Woman Evolve with Sarah Jakes Roberts - Access Power w/ Dr. Kimmy Reynolds

Episode Date: June 26, 2024

No cap, but it goes down in the DM! Just ask Dr. Kimmy Reynolds who hit SJR up after catching her on an IG Live and walking away deeply inspired. The question is: What caused Dr. Kimmy to finally flip... the switch and make a decision to move in power? Let’s just say it had EVERYTHING to do with bringing God glory, and standing on Kingdom business baby! Listen in as Dr. Kimmy opens up about finding her late mother’s hopes and dreams tucked away in an unpublished book. It’s a full circle moment here to remind us that power is forever flowing, but W.E. gotta surrender in vulnerability long enough to turn it on.    See omnystudio.com/listener for privacy information.

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Starting point is 00:00:48 With the best movie and TV reviews from a blur perspective. All things inside and out of Blur Culture. Listen to the Trap Nerds podcast or the Black Effect podcast network, iHeartRadio app, Apple Podcast, or wherever you get your podcasts. What's good? It's Colleen Witt and Eating While Broke is back for season three. Brought to you by the Black Effect Podcast Network and iHeartRadio. We're serving up some real stories and life lessons
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Starting point is 00:01:27 on the Black Effect Podcast Network, iHeart Radio app, Apple Podcasts, or wherever you get your podcasts. Presented by State Farm. Like a good neighbor, State Farm is there. Yo, it's Big Bank. Check out my podcast, Prospective with Bank,
Starting point is 00:01:41 on the Black Effect Podcast Network. Each and every Monday, Prospective with Bank podcast will feature individuals from Network. Each and every Monday, Prospective with Bank Podcasts will feature individuals from different backgrounds. All walks of life will come together to share their unique perspective and engage in enlightening conversation. This podcast will explore all type of conversations from everyday people, your favorite celebrities on a wide range of perspectives that you never knew you needed. Every Monday, listen to Prospective with Bank on Black Effect Podcast Network, iHeartRadio app, Apple Podcasts, wherever you get your podcast. There's something different about the conversations we have late at night.
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Starting point is 00:02:33 on the iHeartRadio app, Apple podcasts or wherever you get your favourite shows. Do not let the second guessing keep you from taking the first step. If you let second guessing keep you from taking the first step, you you let second guessing keep you from taking the first step, you will never learn the lessons or receive the expansion connected to your yes. We don't move or we don't go into action that we know we should because there's something we don't wanna feel.
Starting point is 00:02:57 I have purpose you to do something. Like, how dare you keep yourself small to not bring me glory. How dare you keep yourself small to not bring me glory? Ladies, that was my best Kayla impression. If you guys don't know who Kayla is, you haven't been to a WOMEN EVOLVE event and we need to fix that. I won't get into your business, but September 26th through 28th is going down. But whenever we do a WOMEN EVOLVE event or most recently the Power Moves Tour, we have
Starting point is 00:03:24 an incredible MC host. Her name is Kayla Wannake. And you know Kayla is in the building when you hear ladies and fellas. What's up fellas? Welcome back to the WOMEN EVOLVE podcast. It's your girl Sarah Jakes Roberts. And I am excited to bring you another episode of what I believe is important conversations about us facing our fears, pursuing our hopes and dreams, evolving and recognizing that
Starting point is 00:03:55 it's a journey that we get to be compassionate with ourselves on and receive God's grace, wisdom and strategy in the pursuit of his identity for our lives. This has been all that. So last week, I know I had a lot of joy because I was settling into summer. I'm still settling into summer. I do not yet feel boredom like, oh my gosh, I need to be doing something. And I went on Instagram Live the other day because I also got to share that it's exciting because now I'm kind of like recapping
Starting point is 00:04:25 some of the cool things that I got to do on tour, which is probably making me look kind of busy on social media. But when I tell you I'm posting from my bonnet, when I tell you I'm posting from my sweatpants, I am at home doing a whole lot of nothing, but I get to talk to you today. And that makes me really excited.
Starting point is 00:04:43 I recently posted a clip from when I was on the Angie Martinez podcast in real life and it's so interesting before I posted the clip I had some reservations. I was nervous partly because when I was listening to the clip I felt like what I said like was very elementary, very immature, very dumb. And oftentimes in an effort to protect ourselves from social media, we try to think about all of the way... Well, me. Let me talk about us. We.
Starting point is 00:05:12 Let me talk about me. I try to figure out what are all of the ways that this can be taken out of context so that I can try and... I don't know. Anyways, the point is sometimes you got to just be where you are, no matter where you are, and run the risk of, you know, having your perspective being expanded if you've said something that was dumb, or, you know, standing by yourself
Starting point is 00:05:40 if you're just being honest about your development. So if you haven't seen the clip, maybe we can play it. Okay, hold on, I'ma play it for you clip, maybe we can play it. OK, hold on. I'm going to play it for you. Hold on. Hold on. Hold on. Hold on. I never had any fracture like where I felt like he was he wouldn't be faithful to me. So like the infidelity that I experienced in the past, like I never felt like that with him.
Starting point is 00:05:59 So that made me feel safe that I would never experience that again. But I didn't know that once you don't have that on the table, that there are all these other areas where you have to learn to trust someone. Like, tell me what's up. I thought it was just, you know, don't cheat on me. I didn't know it was like I have to trust the way that you parent and trust the way you communicate and trust how you deal with finances and trust that we're going to make the right decision
Starting point is 00:06:23 about whether we buy this house or do we move to Dallas? Do we stay in LA? Like I didn't know that there were all these different areas to trust. I thought it was just like, don't cheat on me. Now, now, now what? I gotta trust the way you manage money. I gotta trust the way you eat sometimes.
