way that we take it back and we recharge it, we send it back to you rather than we want you to use it in 30 way. One speaks for the local community and one speaks for the environment local and global.

And in the book when I was stolen this and imported it wholesale and gratitude them, I've also created a seventh one that speaks for the generations yet on board. And each of those, so the investors do still have a say, but they're one voice in six or seven. And it completely transforms and I wake up sometimes if you imagine if every company on the planet incorporated like that tomorrow which they could do. Imagine being a worker in a company where you know that you have someone who speaks for you on the board and you have the right to recall that person is not actually representing what you need them to do you bring them back

in your sense of what else. In the local environment and the local community and the supply chain and the customers, I think it would transform everything. So I just wanted to offer the understanding of that. It exists and it's happening. And it's another model of how do we change the world that we live in in a practical way. So I offer that too. So thank you. Thank you guys. I think we're heading towards the end and actually it didn't go on as long as I thought. Are there the closing things that either of you want to say or even other questions that you want to ask Natalie, what's arising for you? I'm just really grateful that we get to have this chat, you know, together once a year, learn things, share things, open up, and

and make visible some of the the areas that are beautiful and joyful and there's changed. Like, it's very easy to get trampled into a sense of helplessness. And I think part of the potential of this moment, which is huge, is to keep shining a light on all of those things that are extraordinary, that can open up new possibilities. So that's where I am right now in our conversation. And just massive thanks to you both for being here and talking. So, generously, it's just wonderful.

It's a gift. Thank you. And Ella, what's the rising for you? Yeah, I'm returning to the wave metaphor and something Natalie brought up around. It felt like diversity and unity, you know, or soul and spirit where we have a lot of shared views and even shared guests, right? Like I saw Max Isle on your podcast, Manda, on the green transition, and Natalie, we got to interview Brett Scott as well.

And then a lot of folks that you mentioned in the Planet Local Summit, we both have gotten to speak with. And of course, Joanna Macy being such a mentor and guide. And so that kind of unity and yet diversity in terms of, what are the questions that are alive for each of us? What are the insights that have impacted us? Where we are in the world, right? Like our experience, our locations. I'm just appreciating the diversity and unity of each of us and where we are in the world and, and yeah, feeling gratitude for that. And I think, yeah, that in the metaphor of the

ocean, it'd be like, you know, the wave is the expression of the individuality, the uniqueness, maybe the soul, but when you go under the water and I'm reminded, and you even brought this up, you went under the water, you took us to the rocks, which you said were love. When I go under the water from like scuba diving or snorkeling, there's such a peace. There's a presence, there's a calmness.

No matter how choppy and wavy things are above, and so yeah, just return again to that resting of presence, there's a calmness no matter how choppy and wavy things are above. And so, yeah, just returning again to that resting in presence and radiating love and could be in conversation with you both and sitting around the fire together, metaphorical, virtual, etc. for a long time. So wishing you well and the solstice and beyond and all of your listeners, all of the ever-enlistening, may this conversation be a benefit to the web of life. Yeah, yeah. Yay. Thank you.

Thank you. And the one thing I wanted to give you, was that I didn't include there was puppy breath. I am so hoping to have puppy breath as the best sentence. It's just magic. And if you could bottle it and give it to everybody, the world would be peaceful within minutes. So I'm just sending you puppy breath as well,

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