Starting point is 00:06:39 Like what if I'm about to pass out? I got to trust you to take me to the hospital. Just don't cheat, I thought that was it. So my thing was like, unless you have gone through what I've gone through, like this may not make sense, it may seem pretty elementary, this is just putting on display how remedial your way of thinking was. I guess it was like low key the enemy or not, you know, maybe not even the enemy. Maybe my insecurities trying to protect myself or my pride trying to protect myself because I posted it anyway. And so many people related to this idea of thinking
Starting point is 00:07:17 that safety came down to fidelity instead of the expanded perspective of safety coming through emotional safety, financial safety, like all of these different areas in which you have to learn to trust someone. It taught me a valuable lesson about how we show up in the world and how easy it is for us to try and present the most well put together version of ourselves or to try and protect ourselves from ridicule, embarrassment, shame, and rejection. And so we do not live vulnerably. And so I know I said it on the podcast, but like saying it on the podcast versus telling
Starting point is 00:07:57 people, hey, check, listen to what I said on the podcast requires a different level of courage. So how does this relate to you? Good question. I just want to encourage you that you releasing your thoughts, releasing your vision, releasing your dream may not come with a sense of confidence. As a matter of fact, you may end up doing it nervous. You may end up doing it afraid.
Starting point is 00:08:26 You may end up doing it while second guessing whether or not there's a space for it in the world. Do not let the second guessing keep you from taking the first step. If you let second guessing keep you from taking the first step, you will never learn the lessons or receive the expansion connected to your yes, or you may not receive the affirmation, the confirmation of your way of thinking or the necessity of what it is that you offer if you don't release it.
Starting point is 00:08:59 And so I hope that helps you. That's letting you mind my business, but you know now it's time for my favorite thing is when I get to mind your business, because don't leave me out here to be vulnerable on my own. And you all never do that. If you want me to mind your business, send me an email to podcast at womanevolve.com. We have some letters. You can send me a video.
Starting point is 00:09:21 I prefer the video because I feel like it's cool to hear someone else's voice besides mine. I also recognize that you want me to mind your business and not necessarily anyone else. I get that. I'm going to read you this letter. I think it's phenomenal. Let's see what we can do to help our sis. At the age of 22, I adopted my twin nephews. Me and my sister are half sisters and we share a father but we have different mothers.
Starting point is 00:09:45 On December 26, 2012, my father passed away in a bad car accident. Me and my sister never were close growing up but when she told me she was pregnant, I felt obligated to help her out due to the love of our father. He was the glue to the family. My sister grew up in different foster homes and never had a stable life. Before giving birth, the hospital confirmed she had drugs in her system and would not be able to take the children home with her. In order to gain custody, she had to take drug and parenting classes for 12 weeks.
Starting point is 00:10:14 Thinking this would be a temporary thing, I stepped in and allowed her to move in with me and made sure she got to the classes and anything else she needed. She became extremely disrespectful and borderline neglectful due to the help she was receiving from me and my mom. I eventually put her out and needless to say she never finished her classes and here we are seven years later and I now have full custody of the children. I am extremely blessed to have the children in my life and be able to raise them as my own but I'm having a hard time forgiving my sister for snatching my youthful years and not being a part of her children's life. She doesn't call, text, come see them or help
Starting point is 00:10:50 out at all. We are maintaining but life has been very hard with me trying to continue to pursue my dreams and make sure the children have everything they want in need. Can you please help with some advice of how to get past the hurt of my sister not being there for her children and not caring about the time I've lost. PSA, you give great advice on your show. I've heard a few episodes where after the advice you say I'm not sure if that was the best advice. If God allows you to speak to millions
Starting point is 00:11:14 of women by your ministry, have no doubts that he's speaking through you individually with these questions. Thank you so much for every single sermon and podcast episodes you do. They're definitely life changing and helping me selfuate and grow closer to God as I fix myself. You're doing amazing. Keep up the phenomenal work. Can I hug you?
Starting point is 00:11:34 Because that just made me feel so warm and fuzzy. I take you all seriously and I can offer whatever God gives me. I can offer my wisdom and perspective, but I feel like you all deserve the best. And so that's probably my inadequacy on display where I'm like, I want you to have the best. I may not be the best, but here's what I can offer. And so thank you for affirming me
Starting point is 00:12:00 and just confirming the gift of God on the inside of me, not just being for the moments where I'm speaking to millions and taking a text, but also evident in the ways that we connect on this podcast. So thank you. Now, you minding my business. Wait a minute. I was supposed to be minding your business. Now you minding my business. I don't like that. I'm going to be honest. I don't like that. But now I get to mind your business. First of all, whoa. I like that, but now I get to mind your business. First of all, whoa. At 22 years old, you were thrust into
Starting point is 00:12:30 incredible responsibility as a result of your heart to honor your father and to honor, it seems, the way that he showed up. In many ways, the legacy of him being the glue seems like it's very much so caring on in how you choose to show up for your family. I can also recognize the great sacrifice that comes with that. And when that sacrifice is not honored or acknowledged, it can be very challenging.
Starting point is 00:13:00 Now I know at the end of the day, you would do this whether it was you're doing it now, whether it was honored or acknowledged, and you're partnering with God to raise these children and partnering with God to show up in life this way. That doesn't negate that there are still moments where in your weariness and your stretching that you do not have moments like you shared where your sister who is seemingly, you know, just, what's the kid free and fancy foot free? There's a saying, but she's out here not having to put in the work that you're putting in. So there's a couple of things that I think would be helpful for you to include in your perspective is one, I think there's a certain element of grief that you have to come to
Starting point is 00:13:49 terms with because there was an idea of what your life would look like or could look like that because of your choices and hers, you have to modify that and many ways let go of it. And I think that you should honor that grief and that you should honor that grief without modify that, in many ways let go of it. I think that you should honor that grief and that you should honor that grief without guilt because grieving what you thought your life would look like doesn't mean that you aren't grateful for where your life is. Man, can we take that in for a minute?
Starting point is 00:14:19 I can both be grateful for what's in my life while also grieving what I thought my life looked like. So often we force gratitude and positivity down the throats of people who first need to throw up. My analogy game is crazy, but like we're trying to get people to feel better about where they are, but first we haven't let them feel a little sick about how they landed here. And so I would say that it's perfectly normal to have moments where you grieve what your life would look like. You took this responsibility on at 22, you're 29 now.
Starting point is 00:15:00 Those are some prime ages of discovery and development and freedom that many people don't have an opportunity to experience because they have responsibilities. But when you opted in for responsibilities because someone else neglected their own, there's definitely some grief and maybe even some anger connected to that. And so I would say first acknowledge that while being grateful that you have this amazing opportunity. Second thing I would say is that two people can be raised in the same household. They can be raised by the same parent or the same parents and still have completely different values, completely different senses of obligation, a complete different path and pace of maturity.
Starting point is 00:15:46 And I think obviously you are discovering that, that you don't know what all your sister's gone through that has turned her into this person who doesn't have the same values and the same sense of obligation that you possess. And people go through any number of things that play a role in who they have become. Also, I will say that as a result of addiction, that she's also working through a disease and because she's working through that disease, you're judging the actions of a person who is addicted, not necessarily a person who is healthy. So I like this perspective on addiction because I feel that it's difficult for us to understand
Starting point is 00:16:35 just how devastating addiction is for a person's mentality and for the way that we engage with them. And so if she were battling cancer, maybe you would still have this element of grief. Maybe you would still feel that there was a sense of responsibility that you've had to take on that you weren't prepared for. But you would probably be a little less angry with her because you would feel like she can't help it. She can't help that she has cancer and she's not able to take care of the kids.
Starting point is 00:17:04 Doesn't change that the role of the caregiver is difficult, but it does give you a different lens. I would say that when dealing with someone who has addiction that it's helpful to see it very similarly. That the effects of addiction on our brain, on our mentality, quite literally changes from being the type of people who are trustworthy, who are responsible and respectful. And I think that part of seeing that, seeing her in that way may offer a sense of compassion towards her. If you've read any of my books or, you know, you sounds like you listen to the podcast,
Starting point is 00:17:43 you know that I watched Intervention looped,ed loops back to back to back when I was growing up. And one of the things that I really had to grapple with is the reality that addiction changes the people that we love and know into people who are fighting battles that we can't always understand. And so I would suggest that as your question states, like how can I get past the hurt of my sister not being there for her children and not caring about the time I've lost, I think you should care about the time you've lost.
Starting point is 00:18:15 I think you should acknowledge it. I think you should grieve what you thought your life was gonna look like. And I think that from a space of that grief, allowing God's presence to meet you, allowing yourself to truly trust in God's word that all things work together, your heart was in the right place when you did it. You were who God chose to be a part of those children's lives, because raising them and
Starting point is 00:18:40 helping them become all that God has designed them to be couldn't happen without you. And so God trust all that God has designed them to be couldn't happen without you. And so God trust you and God has allowed this to happen. And I don't believe that God would allow you to lose in the process of serving. That's what no weapon formed against you will prosper. Like this is the inheritance of the servants of the Lord. You are serving what God is doing in their lives and that cannot be devalued or underestimated. So I would say that's how you quote unquote get past not caring about the time you've lost is to care.
Starting point is 00:19:11 As it relates to getting past the hurt of her not being there, I would say that you're going to have to help the children navigate this too. And you really come into a space of compassion, understanding, anger, grief, going through all of those things are probably paths that they're going to have to navigate as well. And so I would say the goal is to see her life the way that God sees it, not to see it through the lens of our hurt. And so sitting with that hurt and with the goal of moving past it is admirable. And I hope what I said has helped you.
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Starting point is 00:22:04 all walks of life who come together to share their unique perspective and engage in enlighten conversation. What you think the biggest disconnect between men and women is? I think the biggest disconnect is, is now there is a role reversal. I feel like almost scientifically,
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Starting point is 00:25:06 On my dating profile, I had something about being a fan of Nebraska-era Bruce Springsteen. It's like you squint and everyone can be a birch. Listen to Because the Boss Belongs to Us on the iHeartRadio app, Apple Podcasts or wherever you get your podcasts. radio app, Apple podcasts, or wherever you get your podcasts. Hey, Queen. Man, I hope that that was helpful for those of you who are listening as well. One of my greatest challenges is not just seeing myself the way that God sees me, but seeing others the way that God sees them. And that has been so helpful for me and my journey of forgiveness. I cannot tell you how often I have seen people
Starting point is 00:25:54 through the lens of what they did to me and not through the context of who they were as a person on the planet, presumably doing the best that they can with what they have, recognizing that sometimes that best was toxic. It was poison. It was dangerous. person on the planet, presumably doing the best that they can with what they have, recognizing that sometimes that best was toxic, it was poison, it was dangerous, it was bitter. I'm not saying that their best was good. I'm just saying that oftentimes their best was all they had to offer. And I believe that when someone's best is actually poison, that when God looks at it,
Starting point is 00:26:21 I think he hurts that that's what they're offering the world. I think that God is disappointed that they haven't yet healed. But I also think that God looks at it through a lens of understanding. I will also say that that doesn't mean that your best gets to be in my neighborhood. Your best may need to move down the road or I may need to move down the road because your best is messing me up. I need some space in order for me to see you that way. I got to make sure that you don't keep messing me over
Starting point is 00:26:46 because you'd be changing my glasses when you cut up. So I think that creating the distance necessary for you to see someone the way that God sees them is part of the path of forgiveness. And you may not be able to forget, I'm not asking you to do that, but it plays an incredible role in forgiveness. Okay, so it should come to no surprise
Starting point is 00:27:07 that over the last few weeks, I have been challenged with not just, you know, seeing myself the way that God sees me, seeing others the way that God sees me, but seeing the gifts and talents that God has given me the way that God sees them. And so I have not been a stranger to sharing that as I released my book book Power Moves, Ignite
Starting point is 00:27:25 Your Confidence and Become a Force, that it sounded good when it was on my laptop, but the idea of you all holding it in your hand had me wanting to hide under the table. And there came this point where I had to challenge myself to really get behind what God had given me, regardless of how nervous or afraid I was about whether or not it made sense or whether or not I'd done a good job, whether or not I was qualified, all of that second guessing, the same second guessing. Do you hear a theme here? It is the same second guessing that I experience whenever I think I'm vulnerable to other people's thoughts and opinions. And so when we talk about believing in transition, I want to talk about as having to transition
Starting point is 00:28:06 from our gifts and our talents being something that is inside of us to something that we are putting out into the earth. There have been quite a few think pieces about the way that I launched my book from business professionals that I admire. So many people, you know, whether they tagged me or someone sent it to me, have sent me these posts talking about like, Oh my gosh, this was such a brilliant launch. I'm going to be honest with you, there's two parts to me, one part of me wants to take credit and be like, Mm hmm, it was brilliant.
Starting point is 00:28:37 The second part of me is like, girl, please, all you did was everything you knew to do. And you had no idea how it was going to work together. Sometimes our finished product looks more well put together than the actual process. And when your finished product looks better than the actual process, it can be tempting to be like, yes, I planned it this way all along. I knew it was going to turn out this way. When in reality to God be the glory for the things he has done, because there is no way that this should have come out the way that it did unless God was behind me.
Starting point is 00:29:06 There was someone in particular though, who reached out to me on social media. And you know, during the time of the book release, I was getting a lot of messages from people who, you know, were celebrating the book coming out, feeding off of the message. But I want to read you all what she said to me. She sent me, she posted in her story and she's like, congratulations, Sarah Jakes Robertson. She says, I don't normally share stuff like this. This was a story that she tagged me in. I don't normally share stuff like this,
Starting point is 00:29:31 but I feel like I saw the moment when Sarah had a choice to stay small. I felt that it was taking all of her to be big and to really go all the way with this book launch. And instead of shrinking and hiding, she went all in. It's inspiring to me as a small business owner who often wants to hide. I'm committed to continue to push and be big for his glory. Oh, and Sarah girl, if you see this, I'd love to be on your podcast.
Starting point is 00:29:55 I sent an email about it. I'm going to send it again until it's a reality. Let me tell you something. Prayer works because when I saw that I was like she got it she got that like I wanted to play small I wanted to disappear but I had to make a choice man I was um man was this on Instagram live I was talking about transition maybe I was preaching I don't know I was talking about transition and oftentimes we wait for transition to happen like I'm just waiting for the moment when
Starting point is 00:30:27 this occurs. I'm waiting for this waiting for that. There are some transitions that cannot be activated until you activate them. You are the key that allows for the transition to take place. And I want to talk to someone who is at a stage where they're waiting, waiting, waiting, but it is time for you to no longer wait and move into a position of transitioning that allows for everything that God put inside of you to come out. And so Dr. Kimmy put in her post that she wanted to come on the podcast.
Starting point is 00:30:56 I DM'd her when I saw this message because I'm like, the girl gets it and I want to hear more about who she is. Dr. Kimmy is a marketing sales and consultant for a small business owner. She is a double board certified pediatric hospitalist, the CEO of the Doctor Coach School and host of the Doctor Coach School podcast. This podcast was created in order to help doctors,
Starting point is 00:31:19 particularly women doctors of colors, create, market and confidently sell transformational coaching programs. Dr. Kimmy first built her business as a procrastination coach in 2019, helping professional women break the cycle of self sabotage so that they could level up their lives. After she was able to push through procrastination and develop systems and processes to overcome her own overwhelm.
Starting point is 00:31:43 She built a multi-six figure coaching business from scratch while working full time. There's so much to love about Dr. Kimmy. I had this conversation with her and it literally gave me just so much joy in my heart because I thought about how relatable it's gonna be for so many of you, how it is going to push many of you into your destiny and rob you of those excuses you're hanging on to.
Starting point is 00:32:07 But most importantly, there's nothing like feeling less alone on this journey of pursuing what God has given us. What I love is that this is not just a conversation about all of the things that went well. This is also a conversation of the things that didn't go so well, which is just as important because not everything we're gonna do is gonna hit the way that didn't go so well, which is just as important because not everything we're going to do is going to hit the way that we want it to hit.
Starting point is 00:32:28 But we need those moments too. Ladies and gents, woman evolve listeners. I introduce to you and present to others the doctor coach, Dr. Kimi. She's going to bless your socks off. Thank you for taking the time to talk to me. You slid into my DMs at a time where I was doing some heavy lifting and I am lifted right now.
Starting point is 00:32:52 The lifting is still heavy. But you said something that really resonated with me because you said that you could tell that there was a moment where I made a decision to not play it small and to like really own this message and to own the work required with launching Power Moves. And it really stood out to me because I was getting a lot of people who were talking about how brilliant our marketing strategy was.
Starting point is 00:33:20 And I mean, people who I really respect as knowledgeable, just telling me just like the rollout was amazing and they were making it sound a lot more intentional than it actually was because I didn't really plan it. I just was like, okay, you know what? I'm gonna get behind it and I'm gonna throw everything I have at it. And I think from the outside, sometimes we really see people moving in a lane of what may look like success and not realizing that on the other end that they've had to really kind of make a decision regardless of fear, regardless of insecurity, regardless of what
Starting point is 00:33:54 other people may think. And you got it. And when I responded back to you, you were like trying to get on the podcast. I was like, girl, it's done. So I just want to know a little bit more about like what you saw, who you are and how we can help my other sisters who are at that point where they need to make a decision to. Yeah, absolutely. Thank you so much for having me.
Starting point is 00:34:13 So I'll tell you the moment when I, I I'm not sure if that was the moment that you actually made the decision. And I'm pretty sure it was premeditated before I saw it, but I could feel it and I heard the Holy Spirit saying it to me. So it was, you did a live video and you were outside and it was before the book launch. And I could, you know, at the beginning of the live, you know, you were sharing, you were talking and I was with you.
Starting point is 00:34:42 But I just sensed this point where you said, you know, and I don't know the exact words, but I'm going to say it how I received it. You said, you know, I know that this is what God has called me to. And so I'm just going to go for it. I need y'all to come help me. I need help. Okay. I'm just gonna go for it. I need y'all to come help me. I need help Okay, and it was it was a powerful moment, but it was paired with so much vulnerability and I just remember sitting there. I was in my office and I said wow, um
Starting point is 00:35:16 Sarah's making a decision to be big Alright, like she she's she's stretching herself and I could feel you stretching yourself. And what's come to me since then is you were really stepping into, fully into your role as a kingdom citizen, as a child of God, as an heir of the promise. but how it can be hard, because we're fighting so much. We're like bucking up against societal pressures. We're bucking up against our unconscious mind. We're just a family dynamics and roles. Like there's so much that we have to push through. And I just saw you push through that. And I know you've pushed through in the past, but this felt like another level.
Starting point is 00:36:07 And I was just so grateful in that moment because what it showed me was that it's a decision, right? Being a kingdom citizen, walking in purpose, having that dominion that you talked about in your book, we have it. We have the power. We have access to it, like you said, but the decision to turn it on, the decision to flip the switch. I saw you flip the switch in that live and it just, man, it did something to me, almost at a cellular level. I was like, I was created for this. Sarah was created for this, so what's my version of turning on the
Starting point is 00:36:45 switch? And wow, I mean that was what a few weeks ago and God has just been showing up like just me deciding, seeing you do it and me deciding to turn on the switch, so much power has been flowing and I'm just I'm so grateful and even me doing the story and tagging you, that was me deciding to turn on the switch. That was me deciding to just go for it. And I didn't know what would happen. I didn't know what the response would be. I didn't even think you would see it, honestly, but that was me taking that step.
Starting point is 00:37:22 And when you immediately responded, it was like God God was like, see, like, I've got you. When you turn on the switch, like the power is flowing, you just have to turn it on. So first of all, that just like gives me such chill, such goosebumps, because there's something that I write in the book that God has power on reserve with you in mind. And many times we don't move into these roles, these opportunities, these mandates that feel bigger than us because we do not have power in our present for that future, not realizing that the power shows up when you move. And I feel like you get it. I feel like you get the message of the book.
Starting point is 00:38:04 But my insecurity in writing the book was that like, when you hear power moves, people are like, I'm gonna do something that is gonna be a power move. But I was really trying to argue this idea that power is a flow and it has to move and you have to move and you may have to get unstuck and you may have to see what has you clamped down, but if you get in this flow of power, it shows up.
Starting point is 00:38:28 And to your point, I did make a decision on the live one for many reasons. Like if you are marketing a book, you are asking people to support something that you're doing that you believe will be beneficial for them, but you're also asking them to do something which is not my strong suit. I'll do it.
Starting point is 00:38:46 I'll buy my own book. Don't worry about it. I got it. I'll write it and buy it. I'll just send it out to everyone in America. I'll just give it away. Don't worry about it. I'm not asking anyone for anything.
Starting point is 00:38:54 But then there's also this reality that it's like, if I don't stand beside what I'm doing, I'm not asking anyone for anything. I'm not asking anyone for anything. I'm not asking anyone for anything. I'm not asking anyone for anything. I'm not asking anyone for anything. I'm not asking anyone for anything. I'm not asking anyone for anything. I'm not asking anyone about it. I'm not asking anyone for anything. But then there's also this reality that it's like,
Starting point is 00:39:07 if I don't stand beside what God has given me, if I don't put the full force behind it, then I was half obedient. Like I wrote the book, but I hid it. Like I have the gift, but I don't put it out in the world. And I just didn't want to be half obedient. But I was insecure about the idea. I wasn't sure that it was going to translate.
Starting point is 00:39:28 God gave me something that felt like a unique message and I wasn't sure about it. But the only thing I knew for sure was that it came from God. And it's like, I've got to be obedient to what I believe God gave me, even if I'm not sure other people will understand it, even if I'm not sure that I was the best person to handle the message. And so I did make that decision and I feel like it's something that we all have to do is trust that there's going to be power in the yes. There may not be power in the now, but the power in the yes is going to help you navigate
Starting point is 00:40:01 whatever that season. And I just saw the grace of God showing up when I was doing these interviews and having it, like just giving me power on the spot. And I just feel like that's everyone's inheritance if we are willing to confront those things that keep us from moving in power. 100%, you know, you talk about in the book,
Starting point is 00:40:22 the TV that was on the wall. Sorry, I don't know the page number. I know I'm supposed to bring the page number. Yeah, you know they don't play. But it was toward the beginning and that visual was so incredible for me. I'm a visual person. So when you said that, I'm picturing the TV and you're right. It's not that the power wasn't available or that there wasn't access to the power. It's
Starting point is 00:40:52 just that there was something internal that had rendered it ineffective. And so I just know for myself, I'll just share a little backstory of how I even found you, if it's okay, because I think it speaks to this. I found you in 2018 after my mom passed away. So she got sick and for the past year and a half of her life was in and out of the hospital. And so I was pregnant slash had a baby trying to breastfeed,
Starting point is 00:41:23 taking care of my mom. I'm a physician, but I used to walk around the hospital being like, these people about to take away my MD, because I just felt like a failure. I woke up every day feeling like a failure. I woke up every day feeling like I just was not worthy. When my mom died after she died, I had to plan her funeral and I also had to kind of plan
Starting point is 00:41:50 and clean up like her home and get all her affairs in order. And I was sitting in her living room one day and for some reason I looked over and I saw a manila envelope. And there was stuff everywhere. I don't know why I picked up this one envelope, but the envelope stood out and it was really thick and I picked it up and I took out the pages and I noticed my mom's handwriting,
Starting point is 00:42:10 which was comforting because she had just passed. So I'm leafing through them like, what is this? Is this something I need to toss? What is this? And when I realized what it was, the weight of it just hit me like a ton of bricks. It was a book. My mother had written a book by hand. The date on it was more than 20 years prior. And she stuffed it in this envelope. But before she did, she wrote a note on the top to a friend and it said, can
Starting point is 00:42:42 you please, we were pretty poor, so we didn't have a computer when I was growing up. So she was like, can you please type this out for me? This is my manuscript that I want to publish as a book. Now the fact that the letter was on top means that she never gave it to the friend. She never told me, she never told my brother, she never told her siblings. So I'm sitting there in my mom's living room holding all her hopes, her dreams, her, and as I'm reading, I'm listening through the book, I was like, what is the book even about?
Starting point is 00:43:16 She wrote a book on weight loss because my mom had lost over 100 pounds and kept it off. I said, you didn't wanna, I needed this book,'t want to, I needed this book. So I'm sitting there holding her book and tears are streaming down my face. And I remember calling out to God and I don't know why these words came out, but I just said, I am making a decision to finally walk in my purpose. Now, someone has said that I am walking in my purpose. Now, some would have said that I am walking in my purpose. You're a whole physician, Dr. Kimme. Like, you have a family, you have a husband.
Starting point is 00:43:51 Like, everything looks good on the outside. I knew I wasn't walking in purpose because I wasn't fully walking in my power. And I wouldn't have said those words, but like, there was something inside that I just knew. And so that started the search. And that's when I found your podcast in 2018. And what I remember was seeing you as a woman of God, who was still owning every part of her,
Starting point is 00:44:16 who was owning every part of her, who was owning the failures, the mistakes, the power, the everything, and bringing her full self and being so authentic. And I just knew that that was what I was missing, right? And so over the course of the years, just, you know, leaving, you know, starting a business, like leaving my job, growing my business, pulling my kids out of school, homeschooling them, all the things I've done, it's just,
Starting point is 00:44:50 I call it a spiral staircase. You're going up the staircase, but you go to a similar spot and you're like, why am I struggling with this again? And then you rode through it and then you go up the staircase and you're at a similar stop but at a higher level, right? And so it's just me climbing to higher levels in the Lord. And when I saw you do that live, I could see like I was on the brink of something
Starting point is 00:45:16 and I didn't know what it was, but I just knew that I needed to break through because it was a little bit of like a glass ceiling. And so seeing you do it just gave me so much permission that like, yes, I can break through and he's gonna be with me. The power will be with me. It's there already.
Starting point is 00:45:37 I just need to tap into it. So this just feels like, and it feels like a full circle moment because my mom had that book that she never released. And seeing you push yourself to release that book and to do it, like you said, in a way that felt like full, 100% obedience. It felt like the Lord was speaking to me and saying, like, this is what I desire for you.
Starting point is 00:46:06 Maybe not a book, but like, you're, like, I need you. Like, there's an assignment. There's something that's connected to you. It's not even about you, Kim. Like, you have an assignment. Like, I have purposed you to do something. Like, how dare you keep yourself small to not bring me glory. And so it just made me sit up straighter and start taking those steps. And like I said, it's only been a few weeks, but I've seen so much power flowing ever since then. So thank you again. Ha ha ha.
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Starting point is 00:51:58 Apple podcasts, or wherever you get your favorite shows. I wanted to connect with you because I think oftentimes people may see my name, they may see my life and they're like, you know, maybe it's easier for her. And I think the fact that you saw it as hard was moving to me, but also the fact that you moved into it too, I think just goes to show like literally God's no respecter of person.
Starting point is 00:52:25 Like I've been telling people, there's nothing special about me that doesn't exist for you too. Like it's the same God, the same grace, the same oil, that same power is flowing in your direction. I think sometimes as women especially that we find it difficult to take up space. I think a lot of it is societal.
Starting point is 00:52:46 But I also think that there is a pride connected to not wanting to take up space because I think there's a fear that if I can't stay this big forever, then I don't want to do it at all. If I can't walk out with this boldness, then I don't want to do it at all. Where like the obedience is not staying a size. The obedience is the fluidity. The obedience is I'm big in this moment and I'm a shell of myself the next.
Starting point is 00:53:14 Like that is the power. The power is not arrogantly constantly showing up. The power is I'm human, I'm a person. And the same person who can be the strong friend can also need someone to come check on them because they're going through a depression. And if we allow ourselves to be big in our truth and big in our authenticity, not big in our pride, then I think we have the room to say I am going to write the book and yes, I'm still working through this and I'm going to do this and I'm still working through that.
Starting point is 00:53:46 And I want more than anything for us to own all of who we are, because it's going to take all of us to introduce radical change in our communities, radical change in our families and industries and God has the capacity to handle all of you. So why would we withhold? You know? That's so good. You know, I was thinking, I saw a meme and it said that when Lazarus died, Jesus cried and Jesus knew he was about to raise him from the dead.
Starting point is 00:54:20 But he still owned his humanity, like he was fully God and fully man. And he he owned that humanity and allowed himself to feel those emotions. And something that you said in your book that I talked to my clients all the time about is the fact that we we don't move or we don't go into action that we know we should, because there's something we don't want to feel. There's something we don't want to feel. What am I avoiding feeling? Yeah. Yeah, what am I avoiding feeling? And so when we show up in power that really is also paired with vulnerability, like you said, because we don't know. Right?
Starting point is 00:55:07 Like we really don't know. Like you didn't know. You were like, I hope this works. I don't know. I'm moving with faith. But like, right? So like, there's, there's a core, every time we, we have that positive emotion that's driving us forward, there is a corresponding
Starting point is 00:55:26 negative emotion that we have to allow ourselves to feel. And when we don't allow ourselves to feel that, that's when we stay stuck. That's when we stay stagnant. But Jesus modeled that so beautifully because he allowed himself to feel the sorrow. And then he stepped into action and stepped into his power. And because I just never, when I was a little girl, I was like, why do you have to tell us that Jesus cried? He's God. Like, how does that help me? Like, so I'm just supposed to be crying all the time. And so, but the pairing of the power with the vulnerability, the power
Starting point is 00:56:01 with the surrender, with the allowing, like that's really our work is to notice, like step into that emotion of power or certainty or whatever it is, but like don't avoid the vulnerability, don't avoid the, sometimes it's embarrassment, we don't wanna feel embarrassed. Yeah, for sure, right, yeah. Like if we start trying,
Starting point is 00:56:27 we don't wanna be seen trying. Right, if we start trying and then it doesn't work exactly what, like what are people gonna say? What are they gonna think? And so holding space for both emotions, I think is how you continue to grow. And like I said, it's a spiral staircase. So you'll
Starting point is 00:56:45 do it and then you'll go higher and then you'll be like, why am I dealing with this again? Like, didn't I just like work on this mindset stuff like two months ago? It's going to keep coming up because we're human and we live in a human body. But God is so faithful because he has already shown us in his word how to navigate that. So I just, Jesus, like he literally gave us everything we need. He's our perfect example. So and I just, I think that, yeah, go ahead, go ahead. No because you're, it's too much. You giving me too much to work with.
Starting point is 00:57:19 It's too much to work with. I don't know what to do about it. Okay, because like, why would you say I don't know what to do about it. Okay, because like, why would you say we don't want to be seen trying? Because is that not what it is? That's what it is. I want to do something new,
Starting point is 00:57:34 but I want to be a master when I do it. I don't want the in-between. I don't want to try. I don't want to fail. Like I want to go from you knew me here to boom, here I am there and there is no effort in between. I just did this without any problems. And I feel like we have overcomplicated our lives because we will not give ourselves permission
Starting point is 00:57:53 to try to be human to fail. And now there is so much pressure on us to stay where we are because we recognize being obedient taking that step made made me not stumble. I may not be perfect at it. I may mess up. That's why, I mean, guys, I promise you, like you got the book or you didn't get the book, but I'm going to keep talking about the book. But when I put like, know your harm in the book, it's because like I wanted us to be
Starting point is 00:58:19 able to embrace that we're going to mess this up. Like you're going to speak up for yourself and you may end up cussing someone out and you may need to apologize for cussing them out, but still be like, but also don't do that again. I didn't handle myself properly. I should have done better. But at the end of the day, my boundaries still there. Like we're going to mess this up and that is going to be okay.
Starting point is 00:58:40 It is not going to define your worth, your value. Like it's going to be okay. So I'm going to need us all to take a collective deep breath and say, you know what? I am going to try. I feel like all I want to be known as, like I had a group message with two of my friends who really helped me cultivate while I'm involved in the early stages. And literally it was called, we just be doing stuff
Starting point is 00:59:01 because I am just trying. I'm just trying. I'm just trying. I'm just trying. And I feel like my relationship with God is so much more deeper and my worship is so much more intentional and my praise is so much higher because He met me in the trying. And like, I know it was God. Like, God, I know it was you because I was just trying. I was unsure, I didn't have what it took, but I said yes anyway, and you met me in the try. We want God to meet us in the win, but we serve a God who will meet us in the trying. And if that doesn't give you some level of comfort,
Starting point is 00:59:39 some level of peace, then I don't know what to tell you because I'm literally just trying and anything that anyone can say about My accolades and achievements like the secret sauce is not whose daughter I am the secret sauce is not that I'm so smart. The secret sauce is God meets me in the tri like that's it It's oh, that's so good. He meets us in the trying. Um It's so true and that's so good. He meets us in the trying. It's so true and it's so hard when it feels like you don't have evidence for that in the past. But like, if you look back, you have evidence for that. Like you just have, you might have to dig a little bit to find it because what happens is you, there was a failure and
Starting point is 01:00:26 then you were like, see, that's why I shouldn't have done it anyway. And I'm not trying to this anymore. But like, I, God was, God is in the failure too. Like he, he's in that because what did we learn? Like what was the lesson? I think sometimes we walk away from a failure and we're like, that was a disaster. I'm never doing that again. But if we really just like slow down, like you said, took that deep breath and just reflected,
Starting point is 01:00:58 here's how I'll say it. If we believe fully that God is good, that he is, and he is love, he just is, then whatever happens to me has to be for my good, like it has to be. So that means there has to be a lesson in it. There has to be something that I'm supposed to learn from it. I did a launch at the beginning of this year,
Starting point is 01:01:24 see my brain does not want me to tell you this, Sarah, but I'ma tell you, because it's about a failure. Tell me, tell me. So I did a launch in my business in the beginning of the year. I was launching a brand new offer. I was so excited.
Starting point is 01:01:37 It was gonna be so amazing. I made no money. Zero dollars, zero. And that's never really happened before. Money, zero dollars, zero. And that's never really happened before. So my, I call her my inner cave woman. That's my amygdala. That's the part of my brain that be like, girl, what are you doing?
Starting point is 01:01:54 You know, our inner, that inner voice. So my cave woman was like, you done did it now. Everybody saw that you failed and you're a failure and she just had so much to say um but when I pause the night like after I process some emotions because listen the feelings will go y'all get you a feeling period feelings will calm okay so after I processed my disappointment And I just said to myself, okay If this was for my good What if I just believe that inherently then what was I supposed to learn from this? Um,
Starting point is 01:02:34 And what the Holy Spirit said to me was oh you made your intelligence and your ability to sell an idol He was like you didn't come to me for anything. He was like, and I want you to succeed. So that means you need to stop doing that. That was the lesson I learned from that failed launch. And that is worth more than seven or eight figures. Like my dependency and reliance on the Holy Spirit,
Starting point is 01:03:08 the fact that I learned that at this point, at this level, that's gonna carry me for the rest of my life. So even he's with us in the trying, he's with us in the failures, he's with us when we are behaving like his children, when we are reliant on him and dependent on him. He says the kingdom of heaven is like, we should be like children, right? Children, should they just be doing stuff?
Starting point is 01:03:40 They just be doing stuff. They just be doing stuff. I look at my seven-year-old and I'm like, what are you doing? She just does stuff and she just believes that it's going to work for her good. And she just believes in it. And after that, my mommy's going to give me some water and then I'm going to move on to the next thing. Like how much are we showing up like children and just believing that he's got our back?
Starting point is 01:04:02 Sorry. I know that was, I just, that was a lot. No, no, no, it was so good. It's so funny you said that because, you know, I was just doing stuff. We launched this book, I guess on the outside looking in, it looks so strategic, so brilliant, so amazing. And everything in me is like, next time I launch a book,
Starting point is 01:04:20 I'm going to verbatim do exactly this. And I already felt the Holy Spirit be like, now you know that wasn't you. So, ain't no point in you trying to make a book, I'm a verbatim do exactly this. And I already felt the Holy Spirit being like, now you know that wasn't you. So at no point in you trying to make a formula, trying to take my credit. The only thing you need to do is be sensitive next time. But it is so easy. I think especially in the culture, it's just very prevalent to want to own things, like own ideas, own images, own this mentality of like who you are and what you did. And I just feel like there's got to be this healthy balance of like, yes, I'm smart. Yes, I'm talented here.
Starting point is 01:04:59 Yes, I'm gifted there. But also, I need God to breathe on it or it's nothing. It doesn't work. I feel like that's the advantage that we have is that we can know it and still also have a healthy respect for what we don't know and a lot of room for what God wants to show us, even in what we know. So I love you. I think you're amazing. Thank you for DMing me. This
Starting point is 01:05:27 conversation like I'm smiling all throughout because I already know the girls are about to eat this up and you have to come back. You just like have to be a part of my life now. Oh, Sarah, that that means so much. Thank you for thank you for seeing me and me seeing you. Thank you for seeing me. There's something you saw in me. I'm just so much. Thank you for seeing me and me seeing you. Thank you for seeing me. There's something you saw in me. I'm just so grateful. Thank you for walking in your power because you're just giving so many of us permission
Starting point is 01:05:55 to do the same. And listen, you can't get rid of me now. I'll be there, girl. Just let me know when. I love you so much. And thank you. Thank you again. My pleasure.
Starting point is 01:06:10 I'm gonna need you to turn to your neighbor and say another one. What did I tell you? I know that this blessed you, I know it did. Make sure that you're sharing this conversation with as many people as possible because it is necessary for us to maintain our faith in the midst of transition and in the midst of what looks like failure because
Starting point is 01:06:31 there are lessons in it all. Thank you so much for joining me this week for the woman evolve podcast. I hope you had as good of a time as I did. I love creating this space with you. Thank you for creating this space with me though, where I get to be myself, where I get to share what I'm learning, growing, evolving, and hopefully make you feel less alone in the process. Thank you Dr. Kimmy for your heart, for your wisdom, for your transparency, your vulnerability. Undoubtedly, you are a gift. Listen, I'm heading out of here, but I want you to know, one, I need
Starting point is 01:07:00 to see you. Arlington, Texas, September 26th, 28th. Stop playing with me. Please, God's got something for us to do on earth, and I'm not trying to leave you behind. We are going to do everything that God has called us to do, and we are going to do it in community because we don't have to do it alone. I need to know that you're holding down your square of the kingdom, and best believe I'ma hold mine down the best that I can.
Starting point is 01:07:22 Holy Spirit, thank you so much for not just giving us breath, not just giving us life. God, but you have given us gifts and talents to reflect your glory in the earth, to open doors that allow us to spread your glory. God, help us to take seriously the keys that you have given us in our gifts and talents. Help us to take seriously the keys that you have given us in our gifts and talents. Help us to take seriously the ways that we can break chains off of people simply by saying, you know what? God, I am going to be obedient to what you have placed inside of me. God, I pray for every person on the other end of this podcast right now.
Starting point is 01:08:01 Maybe they're going into transition. Maybe they're about to activate transition in their lives. God, I pray that your presence in your spirit would meet them right now, maybe they're going into transition, maybe they're about to activate transition in their lives. God, I pray that your presence in your spirit would meet them right now, that it would comfort them, that it would allow them to feel your wisdom, your strategy, your love, and the midst of it all. I thank you for a shield of protection, a bubble being placed over them, that even as they walk through the valley of the shadow of death, that bubble being placed over them, that even as they walk through the valley of the shadow of death, that they will fear no evil
Starting point is 01:08:29 because you're gonna be with them. Thank you for your consistent faithfulness in our lives. In Jesus' name I pray, you guys have a great week. Evolve. Welcome, welcome, welcome to another exciting episode of the Trap Nerds podcast. This is not an episode. I'm pretty sure this is a promo. You know what it is. We in this piece.
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